#I need to fucking sleep lmfao

[lightningfilledsaber]

Ever hear a song that you KNOW is something someone you cut off is fucking playing to act all sad and mopey about you leaving? Follow up question: how do keep yourself from beating the shit out of someone without feeling like you're going to literally explode

#mud rambles #bad coping mechanism hours el oh el #just ruminating dw #I need to fucking sleep lmfao #anyway to indulge my paranoia a bit! #reminder to people I explicitly cut off and/or don't speak to for a reason that you're doing nothing but stroking your own bitchass ego by #'checking up on me' aka stalking my page #learn to not be such a self centered bitch and grow actual human decency <3 and sincerely fuck you #if I wanted your fucking concern i wouldn't have cut you off #it's kinda fucking late for it especially when i was literally fucking begging for it while we were still 'friends'! #you don't get to keep pretending you care! #and as much as you wanna delude yourself into thinking you actually do care trust me as someone who has actual delusions. you don't #you wouldn't have treated me the way you did if you actually had. especially when i literally. fucking begged you to work with me #stop making excuses. stop 'explaining.' i don't fucking care. it doesn't fucking matter #i've already gone over every possible fucking reason you would've done what you did. trying to 'offer an explanation' does nothing #except. again. stroke your own fucking ego #i've already recognized i'm at fault for letting myself be your fucking doormat and not standing up for myself sooner #however! lol! doesn't fucking mean i deserved what happened or that your 'reasons' matter #you assholes know i'm incredibly self aware. more self aware than y'all like to pretend i am #because to y'all i'm either a stinky dumb man who doesn't get it or just 'your boy' who apparently has just as much self reflection as y'al #which is to say. lol. absolutely fucking none #some advice. stop projecting and work on your motherfucking selves. i've been doing it since beffore i even met y'all #as much as y'all wanna ACT incompetent. you're not. grow the fuck up. you're both literally significantly older than me. #anyway that's enough for now I need to be normal. do something before i go to sleep so i don't just stay up thinking about this lol #because i'm at least actually putting effort into being a functional adult :-)

[skitskatdacat63]

I drew all of my historical AU Sebs!!!!

In order they are(with relevant links to lore info if you are curious!!): Napoleonic Hussar Seb(x), Renaissance Muse Seb(x) and Boy King/Emperor Seb(x)

Let me know which you like best!!!

#oh my fucking god this was truly the endurance race of drawing sessions #i just drew for four hours straight or so......FUN! #and it is now almost 5 am on a school night so pls wish me luck in school haha #basically this spawned from me seeing if i could sketch all 3 of my Sebs easily and then whoops 4 hours later they are finished! #i think now i can draw the hussar uniform with my eyes closed. it was so comforting to draw honestly ;;;; #this is actually the first time ive drawn boy king seb with colors!! so i think it turned out pretty well? #hey guys do you notice what all of the Sebs have in common...? they all have a gold motif...GOLDEN BOY CODED!!! #anyways i think the most developed of these AUs is boy king seb which is funny bcs its the one ive created most recently #but gaahhhhhh ive done so much research and im literally brainrotting over it constantly #now i need to draw fernando in his 3 AUs hahaha but drwing Seb is sooooo much more easy/comfy for me #did you guys also notice i have a fondness for a specific seb hairstyle? malaysia 2010 my truly beloved youve served me so well #i mentioned this already but like i dont get how drawing these kinds of clothing is far more preferable to me than drawing racesuits #well anyways i have so much fun researching into these different eras!! and then very fun to mix it with the drivers #im very surprised i was able to draw this. im not usually able to draw good chibi anatomy #but like seriously i think i was posessed by my thoughts of boy king seb and i just couldnt stop drawing #in didnt really have any mental roadblocks which is surprising #but then again these drawings are me mixing my two major interests atm so ofc it'll come to me easily and make me passionate!! #anyways time to go sleep pwease dont let this flop my hands literally are overheated from drawing LMFAO #catie.art. #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 fanart #formula 1 art #formula 1 fanart #f1 art #boy king au #renaissance muse au #hussar au

[queen0fm0nsterz]

TAKE THIS WOMAN AWAY FROM ME

#little nightmares #the lady #the lady little nightmares #little nightmares the lady #the lady ln #ln the lady #my art #GODSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS #RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #THE BEAST CANNOT BE CONTAINED #i was possessed while i drew this im ngl #started at 1 am finished at 4 am and i dont regret anything. my sleeping schedule has not recovered yet though #LMFAO #shes grogeous.... gorgos #hello beautiful #BFHADHAHDJDJ #i need mental help I believe i cannot keep going like this #I WAS CONSIDERING NOT PUTTING THIS IN THE MAIN TAG BUT THEN I DECIDED FUCK IT #IF I HAVE TO BE PLAGUED BY VISIONS SO DO YOU ALL

[draconiclights]

Drew Matt in paint cause i got bored have the classic screenshot with the MS tools and then the 2 finals ig

#matt bellamy #muse #muse band #ms paint #draconiclight #lmfao this took me like 3 hours and i am gonna sleep so late even tho i need to open tomorrow #idc this was fun #fuck yo goatee

[citriarchive]

sometimes i think about that one ship thing that's like A is taking a nap and B will fucking Get You if you wake them up and i think about how that's nithral and yaevinn but both ways because they both have garbage sleep habits and need to go to fucking bed actually

#; the citrus speaks #; healing hands #; lemon thesis moment #<- inspired by molly's tag for my theses lol #though it's not really a thesis #but eh #anyway au where uhhhh uhhhhhhhhh they sleep #they just sleep and are comfortable and have good dreams #that's it that's the concept #i feel like they're always both like “you need rest go bed” to each other but MAYBE they should BOTH just go to fucking bed!!! #apparently i have passionate feelings about the sleep habits of fictional blorbos #i say like that's new lmfao #anyway #; lemon's inane ramblings

[lvmbien]

Smn smn anniversary post?? idk

Im a little late on it, but March 13th of last year was when I started playing Obey Me. Which then resulted in me pulling several of my friends down with me and all of us becoming even closer. it was a great time, and even if Im not nearly as fixated on it as I was back then im still incredibly thankful for the game and our respective blorbos for being the catalyst that allowed our bond to grow.

(all that said; this is old art lmfao its been so long since ive drawn this dickhead)

#lvmbart #little lvmb #om!aries #belaries #seriously though the game felt a little TOO perfect tbh lmfao #me the auDHD bitch thats obsessed with sheep and named aries #that has habbits of sleep deprivation and forgets to eat #playing the game where the mc is represented by a sheep #and getting attached to SPECIFICALLY the avatars of sloth and gluttony #go fucking figure lmfao #ill pick the game back up when raphael is datable 👍 #well... maybe i dont have it in me to keep up with that gacha system anymore #someone needs to create an archive of all the devilgram and event story content so i can read it without having to get the damn cards #hell id be willing to contribute #obey me #omswd #belphie #belphegor #obey me mc #om belphie

[kimmkitsuragi]

not my first reaction to this information as i learned it during the intermission of challengers (yes i finally went to see it) and i was having a lowkey breakdown through the intermission and the beginning of the second half a little bit but ummm: well of fucking course i literally dont deserve anything

#why did i even try this hard. i dont think i deserve anything tbh #dont mind me sounding dramatic im actually fine like lol #im sad but ok but also like. i got used to being a failure and a disappointment this last year so #i feel very tired now. it wasnt a bad day overall and im happy i decided against going alone today #bc i wouldve literally ended up crying in public if i was alone lmfao #ah. ahhhhh :/ i really really really was hoping for a better outcome #stupid girl as always #anyway i really am fine i just need to be dramatic for a moment. i truly do not deserve anything i get ever im sorry #if anyone read until this point and wondering what the fuck couldve happened that got me like this #well it's truly not that important in the grand scheme of things and im being stupid #got wait listed for another scholarship lmao </3 #truly stupid and foolish of me to even think from the start that i could do this lmao #what's even more stupid is im still like well. well 🤠 hey maybe 🤗 #i just know im going to be feeling extremely guilty for even existing even if i end up being able to go at this point lmao #and it's so stupid to even write all this. over something like this when people have real problems and stuff lmao #truly what did i think make me worthy of this chance im so not special and dont deserve this etc etc #all this negative self talk and i will still be sleeping like 😴😴😴 still hoping for the best dont worry #and that's because im stupid #🗒 #i will drink tea this day has been lacking tea so critically :/

[tmos-time]

"yeah sure i can do a really early shift i just have to go to bed at like. 3pm" that was the devil talking man, fuck 🛏️🚶‍♂️

#tmos talks #the agony of needing a solid 6-7 hours bare minimum or The Bad Migraine shows up LMAO #like i have an HOUR AND A HALF after work until i have to sleep OTZ #at least ill be done super fucking early tomorrow and the day after lmfao

[dreamertrilogys]

man i can’t stop thinking abt the fact that i haven’t seen my INSANE gay ass situationship/close friend/crush/SPOUSAL FIGURE(?????. just trust me on this one) etc for 1.5 weeks and in that span of time i’ve managed to try weed party hard AND. well. Ok tags for this one

#hook up with a jewish gay tboy IN david’s bathroom. #<- which like. God there’s so much more context you need to understand what that means but genuinely i’m insane basically #anyway obvi i don’t regret it at ALL etc lmfao but just. Good God smth to think abt. Personally #<- LIKE i wasn’t thinking abt the whole. Deal while we were hooking up of course but now afterwards i’m like Wow that spells Zain ur insane #and also very much into redacted (situationship not hookup) very much like detrimentally maybe #anyway. #.txt #it wasn’t just the 1.5 weeks part btw i’m not that insane it was more like 1.5 weeks where i went out (to small parties/substance affairs) #like every few days with my friends is the thing #sorry this isn’t even a post for peach it’s a post for my PERSONAL DIARY. but i’m sleep deprived and possibly hungover rn so fuck it we ball #crushposting

[ruffgem]

I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao

#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms #I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try #IDK!!!! #I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life #I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent #everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!! #it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by #accident’ #THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN #whatever #some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also #indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real #ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY #after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day #and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’ #ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay #ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag #I loved them #they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL

[oofuri2003]

Tajima acts as though he just happened to notice hanai at certain moments as if the entire team doesn’t know Tajima just watches hanai always. King of unsubtlety

literally we were all there? hes acting like he wasnt the one who was so fixated on hanai that he started making things up in his mind about him

#i hate that he literally lost sleep over it and then had to muse about how the idea of hanai specifically being potentially into someone #was tormenting him and making him agitated like okay you need to chill. hand on shoulder you are obsessed with him. #god forbid hanai ever finds out about all of that actually that just hit me LMFAO #its jsut so funny that he invented all that in his mind and everyone else was like what the fuck are you talking about

[theyarebothgunshot]

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#i need to move i need to move sooo bad #i am going crazy from all the noise all the time living in this fucking weird ass street #and now that i have decided i wanna leave #my tolerance has gone way down lmfao #but for example last night i needed to go to sleep on time #was in bed by 23:30 #and then one of my neighbors proceeded to play loud fucking music until 2:00 :)))) #and now people are loudly talking on my front steps #anyways please manifest me finding a new place soon 🙏

[the-silver-sparrow]

While engaging in Pony Town shenanigans with my gf yesterday, I had an au idea for Hazbin

Except it's not exactly an "au" per se

Everything is the same except not only is Valentino less abusive, he's also friends with Alastor

And though it happened on accident it still grew on me, now I unironically like the thought of Val just being a sassy, entitled dickhead to piss off Alastor on purpose

#i need to sleep #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel valentino #idk man I'm obsessed with that dynamic #bonus points if the main reason he doesn't abuse Angel Dust is because he fucking despises him instead #lmfao

[orcelito]

Ok triple vaccine is kicking my ass. Now. I am.now grateful that I scheduled it with a day off after

#speculation nation #negative/ #i will be real this is genuinely one of the worst pains of my life #but to.make matters worse. my period started :/ so im dealing with first day cramps of Those #i got only 4 hours of sleep bc despite taking a melatonin i just Could Not Fall Asleep #my feet and legs were so very cold that even 45 minutes under a hot pad still hadnt warmed them #it took hours before i felt like i could remove it. idk how long exactly id finally fallen asleep #but june wouldnt stop crying until eventually she came up to bed #and poor sweet girl did her normal thing of climbing on me. which is usually fine. #but she stepped on my arm and. hhhhhholy shit lmfao That had to be one of the worst pains of my life. #like a 7 or maybe even an 8. right now doijg nothing id say its a 5 #i need to take ibuprofen but i need to get some food in me first #which. oh yeah. i got out of bed to try to eat a bit so i could take some ibuprofen. ended up lightheaded as fuck #had to sit down several times. until at one point i got hit with a spell so bad i was Convinced i was gonna throw up #sat beside the toilet with a cold sweat as i waited for the nausea to subside. #i was gonna have corn dogs for a small meal. they r in the microwave even. but rn i am.just gingerly sipping on an Ensure #with a plastic bag beside me lol. just in case. bc i dont fuck with nausea risks man i am.not puking on my floor. #eurgh why did my.body decide to make things worse for me.... this Sucks #emetophobia/

[therealvalkyrie]

bath + asparagus time

#I did some cleaning and my day’s gotten slightly better #long story short I’ve had a fucking weekend lmfao #last Thursday I had a complete breakdown on my way home prompted by like the smallest comment u could think of #nevertheless it made me sob violently #like picture florence pugh in midsommar but more hysterical #on Friday I had a good day!! but it was fuckin busy man and I didn’t get around to #half of the stuff I needed to #Saturday was also busy and on the way home from work my car started SMOKING!!!! from under the hood #nothing was on fire but it freaked me the fuck out and I couldn’t get it to the mechanic until today so I had to find rides everywhere #and that was stressful #I only got like 3 or 4 hours of sleep Saturday night bc I had a (fun!!!) thing that went really late and then had to get up at 5 for work #on Sunday #so Sunday afternoon I got home and napped from 2-6pm and then just went to bed at 8 so I STILL didn’t get any shit done #and then this morning I opened again and I spent my sh #ift w people who are even newer at my job than I am so I was like training them/doing everything they couldn’t do yet and it was just #a weird day and my boss was acting weird and I didn’t like it at all #and then this afternoon I take my car to the mechanic FINALLY and he says the radiator’s busted and leaking coolant everywhere and also #one of the tires is fucked so we have to get them all replaced #and that’s gonna be several hundred dollars which is fine it’s all fine but I’m fucking tired #and when I got home there were still dishes to do😭😭😭 #I need someone to baby me and clean my house #gawd #valkyrie talks

[otogariado]

How do you get the motivation to start new shows and not stop a few episodes in? There are so many shows i want to watch (bcs included thanks to your blogging) but even when i have nothing else to do, it just winds up feeling like a chore

it depends on the show really! you have no idea how many shows i've forgotten to watch and/or dropped in the middle of watching them bc my brain doesn't wanna. (answer: most of them.)

in the case of PoI i started watching it mostly bc of my friend christy and bc michael emerson is in it. but it also has an intriguing premise. if you look at the past shows i've completed since last year only like 2 or 3 of them don't have some sort of intriguing mystery/thriller element. i'm mostly curious abt where the show's gonna be headed since the premise itself leaves you open to explore a lot of like themes and topics.

#i also started watching tfprime but i'm only a few episodes in despite starting it weeks ago. i keep forgetting to continue it too #zom100 i started bc i couldn't sleep lmfao #starting brba actually felt like a chore for me too to be honest. but im glad i kept watching it bc its a good show #i dont like it as much as i do bcs though. i think bcs really hit all the boxes for me in terms of what kind of show i would be crazy over #it also helps to be in a state of distress bc i need a show or two to keep going or else ill go lose my fucking mind #(but dont actually go looking to be in a state of distress) #ill also mention fiona & cake bc that one i started watching just now bc adventure time was a HUGE part of my childhood to teen years #ive been with it since day 1 and never got off the ride #oh if youre talking about arcane... i finished it a while ago i just had a caitlyn moment #op #asks #anon