#I hope KJD is okay

[realmofrhine]

Moonstone (OC by @artifiziell)

#steven universe #steven universe future #gemsona #artifiziell #I hope KJD is okay #I haven't heard of them for years now

[dokyunqsoo]

What is ‘Hello’ about?

#exo #chen #jongdae #exosnet #kim jongdae #exoedit #myedit #hello #not @ kjd thinking about soondingies' well being #i hope you're doing okay too bub!! #thank you for singing #thank you for this gift 💖

[chogisad]

KJD 김종대_'SOLAIRE' ALBUM TEASER

SOLAIRE Track List:

White Flower

Where Your Heart Should Be

In the Dark ft. Kim Minseok

Run with me

There is a Good Reason the Days are Numbered

Become

Lightening Strike

Gonna Make You

Gold Autopsy

Have We Met? Ft. Luhan

Loyal

As Constant as the Sun

Bed of Leaves

DELUXE:

M.

Become (Chinese Version) ft. Lay Zhang

Where would we be?

In the Dark (Acoustic)

Happy Birthday, Serena. 💖

© Chogisad

#VIDEO EDIT #FOR SERENA #MY BEAN #HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE #THIS IS ALL FOR YOU #ID BRING YOU DOWN A STAR IF I COULD #A JD SOLO ALBUM IS WHAT YOU DESERVE #I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BESTEST DAY ON THIS ENTIRE PLANET #IM ABOUT 20 MINUTES LATE POSTING THIS BUT ITS OKAY BECAUSE YOURE SLEEPING #I REALLY WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU KIDDO #ANYWAY #EXO #CHEN #EXO CHEN #JONGDAE #KIM JONGDAE #EXO JONGDAE #EXOSNET #KJD #EXO FMV #EXO EDIT #EXO VIDEO #EXO FAN ART #EXO SOLO ALBUM #JONGDAE SOLO ALBUM

[dmumt]

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#vent time. look away if you don't want to read negative stuff #possibly triggering too idk #stuff has just been so meh lately #i feel so foggy and tired #it's just an episode and i know i'll get through it but it's so exhausting im exhausted with myself #my mum has been making all these comments over the past few days which is making things worse that's probably what kickstarted #the whole thing... when i already feel insecure and don't have any motivation it doesn't help that she stands there and calls me lazy #and good for nothing and like basically fat shames me even though im doing my best to eat good and i walk like 10km every day #and then today my dad took me driving since my stupid gay ass cannot drive and it was all going fine but then for the last #ten minutes i just completely forgot how to fucking drive??? i kept messing up and it just made me feel bad about myself even though #i know it's fine like nothing bad happened it wasn't even on a main road it was just while we driving around the empty industrial estate #and then when i got back i realised there were tweets on a long time oomf's account from his friend saying they can't contact him #and im worried for him because he tweeted really scary stuff yesterday. i was never super close to him but i hope he's okay #listening to the april and a flower album to help. thanks kjd. #.txt #i also feel myself doing that thing where i isolate myself from everyone and it's TERRIBLE but sometimes it's the only thing that helps #god i feel so bad for everyone who has to put up with my shit it's toxic and i really need to learn how to not do it #anyway that's it zoo wee mama or whatever life moves on

[justus2-614]

Another thing I'd like to talk about is this. In December 2019, Baekhyun said he lived with his Bucheon friends for 10 months at his home. Maybe in 2019 they separated to look for a new, much larger apartment or not? In any case, I would like to know your opinion on what Baekhyun said in his live about living with his friends Hope you can understand my english, and thanks in advance for your answers! 😊

Don't worry about it. Your english looks amazing to me.

Okay this is solely an opinion with no evidence to back it up but I honestly do not believe Bbh lived with his friends for 10 months or ever. I believe it was an attempt of damage control.

When he supposedly lived with his friends he did lots of Instagram lives and many fans have started noticing background noise and they were wondering who was there with him (Note: Bbh has admitted he searches his name every day, so he knows what's going on in the fandom all the time).

I believe he lied because Bbh and his friends are now at an age where you're not supposed to live with your friends unless you are struggling financially which Bbh doesn't. Even if he didn't have a home, he could be spending every night in the most expensive hotel room, why live with friends? Also, don't his friends have personal lives? Girlfriends, boyfriends, wives? Why would they live all together? You want me to believe that while Kjd was preparing to get engaged and have a baby, Bbh lived with his friend like a struggling college student? I'm not buying it.

I mean Baek lies all the time and the fans still haven't caught up with that I guess. He is very smart. He knows exactly what to say and when to say it. He isn't an innocent baby. He is sly like a fox. 😏

If there was someone with him, then that person was his partner. If CB is real then I think they were still living together when they were searching for their new apartment.

Do you think otherwise?

#asks

[peach-mangos]

Crimson

☾ byun baekhyun/kim jongdae

☾ supernatural au/vampire bbh/witch kjd/light angst

☾ 800w

☾ a/n: here’s the fourth part of the 100 day/drabbles challenge. (can also read here)

Here’s the thing—Jongdae is an absolute idiot.

He should’ve known better than to trust a witch coven, loyalty to your own kind only went so far.

Jongdae had felt the tension building up in the air way before he had even set foot through the bar’s door—he couldn’t understand why.

When a middle aged woman with long silky straight black locks, olive skin and dark brown eyes ablaze with anger had addressed him as an insolent child and a traitor his own kind, Jongdae had been so confused. He’d never met this woman in the entirety of his existence, and he had yet to utter a single word in her general direction—what had warranted such hostility from a stranger?

As the raven haired witch had carried on speaking, Jongdae had quickly realized that his first mistake had been to show up with a vampire.

His second mistake had been showing up with the vampire that had been responsible for the annihilation of more than half the Reyes’ bloodline many years ago.

The moment Baekhyun had entered the bar, chaos had ensued. They had been outnumbered from the start. Fireballs and inanimate objects ranging from chairs, glasses and knives started flying and Jongdae scrambled to his feet, hastily running over to his boyfriend’s side.

“Are you—fuck—are you kidding me?” Baekhyun wailed crumpling to his knees as he clutched his head between his palms.

“Turns out, you’ve already met these witches—it’s time to go” Jongdae grunted as he struggled to help Baekhyun up to his feet and behind one of the bar’s booths. He needed to come up with a plan, and quickly.

“What?” the pain in his head doubled and Baekhyun howled.

“I’ll explain later, right now—we have to go!” Jongdae exclaimed trying to get Baekhyun up on his feet.

“But I don’t—shit” Baekhyun staggered on his way up, “I don’t—I don’t know these people, Dae” he said through pants of pain, clutching fiercely onto Jongdae’s wrist.

“That’s because you slaughtered more than half of them almost a whole century ago, asshole!” Jongdae had yelled angrily as Baekhyun had slid against the back of the sitting booth and withered in pain.

Jongdae knelt down and grasped Baekhyun’s hand between his and began to chant a spell of his own. Seconds later, a screech of pain could be heard across the bar and Baekhyun breathed out in relief.

“Just—stay here, let me just—”

Before Jongdae could even finish what he was saying, he and Baekhyun had been flung in the air, across the room and against the wall. Next thing he knew, Baekhyun was screaming bloody murder as a piece of wood skewered him, the head of the Reyes coven at the end of it.

The moment, Baekhyun’s body went limp, Jongdae saw red.

-

“Byun Baekhyun, you absolute moron!” Jongdae had wailed the moment Baekhyun had come to.

“Ouch, Dae” Baekhyun whined as he sat up in bed—they were back in their dingy motel room, he noticed. “What the fuck happened?”

“Turns out—you actually took part in almost ending an entire witch bloodline” Jongdae tells him recounting to Baekhyun the tale the head of the Reyes coven had told him as he sucked a blood bag of crimson dry.

Baekhyun had no memory of ever running paths with these witches, however, Jongdae was quick to point out, he did basically get rid of more than half of their ancestors—of course he wouldn’t remember any of them. They were all descendants of the previous witches he and his clan had slaughtered all those years ago.

Baekhyun looked sheepish and incredibly guilty.

“Are you sure you’ve had enough blood?” Jongdae fusses then, knowing full well Baekhyun doesn’t enjoy recalling his past and all the pain and suffering he inflicted on many in the years before meeting Jongdae. “You’re still looking a little peaky”

“That’s probably because I’m undead” Baekhyun replies dryly, which did nothing to stop Jongdae from fussing, or smooth away the worried pinch in his brow.

Baekhyun sighed and caught Jongdae’s hands, leaning up to press a kiss to his his forehead, “I’m fine. I’m immortal, takes more than a stab wound to kill me.”

“So, shut up and let me and look after you.” Jongdae mumbles causing Baekhyun to huff a fond laugh.

“I’m fine. What about you—are you okay?” he asks rubbing his thumb softly over Jongdae’s wrist. It’s turning purple from where Baekhyun clutched onto so forcefully.

“You don’t have to feel guilty” Jongdae tells him, “about anything”

“Kind of hard not to” Baekhyun mumbles, and Jongdae cuddles up to him.

“I love you, despite your past. You’ve come so far from the person you used to be, Baek, and I’m so proud of you. As far as getting help with locating that stone—we’ll figure something else out okay? We’ll find another way and we’ll free Yixing from purgatory”

Baekhyun sighs and kisses the crown of Jongdae’s head.

Here’s hoping.

#exosnet #exo fic #baekchen #baekchen fic #byun baekhyun/kim jongdae #100 days/drabbles challenge #mine: fic #mine: baekchen fic

[miramizar]

Hello everyone~ ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ♡ I guess it’s time for another follow forever! ✨

I know I haven’t been that active lately due to a lot of reasons - mainly due to my lack of internet but also because I’ve felt rather down and unmotivated for a while - but as I still began to get closer to my follower goal I thought that I really wanted to take this opportunity to show you how much you mean to me and how thankful I am for you 💖 Thank you for being amazing and for making me happy, you deserve the world and all the love in it and I hope this silly post will help a little with that~ 💖💗💕💞💓

(Oh, and I tried putting all your url’s into my drawing like I've done with my precious follow forevers, but you’ve become so many now and it looked really weird so... I made it so that the stars represent you instead~)

I wish you all a nice day and all the best~ ( ´ ∀ `)ノ～ ♡

@achenlove and @theloveinkimkai - most amazing Sara and Rebecca, I love you more than words can express and I could never imagine my life without you. Tack för allt ni är och gör, jag älskar er så mycket och jag hoppas att ni vet det~ (っ˘▽˘)(˘▽˘)˘▽˘ς)

@ananou59, @doemtij and @floweryjeno - thank you for being so kind to my sisters and for deciding to follow me too, I’m sorry I’m so bad at messaging you but I want you to know that I think you’re amazing! 💖

@bulba-suho-r - What can I say, other than that you’re one of my favourite Junmyeon-blogs and that I admire you too much to start a conversation? (>///<)💚 Sorry I’m so shy, but I’d love to be better friends with you!

@elif183 - you’re so adorable and sweet, thank you for messaging me every once in a while and for always putting a smile on my face~ (´｡• ω •｡`) ♡

@exoistheuniverse - I know I’ve said this before but I have to do it once more - I admire you and I love your headers and the atmosphere of your blog so much, and I almost can’t believe we actually talked?? 💙💘💙 But although I’m really shy I’d really love to talk to you again~

@guardian-angel-of-my-heart - It doesn’t matter that it takes a while for us to answer each other’s messages, I still get so happy whenever I see you and I love you and your blog a whole lot! ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩‧₊˚

@jongi-n - Ah, finaste StjärnClara, where to even start? 💫 I’m so thankful for getting to know you and for having the privilege to call you my friend - you’re so amazing and talented, and you’re also one of the most important people in my life and I can’t ever thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me, but when we meet I will at least try my very best to overcome my shyness and give you the softest hug ⊂( ´ ▽ ` )⊃❤️ Lycka till med dina finals, jag tror och tänker på dig och älskar dig jättemycket~

@jongnpls - I’m always happy to find fellow nordics and among them you’re the one I’ve talked to the most (even if it’s not that much at all haha) ❤️ thank you for being so kind, I’d love to be better friends with you~

@joyluvs - You’re seriously so sweet, both to me and so many other people, thank you for being an angel~ 💖 (and by the way I love your new url!)

@marksjeno - my first and only Mark (and NCT for that matter!) mutual, and someone I admire and like a lot~ (≧◡≦) ♡

@milky-waee - Despite it being quite hard to keep our conversations going, I won’t give up trying! ( =ノωヽ=)💗 I love you lots and hope you and your cats are doing well~

@myeonew - My dearest Te~ ☀️❣️Words cannot express how grateful I am for having you in my life and for everything you’ve done for me ever since we met, for being my best friend and for making me happy... I miss the times when we could spam each other and laugh together daily, but I guess that’s how life is, right? Good times and bad times will come and go, and I wish I could hug you and do more to help you, but until that day comes I promise you like I've promised you many times before - I will stay by your side and love you no matter what, always and forever~ (/^-^(^ ^*)/ ♡ Take care, my sunshine~

@rainyjinki - You’re definitely one of my favorite Jinki-blogs and someone I care about and love a lot 💜 I hope you’re doing well~

@sickofyouandyourcormanobullshit - This might look a bit strange but I need to say this once and for all - You’re one of the blogs I’ve admired the longest and my favorite source of anything Pdp or Pdc related so you following me still feels so unreal - but I’m also incredibly happy! 💛 Thank you for featuring me on your amazing blog and for being amazing in general! o(≧▽≦)o

@soft-daes - It’s difficult to find the time to talk with you but I hope that will change because I really do miss you, and I always hope you’re doing well and that you’re smiling lots 💓 I love you~

@ultsunny - You’re so sweet and I miss talking to you 💖 I hope you’re doing okay~

@xiuminscheeks - dearest Ine, the Xiumin to my Suho... there’s so much to thank you for; for worrying about me, for remembering me, for being so sweet and amazing every time we talk - I appreciate and love you so much and I wish you all the best, and I hope we’ll get to talk more and maybe even stargaze together someday in the future~ ☆ヾ(*´・∀・)ﾉヾ(・∀・`*)ﾉ☆

@yougavewotyugot - My first Gaki no Tsukai-mutual! (>o<)💖 Thank you so much for messaging me, I’m so happy to know you~

Here’s to all the blogs and people that I’ve talked to a bit but lost contact with for some reason (probably my fault), I hope you’re all doing well and that you’re taking care of yourselves, I appreciate you all so much and hope that we’ll get to talk more soon~ 💞

@4bol, @a-stranger-song, @beaglebyunee, @bloggernana, @bvbblexo, @cant-spell-slay-without-lay, @cgv-cherry, @chenjaehyun127, @englishbunnyrocks, @fleur-de-jinki, @kimjonginsmom, @kimjunnoodle, @gwiyonew, @ididn-tseeitcoming, @kpop-kdramas-aka-my-life, @luvchou, @minhoswhitehair, @oh-supreme, @occasionallysuho, @pixelxiu, @savemeilikeexo, @sekaicheesecake, @shesdreamingfics, @shiroflower, @softpeachsoo, @suchently, @suhocheeks, @suhoslady, @suzansmile, @trinitysroses, @vanilla-ramen, @velvetjm, @wererightbyyourside, @xiudaengerous, @xmochimin 

And to the blogs I haven’t talked to that much/at all, I still think you’re quite  wonderful and I hope we’ll get to know each other better in the future~ 💕

@81506616, @4hwi, @angelsseok,  @animefreak44, @baeknopeyeol, @baekyeolpositivevibes, @chensingmachinee, @choke-me-zaddy, @conqueredthemagic, @dabn, @darklordkyungsoo,  @e-xact, @exo-yehet-xoxo, @exogotmethirsty, @exolitic, @elyxiun, @flowerprincesoo,  @fronghahaha, @funny-bunny-myeon, @heroxangel, @ilovekjm-archive, @jiaachuu, @jinkisgirl, @juliabuchhas, @kaihunnies, @kjd-1, @kjm-l, @bigdaedy, @kokomyeonie, @ullmeltks, @lilvalfreak, @liya12, @lusha4u, @madkpd, @minhosgf, @momoonew1212, @mydinosaurstudent, @neelanjana-xx, @peachyonew, @petitshinee, @pumpkabu, @quinnxkpoptrash, @recurringpattern, @royalmyeon, @sehun0hh, @sooing, @startyatira, @suchensheaven, @suho69, @suhocentric, @suhowo, @sweetjunmyeon

#follow forever #you're all amazing and I love you lots~ #💞💗💓💕 #sorry my computer is being stupid so I had to repost it (>_<) #art tag

[exolstice-blog]

EXO reaction | to their s/o not feeling well

[A/N: Requested by anonie: reaction to you being on your period and not feeling well. Here you go! Sorry for the long wait, have been so busy lately TT, but here it is! I hope you enjoy it~]

Minseok:

He would become the softest.

Calling you every 20 minutes.

[kms] “Y/N, are you good? Did it get better? Does it hurt too much, do you need--”

Even though you really told him it wasn’t much of a big deal.

“For Christ sake, Minseok, I’M A WOMAN, I’VE BEEN HANDLING THIS EVER SINCE I WAS 15.”

[kms] “You’re so brave, baby.”

I mean, it happened every month, he should be used to it too.

But no. The man wouldn’t budge.

Unexpected visits.

He would come over with that over-sized hoodie you couldn’t help but love.

Ice-cream too.

He was just the sweetest.

Junmyeon:

Oh, he would be so understanding. 

With the mood swings and all--because it wasn’t just a myth, he’d learned that much.

Although you were most calm, he wouldn’t fight back whenever you began your bickering. 

He would be so chill, honestly.

Just listening to all you have to say.

And after you become so ashamed for all, he would just laugh, give you a hug, and stare.

“What are you looking at? I’m embarrassed.”

[kjm] “Why, I love when you get flustered like this.”

“I hate you.”

[kjm] “Cute.”

Yixing:

Can I just say, he would be so warm.

Literally.

“Why are you hugging me so much?”

[zyx] “I read somewhere that heat relaxes your muscles. Is it working?”

“Maybe.”

He would just be so thoughtful.

Forever looking for ways to alleviate your pain, regardless of its intensity.

And the boy would even take notes of it, I’m soft.

Ah, and something else.

Belly kisses.

[zyx] “Oh, you’re blushing.”

Baekhyun:

Often your changes in mood would affect him too.

Specially when all he did was quarrel back.

That’s why most of the time he would just fight you off by making you laugh.

With whatever silly thing he could, he did.

Making up the weirdest of things.

Saying the stupidest of things.

[bbh] “Ugh, that’s, like, the only reason why I prefer being a guy.”

“You wouldn’t mind being a girl?”

[bbh] “Heck no. Specially when you have those.” -pointing at your chest-

“But they hurt!”

[bbh] “Want me to kiss them?”

“BYUN!”

Jongdae: 

He would become so tamed lmao.

Trying to not get on your bad side.

Not only that, he knew you were going through something that wasn’t so satisfying.

So he did everything he could to satisfy you.

Being the loveliest.

He would build forts with blankets.

Arrange pillows.

Wrap you around in warm towels.

[kjd] “Aren’t you the tastiest taco, babe?”

“Stop tickling me, you!”

Chanyeol:

So he would visit you, okay.

Or give you night rides through the city, he knew you needed a breath of fresh air.

He would bring Toben, too.

Knowing how much you loved that ball of fluff.

Small concerts.

He would give them to you.

He would play for you. The piano. The guitar.

He would sing.

Do I really need to say more?

[pcy, singing like all the angels up in heaven] “ ’Cause all of me, loves all of you.”

“...Are you looking at Toben?”

Kyungsoo:

Chef Soo in the house.

So much squishy, too.

He would cook for you, ever the softest.

Concerned about your comfort, he wouldn’t let you do anything.

That wouldn’t stop you, though.

You would flee bed and join him in the kitchen, making a mess out of everything.

That would only encourage him to carry on, making play of your antics.

The both of you, of course, would end up covered in flour or any concoction he’d spent all night preparing.

“Soo! Stop it, I’m covered in honey!”

[dks] “And I thought you couldn’t get any sweeter.”

Jongin:

Honestly he would be so playful.

Primarily to lift up your mood, knowing how much you could sometimes hurt.

He would prepare the most fun movie dates.

All the sweets you could imagine.

Him being the biggest of them all.

Often encouraging you to act out some of the most ridiculous scenes.

[kji] “DRAW ME LIKE ONE OF YOUR FRENCH GIRLS!!!”

“PUT YOUR PANTS BACK ON, JONGIN.”

And, of course, tickle wars and pillow fights.

Sehun:

He couldn’t be more gentle.

Careful hands and tender fingers. Cotton-soft.

He would warm your blankets before going to bed. 

Prepare warm tea and apply on you toasty kisses. 

Bed-time stories.

Yes, he would read to you--

books borrowed from his hyungs or simple stories he’d make up.

Mostly about him teaming up with Vivi in some parallel realm to beat some litte asses and rescuing his princess. You. 

[osh] “Good night, princess. Sweet dreams.”

“Thanks--”

[osh] “And by that I mean me.”

#exo #exo reactions #exo scenarios #exo imagine #exo fluff #exo xiumin #exo suho #exo lay #exo baekhyun #exo chen #exo chanyeol #exo d.o #exo kai #exo sehun #minseok reaction #junmyeon reaction #yixing reaction #baekhyun reaction #jongdae reaction #chanyeol reaction #jongin reaction #kyungsoo reaction #kpop

[kaciejdavis]

I haven’t wrote a regular blog post in a while. I’ve been posting a lot on my Instagram and using that a lot more. But I figured it was time to lay some thoughts out here.

I’m just going to say it as plain as I feel. Infertility sucks. And k hare it. It can make you go through days or nights where all you want to do is cry because you feel like less of a woman or a failure.

It’s days where you husband assures you it’s not your fault. That it’s going to be okay and he will always be by your side through it all. Even when you tell him you understand if he doesn’t want to be and he tells you to stop saying that. That he made a vow and he will always be here and nothing will ever change it.

It’s trying to have Faith and trust God while feeling completely broken. Trying to believe your miracle is coming but to also feel completely crushed at the same time. Trying to trust that he has a plan and just saying it out loud hoping it will make you feel more secure. Hoping that it will take the doubt away.

It’s praying, praying that you’ll get pregnant. Praying that the pregnancy will stick. That it won’t be another loss. Praying for the strength to keep pushing and not let it hold you back. Praying that you won’t be jealous or bitter. Praying to just get through another day or a conversation with out getting mad or crying.

They say going through hard things make you stronger. However those hard things also make you feel weak and exhausted. Sometimes they take all the energy you have.

I don’t know why this was the journey that was chosen for us. I don’t know why we are going through it. I know I’ve cried a lot of tears. Felt a lot of pain and emotions. I’ve let my emotions and frustration get the best of me somedays. But I also know greater things are in store even if I don’t currently see it.

There is purpose in the pain.

❤️KJD

[bbhl-incporated]

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NUMBER ONE GOING CRAZY STAN ALONGSIDE ME !! 

“Going Crazy” by EXO from The War and The War: Power of Music, 2017 Copyright EXO, SM Entertainment and various songwriters

Okay but seriously I love you so much?? Full of kjd-stanning goodness and so full of empathy and emotion :( And we’re even blood sisters despite not being anywhere physically near each other at all :( and we’re both sad sisters :((( 🤧 You also stan bbh so you know we got bbh-l solidarity and dual stan solidarity at di same time!!

We both love Jonghyun and we got to talk about how we’re .. handling things together. I know you’ve been really down lately and shaken up the past couple weeks and it will take time, but I hope you feel better and his visits give you comfort my friend 💗💗💗 I love you ^^

#mutuals send me a number and I will write a post about you #chensguns #text

[kkaeb-my-song]

Eeep! Can you recommend me some blogs? If it's possible that aren't baekhyun biased bc I already follow a bunch of baekhyun trash lovely blogs. Any exo or/and multifandom blog? Sorry for bothering, it's just that you seem a nice person and I need more nice people like you. Have a bring and happy day^^

HI I’m so sorry I’m late in answering this, I took a short Tumblr break to focus on work and didn’t go online as often as I usually do! AH okay blog recommendations…here are some in no particular order (but many are run by hella awesome people and I recommend getting to know them as well:)

@chenbaekery @escaping-normalcy @angel-in-slow-motion @little-lamb-lay @chenscreaming @kimkimjonginkji @ksooslipring @lovelychenjongdayum @sunshiningdae

Yah slightly kjd biased because he’s my other love, but I hope I was of help and don’t worry about bothering because I love getting messages

[gringoslur]

okay so i just gotta say, i love you. i saw u had a marvel character in ur url so i checked to make sure ur not a t//ny stan and found ur anti t//ny tag and im just..... living. anway, i love you and hope you have a good day and fuck t//ny st//rk

KJDS THIS ASK IS MY MOOD. Honestly i can talk trash about torky all the fucking day. Sometimes i reblog a lot of that because i’m like hey @followers please remember that i hate to///ny!!

Also, thank you for being one of the few blogs that i can reblog gifsets and stuff (because you’re an anti) so bless you!! 

#i love your icon btw #fivepaladin

[jihoonscafe]

|| Kpop Questions Tag~ ||

Tagged by the lovely @jindongdongie

A. ALWAYS POST THE RULES. Answer all questions and then write 11 new ones

B. Tag 11 new people.

Q1: What’s your favourite hair colour on your bias?

Um, I will just go with the husbands then lol.

For Jihoon, nothing will ever beat his adorable pink hair [even though i am a hoe for those purple hair he had during ofd’s season 1]

For Junhui, blonde hair i mean he looked like a bloody angel, but i love him in black-blue hair like he had in HIghlight too.

For Seokjin, the natural black and brown are beautiful but pink is where it is for me.

Q2: Do you consider yourself a hard stan or a soft stan of your bias group/overall?

lol me? well i am hard core carat and a soft exo-l so?

Q3: Do you own any K-pop albums? If so which one(s)? If not what K-pop albums would you like to own?

I am broke af, so no album for me [YET]

But, I would love to have all of Seventeen’s album, all of EXO’s albums, all of EXID’s albums and all of BTS’s albums, because there is no harm in wishing now is there?

Q4: Do you try learning the Korean lyrics to the songs if you don’t speak the language? And if you do speak Korean, the question instead is what do you think is/would be the hardest thing about learning Korean/ about the Korean language?

When you are an international fan, the struggle is rEAL.

Especially when you have a Korean friend who knows all the shit before it gets subbed because guess who can speak Korean? 

So yes, I attempt to sing Korean as brokenly I can but as long as my parents think I am singing in Korean even if to me it sounds like gibberish, then it works man, it works.

also can anyone relate to that goddamn feeling when you can recognize like a word in the middle of a song and you are just like “wow i am so amazing” even if it is just like i am okay or something lol because k-dramas = education.

Q5: What are your favourite covers K-pop idols have done? Post links with the answer?

Okay so Jeongguk’s cover of Beautiful [The Goblin OST] got me like S H O O K as fuck oh my god. and tHE FUCKING COVER OF WE DON’T TALK ANYMORE, I cHOKED. dON’T FORGET THAT GODDAMN FOOLS COVER THAT BOY DID WITH FUCKING NAMJOON WHICH HAD ME CRYING FOR LIKE 1000000 YEARS. 

But, anything Kyungsoo sings is art so? Love Yourself with Chan, Chan’s All of Me stage and that Boyfriend stage they did like a million years ago. anD YES SABOR AMI FUCK ME.

Q6: Have you ever tried learning any K-pop dance routines? Was it successful? Did you upload a dance cover to YT?

lol i am a potato, i can’t dance.

i have attempted to dance to Baepsae by BTS like a million times and can do the choreo for the chorus but nothing else and also it is not like I don’t remember the choreographies, because I have that shit memorised but it is just that i am a lazy ass they are are too hard for me to do lmao.

Q7: List one of your favourite things about your bias’ physical appearance and one of your favourite things about their personality/mannerisms/habits:

um, since i am a hoe for both junhui and jihoon i am doing them both fight me.

For Jihoon, it is definitely his eyes because he is such a lovely person and when he looks at the carats in recordings of caratland, it is so obvious that even though he doesn’t say much, he writes songs for us, and loves us like we are a family and his eyes are just so beautiful when he sings because they hold so much damn emotion, i love him.

Jihoon’s personality is clearly one of my favourite things about him, he comes off as cold if you enter the fandom through memes and other shit, and he is quieter than most members, which is a quality most of my biases don’t actually possess since i tend to bias the one who catches the eye the most, and that is usually the loudest or weirdest member but jihoon is just special, he writes so many songs and works so undeniably hard that it is hard NOT to stan him, and just bless him and his emotions for not only the carats but also the family he calls seventeen.

wow i got real emo there

For Junhui, it is definitely his laughter? like i don’t know if that is an attribute i can call physical but it is so pure and uplifting like he is such a beautiful person and i just can’t okay? he is so beautiful, both inside and outside and he laughs so freely and just bless him okay bless HIM.

For Jun, I think I like his dedication to the group and the fans the best, the fact that he doesn’t mind not being in the spotlight to give it to somebody else, and doesn’t mind getting less lines of less screen time. The only thing he minds is if he has to leave the fans at any place first, and that he has to always be the last to leave in the group so he can say bye to all the fans makes me go giddy really, he is such a pure and gorgeous soul.

Q8: Is there a particular member of your bias group/ any K-pop group in general that you think the group couldn’t live without and why? ~ (so it doesn’t necessarily have to be the leader:)

For Seventeen, it is definitely the leader line, all three of them: Soonyoung, Seungcheol and Jihoon, since they make the base for the group, they are who build the group high enough so that the others can showcase their talents, Jihoon makes the songs they sing, Soonyoung makes the dances they dance and Seungcheol makes sure that all of them are well and happy, they are the pillars of the group and without even one of them, Seventeen really wouldn’t last a day.

Q10: Can you describe your bias wrecker as best as you can without mentioning their name so we have to guess?

[lol jun used to be my bias wrecker in seventeen, but now i am double biased for him so i am going to go with bts [where i am also double biased but still have wreckers lol] since i have no wreckers in exo, at all like i am the loyalest loyal af kjd stan ]

Hair which gets dyed like every fucking minute lol, probably has the a hair colour wheel in his stylist’s office, such a fucking savage i am not even kidding, sWAEG, a beautiful soul, a musician through and through, my sleepy hardworking soft beautiful amazingly caring and loving man who i can’t say the name of but literally everybody knows at this point who he is lol.

Q11: What are the three things you’d want your bias/bias group to know about you?

nothing lol i am a potato.

I am studying well : i work hard to get shit done and i want jihoon and junhui to know that they aren’t distracting carats from studying all together.

I will support them forever : they deserve so much love and i want to see them grow, and so i will.

i hope they never break up : i have witnessed bands i loved disband and there is nothing like seventeen in the kpop industry, no 13 boys who have made such deep bonds with not only each other but also me as a fan and i hope they always stay like that until the end.

> What was your age when you got into kpop?

I was 12? I think, yup I was 12.

> First Bias?

For Seventeen, it was Minghao because y’know attraction comes through with tHUGHAO lmao, i still adore him tho, my son.

>First song?

Hmm, it was Catch Me by TVXQ which was my first ever KPOP song, however my first Seventeen Song was Adore U.

> What is your fondest memory involving a kpop song? Link please?

Oh it has to be when I listened to Hold Me Tight by BTS on repeat and came up with the idea which some of you might know as Nightmare, which is my longest and best *according to @colon-d* series right now!

>What is your go-to kpop jam for when you’re happy?

AJUU NICE

>What do your parents/siblings/friends/people around you say or do while you’re fangirling?

Me : AJU NICE *attempts and fails dance*

Parents : where did we go wrong

Brother : *gets excited since it looks cool*

>Biggest bias wrecker of all time?

Junhui, I mean he wrecked me enough to be my double-bias, but then Seokjin who literally kicked everyone out and became one of my ultimate biases.

>Your favorite rude moment from your UB?

> A look you just can’t get over? (doesn’t have to be your bias ^^)

> How do you think you’d react when meeting your bias completely by chance?

die instantly lol.

> Something you and your bias have in common?

i am greasy like jun, make dad jokes like jin and cringe at everything like jihoon.

My Questions~

Which group(s) are you looking to stan?

Why is your ultimate group your ultimate group?

Why is your ultimate bias you ultimate bias?

How many songs from KPOP do you have in your playlist?

Which songs are your go to if you want to feel sad?

Which KPOP songs have you played the most?

If you could only learn one KPOP choreography in your entire life, which one would it be?

If you had to pick one bias from all your groups and kill them, who would it be?

Would you sing/dance in front of your bias if they were to see you and ask for you to do so?

Stance on the relationships of your biases? Would you be hurt if they began to date?

A message to your bias/ bias group~

Tagging some lovely beautiful angels : @colon-d, @darkperfectionuniverse, @kaori-yuki-chan, @aceangel-official, @mvnghaos, @choco-seventeen, @oneofthemillionarmy and @googlebts

#tags #wow that took forever #but thank you #about me #kpop asks #about me and my trash #tagged #lovely mutuals

[joninibear]

Okay, I am really sorry, but Kjd's gf is a b*tch, I hope he ditched her/ will ditch her, He deserves better.

Ah.. I wouldn’t go so far maybe. But I am concerned, since she seems to have been hinting quite obviously about their relationship on sns, even tho she probably knew the repercussions he could face with having his/their relationship made public :/

I’m sure (hopefully) he wouldn’t be with someone that treated him badly on purpose, she probably has her reasons.. We don’t know really.

#anon #replies #I really hope she's with him for love #and not for anything else.. #he's such an amazing person #he deserves the best!!

[kaciejdavis]

Round Two

December came and I was so anxious. I was ready to do this cycle and to rock it out.

I took the Femara as instructed. This time 4 pills for days 3-7. I always take them at night because one of the side effects are hot flashes and as much as waking up in the middle of the night isn’t fun, I rather it not disrupt my day!

They scheduled my ultrasound for cycle day 12. The first one went great so this one should be even better. I arrived early so they would get me in and out. I had multiple follicles. The sizes varied a lot. The ultrasound tech is only able to tell me what she sees. So she isn’t able to tell me what will happen next. I anxiously awaited the call from the clinic.

It takes them about an hour to an hour and a half to call usually. You also don’t speak to the Doctor, you speak with a nurse. The nurse informed me that they would need to repeat the ultrasound in two days. My follicles were not mature enough. I thought they wouldn’t even proceed this cycle. I was super frustrated.

I went back in two days. I had more follicles than before and they were more mature. In fact I had a few so they had to evaluate the risk of multiples. If the risk is two high for a large amount of multiples they can say no. I was really thinking it was going to be a no go. I had even told my manager that I didn’t think I’d need a day off work that week for this.

Turns out I was wrong. I received the call that we were moving forward and I needed to do my shot right now and I would need to take the next day off. I was so excited! They stated there was a small chance of multiples. So in my mind that meant bigger chance that this would work, or so I thought.

Once again we had to be to Grand Rapids in the morning. 7:45 this time. Thankfully we had nice weather! First appointment was at 7:45 and the second at 10am. We were done at the office around 10:30.

There is no guide as to what to do right after. Some people will say rest and eat McDonalds Frys. That the salt helps. Some people will tell you eat pineapple core the night before. They say an enzyme in that works like a blood thinner when taken on an empty stomach and an anti inflammatory to help for the implantation to happen. Others tell you move around or walk around. Get the muscles moving so that it will help move things along.

Since we went home and rested last time we decided this time to try to walk around. We took a stroll through down town Grand Rapids and the Public Museum. Walking around for about 4 hours in hopes that this would help.

We waited our two weeks. We tested and it was negative. My cycle started a couple days later. We were officially out this cycle.

I felt more disappointed the this time. Everything should be working. I definitely cried a lot. I was pretty devastated. Thankfully I amazing Husband being my rock. Craig just saying thing to assure me it’s okay. Telling me it’s going to happen. To trust God in all of this. Putting everything in prospective.

This wasn’t the end we could try again.

❤️KJD

[kaciejdavis]

Not What We Have Dreamed Of.

Craig and I have decided that we are going to share our journey that we have been on since December of 2017. From miscarriage to infertility. If you choose to follow the post we are asking for no negativity. If you have something negative to say keep it to yourself. We know by bringing this out into the open we are opening it up to peoples opinions and thoughts. But we ask that you please just be positive with us through our journey. We are also not sharing for sympathy. We are sharing shed light on this because honestly this is not a very talked about topic. And what I’ve been learning is it should be. We should be more aware.

I will be trying to make a post a day until we are to current day/situation.

This does get pretty emotional and pretty detailed. Continue at your own risk.

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When Craig and I started dating we would often talk about our future. What kind of jobs we would have, where we would want to live and the family that we would want to start. We had always agreed on three kids. In hopes that maybe it could be two girls and a boy. Though we don’t really get to pick that. We had names and everything picked out. Who knew the journey to get there would be so hard and heart breaking.

We got married April of 2017. We knew we wanted to start trying for kids in 2018. We felt we were ready to begin to have a family. November 2017 I stopped taking my birth control to be able to prepare to have a baby. We figured I had been on it for a while so it wouldn’t happen right away.

Well we were so wrong. I hadn’t been feeling well, but I shrugged it off. I had a cold and was working a lot. I just figured I was sick. Especially since I seem to get sick so easy! I should of realized somethings were early pregnancy symptoms but I didn’t. Not until I was late. I figured well it could just be late. I seemed to have a super late period once or twice a year. But something told me to take a test.

I remember the day pretty clear. It was Saturday December 23 2017. We had some Holiday cookie making planned with my Sister in Law and a Friend. We were making cookies and we talked about how I was late but figured it would start any day. However after I left drove to Target and bought a pregnancy test.

I left Target and went straight home and into the bathroom. I peed on the stick thinking it would blare negative. Little to my surprise there were two lines. So I tested again the next day. They were still there. I was pregnant and super excited. Craig on the other hand was still in shock or really just couldn’t see the lines. We didn’t think it would happen so fast.

It was Christmas Eve and we were busy helping get things ready for Christmas that we didn’t want to say anything to anyone yet. I mean we had just found out so we wanted to wait to tell. I hadn’t been feeling good so I had to call it a night around 12am. I went to bed and work up the next day. It was Christmas. It was an exciting fun filled day!

Later in the afternoon I began to spot. I was a little freaked out. But I figured it’s early this is normal. Then I remember feeling something weird. Like a gush but when I went to the bathroom there was no blood. But my pad was wet. I definitely thought it was odd. But there wasn’t blood and I wasn’t cramping. Until the next day.

I woke up and the pain was unbearable. And I had started bleeding. But not light like my period just started. It was a lot. We had family coming over for breakfast and some were already on their way. So we got up, got the house ready and I forced myself to push through. When everyone went home I decided we need to go talk to my parents.

We drove over there and I was just scared. I wanted to talk to them face to face. I was still on my Moms insurance and didn’t need her shocked to see an ER visit. We explained what was happening. My mom said it was best to go to ER so that’s what we did. And that’s where the real nightmare began.

We went to McLaren and told them what was happening. They asked for a urine sample and had me wait to go back. I gave them the sample and we went on back and got the results the test was positive. They drew my blood, did a cervix check and an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed nothing. And according to ER my cervix was shut. But the HCG level were very low. They stated they could not confirm anything and told me it was probably my period and to go home.

I was so upset and frustrated. I knew this wasn’t my period. The pain I was feeling was so much worse than if it was my period. I went home and was crushed. Emotionally all I could do was cry. Physically all I could do was lay in bed and hope the pain would stop.

I tried to go to work the next day just to be a total wreck and for my super understanding boss to send me home. That I will never forget. I ended up taking a couple days off. And going to my primary doctor. Who knew things would just keep going south.

I went to my doctor for a follow up and for an OB Referral. The Nurse Practitioner I saw just said I’m sure everything’s fine. Go get your blood drawn and we will call you with the results and a referral. I said okay and made my way to the lab. They drew my blood and I went home.

I returned to work as normal and continued to push through even though all I wanted to do was be at home. I waited for the call. A week had gone by and no call. I finally called them on my lunch break. They couldn’t find my labs and hadn’t sent a referral out. I was livid. They said they would follow up with the lab and call me back. Well they called back and told me the lab claimed I never even came in. Now my emotional self was just angry.

I took it upon myself to find an OB since they didn’t seem to care. I went to Alliance which was recommended to me by several people. I remember calling them and just crying on the phone explaining everything to the receptionist. I was so over it all and so frustrated and sad. They got me in the next day. And we would finally get answers!

They were able to confirm I was pregnant and about 6weeks along when I lost the pregnancy. They were able to find the lab work that my Primary office claimed I didn’t get done. And on top of that they asked if I knew I was RH-. I looked at them and said no.... what is that. I had never seen a Doctor get so frustrated. Turns out the hospital tested my blood type and failed to disclose that I was RH- and needed a shot. So I could carry the next pregnancy. Let me tell you, that was one of the most painful shots I have even had. But I was thankful to find someone to hear me out and listen and give answers.

We thought that this would be the end of the crazy. We thought it will get better from here. Little did we know this was just the beginning.

❤️KJD