#Which is when I'll take a break

[zoekrystall]

I could rant abt how I hate germany and despise being german but instead of ranting will I just say everytime this awful country shows it stays nazi loving which is very often do I think abt that woman that was very kind to me for the few days I was at that one free hotel room in the short time I was homeless (honestly everyone but the fucking gov workers were sweet to me and I would die for them, never knew how much someone older seeing me as their child would make me want to cry) and said, nicer than I'll paraphrase, "yeah germany sucks I'm going back to my country" and gave me earrings and since then do I think of actually getting them pierced just for her. Was here for prob just a few days and already knew this place sucks.

#a wild lux appears #Unsurprisingly wasn't a white person #Honestly still appalled that english isn't a requirement for workers in all those places #Fucking hated everyone that got annoyed to angry at people not knowing german fuck would I have loved to butt in and offer translating #at the very least yknow #Anyways I am alive! I will be more active on here once I don't use most of my daily comprehension capability on twt bc most news are there #Half joking bc I can gen not constantly read heavy (subject or reg words) stuff without getting to a point of gen not understanding it #Which is when I'll take a break #Don't remember if I scratched the post I said that already in or posted oh well if yes ya get it twice in the tags #Ik I talked abt that woman once but p sure that was in a huge one tumblr just fucking ate #Thinking abt moving in the future but like what country doesn't suck #IF the states change big maybe there bc a lot of nice stuff happens there #otherwise maybe japan bc a lot of food I love is cheap there next to other stuff #Either way that is far into the future I am v much aware moving ain't easy maybe I'll stay here. got a house after all. #In case it needs to be said moving is on my mind since I'm little it is not a sudden thought

[funkylittlebats]

"Man I wish the McElroy's had continued Commitment or Dust, I would've loved listening to those! I would've listened to them over and over again!" << says guy who has only ever done relistens of Balance, never finished Amnesty, and never even started listening any of the other campaigns.

#taz #the adventure zone #taz balance #taz amnesty #taz commitment #taz dust #taz graduation #taz ethersea #taz steeplechase #i do plan to start listening to steeplechase after my current relisten of balance is over #i would restart amnesty but i tried to recently then say a spoiler for the finale when i was 2/3 through the campaign and i just couldn't #so i won't be listening to amnesty for probably at least 4 years or more #however long it takes me to forget most of the details of the campign + the spoiler i saw #but once i finish steeplechase #WHICH I WILL BC I'M RLY LOOKING FORWARD TO JUSTIN'S GMING I SWEAR I'LL FINISH THIS CAMPIGN I PROMMY #i'll probably move onto tiny heist on dimension 20 #and then either taz grad or ethersea #though i'm sure i'll sqeeze in a relisten to both commitment and dust before that #after grad/ethersea (whichever i choose idk yet) #will be time for a short taz break followed by my 4th or 5th relisten to balance #fuckin love that campaign #saving up for a tattoo of it #haven't decided if i'll do the bureau of balance symbol or fisher yet

[cerise-on-top]

Hello! Can you write something with Valeria garza with f!reader (as her wife) who wears classy dresses, expensive jewelry, heels, hair and makeup always done, with a sassy but lovingly attitude? Thank you <333

Hey! Yeah, sure!

Valeria with a Fancy!Reader

Most of what you’re wearing was probably bought by Valeria since she’s supportive like that. Whenever she sees something you might like, she’ll buy it for you, whether that be online or in a store she just so happened to walk by. The vendors likely know her by then since she does, more often than not, go out of her way to find something you might like. And when she’s operating internationally? She’ll find the fanciest clothing out there and buy it for you. And if they don’t have it in your size for whatever reason she’ll have it tailored, anything for her beloved little spouse. You don’t need to lift a finger in order to get something nice you might want.

However, if you do want to, then you can. She’s more than happy to go outside with you and look for some lovely dresses, jewelry and whatnot. Her sense of fashion isn’t that bad either, so she can advise you perfectly fine. She knows her colors and how well they would go with your skin color, your eyes and any other accessories you might want to wear. But don’t always force her to go outside just for clothes shopping, sometimes she just wants to stay inside, unwind and maybe take a nap. During those times you might not want to drag her outside too much, because no matter how much you sass her, she will always sass you back twice as bad. She also has the advantage of being very threatening when she wants to be, so don’t annoy her too much.

Valeria has quite the amount of jewelry herself, from brooches with sapphires in them, to earrings with genuine amethysts. Whatever you want, she likely has some variation of it. Since she started her business, she doesn’t always have the time to wear everything anymore, but you’re more than welcome to take whatever you want in this case. If she’s home, you might want to tell her, though, so she won’t start wondering where her necklace of real pearls has gone. As long as you return it to her, everything is alright, though. She’ll give you everything but one item in her possession: It’s a silver necklace with a locket. It doesn’t have a picture in it or anything, but it holds sentimental value to her. If you take it she’ll yell at you, but everything else is fair game.

Valeria doesn’t really wear makeup herself, she’ll just look stupid when it starts getting runny as she’s sweating. Besides, she’s here to fuck things up, not to look pretty. Valeria is a businesswoman, which means she won’t do much paperwork, that’s for her lackeys, but instead she’ll kick ass if she needs to. Therefore, she doesn’t know too much about makeup, so you’ll have to tell her what she needs to look out for and what may look good on you. While she may know which clothing looks good on you, she’s a bit lost with makeup. If you tell her what you want, then she’ll get it for you, but she might not always go out of her way to buy some new mascara, eyeshadow or blush for you. Again, you’re better off just telling her.

As for heels and hair: You can get your hair done however you want to. While she may not particularly be helpful in that regard, aside from paying for your visits at the hairdresser, she doesn’t have the time to learn how to do your hair either. She can braid it if you want, in a simple manner, but it doesn’t really go beyond that. Heels, though, she’ll look out for what she can find. In fact, if it’s your cup of tea, she might get you a matching purse while she’s at it as well.

Again, as mentioned previously, if I were you, I wouldn’t give her too much attitude, she knows how to deal with people like that. She sees something like that as a challenge, you sass her, she’ll put you in place. She’ll be far from violent, but your cocky behavior needs to be toned down a bit, especially when she’s tired. You’ll do as she says eventually, no matter how long you resist. And when you do finally listen to her? She’ll smirk and call you out on it. It’s a game to her, and she always wins in the end. Whether she needs to trap you between the wall and her, holding your face between her thumb and index finger to guide it, or revoke any and all rights for kisses until you’re desperate for one doesn’t matter, she’ll get her way eventually.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #also I'm only gonna do the two other requests in my inbox for now and then I'll take a break #nothing serious but I don't know how long it will last. I just really wanna focus on something that isn't writing for once #it's been really draining and I've been forcing myself to do it more so than enjoying it #I just really wanna do other things right now #plus I'm also sick on the day of writing this which isn't fun either #I'm gonna queue this and write a post regarding all of this on the day I'm writing this #so today #also gonna close my inbox for a little I don't wanna be overwhelmed with requests when I get back #fem!reader #barely. better safe than sorry

[karleksmumskladdkaka]

DIABOLIK LOVERS DAYLIGHT Vol. 7 Mukami Ruki Animate Tokuten Drama CD: “Sleeping Together ★ With Vampire"

Audio

No, not that kind of sleeping together.

...And yet somehow not really the other kind either because despite it's title there is LITTLE TO NO SLEEPING TOGETHER GOING ON AT ALL except at the very end TᴖT TᴖT TᴖT My disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined.

Ok ok I'm obviously being overdramatic. Misleading name aside the CD is enjoyable and cute just...not at all in the way I was expecting (that being something akin to the Sleeping Vampire Scenario from Vandead Carnival but, alas, no). But oh well, I got to hear Ruki be all deredere towards the end so it's fine I guess lol

Ideally I'd create an actual translation to go along with this (I might do so sometime in the future, unless someone more competent does it first) but for now I've put a summary of the story under the cut. I ask that you please have mercy on me though, I am not used to writing this kind of stuff and it probably shows >﹏<;

Regardless, I hope you enjoy ( ﾉ^ω^)ﾉ ⋆⁺₊☽⁺₊⋆

[Disclaimer: I always allow my stuff to be used for translation purposes, as long as I am credited. BUT DO NOT REPOST THE AUDIO ON ANY WEBSITE WHATSOEVER. I bought the CD with my own money and as such this audio belongs to me.]

Summary ~*×*☆*+*~

[Please note that there may be mistakes or I might've misinterpreted parts of the CD. I apologize in advance (╥﹏╥)]

The CD starts with Ruki encountering Yui, who is carrying an unusually large package. Curious, Ruki asks her what she's doing, and learns that Kou has tasked her with delivering the package to him (Ruki). Ruki is somewhat perplexed as he doesn't recall requesting anything of the kind. Yui suggests that it might be a surprise gift, but Ruki is skeptical. He wants to ask Kou directly but is reminded that he is currently away on a location shoot. With a resigned sigh, Ruki decides that he has no choice but to open the package in Kou's absence. He asks Yui to hand the package to him, and then invites her to come along to his room to find out what's inside. She eagerly accepts, and they head off together.

In Ruki's room they take a seat (on what I assume to be the sofa) and open the package. Inside, there are various wooden pieces resembling parts of something, along with a letter from Kou. Ruki reads the letter aloud and it's revealed that the package contains a (*drumroll*)... puzzle! And not just any puzzle but a ✨️3D puzzle✨️. In the letter Kou encourages Ruki and Yui to assemble the parts together to discover what they will form. Since he's got spare time on his hands Ruki decides to have a go at it, with Yui joining in.

After a while of working on the puzzle, Ruki asks Yui how her part is coming along. She shows him, and he comments that she's doing better than he anticipated. He helps her out with some difficult pieces before instructing her to continue on her own. Yui asks Ruki if this is his first time putting together a 3D puzzle, and he replies that he's tried some before, but that this particular type is new to him. Yui is eager to learn what it is they are building, and Ruki, not wanting to dampen her anticipation, pretends he still can't quite figure out what the finished thing will be either (awww ♡). Ruki suggests that rather than moving their mouths they should focus on moving their hands as with their current pace the puzzle won't be finished. He reasons that the faster they move the sooner they'll have their curiosity satisfied. Yui agrees to work faster and Ruki promises to do the same.

They pick up the pace and eventually the puzzle is done. The assembled pieces have formed a small foreign castle, and Ruki reveals that he suspected as much from the start. He surmises that Kou must have remembered their expressed desire to visit such a castle after seeing one by chance on one of his TV shows. Ruki acknowledges Kou's attempt to make the two of them happy in his own way. He praises Yui for doing a great job despite not knowing what they were actually assembling, noting that the part she made fits perfectly into the castle.

However, there is no response from Yui, causing a puzzled (ahaha) Ruki to remark on her lack of reaction to something she had been so excited about. Turning his head to the side to look at her, Ruki discovers that she's fallen asleep with her head resting on his shoulder. He comments on the privilege of such a sleeping position but acknowledges that it's understandable she'd fall asleep since it's past their usual bedtime. She had seemed so engrossed in their work that he didn't notice her drifting off.

Ruki carries Yui to his bed and gently places her there, saying that she should have just told him that she was tired. He realizes that she likely made an effort to stay awake until the end, though she ultimately fell asleep. Deciding that it would be a good time for him to go to sleep as well, he tidies up and hides the little castle under the table, so that he'll be able to see Yui's reaction to it in the morning.

Returning to the bed, Ruki asks Yui to scoot over to make room for him, but she's sleeping too soundly to hear. He lies down next to her and (in true Mukami Ruki fashion) begins observing Yui's sleeping face. He notes how relaxed her expression is and wonders if it's because she's tired out from using her brain (lmao rude). Ruki then ponders what kind of face Yui will make when she wakes up—will she feel guilty for falling asleep before the puzzle was finished, or will she be surprised and embarrassed to find him laying next to her? Regardless of what her reaction will be, Ruki knows that it'll be enjoyable to witness. But he's certain she'll be happy once she sees the completed puzzle and admits to himself that he really wants to see that expression on her face. He's aware that it's out of character for him, and thinks that he might even have trouble falling asleep from the excitement (asdfsdjfj this is too fucking cute I can't)

Ruki decides that he should thank Kou for the useful gift by making him his favorite food for dinner tomorrow. The mention of dinner causes Yui to stir (what a relatable Queen), and Ruki teases her for being greedy. He assures the still-sleeping girl that she doesn't need to worry; he'll make her favorite dish as well as a reward for her hard work on the puzzle.

The CD ends with Ruki saying how he looks forward to seeing Yui's reaction the following day.

Fin ~*×*☽*+*~

- _(´ω`_)⌒)_

#watch me develop diabetes from this CD #that's a sentence i never thought i'd type when i began my dialovers journey aha #diahell #dialovers #diabolik lovers #daylight #audio #diabolik lovers drama cd #ruki x yui #daylight ruki x yui #ruki mukami #yui komori #mine #and with this i've listened to all but two of ruki's CDs #which pleases the completionist in me but also makes me a bit...well sad tbh #i guess ill just miss the thrill and anticipation of hearing a ruki CD for the first time (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) #but aah i don't even know if i'll ever get my hands on those CDs so i don't have to stare blankly at the ceiling just yet ahahahagjhdgd #changing the subject here but i think we should include “staring at his sleeping gf” on the list of ruki's hobbies #i feel like he does this so frequently that it'd be justified #some might find it creepy that he does that but idk i think it's kind of endearing just how much he adores yui's expressions? #anyway i'll finally shut up now and take a long break from looking at any screens otherwise my eyes will malfunction

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm surprised you haven't posted any Welcome home stuff recently! Honestly kinda makes me sad since I love your WH art and stuff

yea y'all are gonna have to be Patient w/ me bc

a) i have like. a week left to pack all of my stuff before i need to shove everything into a uhaul and leave, so its crunch time! leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

b) to be honest my mental health is the worst its been in years - which is fine, its whatever, i can deal. it's not as bad as it could be and im handling it! like a champ, even! but also its leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

c) had a minor crisis over my art and how i interact w/ WH, and i realized im not scribbling enough of what I want. ive mostly been trying to please people and do as asked and thats! not good! so i want to temper expectation & reassert that im Not a WH art blog - its just a hyperfixation / something i love rn. i draw what i enjoy & what i want in the moment.

#i picked up my tablet last night and all of my motivation died on the spot #so im just. eh whatever ill get back into the swing of things eventually #but yeah im spending my time packing & keeping myself afloat! not much room for other things at present! #rambles from the bog #but yeah i was starting to feel like a commodity of sorts? #like the majority of asks are just some form of 'can you draw this' 'draw this' 'id love it if youd draw this' #which is. fine. im an art blog! thats what i do! #but its also like hey. im just some guy doodling what they enjoy. im not a machine churning out content for consumption #& it gets to the point where there's so much expectation and obligation and 'demand'- #when do i ever sit down and truly indulge in what i want? #like the monster scribble i posted the other day! it made me so happy! i love monsters and Beasts! #when do i ever allow myself to draw them? #rarely bc i feel like people Expect puppets from me. and thats not a great feeling! #i love puppets i love wh and everything but i would like to enjoy it w/o pressure yk yk.... #& for a second there i Was feeling the pressure and scribbling puppets was starting to feel like a chore #something i Needed to do to please people #so! im focusing on real life & taking a break from creation & keeping my mindset away from 'jump into traffic' thankyew <3 #theres just too much going on right now #in my head And outside of it. #so ill stick to packing & binging psych & i'll lovingly place everything else on the backburner

[puppyeared]

I CANT USE CSS ON ARTFIGHT...............

#I WAS REALLY HOPING TO FIX THE FUCKING. PARAGRAPH WIDTH. SIGH #idk why but it stretches across the ENTIRE page like. it takes up the full width of the browser and it BOTHERS ME. ON ALL THE PAGES #i could try manually putting shift breaks but im worried it might not look so good on mobile. ugghh... auyggghhh..... #im already learning CSS and API so i thought i could put it to good use but. AUGH #this whole time ive had to go into the inspect panel myself and change the padding so i dont have to read the length of the screen #like a fucking typewriter... i would have also loved to use custom fonts and animations...... #i did find a guide for BBCode which the site uses on default and it covers basic styling but its not the same. sniffle #you CAN unlock CSS if you donate $25 to the page which seems fair. and if i could do it i would but. i do not have any way of #sending or receiving money online </3 i really need to figure out how to do that so i can set up comms like i said i would last summer #but it intimidates me.... and im already kept on a short leash when it comes to that so it feels like a lot of things could go wrong #i think toyhouse allows CSS or some sort of code...?? i remember seeing some oc pages with custom layouts #if thats the case i'll try fiddling with it but im not very familiar with using toyhouse so thatll take a while #(thanks again for the code sal ^_^ ill put it on my pin once its ready but im trying to learn my way around the site heh ;;) #at least i can use my pixel dividers.. ive been digging around for pixels to use and found some really cute ones #yapping

[thesaltyace]

Anytime my partner is away overnight, I rediscover that ADHD is, in fact, a whole-ass disability.

#adhd #when my partner is here I mostly base my day off their predictable schedule #like they must take lunch at a certain time so I plan my day around their lunchtime and I have goals to meet by that time and after it too #unfortunately my brain only accepts external structure and is not easily tricked #so I cannot just tell myself '12:30pm is when you take a break for lunch' and actually follow it #my brain's like 'that's a made-up rule with zero real world consequences so guess what? no lunchtime ever.' #which is obviously Bad™️because I do need to eat and I do need to take a break #so I've scheduled stuff to happen midday that will force me to get up and hopefully while I'm up I'll think hey maybe I should eat somethin #🤞

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3

#so either world quests or maybe i'll take a day off from games for today #depends on how i feel when i start playing #but i still have to do my dailies & my genshin weekly bosses & stuff :3 #i very much want to write something #but my brain hasn't been letting me lately #like i get a mild headache whenever i start trying to think of ideas #which probably means i still need a break but :/ #maybe i'll draw something if i can't write tonight #oh yeah i have those gushes to answer sometime today :D #but anyways #i hope you'll have a good day/night!! <3 #morning rambles

[kvetchinglyneurotic]

people who write multiple fics at once, i would like some advice! i've historically been a one WIP at a time person but i want to give working on multiple projects at once another go — if you have any strategies for doing that, send them my way please (only if you feel like it, of course)

#writing #writing advice #my two modes when it comes to writing are several thousand word long fic and weird sub-1k thing i banged out on my lunch break #and occasionally i'll write something in the 1k-10k range which is also fine bc i don't mind taking a few days' break from the long fics #but now i have 2 long fics that i want to work on and don't want to push either back for weeks or potentially months while i write the othe #kvetch oc

[strawberrybabydog]

hi babydog! i’m planning to get what amounts to a game boy colour from funnyplaying and mod it! i have a few questions though considering that you’ve modded your switch before. firstly did you watch any youtubers who modded stuff for inspiration? secondly where did you get the cool key chain/cord you have attached to yours (not sure what it’s called 😅)? thirdly, did you get the inspiration from and any ideas for bonding with them? thank you!!

hiii omg congrats :0] !!!!! send gameboy pics when u can plzzz :0P

tbh i went into it completely blind. i actually didnt know my switch was called a "modded switch" until this moment because it isnt jailbroken, technically only the hardware is modified (does that count?)

the inspiration came from my brain when i was a little babey in the 2000s and glitter-clear/clear-shelled things were popular ♡. it also came from taking apart computers with my dad when i was small and visually stimming on their internal hardware lolz ! 99% of my inspiration for everything i do, especially art/visual stuff, pretty much always links to growing up in the 2000s & 10s :0] if you mean, "did you follow a tutorial for changing the shell" yes i totally did, but the tutorials werent my inspo just my guide

when i got my switch she was brand-new and didnt have a set personality yet, so i bonded with her through the modding process and she grew into her shell a lot (no pun intended lol) but she did not choose or inspire what i gave to her, those things were planned loooong before i bought her

iirc, everything(?) for my switch was found on amazon over the course of a year or two. the keychains are an audio jack plug, which are sort of hard to find now, but are usually called "phone charms" or "dust plugs"

here's what my switch has:

modified clear-pink shell

clear-glitter protective case (if you get a clear shell, i really recommend getting a clear case too, this thing eats up the yellowing UV rays so my shell stays pink), extra joycon set has a strawberry hard case

heart shaped button caps

pink-clear-glitter paw joystick grips, strawberry joystick grips

white paw audio dust plug, beaded strawberry dust plug (sibling handmade the latter)

if it counts, the yellow star memory card and a screen protector (ALWAYS GET A SCREEN PROTECTOR!!!)

#thru modding her right joycon DID break but it was not my fault i swear to god lol #someone was helping me do this and they didnt put her back together correctly the first time so we had to open it up again and fix it #when we opened it up... i'll just say i was the only one gentle on the belts. i was also the one who finished the task. #her joycon still works but only when its connected to my switch and it also takes a few minutes to wake up when i turn the switch on #its not a big deal i bought her another joycon set which isnt modded but are cuteified and i have a comfort grip controller too #asks #delusional companion syndrome details #<- for the bit where i talk about switchs personality and use personal pronouns #not dog #personal #babydogs switch

[applejarjar]

it's slowly coming together lol

at least it doesn't still look like an aluminum hurricane came through here

I'm excited about this magnifying arm, it'll take some getting used to, but I think it'll be well worth it!

#gave the arm a test run using my smallest rings #it's funny though cause I can see all the tiny flecks of aluminum splintering and flying off everywhere lol #no wonder my hands look like they're covered in soot when I'm done chainmailing #I hope this device helps prevent me from straining my eyes so much #though I wonder if I'll be able to chainmail as long #I'll probably have to take more breaks #which is honestly for the best cause I'd forget otherwise lol

[daz4i]

uh oh i think my laptop's officially dead

#i really hope not. but. the keyboard stopped working suddenly 😭 #idk maybe i turned smth off accidentally?? idk if that's even possible #I'm trying to restart it now but it's going. very slowly. which is also worrying #even holding the off button isn't doing anything. shit #it was so sudden too??? it was actually still working like i could use the mouse and it was playing music #this is so weird I'm so scared 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #it's like 5 years old man don't do this to me 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐 #update: well it's not turning off so i took the charger out and hope it dies from a lack of battery power soon #and then I'll plug it back in and see if it helps 😔 #i THINK it happened before?? like that it didn't turn off and i had to wait for the battery to drain first #I'm so worried i really hope it doesn't die 😔 it'll break me mentally i fear. #(yes it's an object but like. i need it man. and it has a lot of my stuff there. and a lot of distractions from the fact I'm alive) #bro why is this taking so long #usually when i use my laptop and it's not actively being charged it dies within 5 minutes #it's been over 10 now and it's still going?? now?? when i actually WANT it to die?? #:/ think I'm gonna leave it alone for now hhhhh whatever. I'm very anxious but there's not much i can do besides waiting anyway

[bigs-bigshot]

Fattytober day 11 - Bathtub, day 12 - Distribution, day 13 - Theater, day 14 - Legs and day 15 - Floating.

#spamtum #bîg's art #wg #weight gain sequence #fattytober #I'm getting burnt out a little so I'll just take a small 'break'- in the sense that I'll just work on other things #a little before my motivation goes away. And said things are seasonnal too so I want to work on them now. #I'll resume fattytober afterwards which will be soon enough. #In any case he's getting real big... Bigger than I'm used to but that's why I did this challenge (besides thirst). #To practice outside my comfort zone. We're halfway there and he's huge so he'll definitely reach immobility levels #and I'll tag it appropriately when the time comes in case you're not into that. But for now he can still walk... Or waddle rather.

[nerdnag-makes-art]

"Happy New Year, wolves."

#I think this is the most ambitious piece I've done so far #I'm exhausted #I don't want to draw again for like. Ever lol #No but I'm def taking a break now #But I'm happy about it!! #Art 19 #Fe3h #Fe3h yuri #Fe3h Constance #Fe3h Balthus #Fe3h hapi #constance von nuvelle #Yuri Leclerc #balthus von albrecht #Ashen Wolves #fire emblem: three houses #Fire emblem three houses #Also this is a modern roommate au #And from a fic I'm working on which I have no idea when I'll start posting

[supercantaloupe]

apparently i'm already halfway done my musicology degree??

#i wanna talk about me #between the course i did in undergrad and the frankly ridiculous number of courses i'm taking this semester #apparently i'm over halfway done already #i know the musicology portion is a smaller load than the library science portion but like #man it was weird walking into my advisor's office and him looking me in the eye and saying like 'oh you're almost done' #three courses is all i have left for a master's. Man #well i'm gonna spread those out over the next year and a half...and probably pick up an extra elective here or there while i can #cause idk man i like studying music history...even if i don't Have to i like taking the classes and learning #(esp if it's gonna be paid for by my fellowship as long as i'm still here) #well i need to figure out. how the hell to get in touch with a library science advisor now. #i emailed yesterday and haven't heard back #but i don't know what i'm doing for that degree going forward rn #other than. i guess taking 552. but i KNOW there's other specialty and elective courses i'll need to take too #and i want to take stock of what shit i'll have to take in summers too cause i know some of the courses are only offered in summer #(need to find out if any of my fellowship scholarship can go towards summer courses. i'm guessing not...) #weird. it's weird. i don't know what i'm doing here #anyway #meeting with my advisor went okay i at least know what i'm doing now re: the music stuff #didn't cry which is good but man i hate how my voice started to break more and more the longer i was in there #and when i talked about how i put too much on my plate this semester and am struggling to keep up with all the work #and he asked me if i've been reaching out to anyone for support. or if i had people to reach out to #and i just had to sit there like. uh #define. support? #i have a couple friends at least that i chat with about stuff like that sometimes but not always cause i don't want to bother them too much #but like. it's not like i can ask someone else to write a research paper For me #or it's not like i can control when my coworkers get sick and i have to cover their time in the office #and this didn't come up at all (and i'm glad for it) but jeez it's not like i can control global political conflicts!! #it's hard for me to focus on getting enough work done in small chunks of time in the best of times #let alone when my fucking hamster brain is on high alert for getting hate crimed in public if my necklace is too visible or something #idk. it's a lot man. i bit off more than i could chew this semester even before the world fell apart

[wammys-house-official]

Quick ooc appreciation post for anyone who has ever interacted with this blog and especially the people who told me they like it/it makes them smile etc

#I've said this before but it makes me so happy that there are people who think this silly blog is funny #when i started it I was not expecting people to actually like my posts #I'm awfully sorry I keep taking breaks #I'm just going to hope when the weather gets warmer I'll have more motivation to post without asks and stuff #i kind of have no ideas right now #also I probably won't really be posting for a few more weeks which is one of the reasons i did the qna poll I wanted to check you like them #before i started another one etc etc #depending on the result I'll either start one or I'll just do a bunch of posts individually answering asks #anyway this was a lot of tags #I hope you all have a great day