A thing I said in pure sobriety today:
“Wow, I am never beating the Chihuahua allegations.”
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im sorry but you cannot attribute every single human behavior to capitalism. yes capitalism has shaped literature for the worst. yes the bookish world would probably be a better place without goodreads or booktok.
however the concepts of bibliomania and tsundoku were created in the 1800s, well before there were thousands of ads for shiny covers and celebrity authors being flung into your face. people were already buying more books than they could ever possibly read when books were still made with manual typesetting. you can't blame this one on amazon.
that's not even touching the fact that bibliomania is sometimes a symptom of ocd, or the existence of hyperlexia.
sometimes, people just like to do something, and it makes them act irrationally. and, yes, capitalism corrupts that. but to pretend that all human excess is because of capitalism is simply erroneous. you need to stop pretending that eradicating capitalism will make us perfect creatures free from hedonism oh my fucking god
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Do you ever think about how all your hobbies started as a way to bond with someone and that they’re more someone else’s than your own? And that when they leave your life the hobby is ruined and you can’t do it anymore. So as everyone leaves a chunk of your leaves to. And since your only personality besides being a melodramatic asshole is hobbies or habits you took to please be like others you are loosing more and more of yourself? Doesn’t that make you scared for when in 6 months you’ll move out to college and won’t see most of these people ever again? So you have to throw everything in the shredder and be a blank slate for god knows how long? And since then you’ll be so blank no one will notice you you won’t get anyone to mimic which means you’ll just be like that forever? Being a blank no one shell? Do you think about that?
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did you ever finish Ikusa?
i made it to 010 before my anxiety and sense of increasing dread over the Ougi Situation™ got to me
i'll finish it.... eventually
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I'm too nervous to go off anon haha I'm sorry. But cut down the alter rlly made me so happy. Jonahs character ending so soon always made me incredibly sad, I love the interactions with everyone. I just want them to be happy in canon !!! And your story fulfilled that :)
i understand completely, im quite socially anxious myself <3
its been interesting. ive seen people a couple times in the main mandela catalogue tag wish for jonah-centric stories in which he repairs his friendship with adam and like. i want to recommend my fic. but i'm also very aware that there's several chapters of torture and gore to get through before that happens, and such content is definitely not for everyone lol.
but for those who can handle that kind of intensity, i'm glad my story has filled that void!
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drop some flyxxt facts! i'm curious
ask and ye shall receive!
he's extremely good at playing the harp. not professionally mind you but he probably could have been if his parents had allowed it. which is why i use the orchestral staff skin for him ingame ^^
he's a genius with music, maths and magic. and he found a way for himself to combine those three things! chronomancy is his specialty.
that being said, character wise he's. exhausting to say the least. a spoiled brat who's far too used to getting his way and people bowing to his whims. a true nepotism baby! it's a lonely existence. he does get better tho. *quietly shoves trauma behind a curtain*
he's always liked wearing skirts and more feminine pretty clothes à la 'sure hope this doesn't awaken anything in me'. it's a long running joke that you can hear the jangle of his jewelry from anywhere in the world if you're quiet enough.
it actually took him meeting cianáed (they/he/she) though to start questioning his own gender. he didn't know you could do that. it's still a giant ??? (for me as the creator too) so we're sticking with mainly he/him at the moment. [his pronouns in my pinned are listed as (he/she/they) because i think that'll be what i'm/he's settling on but we aren't there yet]
in terms of story he belongs to hel's AU, joining the party during lws3 (although not exactly voluntarily) and later formally DW as well! if i remember my own timeline correctly he's about 17 at that time
and some stuff about his creation:
he was supposed to be a simple keyfarm. by now you'd think that i should know better than putting any amount of effort into keyfarms but alas. i made him and was instantly obsessed with his look. two years of semi-coherent blorbo thoughts!
as i said in the tags i very deliberately made him related to a canon character because the whole 'you can't have your ocs be related to a canon character or they're a mary sue!!' thing became a pretty ingrained fear. mid 2010s fanfic culture thank you for making me insecure about my own little guys ._.
since he isn't actually much of a fighter he's mostly toughness, healing and concentration based and i slapped a homebrew support build on him
latest fashion wars! mistlock is the perfect spot for him
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I actually think SSRIs may not be the best treatment route for me in general, tbh, because I'm not willing to risk weight loss or weight gain and some of the other temporary/potential side effects made me have an hour long anxiety attack just from thinking about experiencing them because they're triggers for my anxiety PLUS my brother did experience those particular trigger things (for me; he didn't care) when he went on the medication I was just prescribed, so there's a likely biological trigger involved in there too, plus my problems already with food and my body image and the high probability I'll lose or gain weight alongside the fact that bodily changes trigger my anxiety too plus I'll have heightened anxiety for the first few weeks when I'm already more anxious than I have ever been in my life ever... yeah. Maybe SSRIs aren't it.
Okay, back to the doctor's next Monday...
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