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below the cut is a full plotting/starter call for the mini event! all info is there, as well as everyone's outfits linked on their names! if you'd like to plot, drop a like, and if you request starters, make sure to specify or i won't write them! i'm capping at 3 per muse right now, but that may change depending on how things go. i also just put people as going together if we said they'd be spending the holiday together, but if things have changed, feel free to shoot me a message!

abigail mckinnon - blind date with zoe rivas

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

abi exists on 'i'm here for a good time not for a long time', so she's getting messy drunk, flirting up a storm, and going home with someone. whether or not it's her date is up to said date

owed starters (1/3) cleo mckinnon

ahsoka tano - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

ahsoka is expecting winter and leia to be drunk, and while part of her wants to supervise, the other part wants to get drunk with them. and i know which part of her is going to win out, unfortunately. #getthespacesistersdrunk2k24

owed starters (1/3) hera syndulla

allana solo - going with sella palpatine

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

as per usual, allana is spending the night with their girlfriend, though she might not avoid her family as much as she has at recent events. they're on edge, knowing how these things sometimes go, but she's determined to have a good time anyways

owed starters (0/3)

ariana dumbledore - going with ben solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

girl has three kids under age three. any excuse for a night out is being taken. won't be getting messy drunk but will definitely be enjoying herself and exploring as much as she can of the place

owed starters (1/3) ben solo

arlecchino - going with columbina

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

she's here to keep up an image and because columbina wanted to go. she'll be her usual snooty rich self, but that's nothing new. she's definitely open to chatting, but she's not as personable as one might hope

owed starters (1/3) columbina

bail organa - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

bail mostly attends these sorts of things as part of being a politician more than actually enjoying them, but he does often find himself having a little bit of fun. he will be picking his daughter off the floor though

owed starters (1/3) winter celchu

bela dimitrescu - going with dorcas meadowes

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

bela is mostly flirting with dorcas, but she is naturally a bit of a flirt, especially if she's hungry, so that is an option as well. she's also not opposed to causing a bit of toruble if the idea is appealing enough to her

owed starters (2/3) dorcas meadowes, cassandra dimitrescu

bryce quinlan - going with hunt athalar

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

bryce exists on the principle of 'if she's gotta be royalty she's going to be annoying as hell about it at formal events' so she will be enjoying herself and being extra as hell, come join her in her menace behavior

owed starters (3/3) hunt athalar, lidia cervos, lexi branson

cassidy mendes - going with evan afton

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

cassidy has literally never been to a party that wasn't at freddy fazbear's, and she's definitely curious and a little excited. she's not entirely sure how to be human, but she's hyped to try it out

owed starters (0/3)

cassie lang - blind date with tifa lockhart

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

cassie may legitimately be trying to climb the skeleton in the bone hall, we'll see if she succeeds at that particular endeavor. otherwise, she'll be in the middle of everything, making sure everyone around her has a blast

owed starters (2/3) tifa lockhart, james sirius potter

danika barnes - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

danika does not trust events here, and is probably going to be pretty cagey the first few hours, keeping an eye on things more than enjoying herself, so if someone wants to drag her into enjoying herself, go for it

owed starters (1/3) bucky barnes

davina claire - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

honestly, davina is more interested in the museum exhibits than she is the ball itself, but she'll still come for a dance or two. she does love music, and will have a good time with both aspects

owed starters (2/3) hope mikaelson, amara

dewey riley - going with gale weathers

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

if you see them drinking more than he should, keep your mouth shut thank you. he's a mess, and is aware of that, but isn't much inclined to fix it. just let them have fun for now thanks so much

owed starters (2/3) samantha carpenter, tatum riley

eleni vanserra - going with helion

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

honestly, eleni loves going to parties, but it's been a long time since she's gotten to have fun at one, so she intends to actually let loose a little and enjoy herself. please help her with that

owed starters (2/3) helion, aurora

elphaba thropp - going with glinda upland

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

glinda told her that they were going to spend valentine's together to make up for last year and elphaba is incapable of saying no to glinda, so she's here and trying to make the best of it

owed starters (0/3)

eula lawrence - going with amber

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

eula does not like parties and balls. she grew up in high society and hated every second of it, but she worries that amber will go either way and things will go wrong, so she's here and mad about it. she does love dancing though, so maybe she'll loosen up a bit

owed starters (1/3) amber

eveline winters - going with rue green

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

evie is a bit of a freak, and will absolutely be lurking in a corner for a lot of the party, just kind of observing people. she could definitely be dragged out to participate, but she is just kind of there. watching

owed starters (0/3)

feng xin - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

i honestly don't even know if he's actually intentionally flirting or he's just like that, but if anyone femme presenting actually approaches him, he'll scream. i'm not kidding. maybe less so when he gets drunk, we shall see

owed starters (2/3) mu qing, tara carpenter

feyre archeron - going with rhysand

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

she has honestly started really enjoying parties since coming to the night court and no longer needing to be involved in planning them. and now that her mate is back with her, she'll be much less mopey

owed starters (2/3) amren, lucien vanserra

glimmer belcourt - blind date with luca paguro

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

glimmer's whole personality is acting like a spoiled princess, so while she does want to dance with people, she will be waiting for someone to invite her rather than the other way around, i'm so sorry for her

owed starters (0/3)

greg - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

has greg perhaps brought his pet frog to this? uncertain, but he's definitely talking to his pocket. truly though his main concern is figuring out what's going on with his brother and beatrice

owed starters (1/3) beatrice

hallie parker - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

look hallie is here to have a good time on government money. she'll flirt with anyone she deems attractive, and drag people into dances and on little mini adventures. she's honestly down for pretty much anything tonight

owed starters (0/3)

hazel levesque - blind date with luz noceda

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

hazel mostly signed up for a blind date so her brother would sign up, honestly, but they're optimistic that it will still be a little bit of fun. and if it's not, she is willing to cause trouble

owed starters (2/3) nico di angelo, willa lykensen

he chunyu - going with azriel

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

she's never been to a party like this, but she's very excited, especially with the recent revelations about her brother. she needs a distraction more than anything right now, and this is right up her alley

owed starters (0/3)

howl jenkins pendragon - going with sophie

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

howl definitely has some trauma from the last ball she went to, but is determined to have a good time anyways, so here he is, the life of the party as per usual. honestly will drag anyone into any activity they are so social it's painful

owed starters (0/3)

james potter - going with lily evans

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

another one who may be trying to climb the dinosaur skeleton. but really, valentine's is the holiday for simps, and james potter is simp number one, so this is his night! catch him having a blast and reminding everyone how great his wife is

owed starters (0/3)

james witherdale - going with victoria sutherland

drinking (not alcohol) || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

he only goes to these because victoria gets a kick out of them, and they're an easy way to get a snack if he hasn't hunted in a while. so... probably avoid him unless his eyes are red, honestly

owed starters (2/3) adeline witherdale, anne sutherland

jin zixuan - going with jiang yanli

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

zixuan is here because his wife and friends are here, but he does kind of enjoy social events once he forces himself to go to them, so he'll definitely loosen up a bit once he's gotten used to it and had a drink

owed starters (2/3) jin guangyao, jiang yanli

jun wu - going with mei nianqing

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

current version of jun wu is honestly pretty personable, so he's definitely open to meeting new people, but is probably going to spend a lot of time checking out the museum as well. he'll be pretty easy to drag into a drink or a dance as well, though

owed starters (0/3)

kore sekkari - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

kore is going to have a blast spending a night drinking and dancing on the government's dime. she's also not opposed to leaving with someone if the mood strikes her, she's got no real plans for this beyond have fun

owed starters (1/3) alyla vane

korra - going with asami sato

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

korra is very high energy, and really should not be given access to events like this. but she will be fun to spend time with, and probably will walk out with a few new friends just off of drunken shenanigans

owed starters (0/3)

kriya dura - going with kaiden monsula

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

she enjoys a nice party, especially with free drinks and snacks. getting an opportunity for another date with the cute guy she's been seeing is just a bonus. catch her actually enjoying herself for once in her life

owed starters (2/3) kaya dura, kaiden monsula

lan wangji - going with wei wuxian

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

bro does not drink because he takes one sip and acts a fool, nor does he really enjoy social events. i'm so sorry for him but he will just be vibing on his own as soon as his husband leaves to talk to someone else

owed starters (1/3) wei wuxian

li susu - going with tantai jin

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

this isn't entirely susu's scene, but it's a night out with her husband, and she so rarely gets those, so there's no reason for her to turn it down. she'll likely have a good time once she's there, she's just a little bit grumpy

owed starters (0/3)

liu mingyan - blind date with lettie hatter

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

mingyan isn't really sure what to do at these sorts of things, but she's intrigued enough to give it a shot, and maybe meet someone new as a result. if it's terrible, at least she gets an interesting experience to write about, right?

owed starters (1/3) lettie hatter

lorcan salvaterre - going with elide lochan

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

he is only here because of elide. though the rumors he keeps hearing about these things going wrong have him very on edge. he's keeping an eye on elide and aelin, and beyond that don't expect much of him

owed starters (0/3)

lumine - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

honestly, she always feels a little out of place at things like this, but she can certainly enjoy herself. she loves dancing, so will absolutely be able to be dragged out on to the dance floor very easily

owed starters (0/3)

lyra ayala - blind date with mouse honrada

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

lyra hasn't been to a party in a while, and it shows. she's gonna be a bit awkward to start, but once you get her out of her shell? she's a blast to be around. she loves music, so this will be a great time for her

owed starters (0/3)

lysandra ennar - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

she's honestly pissed about this. she was planning on a fun night, but their unaware husband has shown up with someone else, so she's just white knuckling a champagne glass and bitching to her best friend

owed starters (2/3) evangeline ennar, aedion ashryver

manon blackbeak - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

girl is trying to rizz a prince at this thing, tba on if it will work. but he's not here with someone else, so she's content enough to not cause problems on purpose. will she be pleasant? unsure. but after a few drinks she might loosen up

owed starters (0/3)

marinette dupain-cheng - going with adrien agreste

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

mari is incredibly friendly and also incredibly awkward, so if she trips over her own feet please just be kind and help her up. i promise she just wants to meet some new people and have a nice time

owed starters (2/3) shen zechuan, adrien agreste

mj jones - going with peter parker

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

mj loves observing people and their habits, so she's honestly having a blast in her corner watching people dance and flirt and whatever else they're doing. but she will also likely join for a dance or two, why not, right?

owed starters (1/3) peter parker

mo ran - going with chu wanning

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

this is the first thing he's gone to with chu wanning, so he's in simp mode above all else, but he is generally very charismatic and sociable, so he'll go poke around the museum and get in to trouble with pretty much anyone

owed starters (1/3) chu wanning

mobei-jun - going with shang qinghua

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

he is not much of a social person, but will ultimately be polite if someone starts a conversation with him first. he's really just looking for the first possible chance to politely leave

owed starters (1/3) shang qinghua

nangong jingnu - going with qi yan

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

jingnu is an absolute lightweight, and will be messy drunk very early into the evening if she's not stopped after like two drinks. but she's a fun time even sober, and very much enjoys parties and formal events

owed starters (1/3) qi yan

nesryn faliq - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

nesryn is not a dancer, but she will chat and explore. she's definitely curious about the museum and wants to see what she can spot while there's much more lack security than usual

owed starters (0/3)

nie mingjue - going with lan xichen

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

mingjue is ultimately a kind of stiff guy, but he does like social functions and is kind of surprisingly fun. he'll drink and party like anyone else, he'll just always have one eye out for any kind of trouble or danger

owed starters (0/3)

qi rong - going with xuan ji

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

i mean... this is a psychotic cannibal. i don't know what you want from me here. he's going to cause problems on purpose and no one should be shocked about that very obvious fact

owed starters (0/3)

renesmee cullen - blind date with tahiri veila

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

ness is here to party and that's it. she will be getting a bit messy drunk, but don't tell her parents or their aunts and uncles thank you very much. they don't want to have that conversation right now

owed starters (1/3) alice cullen

rhiannon matthias - going with andarna

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

rhi is now fully aware, and kind of having a freak out about having asked out her best friend's dragon. but they're also not unhappy to be out with andarna so? it's an awkward time but they're trying to have fun. and if that fails she'll go out the window

owed starters (2/3) violet sorrengail, andarna

ryden samos - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

bro is not thrilled with his current romantic situation, but he was invited to this thing, and he figured why not give it a shot? he's just gonna be trying not to brood, maybe meet some new people if he can and avoid his problems

owed starters (0/3)

sheev palpatine - going with astraea illen

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

officially he's drinking, but the man's actually had the same glass of champagne all night. he does not get drunk, it's bad for both his image and his paranoia. will definitely dance and talk to people though

owed starters (3/3) leia organa, samara palpatine, sabina palpatine

shen qingqiu - going with luo binghe

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

my guy is a mess, and the last time he went to one of these, he got messy drunk and exposed his entire secret backstory. will that prevent him from drinking at this party? definitely not. good luck bro

owed starters (1/3) liu qingge/sha hualing

shi wudu - going with samara palpatine

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

shi wudu is a bit of a stuck up ass, so he's definitely the type to judge people while drinking over actually having fun at an event, but he's not entirely opposed to company for that particular activity

owed starters (1/3) shi qingxuan

thanatos - going with zagreus

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

than is ultimately just not a social creature, and they will absolutely be in a corner observing and chatting with whoever approaches them more than anything else. they're perfectly comfortable here, just very much an introvert

owed starters (1/3) syrena cordella

wen qing - going with jiang cheng

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

wen qing is awkward at best at parties, but she's surrounded by people who enjoy them, so they try her best to have fun and enjoy themself. a few drinks in and they'll be a lot more fun, i promise

owed starters (0/3)

xaden riorson - going with violet sorrengail

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

he showed up an hour late. do not ask why. xaden's pretty stiff at formal events, honestly, but he'll have drink or two and people watch from his corner. the only way you're getting him to really have fun though is if you're one of his friends or his girlfriend

owed starters (0/3)

xiao lanhua - going with dongfang qingcang

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

girl loves a party, and will be interacting with literally every random person she can. they're having a great time, and will probably get just the wrong side of messy drunk unless someone stops them

owed starters (0/3)

xiao qing - blind date with rose hathaway

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

honestly, they signed up because they thought a blind girl going on a blind date would be funny. she's a menace, but knows how to have a good time and will probably try to interact with a bunch of new people

owed starters (1/3) rose hathaway

ziva desilijic tiure - flying solo

drinking || dancing || general chatting || exploring the museum || people watching || snacking in the corner || flirting || looking for an out || chaos

ziva is in her element at things like this, she honestly could almost be called hedonistic, and will be dancing and flirting like there's no tomorrow. they're here to have fun and maybe bring someone home, nothing else

owed starters (1/3) zash baen

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lover-of-mine · 8 months

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I'm here to argue my case about how Eddie fell first and has in fact been semi-aware of his feelings since season 3 and it's currently dealing with the way he thinks he'll have to be the best man on Buck's wedding. So sit down, buckle up, grab your delusional drink of choice (today I'm drinking my delusional tea lol), and let's go.

Okay, given season 6 information, we know Buck and Eddie are roughly the same age and we know Eddie was pursued by Bobby and Bobby wanted a partner for Buck (unrelated but Bobby so hoped the military guy would balance out Buck and for a while there he ended up with two very impulsive firefighters and he definitely had a few what the hell have I done moments lol) so it's kinda safe to assume that Buck was one of the selling points of the 118 because Buck is a very competent firefighter and they would be on the same shift. So Eddie went in with the expectation of someone his age he could befriend. I'm making some assumptions but the internet tells me the academy takes a year, we know Eddie still doesn't have a permanent childcare plan, so this man is interacting outside of the academy exclusively with his 7 yo, his abuela, and tia for a year, so I think that the idea of having a friend his own age was appealing to him. Especially after the army and Shannon leaving him. So much so that with his sharp edges, you can actually read things like "I'd go lower" or "you're in the wrong light, man" as attempts to create a bond, very awkward I haven't tried to make friends in forever attempts but attempts nonetheless because he's trying to be helpful. Buck is being Buck, but even Eddie says I hear you're a good guy, so dude is trying to understand what's happening, what's setting Buck off, and while he matches Buck's energy after the gym conversation, he actually continues to try and bond with Buck with the thing that actually works and the "you're badass under pressure" that is still another attempt to get through to Buck. I have various theories about the way Eddie keeps trying to start something, the one I like the most and the most painful one is about how Eddie has had the weight of the world on his shoulders forever. And he had to grow up really fast, and then there is Buck annoying him about nicknames and discussing his body fat percentage, and with all that really carefree energy season 1 and beginning of season 2 Buck had that he probably wanted to know what it felt like. But Buck is Buck and Buck also wanted a friend so dude imprinted on Eddie like a baby duck. But Eddie doesn't mind, like before Bobby comes in to say who got the spot on the calendar, Eddie looks amused by Buck not annoyed. But up until now, that's casual. They're coworkers.

Then we have the earthquake. We know Christopher is Eddie's whole world and he's very careful about the people he lets into their life, considering the earthquake happened on Maddie's first day on the floor and she must've had some sort of training before that, it's safe to assume that Eddie didn't mention Chris at the firehouse for at least a few weeks and he is very hesitant to tell Buck about him, but again Buck is Buck and he switches into reassurance mode and that's when Eddie actually lets him in. I actually would love it if we had an explanation as to why Buck drove Eddie to Chris' school after the shift, but it's something that he went from being hesitant to even mention he existed to introducing Buck to him. But then we have the moment Buck becomes his ride-or-die, you imprinted on me but now I'm hanging on to you, with the whole going to the hospital with him because of abuela and also the way that Buck clears Chris staying at the firehouse before Eddie thinks to do it.

This moment right here it's what gets Eddie. He's ready to apologize and justify and he doesn't have to because Buck stepped up to do something simply because he realized Eddie needed help and he could do something about it. Eddie is doing everything alone and he needs help but he doesn't know how or who to ask for it and Buck just steps in and does it before he needs to ask. And then there's Carla. Buck tricks him into showing up and literally hands him the solution to his problems because Buck knows Eddie wouldn't accept it if Buck had said what that was about beforehand, but at no point does Buck make it seem like Eddie is a bad parent for needing help. And I think with the whole thing with his parents trying to take Chris from him, that really does something.

I really like to use the second gif here as a major example of Eddie's heart eyes for Buck, but the first one, when he realizes who Carla is and what she can give him completely changes his demeanor. He was ready to be polite, was probably trying to figure out a way out without saying he was still married, but instead, Buck does something that not only makes Eddie's life easier but makes Christopher's exponentially better. And right then, Eddie is done for. I'm not saying he fell in love with Buck here, I'm just saying right here is when Eddie goes you're stuck with me now dude, and let his guard down with Buck, as much as this Eddie can at least. That's when something starts for him. You can't change my mind on this one. But for now, there's the Shannon of it all, because Eddie does love Shannon but their relationship is beyond complicated.

But Buck is still constant through Shannon and I think that's important, actually, because Eddie is having trouble trusting Shannon and I feel like having Buck around helps him not go straight to the worst-case scenario all the time. I don't have a point in mentioning this, it's just a clear show of how much Eddie already trusts Buck, but to have Buck go with him to take Chris to see Santa is so wild. Who takes their best friend to see Santa with their kid? Like, what?? But Isn't it interesting that Eddie decides to propose again after Buck asks when is the wedding? I find that fascinating really. Then Shannon dies, Buck almost dies, dude goes into move past it mode but the seed is there. Forever thinking about the wistful shot of Eddie saying almost after Hen says things are back to the way they should be. Something else about the finale it's that it's the first in the list of irrationality moments from Eddie regarding Buck. Eddie is a firefighter, he's objectively stronger than Chimney, so the logical thing to be done is to have Eddie helping lift the truck and Chim treating Buck. But no, at that moment he's a medic who's there to hold Buck's hand. He's just holding Buck's hand. He could've left Buck with Hen and go help lift the truck. But no, he's staying by Buck's side.

But season 3 is when things HAPPEN. We start out strong with the sheer excitement on Eddie's face that Buck is going back to work. Then the way Eddie just hands Christopher over to Buck without a single worry. "Oh, you're falling apart? Here's a kid, he will help" and just goes. We focus a lot on Buck's reaction to them finding Chris because it is what the show wants us to focus, this is the moment Buck looks at Chris and goes "shit I really love that kid" but Eddie looking back at Buck as he holds Chris is interesting. Eddie just went through 30 seconds (actually it's 1 minute 4 seconds from the moment Eddie notices Buck to Eddie having Chris in his arms not that it matters) of the worst possible moments in a parent's life and I guess, since Buck didn't have Chris, and Buck was too shaken to explain what had happened, he assumed Buck lost Chris during the first wave and he's looking back because he's shocked he saved not only himself but Chris from the wave, but from his focus to shift to Buck like that it's interesting. Even more, considering the way he barges into the loft to hand Chris over again. "There's nobody in this world I trust with my son more than you" I'm sorry, there's no platonic explanation for the wording of this, okay? This is a man who looked at his honest to god wife, the mother of his child, and said "I can forgive you, I'm just not sure I can trust you" and trust is always the thing Eddie struggles with. To trust someone with Christopher is Eddie's ultimate show of love because it's what makes sense with his character, he is loyal until it kills him but nothing goes above Christopher. Also, Mr. Kids are signs hands over his own child to someone and I'm not supposed to look at that and go "huh wonder what he's feeling"? And there's the lawsuit of it all. Eddie gets that mad because he misses Buck and has no idea what to do with it. Because he got used to being a priority to Buck and he cannot handle the idea that maybe he's not. He's struggling, Chris is struggling and he needs Buck to do the thing he does where he fixes the problem without Eddie having to ask. But Buck has no real responsibility to Eddie or Chris, you can't really expect your best friend to base his life decisions on what's best for you. But it is the expectation Eddie has. He needs Buck to consider him. He needs Buck to be there for him no matter what. And at this point, when he's screaming at Buck as if they are a divorced couple, he's aware of something. He's definitely aware of something he doesn't want to look too closely at.

Because being left by Buck leaves him completely off balance. And since Eddie is famous for not dealing with the shit he's feeling, things keep escalating because anger it's easier. Anger he can deal with. But in the end, he just wants Buck back so he forgives him the second he lets Buck speak. Because he wants the Buck that looks right through him, he wants what they have back. And he doesn't hesitate once he does. There are definitely some lingering feelings about how he kept pushing Shannon away and then she died and he "lost" time he could've had if he had let her in after he sought her out, so when Buck apologizes he just goes let's go team and moves on because tomorrow isn't promised to anyone.

But I think there's something important to take into consideration, that it's Eddie's therapy session. He talks about not feeling anything, good or bad, and the his feelings are boxed thing and how he doesn't know what to do with them and yes, that comes back into play later, but it is important that Eddie doesn't name his feelings and he consistently tries to box them and move past them instead of feeling them, and it gets to a point where he's doing this even to positive things. So he is not looking too closely as to why missing Buck throws him off balance. He's all let's go back to the way things were and they do. Forever seeking for a heterosexual explanation to the kitchen scene in 3x09 but I also do think there are different types of tension between them there. Because while Buck is teasingly trying to get Eddie to admit on what had happened and how Buck's absence was a trigger for Eddie's fight club era in his flirty way of his, Eddie is trying to make him stop talking in a real "man don't make me look at what happened too closely" because he doesn't know what he'll find. Or if he's ready to find it. Considering the whole widower who never processed a big emotion in a healthy way he has going on there. But Buck is a really steady presence in Eddie's life, and Buck does his best to not put them in the lawsuit situation again, he's around, he's helping Eddie with parenting issues and then we have the well.

The well is a pivotal moment. Not just because of the sheer amount of Buck in Eddie's I need to keep fighting montage and the way Buck is acting above the ground, but because of the way Eddie changes his will after that and chooses to hide the fact that he did. Eddie has parents who are more than willing to raise Christopher, he has sisters, he has a lot of blood relatives that he could assign as Chris' guardians if something happens, but he chooses Buck. He chooses a firefighter, who is not only a firefighter, it's also his partner so if Eddie ends up in a life-threatening situation, Buck will probably be there too, so it's not the biggest safeguard. Buck is also single and without kids of his own. He also has known Buck for what? 2 years at that point? Eddie's lawyer probably stared at Eddie in disbelief when Eddie explained the situation. But the real thing about the will is that Eddie doesn't talk about it. Dude had some revelations while under all that mud because the only reason he wouldn't tell Buck is if he couldn't tell Buck without talking about himself. That's the only explanation for why he would hide it. Because Buck would ask why him, why now, like he did when Eddie did finally tell him, but right then Eddie can't shift the focus back to Buck. But there's a very subtle change in the way Eddie acts around Buck after the well. And again, sure, you can play off Eddie's reaction to when Buck wants to do something dangerous as he needs Buck to stay alive, but you can't really apply that logic to the way Eddie acts about Abby. Like, Eddie is petty to girls who want Buck, that's a fact. And Eddie is petty about Abby, but he also gets unsure about his place in Buck's life when he sees Buck's reaction to seeing Abby. And they focus on Eddie there. We get Eddie's reaction to that interaction. That means something.

We get Eddie legit feeling insecure about his place in Buck's life over the fact that Abby is there. And Eddie knows Abby as this entity, the one that got away, the person responsible for Buck being the way he is, because that's the way Abby is talked about, and sure, if I was in Eddie's shoes, only seeing the damage someone did to my best friend and then have them risking their life because of whatever lingering feelings are still there, I would also reserve myself the right to hate them, but it's more than that. Like, the way he backs away from the both of them once Buck goes into protector mode.

"Abby, His fiancée's Abby." *stomps away*. Absolutely insane interactions happen there that paint Buck as still hung up on Abby, even more after the whole thing with Red, but if you look at it with the right lenses, it paints Eddie as jealous of the way Buck is willing to put himself in danger to keep someone who broke him happy.

Every reaction from Eddie in the train wreck feels so calculated to give this idea that he's unsure of his place in Buck's life. His face when he realizes who he's talking to, his hand hovering over Buck's shoulder like he wants to comfort him but doesn't know if he can, the way he looks at Buck after Abby and Sam are in the ambulance. He's completely off balance at the sight of the ghost of Buck's great lost love and I'm supposed to believe that man is just experiencing platonic friendship feelings about his best friend? Come on.

Season 4 is complicated. Because of the Ana and Taylor of it all. They do have the easy banter, Eddie being someone Buck can rely on during the whole mess with his parents, a few scenes of Buck completely comfortable in Eddie's space and Eddie just moving around him like he's meant to be there, but we know the Ana of it all happens because of external pressure. Eddie thinks he needs to date, so he grabs onto the first woman he can. The way his whole body relaxes when he realizes Christopher is with Buck is actually insane. But even though he's dating, he's holding on to Buck in a way. Absolutely obsessed with how much he hates Taylor. Dude legit looks like he's fantasizing about running her over with the fire engine while watching Buck and Taylor interact making Buck ignore him.

But then Eddie gets shot. Say whatever the fuck you want Eddie reached for Buck. He thought he was dying. And he reached for Buck.

Eddie's been aware of something he doesn't want to look at too closely since the lawsuit that became harder to ignore after the well that he became fully aware of when he got shot. I know that what we have now says Eddie doesn't remember the shooting but wouldn't it be beautiful if he lied because he can't say what he remembers because everything he remembers is about Buck? The dramatic effect of I'm lying to you because I realized I loved you then but I can't tell you that now? Ugh. Anyway, Eddie got shot, things fell into place when he hit the ground, terrible place to have an oh! moment though. Dude just got shot, he's bleeding out, and the thing he gathers the rest of his energy is to ask if Buck is hurt. Sure, you can look at that as I think I'm dying so one of us has to make it home to Chris, but the possibility of it being an I love you I need to know you're okay before this kills me it's there. But he doesn't die. And when he wakes up Buck tells him it would've been better if he had been shot. You can see it on Eddie's face that he kept rehearsing what he was going to say about the will. Something else is the way that Ali takes Buck home after the truck so it would honestly make sense if Ana took Eddie home but he probably asked Buck to do it. That scene feels like an aborted love confession. "You act like you're expendable but you're wrong" the way he's saying you're not spare parts, you're not less important, you matter so much to me. Eddie knows Buck, he knows Buck associates love with pain. He wouldn't actually say something after he almost died, but it feels like he's working up to something. Sure he needs to break up with Ana, but there's time before he heals and can just, do something about it. But then Taylor fucking Kelly is in his welcome home party. He knew Buck and Taylor were working up to something. He knows Taylor being there means it happened. A violent reminder that Buck is straight (debatable) and doesn't feel the same (also debatable). So back to safety, he goes.

I need to know who decided that having this particular look when they are literally talking about how Eddie is about to meet Ana's whole family was the way to go.

Also, can you believe Eddie needed Buck's approval to break up with the girlfriend he didn't even want to date anyway?

Season 5 is complicated because of Eddie's PTSD, 5A has a lot of Eddie pulling away because of the way he knew when the dam broke it wouldn't be pretty and he didn't want to take down anyone with him. But even when we see Eddie out of the job, we see him making an effort to include Buck and Taylor so Buck would know that he really did mean the whole "you're stuck with us" thing. I can talk about 5x11 to 5x14 and the implications of it to buddie for days, really, (you can read this for some of those thoughts), but the thing here I guess, it's a lot about how when the box exploded, the feelings are all over the place, Eddie sits back and lets Buck in. He talks about the way he's feeling in a way we don't really see Eddie do all that often and he leans on Buck through his recovery and the process of finding out how to not feel like there's no hope for himself and how to feel comfortable in his own skin again. And it's a lot about Buck and the way Buck is constant. Eddie feels like Buck is this steady presence in his life that can and does help Eddie move forward.

But the thing is, the shooting happened, Eddie realized things, Taylor Kelly (derogatory) happened, Taylor Kelly (derogatory) took herself out of the running, Eddie now has the tools to deal with his own emotions, he's single, Buck's single, they're having dinner with Chris at Buck's loft and Eddie is asking Buck about things Chris kept from him, but Eddie is in a fantasy bubble where he can pretend he has the things he wants without actually asking for anything to change. I mean, post therapy Eddie is better with his feelings, but he's still Eddie. He was in his little I have time bubble. That was violently popped. Because Buck died. And he had to save him. "Do more" is such a desperate thing for a first responder and former combat medic to scream at a team of doctors. He knows they always do the best they can. He did the best he could, but there's only so far he can go. The way he follows the gurney hurts me in so many ways. Some real don't go where I can't follow bullshit.

This is a man who watched Buck almost die multiple times. But this is also a man who never contemplated the possibility of Buck actually dying. The thing that drives me crazy about Eddie and everything surrounding Buck's death is that he can't look at it. He can't take his eyes off him, but once he's out of his sight he can't look at him again. He spends the whole time not looking at Buck. He looks away every time someone mentions it. Even when he's in the room with Chris he's not looking. 3 minutes 17 seconds. Look, this number bothers me. Bobby said they were 3 minutes out from the hospital and that it took 3 minutes to start compressions. So Buck was dead for 6 minutes. The rescue took 3 minutes. And Eddie counted. That's the only explanation for this particular number. He counted how long it took to get Buck to Chim and Hen and in the ambulance ready to go.

But Eddie was living comfortably in his bubble, I don't think he was at peace with it, but I do think he accepted it. But Buck wakes up, Buck seeks him out to help deal with the trauma. They look like a family, they act like a family, maybe it's not hopeless after all. Maybe Buck can feel the same and they can talk about it once Buck is not feeling so raw over his own death. Buck is just there all the time, something like that can't be one-sided, can it? But then Buck pulls the rug from under him. I made a very long post about the cemetery, you can read that one if you want, but the thing about that conversation is that it is a reminder that they are not on the same page. Because Buck throws him off balance again, considering the way Eddie was trying his hardest to be there for Buck just for Buck to say he's getting what he wants from a random woman he met a few days before. And it makes Eddie back away so he won't end up hurting his own feelings more. I think at this point Eddie has accepted the fact that he's going to have to be Buck's best man and is trying to find a way to be okay with it. So he's retreating to familiarity again. It explains why he's trying to recreate what he had with Shannon because he loved Shannon, so maybe if he found that again he wouldn't have to cut Buck off to move on. Because he needs Buck on some level but there is a limit on how much he can take while Buck goes around looking for something he already has.

And yes I talked and talked and talked but why does this mean Eddie fell first? Well, Buck will never figure it out on his own. The thing about Buck is that Buck doesn’t know what healthy love is. He thinks love is work, but in a it’s bleeding himself dry for someone way. He thinks love is pain. Eddie is safety. Eddie is home. He never knew home as a place where he can find love.

This is all for today. If you read this I love you. Also the doc I typed it out says it has over 4.3k words so this is long as fuck congratulations for sticking through it 🩷

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