#SAFE driver? no. but BAD driver?

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

I have to laugh at that Dean being bad at sex post. This is just like that post saying Dean's a bad driver. Have you not watched the show

#fake news #SAFE driver? no. but BAD driver? #Dean has proven to be a very skilled driver #I usually don't vague about posts but come on now. be serious #does lisa ''best night of my life'' braeden ring any bells? not to mention Cassie? the girl from the P.A. episode? Anna? #em rambles #dean winchester

[torchickentacos]

I’m not saying that taking a sip of white wine every time someone at the family reunion says something republican is a HEALTHY coping strategy but like. I’m pleasantly tipsy and didn’t start a queer rights rant in the front yard so win?????

#taylor's tag #bad news. now I’m comfy adn want to take a nap but I have a 2 hour drive home #and* #I’m not the driver obvs drive safe drink safe etc

[youspeakshit]

re: lando norris, starbucks, F1 and boycotts

the first rule of Formula 1 is understanding these privileged men do not give a shit. they partake in the most elite sport there is, where only 20 people can do it at a time. it's a bubble of money and luxury they thrive whitin.

just don't put anyone on a pedestal or your hand on fire for any of them. not even the ones that seem like the good ones.

personally, I expect the bare minimum of no homophobia, no racism, no sexual misconduct or assault. but I do not expect them to care about world problems as strongly as we do. bc if all went to shits they will run to a safe mansion, and we'll be the ones left to survive.

embrace fandom and friendships, the fun of the races and the drama, sharing gifs and fics and edits, and put THAT above your favorite driver!

#eveytime a driver i like has a bad race i think it's the universe keeping the balance and humiliating this hot millionaire #formula 1 #f1 #text post #lando norris #like the level is so low i dont even expect them to be faithful partners to the WAGs 😭 #not even seb and lewis are safe from this btw #i say this so ppl dont upset themselved too much abt them #NOT defending the drivers at all #i wish it wasnt like this but the elitism of the sport has only gotten WORSE so.... #no hope for change anytime soon :/ #charles leclerc #max verstappen #lewis hamilton #george russell #discourse

[bogkeep]

it's been over a whole month since i had a stupid argument with my parents about driving, a skill that i legally possess but hate doing because i have a special brain illness that makes me fear death and injury, but i'm still chewing over an absurd claim that it's "equally dangerous to go on a 14 hour train ride like you just did". literally how is that more dangerous. in what way. in what world. public transport is nice and good and i like it and i don't have to enter my personal torment nexus

#goddddd it was so bad #i was trying to explain that yes i understand the importance of maintaining my skill but also i want to build my life in a way that doesn't #depend on doing a thing that stabs me directly in the mental illness #and i was basically told that im both a whiny coward that doesn't wanna do scary things AND i do scary things all the time????? #pick one!!!!!!!!! either im a stupid sheltered baby or im a brave soldier who understands the danger of being alive!! #ive always been a Good and Agreeable child but ive been grounded One time in my life #and that was when my parents were teaching me to ride a bike without training wheels and it stressed me out and made me cry so much #I WONDER IF MAYHAPS I HAVE ANXIETY #I KNOW I GOTTA DO SCARY THINGS BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS SCARY AND I DO THEM ANYWAY #but like sending an email is not putting my life at risk as like. car traffic #and for all my anxiety the only fear ive ever had about public transport has been like. missing a train or a bus #im not afraid of travelling alone or sharing a space with people??? #and p much most public vehicles are safer than personal cars???? #drivers of the vehicles receive more rigorous training and stuff??? and also they get a lot of experience bc they do it every day??? #how is that less safe than putting a mentally ill nervous wreck in the torment nexus #is this what evangelion was about bc im not sure

[gay-jesus-probably]

What was your 9/11 sona

God, I wish I remembered. Unfortunately, while the whole mess is absolutely hilarious in hindsight, back in the day I just thought it was incredibly tasteless and an insult to the people who actually lost loved ones that day (which it absolutely was!), so I was mortified to have to participate in it. But I didn't want to argue the point, cause with how subjective English is, getting on the teachers bad side will just obliterate your grade, and I'd always been in the high 90's for english so I wasn't about to break that streak over a stupid insensitive writing assignment. So I grit my teeth, wrote some shitty, generic OC, gave them a tasteless, non-offensive eulogy, then tore up the paper and threw it out the second I got the marked assignment back.

And that was about a decade ago now, so I can't remember any details about my tragically deceased 9/11sona - all I can really remember about grade 9 english is the 9/11 stuff, the teacher being really weird about demanding we say 'zed' instead of 'zee' because we're Canadian, and the look of absolute shock on her face when she informed me that I'd gotten a perfect 100% on the reading comp part of the PAT exam (still lowkey proud of that lmao). Moral of the story, don't throw out really embarrassing school writing assignments; they might be hilarious in hindsight.

...The real punchline of all this is that while I went to all that effort to avoid pissing off my teacher and tanking my marks in grade 9, in grade 10 I hit that exact problem literally before my first class had started. I had english in the second semester that year, and my older sibling had given me the book version of Les Miserables as a christmas gift that year, and I was still working on it when school started back up. So I made the terrible mistake of walking into english class about ten minutes early, cracked open my book to pass the time... and then after a few minutes of watching some punk teenager casually reading les mis, the teacher got up, asked me to step out into the hall, then led me into the classroom next door to introduce me to the AP english teacher, and inform him that I was probably better suited for his class. I had to hastily clarify that no the fuck I was not, I had three core classes that semester and a mixup with my one elective meant I was stuck in the goddamn grade 12 band class, so if I didn't have one class I didn't need to put effort into, I would die of stress. Grade 10 english teacher tried to pressure me into taking the AP class anyways, and after I kept refusing, she eventually was like "fine, you can stay in my class, but I'm going to grade you like you're an AP student the whole time."

And for the entire semester, she refused to mark any of my work higher than an 80%. Can you tell I'm still angry about that, because I'm still really fucking angry about it.

#and thats how i got stressed enough to walk directly into traffic (accidentally) #if your route home crosses a busy intersection. do not walk home while having a hardcore dissociative episode #because you will become unable to comprehend traffic lights. and your guess at the safe time to cross will be Very Wrong #shout out to that one truck driver for swerving because wow that could have gone really bad #this story got away from me. the point is i dont remember what my 9/11sona was sorry

[calamitys-child]

Train services are so fucked from the storm that they've had to pull in every decent sized vehicle to act as rail replacement and most of those can't take payment but the guy was like well I'm going to the city anyway and they're paying me overtime so like. Get on the bus it's cold out I'll give you a ride. Saves you waiting half an hour to get on your other bus. Class solidarity in action thank you bus man

#in an emergency: here comes socialism! thank u bus guy love u bus guy #i think rail replacement guys are inherently just p sound they all know youre having a bad day and theyre getting bonuses #like the time the regular bus route cancelled its last bus and the community support guy just called the rail replacement guy #and he went aye im going mostly the same direction i cant follow your exact route but i can drop you off in the middle of the district #hop in its late lets get yous home #wasnt even a place he was meant to stop but he knew he had to go past it and where a safe place to stop was #good bus drivers are the pillars of society

[roseofcards90]

ONLY 3 HOURS AND 3 MINUTES LEFT 😭

#apparently this is the longest day of training because it’s just a bunch of modules and an exam and stuff #but the last two days are actually doing the job so that will go by much faster #it’s not too bad so far! you really just gotta be a safe driver tbh lol #my posts

[tangledinink]

hey you know what. uhm. driving safe is cool, actually. driving slowly or cautiously is not annoying or stupid, it's actually really dope. people who fuss about people driving too slow in the rain or not speeding through yellow lights when 'we could have both made it' or driving the actual speed limit etc etc are >:( actually uncool.

stop trying to pressure people into driving faster or more recklessly because youre impatient. i know traffic sucks and everything. and i know ppl are gonna be like "its not that serious" but like. :( actually it is.

plz drive as safely and as comfortably as you can today. and i hope you get to where ever youre going and everything is ok.

#text post #ignore me #im just in my feelings #again #yes it is that serious #people can die #people do die #yes even just in traffic accidents #yes even people who consider themselves rlly good drivers and think #oh it wont happen to me #it can tho #you dont need to be a bad driver #just be safe plz

[soldier-poet-king]

pf session tonight joy and laughing for the first time in eons vs stress bc I have to drive to work for the next 3 weeks and haven't really done that since I once again failed the advanced permanent test in June and have sorta just sworn off this whole thing out of anxiety and self loathing vs bg3 release week is upon us and I have a long weekend to play it vs I have been SO desperately sad and empty lately ????

#franposting #it is too much I'm going to bed #but that also means tmrw gets here sooner #and work is just. been bad lately. and now we're adding extra stress via my commute #like driving doesnt even shave THAT much time off bc the 401 is so bad #and the ttc sucks but at least i can zone out and not fear for my life #i would legit rather drive downtown than on the 401 #fuck highway driving #i need to move to an apt on the subway line so i can have a reasonable commute and also not have to drive #my intermediate license expires in a year and the absolute terror of having to try the highway test again #this is a stupid system and i want to kms over it! i am a safe good regular driver #the city highways are actively hostile to human life and i dont want to use them why do i have to prove my skills on them #i need to stop im gonna work myself into a frenzy again #LITERALLY WHY IS ONTARIO LIKE THIS AND NOWHERE ELSE #stupid multi tiered driving system

[mostbrilliantidiot]

Listen. Modern AU RDR2 may not be my cup of tea but I need all y'all who do enjoy it to get one thing right:

Not one single member of that gang would be a good or safe driver. Not one. No, not even the one you're thinking might be a reasonable person behind the wheel.

They wouldn't.

There would be speeding, reckless driving, lack of seat belts, distracted driving, road rage, no turn signal, etc.

Absolute nightmares on the road.

Would some be better than others?

Sure.

But that wouldn't make them a good driver overall.

#ramblings #i just have Opinions okay? #rdr2 ramblings #now would they be proficient drivers? #some of them sure! but not Good or Safe #it's different #much of my family tree are and were Proficient drivers but also Nightmares #(i think one of my friends would like to put me in this category but i would like to remind her that i am not That Bad) #my grandmother used to lead cops on a chase through the desert for FUN when she was BORED #i am qualified to speak on this topic

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar #no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new #but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me' #i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term #so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now #so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but #it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out #that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance #so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial #but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal #although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive #i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary #ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness #which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days #and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself #im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles #but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy #and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me #i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this #i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself #im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body #im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up #and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe! #so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please #and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching #between numbness and overwhelming agony #what the fuck am i talking about

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[just-rogi]

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#like I’m sorry #I love my best friend so so so much and she’s perfect and kind and has gone above and beyond to be rational and to be there for me #and I get it she’s an autistic woman and has faced adversity and has had to go on medical leave and that’s hard #and I’m not being dismissive of her struggles #but it makes me so angry because her parents unconditionally love her and her siblings and have always made her feel that way #and has never worried about money as a kid #and yeah her relationship with her parents isn’t perfect of course #but she literally cannot understand domestic violence beyond just reading about it in a book #like she did everything she can to understand and relate #but sometimes I want to scream because I feel so alone #because no one in my life fucking understands why I’m the way I am #and I’ve been struggling the past two months really badly with coping #I’ve had to go to the doctor to ask about PTSD and not like the tik tok OWO kind #but the I was in a car crash as a kid with my dad as a drunk driver and I keep getting flashbacks in my daily life to being a small child #that are impacting by daily life and interactions #and like I feel so fucking alone #and to hear from my friends ‘your right this is horrible and toxic but lots of people go through this’ ISNT FUCKING HELPING #I don’t want to hear that it’s normal I want to feel fucking safe in my bedroom without my mother blowing up my phone or calling the cops #I am unwell and I’m so stressed and I’m so sick and I can’t cope with this and none of the therapists I’ve tried to find handle ptsd #especially not therapists of color #I’m angry and I’ve been getting worse over the past two months #and not that it matters but due to ^^^ reasons my birthday has always been insanely fucking bad for me #like depression watch bad. when I turned twenty I was vividly hallucinating while walking around campus for a week straight having #flashbacks in class and I had to be taken out of the auditorium because I was physically unwell and couldn’t stop crying and shaking #and I told my friend I didn’t want to celebrate I just wanted to sit on her couch and not be alone and she fucking ditched me #because an emergency with a different friend came up the night before #like I have a history of suicidal ideation traumatic flashbacks eating disorders and self harm and I’m asking you to be with me on a very #upsetting day and you call me the night before telling me we have to cancel because another friend is having a bigger crisis #and like you don’t even feel a little bad about it?? #I’m just upset and scared and I’ve got a doctors appointment tomorrow and I’m not in reality right now and that’s scary

[vonlipvig]

had another driving lesson today, which went very well, but at one point i was driving on a very busy avenue at rush hour, lots of cars everywhere, yknow how it is, and there was this taxi driving between two lanes that was honestly pissing me off.

and look, i've been raised well, i will always be extremely polite to my teachers, but between taxi guy getting in my way and me being a very inexperienced driver i was getting really anxious, so my poor driving instructor had to listen to me shout the most exasperated yet polite "WHAT IS THIS MAN DOING?!"

#i didnt know how to ask him if i should stay in this lane overtake him or WHAT i was just IS HE DRIVING BAD OR WHAT #he just laughed and went nobody knows but you have to deal with it #i did manage to overtake him safely and just went OH FINALLY. im a real driver now. #according to jules

[punk-pandame]

me 🤝 being too autistic to drive 🤝 spongebob

#im not complaining tbh #i am a prey animal i'm not designed to operate a two ton machine safely #i am designed to sit in the passengers seat and heckle the other drivers when they drive bad #textpost #notsns #notnaruto #shitposting #me #spongebob #punky IRL #driving #brain no worky #for legal reasons this is a joke

[trans-xianxian]

my drivers test is on monday and I was feeling soooo confident like yeah I can do this I'll pass I'm a good driver but as it draws nearer I'm getting so nervous oiufghujhh 😵‍💫

#eeeeeeuyghghhhhk #like I know how to driver I'm a good driver like for the level of driving I'm at I am safe and follow traffic laws. but ough. #like what if I make one little fuck up too many. what if I don't look over my shoulders enough #also I'm kinda bad at parking 😭 #I can park Safely like I don't stick out to dangerous degrees I'm just not very good at it ajsgkaydkgskd #also I'm scared I'll be so nervous that I'll do smth stupid 😭 #like I'll be thinking about how nervous I am so much that I won't be thinking hard enough about the actual driving part #anyway. SCREAM #ghost posts #text