#and probably not very well organized

[arizonaconservativegal]

For the fact that Bruce Jenner is a man with reproductive sexual organs of man same as me and how the fuck does that make him different than any other man? when in fact he is a man. How the fuck do you think he is woman just like yourself a natural born female? If you think he is a women how come he cannot get periods or goes through what a woman´s body goes through and if younger how would that man get pregnant? like to hear your leftists logic on men like him who think he is a woman.

Here's the thing about Caitlyn Jenner

Obviously she is biologically male. Obviously she is not the same as a biological woman. She's also not trying to tell anyone that she gets pms or should be allowed to compete against women in sports (quite the opposite of that, in fact). As far as I can tell, she's just trying to live as normal a life as someone like her is able but she's under no illusions that she will ever be quite the same and she's not trying to change the rest of us to make herself feel more normal.

I'm totally fine with this. She's not bothering me. She's not doing anything that affects anyone else.

So yeah I'm going to call her Caitlyn and refer to her as 'she' and all that. She hasn't gone by Bruce in ten years. My friend just got married and took her husband's last name. That doesn't make her biologically a Smith. But she's part of the family now so we're going to call her Smith. Caitlyn Jenner is not biologically a woman but as far as I'm concerned, refusing to acknowledge that she is living the way the rest of us do is just as silly as refusing to call my friend by her new last name. I can think it's a little weird, just like I'd think it was a little weird if my friend had decided to hyphenate her last name instead of just going with Smith, but so what?

I don't care what adults want to do with their own body and what they want to call themselves. I only care when they start to impose on others.

As far as all the other trans stuff goes...

I think there are a lot of kids who would have been goth or emo when I was growing up but these days are being told that they are probably trans or whatever. They just feel out of place and are searching for something that makes them feel understood. And while I don't really see the harm in letting them buy some new clothes and cut their hair a certain way to see if they feel better, there is no good reason for any medical procedures to be performed on them. I think there are a lot of well intentioned but misguided people trying to help them and I think there are a lot of sick fucks trying to take advantage for politics or profit.

I think there are also a lot more sick fucks who like to pretend to be trans whenever it's convenient and gives them access to someone they can prey upon. But let's just be adults here for a second - I'm pretty sure we can all tell the difference between someone like Caitlyn Jenner and some creep that just got convicted of raping four women and has decided suddenly that he would like to serve his sentence in the women's prison. Come on.

Locker rooms, bathrooms, and prisons are sex segregated for a reason and should stay that way. I would be perfectly happy to see some more gender neutral locker rooms and bathrooms in addition to the women's and men's rooms - but I am vehemently opposed to making either one of those the new gender neutral space.

I am not going to entertain the idea that transwomen are identical to the rest of us. Sports are sex segregated for a reason as well. I don't really know what would be fair to trans athletes but I know for sure that making the women's team the 'everyone team' is not fair to anyone. Anyone pushing that is just willfully blinded by politics.

I am not going to refer to mothers as 'birthing people' or gynecology patients as 'people with vaginas' or any of that nonsense. I am also not going to say 'people with two legs' to be sensitive to people who have fewer. We all know what we're talking about and if you are offended by your own differences, then I'm sorry but that's not something some sparkly new language is going to fix for you. I'm certainly not going to entertain the idea of changing the definition of 'woman.' I'm not going change how I refer to myself to appease anyone else. I will call you whatever name you want but you don't get to redefine who I am.

And if you pick a really stupid name or fake pronoun for yourself, don't be shocked when someone makes fun of it the way we all make fun of Xitter or some millennial naming her kid MacKeighleigh.

But here's the other thing about Caitlyn Jenner - she is not any of those people. Actually I don't think most trans people are any of those people. I think almost all of that garbage comes from people who are misappropriating the label or who fancy themselves activists and they're giving the actual trans community a bad rap. I think most trans people are pretty normal aside from the obvious.

We have a handful of legitimate issues to work out in regards to the bathrooms and sports and I'm sure that is a little uncomfortable to have to hash out but I think if we stop trying to be assholes on purpose, we can figure it out.

#oops this got long #and probably not very well organized #oh well

[hecksupremechips]

Shinjiham is cute when it’s romantic but tbh I think i vastly prefer the idea of them being best friends instead. Like, neither of them really saw it coming and weren’t really looking to get another best friend (Shinji has Akihiko, Kotone has Junpei and Yukari respectively) but it happens anyway. Kotone takes a liking to Shinji much faster than she does anyone else and I’d say a big reason is just the fact that he’s so reserved that it allows Kotone to do most of the talking while he just listens and they love this arrangement cuz Kotone doesn’t get to talk about her own interests very much. Though I think some of her needs to talk to Shinji stems from this insecurity that he isn’t happy in the group and she has this people pleasing problem and wants everyone to be happy so she makes a much bigger effort to talk to Shinji. And it’s very unfortunate because Shinji intentionally acts cold and distant because he doesn’t want to form any attachments because he wants to die soon, but aaaaaaaagh dammit this girl just keeps talking to him and being sweet and encouraging him to engage in his interests and share them with the others and he just can’t seem to say no when she’s got those damn puppy eyes. And Kotone is just able to get him out of his shell by being persistent but not in an overwhelming way, she’s very cheerful and supportive of him. And Shinji is able to offer her support by encouraging her to talk about herself and by making sure she’s taking care of herself. They just click really well and make such a positive dent in each other’s lives and it’s all about basic acts of kindness going a long way you know?

#persona #persona 3 #kotone shiomi #shinjiro aragaki #i uh. probably didnt do much here to prove that their relationship is best when its platonic akjsks i mean idk how to convey it #that these two are just so good for each other but that im just not feeling it romantically #and why should i honestly like cant a guy and a girl just be platonic soulmates like me and jackie aljsks #plus i just have other ships with these characters i like better ahem akishinji and mitsuham yall already know #and i just feel really comforted by their relationship being best friends cuz it makes the pocket watch a lot more power of friendship #and it just. irks me the idea that its romantic love that saves shinji and its romantic love that gave him a will to live #cuz first off you can save him without romancing him and also like if you think kotone is the only person he wants to live for #youre just wrong like in fact its very clear in his social link that he feels this strong love for everyone #its literally like why other characters are so ingrained into his link he loves everyone and they love him back #its just kotone who organizes the time for them all to get together plus like idk when ppl say shinji only wants to live after romancing #kotone its like. well hes not gonna have a good time post coma then huh #and i suppose the point being made is he has to learn to live even if his gf isnt there but again like. shes not the only thing he has #idk i just hate this like pedestal romantic relationships are put on and i hate the implications that like #akihiko has been trying for years to protect shinji and his love doesnt matter cuz it isnt some heterosexual romance #grrrrr it just irks me is all and yeah i just think theyre besties who do everything together #kotone is like shinjis emotional support animal that guides him through the scary crowds and shinji is off putting enough to scare away the #meanies that come their way and they have a dress up montage and make cookies

[doctorwhoisadhd]

hmm thinking about the idea of love songs. i think the idea of what a love song is that we have in our culture is inherently a little bit flawed because we have the idea that any song written about romantic feelings is a love song and im thinking thats not exactly true because there is a difference between "romance" and "love". what i'm saying is not that love is a broader category and applies to things that are not romantic in nature. this is in fact true, but it's not what makes the important distinction here. the true distinction between "romance" and "love" is that romance is a societally defined type of interest in another person, whereas love is, essentially, a promise that you make when you build a relationship.

as such, what i call "love" here might be better defined as "care", as that implies more time and effort, but that's a different suitcase to unpack and largely unimportant to my point here, which is more about the societal conventions of what we call love songs. the point is, relationships can be built with other people, yes, but also animals, places, organizations, ideas, so on and so on, whereas romance requires another person, hence the difference between the ideas of "romance" and "love".

with that in mind, there are two types of songs we in western, english speaking, society call "love songs":

1) songs that are about a person's romantic interest in someone that is either definitively known to be unrequited (existing monogamous relationship, sexuality that doesn't align, etc) or simply not requited (aka romantic interest being unknown); and

2) songs about an existing relationship (keeping in mind my points about relationships not just being with people, but also places, things, etcetera) as is.

(some examples of the latter category: mountaintop by relient k, which defines the relationship in question as non-romantic; or i miss my mum by cavetown, which is - as the title implies - a song about the singer missing their mother.)

now, the thing that makes distinguishing these two difficult is the fact that songs about an existing relationship CAN be about wanting certain aspects of that relationship to change. in these cases, determining that a song is one or the other will hinge either on a) authorial intent or b) whether the song is more about what the singer wants (thereby implying #1) or the lack thereof in that relationship (which would imply #2).

to get back to the subject at hand: the term "love song", as we think of it, is an umbrella term that include both of these two categories, and i think that perhaps it is reductive to do so. with that in mind, i think perhaps it would be more appropriate for "love song" to mean only the latter, whereas the former is a category of its own. WHICH is not to say that the two can't overlap — just that if a song is about a person with whom the singer has no relationship, it cannot be considered a love song due to the fact that it is a song about infatuation, not love.

(another interesting wrinkle this provides is the fact that a song might start out in the first category and, as the writer develops a relationship with a person, might move into the second category as they write more.)

#anyway. just some of my thoughts on this as an aromantic songwriter #ari opinion hour #this goes a good deal to reconcile my constant writing of love songs with the fact that none of them are romantic #which im fine with as long as im keeping them to myself but it DOES feel dishonest when i hide that theyre love songs. #however this did also go some way to convince me that maybe care songs is an alternative that i SHOULD use because it is more applicable to #me than the concept of love which MOST people do not have the same perspective on as i do and having different definitions of the same word #is an important barrier to consider in communication #i will admit i do think im clinging to my care songs being love songs due to my relationship with an organization to which love is very #important as i dont want to go back on my promises to that organization as it IS very important to me #anyway. can you tell ive been reading house of leaves by the fact that this appeared fully fledged in my head in fully academic language #but for real like thinking about it now and even my old love songs like most would probably think to see them that they would go in the #first category and they just. DO NOT. at least not the ones that were written after i was like Yeah im aro again #its interesting the ones i wrote in the brief period where i thought i WASNT aro in like mid hs those i WOULD put in the first category #even though like i do NOT think i was right about it being romantic #but the ones after i was like Yea im aro again are like. Thats definitely the latter #part of it is i did find a voice that was like genuinely Mine and wasnt just writing sort of generic love songs #love songs in the typical usage i mean so they were really more infatuation songs #but like i was still with the last person irl who i wrote these about divorced from like... my aroness because of how much i liked him #and i would still put those in the second category #so part of it is awareness as well #so. yeah. its interesting #i probably should just suck it up and start calling them care songs. even if people dont know what i mean to say that

[cementcornfield]

I can't tell if jamarr exaggerates his stories to an extreme amount or if joe justhas to constantly tell him to chill haha. but based on tee confirming that jamarr does buy joe clothes ocassionally and he did buy him a chain - im going to say joe just likes privacy lol

ALWAYS THRILLED TO BE ASKED ABOUT UNRELIABLE NARRATOR JA’MARR!!!

more under the cut because literally i could talk about this all day and i don’t need to subject anyone to that. 

Honestly I think it’s a combination of both? Ja’Marr exaggerates, says one thing then immediately another contradicting thing, doesn’t seem to have much of a filter, however you want to categorize it. Which I think is such a funny contrast to Joe - who is (almost) always very careful about how he expresses himself and how he wants to be portrayed. 

The “Ja’Marr Buys Joe Clothes Except No He Doesn’t Except Wait He Definitely Does” saga is probably my favorite thing in the world because what on earth is ANYONE talking about in this situation. Like, first Ja’Marr claims in the GQ interview:

"Joe literally won’t buy his own clothes. He always asks me to shop for him and drop it off at the house.” 

Which is almost definitely an exaggeration. I am sure Joe buys plenty of his own clothes (although loving the idea of Ja’Marr literally filling Joe’s closet with things he thinks he’ll like). 

And then, bringing it up completely unprompted in an interview a week later he says that actually that was “kinda” a lie, and that he hasn’t bought Joe anything but dinner - although now he’ll “have to [buy joe clothes] since that’s out now”. like ?????? First of all just because you “kinda lied” about buying Joe clothes does not mean that you now have to actually buy him clothes? And why did you lie about it in the first place? How badly do you want to buy this man clothes??? 🤨🤨🤨

So we spent the rest of the season completely confused about this story but just kind of accepting that Ja’Marr just says shit sometimes, who knows… and THEN in a groundbreaking (to me) interview with Tee, we learn that actually Ja’Marr has in fact bought Joe clothes: 

“Chase definitely gets Joe right. I’ve seen him buy clothes for Joe multiple times.” 

MULTIPLE TIMES??? and Tee has seen it for himself?? Which at this point means that Ja’Marr has now potentially lied about lying about buying Joe clothes?? For what purpose??? 

I have imagined and talked with beloved mutuals about what could be going on in this situation, presented here with varying levels of realism and hilarity: 

Ja’Marr has never bought Joe clothes and all the receivers are in on a big joke where they’re claiming that Ja’Marr buys Joe clothes just to fuck with him. Because it’s funny and why not.

Ja’Marr hadn’t bought Joe clothes before the interview, but had been planning on doing it and was so excited by the idea that he got ahead of himself and told GQ he was already doing it. And then “since it was out there” he had an excuse to start buying Joe clothes, with Tee as a witness. 

Finally back to the point of your ask (so sorry for all my rambling) and probably the most likely scenario - Ja’Marr tends to exaggerate and Joe tends to value his privacy. 

What I imagine is this, Ja’Marr has probably bought Joe clothes a few times. We already know that he’s bought him grills and he mentioned in a few interviews last season that he had bought Joe some pants. And probably a few more instances we don’t have details on. The man likes fashion and he likes Joe and it seems like he has a gift giving love language! He probably got excited and exaggerated a bit in the GQ interview because again, I’m sure Joe does not “always” ask Ja’Marr to shop for him lmao. And I wonder if the exaggeration is the part that Joe took exception to (if he even did! Joe’s never said anything about any of this! all we have is Ja’Marr’s word which we can NOT trust) - Joe likely doesn’t want the whole world thinking Ja’Marr buys ALL his clothes, he likes fashion too and I’m sure puts a lot of work into those game day outfits, even if Ja’Marr does help out sometimes. Plus he really doesn’t like sharing details about his relationships, even one as public as his friendship with Ja’Marr. (All he says is that he’s one of his best friends and they hang out all the time, Ja’Marr is the one giving details about UFC moves and going to Vegas together and keeping his stuff at his place etc etc). 

Joe likely gave Ja’Marr shit for how he phrased it and honestly sharing it with the world at all. Plus!!! I am always thinking about the timing of the article, coming out right when Joe’s appendix burst. I bet Ja’Marr was worried about his friend, felt bad about sharing some exaggerated details of their relationship, and simply decided to take ALL of it back. Because again, he really seems to only operate in extremes. So to make Joe feel better, instead of just clarifying his quote, he just decided to say ‘nope, sorry, that was a lie, never bought that man clothes in my life 😊' while Tee was probably at his locker listening to the interview like 🤨???

Anyway. that’s WAY TOO MANY words to answer your ask but please know I so appreciated getting it. Any excuse to ramble about these two as you can see!! 

#Tldr: yeah ja’marr just says shit!! joe is probably telling him to chill very often!! #it’s a dynamic that somehow works well for them! #god i just want a reporter to ask joe about the clothes situation this season #how has NO ONE brought it up with him yet? #and we should keep asking tee and ja’marr and tb about it too #hell let’s ask zac! #THIS is the important storyline this year #what contracts?? what superbowl window??? #WHO is buying WHOM clothes in the locker room?!?! #ask #anon #joe burrow #ja'marr chase #when i was checking the timing of things i didn’t realize that joe’s appendix burst LITERALLY the day the article #(and those pictures 👀) came out #now i’m no doctor but sometimes you just have to repress your reactions to things so hard that your internal organs explode 🙃 #(joking) #(mostly 👀)

[minophus]

here's a heartbreaker of an idea: gabriel stumbling across a young husk of some sort (i do not give a single fuck if this isn't lore accurate) sometime after his first defeat, but before killing the council. he wonders, is it still wrong at this point? to treat a soul so "demonic" yet so innocent in the way he would his own kin?

AWWW awww aw aw. The idea of some kid ending up in hell is Funny but i think if you take limbo into consideration thts when it hurts. A child old enough to think for themself punished to an eternity in limbo because they were never enlightened by god. Hell would probably reduce them to nothing further than an avg husk but i like to think gabriel cant help but know who they used to be. He is inherently kind and without the watch of a superior he wants to dance with them

#Ive also pondered the idea of husks well remembered enough that they are just. People. Husks but still very much People #i like to think people can still have Children in hell even though they. probably wouldnt be able to. wouldnt imagine Reproductive organs #would be. things. after your soul goes to hell. #but i can dream. and i can dream of gabriel being kind to these children despite their literally hellish origins #asks #gooptalks #not to be cringe. forgive me.

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[arthur-r]

these are all piled together in the same part of my brain and i’m so obsessed with it

#IM SORRY FOR POSTING JUKEBOX THE GHOST UNDER MY SKIN LIKE ITS FINE ART #BUT MAYBE IT IS. MAYBE IT IS #actually. im sorry for posting POOLBOY KING OF COOL as if it were fine art HELLO #a minute earlier: when you go leave me my baseball glove…. some cigarettes…. and a playboy…. that’s all i really want…. #five seconds later: cause i will.. give you asthma…. every time you try to run…. so don’t run….. #BUT have you ever been trapped for the next nine months with your dick in your hand EATING ARTERIES FOR LUNCH. no i dont think so #anywayyyy #these are um. ok so in order it’s: #i.b. vyache — a poem called victim complex. from the book conversations over sanguinnaccio dolce #minimall — static!! one of the coolest best songs ever in the world and i love it very much #poolboy — king of cool it’s such a strange and bad song but it’s also so visceral and i love it so much #and last but not least jukebox the ghost under my skin #when i was really into that song like four years ago my mom thought that he was singing about PICKLES #i can fit two pickles under my skin!! i will prove it if you will listen!!!! #shdhdf anyway something something consumption devotion something something being a home being a hearth being an ORGAN being a VESSEL #not to run a dead joke into the ground but it keeps being so TRUE: i am a HOUSE FUCKER i swear #anyway there are definitely more of these like on my pinterest probably but these are the ones i had off the top of my head shdhdf #could somebody climb around in here and join me ‼️ #anyway. i hope everybody is doing well. i have ANOTHER advisor appointment today (information science this time!!) and i’m also so tired #OH and i have a ten page paper to write by sunday…. but it’s chill and normal i got this 👍 #anyway i hope everybody is doing well lmk if you need anything!!!! #with best wishes and kind regards sincerely yours!!!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[boxwinebaddie]

why the hell am i at work the idea factory in my brain is whirring so fast right now holy shit

#nina speaks #not me starting a private phone destroyer pinterest board #i am having so many ideas about the western au holy shit #but i started a google doc and am compiling diff pieces of media #that i am associating with the vibes of my wip fanfics #trying to pin down vibes #i have a notes app for my random hcs #concepts that i am working out things that need more research #i am never left brain what the fuck is happening #organized nina research nina historian nina aaaa #i should probably focus on one thing but i am insane #this doesn’t matter to anyone but me #but it matters so much to me wow #if this is a manic episode on the rise #well…at least it’s productive shskks #trying to understand my very complicated brain and make structure #easier said than done but satisfying #sorry i had to share haha #im a little scared but excited

[tea-of-destiny]

writing, doing art, playing my instruments, literally anything fun and exciting ❌

sorting through all the classwork files on my laptop because i need to update it for an app to function but there's not enough disk space ✅

#teaposts #it's not really that i didn't organize the files very well to begin with #so much as that i recently had to download everything off my school gdrive in big zips and now i have to put all that in the right places #and then transfer stuff i don't immediately need to a flash drive for safe keeping #and Then i can system update #since i'm probably not getting an upgrade until grad school i have to stretch all the life i can out of this old thing lol #also some of the files though like... do i actually need to hang onto this? how useful will this be in the future? lmao

[leatherbookmark]

i love how passionate and emotional fic seongjoong is when irl they're like... an arranged marriage... lol

#not to say that they don't like each other or anything but. atz in particular seem quite aware (and not hiding it) of the practice of #ships -- not as in 'fans produce fanworks of you' but rather 'fans like your dynamics! play it up a little' #and the leader + the second 'highest' member are almost always shipped together as the 'mom' and 'dad' #which kind of doesn't make sense because a marriage usually precedes having children but in kpop is like. well here's a group and you're #two eldest members so you automatically get the mom/dad positions. sometimes it works -- whether automatically or because the #aforementioned members feel the need to take care of other members as they're the eldest -- but sometimes the dynamic is clearly #just there for the fans. and i can't help but notice that a whole bunch of 'moments' in 'seongjoong compilations' are like... not authentic #moments of them enjoying their time together but them being awkward/having awkward banter/doing fanservice during fanmeetings #and that's Different from the organic air ie woosan have #this is not to make fun of seongjoong fans because I PERSONALLY put very dramatic seongjoong in my hashtag Fic Verse #but then my fic verse was kickstarted because of that hwalazia magic and a single line in atz diary from fever 1. so it is. shall we say. #not particularly canon-inspired. #but i WOULD kill and die for every single fanfiction in which seongjoong aren't romantic sweethearts at the first sight but rather Struggle #i feel like Struggling is this... sort of a facet of their Brand... and so is mutually taking care of each other lol #they're like. this arranged marriage couple who grew to care about each other. not like 'oh shit two months in i realized i'm incredibly in #love with my spouse!' but 'yeah yknow what i like you here. stay' #good afternoon everyone enjoy this meandering and probably incorrect analysis of a relationship between two kpop lads #shrimp thoughts

[magentagalaxies]

i have so much work to do for finals season which is frustrating bc on the one hand i'm very glad all my classes have project-based finals where i get to be creative instead of just doing an exam or a paper. however. i have a bad habit with every project-based final ever of accidentally getting an idea that's way too ambitious and creating more work for myself than i need to do

however this semester even tho i fell into that exact same trap my two most elaborate final projects each involve 1. editing a video essay which contains an interview i did with paul bellini and at least 45 seconds of it are bellini talking about why he thinks i have great potential as a comedian, and 2. editing a ten minute reel of the documentary footage i got on tour with scott. which of course involves rewatching various videos of me and scott being extremely chaotic together. so i stay winning ig

#my other finals include ''powerpoint presentation detailing the historical significance of mel brooks the producers'' #and ''live sketch show that i actually don't have a significant role in but that's fine i have a different sketch class next semester'' #(this sketch class was technically ''creating characters and solo performances'' and i really wish i could've done more) #(but also that whole interview-footage-debacle drained so much of my creative energy so sometimes doing the bare minimum is self care) #so i don't have a solo piece in the show. but i do get to say my favorite line in the whole show in a group sketch which is great #and i did sign up to perform an aubrey monologue in a sketch show in a suburb of boston next week #which is gonna be super interesting bc i've been looking to do more performing outside of my college #bc i've found that i don't think college kids are actually my target audience??? or at the very least i want to perform to a wider audience #it's frustrating bc for that show i have to trim the monologue down to 3 minutes but it's the tightest monologue i have and it's 5 minutes #so trimming it down feels like a game of jenga since it's so tight lmao #but honestly even if the performance bombs i'm mostly doing this so i can tell bellini about it lmao #he's so supportive of my comedy and he's been such a great help with my aubrey monologues i feel like this is bellini homework lmao #anyway i probably won't post the video essay publicly bc it's not the style of video essays i want to make #and it's too specific to the class it's for #but if people are interested in watching it i'll send you the vid when it's done #and for the tour video i'll probably post that or at least some version of it #bc that's just gonna be a fun teaser of ''here's the level of behind-the-scenes content you'll be getting from this doc!!'' #and also a fun way to be like. audiences don't know me nearly as well as they know scott #but they will definitely know me by the end of this bc there are so many wild interactions i have on camera of me and scott being chaotic #anyway this post was mostly to organize my thoughts of what i still have to do this week #i am so ready to be done with school lmao i'm gonna be spending a full month in toronto this summer #and it's shaping up to be such an exciting time i can't wait

[my-current-obsession]

Pros of dating Margaret in RF4 - she's very cute and sweet and all around lovely. She's also the only girl to get a skill exclusive to romancing her, and it is BUSTED. Her healing rainbow wave is the best support move in the game, IMO.

Cons of dating Margaret in RF4 - Unless you get obscenely lucky or choose to save scum a lot, you will NEVER be able to marry her.

#rune factory #rf4 #rf4 margaret #to be clear this is a SLIGHT exaggeration. eventually you'll get her FOUR required events. but... #expect it to take so long that there is virtually NOTHING left to do in the game #you can EASILY beat rune prana AND do all the eliza requests before being able to marry margaret #and at that point what is left? trying to gold crown all shipment stuff? that's SO tedious and NOT fun #at that point i can't find the motivation to keep playing and just want to start over #fun fact on my FIRST playthrough of the game - before i knew how everything worked - i dated margaret #i fell in love with her almost instantly and get her 'thoughts lost in the lake' event very early on #we were like 3-4 FP level so it felt like the natural and organic point to switch to calling her Meg #and THEN i got her mini-event right before confessing (successfully! on the first try!) at 7 #so not only was i REALLY digging her but the game had given me these lovely coincidences to make it feel RIGHT #it just felt so natural and real to date her and i was so excited to eventually marry her #but then. BUT THEN. literal YEARS passed in game. so many dates. affection WELL PAST 10 hearts. #but her other 3 events eluded me. i got ONE eventually. but my patience ran out. #i didn't necessarily want to be a cheater but i knew the game allowed me to date multiple people with no repercussions #so i started confessing to the other girls. at first just clorica since she was my second fave at the time... #but then xiao pai as well since clorica was NOT biting and i could only take so many platonic just friendsly 'i love you too's #i ended up dating xiao pai 2nd and she was the first person i married. and she's probably my favorite girl now #but i kept a save file where i rejected her because i still held out hope for margaret #in the meantime i decided to go for as much content as possible and aimed to date/marry ALL the girls #and let me tell you - i SUCCEEDED. in ONE file where i initially JUST wanted to marry margaret... #i ended up dating and marrying EVERY OTHER GIRL first. and i STILL never got all the events i needed before finally giving up #i like margaret a lot but marrying her is SUCH a pain. on my recent NEW file i got lucky and got 3 of her events in a single year #so my hopes are up and i chose to date her again. but in my mind and heart i know - i FEAR - her final event will just never proc #anyway take it from me - she's a trap. unless you have the patience of a SAINT you should pursue literally anyone else #thank god none of the dudes cause me similar issues

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: March 8

“Cosmo Canyon" by Nobuo Uematsu for Final Fantasy VII

#song of the day #sliiiightly cheating as kaylithographica reminds me we haven't actually heard this in its entirety in the game quite yet #but it's one of the songs I enjoy most and I do love Red and we did make it to Cosmo Canyon today #I've been talking mostly about game progress in my tag babbles these last however many days but I have a sillier project as well #as I watch the game I've been going through my bookmarks and drafts and notes to myself and organizing things #it keeps my hands busy and it is a project I try to undertake every spring-ish so I was about due anyway #and I am very proud of myself because I have taken my 'deal with later' bookmarks from nearly 2000 down to a mere 800 #a pittance! #(a lot of them I just shuffled to different better-organized folders but still! all progress is progress) #my tumblr drafts is also well over 1000 but it's also much better organized #once I finish with it I'll dump it all into the queue and probably it'll be hmm. #spitball math says probably 800 into the queue and 200odd to otherwise deal with #that's 80 days of queue at the current pace which also seems roughly correct #the post that came out yesterday that talked about queue lengths was four months after I first saw it but it was otherwise delayed #my queue stopped while I was sick in December and again while I voyaged in January and I think for work a few times before that #so I am in accordance to my own rough yearly rhythms still mostly on top of things!

[cytocutie]

Each node represents a momentary event with multiple possible outcomes. In this model of the multiverse, every possible outcome exists in some universe. This is what allows a hot-dog universe, despite its entirely different evolutionary conditions, to end up with laundromats, Bollywood, Debussy, Evelyn and Deirdre. Some separate paths convergently develop similar outcomes.

Inter-dimensional beings (Jobu Tupaki, Evelyn Quan Wang, Mr. Mxtylpk, The Spot) should be able to access all of these universes. By contrast, Miguel O'Hara's technology can only access universes with native Spiderifying radioactive spiders (including those such as Earth-42, whence originated a radioactive spider but not a Spider).

Properly speaking, the Pinocchio node also descends from "Humans (tool-using)".

Theological implications uncertain.

#spiderverse #everything everywhere all at once #eeaao #atsv #barbie #mine #i completely winged the formatting on this so i apologize for its incoherence #it probably wouldn't make much more sense if it were well-organized anyway #i also apologize for the missing end quote. believe me: it hurts me more than it hurts you #i'm aware i missed the opportunity to incorporate the MCU's various Spider-Men and the ensuing multiversal implications #however i am deeply uninterested in the marvel franchise so i didn't feel very motivated to include it

[littledreamling]

I saw a post joking that Death wasn’t the only Endless in the family that helped Dream find a boyfriend, which got me thinking: at what rate does Time (Dream’s father) affect Hob?

We know it does; his hair grows (presumably, or else he’s been REALLY careful with his haircuts over these 600 years) and it’s not explicitly stated but we can assume that he has some sort of healing ability, but my question is this: does he have any regenerative powers?

We’ve never seen Hob suffer from any injury that would require regeneration; he’s never (that we know of) lost a limb or been decapitated. Yes, he’s been drowned and starved to death, but neither of those deal a loss of anything. However, it’s assumed that his body will do anything it takes to survive, so could he survive decapitation? We have to assume so, but the ability to do so would put him at a much higher level than just an immortal human. If he does have regenerative powers (which, logically, we have to assume he has something of the sort), that has a lot of implications, too. Can he have piercings without the holes immediately closing the second he takes the jewelry out? Can he have tattoos? Could he be a perpetual organ donor if he wanted to be? I don’t particularly need official answers, but it would be a fun concept to explore

#I’m a biology major so these are the kinds of questions that are pressing to me #I need to know if he’s an Old Guard type of immortal or just a regulr human who doesn’t age and refuses to die #would Death herself grant him new organs if he lost vital ones? #this whole post probably wasn’t worded very well but it’s almost 2am and I’m sleep-deprived #I just needed to get it typed out before I forgot about it #I can make a new post tomorrow that’s actually thought-out and cohesive #the sandman #sandman netflix #hob gadling

[arorgripi]

So I have spent the first days of 2024 binging Link Click with covid kicking my ass, and it has consumed me worse than the damn disease.

Spoilers for season 2, if you haven't watched it yet go do that (or not. Don't suffer).

So.

These are some general facts that I hopefully didn't misunderstand while sick:

Cheng Xiaoshi inherits all the memories of the person he posesses when he dives, up until the moment the picture is taken.

Unless for the picture taken by Lu Guang in episode 7/8, the only way for Cheng Xiaoshi to know what happens next whilst diving is by combining his and Lu Guang abilities. In this case he knows what will happen because he was there.

I'm not 100% sure if Li Tianxi is actually dead, but it's fair to assume that when someone is dying they can transfer their powers to someone else.

About the last point, this would be the same situation that would allow Lu Guang to get Cheng Xiaoshi's ability.

So, going from here, the thing that I can't get out of my mind is: what type of time loop is Lu Guang in?

Because if it were a spiral kind of time loop (everything rewinds but Lu Guang remembers all the previous timelines) Cheng Xiaoshi should inherit those memories when he uses the picture to get to the riverside, even just because it seems to be one of the most important (haunting) memories that Lu Guang has.

And this would mean that Cheng Xiaoshi would know of his death too.

On the other hand, if it were a closed kind of time loop (everything rewinds, even Lu Guang's memories of the "interrupted" timeline that he abandons to dive back) that would explain why Cheng Xiaoshi didn't see his death while he was Lu Guang, and why Lu Guang is so adamant about not changing the past up until the last scene of S2. But it doesn't explain why his phone password is 091305, or the final scene of the season (if you interpret the thoughts of Lu Guang as something that happens when they return to the photo studio, and not as something he thinks before diving back).

In this instance, it would mean that every single time that Lu Guang goes back he thinks that it's the only time he dives to try and save Cheng Xiaoshi.

And in this case I don't think that it would be a completely repetitive loop, I still think that there would be small differences every timeline, but for Lu Guang it would be a blind try every time, and there would virtually be no changes from his point of view.

And these two kind of time loops offer so much.

In the first case you could have:

Cheng Xiaoshi does know, but he reads it as a nightmare or a fear that Lu Guang has, and not a memory, and he lets it go (as much as Cheng Xiaoshi can let go of things anyway).

He was admittedly pretty busy rushing to make sure a certain event happened, and so he didn't pay too much attention to Lu Guang's memories; he could have probably done that too out of respect for his privacy.

Cheng Xiaoshi knows, and is well aware, and he won't bring it up for fear of being alone again or because he doesn't want to risk messing with time again after Emma. In this season he only really considered changing the past before learning that Lu Guang wasn't dead. In his eyes it's fine if he dies, but he refuses to put anyone else's life or existence in danger.

While in the second case you could have:

Lu Guang keeps on trying to save Cheng Xiaoshi's life, and it doesn't really matter in the end how many times he starts over again, at the end it will always seem like a "first try" thing. He would mess up time beyond any limit and not know anything about it.

I imagine it would be something similar to the Doctor Who episode "Heaven sent" (s9ep11), with the slow change of the timeline occurring over an absurd amount of attempts.

I don't know, it was probably something that will be resolved next season or maybe it was a small incongruence and I'm overthinking it.

#link click season 2 #link click season 2 spoilers #it has been a while but just to be safe #im sorry for using the full names but i have a stupidly hard time with just the initials #there is probably a very obvious answer that i missed and this will just be useless. oh well. #i also have a theory about how the different abilities could be like a parasite that abandons the bigger organism once it's dying #but that was very likely a fever dream