#Or feel embarrassed by it WHO KNOWS

[taralen]

[[$1TTT]]

COULDN'T LAST 24 HOURS WITHOUT GOING MANIC, AND NOW I LOOK AT THAT SAPPY SHIT I WROTE AND THINK, DAMN I WROTE THAT?

OH my god it's like I am fighting with another person here. I look at once post and think HAHA yes I WROTE THAT. YES ME. And then I look at something else and go "WAIT A MINUTE HERE......."

BROS which is it? Which is it? HAHAH I can't even Tell YOU!

Won't last long? Don't last long? HA you tell me. I WROTE THAT.

SAPPY ASS LITTLE ME! DAMN! Let's see how many blogs I can FIGHT WITH MYSELF here ASIDhah

I MEAN okay...... It's all true. IT IS. I LOVE YOU all BUT have patience with me because I want to literally chuck a GODDAMN D*ILDO at my neighbor I MEAN I don't have one but Imagine if I DID!

Throat's dry and the world is very very far away! I yell IN CAPS because that's how distant IT all seems........

AN UPDATE SOON(tm) ON an incredible pUrchase I made. YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT. Those who know KNOW! NOW I just gotta figure out how I can make a BIG SHOT joke ov erit (LOL I WROTE BIG SHIT AT FIRST. DAMN THANKS FREUDIAN SLIP!)

#musings #manic vent #HEY ME when I'm sane please laugh at this post later #Or feel embarrassed by it WHO KNOWS #REMEMBER laughing at me is laughing with me!

[aristhought]

i hope everyone who i have ever seen crying in public knows that i never judged or thought less of them and that i always hoped they were going to be okay

#ive cried in public enough to know how embarrassing it feels but probably nobody who sees you is thinking anything bad about it at all #if they even notice #ppl who cry in public ily and im sending hugs #j.exe

[aeide-thea]

on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance

#it's such an ugly word but like. self-pleasure is good‚ actually #it's good to know yourself and what you like and lovingly treat yourself to it! #like similarly 'meretricious' is extremely tempting if you ignore the underlying metaphor #but. hard to. #language #and quite frankly i think people who whip out 'masturbatory' in this sneering sort of way #are leveraging‚ if we're honest with ourselves‚ a particular framing of it as a gross thing that boys do #because like. when have you ever heard a *woman's* self-indulgent art described as masturbatory #like don't get me wrong we absolutely still dismiss it! but we dismiss it in other ways #that are usually about how embarrassing her *yearning* is #and so even our sneering is reinforcing an idea that men Act whereas women Feel #anyway this was prompted by some things but i shoved it in the queue so now i forget what lol #so here you are getting some contextless thoughts on the use of 'masturbatory' as sneering dismissive assessment! #just what you were hoping for i'm sure :)

[luvrxbunny]

it is the most embarrassing, and humbling experience to search for smut for a certain character… only to find that no one else is horny for them.. like damn.. i’m weird, huh?

#hopefully this is relatable #omg how embarrassing would it be if this actually doesn’t happen to people 😭 #in this instance i’m talking about.. #sterling archer #😭 #IF YOU DONT KNOW HIM #DO NOT GOOGLE HIM #I FEAR JUDGEMENT #but yeah he’s so #and he has such obvious mommy issues like #i could fix you baby #i could make you feel better #like i swear to god #all he needs is some praise and a good fucking #BUT APPARENTLY IM THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS THAT #archer fx #archer tv show

[againstme]

hello my fellow autistics. i’m asking you a question and giving you two options only sorry but i’m curious if this is just a me experience or just not liking my ex lmao:

i personally thought i would be all about smooching and making out but like. lips are slimy. and i never know what i’m doing sowwwy. 🫣 also my ex used to bite my lips, very hard. what the fuck was up with that

#if you vote pls reblog i wanna seeeee #smooching you on the mouth? having another person’s tongue in my mouth? #hickeys though? great 1000000%. really love giving really love receiving. #this could also be due to just not being used to doing it. but who knows tbh. #iiiiiii don’t fucking know man. i feel like unless i REALLY like you idk if i’d like it #autism #neurodivergent #blah blah yeah u get it #is this embarrassing to post? maybe. #i swear i’m not a BAD kisser it just wasn’t what it was hyped up to be for me #idk.

[bisexualfbiagents]

Actually, all I ever wanted in life was to be left alone. Don't we all? So just my luck that I'd eventually become an alien abductee. Now I'm never alone.

CELEBRATING 30 YEARS OF THE X FILES Day 5: Favorite Arc Part Two ➤ The Suspicious Crash of Flight 549 from Tempus Fugit (4.17) and Max (4.18)

#the x files #txf #txfedit #xf30th #xfiles #xfilesnet #dailytxf #4x18 #fox mulder #dana scully #max fenig #flashing tw #coloring this set aka my 13th reason #at some point i had to just give up #recovering perfectionists hello!!! #feelin a little goofy for not doing like an actual arc but that's the fun here right? that feeling of vulnerability when being creative? #maybe the creative process is being in a constant state of feeling embarrassed and then one day it just fades away #who knows!! #mine

[bobbinalong]

Drawing them with a baby yesterday made me think about if I thought Prestonbart would have kids and the answer is not necessarily but IF they were to have a kid, it would be in this sort of constellation. Carol decides to have a kid, asks Bart and/or Preston to be a known donor, they discuss this with each other and eventually decide yeah, a kid sounds rad, but they'd like to be properly involved, as dads not just fun uncles. So -- et voilà -- three parent family. Also, the free space in this image bothers me immensely.

#dc #dc comics #fanart #bobbinart #carol bucklen #preston lindsay #bart allen #prestonbart #this is today's prestonbart drawing this took me an embarrassing amount of time #carol&preston&bart #oc max bucklen #i suppose #i don't think i'm ever gonna draw them again but who knows #also it's clear enough i think but i do feel the need to re-iterate that carol's not a surrogate or whatever #she's max' mom. they're all equal parents #also bart and carol have drunk from the fountain of youth they always have baby faces #preston looks like his dad with his mom's hair

[dailymanners]

When planning hang outs with your friends or acquaintances, try to be considerate of other's budgets. Unless you're positive someone can comfortably afford something, don't invite friends and acquaintances to expensive places or events unless you're offering to pay for them.

Often if someone is struggling financially, they already feel self conscious about it, and inviting them to places and events they can't afford can be embarrassing and make them feel worse about their financial situation.

It's also not a good feeling to be excluded from hanging out with your friends because you can't afford to.

So if you know your friend or acquaintance is struggling, invite them to places that are cheap or free, or offer to pay for them.

In some places, social decorum used to dictate that whoever invited is supposed to pay, so if you invited friends to go to a cafe or bar you were supposed to pay for their drinks. That's typically not expected anymore in most places, so depending on where you live, you don't have to stress about not being able to invite friends out for coffee or drinks if you're unable to afford paying for someone else.

However, if you can afford it, it's still a kind and polite gesture to offer to pay for your friends if you were the one who invited them out. Especially because you're less likely to hurt the pride of a financially struggling friend if you insist you're only paying for them because it's good social decorum that whoever invited is the one who should pay.

#manners #courtesy #good manners #etiquette #politeness #As a small caveat #I don't think there's something inherently embarrassing about needing a friend to pay for you #due to financially struggling #been there done that I have had my fair share of financial struggles #and was lucky to have kind friends #but I know some people who feel it hurts their pride #if they admit their financial struggles #and they feel it wounds their pride if someone has to pay for them #so insisting that you're only paying for them due to social decorum #that whoever invites is whoever should pay #is a good way to circumvent hurting their pride

[soloorganaas]

i just read this sentence in hp lexicon:

But the most important defensive measure the Lupin taught Harry was outside of class, the Patronus Charm, "Expecto Patronum" which he used to save himself and his godfather, Sirius Black, from Dementors

and i cannot believe it took me until today to connect the dots that remus was indirectly responsible for saving sirius’s life

#in my head i was always like oh yeah patronus saves harry protects him from his traumas etc etc #i have read PoA 200000000 times #this is so embarrassing but i am also full of a lot of Feelings rn #wolfstar #fam: christmas gift #hp #like all that time he thought sirius was guilty he was inadvertently teaching harry what he needed to know to stop the love of remus's life #who was actually innocent from being lost to him forever just after he'd got him back #i am so upset

[aq2003]

what i like about ten is how genuinely unfit he is as the doctor. his tragedy is that he's too mortal to be immortal. he's immediately set to crash and burn the minute he spawned in. he's like an outlier and an outsider in basically every way and tbh it's wild that he became one of the most known incarnations of the character + some later incarnations have taken after him bc his whole thing to me feels very "i wish i wasn't who i am but i am terrified to be any other way". twelve on the other hand feels so much more definitive. like this is what i feel like the doctor would be like on a regular basis and more incarnations (in this era of nuwho at least) would realistically be more like him. this is the doctor at their core when they're not actively trying to disguise themself as something else. they are ancient and tired and angry and it shows clear as day

#whos the anon that told me i'd go crazy over ten and really love twelve they clocked me so hard its so embarrassing #he sucks and i like him :) #dr who #i feel like there should be a better way to write him being mean to clara other than making comments abt her appearance though #even though in universe i know it's not in like a misogynistic way it's like an 'alien thinks you look weird' way #it kind of rubs me the wrong way though. (this is my only significant gripe abt how twelve is characterized rly so far) #10 era #12 era

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I've always felt that it'd be Killua who initiates the first hug we see between him and Gon

#i have my reasons for this #i feel like i'm in the minority though... i know gon is honest and much more emotionally expressive #but he's not actually more tactile than killua #i... i actually do think that it's killua who initiates much of the contact between them (fistbumps and poking and hand on shoulder) #if i'm not mistaken anyways #and he's very tactile with alluka and nanika (carrying + hugs + handholding) #granted that's his sister(s) but still. killua is far from touch averse - his getting embarrassed is a cute trait to be sure #but i do think he'll get a bit better at accepting that kind of thing once he's had some time with alluka and nanika #a lot of that does come after all from his feelings of unworthiness - and now that his sisters need open affection after so long being alon #he's going to have to gain at least some comfort with giving and receiving love #gon and mito go for hugs either at the same time or mito initiates. gon hugs leorio in the scene right after he's revived #but idk idk i just feel like he won't be the first to initiate a hug with killua especially since i suspect he still feels quite guilty #i think it would show growth on both their parts. not to mention it'd be very sweet to have gon a bit blindsided + happily surprised #as he's the one typically honest and forthright with appreciation and compliments while killua is. not. lmao #i think he should receive a nice hug from his best friend. and then i think they would both know it's gonna be ok. :') #storyrambles #hunter x hunter #hxh #killua zoldyck #gon freecss #this is so sappy. what's wrong with me. this is what they do to me.

[coyotebrained]

Some recent thoughts about nonhumanity and my relationship to the community + my personal relationship with it that I cleaned up, my writing style is a bit disjointed, I would like to share more of my writing, if anyone would be interested in seeing that :)

#I have a lot of thoughts about nonhumanity that I don’t know how to share #feel like there is such a communal focus on misinfo and easily digestible “content” #that there’s no space to talk about anything else that no one would care to look. #Not that there is anything wrong with that focus and not to say that I am exempt from participating in it! #I just don’t want that to be what represents me and the only way I engage in this community yk? #I want to spend most of my time talking to people who I have similar experiences to #not explaining things to people that are new to the space or just coming into their identities #which again there’s nothing wrong with that! everybody starts somewhere #(again I’m not an exception lol!) #I also have some misplaced resentment that I need to sort out I think idk it’s hard to sort. #It’s also hard to be okay with caring this much about stuff like this at all #i try not to be embarrassed i am anyway. #It comes with the territory of having mental stuff I guess lol can’t help being a freak! #nonhumanity #therian #canine therian #therianthropy #otherkin #therian art #nonhuman #dog therian #alterhuman #therian community #nonhuman community #coyote therian #kin #coyote kin #canine kin

[leascno]

marius and grantaire’s friendship is so important to me 👉👈

#les miserables #les mis #les miserables fanart #marius pontmercy #grantaire #simp squad meeting is in SESSION #i just love how in the musical marius is like NONE OF U UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE IN LOOOOOVE #when a whole ass grantaire is there #R enabling marius in red and black is so!!! aaaaah he WOULD do that #grantaire: YEAH MARIUS SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE GROUP #marius being the only person other than enjolras himself who doesn’t know about grantaire’s massive embarrassing crush lol

[tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang]

Au where during Kazutora's first shift at the pet shop someone tried to rob it and Kazutora who was nervous about it being his first day just blurted out "no it's not" and confused the guy enough to make him leave. Chifuyu cried while laughing when he heard about it

#i feel like Kazutora would be super nervous during his first shift and not be thinking straight he'd probably be embarrassed about it after #tokyo revengers #tokrev #tokyo rev #hanemiya kazutora #matsuno chifuyu #tokyo revengers spoilers #idk who would rob a pet shop but i know someone out there would probably demamd the cash in the till

[kasumikoujou]

#i tried to make my fast sketches have more FLAIR. mayhaps it worked #i am also NOT putting this in the main gundam tags i will feel like im embarrassing my peers #the sumi rambles #me :) #sise #@ awagf on left!!!@ i can ping her now !!!!!! real #@ earlier its also liek.. u know who these are anyway... aherm #i am very sorry to g00 community also. i am a michael fan. its true and it is out to the world now #my deep dark secret 😔 #i did draw him before but. god bles i cannot share that with the world everOEMSMMWLWMF #yume

[lampochkaart]

Long Oumota post

I just wanted to gather my thoughts about them and somehow put into words why I love them so much and how I imagine their relationship would develop. Honestly, it's just something very self indulgent ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The thing about them that captured me first was probably the tragedy. Chapter 5 of V3 is without a doubt my favorite in the whole series. Just thinking about everything from the beginning of the chapter to the very end is driving me crazy. So much has happened, so much has been revealed. It’s so wild how they worked together for everyone's sake even though they had a very tense relationship. But still they were willing to find a common language and make compromises.

And I also can’t stop thinking about how Kokichi basically sacrifised himself for everyone, even though almost none of them would've call him their friend, and Kaito was the only one who witnessed it. He was the only one who saw a glimpse of the real Kokichi, the only one who saw his mask fall (and the one who had to put on the same mask for the plan). And Kaito was the only one who could tell about all of this to others.

Also how much they mirror each other. They’re so different. They’re the same. Momota playing the hero but not being the protagonist, Ouma playing the villain but not being the real bad guy. Momota being idealist, Ouma being cynic. Momota, who’s guided by feelings, ignoring logic, Ouma, who’s guided by logic, ignoring feelings. Momota dying feeling hope, Ouma dying feeling despair. They’re both leaders. They’re both liars. They're both taking the hit so that others won't have to. They're both refusing to ask for help.

They have enough differences to constantly compete and bring the best and the worst of each other. They have enough similarities to understand each other and exist together.

And now here’s some thoughts on how I imagine their relationship will go.

I absolutely LOVE "enemies-to-lovers" trope. But. I like the specific form of this trope. And I'm also a really big fan of slowburn. So it's more like:

Strangers-to-Enemies-to-Forced-Begrudging-Allies-to-Friends-to-Oh-No-Moment

At first first they didn't care about each other very much. But as the game progressed, their opposing ideals and strategies started to clash and eventually mutual annoyance turned into full-blown hostility. Kokichi's "make myself everyone's enemy" strategy escalated situation even further. The absolute breaking point was in Chapter 4.

In Chapter 5 at first Ouma was making preparations for a plan and then declared himself the mastermind and locked Kaito in the Hangar. I believe it was intentional and he was going to use his "unknown victim plan" even before Maki shot him. He was writing the script even before everything went to shit. After using electrobomb to deactivate cameras, he added and changed a few things but for the most part script was written before. All the while in the Hangar before Maki came he was trying to come up with ideas how to convince Kaito to cooperate with him but Momota wasn't really in the mood for it and more often just tried to break out or capture Ouma.

But after Maki left Kokichi, he, seeing the perfect opportunity for the plan, blackmailed Kaito into cooperating. Ouma forced him to drink the antidote (bacause Kaito would never have agreed to drink it if he'd just offered). Momota hated everything about this plan, but there was nothing he could do.

They worked together, but they weren't really close at this point. It's heartbreaking, but I don't think they even hugged in the Hangar. For several reasons. Firstly, obviously because of poison. Kokichi was already feeling REALLY awful from poison, crosbow bolts and blood loss, so physical contact would most likely cause him even more pain. Secondly, Kaito still had mixed feelings about Kokichi and couldn't properly process everything that happened. As for Ouma, he was trying to find balance between Momota caring enough to not abandon the plan and hating him enough to not feel too bad.

So yeah...(As a Virtial Reality AU truther i can afford to make development more slow)

Kaito absolutely hated himself for the murder, but still did his best to carry out the plan. In the end the plan failed and he had no choice but to come out of the Exisal to prevent Monokuma from killing everyone. And as I already said in one of the earlier posts he was probably still at the stage of denial when he was talking with everyone after the Class Trial. He wasn't ready to accept the idea that Ouma was their ally and was actually trying to help. Because admitting it would definetly break him.

But after they woke up from simulation, all of them actually had a chance to fix things, since they now weren't constantly under threat of death. And Kaito was hellbent on making Kokichi his friend. But of course Ouma would never make it easy. He's VERY stubborn, and the more someone tries to pull him along, the more Kokichi resists. However, after Kaito changed tactics and stoped pushing too hard, the two began to grow closer. They become actually very good friends. They have many common interests and they enjoy each other's company.

And then the "Oh shit" moment happened.

Technically Kokichi was first to catch feelings, but... he wasn't going to do anything about it. He's like "uh oh, that's pretty inconvenient. oh well." Because, first of all, he doesn't want to die and he's 100% sure Maki would definitely kill him if he'd even joke about in front of her. And also... he doesn't want to accidentaly ruin his friendship with Kaito because he really enjoys spending time with him. So he decided to keep things as they are. But Kaito didn’t.

You know, I've got a confession to make. I really like the idea of Ouma being the oblivious one. Both because it's so funny and also because I think Kokichi might just actually not consider a possibility of someone having feelings for him. So he just misses or outright ignores any hints that Kaito not-so-subtly makes. Which drives Momota insane.

His friends support him, even though most of them are not very happy about this development. Eventually Kaito decided to just confront him and tell him everything (not without Maki's advice: "For fuck's sake, just tell everything outright. I don't want to listen to your whining anymore. If he's gonna laugh at you just punch him.") And he did (tell, not punch). Kokichi just stared at him with blank expression for a full minute (he's making sure that Kaito's not lying) and then casually said "okay.” playing it off like it's not a big deal (but it is).

I think at first Suichi and Make were kinda suspicious of Kokichi and watched him very carefully to make sure that he wasn’t just using Kaito to get whatever he wanted. It didn’t help that Ouma was often jokingly saying stuff like that. But Shuichi, after careful observation began to notice very small, almost imperceptible things. Like when Kokichi sometimes “accidentally” loses to Kaito in some games after so many wins in a row, just so that Momota doesn’t get bored and instead would want to play even more. Or that Ouma actually pays attention every time Momota starts babbling about space even if he tries to look uninterested. Or how doodles of constellations started to appear in the margins of his notes or blueprints. And the fact that he for some reason become intrested in plants and proper care for them and secretly asks Kirumi and Gonta for advise. All those things are invisible to most people but the more you’re paying attention the more you start to notice. And it seems like Kaito also notices them (and is very happy about it). So even Shuichi and Maki accept this unexpected development.

I think together they could be sort of a major inspirational force for the class. And not just in romantical sence but in general. They’re fine with being the center of attention (for a while) and are not ashamed of being a little silly, so they can help less confident people from class to gather courage to do something. Like at any dance party they’re most likely to be the first to go to the dance floor. Or if they all are going to karaoke Kokichi and Kaito would be competing and singing with a little too much passion and energy. Or just be the first ones to volonteer to do something and by doing so encouraging others to join. I think it’s very cool.

Also I did those ship bingo things that I see everywhere. I didn't know where to put them so they'll just be here at the very end.

#my art #oumota #kokichi ouma #kokichi oma #drv3 kokichi #kaito momota #drv3 kaito #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 killing harmony #danganronpa v3 #drv3 #i... don't really know what to write #like i said i mainly did it for myself #it feels a little embarrassing to post #but honestly who cares #i'm cringe but i'm free