#akeyla ml

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important information ⬎

alex

they/he/xe/it

non binary 💛🤍💜🖤

lesbian ❤️🧡🤍🩷💜

youreverydaydemikid -> conjectureand-gloom (15/01/24)

minor (february 8th)

multifandom

fanfiction writer

GMT +10:30

INFP-T

2w1

lyn lapid fan blog @tlit21c

i stand with palestine 🇵🇸

my new main account is @holesofmy-sweater

links ⬎

my ao3

my spotify

my pinterest

my instagram (that i’m barely active on)

hamilton fanfic recommendations

2023 reflection post

fandom list, fanfiction request masterlist, written works, wips, asks, tags and mutuals under the cut

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ fandom list ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

hamilton (feel free to request for any hamilton ship, i love them all so much, alexander is the absolute DREAM for a multishipper. alexander is my main target for angst! this is my main fandom)

jesus christ superstar (jesus/judas or jesus/judas/mary mainly for jcs, but feel free to ask for any other ships and i’ll consider it!! and no, i am not religious. i have been raised christian, but just ended up with religious trauma)

a good girls guide to murder (pipravi fluff and angst :) but i’ll so gladly write fics about sal and andie, or becca. ravi is my comfort character, and i just torture pip relentlessly)

nevermoor (personally i’m more of a cadence/morrigan girly, but fics for nevermoor will mainly be gen! i love found family, so jupiter & mog fluff or angst is my favourite)

in the heights (canon ships mainly, but feel free to ask for other ships! i’m not in the ITH fandom much, so these are going to be much more inaccurate)

newsies (again, more gen fics, but i do ship dave/jack. also i love angsty crutchie fics. this is one of my smaller fandoms, so these will be super inaccurate)

keeper of the lost cities (preferably marella/linh or tam/keefe! but again, feel free to ask for any ship!!)

hunger games (gen, preferably. but i’m team peeta in case anyone was wondering. fuck gale.)

maze runner (okay i haven’t read or seen TMR in ages but newt/thomas)

divergent (canon ships only. and no, christina/tobias is not canon.)

six (gen all the way. found family. also i love katherine howard angst over any other queen)

the song of achilles (achilles/patroclus? literally what other ship is there????? this is my favourite book)

wednesday (wednesday/enid. i feel like this requires no explanation. also. angst fics. i almost exclusively write angsty wednesday fics, rather than enid. i love the whole of the addams family, and i love familial hurt/comfort)

marauders (i’m not in the marauders fandom much at all, like i really only know the actual hp canon marauders. so.)

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ fanfic request rules ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

i’ll write for any fandom listed above, i love them all! however i am much more active in hamilton, agggtm, jcs, nevermoor and kotlc, so those fics will be much better than the other fandoms’ would be

i’ll write any genre other than smut, and angst/whump is my absolute favourite. any AUs you could think of, literally anything, i’m not picky!

i won’t write romanticised abuse, non/con, or anything like that. that’s not to say that my fics can’t have dark aspects, but i won’t romanticise any of that.

on that, i’m not going to write any non/con, romanticised or not

also, i won’t write omegaverse, nor will i write y/n or self insert fics. nothing wrong with those genres, i just don’t write them!

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ written works ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

It’s Only A Matter Of Time - A Hamilton Watches Hamilton Fic

i wish i could say that was the last time

call me son one more time

when they surround our troops

then a hurricane came

take a break

and his right hand man…

she was holding me

the great war

we got traffic on the west side

steal into my affections

the fact that you’re alive is a miracle

fools who run their mouths off wind up dead

my father wasn’t around

philip, you would like it uptown

i may not live to see our glory…

an outrageous demand

stay alive

my dear, angelica

to convince you that i love you

but this situation’s helpless

like mother, like daughter (agggtm)

“but now this room is spinning…”

“i’ll call out your name but you won’t call back”

“like crying out in empty rooms, with no one there except the moon”

me in your sweater, you said it looked better on me than it did you (gifted to @holes-in-my-false-confidence)

baby it’s cold outside

the entire exposé (inspired entirely off of @jittyjames’ fanfiction series ‘the price of his war’)

my world is burning (yet another fic based off of jami’s series ‘the price of his war’)

i’m sorry if any of these links are incorrect, i spent over an hour on just this section

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achilles, come down (last two works in series still need to be written)

je m’appelle… lafayette? (one chapter to go)

lams (taylor’s version) (a few chapters to go, unsure if it will be finished)

you’re the one who disappears (agggtm, unsure if it will be finished, or when)

judas’ death (jcs angst fanfiction)

untitled (hamil-gang liminal spaces au longfic thing idk)

febuwhump drabbles (possibly)

be my valentine challenge

so big/so small (so big/so small from deh but hamilton and his ma)

bloom like rose thorns (a longfic that may or may not ever be finished)

rewrite of ‘i wish i could say that was the last time’ and ‘call me son one more time’

baby don’t cut (lams angst based off of a song with the same name)

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ collaborations ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

fem!hamilton au with @jittyjames and @firebalda

if anybody is interested in collabing at all, please hit me up!! i love writing with other people!!!!

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ asks ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

please send me any asks at all!!! and also please put fic requests in my ask box, i did say that i would have your request out in 6 months, but i have had one sitting in there for over a year (sorry jami.) but um. i promise im trying to get better at that

also, feel free to ask for fic recommendations!!!! i’ve linked a post earlier in this post with a huge list, but it’s not fully updated with some more recent fics :)

‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ tags ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

asks- all the asks ive answered, these are also tagged with the url of the blog, or with anon dearest if it was an anon ask

akeyla ml- posts about/with my incredible incredible partner @holes-in-my-false-confidence who i love so much ❤❤❤❤❤❤

tag games- self explanatory, tag games :)

sleep is overrated- me trying to fix my sleep schedule in 2024

personal- personal vent posts. please block this tag, i have had someone unfollow me before because of these posts :)

₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧ mooties ‎‧₊˚✩ 🪐✩˚₊‧

@jittyjames

@like-the-stars-i-shine (irl friend for 5 years now)

@holes-in-my-false-confidence (my partner, irl <33333)

@felizusnavidad

@weeping-in-the-willows

@swiftieannah

@the1laff

@anixknowsnothin

@purpleblobfrompluto

@starduckys

@now-thats-his-bride

@kwilooo

@evilteapot (irl friend)

@my-dear-gal

@idontwanttobeabuzzkill

@mynightsoutofsight

@cc-horan28

i have more mutuals, but this is everybody who i interact with more often and i actually consider to be my friend. if anybody wants to ever message me or actually become friends with me, please do!!!! i love talking to you guys, please message me, i promise im not scary <333

#intro post #hamilton #hamilton musical #fanfics #fanfiction #ao3 #fanfiction writer #writers #akeyla ml #yes i have told yall my birthday bc yall cant do absolutely anything with knowing my birthdate #just dont ask me for the year pls #im a teenager thats all yall need to know

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my irl best friends found the sappy ass comments about akeyla i left on a video and uh. i regret leaving comments.

#one of them sent a ss on the gc and was like #woah alex #AND BELLA #FUCKING BELLA #SAID #AND I QUOTE #‘you should see them on tumblr’ #akeyla ml

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being told that i’m actually enough is so surreal to me like wtf are you talking about and where did this idea come from

#akeyla ml

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thanks, akeyla. i think i have an absolute obsession with kelsea ballerini now

#akeyla ml #THIS ALBUM IS SO FUCKING GOOD #(these albums technically) #(kelsea and ballerini) #(actually rolling up the welcome mat (for good) is sooooo good too)

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@doesanyonehearrunningwotah seemingly does not give a FUCK about her health and is on her phone when her doctor literally told her that she can’t be on screens while she is concussed

she’s an actual idiot with no self preservation skills

akeyla’s mutuals please find me i need to deal with akeyla’s idiocy with you guys

@fansykiltentragedry

@queerhoodie

@niallermybabe

@fearlesslarrie28

@poppy-inmyhair

@w4nn4b3adv3ntur3r

@keeganisabluegreener

(and there are others, i just cant find their url for some odd reason)

#akeyla ml #<- the new tag i’ve made for when i talk about her

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despite being a writer, i’m not great with words

but this?

this is my love language

#akeyla ml #im horrible at writing about my own emotions #this is why i project onto characters #akeyla this is probably the closest we’re getting to this playlist and the pinterest board being public

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i willl love you with every

single thing I have

like a tidal wave, we'll make a mess

or calm waters, if that serves you best

i will love you without any strings attached

#akeyla ml #this song is like. my whole love language. #it’s also my enneagram song so #a very extremely personal song to me #Spotify

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hey guys? i think i might be a little bit in love

#akeyla ml #like #yk #just a little tiny bit #i’m not like. utterly obsessed at all

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that every night i’ll kiss you, you'll say in my ear

oh we're in love, aren't we?

hands in your hair

fingers and thumbs, baby

i feel safe when you're holding me near

love the way that you conquer your fear

you know hearts don't break around here

#akeyla ml #Spotify

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still in shock that i went from believing that i’m just unlovable to having the absolute greatest partner i could ever hope to have

#akeyla ml

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@akeylas-little-world THERES A POST LIMIT (it’s like. 1000 or smtn.)

#akeyla ml

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for someone who had never been in love, january 2023 me described love pretty damn well

“John, when I’m around you… I feel safe. It’s been years since I’ve felt that. You might as well have hung the moon, stars, and sun up in the sky for me. I look outside, and I can only see you. I envision myself with you for my life. I want to wake up next to you for as long as we are together, I want to kiss your fears away, comfort you when you’re upset, share in your excitement. And I’m sorry that the circumstances that we’re under are like this, but I would walk the entirety of the world for you. Without you, the sky is my floor, and the floor is my sky. Everything feels wrong, out of place. I’d challenge the Gods, the universe itself, for you, and for your happiness. I’d do it all for you. And I’m not going to lie to myself and say that I don’t care for you, because we all know that that’s a lie.”

#this is the piece of writing i am most proud of‚ no doubt about it #actually i think the reason i’m crying is because that is just. fuck. #i wrote that just from having read romance books and fics #i believed i could never relate to that paragraph #and just #i can #i can now #akeyla ml

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“and with that, the 2023 season comes to an end…”

it's amazing how much can change in one year. 12 months. 365 days. that's... really not that long. but yet, so much has happened in this time.

i fully dedicated myself to my life long dream- begin posting fanfiction. this was probably one of my best decisions i ever made. i've made new friends, both online in fandom, and in real life. i spent time with family, and grew closer to my older sister. i went to my first concert, and started listening to music more, developing my own music taste. i moved up to a more advanced martial arts class, and completed a school musical. danced in the rain, sung karaoke. i asked out my crush and best friend, who proceeded to tell everybody that we were never together just a few weeks later. i lost that whole friend group, but grew much closer to a better group of people. had a goal to start caring more about life, but... well... maybe i need some work on letting go of some more difficult parts.

i went through one of the hardest and darkest times in my life, but i survived and ended up the happiest i have been in many years.

and i cannot say how glad i am that i did survive it all.

i got a partner, who i fell absolutely head over heels in love with, and is literally my everything, and i love so fucking much (and i really miss like it HURTS i need to see you again my love)

i grew closer to friends who i can talk to, and who seem to actually care.

i grew a lot more confident in martial arts, getting the most improved award.

and improved in my writing abilities.

everything somehow came together and worked out.

and i hope i can continue to grow in 2024, and put an end to my years long streak of having pretty shitty years (it’s been 4 years i’m so sick of this lmao please end this streak)

also i purposely didn’t tick the checkpoints for whether i’ve lost/gained weight, because my weight doesn’t matter and shouldn’t be a factor in my year. you aren’t your weight <3

#2023 #2024 #year review #year reflection #personal #akeyla ml #this year has been absolutely insane holy shit #ALSO AHAHAHA IM IN A WHOLE DIFFERENT YEAR FROM YALL AMERICANS #i’ll let you guys know how 2024 is

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AWES i just saw akeyla and you got together!!! y’all are so cute!! MY BBYS 😭😭😭

AAA TYSMMMMMM <3

#asks #jittyjames #akeyla ml

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what did i do in my past life to deserve such an incredible person my current life…?

#akeyla ml #i just #i cannot communicate for the life of me how fucking grateful i am for them #and i certainly didn’t do anything good in this life to deserve it. so.

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i genuinely believe i have grinned, giggled, and kicked my feet more than any normal person should in these last 24 hours, but also? it’s definitely too early to say anything, but this is the happiest i’ve been in months. just these 24 hours.

#it’s been 24 hours on the dot since i was asked out by my partner??? your honour i am still not okay?????? #i keep going to tag akeyla on these posts but they can find them themselves when they scroll their dash #akeyla ml