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queenlucythevaliant · 20 days

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Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

#i did try to draw that distinction in the original post but I didn't really go into detail #mostly bc i was trying to be concise and just focus on how the church talks to sufferers #so here's the long version #pontifications and creations #only thou art holy #also side note: there was someone yesterday who responded to that post with the suggestion that suffering is generally the sufferer's fault #and it got worse from there #just an absolutely rank response that had me immediately blocking that person and googling if there was a way to remove someone's addition #idk to what degree that person is an active member of this broader christian community we've got going on here #but if you see that post (and you'll know it when you see it) please as a favor to me don't interact with it #there were some lovely responses and additions to that post yesterday too #but that one made me mad #idk. to a certain degree i wanted to vent #they're blocked now though so whatever #anyway. I've sort of been percolating on these various thoughts for a few weeks #since i went to a really fluffy women's talk on suffering #and now i kind of want to give my version #I'm far from the greatest sufferer in the world. i am well aware of that #but as I've been sick I've just done So Much Thinking and reading about theodicy and struggle with God that i feel qualified to opine #unlike the giver of that talk #anyway #tag rant over #...for now #theodicy

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emberglowfox · 10 months

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closing time

#you know situation's dire when sparks breaks out the color block sona vent art LOOOOOOOL #sparks speaks #vent #again to all my new-ish followers i do post stuff like this from time 2 time PLEASE block one of those tags if you don't want to see it #long post #edit: fine to rb idgas #ummm NEway. i go back to college in like a month and the thought of it makes me want to curl up and die. idk if i can do it again tbh lol #i dont know how i survived the first time #<- LYING he does. and it was by letting the dissociation he is currently bitching about swallow him completely #if i really committed and tried i could probably claw my way out of this. but there's really no point when i'll just fall back into it soon #the forgetting my entire life does suck though. it does suck.#its really cool learning you've lost the only thing you thought you couldn't lose.#anyways. i'm fine im chillin i just. needed to get this out #if youre reading this preciate you. drink water

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trans-axolotl · 4 months

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actually there are so many things that come up for just like, general intersex sex ed and also intersex sex work specific stuff that me and my friends have talked about that we just can't find public, easily accessible info about ANYWHERE.

like info about contraception options, like the fact that if you have two uteruses you actually would need two IUDs if that's your method of choice. or like. how hormonal birth control methods interact with intersex variations in different ways based on our existing hormonal profiles. or like. so many of the other intersex sex workers i know we needed info about how to Deal with pain from penetration bc every time we had penetrative sex it hurt so fucking much and we needed to figure out a way to make that sustainable. cause only some of us are masochists lmfao. or tips on how to have penetrative sex and diff positions and ways to use your hand as like. a bumper so that your partner's penis doesn't go all the way in and how to sort of maneuver that without your client necessarily seeing. or the fact that they make toys for that now. or like sex ed for okay, what barrier methods do you have when you have a micropenis/clitoromegaly, what do you do if condoms are too large. how do you use an internal condom if you don't have a cervix.

and also like. i've talked a lot with intersex sw friends about how many of us have to purposefully market ourselves as a hermaphrodite and how much that fucks with our head. and like, trying to figure out how and when we disclose to our clients--do we hope that they just don't notice or that we just stick to oral or like. do we tell them upfront? which is the lowest risk of violence? me and so many of my intersex sw friends have gotten hurt really fucking bad by clients who got upset that we were intersex and it's just. like. there's just so much shit and unless we find each other it's really fucking hard to figure a lot of this shit out, especially for fssw. especially for younger sw.

i just want there to be more resources and for it to be easier for intersex sw to find each other and support each other because like, even as much as my trans sw friends have been the people who have come closest to Getting it. there's still a lot of shit that is so intersex specific that i just really want to talk to other intersex people about. and i'm so glad i do have intersex sw friends now but it's like. i didn't have any of that community or knowledge when i Really most needed it

#personal #sw #intersexism tw #h slur tw #sex ed #actuallyintersex #vent #sex work is work #i think that's my tag for sw stuff on this blog #also if anyone starts saying whorephobic swerf shit on this post i will make fun of you and block you #me complaining about things does not mean i want to criminalize sex work. like. cmon

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a-substantial-trash-pile · 12 days

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i feel very not good today. i just quit a job just 3 days in for the first time. even though part of it was things outside of my control, i feel so disappointed in myself. i feel so guilty about just leaving on some of these people because it wasn’t the fault of everyone there that i’m leaving. i hope i’m not screwing them over too much. i’m just really not meant for any place in the medical field. i’m really not meant for people. i just want to work outside with nature and animals. :( i hope i can find somewhere i belong soon. one that doesn’t make me feel sad or scared. i wish money wasn’t real and we didn’t have to worry about it.

#trash rants #to new followers ‘trash rants’ is the tag i use for when i post things like this #so please block the tag so you don’t see this #it just kind of helps me to vent like this into the ether #where people don’t know your face or necessarily know you

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saitoakirachan-fangirls · 25 days

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the tragedy of seeing la/bru get popular when it's my no 1 dungeon meshi notp among the viable ships and I want to go up to anime onlies and shake them while crying that if they just wait for a bit longer there's going to be an even better ship pls don't do this to me I can't take it but I know I can't do this because that would be so stupid and annoying and "ship and let ship" and shipping is only a matter of different tastes but god that's my otp vs my notp there how am I supposed to live peacefully when every day la/bru gets posted into the main tag without the ship tag while half of my ship isn't even animated yet like imagine if lai/mar blew up instead of farcille like wtf I would kill someone

#btw if you accidentally encounter this while being a la/bru enjoyer #I tag all my la/bru posts with this exact slash #same to lai/mar fans #block it because none of them will be positive sorry #dm #kabumisu #la/bru #ship bashing #vent #akira original #mine #lai/mar

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deepdean-detectives · 5 months

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wild-moss-art · 8 months

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The problem with twitter is that it will put the most aggressive and alienating fe3h discourse on your feed dated today even though it's 2023???

#get a grip #wake up open twt close twt hours #might delete my twt tbh #i do not understand why people must attack anyone who interprets the game differently. its really fine #i just dont even wanna see it. i have like every blog tht posts discourse blocked here #at least im not the target of the dogpile ykykyk #vent #discourse #idk what to even tag this i post so little abt diacourse lmfao

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sttoru · 10 months

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ima tell u this now : if u hate on x reader fics, block me cus by doing that you r doing us both a great favour 🤚🏽 ion need any of ur negativity on my blog because this is a safe space for people who do enjoy x reader fics goodbye

#𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆.#im gonna vent a bit in tags so ignore #bcs ive seen like two hate posts on x reader w a lot of interaction #and ima say this #leave ppl alone … maybe.. idk? like to each their own #its not that hard to block people if you don’t like their content #i swear we x reader writers wont even mind or notice if u do #we’d be so glad if u just block us completely #like god bless u for taking out the negativity (you) from our blog #i might not like oc fics but do u see me hating on them?? no bcs i just scroll past them #sometimes i even read them bcs thers no harm in trying out different things #and some of them are rlly good !!!#but ay just leave ppl be and stop acting stupid n pathetic 😟…#ofc everyone should tag their posts accordingly #i do too #but can u blame ppl for enjoying what they read?#ik some of u dislike it bcs reader is most likely written as a petite white female #but the x reader fics im reading dont have such descriptions added at all #yall just looking at the wrong stuff #but maybe its bcs i follow mainly poc / black writers 🤷🏽‍♀️#anyway i love when i can insert myself in fics and feel appreciated idk abt yall #but hating on ppls enjoyments is a bit.. childish #i thought we left that behind #and grew up #but okk!! do what u gotta do ig #main point: block x reader tags + the writers you come across #u r doing both of us a HUGE favour 😋 !#tw discourse #tw vent #cw vent

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tea-cat-arts · 2 months

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Star Rail players who complain about sapphics being in the game are like people who order broccoli and cheddar soup and then complain that there are vegetables in it

#honkai star rail #vent post #this is more me complaining about comments I've seen on Instagram. idk what the tumblr conversations look like #cuz this site is both gayer and easier to block tags on #but anyways- do these people just like... not know a single thing about hi3???#cuz sapphics have always been a part of this universe #heck I'd even argue that sapphic characters are what made mihoyo successful as a company in the first place #wild that people expect mihoyo to just kick us out now that they're famous #anyone who complains about two grown ass adults being shipped is a clown #(no i am not complaining about people who just don't like a ship and complain to their friends)#(as long as you leave fans of the ship alone I'm fine with you)

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deoidesign · 1 year

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Me when time and time again finally comes back from hiatus

#sorry this is just a shitpost.#shitposts #uhhhh #I'll tag stuff like this as 'shitposts' hows that #so that you can block them if you wanna #ever since getting suspended on twitter I've decided. fuck that site.#I'll be posting a lot more regular here #for all the little memes and sketches I do #rather than just illustrations #but I make liberal use of tags so you can filter out whatever you want!#I'll tag uhmmm sketches. memes. text posts. rambles. vents. etc... so. should stay p organized and p blockable #ttawebcomic #time and time again

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beevean · 2 months

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Some other thoughts, because I cannot and will not shut up.

This is Hector and Isaac's very second scene in the show. Hector ends up staring at Dracula's fireplace: he reminisces of his abusive parents, and how he set his house on fire with them inside. This immediately tells us, along with Dracula's speeches, what kind of person Hector is: despite his apparent softness that we'll see later on, he can be ruthless enough to kill, or at the very least punish, those who have wronged him.

Much later, Hector has been brought to the lowest point of his life. He's listening as the woman he has given his heart to is gleefully humiliating him in front of her sisters, describing in detail how he's going to be treated as a tool, as a dildo, as a pet, and only because he trusted the wrong person. Multiple times, in fact. He has been hurt by one too many people.

And by the time Hector's fate is sealed, the fireplace acts as the framing.

Basic cinematic symbolism indicates that Hector's backstory would be become relevant in the next season. As a child, he killed his abusers. And now he's in the clutches of two other people who abused his trust and good nature and stripped him of all freedom and dignity.

So, was Hector meant to set the entire castle on fire, and kill Carmilla and Lenore for what they did to him? And then it was changed to make the season artificially happier? Would it have been the narratively more sensible course of action?

Well, not necessarily. As fun as it is to imagine Hector taking revenge on those two pieces of shit, subversion of expectations can still be done well. And, to be fair, while Hector did kill his parents and is certainly not above murder in general, he seems to not be inherently violent in nature, even against someone who hurt him:

Carmilla has lied to him, insulted him, and coerced him into indirectly killing his master. He still speaks to her very candidly.

From what was shown until S3, Hector needs to be pushed to his absolute limit before he starts considering violence, but once he does, he has no mercy. The most obvious proof is his disastrous attempt to threaten Lenore:

Yeah, as ill thought as this was, I don't blame him for being this desperate, after the torture he was recently put through. From a certain perspective, it would have been nice to see a recreation of this scene, but with a Hector acting smarter, having learned from his mistakes.

However, to be honest, I don't think that seeing such a gentle character being brought to horrific violence would have been cathartic. It would have been tragic. It would have been actually a bad thing, a reason to be scared and to pity him. And it still wouldn't have addressed his utter apathy when it comes to keeping humans in a cage: hell, that act would have made him as bad as Isaac in S3.

With that being said, I will never, ever, accept how he was written after that scene.

I'm going to use an excellently written show to talk about the difference between taking the high road, and forgiveness.

Our good horseman here has been abused since infancy by his utter monster of a mother, who delighted in making him feel guilty for daring to be alive. Long story short, she is now old, weak, and senile to the point where she can't recognize him anymore. Bojack is planning to finally vent all of his anger for all she did to him, as soon as she's lucid enough - and who could blame him? By this point, no one would shed a tear for a woman who did her very best to ruin her son's life. Hell, some might have cheered when he more or less bullied her by "killing" her doll. No mercy for an abuser, right?

However, in a brilliant display of foreshadowing, the audience is made to suspect that Bojack won't actually get to tell his mother off. He already wasted the seasonal F-bomb here! And there are no freebies. So what's going to happen? Will Bojack simply be prevented from finally facing the woman who ruined his life, deprived by outside circumstances of the catharsis he needs?

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No. He does it himself.

Right when he has Beatrice where he wants, in a terrible retirement home and finally lucid enough to recognize her son... right after she has committed her last unforgivable act and secretly poisoned Hollyhock with appetite suppressants until she overdosed... Bojack chooses to not hurt her.

He could have. She would have listened to him. The viewers would have understood. But instead, the last moment Bojack could talk with his mother is used to soothe her confusion and fear, and give her a comforting vision where she can feel loved and like everything is alright.

Bojack is not one to do selfless acts without getting anything in return, and he doesn't know anything about her terrible past that we viewers have witnessed through the episode that explain why she was so bitter towards her son: so this act of pity towards the person he hates the most in his life speaks wonders of his character and growth.

But he did not forgive her. The entirety of Free Churro is dedicated to Bojack's painful eulogy of Beatrice, where he makes clear that he still resents her, and the only reason he's sorry for her death is that now he knows that he has lost the chance to have a good relationship with the one who was supposed to care about him.

Beatrice was shown wanting to reconnect with Bojack, almost as an apology. But even if her personality didn't got in the way of a proper reconcilement, nothing she could have done would have made up for the pain she caused Bojack, and he's right in still remembering her as a cruel person. But still, we remember that one moment of kindness he gave her as one of the most powerful scenes in a powerful story, for the build-up and for the significance it has for both characters.

Bojack Horseman did a wonderful job in exploring the complicated feelings that arise from being a victim of abuse. It's not just hatred and desire for revenge: there is a deeper connection, and care despite everything, and regret, and longing, and wishful thinking, and all sorts of uncomfortable feelings that are hard to explain to someone on the outside.

Needless to say that Netflixvania only wishes it could have reached the heights of Bojack Horseman, and Hector is not conflicted about Lenore. He's not anything. He shows no tension when he talks with her as if they were friends (it's the very first scene we see with them after Hector cried over being made a slave in S3); he shows no resentment when he talks about the ring that she forced on him to make him a useful tool, as he was a mere "problem to be solved"; his one attempt to address what Lenore did to him is brushed off as a sick joke that he takes in stride; he shows no confusion in his attempts to reconcile the Lenore who talks to him like someone worthy of respect with the Lenore who sadistically took advantage of his vulnerability to trap him. And needless to say, Lenore doesn't exactly get a good justification as to why she thought to resort to rape by deception to get her way, leaving fans to scramble to find one that still leaves her sympathetic enough.

It's only when Isaac storms the castle that Hector finally shows the slightest twinge of resignation when he cages Lenore to allow him to do his thing, but also to protect the woman who apparently protected him as well. Only now there is emotion in his voice, care and regret at the same time. Once more, much like Alucard killing Dracula, it's a big emotional payoff to nothing - worse than nothing, even.

Hector leaving Lenore alive, even protecting her from Isaac, could have been him taking the high road. Instead of going on a rampage like subtly implied by the framing, he could have shown her pity, for understanding that for all her cruelty and manipulation, she too was just a pawn in Carmilla's insane scheme (admittedly the parallel intended by the narrative, but not addressed enough). It would have fit with the general idea that revenge is for children (the development that was given to Isaac), and perhaps, in a way, we can consider it the fitting punishment for Lenore: being precisely being forced to live and see what exactly she has become. If written well, the subversion of the revenge ending could have been brilliant, and poignant.

But there's nothing there, except some shallow banter wasted on Carmilla and dick jokes and some flat voice acting. There is no inner turmoil. Hector just likes Lenore for no proper reason, which, if we pretend the writing was not a rushed mess, implies that he forgave her off screen and now everything is all peachy between them. As if what Lenore did was that easy to forgive. And if it was that easy, regardless of whether it was forgivable or not, then why should I be impressed?

It doesn't speak of Hector's supposed good nature. It's not an admirable act of strength. The choice to let go was not pondered, because it was apparently never a choice. We are eventually left with a nothing narrative, one that doesn't address the events of the previous season except in the form of a joke, one that doesn't allow the characters to grow but rather to regress (because remember, Hector's big badass moment of trapping Lenore and cutting his finger is in the context of him wanting to bring back Dracula and letting himself be killed by Isaac), one that doesn't explore the complicated relationship between a kind mistress and her well-treated pet that was deceived into imprisonment, and one that offers no catharsis whatsoever when it comes to the end, where Lenore kills herself out of nowhere and Hector lets her go after at most one second of hesitation (I have my idea on how that scene should have went - oh look, another comparison with BH :P). And we're left with accidental but vile apologism, instead of the nuanced tale about abuse that we could have had. It would have been so easy, even with the time restraints.

And it wasn't even intentional. It's just sloppy writing hailed as something deeper than it actually is.

(I keep reading in the comment people who gush about Hector showing compassion to Lenore, instead of comparing Carmilla lying to her to Lenore lying to him. I get the parallel and I get the superficial sweetness. This story should not have happened after petty rape by deception: remove that, and all the bonding suddenly makes sense. I want to fix it so badly.)

#Youtube #anti netflixvania #i think i should tag these posts as anti l/h #although i don't want it to appear in the tag #i'm sorry but brain keeps braining and i feel the need to vent #again i understand if i am blocked or told that i am repetitive lol #i'm just so fascinated by this type of story and the dissonance between how it was written and the reception makes me explode #i want to see what you guys see! i can't!#btw i could have used su as another example #but i already feel too cringe and i have made my point i think #long post #sorry sorry i keep saying the same things i am aware

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