#I'll never go anywhere

[sowheresmyroom]

Thinking about how both Vox and Alastor use a smile as a mask and tool of control. With Alastor is obvious but with Vox we see this when he's speaking with Velvette about Valentino, most noticably when the door opens up on the way to the Voxtech Angelic Security interview bit, and in Stayed Gone before he devolves into a fit of rage.

Thinking about how Vox pretty easily lets that mask slip though, and especially behind closed doors he doesn't even feel the need to wear it in the first place. Times when he's comfortable and at least not challenged in a way that he needs to assert his control. Why would he if he's just hanging out in his own space with his partners?

But.

Thinking about how Alastor wears it 100% of the time, even when he's alone in his radio tower. Thinking about the conversation he had with Charlie to the beginning of episode 7.

Thinking about how Alastor is so affected by the hold over him that his deal has, that he NEEDS to wear the smile at all times to grasp at any straws of control he feels he has in his own life.

Thinking about how Vox wears his smile for other people but Alastor wears his smile for himself.

#vox #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin hotel spoilers #thinking about them at all times. permanent residence in my brain #vox is my babygirl but alastor is my meow meow. ya know? #season 2 is probably gonna gut me and im not ready I'll never be ready #i wasnt going anywhere with this parallel-skewing-perpendicular. literally just. thinking about it. #hazbin spoilers #episode 8

[fayevalcntine]

The whole framing of Lestat as the sole symbol of patriarchy that fandom is so desperate to put him in doesn't work unless you deliberately ignore how he was also a victim of rape and abuse before he was turned. People want him to be fit into this strict role of "father figure/violent husband/perpetrator" that is only that and not even a whole person, and in doing so they need to push aside the fact that despite being his family's provider, he was also pushed into that role when his father forbid him from joining a monastery or gaining an education that he wanted. Lestat wanted to run away with a theater group as a kid, and actually managed to do so once Gabrielle gave him her blessing and monetary support in order to go to Paris. He didn't always want to be the provider, he was forced into that role and became despondent when he thought he would never get a chance to leave his home.

His new life prior to being turned is pretty much the antithesis to the whole "Lestat is a manly man who would sooner throw up than be compared to a woman" spiel: he lived with another man in Paris while also being an actor, having left his family and "responsibility" to them. The only family member he was ever close to was his mother, all the other male members shunned or ridiculed him. Add onto that the fact that his turning firmly placed him within the role of the damsel/victim: he's kidnapped from his bed by a stranger, taken into a tower and left to rot while being fed on for a week, before then being raped and violently turned all while never even being asked if he would consent to it in any normal circumstance. But you of course have to ignore all of this if you want him to only represent the aggressor/patriarch while Louis is the helpless unhappy matriarch of the family.

My issue isn't that I think Louis isn't a victim, it's that it's not unrealistic for Lestat to be an aggressor/abuser while also displaying traits that aren't regularly assigned to stereotypical depictions of male characters. He's abusive to Claudia while also having been a victim of abuse from his own family. He's not a good maker/teacher, but he also didn't even have one when he was turned. He's the provider/attempted protector of the family and seemed to like being that, while also having run away from his own family prior to this to act in a theater in Paris. He's a rich white man while also being obviously effeminate in public spaces, even to Tom's own bigoted humor.

Like Louis' own complicated story with being his family's benefactor and provider, you can't firmly place Lestat as being one thing or another in terms of gender ideals without deliberately ignoring parts about him that don't fit this. And I don't think it's an absolute necessity, when even in Louis' own story, Lestat isn't stripped of his effeminate mannerisms or behavior while also being the abusive maker/father/lover.

#interview with the vampire #lestat de lioncourt #like even Louis doesn't try to act like Lestat was only ever the powerful 'daddy' of the house #if he was I doubt he'd even feature Lestat wanting to be king of mardi gras and doing that extremely flamboyant display #to the public's chagrin/disgust #the only people in awe of Lestat's peacocking are the women in ep7 like that man was NOT accepted by other rich men like Tom #and I don't point this out in order to dismiss the notion that he could be abusive/horrible #rather that it's completely possible for both things to be true? #also to the people that will likely go: but how does him being a victim of abuse negate him being a patriarch #idk maybe redirect your question to the Edwardian wife fanatics that think that no male character can be a victim unless he is assigned #the female while he is in a relationship with another man 🤷‍♀️ #I'll never forget how someone was also like 'Lestat fakes his femininity for the public' why? no one likes his effeminate ass anywhere #he holds more power by being white + rich than by being effeminate in order to ''''hide'''' his power which he never has or cared to #when Fenwick suggested to Louis to get a business under Lestat's name it's because Lestat being white could pass segregation laws... #not because his effeminate mannerisms grant him more favor.....

[blueskittlesart]

im writing au scripts again :/

#I CANNOT REVIVE THE COLISEUM AU MID-JUNIOR-THESIS. I CANNOT. REVIVE. THE COLUSEUM AU. MID FUCKING JUNIOR THESIS. #mentally taking 17 year old me and strangling them. why am i having this battle with myself rn #um anyways. 10 to 1 this never goes anywhere but apparently if you send me one message about an old au i'll go crazy #so keep that in mind everybody! #personal

[tianhai03]

guys wake up new C coloring pic just dropped <333 have some teefs i drew awhile ago that i probably never posted here

#this was a banger drawing and C made it so much cooler with the paint splatter ty for the addition #also it makes me happy to hear you like how i draw nero bc. i dont know how to draw him actually ahsdghkajd hes very hard to draw #anyway. sparda chompers supremacy. these boys have sharp teeth and they WILL bite someone with them #devil may cry #dante(dmc) #vergil(dmc) #nero(dmc) #fan's colorings #everything from here on out is directed at C bc i have no other ways to talk to them so you guys can stop reading here <3 #hey C! i actually didnt see what your first submission was bc i didnt even receive it lmao #but i just want to say that you dont have to worry about anything; what i said the other day wasnt directed at you at all #i do enjoy the little stories you have whenever your submit things; they seem to be pretty personal stories and i appreciate that you trust #me enough to tell me about them. #if you'd feel better not sharing any more that's fine! i'm never going to mention anything in them anywhere regardless #i'll just keep posting your colorings as usual for everyone to see and appreciate :) #hope you have a great day C! and thanks again for always coloring my stuff! #allyart

[hotwaterandmilk]

I was looking through some of my old scans from the first Wedding Peach manga volume to see if I had a copy of Peach's "Wedding Kick" attack when I got sidetracked by this part of the second chapter where Yuri and Hinagiku return from an evil vortex with the life sucked right out of them.

Peach can't believe her friends are really gone, but luckily she can harness the power of love and the pair are revived as Angel Lily and Angel Daisy. Hooray for the power of love!

It's honestly kind of horrific in retrospect that the heroine of a kids' comic was faced with her two best friends dying in her arms in the 2nd chapter. But it's no big deal, everyone! Lily and Daisy don't seem to notice and nobody ever mentions it again. Wheee!

I kind of love how things just sort of *happen* in these media mix titles? I appreciate how you've got a group of creatives trying to figure things out with deadlines looming and not everything sticks. If the team decides not to make a big deal out of an event then they ignore it afterwards, or a hastily assembled magical weapon can be replaced with something more commercially viable down the track.

In this case it's just hey let's not bring up that time Yuri and Hinagiku were dragged lifeless out of an evil void and Peach gave them sparkly friendship sob-CPR or whatever until they were revived angelically... and stuff. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#ai tenshi densetsu wedding peach #wedding peach #yazawa nao #nao yazawa #scan: hotwaterandmilk #ramblings #i mean that in all seriousness #i love it when things don't really go anywhere #or items change/are replaced #it just shows how fluid the concepts are when a media mix begins #and it's silly & fun #truly this kind of thing is why i'll never tire of series like WP #(also yazawa's art on these pages goes hard. so good.) #(first german hardback volume preordered now too. yay WP)

[dolotonglo]

while i think we all knew that this day was coming, i still chose, for seven years, not to give up hope. i put my faith in mappa and the yuri on ice team and while i'm not surprised by the cancellation, i'm still so dissapointed.

listen, i understand. there were a lot of factors that made production and release hard. it wasn't meant to be. i get it. but it still hurts. i still think we deserved clearer communication on this.

yuri on ice was a major part of my life for so long. that show opened my eyes to healthy queer relationships and made me realize that i was queer myself. watching the episodes as they came out and debriefing them with my friends was the highlight of my week. i have consumed fanworks from incredibly, astoundingly talented artists. i have created fanworks. i have talked to and connected with so many amazing people, all because of this show.

yuri on ice got me through the darkest points of my life. when shit hit the fan, i'd curl up in bed, wrapped in my blanket from hot topic, and loop the soundtrack to ground myself. yuri on ice has been there for every major turning point in my life, and comforted me through it.

although more recently i haven't been as involved in the fandom, it's still so, so dear to me. i'm sitting here, writing this, surrounded by yoi merch i've collected over the years. keychains, plushues, stickers. i'm blowing my nose with tissues from my makkachin tissue holder.

...it's just so surreal that the movie has finally been put to rest. but i'm happy to have known and loved this fandom, and i will carry these memories with me, always.

#this is my yoi heritage post #i owe these boys everything honestly #i was going through my docs recently and i have a mountain of yoi fics that never went anywhere haha #maybe i'll polish up some old wips and post them soon... #we'll see #also mutuals SORRY FOR THE YOI SPAM HAHA #ill b back 2 my regular ace attorney yapping soon ❤️ #just needed a minute to grieve #yoi #yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #ice adolescence #iceado #mappa #mannn fuck yall fr this #we deserved this news at least 4 yrs ago

[hide-your-bugs-away]

wet beatles jumpscare 😔

#wet beatles jumpscare 😔 #from 'keen teen' april 1965 #got this issue to read a huge article talking about the animals' wmca good guy-related stuff 👀👀👀 #there are some g o o d photos to go along with that article..... though hilton and chas may disagree #got jumpscared by wet beatles though 😔🙏 i had to do a double take to make sure i was looking at george #at least the article itself doesn't use the word 'beatle' as a prefix every other word like my issue of 'teenville' #they were in sydney here right??? so no ringo.... guess jimmy got wet too 😔🙏 #george harrison #paul mccartney #john lennon #mclennon #because i'm sure y'all love your wet mclennon #the beatles #not a second mag #the stones were on the cover of this which was really cool!!!! #also eric and alan touched shoulders in one of the photos so that's a hashtag win for me 🙏🙏🙏 #i'll post the animals photos sometime soon because eeEEE I'VE NEVER SEEN THEM ANYWHERE BEFORE

[brooklynisher]

They should make a Stardew Valley Mod where Piper Faraday is a bachelorette

NOT FOR ANY REASON IN PARTICULAR I’M JUST OH NO MY PANTS AHHHH MY PANTS AHHHHHH🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

#piper faraday? more like piper faraslay #because she’s so fine #hhhhhhh #guys I didn't even finish the game #but she's so afhdbguojhasbguoysdpyui9gvf #hehehehe #she's #she's really uhmm #uhhh #I don't really know that much about her either #I'll have to go back and play on casual mode if I want to really understand the plot #but that's the thing with me and turn based games #I get really attached to the characters that I use the most #for some reason #and Piper is never going anywhere #never ever #all I know is that she's an outlaw #but she's doing it for the greater good #and that's all I need to know #love the way she talks to and treats her crew #I think #idk the gameplay has me distracted from the plot #love her #piper faraday #steamworld heist #my stuff

[theinfinitedivides]

so much for not writing the fic

#tv: vigilante #vigilante #vigilante kdrama #nam joo hyuk #yoo ji tae #kim so jin #lee joon hyuk #kdrama #local gay watches Vigilante.txt #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #local gay writes fanfic.txt #it's not my fault it's Heon f*cking me up with his hand on Ji Yong's face that spawned this post-canon fic where the latter #comes back from his activities and Heon is in his house. sitting on his couch without warning. Ji Yong's still in his hoodie btw #there's blood all over his face. he is in a state of affairs but you know how i like my men #never mind this will probably like. never see the light of day anywhere and that it's more hurt/comfort than anything else but #we'll see how it goes. that's all i can say for y'all not to get your hopes up i have other sh*t to finish sksksksk #edit: i hate when i listen to music while writing and subconsciously work the lyrics into my sh*t. Polly by Moses Sumney came on #and this is why you have the 'he'll dissolve just like that' line bc uh. 'i'll dissolve / i know it won't solve this (i want to #dissolve) / evolve into rain and spit / you make me go unstitched' if you get it you get it if you don't you don't. full stop

[osoreruna]

yeah, yeah — comedic relief...blah, blah... but also, y'all do realize, the fact that toshi regularly coughs up blood is a sign that he never fully / properly healed from his afo battle, right —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #and it's because of how he continues to utilize ofa #y'all realize this right — #he continues his normal hero work for YEARS... #he VERY LITERALLY sacrifices his own body to continue saving people #to continue being of service #to continue being the world's symbol of peace... #he wouldn't be in anywhere NEAR as bad of shape if he'd listened to sir when he told him to retire. #or even just cut his shifts in half. #but no — he continued at full capacity for 6 years... #6 YEARS HE NEVER PROPERLY HEALED FROM LITERALLY LOSING HIS STOMACH AND A LUNG. #6 years he prioritized literally EVERYONE ELSE over himself. #i've said it nine times and i'll say it again: #you don't have to LIKE all might...but you gotta give him props. #i'm not sure there's many other heroes that would get up every day and sacrifice their entire selves to being a TRUE hero for *society* #after going through something like that.

[emgod666]

in the middle of assessing for adhd/asd and i feel like an idiot. is this normal? lol

#not a pleasant experience #sorry this is a bit tmi don't bother reading or do #my main concern is I’m gonna fall down a pit - and not the pit from gravity falls #i just feel like my life is gonna stop when/if they say hey honey you're just a confused straggler #the universe likes to target and punish people like you and you get to ask why forever #you will never belong anywhere with anyone and i'll make that permanent now gtfo of my office w your slight hope and fry #i feel sick to my stomach and i wish i could go back to being oblivious

[covenofthearticulate]

can I tell y'all a secret............

you don't actually have to be as smart as a Smart Character to be able to write them........you just have to understand their motive and their speech/articulation patterns........

#sincerely: someone who has gotten better at writing louis but who does not actively use her brain for Smart Things anymore #like forreal. i got my college degree in rhetorical theory LMAO like we called it communication studies but it was actually rhetoric #i thought i was sooooooooooo smart but actually. you know what. i've grown so much as a writer since then LOL #and i think it's honestly mostly because i really do try to go back to the text and study louis' voice #rather than like. louis' specific socio-political opinions lmfao #idk! just something i've been noticing lately! i'll never be anywhere near as educated as louis but i'll be damned if that stops me LMAO

[doedipus]

Hoo boy the dread and uncertainty and dread about uncertainty are sure hitting hard tonight

#nothing I'm doing makes seeeense #nothing I'm spending time on is valuableeee #almost a whole year dedicated to anticipating going back to school and then doing it and then quitting #a whole year and nothing to show for it #how am I supposed to deal with a whole year of my life being nothing #and now I'm back at square 1 with nothing to show for it #my life is never going anywhere man #I'm still gonna be wasting away as a hikikomori living in a cell in my parents' house until they die and then I'll die

[selective-yellow]

happy valentines day im obsessed with my wife :)

#i love my wife!!! shes my best friend and partner!!! #she makes me feel loved and cared for!!! everything i do i do for her!!! #when I'm anywhere without her i cant wait to get home!! sometimes i dont wanna go to sleep bc i'll miss her!! #we're mutually obsessed with each other!! ive never had anyone like me so much!! #i love being a femme's butch!!

[mortellanarts]

2023 go bye bye

#999 spoilers #art summary #art summery 2023 #my art #shoutout to all my monster high drawings that are still in the oven #I haven't posted them anywhere but! my friends made them pins and I've sold them on cons throughout the year :3 #I only started drawing them as a request from a boothmate actually and they're such fun designs to draw!!! #I went to a lot of local conventions to participate in the artist's alley and made so many friends that way it was wonderful #I think the next thing I'll reblog will be the game I worked on! #found out the nda doesn't cover me simply saying 'hey I worked on this thing coming out in a few months!' #so I made artist and cosplayer friends selling my art on the beach and I got my first proper job #....then I proceeded to give me a shoulder inflammation because my setup was terrible and it had to catch up to me eventually #but! already managed to get a new tablet and desk for myself!! it's even a screen tablet so there'll be a learning curve but I'm excited #I'm hoping this display will make things easier I always had trouble sketching on digital #and I am more carefully taking breaks now also because turns out relying on hiperfocus is bad for you? never knew #I was going through some stuff in the middle of the year there though I had so many vent drawings of akane from may to october qwq #not featured here are the tons of utena and umineko wips I have accumulated those were my favorite new media I got to experience for sure #in fact I'm watching the adolescence movie rn!! what in tarnation is this last act lol whatever! go Anthy go!!! floor it queen #also not featured the tons of oc stuff I made :D I'm glad I feel like I can start properly working on them soon ^^ #but yeah that's that I felt like writing a whole diary entry in these tags and you read it and that's what tumblrs all about ♡♥︎

[marzfartz]

Those days when you can't pick what to eat but are just excited by the food court options

#my art #original art #found this pic on my computer and felt bad that it never got anywhere to go #I'll post it here so it has somewhere to live