#and im like yeah ok fucking sure FINE

[altoskh]

Imso tired man. I'm so tired. Why do I work this hard I am so FUCKING over this shit

#this other bitch out here like haha woopsie i forgot to clock out for lunch even though ive been out for two hours :) #guess ill leave early today! heehee #YOU DONT DO ANYTHING. YOU FUCKED ME OVER YET AGAIN #i am SO FUCKING SICK of this shit. why do I have to be the one to suffer #why do i have to be the person who doesnt get a say in fuck all even though im doing THE MOST WORK #and then i have to sit here and act like she fucking knows what shes talking about wrt animals #IM THE ANIMAL KEEPER. I KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN THIS DEPARTMENT BETTER THAN YOU #Im going crazy fucking insane right now #my coworker is out sick so ive had to do shit scheduled for three people. me. One person #and then im told shit like its just one class! ITS NOT #i have to break them up into two because its too big of a group #then i say ok we are doing reptiles over here #and shes like oh ummmm someone has it reserved for this time so can you do it in [place that is extremely loud] #and im like yeah ok fucking sure FINE #and then we get there and someone else is like ummmm we were told to est here for lunch by [her name] #and i radio her like UMMMM?????????? #and shes like Oh woopsie i did tell them! you can do it at ummmm [3rd place] #im like yeah thanks for fucking wltting me know #Sorry im sorry thus is so extreme and petty but im like DROP DEAD #youve made my work life hell when it doesnt have to be because YOU SUCK AT YOUR JOB #FUCK!!!!! #YOU get to have a social life becaus you do whatever the FUCK YOU WANT #YOU get paid way more than me to do FUCK ALL #YOU dont have 30+ living beings depending on you every day #shut the fuck UP #I am so mad that i work so fucking hard and it doesnt fucking matter #so yeah sorry for starry spam but i think hes nice and right now the only thing keeping me from fucking losing it at work #along with a 1 min video of kookaburras im plahing over and over

[snailfen]

logically i know hacking a 3DS won't be hard and it shouldn't require much but unfortunately ever since my battery bloated i am. Paranoid

#my first 3DS (the one who had a bloated battery) is REALLY old and every time it has a problem i loose 10 years off of my life #its got a bump on the back from the bloated battery. ive opened it back up like 2 times to make sure its ok. UGHHH #the second one is fine but its my only 3DS that can properly play DS games with the bottom touchscreen #my first one registers all touchscreen inputs to the top right corner with DS games #and ive heard that hacking it can cause that problem #so im not sure i wanna hack the second one #AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF i have TERRIBLE luck with electronics!!!! #so like yeah id probably be able to know what im doing but FUCK man im not sure if i wanna risk it #at this point I'm better off asking my mom to help me do this. she's fixed my 3DS before maybe she can help with this #mossball.txt #nintendo 3ds #3ds hacking #3ds homebrew

[robobee]

I can sit and critique forever as I am the world's proudest hater but I do feel that a lot of the snark around Vengeful is just people crucially misunderstanding the point of the villains universe. it's fucking camp! everything is self aware and overdramatic and reads like a published (albeit very good) fanfiction. if you're in specific circles you absolutely recognise the tropes schwab is pulling from and the tongue in cheek references she makes and all of them are on some base level FUNNY. I don't think it can be read with 100% gravitas because as much as it is brutal and visceral and about extremely traumatized people desperately clutching onto each other because carrying on feels easier than trying something new, it is also a book in which the girlboss mafia leader queen gets taken out by a naked college quarterback . schwab likes nice and wrapped up endings and after dealing with stief and Muir it is a BREATH OF FRESH FUCKING AIRRRR

#vengeful ve schwab #in terms of crit her overexpansive casts mean that ppl like mitch who SHOULD be central get shoved into lampshadeland #but i did find the new characters entertaining if not endearing #mostly bc i did not expect them to be pleasant and they were not. june is ALSO a manipulative selfish evil shithead #the marcella thing... yeah ok she was erm. very 2016. but her dying immediately during her final hoedown was the funniest thing ever #i think despite the intent vengeful reads like a middle book in a trilogy Nd doesnt hold up on its own . but EYE would be fine with it #i do enjoy how victor never loses. im so sick of my protagonists dying in poignant ways give me my marvel movie dennis reynolds #vicious ve schwab #also the june/sydney 3 year thing was extremely weak and 1) how fucking old is june maam that is a MINOR 2)i thought the same abt eli #in book1 and he really pulled thru so well in this one i genuinely kind of forgot about the murders. fascinating dude. unfixable #like was the ending of vengeful terribly rushed and lackluster. sure but im genuinely not mad at all about it #its a very fun sandbox

[luigis-mogai-mansion]

Im so fucking tired of allistic people man...

They always present like 2 choices for you and go on for days about how they understand either choice, they won't judge you no matter what you pick and how they'll be fine regardless then act all disappointed and whiney when you make that choice and they didn't get the answer they wanted.

I'm sorry, how was I supposed to know that was the wrong choice™️. If you wanted me to do something why didn't you say it. I don't care about all your little social shit, be honest with me. I didn't choose based on your wants when I don't know what you want. I made the "selfish" choice despite everyone around me saying they supported my decision and totally understood. Then I'm the bad guy. For making a choice. That I was assured over and over again that I wasn't going to be judged for.... I'm so tired of this... I'm so tired of allistic people setting these fucking landmines for me. Like they enjoy my suffering. I always get fucking burned in these situations. I can either just do what I think they want with varying response or I can be honest and unmask and do what I think is best for me then they all collectively sigh and look away like Im the disappointment...

If it's not truly safe, don't fucking tell me I'm safe. If I truely won't be judged, don't judge me. If I can't safely unmask, don't tell me to be myself and make my own choices. Even allistic people who had no fucking skin in this game judged me. I chose the option that was best for me and now I'm the villain. Again. Fuck allistic people man, fuck those wishy-washy judgey ass people.

#clover speaks #clover vents #its ok they said just do whats best for you they said #and my dumbass was just like yeah sure 😚 and now im looked at like a monster for taking a choice they gave me #and encouraged me to take! ill support you no matter what my ass #it makes me feel so fucking unsafe in my chocies like a fucking saw trap #its always multiple choice questions and nothinge ever seems like the right choice #they are always wrong and everyone always despises me abit afterwards #even when i know i didnt do anything wrong i didnt hurt anyone and i made a chocie for me #its all supports and i love yous and its oks up until the tism comes back out and i get the cold shoulder #i get the look aways and the silence #they know they are hurting me and they dont care about the betrayal i feel over being basically lied to #i know its your choice but i felt like- ok then why didnt you say anything BEFORE I MADE THE CHOICE #FUCK ALLISTIC PEOPLE IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THEIR QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS GAMES THAT MAKE ME LOOK HORRIBLE FOR NO REASON #IM SORRY I DIDNT READ YOUR EXPRESSION ITS ALMOST LIKE I HAVE A MODERATE MENTAL DISABILITY THAT PREVENTS ME FROM RWADING EXPRESSIONS #i just wanna say or do something right and they always judge me no matter what #im never safe around these people because everything is always watched and judged according to their morals and what they would choose #as if their morals are superior to mine because they are fine with throwing themselves at trains over nothing and im kot #fuck allistic people man #im so stupid for believing them and thinking this time ill be safe... #im never safe i will never be safe #im always so scared of looking like a stone faced unfeeling monster who dosent love anyone or anything and they always make me into it #no matter what i do or how much i try to express it #i feel things i love people im not a robot #this hurts so much... #sorry for the total lack of context but you dont need any #i dont want or need any more allistic judgement

[wellthatschaotic]

coworker (derogatory)

#she just fucking. IRKS me #so we have the same job. same authority level. yet she acts like shes a lead #which would be fine im ok with others taking charge #IF THEY DO IT RIGHT #shes SO FUCKING BAD AT IT?? #AND. we have senority!! #yes she is older than us physically but we have worked here for months longer!!! #if anyone is in charge (WHICH SHOULD BE THE LEAD) would it not be the guy who worked there longest??? #uggghhhh #she came in late today then was like um youre doing potties wrong youre only supposed to fill half and leave the other stalls for ne #girl then be on time #im not waiting for u im not making the dogs wait for u #so she starts bringing my dogs back (against the rules) (we literally had a meeting last night) #im done arguing. just. fine. whatever. she better have charted or else thatll look bad on me since i brought the dogs out #confronts me later. make sure you fill the potty waters. i say i do. she says yeah but not enough #gestures to a bowl she has filled that is 1) smaller than the bowls in potties 2) TOO FULL #we're not supposed to fill them past halfway so they dont spill #and theyre in the potties for like. 15 minutes. even if they finish their water. im fairly sure its not that inhumane for them to #wait a few more minutes before they go back to their room #THEN. she goes to do feeding. someone is in a meeting where the ipads are (needed to track feeding) #only ipad out is for the front. the front also needs an ipad. so i am instructed to wait #few min later. she comes with an ipad. is the meeting over? no i took it from the front #GIRL. #and she always complains about being in group too much #bestie 90% of the job is group #if you get a day shift youre gonna spend it in group #chill #just. ugh #chaos chitters

[quarterprioritymidnight]

'of the night' at slessor gardens, dundee (29/07/2023)

#mine #bastille #the sound on all my videos from this gig was fucked #and idk if its because i got new phone #or cause it was so goddamn loud #like i go to a fair few concerts but this is the first time ive left with my ears literally ringing in a while #and like one of the support bands also didnt have in ears and they were struggling man #it was bad #also a lot of my footage is fucked cause i was apparently like yeah im just gonna wave my camera around in time to the beat #im sure my videos will be fine #they were not fine #but this one is ok lol #look how close i was wow #i know it was a good spot cause joe came and crouched in front of me for a good half a song 🙊 #almost a month ago i hate the passage of time 🥲

[an-assortment-of-forks]

everytime I figure out a new comorbid condition that relates to the last one I shoot telepathic wizard curses at my mom for not taking me to the doctor

#EDS and POTS? yeah ok fine yeah i do match up with most of those synptoms but MCAS??? AS WELL?? #and ofc CFS/ME cause that's a given with the rest of the shit. and also raynauds cause ofc #also narcolepsy?? like goddamn #how do u tell a doctor ''no no i just live like this. yes really. no im not ok. no yeah im in pain all the time but its chill rn'' #sir i am fucked up in ways u cant imagine but yes i still go to work 40hrs a week and survive off Critical Role as a coping mechanism #yes id love to be on disability thank you for asking but pretty sure if they can prove i ''can'' work 40hrs a week then yk #why would they let me on. also disability sucks. and explaining how much pain i am in to legal people sounds like a whole new level of hell

[astro-inthestars]

Hi guess who feels like he just experienced 8 consecutive days in a matter of 2?

#rennikorambles #holy fuHUCK I AM SO EXHAUSTED. I AM LITERALLY EXHAUSTED #I WOULDNT BE SURPRISED IF I SAY THIS MIGHT BE THE MOST EXHAUSTING TWO DAYS OF MY FUCKING EXISTENCE... #yesterday in class our very first subject was our advisory one and since the cheer dance has been crucial we just went down to practice #great straining start to the day! (i do like our cheer dance though i think we'll beat the other sections but MAN IS IT TIRING.) #and then i had to go over to the avr to get prized and shit for winning 1st place on the spelling bee(it was nothing dont even care abt it) #and then after that immediately had to go down (since this was the end of class) and practice AGAIN for 2 more hours #good god and thats friday for you #and im pretty sure this was when i discovered that my brother (who usually goes home at 4 and my practice ended then) #had left me behind and gone home already. and like usually whenever i have practice and end at 4 we just go home w #*together #but. yeah. that didnt have me feeling good but it was okay #and when i was ready to pass out hoHOH NOO NONO #my aunt decided hey! we should celebrate your wonderful high grades by going out together (me my brother and my cousin) and h #have a sleepover! and we were just. sure ok. so we had to pack IMMEDIATELY and get on going #more stuff and more waiting in traffic happened and shit and more shit #and then we got to the street mall and hogh boy MORE WALKING. but i love the place so i didnt mind (still walking though. haugh) #and then ate at a place ive never eaten at. i liked the food really! but then my stomach decided death for me #(apparently eating dinner 9 hours after lunch isnt good..?) so the rest of the time my stomach was squeezing and i felt like throwing up #but it was fine i didnt throw up! AND THEN ALSO I FAILED TO MENTION. My class paid to reserve 4 hours at a court to practice #which was at 10 am the next day. so i had to sleep early which i did! woke up at 7 <3 watched enola holmes.... #bUT I STILL GOT SO FUCKING LATE I ARRIVED AT 11. didnt even get to savor the sleepover haugh..... and then practice OH practice. sufferings #after a whole problem with a bunch of idiots at the court that barged in we decided to cut the practice at 12:30 #i got picked up by my parents then we went home! .BUT ITS NOT OVER YET. WE HAD TO BRING OUR HOUSEHELP TO HER HOUSE #and they said it'd be quick. just a quick drop off to help her. #bUT NOOOOO WE WENT TO THE FILIPINO EQUIVALENT OF COSTCO AND THEN AN AMUSEMENT PARK #WHICH WAS SO COOL OH MY FUCK BUT ALSO HOLY SHIT. #first of all i got to finally try the Vikings ride and a roller coaster! good news i can handle roller coasters! #bad news i cannot handle vikings. theyre.... overwhelming- i couldnt even SCREAM from how scared i was #anyways i roamed phil costco it was so fun. but my poor feet. i have sustained 5 different kinds of body pain.

[lonestatus]

actually can i complain again. it's about relationships this time though

#i hate how inexperienced i am with relationships -_- like every time i'm like. oh i'm not sure how to perform in a relationship i hope you #aren't too bothered by it. if it's ok i'd like to take things slowly! and they're always nice n go yeah that sounds fine it's ok if you #if you aren't super experienced ^-^ and then when it becomes the slightest issue they get kinda distant -_- i wish i knew what i was doing #i wish i could just rush in without caution but nooo im too scared to do anything. no hope #and it doesnt fucking help that i almost never fall in love because if i could date more people i'm sure that'd help. at least to gain #experience. but i can't because if i don't love someone i can't date them. and good fucking luck trying to get me to fall in love back 😑

[todayisafridaynight]

had to do the y4 final fight twice (bc i let tanimura die by accident but thats not the point of this) and during daigos the 1st time my head was empty no thoughts BUT 2nd time around i kept begging him to not hit his surrogate papa and saying i didnt want to hit my kid what happened between those two fights that made me go family brained its so funny to me

i should never be a dad because my immediate thought to this ask was 'no kiryu should supplex his dumbass kid actually'

#snap chats #BEAT HIS ASS HE'S 34 HE'S GROWN FOR IT #if he wanna act like a manic widow in mourning then you gotta smack some sense into him gdi #kiryu waddle up to that roof like 'im so sorry for abandoning you and leaving you with all this shit without guidance' #*immediately tiger drops him* #I LOVE HOW KIRYU ADMITS THAT THO #HE REALLY DID JUST LOOK AT DAIGO AND WENT 'yeah you know what youre doing right' #sure kashiwagi and majima were there but kashiwagi was never much of a leader #he knows how to keep things in check but he's not the one giving orders or really leading people #and majima. bruh he clocks in and as soon as it hits 5PM he's going home Good Luck Daigo-chan #he dont even wanna be there he just there cause kiryu beat his ass #i know majima likes daigo but kiryu just said to look after him. bro aint said guide him 🥴 #tbf he kinda does in that one RGGO story where he has daigo fight him #im p sure majima was just fuckin with daigo so daigo could go through his character arc #like majima wont tell him what to do he'll just have daigo figure it out #which Yeah Sure Thats Fine but when it comes to leading thousands of people uhhhh a lil guidance might help a bit #this is the most i'll ever talk about majima oh my fucking god where did this rant come from #ok ima go play chapter 5 of y7 ill be back in like thirty minutes

[orcelito]

So I found out upon checking my email this morning that the therapy appointment isn't in the health building like I thought, but rather in the basement of a boy's only dorm further north

Which brings up two problems: that's even further away than I'd accounted for, and I find it SUPREMELY uncomfortable to go to a boy's only dorm for therapy, even if the office is in one of the general areas.

I'd already been conceding on the matter of agreeing to talk to a man, since I'm generally uncomfortable with talking to men I don't know, but it was the soonest appointment I could get... so I agreed to it, but finding out it's in the boy's only dorm is just Too Much. Not only would it make it even harder to get there, but my skin just kinda crawls thinking about baring my fuckin heart in a place so thoroughly meant for guys. Like it's a place I don't belong, which REALLY does not help give the comfort kinda required of such an appointment.

I called the office asking if the appointment could be set up on zoom (bc it mentioned it in the email), but the therapist was staunch on it being in-person, so I rescheduled with a different person for the 13th. Bc if this dude isn't gonna be understanding with my discomfort with the location, like fuckin hell I'm gonna let myself be emotionally vulnerable with him. Bet he was thinking I was being too picky like "Oh it's a stupid Girl who can't handle being around Men" like sorry I have a healthy fear of guys I don't know 😋😋😋😋😋 if U have a problem with it then change society so talking to unknown men doesn't feel like walking in a minefield. Thanks.

#speculation nation #so. no appointment today. i asked the receptionist just to be Sure of the location for the one next week #and yeah it's not gonna be in a fucking boy's only dorm #genuinely why the hell did they schedule me with someone there. ugh. #bit of a bummer but i do feel like i dodged a bullet #bc if the dude isnt gonna be understanding about this. why would he be understanding about other things? #bc ultimately this comes down to an accomodation for anxiety. he may think it's senseless but it's real to me. #being around men i dont know is just so uncomfortable. makes me so nervous. and Especially at a boy's college dorm... #if the guy cant concede to that then i cant trust him to be understanding of my other Issues. so it's better like this. #really fuckin annoying though. but i cant say i'm disappointed to have the extra time in my morning. #so it's... fine. i'll manage. im just vaguely disgruntled by it all. #negative/ #Probs. im certainly complaining enough. #& pls dont come at me with the 'not all men' shtick. i Know majority of men are just normal people #but even among normal men i sometimes just feel like a hunk of meat to them #once i know a man & know hes not gonna try to hit on me or be creepy to me then i'm just fine #but unknown men. anything could happen. even an okay man could make me uncomfortable if he's overly friendly or hits on me #this is just basic self preservation ok. if youre a small 'girl' you learn very young to be careful with these things. ok. #anyways so that's My morning lol. ugh

[woolydemon]

it's so funny I made the klapolly mutual law autisms post bc of a fic I read that was described exactly how someone complained abt it in a rb of that post akdhckcjckcj

#I'll be reading a klapolly so so fine then BOOM klav quits law job like WHAT !!!!!!!!!!!! #i was so enjoying it until the last part where i was just HE WOULD NOT FUCKING DO THAT !!! #like ok ok. sure. all the shit that happened yeah we've all heard of it #but literally at the end of the game hes like #These court trials shook me to my core AND THATS WHY i have to pursue law full time im breaking up the rockband !!!!! #he is like genuinely that intensely passionate abt the law and maybe just a bit more so than music #which is saying a lot considering his guitar lovers thing #its like idk man it really seems like his undying passion for truth and justice #Was what actually what was getting him through that whole ordeal that was aa4 .... 🤔🤔🤔 #just saying. not that im completely right and so smart and so sexy or whatever #rando thoughtz

[caffeinatedopossum]

Yippie its time for uncovering ~cult memories~ /s

#i wish i was joking so bad right now #im not gonna lie im starting to get really scared that i havent been anonymous enough on here #its probably ok im sure its fine 😅 #remembering the faith healing atm #i feel like that was probably really fucked up #also think i might have had an exorcism...? #which is uh. traumatic. yeah

[literallysatanofficial]

well dennis losing the titty poll made me watch all the way up to mac and dennis move to the suburbs, i didn't mean to binge that much at once but honestly kinda hate most of 11 anyway so i had to keep going,,,

#i. see the serial killer shit starting up with a vengeance now #its kinda.... yknow. like before it was kinda funny and could be chalked uo to him being a freak but now its so unsubtle #but. yeah anyway im not TOO far away from being caught up now #was waiting for my family to watch it w me but ive given up i wanna participate in the fandom goddamn it #ada speaks #should prob have put this on my sideblog but whatever #and i have now. officially seen the whole uh. plot from dee makes a smut film. i knew the basics but seeing it kind of killed me. #not sure how i feel abt it #the tone of the entire episode was extremely weird #like they couldnt fully commit to taking it seriously but that half was still serious abt it (which i appreciate. but idk) #dennis' characterization seems all over the place in the latter half of 10 and the first few eps of 11 #and the family fight ep was fine but gave me HORRIBLE secondhand embarrassment i had to watch through my hands gddnsbfn #still think the gang misses the boat is like. peak. #the first half of s10 was so fucking good i think i kind of just watched a bad batch of eps in a row tonight but eh #finale ep was pretty good #ok listen. its the skiing ep. is it just me or is it like. the worst fucking episode #like i half expected it to be some sort of fantasy scenario one of the gang was dreaming up

[ilostyou]

5sos said it's so hard to watch everything i want spinning down the drain which is true however. even worse than that is not even getting to watch everything spin down the drain bc you thought everything was actually fine and the drain was plugged and nothing was going anywhere so your attention wanders a bit and you come back thinking everything is still fine except it's not bc everything you ever wanted disappeared while you were weren't looking while it was completely out of your control while you were under the assumption it was all fine so you didn't even have the chance to process the fact that it might ever go away that everything you want could spin down the drain or is actively spinning down the drain bc everything was fine it was all supposed to be fine

#im having a meltdown 👍🏻 but it's all internal and i seem veeeery stoic right now bc i think im angry at circumstances and myself #yes this is about everything with the program i didnt get into could you yet? obviously that's all im properly melting down abt lately #does this make sense? not sure don't care either way #like. i kind of wish i had some indication of things not working out!!! of me literally just not getting in!! and i couldve prepared myself #but no everything was fucking PERFECT im fucking PERFECT on paper my interview was fucking PERFECT i felt fucking GREAT #so yeah i felt ok abt it and didnt wanna get my hopes up but everything felt FINE it all felt GOOD and then poof #every fucking idea i had for myself for the future apparently fucking gone! out the window! and i had no clue it was coming! #and i wish i could say i should have or could have seen it coming but i COULDNT have bc it was all PERFECT #theres no fucking concrete reason it shouldnt have worked out except that i should just stop getting my hopes up about good things #like if i had seen it coming there's no possible way i would have been this level of crushed bc ?? i wouldve seen it coming #and in the metaphor of the song. yeah it fucking sucks watching what you want spin down the drain but ?? you got to WATCH IT #not that thats a good thing that fucking sucks too but ?? coming back to an empty sink you thought was plugged?? that you didnt think #would actually ever empty and the drain wasnt open and nothing was supposed to go down the drain?? and you come back to it empty??? #yeah fuck okay #bleach #5sos #5 seconds of summer #this has been a rant

[pepprs]

posts like that break my stupid fucking heart lol. i hate being in this situation and i hate that i hate it because im convinced im delusional about how bad it is right now and that it’s my fault for being a terrible selfish daughter and also it could be SO much worse. but no im not entirely terrible or selfish and yes this situation is bad even if it’s not the absolute worst it’s ever been or ever could be. i know we’re working on fixing some parts of it but that does not negate that i am living a suffocated life right now and never have fully known that freedom even when i haven’t lived in this house and still have so much work to do to finally get it and im so overwhelmed by this that i keep putting it off and running away

#purrs #also it’s like.. how does ANYONE live without the autonomy and shit you inevitably get as an adult. or the way people take you seriously #more and give you space and stuff. because i know i will miss some aspects of living like this but i think life after this will be so much b #better and freer. yeah it’s scary to make your own choices and move your own ways but also ummmm i am not living in a good situation and #there are so many fucked up things happening here. also i was gonna say something else ughhhh what was it. omg #OH yeah well idk if this was The thing but my parents don’t want me to ever have a place of my own bc they’re worried about my safety. i am #also worried about my safety but i think maybe i would like some independence. and i can’t work it out in my head lol #OHHHHH WAIT i remember. ok. so also. im 23 years old. my mom moved out of her parents home when she was 25 but she was already like dating a #and stuff and i.. well you know. but it’s like im 23 but i don’t think im even going to be able to afford a place of my own that is also #nice to live in. so i am going to have to find a roommate which is fine and also i want one anyway bc again i think it’s safer living w #other ppl and not just me and i just have to make sure that my future roommate/s are like.. not as bad as my 2 roommates i had on campus LOL #but it’s like I don’t think im going to be able to even split the cost for a place that is more than just bedrooms a bathroom and a common a #area. and ite like. when in my life if at all am i going to have other rooms to furnish besides my own bedroom. and when in my life am i #gonna be acceptable to my parents to live by myself. and when in my life do i stop talking to them every single day and depending on them fo #for every single decision. when in my life is my mom gonna treat my 40 h/w job (that in fairness i just started and technically haven’t EVEN #starred) with the same seriousness as my dad’s 40 h/w job. and when in my life is this fucking pandemic gonna end so i can go to conferences #and not be a burden or a disappointment and when in my life am i gonna find a life partner etc etc etc. i know i sound naive ungrateful #entitled etc etc and i don’t know what to say about that other than that my mom would think the same and already does lol but im tired of #longing and i would like to be able to function at a bare minimum level of freedom and comfort <3 #delete later #also my parents don’t want me living in the city on top of not wanting me to live independently. so. lol <3