#and not okay

[harrycrozby]

I should have known better 😦.

I remember watching The Pacific and Band of Brothers, how it was bad from the beginning, characters you cared for dying one after another. But I also remember how in both series, we also had some lighter moments. Giving us false hope that more of them will survive, making us feel better for a while....

We all know how the war ended, thank God, for those men who risked their lives, got injured, or died.

Band of Brothrrs, The Pacific and Masters of the Air is our story, and don't tell me otherwise, we can live the way we do now because of them! Each one of them! Basta!

Yes, I'm emotional because the 5th episode hit me very hard 🥺.

I may also see things a bit differently as a historian that I am, and a half German born and raised in Germany not so far away from where Bucky went down in this last episode.

I've read comments, not many, but some, how Masters of the Air isn't as good as Band of Brothers.

That's not true! Both series are different, trying to show us different views of the war, this time how it was for US Air Force to fly those, let's be fair suicide missions and yes, perheps at the begining it looked easy, less horrifying to us cause they were up there in the skys away from everybody and everything - it's just thst it's not true. They were as in the middle of this war as everybody else was.

And I think that especially this episode was proof for that.

And as before with the two other series, the second half of MotA will become more and more devastating, heartbreaking and impossible to watch without getting damaged by what will come.

And I don't think I'm prepared for that.

Sorry for my ramblings, but I needed that after watching this episode.

#masters of the air #mota spoilers #mota #harry crosby #bucky egan #james egan #bubbles #series #i'm still shocked #and hurt #and not okay

[formulalina15]

yes, if yes is no and once is never then a triangle has 2 sides but what if no is yes and never is once??? then how many sides????

#late night thoughts #i’m delirious #and not okay #someone put me out of my misery #jameson hawthorne #the inheritance games #triangle riddle

[amigac0debasic13]

inhaling so heavily so so heavily,, hey guys its me im back. ninjago. This is just a huge rant about me HATING how trauma is handled in this show. ignore this if you do not want to see my HORRORS.

WHY. IS TRAUMA NOT A FUCKING THING IN THIS STUPID ASS SHOW. Im on another rewatch because im FUCKING INSANE but it drives me actually mad that there are so many downright horrific things that happen to these characters that are just NEVER addressed. lets talkabout the fucking first one that caught my eye when I was first watching the show!!! Im basically going from least infuriating to most infuriating, im trying to cut this show some slack but dear god. !!WHY IS COLE OKAY MAN. HE LITERALLY DIEEED. HE TURNED INTO A GHOST. listen Iknow ninjago death means nothing, and im going to talk about that too but he literally could have ceased to exist if he so much as touched water. after he got his body back, why was this never FUCKING mentioned. I think. if I was in a perpetual state of being horrified my existence would amount to nothing and id just stop BEING when I touched some clear shit coming out of my sink id be pretty scarred for life. I loved possession man, but this happened to TWO CHARACTERS. TWOOO. AND THE OTHER CHARACTER IS LLOYD. lets not even MENTION that hes been exploited the moment everyone found out he was a green ninja, and before that a bunch of grown ass people were bullying a CHILD WHO IS ACTUALLY HOMELESS, lets talk about how his fucking body was taken over by Morro while he ALSO worries about his DAD BEING STUCK IN THE FUCKING UNDERWORLD. IM LOSING IT. IM LOSSINGG ITT. On a smaller note, MISAKO ABANDONED LLOYD. KILL HER. I am the hashtag misako hater garmadon deserves better. The show made no attempt for them to bond or try to make amends for what happened when Lloyd was a kid, she barely appears at all really and it just makes me fucking despise her. ALSO MORRO. this kid. reminding you, CHILD, fucking died in a cave. the cave we SAW in the pilot, if i remember right which is FUCKING INSANE>,,?? we SEE HIS SKELETON. THAT IS A CHILDS SKELETON. never mentioned again after episode 8 I don't think. now the MEAT. THE MEATT. whatever the FUCK went on with garmadon after he got resurrected. They actually did cover this a bit with how Lloyd acted around garmadon, but crystalized also sucked ass and really gave us nothing on how Garmadon felt about this. on god im so sick that hes so normal shaped in crystalized too, He was literally growling with every breath in sons of garmadon why is he normal now. Its been years, i get it. also the Garmadon comic. but he SHOULDNT be a normal person whos just an asshole, I want him to be feral okay?? ok??? I am playfully gesturing to Devils Horns by TeuthidaRegina (did i spell that right. idk man. Its a super fucking good fanfic.)

ALSO Vinnys apartment is very inaccurate there should be scratch marks on the walls and then they should kiss. ANYWAYS Besides this, Lloyd being mad at Garmadon was really all we got for how *he* was effected by his once loving father now randomly coming back with his ribs exposed and only being able to say like. 3 words. and also him immediately trying to kill Lloyd. I feel like we should have gotten a LOT more man. Now this isn't really a problem with the show (Its a huge problem in crystalized but that's a given) but more a problem with the fandom, so that's why I'm putting it at the end. this does not hold relevancy over garmadon becoming a BEAST. (also garmadon becoming a beast is the best thing that ever happened in this show btw. you all are wrong and he should have been animalistic from the beginning. still nice. but he should have also growled. all the time.) My issue is with how people portray harumi. I already had my Harumi spout in a post I made earlier, but I only mentioned the toxicity of the ship with her and Lloyd a little bit. Let us THINK BACK on how she literally feels nothing for Lloyd at all. He was a stepping stone in getting Garmadon back, and she probably straight up hates him. She pretends to like him to manipulate him into helping her resurrect garmadon ok?? do we understand?? Ive seen actual tags on AO3 that say "no harumi hate here" and I am so done. all the harumi hate. dont FUCKING talk to me if you want to justify the downright horrendous things shes done. That ship is toxic as hell and Lloyd is downright being abused AGAIN for like the FIVE BILLIONTH TIME IN HIS LIFE. I dont care man. shes an abusive bitch. i HATE HER. Crystalized made the worst fucking decision trying to justify her and I genuinely hate whoever thought that was a good and right decision to make. If she comes back in dragons rising i hope she dies AGAIN, but Im honestly rooting for them to ignore crystalized's existence. Now finally, this is the absolute peak of how Ninjago shittily handles trauma. the ICE EMPEROR. Zane was stuck in a fucking hellscape of a realm for like. what was it. EIGHTY YEARS??? he went fucking mad man, he turned into a bloodthirsty tyrant during that time. and when this seasons conflict was fixed with the "power of friendship" the show literally mentions that the ice emperor is STILL INSIDE ZANES NOGGIN. AND WHAT DOTHEY DOO?? THEY MAKE IT INTO A FUCKING JOKE. its honestly almost disgusting to me how they handled it, Zane has DIED BEFORE. that's bad. he should have trauma. BUT Zane LITERALLY HAS A BLOODTHIRSTY KILLER IN HIS FUCKING HEAD. DO NOT JOKE ABOUT THIS SHIT. ACTUALLY. HE SHOULD HAVE SOME RELUCTANCE TO USING HIS POWERS OR SOMETHING, ANYTHING MAN. HE KILLLED AN ENTIRE RACEE. Genuinely this is one of my favorite shows, and I love adding onto the shaky ass plot and making it better, but I cannot DEAL with this. Im going to throw in the shit that happened in the spinjitzu brothers book, because oh my god Wu and Garmadon should be fucked up with all the stuff they have had to deal with for like. 5 thousand years. but its fine. its okay. its the book series. I wont mention it. (that book series is so good please release the final book please) ((I LOVE wu and garmadon they are some of my favorite characters in the ENTIRE series im blinking my eyes at you. please go indepth on those two. also give Wu a dragon form, or an Oni form, or literally anything he IS NOT HUMAN.) Also if anyone tells me im ignoring skybound its because I do not need to say anything about skybound. we all know what happened. we ALLL know what the fuck they did to Nya. and fucking. mister possibly a pedo creep man who does not care about consent. I dont even remember his name thats how bad I hate him .

#Im so done #im also scared #my RANTS #LISTEN TO ME RANT #I am unwell #and not okay #please #ninjago #lego ninjago #Im kind of afraid to tag this but I need people to engage with me pretty please #make me heard #FUCK IT. IM COMMITING GUYS #lord garmadon #ninjago misako #lloyd garmadon #ninjago zane #ninjago cole #ninjago harumi #Im not doing the tags with their last names. too many of them. #vinny isnt mentioned enough for me to tag him. sorry bbg.

[mafiatsunafish]

✨Billion dollar man ✨

#lewis hamilton #mercedes f1 #f1 #formula one #my art #f1blr #f1 fanart #finally draw him #today my thesis deadline starts and I’m literally empty brained #im giggling #and not okay #my fucking god #finished #the fist and definitely not the last podium for this season

[ghostiewriter]

Ooh, what’s the only fans song??

Listen…this cover may have awaken things in me that I didn’t realise needed to be woken🤡

#ask #jiara #only fans au #it’s actually inspired many ideas #i am overwhelmed #and not okay #pls send help

[cosmictequila]

like. this is so emotional. i haven’t experienced a new mcr song in YEARS and i got that again today. i feel nothing but love for them, they literally are the most special band

#i’m having so many THOUGHTS but can’t write them all down #just know i am very emotional #and not okay #mcr #originals by kay

[adulthoodisokay]

happy new year, y’all

#what a year this week has been #everyone is okay but C’MON

[classycookiexo]

#honestly #better world #it’s okay #groceries #economy

[plaguedocboi]

We need to go back to using sailing ships full time like immediately. Yes it would take longer to get places but the Aesthetic is unmatched

Like there is nothing sexier hthan this

#bring them BACK #I will never be okay with missing the age of sail

[greelin]

if someone told me my blood smelled and tasted good i would be over the moon. this is on account of my nature

#okay i lied. One more

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[specks-of-time]

#oh..okay #this just explained like 80% of my childhood trauma #neurodivergent #autism #actually autistic #autistic #sensory issues

[aromantic-diaries]

The bisexual to aroace pipeline is pretty much having the right idea and coming to the wrong conclusion. Yeah buddy you're not straight and you're also not gay. No not like that though, the other way around

#aro #aromantic #arospec #ace #asexual #acespec #aroace #aspec #my bi phase was important okay. it had to happen

[personaglitch]

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

#self insert #maladaptive daydreaming #no shame #cringe safe zone #im trying to exist in a hellscape okay #mom said its my turn to pick the coping mechanism

[permdaydreamer]

This is for the people who didn’t party in their teens and twenties. For the people who didn’t have that “coming of age” movie experience with shenanigans and revelations. This is for the people who mostly keep to themselves. Who maybe prefer things to be quieter and gentler. This is for the people who don’t feel like they belong in a culture that values loud parties and flashing lights. I see you. And you are valid.

#teenagers #early twenties #late twenties #growing up #childhood #nostaliga #introvert #homebody #quiet life #outcast #shy #college #university #high school #neurospicy #neurodivergent #mental health #mental illness #social anxiety #it’s okay

[myclericalromance]

i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said "we're not catholic here". now every time i'm doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.

#edit: i know i did not invent the phrase no nobility in suffering #holy fuck this hit 50k are we all. doing okay. #please stop telling me about sweet latkes i knOW about them #this was a terrible horrible accident involving a sugar shaker with a very large opening that i mistook as being a salt shaker #there was a quarter cup of white granulated sugar on my hashbrown before i could even process my mistake