#and i can say that it's fine bc i usually wouldn't have done anything in this time LMFAO
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#why do i make such a big deal out of everything in my head#i feel like every once in a while i just come on and make a post like this LOL#but like why does it feel so big and bad and then i just gotta talk abt it for a sec but like#bro it all stems from idk what my relationship w this person on board is#i don't think she dislikes me and i like her but we're not close at all and i just kinda like don't know where i stand#i just like did technically her task for her bc she has two exams today and i feel bad that i like kinda overstepped#but i'm sure she's probably fine w it#but also idk bc i dont know her that well lol#but like it's rly not that big of a dealllllllll 😭😭😭#also bc i feel kinda awkward around her for no good reason just bc we never rly bonded dkjnfbdhsfkgjhdff#but i dont have her number so i can only dm her over discord and i dont think she checks that often#so anoter person on board who i was talking to abt stuff was like i'll just text her#and then like it's a whole thing when there's indirect communication coming one way and other direct communication the other way#and it just felt awkward bc she said one thing to the other person and then saw my message being like sorry jk im jus gonna do it#bc time sensitive 😭 and ik u have exams to worry abt and she told other person she would do it in a bit#but before that to both of them i was just like i'll just do it so we have it sooner rather than later but they didnt see that until after#and it literallyyyyyy DOESN'T MATTERRRRRRRRR but i hate that and it makes me feel bad lmfao#i just need to chill 💀#i'm happy i didn't have my lecture/lab section today bc i haven't done anything in that time#and i can say that it's fine bc i usually wouldn't have done anything in this time LMFAO#i just wish i was better friends w this person so i don't overthink every interaction i have with her like why is that necessary @ brain#idk how to liek make that happen tho i feel like we're both similarly like#comfortable in friend group and then don't branch out that much#or like a little awkward w branching out#idk bro i also feel like their friend group seems like the cool kids in our club lol not in a bad way#but for some reason i'm kinda intimidated/awkward around them#ugh anwyay .... i need to like get over this w her and def the prev director who i would also say is big in that firend group#bc i feel so awkward talkign to them and asking them things but they're probably the ppl i need to talk to the most#but my own fucking awkwardness is stopping me and i just need to shut up to myself lmao#anyway fucking that's over i need to go write 1000 words :DDD
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heyy evie i have a little specific ask so pls just ignore it if it's dumb. lately i wasn't feeling v well and when i'm in that headspace i get clingy. how would eddie react if i was trying to cuddle and be held by him and he snapped at me because he was busy and didn't know i felt bad? i didn't adress it further, apologized and went to bed alone and he felt guilty about it later. how would we make up? maybe not janitor or modern eddie 'cause i don't see them behave like that but the others? or maybe just one of the others? need a little bit of angst and comfort you write so well<3
at first glance I wanted to say dom!eddie bc he seems like kinda a gimme answer in a way, but then I really think he wouldn't be mad at you for being clingy because that's a little unheard of for you. and I think that would be the same with rockstar!eddie, if anything he'd be on high alert and kinda freaked out.
but I think this would (and I apologize bc I'm about to hurt some people) be mafia!eddie coded.
he's fucking stressed to the max. rick is pissed the feds raided his place, hopper and steve were supposed to help him out and keep him ahead of this and they dropped the ball. they had to move shipments to another place bc obv rick doesn't keep shit at his house but they were scared they'd find the warehouse, and they moved it but that pushed things back leaving their buyers furious- they lost a lot of money.
rick is on eddie's ass to expedite the next shipment, send some guys down to miami and pick it up themselves, and he's stressed, he hasn't slept, and fuck- he's exhausted. mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally exhausted.
kitten had been getting sick, a little under the weather and usually eddie doted on her after one sniffle. she tried to keep it under wraps just because she didn't want to add to his stress, but she really didn't feel good and she missed eddie.
"ed?" you knocked on the door to his office. it was late and he'd been in here all day, barely leaving to even use the bathroom. "ed, are you coming to bed, honey?"
"I'll be there in a second." eddie huffed, fingers knotting through his already mussed hair.
you pouted, moving closer into the room. it smelt like cigarettes, which judging by the full ash tray, he'd been chain smoking. "baby, why don't you do this in the morning?" you ran your hand over his shoulder, feeling the tensed muscles. selfishly, you just wanted to spend time with him. you weren't feeling the best and combined with your lack of sleep from eddie's absence, it wasn't making you feel any better.
eddie ignored you, jaw tightening and continuing to mark up plans. you sighed, moving to sit in his lap. "eddie, you need to rest. you're overdoing it-"
eddie smacked his hands on the desk, shouting your name so loudly you stood before you could properly get into his lap. "for fuckssake! can you leave me alone to work? I have to get this shit done, ok? I fucking have to. I don't have time for this bullshit right now. I don't need sleep, I need you to leave me the fuck alone so I can figure this out!"
you felt the growing lump in your throat, turning on your heel, muttering a soft apology before going back to bed, teary eyed and head throbbing with congestion from your cold and tears.
eddie didn't come to bed until much much later, and when he did, he collapsed next to you, not even taking his clothes off he was so exhausted. he finally got things sorted and approved, rick was more calm and steady, jeff and max had picked up the cuban shipment in miami and were headed to rick, and it looked like he could finally relax for a little bit.
then he woke up the next day.
his arm was on you, even in his sleep he just reached out to hold you, but you were covered in a soft sheen of sweat, shaking a little even under the blankets. eddie blinked awake, seeing you covered in the blankets. "baby, are you ok?"
"'m fine." you muttered, still shivering and voice wavering. he didn't miss the way your voice rasped. "just a little cold."
eddie sat up, placing a hand on your head. it was damp and hot. "you're burning up, kitten." he frowned. "are you-are you sick?"
you hesitated and that was answer enough. eddie was up, reaching for the phone on the nightstand. "no, ed, I'm fine. really. I just... don't worry about me. I'll be alright."
eddie shakes his head, reaching for the phone book. "I'm calling dr. stephens to come look at you, alright? should've told me you were sick."
"I didn't want to bother you anymore than I already did, ed, please. I'll be alright." you pleaded, guilt creeping in your chest.
eddie paused, confused at first, before realization flooded him. then the horrid feeling of dread. "oh...oh fuck, kitten, no." eddie set the phone down, eyes rounded up at you. "I didn't... I was just...I'm so sorry." he didn't know what else to say. excuses felt lame and pointless, and the guilt and horror of his words were making him feel sick to his stomach. he'd talked to you so mean, so vile when you were just looking out for him. when you were sick.
eddie spent the rest of the day coddling you in any way he could. a lame excuse of an apology in his eyes, but it was all he could do. he felt horrible, and you knew that, that's why you let him dote on you, baby you and fuss over your blankets and pillows. you let him hold you in the office when he did have to go over a few things, snuggled in his lap or lying on the couch and napping. just in his company, it made you both feel a little better.
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ummmmm how about 3, 8, & 10 for fyonikonathan, montcott, and/or kunichuuzai (however you want to split the numbers and ships up lol)
also ily <333
fyonikonathan
3. Which one outlives the other, and how they cope
well. on one hand. fyodor. because [redacted]. you know how it is (<- said to everyone except corey). and they react by ignoring all of their feelings of course.
on the other hand. nikolai. and he reacts like this and this
8. What they argue about
religion. nikolai being against it entirely ofc but i also just know fyodor and nathaniel are fighting about the nitpicky things like whether you should be dunked under the water forwards or backwards when you're baptized
10. What TV shows they watch together, and which ones they hide from the other
nikolai doesn't hide anything he watches. he's out here handcuffing both fyodor and nathaniel to the couch so they can watch all of riverdale and he is having a GREAT time. fyodor says he doesn't watch tv but does in fact rather enjoy soap operas. he and nathaniel watched the bible miniseries together to see if it was accurate or not and they took a great many precautions to make sure nikolai wouldn't interrupt. nathaniel actually doesn't watch much tv unless nikolai is forcing him to watch something. the three of them watch a lot of trashy reality tv together bc nikolai loves the drama and the other two are handcuffed to the couch again
montcott
3. Which one outlives the other, and how they cope
i think. probably louisa outlives lucy. and she doesn't handle it well. she wants to lock herself in a room and use her ability because that's always what she's done to avoid facing her problems, except that will only make her life stretch on longer, so she stops using her ability at all. louisa's religious beliefs are very,, she doesn't exactly know what she believes but if she does believe in anything, it tells her she isn't going to see lucy again because lucy definitely didn't believe in the same things as louisa so she can live for another million years or she could die right now and it wouldn't make any difference. she hopes there's no afterlife so she doesn't have to deal with missing lucy anymore. she hates what she believes in, but that doesn't make her stop believing it. she's having a very bad time.
8. What they argue about
their big argument before they sort things out is about lucy betraying the guild + louisa just standing by and doing nothing while everyone treated lucy like crap after the ada figured out her ability. once they get past that and rekindle their friendship/relationship, smaller things they argue about are whether or not reading is fun (louisa thinks yes; lucy thinks no) whether sticking pins/needles through the top layer of your skin is a fine thing to do (lucy thinks yes; louisa thinks no), how many stuffed animals is too many (lucy thinks there is no such thing; louisa would like some room on the bed for herself please), and also their differing opinions on fashion (lucy likes fun flashy things and louisa prefers simple outfits)
10. What TV shows they watch together, and which ones they hide from the other
lucy makes louisa watch reality shows that center around fashion/clothes with her (say yes to the dress, america's next top model). lucy also probably has watched keeping up with the kardashians but refuses to admit it. louisa prefers fictional tv shows, usually ones that take place in the real world but have magical elements (the librarians, witches of east end) but she's watched. a lot of different shows. bc growing up, she would use her ability to just read books/watch tv shows and movies to escape reality. she hides the fact that she's seen every episode of shows like riverdale and supernatural and sherlock bc they weren't that good but she enjoyed watching them anyway
kunichuuzai
3. Which one outlives the other, and how they cope
kunikida . i think. dazai and chuuya are going to go together and they're going to leave kunikida behind and he's going to be angry at first because it's easier than being sad. he doesn't cope well. he keeps forgetting they're not coming back this time.
8. What they argue about
whether a diet consisting entirely of canned crab is sustainable (dazai says yes, kuni and chuuya say no), whether or not wine is good (dazai says no, kuni and chuuya say yes), whether or not chuuya's hat ugly (dazai says yes, chuuya says no, kuni refuses to get involved in that one), whether they should get a dog (chuuya says yes just a small one, dazai says no because he doesn't like dogs and they're too much work, kunikida says no because chuuya you are ALLERGIC TO THEM), and also there has to be one big argument about kunikida's ideal partner and is he actually going to stay with chuuya and dazai or is he just wasting time while he waits for the Right Person to come along and he can leave them behind
10. What TV shows they watch together, and which ones they hide from the other
dazai makes the other two watch trashy reality tv and poorly-written dramas. chuuya pretends to hate it but ends up getting the most invested out of all of them. kunikida puts up with it because his partners enjoy it, and he likes seeing their reactions. dazai doesn't hide anything he watches. chuuya probably has one comfort cartoon they watch when they're having a bad day but will absolutely die before admitting as much. kunikida doesn't watch much tv in general, but he does sort of hide that he enjoys watching nature documentaries with kenji. it's not an on-purpose secret; he just never mentions it to dazai and chuuya
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I wanna start by saying I'm not trying to start a fight, but you saying that Chloe had some kind of mental break or dissociative episode in Queen Wasp as a way to excuse the train incident has always felt like a bit of a reach
Idk if you've ever had a dissociative episode or mental breakdown or anything like that, and I'm not demanding you share if you have, but I have, and the way we see Chloe act in Queen Wasp is not how someone who is dissociating would act in my experience
She's too cognizant
After snapping, transforming, and running, Chloe has the presence of mind to stop on the closest vantage point she could find, look around for an idea of how to prove herself, focus on the subway, come up with the idea to stage a crash, dial Nadja Chamak's number to tell her about the train so there are cameras present, and stop and paralyze the driver before trying to stop the train
There was a time when I was dissociating after a massive fight with my parents and walking through my neighborhood, and I came to a cross light.
I remember seeing that I couldn't go straight across bc of the red light, and seeing that a car was coming down the street, but I kept walking straight.
The car was too far away to be dangerous to me, but they did slam their brakes and honk.
I didn't register any of that, I just kept walking. I didn't even realize what had happened until hours after I had gotten back home and calmed down.
That's not what happened to Chloé in Queen Wasp. She wasn't thinking clearly bc she was rightfully upset and hurt and acting impulsively, but it wasn't a mental break
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Okay okay okay we're just gonna.
Firstly: Different experiences and different words for different things!
Yes, some people's breakdowns are the type of disassociation where they're not aware they're just in full zombie mode.
Other people's breakdowns are organized and focused and seemingly aware! They're still not quite in the right state of mind! But they do things that are a little off and they wouldn't usually because they think it'll make them feel better!
This isn't a disassociation state, this is more like a manic episode. Like, I'm not saying that this is genuinely a manic episode for Chloé because I am not an expert and I don't know if she hits more checks for that sort of disorder and it's a very short episode as far as we can tell while a proper episode would be a longer period of time. It's just the best word I can find to describe this type of breakdown But I have 100% seen and experienced both the 'zombie mode' and the 'oh let's do something about this!!' breakdown.
And yes, in the real world, an episode like this wouldn't result directly to 'fake a train accident', it does result in extremely poor decisionmaking as they ride it out. Things like impulsively chopping off hair, spending money they can't afford to, taking risks in sexual situations, etc. But in a kids show with superheroes, that is 100% on the table.
Again: I am not an expert, but Chloé was going through some hell and I've seen people snap in that sort of way where, were they a cartoon character, could end up in that situation.
Secondly:
You make it sound like I'm just excusing it like 'haha whatever it's chill'. Which, to be fair, Canon did that! The train thing is just never brought up again and she never faces any consequences for it so Canon thinks it's fine!
But even if she is in the most manic or dissassociative or whatever state? She is still responsible for what happens when she comes down from it. And yeah in a fictional world like this you can handwave that action when everyone ends up fine instead of having her go to jail or some shit.
Thirdly:
We aren't talking about how this incident should be ignored. We're talking about how this is considered the worst thing that Chloé has done, and proof that she's 'evil', but it was something done while not only not in the right state of mind, but something that never intended to harm anyone, didn't end up harming anyone, and also did in fact get brushed off by the rest of the cast.
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weird little ramble real quick. it's nothing super serious or personal or anything like that but no reblogs pls! HA I CAN JUST TURN THEM OFF THANKS ANON
lately i want to engage more w the positivity i get from you guys. as in like, i usually do fine with one or two nice messages but if i get a bunch in a row i suddenly get self conscious or embarrassed or something, and i step away, and then (tale as old as time) if it's been too long since it was sent i then get self conscious about THAT and convince myself it would be weird to answer it late etc etc etc etc
and like. obviously i don't have to answer every message i get (and also i usually don't feel like spending a large portion of my day answering messages and also i literally wouldn't have time even if i wanted to) but i'm talking abt like, there are nice messages that i would like to engage w but then i stop myself because of really nonsensical brain shit, not bc of a real reason like "oh! that was nice to read but i can't think of anything to say" or "i don't have time". like worrying that all my answers will sound copy-pasted and therefore insincere bc there are only so many ways to say "thank u, that means a lot," or the very weird but very loud one is "if you publish too many positive/complimentary messages in a row everyone will think you're showing off and find you insufferable" (?????)
but as always the best way to combat "what if people think XYZ of me :(" is to make eye contact w whoever/whatever group of people you're spinning hypotheticals about and go "hey, i'm worried you might think XYZ when that's not what i mean," which is kind of part of why typing this all out makes me feel better lol.
also there's an added feeling of like. sometimes i'm so distracted and busy and stressed out that i just kind of skim through the nice stuff and go "[absentmindedly] that's really nice. okay back to work" instead of really sitting in it. like. you guys are really really nice to me. it means something. i feel like a lot of times i (like probably pretty much everyone else alive) do not spend time really actually absorbing what it means when ppl are kind to me, in the same way that like... for example when u get something done, and instead of celebrating ur accomplishment you're like "[muttering to yourself] okay good. fine. that's done. where's the next problem/task/whatever." it's the thing ppl have said a billion times abt like, a hundred compliments will bounce right off your head but one rando says one mean thing and it sticks w u for ages (except even in the absence of anyone being a dick the nice stuff still bounces. and not even from low self confidence or anything!!! just from like... lack of attention????)
so this isn't even about like feeling like i Owe more responsiveness or anything like that bc i know the vast majority of my audience does not expect that (thank fucking godf. lol) but more about like, literally for my sake i need to Slow The Fuck Down and pay attention. so i'm trying to do that more.
no real reason for all this and it's not a big deal or anything super serious, like i said. it just gets my thoughts in order to get it out. this is like two full coherent thoughts at best but it spins into an essay bc this is the only way i can express myself (THIS IS WHY I MAKE COMICS INSTEAD OF JUST WRITING MOST OF THE TIME HA HAAAA)
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hi, I'm not very good at thinking deeply about things, so I'll have thoughts that, base level, seem logical, but i know theres issues with it if dug deeper into (im not good at that) so im wondering if you can share your ideas and perspective on this for me? I love your posts and respect your opinion and how well youre able to explain your thoughts.
so, firstly I'm a mlm trans man. I do not have any masculine environments where I am accepted (I do not "pass"). and by masculine I mean, stereotypical fishing beer cars 3n1 masculine. I also mean the energy of being a man in the most simple of stereotypical definitions (excluding the toxicity part). I usually only get accepted socially by fem people, or other trans men who are more feminine and into things I'm not(like drag and make up etc)(WHICH IS FINE. I love that stuff I'm just not personally that interested myself.) so I'm constantly just catching everyone else's wave in order to be social. now this is all my own issue that I'll work on etc. but I can't relate to a lot of feminine things and I constantly find myself just wishing I could be surrounded by other masculine men.
I'm finally at my point I think... so the other day I quickly typed up a post before thinking about it that said "I only want to be surrounded by manly men" as a light hearted joke. I immediately deleted it before even posting it bc I realized that many people would take that the wrong way and see that as a negative thing. but then I thought "anyone of any gender could write "i only want to be surrounded by women" and no one would think twice about it." it wouldn't be nearly as offensive to most people. or wouldn't be seen as being misogynistic. i thought that was unfair bc as a trans man I'm kind of expected to reject the masculine culture and be ashamed of that aspect. because masculinity is usually tied to being toxic and abusive. i don't know if any of this makes sense. I'm really not the smartest person in the world and I have a hard time talking and using the right words so I'm sorry if I misused any terms or anything.
You're all good anon, and honestly? I can empathize with that kind of feeling a lot. I've also had a lot of times where I just... Want To Be Around Men And Love Men Because There Is A Lot Of Beauty In Maleness And Masculinity !!!!! And I also really understand that feeling of social isolation you're kind of describing where it feels like you're really only accepted by people who are more feminine in one way or another and want to be around more masculine folks.
It's definitely hard and tricky trying to express that though. I wish we lived in a perfect world where when mlm, especially trans mlm, were able to just comfortably say "I want to be surrounded by masculine men" and have all of the nuances of that just.... be understood. So many people don't want to attempt to understand our nuances though because they have no concept of what healthy manhood or masculinity can look like, so they don't understand why it would or could be desirable to us.
I really do think that we can be the change we want to see in the world though! I think as trans mlm we're in a really unique position to truly show people what it can mean like to be masculine and love masculinity in healthy and kind ways. To live authentically in that way is genuinely beautiful I think. I know it is easier said than done but if people can't understand or accept your authentic and true self? Fuck them. Like, if they are someone you care about it's always an option to try to help them understand and that sort of situation is up to you to gauge, but you owe absolutely nothing to strangers on the internet.
If someone can't understand why a trans mlm would want to be surrounded by masculinity, or if they immediately jump to the worst bad faith understanding of that desire, they are genuinely not someone worth breaking your back over. You deserve to be open about and proud of your desires anon, especially in light hearted ways like that.
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How do you think darry would be like when he's taking care of you while you're sick?
How Darry Would Take Care Of you if You Were Sick
Warnings: cursing
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-i feel like since he has two younger brothers,
-hes used to taking care of people
-and usually he wouldn't mind taking care of his brothers,
-and wouldn't make a big deal
-but when it comes to his lover...it's a different story
-he gets so so worried, and scared
-like he would try to do so many things at once
-like make soup, a warm drink, cuddle and hold you, get you warm
-like....this man would be so worried he would make himself sick
-but once you tell him to chill (💀) he's like...
-better...but not really 😅
-'baby it's ok! I'm not bed ridden I can help a little'
-'no! Go back and sit on the couch while I make soup!'.....'and wrap yourself in some blankets!'
-after he's done making soup he would pour 2 bowls
-one for you and one for him
-so you didn't feel weird being the only one eating
-he would set them down on the table infront of the couch (idk if there even is one in the movie 💀)
-he would wrap an arm around you
-turn the TV on
-and make sure you have lots of blankets
-'whatcha wanna watch babes?' 'mmm...idk'
-if you were like...super sick
-and I mean throwing up
-he would hold your hair back
-'its ok darling get it all out of your system, you're ok baby' 'uugghh I feel like shit Darrel'....'ik baby'
-he would make sure you get all cleaned up
-he would like...grab some toilet paper and wipe your mouth off
-he would leave you in the bathroom alone to freshen up after
-most of the day would js be on the couch, cuddling
-i feel like he likes you being vulnerable,
-bc he secret loves to take care of you 🥺
-he would fvcking MELT if you fell asleep in his arms
-'haha oh baby that was funn-....oh you're asleep. Ok, that's ok baby'
-ahem, anyway
-he would stroke your arm soothingly
-run his fingers through your hair
-have his arms securely around you
-kiss your head,
-cheeks,
-hand 🥺
-nose
-lips (he doesn't care if he gets sick)
-forehead
-'thank you Darry...for everything' 'oh it's no big deal sweet cheeks, I like taking care of my girl'
-if the boys came home and were loud....na 💀💀 like Darry would be so mad at them
-especially if they woke you up
-'guys, shut the fuck up, she sick, tired, and she's fucking sleeping'
-^ Darry has never cursed more in his entire life
-'uugghh what's all the noise? It makes my head hurt'
-you'd say waking up
-'ssshh it's ok...the boys are home but I'll make sure they're quiet. Go back to sleep sweets'
-hed probably say that as he runs his fingers through your hair, and kissing your forehead
-'you guys better be quiet, if she wakes up again bc of y'all, you're dead meat'
-'haha look at how defensive he is...it's so cute.'
-probably either Dal or Steve would say that 💀
-'shut it, at least I have a girl' he would snap at them
-he would js hold you tight
-he'd probably wind up carrying you (bridal style🤭) to his room,
-lying you in bed
-he'd lay down behind you, spooning you
-his arms around your waist
-he'd probably fall asleep with you is his arms
-them wake up in the afternoon/evening
-'do you feel any better sweets?'...'mmm only a little'
-'ok...I'll cook something and then we can go back to sleep, but you need to eat, ok?' 'ok'
-you'd wrap your arms around his waist, but then
-hed pick you up and carry you to the couch,
-softly throwing you on it
-'stop it. I want you sitting or lying down ok? I don't want your body too hurt or too tired bc you're standing'
-'darry! I'm fine! I wanna hold you....it'll make me feel better'
-*pouty face*
-'ok fine...'
-he'd cook, you'd eat, and then he'd carry you to bed
-you'd sleep the night, and (hopefully) not throw up or anything
-if ya did ...
-darry would be right there behind you as you go to the bathroom
-same deal as earlier
-he'd hold your hair back, and leave ya to freshen up
-(brush teeth, hair)
-'im so sorry that I woke you up. And 'm sorry that you feel the need to take care of me'
-you'd say, tears lightly filling your eyes
-'oh darling, don't cry...it's all ok. I swear to you it's ok. I don't care much. And yk...I do feel a need to take care of you, and I have every right to care about my lovely girl'
-and you'd sleep again 🙂
-not waking up until morning
-you'd wake up in Darry's arms, and he's wake up soon after
-'how ya feelin''....'better'
-'yea?' 'mhm...yea I feel better'
-'that's good darling. I'm glad you're feeling better...makes me happy'
#the outsiders#fanfic#the outsiders 1983#greaser#kisses#darry curtis#lovers#darrel curtis#sick day#caring#hc's#the outsiders hcs
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After walls,i knew i'm going to be a fan of Louis' music forever and i would've been fine with that level or artistry simply because he makes such good music with amazing lyrics but fitf blew my mind not only because it's such an amazing album(i knew Louis wouldn't disappoint) but because it showed that Louis revisits his work and really tries to analyse everything about it OBJECTIVELY which is a rarity among artists as it is but for someone like him?I thought it was impossible (i know he often
criticizes walls but he usually doesn't really go into details. Fitf proved that that wasn't insecurity speaking and Louis knows exactly what he is doing musically) not bc he's a self-absurd person or anything but how can he keep his sanity let alone his objectivity towards his art in his environment? (Hell normal people who lead ordinary lives can't be self-critical and admit their own mistakes bc they don't think objectivity towards one's self exists) i thought someone in his position would either ignore all kind of criticism (and i wouldn't blame him considering how balantly anti-Louis people are in their reviews) or drown in a sea of insecurities and self-doubt but not Louis. Objectively speaking, Walls doesn't have many flaws but it's obvious Louis worked on each and every weakness he saw on it to make an even better album starting with the visuals (the lyric videos,the vinyls and their booklets,the merch..) to more important aspects: I love Walls with all my heart but Louis didn't experiment with his voice and sound much in it and the production was good but not the best but with Fitf Louis as he said was more open towards different and dare i say catchier sounds and used his voice's beauty and capability to transmit emotions so gorgeously all while maintaining his identity (idk how he does it but i'm not kidding when i say i know a Louis Tomlinson song when i hear it even if it wasn't in his voice) and giving us even more beautiful and meaningful lyrics (which i honestly didn't think was possible because Walls' lyrics were just too good).
I guess what i'm trying to say is Louis' ability to drown the unnecessary noise and pick objectively what he thinks he could've done better in his previous works was surprising to me (especially considering how his team seems to be clueless about everything so i wouldn't count on their advice) and it really opens new possiblities for him (and us) and gives him room for improvements that we don't even see coming (idk how he'll improve it bc i can't find a single flaw in Fitf and he seems to agree but we'll see) and it's so exciting like i was so excited for Fitf and the tour before the album's release but now? i can't wait to see what he's planning for us?How different will this tour be? I don't think he'll ever come where i live but i'm going to do my everything to go see him in Europe next year and hopefully Mexico. Anything to experience fitf and see Louis live
EVERYTHING about your message, anon!
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This is just sort of half confession, half vent.
We got quite a few problematic factives but there's one in particular that I feel kinda ashamed about how I treated him.
The factive in question isn't problematic in the usual way, his source isn't a bad person, very far from it in fact. It's just that I'd seen other systems get flak for similar factives.
We have hyperempathy so feel a lot of stress around social issues and sometimes split from them. We ended up splitting a factive tied to a social issue about a minority we're not a part of. We'd seen other systems get fakeclaimed and told they were just compensating for guilt for similar factives so I kinda tried to force him to seperate from his source.
While he was still in the early phases of forming I tried to push his formation away from his source and basically forced him into being or at least pretending to be a brainmade instead, even forcing him to go by a different name. He didn't seem to bothered by it at the time but now that we're in a better place he started to express he really hates that we did that.
He wants to reconnect with his source and decide what he relationship he wants with his source. He has expressed that he wants to go by his actual name and we have respected that. But even he feels nervous about it bc he's inherited a lot of the shame the rest of us feel about him.
I want to feel less ashamed about it, especially considering how I treated him but it's really hard.
I think it's better that I, the Host answers this one. I understand its a vent, so I won't say too much. Only this.
You can't change what you did. There is nothing that can be done to change what happened. And how this person feels about you when its blown over is how they feel about you when it blows over.
I did the same things. I tried to make Anxiety form as someone else. That traumatized him in a way he can't recover from. Even the fact that we call him "Anxiety" here to keep him anonymous-- That's because of what I did to him. I wouldn't call him anything other than that. I tried to force that name change onto him.
Your relationship with this member-- it might never be perfect. My relationship with Anxiety is estranged. Anxiety has in the past called me his best friend. Anxiety also calls me his abuser. And as much as I hate to know he thinks of me that I did to him was abuse and I have to live with that.
I'm sorry. I don't mean to down on your vent, but I don't want to lie to you. I cant say "Be nice and everything will be fine" because I don't know you inside and out. I can't promise everything will turn out okay. Can it? Yeah! Would I bet on it? Usually not.
The most you can do is be better from here onward. Things may not ever be perfect, but they can get better.
Strive for better
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So... I've been thinking for a while if I should be doing this because I know some people will not agree with me and I don't want to start a fight or to upset someone so... If ur reading this, I'm going to talk about why I think Mike being gay is better for the bisexual community than being bisexual. If your not comfortable with this, U can skip it. ITS FINE!
I know it sounds weird, but, if we think about it, the problems against bisexual people nowadays (without mentioning the homophobia bcs ofc it is) are practically led to being """"in the middle of it all""""":
— Ur not Straight but ur not gay, so, when for example a bisexual girl starts dating with a guy, people usually tend to erase bisexuality and think she is straight and vice versa, but, does it sounds familiar to you?
Mike has dated a girl, and therefore a lot of people think he can't be gay. They are ignoring the fact that dating someone doesn't define ur sexuality, neither for your hole life, and if Mike was cannonly gay, he would not only be representing gay people with interiorized homophobia who dates a person to avoid the truth, but the fact that dating someone doesn't (again) define ur sexuality, which is something bisexual people do struggle with.
— Another important argument is heteronormativity.
This is a bit of a story but, I have two bisexual friends (we're three LMAO), one is a girl, and the other one is a guy. One day my girl friend heard someone thought my friend and her were dating because they skipped together a random class. Still she and I have done it before and no one really thought that, that's how heteronormativity affects bisexual people too.
Showing how Mike struggled with the expectations of being straight is really healthy for bisexual and, presenting a character that explored his sexuality ON a heteronormative society is actually healing me, because, in my case, even if I'm bisexual and I know it, heteronormativity shows up doing things to me like not getting used to say I could have a bf or gf or x and stuff like that. Due to homophobia and bifobia I get surprised when someone ask me if I like someone, mentioning the all genders (I love how my mom unexpectedly get used to it).
Those are a few problems I've struggled with for being bisexual in a heteronormative society.
And I actually could do a hole post about why I think seeing Mike as bi or straight is actually due to the heteronorm but, I think it would be better if you read analysis on Tumblr, because I wouldn't say anything that hasn't been pointed out yet.
Still I wanted to tell you the most important ones for me.
The only explanation for Mike hating so much Max in S2 and 3 are just that he's gay, I'm not going to elaborate, again, people has pointed this out. In S1 every party member doesn't like Eleven and aren't interested in her at all, meanwhile, in S2 everyone seems (to Mike)to be interested in Max but him. (Still so funny). In S3 he even says Max is conspiring against him, like?? For what?? For letting her know she can dress however she wants to and not only be with u??
The more Eleven finds herself and defines as a person and explore her feminine gender, the more Mike looses interest in her.
He hasn't been attracted to any other girl than El.
He hasn't reacted to any kind of girl or girl related stuff (like the sauna vs the lingerie scenes or the Daphne game)
Any of those were mine.
I wanted to tell you this because If we want to end this real bisexual's problem (heteronormativity) we shouldn't US be doing the exact same thing people do to homosexuals. So, in my opinion, it is kind of homophobic to see Mike as a bisexual boy, because, it is due to heteronorm statements (still I'm NOT BLAMING anyone because we need to understand that we are ALL homophobic, mysoginist, racist, capacists... It's all been learned and I don't want you to feel like you are doing sth wrong or it is your fault🥺).
With that being said that's my two arguments. Heteronormativity and how it affects LGBT+ community, and defining someone's sexuality based in who are they dating are common problems that Mike's gay ass fights :).
Again this is MY opinion, don't take it seriously because Mike is not canonly anything yet. The hints nowadays points to him being gay, but that does not mean that's what the he is because it is all a headcanon. I still insist I don't want people to get uncomfortable or feeling bad for wishing a character to be bi to have that representation because the important thing is that we all are a community that wants to have fun and watch our little Will be angsty but happy at the same time (yass)
11/06/2022
(the date is bcs u'll never know when will you change ur opinion, specially in this topics where everyday I keep learning).
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🍏🔮🩸🎀💧🧠!!!
🍏 - How do you get inspiration for whump?
hmmm. I think my whump thoughts tend to be pretty self-referencial. its just finding new ways to combine a collection of blorbos and a collection of fucked up situations and emotions. but! scrolling through whump tags or my dashboard is probably one of the main sources of new ideas into my brain's little ecosystem. usually it's the actual fics but sometimes a prompt will hit me hard.
and of course sometimes random things in completely unwhumpy life or media will stick in my head as having potential.
🔮 - What's a favorite whump trope of yours?
I'm fine with repeating this question bc I've got more answers! I've been thinking lately about begging when its not necessary. mistaking friend for foe in a state of delirium is a classic example. but! I am picky. I don't think it hits the same if its a result of Conditioning™ or meant to show that a character is Completely Broken™. I like it best when its a character that you wouldn't expect to beg, having a little lapse that shows just how fucked up of a state they're in. and ESPECIALLY if its somewhat reasonable; if there's some genuine reason they'd think this person would hurt them. it makes the other person's guilt so much more potent 😈
🩸 - What's a least favorite whump trope of yours?
EHEHEH, TEA TIME. lets seeeee. honestly I'd have to say conditioning. specifically conditioning played completely straight. it's very fun to deconstruct as a concept, but I just find it so bland when it's done in the classic fantasy of Torturer Kidnaps And Trains Whumpee Into Obedient Slave narrative. it's just so disconnected from any real psychology that I find it really hard to get into.
🎀 - Do you know any good songs for whump?
honestly? yes. emo music is really good for whump. so is a lot of dark country, honestly.
from a quick glance at one of my favorite whumpee's playlists, I can recommend Grave Digger by Blues Saraceno, honestly almost anything from Everyone Loves A Villain, (warning, too hard for you if you're categorically opposed to metal music) and also anything from Citizen Soldier. (warning, they're basically all about depression and almost all about suicidal thoughts, so tread with caution if you're sensitive to that.)
💧 - What's your favorite type of whumpee?
I already answered this one, but it'll do it again. I'm rly partial to slimy little bastards. real "woah hey I'm just a little guy. just a little fella. and it's my birthday, you wouldn't hit a guy on his birthday? I'm just a little birthday boy" energy
🧠 - What's your favorite type of whumper?
honestly I think whumpers are the part of whump that I care about the least. I had to look through my writing folder to remember my own whumpers lmao. they're a plot device to explore the characters I actually care about. but if I had to take a stance I'd say I've been enjoying lab whump recently, and I find scientist-type whumpers very fun.
#thank you for the ask! this took me a bit to fill out but it was very fun#i love excuses to talk#asks#whump ask games#'scientist-type whumpers' makes it sound like a pokemon type or something lmao#now im thinking about what a whump-themed card dueling game would look like
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"I promise to plant kisses like seeds on you body, so in time you can grow to love yourself as I love you." -Tyler Knott Gregson
THIS. FUCKING. CHAPTER. HOLY FUCK.
Magnus Bane. The boy from nowhere. The fact that this boy went from this, to making this way everywhere he went... I just...fuck😭
Please I love Raphael so much jdvskdbdid I need him to give me advice like, everyday
Their meeting is just😭SCREAMING AND CRYING!! I am love them!!! Magnus wanting to call him Alexander since the first time, Alec always wanting to know more about him and wanting him to stay and MAGNUS BEING HIS FIRST AND WANTING MORE!!!
Eating raisins is consider a love language and I will be thinking about the way Alec ate them for Magnus even in their first meeting and-
I think Magnus kinda killed Alec that day with his flirting. I would have died right there tbh
Their first meeting and they have seen each other shirtless already smh. You knew something was up from that moment!!
Ok but Magnus always reassuring him that it's ok to want something.... My heart is full and my anxiety cured
Alec getting scared of something happening to Magnus the same way it happened to Max. It's ok. I don't have a heart anymore :)
THE KISS!! I REPEAT ITS THEIR FIRST KISS THIS IS A HISTORICAL MOMENT OK?!? THIS SHIT NEED TO BE ON MUSEUMS!!!
If he doesn't let you walk him to his dorm just so he can spend time with you and then walk YOU to your dorm even tho he has a fucking car... Then what's the point????
“I’m saying who we are matters more than anything,” Jia corrects. “So, use it to your advantage.” Jia is my president. I only answer to her. And to Aline because she is cool as fuck! Fuck Bridgestock!!
Maybe he should do something different on his off day. Go out? Meet some people? Yeah. No. That sounds awful. MOOD AS FUCK
Alec wonders if Magnus will ever truly feel at home anywhere. Just with you, love...
They really said we are going to talk and figured this shit out but first let's fuck huh? Now I know where Max got it from....
Magnus is hard to hold onto.
He is like water. He slips away.
But Alec holds on.
He holds on for as long as he can.
Then he lets go.
This being kind of a parallel for the divorce... I'm in awe
Magnus is a cutie and he is the reason I believe in beauty!!!!
“We’ll figure it out. We’ll figure it out together,” Alec promises. “We’re good at that.”
“Figuring things out?” Magnus asks.
“Doing things together,” Alec smiles.
Communication is hot and beautiful and sexy!!!
God,I love Anjali and the way they are all a little scared of her... ✨women✨
Rafael moving in with Anjali makes me feel like a proud parent 🥺🥺 but also omfg she is right!!! They are soo dramatic!! It's not even that horrible and yess I have been there done that!!! But is all fine anyway, they can be horny on the meantime :)
I'm love Jace and Lexi and we should all appreciate them😎
CAMILA!!! I MISSED HER!! AND I AGREE EVERYTHING SHE SAID😌
They are indeed weirdos, but you'll learn to love them💙💙
That family session was pure chaos and I wouldn't trade it for anything!! But poor David, he always gets dragged into this jdhdidbdkkd
Alec and Anjali are both two hopelessly in love simps and ready to change the law for the one they love!! But don't ever tell her I called her that bc I'm scared of her :))
LUCA. LITERALLY HIM AND EVERYTHING HE SAYS>>>>>>
Favorite bits as usual:
“Are you saying I won’t fall?”
“No,” Luca shakes his head. “I’m asking what’s the big deal if you do fall?”
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"The Lightwood-Banes defy probability. Don’t let a number hold you back.”
Oh, if only I had someone in my life that made me tamales😭😭 I know how to do them,but still!
The great meaning that opening the window has, and the way it reflects that he is okay, he is going to be okay. The window has been bolted shut for far too long, and finally it let's all the light pass💚
FINALLY. THEY SAID IT!! THEY SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND. THEY ALSO TALKED AND COMMUNICATED AND SHIT!! MY BABES ARE GROWING🥺
Why do you never find a taxi when you need one? I don't know, taxis never come when you need to be hit by one smh
Going from "I can't live without him" to "I can live without him, but I don't want to because I choose him every time" makes me feel a lot of things😭
God the parallels of their first meeting and the first time asking for a date and this time!!!! HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS SHIT??? THE PARALLELS AND THE WAY THEY ARE DIFFERENT PEOPLE BUT AT THE SAME TIME THEY ARE STILL... THEM??? FUCK I LOVE IT!!
I can't even mention my favorite parts from here, I just loved all of it and the way it shows how much they have changed and how they are not in a better place to try again and take things slow and to they way they prefer....
“Alec,” he smiles at Magnus gently. “But you can call me Alexander.”
Magnus exhales softly. “Alexander.”
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“One day, I’ll put that ring back where it belongs,” Alec whispers.
Thank you so much for this story. The way it makes me feel things I can't completely put into words always amazes me. Never stop Dani💚
Epilogue here we go!!!
Chapter 40 was SUPER intense with parallels and I had so much fun writing it.
Thank you so much for always being there for me.
Noah: dani im one of your fave mutuals right?
me: noah you are one of my fave people ;)
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1-4, 10-14 for black swan 👀
HOTTEST ASK IVE EVER GOTTEN 🤍 #tw linn, the usual.
what’s the maximum amount of time they can sit still with nothing to do?
gray wld be fine just sitting around until he becomes part of the interior design though it depends on pain whims bc sometimes it's easier to move and put his body to some use than tough it out while burning up inside. ideal existence is dancing with linnea, followed directly by sitting completely still reading a book without paying attention for the rest of his unending life. linn is, ofc, the exact opposite, restless internal drive to do and experience things like it's no wonder that the one power she retains post-fall is short distance teleportation (turning into fog and Leaving) lmao
how easy is it for them to laugh?
ggggHHHHHHHHHH. evilest question & YOU KNOW IT.
linnea is always laughing :3 always always amused by everything around her and if not she will make it amusing (to the possible detriment of bystanders caught in whatever the fuck her idea of entertainment is in that moment) vs. gray who. u rly are making me say it hhhhh. laughs from the bottom of his wretched heart around linnea and then never again (only empty snide grins, the same hollow cruelty he projects from thereon) but with linnea it was real.... the laugh she is able to draw out of him… how fun it is to be around somebody who enjoys life to the fullest, vicarious joy (no matter how rotten it turns in his mouth sometimes) being around linnea is easy, effortless, she makes him smile and laugh & forget abt it all </3
how do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)
gray has the hot habit of inducing sleep by suicide. yknow why bother wading thru 17 layers of exhaustion and possible nightmares n trauma traps when a knife up his arm takes care of the business in ten seconds. lol, meanwhile linn once again presenting as the fun opposite where she's insomniac by choice until she's had her fill of excitement and sleeps like a baby. fun bed-time rituals include tempting gray to rail her into oblivion or otherwise unsavory adventures with mortal pets that she leaves edged or bleeding while she decides to take a Nap™, also sometimes eating well and having a comfy pillow are nice, yknow, normal things :3
how easy is it to earn their trust?
neither of them trusts anyone i wouldn't even necessarily say they trust one another, they just know what to expect. like w/ linn you never know what ur gonna get but gray is at peace with that since they mutually subject the other to their whims, neither of em wld go as far as to call it a betrayal. n that very much shapes how they interact with others bc even if eliada somewhat earns gray's trust, gray is always aware of his ulterior motives & linn doesn't have close ties with anyone until after black swan deviancy though maybe she should have mistrusted faye a little bit more :) etc
what lie do they most frequently remember telling? does it haunt them?
linn has never been dishonest in her life. if she says something you can be sure she means it (and plans on following thru. u better watch out) i guess the one lie she (unwittingly) told was when she put gray to sleep and said she'd go take care of faye, which is moot since she loses that memory along with everything else :^)
gray is not particularly haunted by anything he has said or done😊
how do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?
gbhgbfhgbfhb both of them bastards would just pretend they know exactly what's going on lmao linn is too used to having the upper hand to concede on any ground & while gray occasionally inquires in earnest when talking with eliada abt soulless issues he still mostly plays it off as 'oh yeah thats what i figured' when eliada imparts new knowledge on him bye
how do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?
gray: once again suicide is an option. if body fucky just reset (though the more common situation is his body being achy in weird places as such a common occurrence that if it's truly just an itch it won't even register for him. come back with a level 10 pain cataclysm if you want him to bother)
linn gets obnoxiously dramatic about it until gray helps her out but then she just uses it as an excuse to go full whore mode and [drapes herself across his lap] "guess where else i'm itching ;)" irredeemable
what color do they think they look best in? do they actually look best in that color?
linn commits to the all white color scheme she knows suits her (bonus points for accidental wet incidents that make her getup see-thru) also loves to accentuate in shades of blue that match gray's eyes bc she's cringy like that & ofc she knows and is right in that blood always looks good on her. freakshow of a woman <3
ive made my thesis on gray in the screenplay we all know he is the furthest known object from fashion in the universe so he's content with Whatever Linn Picks Out For Him and she delivers & is right that stark black and silver contrasts well on him tho if i may be a hoe for a moment i will just say. any monotone & esp sepia-toned outfit he looks extremely good in because it brings out his eyes. im already popping some cyanide but i'm right
what animal do they fear most?
linn knows no fear. gray could stand to develop a healthy fear of rabbits imo send tweet
#LONG POST /#WHICH I REFUSE TO READMORE U WILL BE SUBJECTED TO THIS#thank u answering for these bitches is my favourite theres so much wrong with them <3333333#oc asks#askbox#cospinol
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Tbp ranked from healthiest to frailest? Do any of the others have Big Fears like Cheif?
....Honestly this is a very different list mentally vs physically so you get only the latter for now LOL.
It's hard to list most of them, because many are pretty much equal. Ordon, Rabbit, Chief, Prince, Far, and Kokiri have basically no serious physical issues on any given day, and are all in exceptionally good shape. While Prince is deaf and it is somewhat restrictive, in a large group he's basically safe from that causing any problems, and Chief's anaphylaxis is so circumstantial I'll leave him here.
Technically speaking, Outset belongs on the first list: he's in good physical shape and his condition is stable and has no direct impact on his day-to-day health. The main risk he faces is his ability to avoid danger is restricted, so I guess that puts him in the middle ground.
Skyloft is unquestionably the frailest. You're going to see him in bad shape a lot, because the Imprisoned basically destroyed his health. If he wasn't semi-immortal, he'd already be dead. (Prince has the same reaction, but on such a small scale he'd have to actively try to trigger it.)
Hateno is probably next, because as much as he is in good shape his phantom limb pain ranges wildly, has several triggers (many associated with using his prosthetic arm) and the only treatment he can use is moderately incapacitating for all it's significantly less so than feeling like his arm is actively on fire. He has to handle himself in specific ways to avoid it, and, in the course of TBP, many times cannot -- or chooses not to -- do that.
Minish and Smith are pretty minorly affected. While Minish was incapacitated for a couple years after he was changed, he's basically gotten the hang of his body because everything was put back together right. His main problem is migraines. Similarly, Smith has a tremor but it's in his non-dominant hand so it's usually an annoyance at most.
Four is hard to categorize, because it's a heavily conditional situation. He's perfectly fine right up until the moment he's not. When split, because Vio and Red have some degree of albinism, his vision is affected (which is why he can help Outset so well) and he's light-sensitive, but he'd have to be in head-splitting pain to admit that's a problem. And, of course, he's a habitual liar: frequently the others won't know anything's wrong because he will not tell them until he absolutely has to.
He's gonna get a lot of bloody noses falling on his face, is what I'm saying.
[Many of these conditions are ones I've done research on; Four's epilepsy is based off a friend's experience. Much of the vision loss is either from Youtube videos or just taking off my glasses bc I have severe myopia myself. I will not pretend I'm the most accurate representation, but I'd rather try and slip up than ignore it.]
As for characters with phobias:
Minish is moderately scared of cats and dogs (and scares them right back by hissing.)
Prince is claustrophobic, but mostly able to cope on his own. It'd have to really directly match his issues for him to panic, and that's very unlikely to happen. (Great Fairy weapon ftw!)
Smith has a violent phobia of suffocation which has in the past, and will in the future cause serious problems.
The rest wouldn't really fall under "phobias" but rather severe PTSD, which well...
...that's pretty much half the cast, and half the stories LOL.
Thanks so much for asking!
#Add this to the list of times I nearly forgot to mention Prince is deaf#bc I've been writing it for so many longterm projects#I forgot to list it as a disability#also the mutism doesn't factor here at all#but yeah!!#Will do a mental health list some other time#but oh boy is that one gonna be funny#That Broken Promise#Link's Meet AUs#TBP gang#disability headcanons#blind character#deaf character#limb loss headcanons
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How Darry Would Take Care of You if You Were Sick
Warnings: cursing
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-i feel like since he has two younger brothers,
-hes used to taking care of people
-and usually he wouldn't mind taking care of his brothers,
-and wouldn't make a big deal
-but when it comes to his lover...it's a different story
-he gets so so worried, and scared
-like he would try to do so many things at once
-like make soup, a warm drink, cuddle and hold you, get you warm
-like....this man would be so worried he would make himself sick
-but once you tell him to chill (💀) he's like...
-better...but not really 😅
-'baby it's ok! I'm not bed ridden I can help a little'
-'no! Go back and sit on the couch while I make soup!'.....'and wrap yourself in some blankets!'
-after he's done making soup he would pour 2 bowls
-one for you and one for him
-so you didn't feel weird being the only one eating
-he would set them down on the table infront of the couch (idk if there even is one in the movie 💀)
-he would wrap an arm around you
-turn the TV on
-and make sure you have lots of blankets
-'whatcha wanna watch babes?' 'mmm...idk'
-if you were like...super sick
-and I mean throwing up
-he would hold your hair back
-'its ok darling get it all out of your system, you're ok baby' 'uugghh I feel like shit Darrel'....'ik baby'
-he would make sure you get all cleaned up
-he would like...grab some toilet paper and wipe your mouth off
-he would leave you in the bathroom alone to freshen up after
-most of the day would js be on the couch, cuddling
-i feel like he likes you being vulnerable,
-bc he secret loves to take care of you 🥺
-he would fvcking MELT if you fell asleep in his arms
-'haha oh baby that was funn-....oh you're asleep. Ok, that's ok baby'
-ahem, anyway
-he would stroke your arm soothingly
-run his fingers through your hair
-have his arms securely around you
-kiss your head,
-cheeks,
-hand 🥺
-nose
-lips (he doesn't care if he gets sick)
-forehead
-'thank you Darry...for everything' 'oh it's no big deal sweet cheeks, I like taking care of my girl'
-if the boys came home and were loud....na 💀💀 like Darry would be so mad at them
-especially if they woke you up
-'guys, shut the fuck up, she sick, tired, and she's fucking sleeping'
-^ Darry has never cursed more in his entire life
-'uugghh what's all the noise? It makes my head hurt'
-you'd say waking up
-'ssshh it's ok...the boys are home but I'll make sure they're quiet. Go back to sleep sweets'
-hed probably say that as he runs his fingers through your hair, and kissing your forehead
-'you guys better be quiet, if she wakes up again bc of y'all, you're dead meat'
-'haha look at how defensive he is...it's so cute.'
-probably either Dal or Steve would say that 💀
-'shut it, at least I have a girl' he would snap at them
-he would js hold you tight
-he'd probably wind up carrying you (bridal style🤭) to his room,
-lying you in bed
-he'd lay down behind you, spooning you
-his arms around your waist
-he'd probably fall asleep with you is his arms
-them wake up in the afternoon/evening
-'do you feel any better sweets?'...'mmm only a little'
-'ok...I'll cook something and then we can go back to sleep, but you need to eat, ok?' 'ok'
-you'd wrap your arms around his waist, but then
-hed pick you up and carry you to the couch,
-softly throwing you on it
-'stop it. I want you sitting or lying down ok? I don't want your body too hurt or too tired bc you're standing'
-'darry! I'm fine! I wanna hold you....it'll make me feel better'
-*pouty face*
-'ok fine...'
-he'd cook, you'd eat, and then he'd carry you to bed
-you'd sleep the night, and (hopefully) not throw up or anything
-if ya did ...
-darry would be right there behind you as you go to the bathroom
-same deal as earlier
-he'd hold your hair back, and leave ya to freshen up
-(brush teeth, hair)
-'im so sorry that I woke you up. And 'm sorry that you feel the need to take care of me'
-you'd say, tears lightly filling your eyes
-'oh darling, don't cry...it's all ok. I swear to you it's ok. I don't care much. And yk...I do feel a need to take care of you, and I have every right to care about my lovely girl'
-and you'd sleep again 🙂
-not waking up until morning
-you'd wake up in Darry's arms, and he's wake up soon after
-'how ya feelin''....'better'
-'yea?' 'mhm...yea I feel better'
-'that's good darling. I'm glad you're feeling better...makes me happy'
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Mr. Floof
Spencer Reid x BAU Fem! Reader (she/her)
Summary: What could happen when two best friends have to share a bed while pining for each other? They spill the most wholesome of secrets, of course🧸
Fluff/One Bed Trope
cw: none- all fluffy goodness
An- this was been a WIP for so long. I love how it turned out. It's currently 1am when typing it out bc I got very inspired lol. Enjoy my loves
Not edited at all
Spencer's POV
After an extremely long day hunting down a killer in the smack-dab middle of nowhere in Oklahoma, the team was exhausted. The bau team had been working nonstop since getting the call at 4am about the case. With it now nearing midnight, Spencer and whole gang was ready to sleep.
Hotch's groggy voice was what woke Spencer out of his exhausted state. "unfortunately, due to the fear this unsub is causing and with how small the town is, we're going to have to buddy up."
Spencer and Y/n were always room buddies during this situation. They were best friend, inseparable, basically joined at hip. Spencer knew all of her secrets and Y/n knew all of his.
Except, of course, neither of them knew that they were both pining after each other. Spencer also didnt know that Y/n still slept with a teddy bear.
"hey Spence, do you mind if I take a shower and get ready for bed first? I'm really tired and will not get up once I sit down."
Spencer would never tell her no. "Yeah, thats fine. I'll just read until you're done."
Just as he went to go sit on his bed Spencer noticed something. There was only one, queen size mattress. "hey y/n, I know you probably do not mind but, uh, there is only one bed."
As Spencer turned around to look at her he definitely did not expect to see a wide eyed y/n. "y-yeah that's fine. sorry, I'm just really tired. I'm gonna take a quick shower." And with that she turned into the bathroom leaving Reid to overthink.
---time skip--
Spencer was sure that Y/n was uncomfortable sharing a bed with him. It was well bast 2am and she was tossing and turning, wide awake. He didn't know how to help her.
"Are you okay? Is there anything I can do to help you sleep?" He asked with a rasp in his voice. He didnt want to bother her but he also dearly needed some rest.
"I'm sorry. N-no, I'm okay. I just... Don't laugh at me when I tell you this." She responded shyly, as if Spencer didnt know everything about her.
"of course I would never laugh at you."
With a soft sigh, she started to whisper, "alright... This case has been really hard-"
Spencer knew this. He knew that she was frustrated to the point on tears trying to decifer the puzzles and codes the unsub was using.
"- and usually when going to bed I still sleep with my childhood teddy bear."
Spencer couldn't help but break out into a laugh. She really thought that he would make fun of her for something so wholesome and sweet.
"Spencer!!" She whined, "you promised you wouldn't laugh." Y/n couldn't help but chuckle as well.
"I promise, I promise I'm not laughing at you. I just think its sweet that you were so worried of a teddy bear... Do you have it? Because I would love to meet it." Spencer responded sweetly. He knew how much something so simple could bring so much joy.
"Of course I have Mr. Floof!! What kind of question is that?!" Quickly, Y/n got out of the bed and brought over the bear of the night.
After a while of having fun messing with Mr. Floof, Spencer and Y/n became extremely tired. Y/n was already fast asleep when Spence started to doze off. It wasn't until he was on the brink of dream land when he felt his best friend lay their head on his chest and curl up into his side. Squished in between them was Mr. Floof.
The last thing Spencer heard before succumbing into his dreams was the faintest little "I love you, Spence."
It is safe to say that Spencer Reid fell asleep that night with a grin on his face, and all because of a well loved teddy bear
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