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boqvistsbabe · 4 months
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#is it weird to say that I want more friends that look like me#like in the sense that all my friends are of average/skinny body types#and so when I talk about any struggles about being physically bigger they can relate to some feelings but#they are not classified as mid or plus sized#so they don’t relate to a lot of things#and I just want someone that understands what I go through both in trying to date and in just regular life as well#not that they don’t try to understand#but it’s not the same if that makes sense#like I appreciate them trying and being there#but I have one friend that is still not understanding some of my frustrations with certain things#and she’s like well just don’t talk to those people or just ignore it or it’s not that big of a deal#or things along those lines#and she never realized how hard it is to find someone even slightly attracted to#to me#like we sat there and I explained some of my experiences#and she never knew#and then she’s like well you don’t deserce that#and like yes I know that but you’re not understanding the fact that there is a very small majority that would even look in my direction#like we talked over an hour and she still thinks it’s just as easy as ignoring people etc#like I had to explain how the people that I talk to on apps that I’m on plus size and give that disclaimer and hope they don’t unmatch or#just stop talking to me#I don’t know#just like I want more friends that can closer relate to how I feel without having to explain it#I’m not saying my friends can’t or don’t go through similar things#but they are still skinny/average to society’s standards#and that makes it hard to talk about my struggles#if that makes sense#anyway rant over#idek if that made sense#Sams feelings
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55sturn · 2 months
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.𖥔 ݁ ˖ OH, BABYDOLL.
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↳ summary: in which a night of drunken celebration between matt and his best friend turns into something more, something they both yearned for.
↳ pairing: matt sturniolo x fem!reader
↳ warnings: swearing, alcoholic consumption, making out, use of y/n, slightly suggestive (?) touching, pet name [doll], drunk confessions.
↳ important things to note: finally a dominic fike inspired fic!
THIRD PERSON POV
everyone has someone in their life that they’ll never really get over, whether it be an ex friend, or an ex lover, there’s always going to be lingering feelings for that person. for matt, it was his best friend.
at first he figured that he was only attracted to her physically and sexually because he was pent up. so the day he noticed that he kept checking her out, he sent a text to an ex hookup and got the job done. but the next day, he was backing to wanting her in such an animalistic and carnal way that it was hard to be around without all the blood rushing from his head to somewhere else.
but the longer his attraction went on, the more confused he ended up. he searched for her in every room, after every joke he told in hopes that he’d find her laughing. he began immediately seeking her the moment he’d step into the house after a rough day.
he realized it became something more when he found himself driving to her apartment complex without prior announcement the moment he received good news about his yesterday’s problem project.
he realized it became something more when he crafted journals for his own personal brand based off the journal she carried with her everywhere.
and he realized that he’s never really wanted anyone the way he’s wanted her, and once that was revealed to him, he tried to move on. he dated girls far and few in between, and none of them never really ignited the flame that lay dormant in the pit of his stomach the way y/n did. other girls never stirred up the butterflies that lay peaceful in his chest every time he was away from her.
he realized that he was fucked. he loved her and there no changing that.
so when he began noticing that you seemed so different after starting your new assistant job, he begged you to quit. it changed you into a dull shell of the lively, bright, and happy person you were. he really believed that it had caused you to lose that sparkle in your personality that made you everything he loved, and honestly he loved you regardless, he just missed your bubbly personality. he had noticed that even your eyes seemed dull.
so when you called him later in the day, muttering something along the lines of “i didn’t think the day would come but it did and i don’t have to get up at nearly five in the morning tomorrow!” he couldn’t fully make out the words because of how jumbled you become whenever you’re excited.
“doll, you’re getting all jumbled again, can you repeat that?” he hummed, the pet name you knew all too well that still managed to have the tips of your ears turning pink and hot slipping from his lips, sounding sickeningly sweet. he started calling you doll not too long after you guys met, every time he picked you up when he asked to hangout, you’d come out singing babydoll by dominic fike because it was a song you were obsessed with, but the real reason behind was the night you guys met at some party, you were wearing a cropped raglan style baby tee that read babydoll in the iconic bratz font. the sleeves and collar were bright pink, and the text matched.
he felt that calling you “babydoll” made him sound a bit too much like a boyfriend, so from then on, he coined that nickname “doll”, and it stirred up a sweet and delicate feeling in your chest but it also caused your head to fall fuzzy to the utmost dangerous thoughts about your best friend.
but honestly, you were entranced with the sentimental feeling that bloomed in your chest every time he spoke the nickname.
“i said,” you start, dragging out the “a” as you turn on to his street, “that the day where i quit my job has finally come! so i’m outside because we’re gonna go to some bar or club and celebrate. that’s why i told you to get ready earlier and order an uber.”
“holy shit i cant believe you actually did it!”
“same now get the fuck out here!” you giggled, ending the call and climbing out of your car, waiting against the driver’s door as matt stepped outside, making quick strides over to you, and pulling you into a hug as the uber he ordered came into view.
the two of you sat in a comfortable silence, not wanting to talk about too much with a stranger in the car, knowing very well it could fall on the wrong ears when another passenger climbs into that very seat.
you were beginning to question whether or not getting drunk with matt was a good idea, you had been harbouring so many things directed toward him for the last little while, and you were about to combust. you knew that if you had even the tiniest bit of liquid courage in you, your deepest secrets would come tumbling out like word vomit.
as if matt could sense your worry, he placed a hand on your thigh, squeezing the soft flesh as if to say “you’re okay.” and in all honesty, you were both convinced you each had a sixth sense when it came to one another, you could easily read matt and figure out what he was feeling or thinking after a split second of looking at him, and vice versa. your internal spiral was cut short as yours and matt’s favourite club came into view.
you both quickly thanked your uber, giving him a perfect rating before making your way into the club.
“what are we drinking first, doll?” matt hums, however his words fell on vacant ears, you couldn’t stop yourself from zoning out on the way he looked tonight, his shoulders look broad and defined beneath the dark muscle tee he wore, and the pants he paired his shirt with were your favourite pair of anything he owned. they were his black carhartt carpenter pants, paired with his notorious key ring attached to the belt loop, and his white airforces. matt noticed the way you were watching him, and he couldn’t help but feel a surge of confidence flow through his veins.
“huh?” you sputter, finally meeting his eyes with your face turning a deep pink, but you were glad the strobe lights in the club were red.
“what are we drinking first?”
“i need a shot of tequila and a vodka redbull.”
“make that two shots, a vodka redbull for her, and i’ll just have a jack and coke.” matt calls to the bartender, having to raise his voice over the loud music and chatter surrounding the bar. once again, as you wait for your drinks, you finding yourself falling into deep concentration, unable to tear your eyes from matt as he leans against the bar. matt turns to hand you your shot, only to find you roughly feeding half of your bottom lip between your teeth, your stare vacant but determined.
“doll, you’re gonna split your lip, stop doing that.” he murmurs, loud enough for only you to hear as he presses his thumb against your lip, pulling it from your teeth, slowly becoming hypnotized by the way it recoils back into its natural pout.
“sorry, the realization of everything is settling in you know?”
“that’s why we’re gonna take our shots, chug our drinks, order more shots, and then dance.”
“matthew sturniolo? offering to dance before anyone else? did i trip and fall into an alternate universe?”
“shut up.” he laughs, downing his shot after clinking his glass against yours, and once again you’re entranced by him, watching the way his adam’s apple bobs slowly as he swallows, finding it incredibly attractive how he hardly makes a face after the shot is gone. before he can meet your stare, you down your shot, followed by your drink, getting rid of both quite quickly, and ordering two more shots for you and matt.
about an hour passes, and you’re both quite tipsy as you dance and scream along to the music, laughing at the moves you both pull out, not caring if anyone sees or judges. but you’re about to tap matt on the shoulder to tell him you’re going to order another, when babydoll comes on. you’re shocked to say the least, it’s not really a clubbing song but you’re thanking what being above compelled the dj to play it. matt watches you dance along to your favourite song with a dazed grin, his eyes beginning to become hooded as the alcohol takes over his body.
as you’re singing along, you make eye contact with him and it feels as id the entire world stops, like time was standing still as you slowly gravitate toward him. you’re watching him with through rose coloured glasses as his hands fall to your hips, pulling you flush against him with your hands on his shoulders, and rocking your bodies back and forth. the heat emanating from his palms against your hips and lower back makes your head spin in the best way as you lean in close, your lips ghosting over his as you mumble the words,
“oh babydoll, i cant move on.”
the words almost act as if they’re an unspoken confession, because matt’s nodding along to your words, understanding the underlying meaning behind them. and matt humming the next line, his lips pressing just the slightest bit more against yours, and you’re understanding everything he’s implying.
what started out as an innocent celebration between you two, has now become a flustered mess, your lips are so close, and yet neither of you are ready to cross that line as the next song begins playing, and it’s a raunchy and filthy song, making the moment all the more erotic.
“i need to kiss you, matt.” you whisper against his lips, the torture of having them so close yet so far was causing your head to spin, and you couldn’t wait anymore. and as if to tease you more, matt’s tongue darts between his lips, wetting them, the tip of it brushing ever so slightly against yours. and he couldn’t help smirk as your eyes flutter shut at the smallest amount of contact. and all your self will goes out the window as you hook your fingers around his silver chain, tugging his lips completely against yours, your mouths moving in sync as you reach the moment you’ve been craving since you met matt.
the kiss is sloppy, warm, and extremely hot. it was a mess of clashing teeth, spit swapping, and tangled tongues. matt’s the first to pull away, tugging your bottom lip between his teeth ever so gently, loving the way it bounces back. he loves everything about your lips, the fullness, the shape, and god their shade of pink drives him crazy.
“you don’t know how long i’ve wanted that, doll.” his whispers, his voice think with want and fulfillment as he stares down at you, his left hand moving from your hip to your jaw, his thumb resting against your lip as you smile at him.
“i think i have an idea because i’ve wanted it just as long, matty.”
the two of you don’t break too far apart for the rest of the night, allowing yourselves to sit comfortably in the purgatory of staying the same or indulging in something more that you’ve turned your friendship into. you’re sure to regret letting yourself give so easily into wrecking your friendship with him in the morning, but right now, you couldn’t be bothered, especially not after finally kissing him because right now, all you want to do is keep kissing him. the way his lips fit against yours has almost become addictive, loving the way his lips taste slightly like your lip glass with remnants of coke and rum.
you weren’t sure how you were going to navigate the new change, but what did know was that you were going to be utterly fucked when you wake up tomorrow and remember that you made out with matt.
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ash5monster01 · 6 months
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Learning to Love
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Pairing: Rafe Cameron x FemReader!PlusSize
Warnings: 18+, langauge, angst, fluff, mentions of bullying, body image issues, fat shaming, fake relationship, eventual smut, minor enemies to lovers trope.
Summary: It's not uncommon for you to be shamed for your size, it is however uncommon to be told that no one would ever date you because of it. Rafe on the other hand is used to being called a jerk, that is until he is accused of seeing people for only what's on the surface. It's purely coicidental you two meet right after these accusations are thrown your way. So even though you two don't know each other, and probably never would've looked the others way before this, now you're both going to prove a point. It's simple really, prove others wrong and don't fall in love. Easier said than done.
word count: 3k
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You're used to crude comments, truly. Living in the Outer Banks has proven nothing other than the fact that kooks will always be cruel, even if it's towards other kooks. As long as you're in a bathing suit, something is going to be said. Which is proven true as you lie on the beach, book in hand, and sunglasses hung low on your nose. It's your only day off and you were going to enjoy it. Soak up the sun as much as you can because summer would fade away before you knew it. You had only chosen the two piece bathing suit to get more of a tan, maybe a little extra sun. It's only twenty pages into your book you hear two boys snickering not far from your own set up.
"Look a beached whale, should we call the authorities?" your ears burn red only slightly, after all you were used to it. Honestly you could care less anymore.
"God, she has to know that's gross" the other responds after his bellowing laughs have calmed down. They truly can't be that stupid they don't realize how loud they're talking right?
"No decent looking, hell self respecting man would ever date a girl like that" this punches the air out of your lungs. You knew your body type wasn’t considered attractive. This was common knowledge, but to hear someone say you couldn’t possibly ever date an attractive man is something else entirely.
“I know I wouldn’t” the boys laugh again, hands clapping together as they stare you down like you were the most disgusting thing on this beach.
You’re not upset about what they were saying. You survived highschool after all. Your school had already been divided by kooks and pogues, add in the big girl and that’s a recipe for disaster. You’ve heard the most vile and mean things a person could say. Somehow you came out of it with still a little self respect, hell even some confidence, because if you were anything at all it was strong. You had dated here and there, never had anything stick though. Maybe that’s why this comment resonated so hard with you. No matter how decent a person you meet maybe you’re bound to end up ugly and alone because an attractive man belongs with an attractive girl.
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Rafe has had to attend hundreds of useless business meetings since his Dad died. He had wanted this. When he was nineteen and trying to prove to his Dad that he was worth it, but now he was gone. He had no one to impress anymore and at twenty three he carried the burden of being the CEO of an entire company with his last name on it. So that’s how he finds himself inside of dark clubs at noon, sharing a scotch with guys willing to play dirty to get what they want. He often wonders why he had wanted this life so badly. Everything he had believed in for so long was now gone. His Dad, the treasure, and now even kooks and pogues. Ever since his sister had found that treasue social classes had been practically eliminated or at least weren't acknowledged like they were before. All of this had now left Rafe without a sense of self and he desperatley needed something to change.
"Man, why can't they hire pretty waitresses to look at anymore?" Levi, a coworker slurred as he watched their waitress walk away. Rafe noticed her shoulders stiffen because she had heard what he had said. He hated he felt guilty over it.
"It's a bar, not a strip club" Matt, another coworker teased and Rafe rolled his eyes. Four years ago these guys could've been his best friends, and he would've teased the waitress right along with them. Now things were different, he was different.
"I happen to think she's cute" Rafe told them before finishing the last sip of his scotch. He knew when he got back to the office people would give disapproving looks but he didn't know what to do with himself anymore. It was like he was just floating and letting the tide drag him along wherever it wanted to.
"Yeah right" Matt snorted out a laugh and Rafe gave him a confused look as Levi started to laugh along with him.
"Seriously Rafe, you’re way out of her league" Levi told him, his shoulder bumping with his own.
"No I'm not and there is no such thing as leagues" Rafe told them with a pointed look but the boys just continued to laugh anyway.
"Yes there is and the only one's in Rafe Cameron's league are tall hot blondes with legs for miles and tan skin smooth enough slide on" Matt said and Rafe felt his stomach clench as they spoke. Had he unintentionaly maintained a type, only taken someone for their looks? Flashes of ex girlfriends went through his mind and he had realized after all this time he had only taken women for surface things.
“That can’t be true” Rafe shook his head and the boys just chuckled.
“Admit dude, you’re an asshole and you like pretty little things. Nothing wrong with that” Levi said as he slapped his back, taking another sip of his own scotch. Rafe however realized there was everything wrong with that. Yeah he’s been a jerk his whole life but had he ever actually dated a girl he liked? Someone with substance?
“Hell would freeze over the day Rafe Cameron dated someone other than a supermodel” Matt pointed with the scotch in his hand and Rafe just shook his head, eyes scanning over the small crowd that littered the bar. For the first time he was seeing people he never would’ve noticed before.
He wondered if this was a side effect of his life before. Privileged kook, popularity, a need to impress everyone around him. Had women become a part of all of that too? A side effect of a need to please, to be the best. Had he been wasting years of actually meeting someone with a personality due to his natural self destructive ways? God he hoped not. Then again he couldn’t recall ever really liking the girls he dated, he usually just tuned them out and used them when he needed to make an appearance with a date. He had never actually dated someone for fun. Worst of all he hated that everyone knew this of him. That he dated for appearance instead of happiness. He wanted to change that.
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You could only take so much of the harassment coming from the two boys on the beach, so after three hours you declared you’d had enough sun and started to pack your things. When the cover up slipped over your head you didn’t miss the applause coming from them. Rolling your eyes you grabbed your bag and started the hike up the beach. You needed a drink.
Rafe hadn’t been able to shake the thoughts over the girls he dated. After a very long recollection of every girl he had ever brought around he couldn’t think of one he actually enjoyed spending time with. With this in mind he dismissed Matt and Levi back to the office, claiming he’d find a way back on his own. He needed more time to think about this, and a stiff drink to go along with it. So that’s how he found himself now sitting directly at the bar and not inside the dark booth. The whiskey in his hand suggested he wasn’t making it back to the office anytime soon.
Normally he wouldn’t remove his focus from the drink in his hands but when a bag is slapped on the counter top beside him he finds himself lifting his head. The girl claiming the seat beside him is dressed in stark contrast to his own attire. He’s still in his work suit, tie loosened around his neck, but the girl beside him has clearly just come from the beach. Her hair is wild and wrapped in a bun a top her head. A red bikini strap peaks out the collar of the white coverup. Her breasts had left wet spots slightly see through to the red fabric of her top, like she had left the beach in a rush.
“Hit me with the usual Randy” she calls to the bar keep and Rafe can’t tear his eyes away from her. She’s bigger, sure, but the dip of her hips and small pouted lips have Rafe every bit of intrigued. He can’t help the thought of her being a girl he might’ve never noticed before escape him. He wanted to notice her now.
“Rough day?” Randy smirks at her when he’s back, a tall glass with a dark liquid set in front of her. She takes a sip before responding.
“Every day is a rough day” she mutters and Randy just chuckles before walking off to serve other customers. It’s only when your eyes lock with his own Rafe realizes he has been staring this entire time. “Let me guess, you got something to say just like everyone else today”
“I, what?” Rafe doesn’t expect the coldness from you and how strong willed you are with it too. You aren’t scared of him, he isn’t used to that.
“Listen I’ve had my fill of assholes today so if you don’t have anything nice to say, keep it to yourself” you told him before turning back forward and taking a large gulp from the drink in your hand.
“Got someone bothering you?” Rafe asked finding his cool. He finally got himself to tear his eyes away from you, eyes scanning over the liquor bottles behind the bar. You turn to look at him, eyes drawn together in confusion.
“Not one specific person, everyone for some reason thinks they have the right to comment on my appearance” your words get him to turn back at you. Normally men don’t make you nervous but when you watch him eye you up and down you can’t help the way your heart accelerates.
“I happen to think you look just fine” the scoff that falls from your lips shocks him.
“I’m not looking for your pity, I happened to over hear today that no decent self respecting man would date me so let’s not lie to each other” you tell him and Rafe now feels the air knocked from his lungs. He can’t believe anyone would say that to you. Let alone to your face.
“If it makes you feel better I was told today that I only date woman for surface things” now you were the one drawing your eyebrows together in confusion, looking to the mystery of a man beside you.
“Surface things?” you question the stranger and he chuckles, his rings clinking on his whiskey glass.
“Appearances, apparently I’ve never looked deeper” this has you chuckling right along with him, lifting your own drink to your lips.
“Look at us then, two sides of the same coin. Makes you wonder if there really is anyone out there actually happy with who they ended up with” you say mostly to yourself, knowing this perfect stranger on a normal day would never look your way but you also would never find yourself thinking you had a chance with him.
“I think there is, at least the people who weren’t chewed up and spit out by the world” the optimism is what shocks you the most when he speaks. A hope for something better down in there.
“I wish I was one of those people” you find yourself saying and the boy turns to look at you again, eyes scanning over each of your features.
“Maybe we should prove them wrong” now you’re laughing, looking bewildered towards the boy beside you.
“And how do you suppose we do that?” you ask and he smirks, clearly having some sort of plan.
“We date. I prove to my coworkers that I date someone for more than just their looks and you prove to all those assholes that you can date a guy as good looking as me” he gestures to himself, as if his body is some of God’s best work. You scoff at his clear cheekiness but actually find yourself considering.
“I don’t even know your name” you laugh, trying to remind yourself that this ideal is completely absurd.
“Rafe Cameron, nice to meet you” his hand reaches across the bar, you take notice of how long his fingers are. With the shake of your head you find yourself putting your hand in his own.
“It’s not that simple” you tell him and he just smiles, dimples forming around his pressed together lips.
“Isn’t it though?” he says, a sparkle of amusement in his eyes and you sigh, finally removing your hand from his own.
“Date? As in fake date?” you ask and he nods, his head tipping to the side.
“Exactly, an agreement of sorts. We both benefit from each other, everything to gain and nothing to lose” he tells you like he’s already worked out every way this could end.
“We just met” you inform him and he shrugs, implying this wasn’t an issue.
“I’ve seen people date over less” he tells you and you sigh, holding your hand out to him. He looks are your empty palm confused and you quickly roll your eyes.
“You can’t take me out ion a date without my number dream boy” you tell him and he smirks while grabbing his phone out of his pocket and placing it in your hand. He watched as you meticulously open his contacts and punch in your number. You’ve named your contact ‘baby ❤️’ but he doesn’t get your real name until you type it into other names.
“Y/N? I like that” he smiles at you and you chuckle, clicking on the profile photo to take a selfie.
“We’re already off to a bad start if you want to stop liking people for just their surface things” he likes how quick witted you are and you don’t allow him a response as you lean into his personal space. “Can’t be a real girlfriend if I don’t have a profile picture in your phone”
You smile so easily and he instantly notices how beautiful it is. He’s not looking at the camera anymore but leaning in and taking in the sweet scent of your perfume mixed with the sunscreen and salty skin. You were like a walking beach and he loved that more than anything. That is how he finds his lips pressing softly against your cheek as the camera shutter clicks on his phone. Your body has chills that you have to brush off quickly as you look at the entirely real looking photo on his screen.
“If I didn’t like what was on the surface you would never be my fake girlfriend” he finally says as he takes his phone back before you could text yourself his number.
“I don’t like how easy this is for you. Are you sure I’m your first fake girlfriend?” you ask and he laughs, eyes falling on your face again.
“The first and the only” and you decide that coming into an agreement like this with a stranger shouldn’t be this simple.
“Then we need to lay some ground rules” this has him raising his eyebrows as you grab a napkin from the bar. He watches as you leaned over, searching for a pen behind the bar. Unashamedly he took the opportunity to inspect your ass, admiring the curve and thanking the see through fabric for revealing the cheeky bikini bottoms that laid over your large curves. He had never openly allowed himself to be attracted to a bigger girl. but now he was briefly wondering what it would be like to be suffocated by one.
“So, what’s these rules?” he smirked at you once you were sat back upright in your seat. He watched as you popped the cap off the pen with your teeth and leaving it in your mouth.
“Don’t worry pretty boy, I’ll keep them simple” you tell him, dropping the cap from you lips into the bar. He felt himself flush slightly at the nickname, watching as your neat and loopy handwriting moved across the napkin.
1. Must actively text/call/interact for a week before first “official” date.
2. PDA must be limited
3. Don’t catch feelings, no matter what
4. Attend whatever event your fake significant other asks of you
5. Most of all, don’t tell anyone, ever, that this is fake
“PDA must be limited?” you roll your eyes at the fact this was the only rule he questioned but you sign at the bottom of the napkin anyway.
“I don’t want to waste all of romantic gestures on something that isn’t real” you explain to him and he nods, sliding the napkin in front of him.
“I have a lot of work dinners I would like you to attend” he says as he signs the napkin.
“I’ll try my best” you tell him and now he’s furrowing his eyebrows at you.
“It’s your rule” he points at the napkin, more confused with you than when you first walked in here. “What could you possibly be busy with?”
“Work” you tell him and he still looks confused which you find adorable. Now rule number three only applies to you.
“Every night?” he questions and you chuckle as you return the pen to the other side of the bar.
“Usually, comes with the territory” and you laugh as he continues to try and process what you’re saying.
“What territory?” he asks and you smile, finishing the drink in front of you.
“My bar” and you gesture to the building around you. Rafe suddenly realizes why you know the names of the workers and why they know your usual drink order.
“You own this place?” and you nod, sliding off your seat and grabbing your bag. You also grab the napkin, now signed by you both.
“Don’t forget rule number one handsome” you tell him before heading towards the exit, determined to have a good rest of your day off. Rafe can only watch as you walk away, baffled any of what just happened actually occurred.
“Randy, I’m gonna need a refill”
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minniepetals · 1 year
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cry me a river | the snakes
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— summary: you're left on your own to save your own self
— pairing: bts x reader
— genre: angst, mafia!au
— word count: 7.8k
— warnings: kidnapping, allusions to torture
— PART 19 / previous post / masterpost
“..lady.? My lady..?”
A vision of blur, a haze falling over your eyes, yet slowly but surely, you’re beginning to come back to yourself as the aching pain in the back of your head becomes more and more apparent with your consciousness beginning to return.
You find Sunoo who stares down at you with much worry, his eyes frightful and shaky, brows arched in a furrow, his lips quivering a bit. He probably felt you stir and realized you were finally coming around again because when you start to rise from the cold, hard floor, he’s right there to help steady you.
You take a moment to blink hard, trying to get rid of the hazy vision, and in the darkness of the room, your eyes slowly adjust to the low light as you make out someplace that looks like some sort of cell.
“Are you alright?” Sunoo asks after you but before you can answer him, another voice comes in.
“How’s your head?” You almost jump, quick to turn at the source in a defensive stance as you realize you aren’t alone in this cell with the little boy. There’s someone else, someone familiar, someone you know. “There’s no need to be so alarmed, I won’t go near you,” he says, voice low and calm for the strange situation you’re placed in.
“...Yoongi?”
He remains in the darkness but even then you can make out his figure as he sits in a corner, an arm on his propped-up knee, relaxed against the wall behind him as if it’s been some time since he’s arrived here.
You turn back at Sunoo who gives you an innocent shrug before putting your focus back on your ex-boyfriend.
“What’re you doing here?”
“The same reason the two of you are here.”
Your brows crease. “You know Nari?”
He shrugs lightly, “You could say that,” before repeating the question to you. “And you?”
“..Well.” Your answer is short and curt, refusing to let anything reveal itself, but Yoongi accepts it, not pressing you any further in the same way you don’t press for him.
When you hear the little boy behind you shiver slightly against the coldness of this room, you give up on being so defensive against Yoongi and turn back around as you take your jacket off to drape it over Sunoo.
“Is your thigh okay?” You ask, patting lightly on his right leg. “You let me lay on you for support when I was unconscious, don’t do that again. In times like this, you have to worry about yourself first and foremost. I’m stronger than you after all. I can withstand the cold and sleeping on the hard floor isn’t something I haven’t gotten used to.” The White Room was always like this after all. Like a prison cell.
Just brighter.
He presses his lips into a thin line at your chiding, head lowered as he hunches up his shoulders, shrinking at your demand. “I’m sorry.”
You accept it with a hum. “How long have I been out?”
“Um…it’s been a few hours...I think.”
Good. A day hasn’t passed.
“Did any of them hurt you when I was unconscious?”
He shakes his head and you try to detect any lies in his eyes but Sunoo beckons over at Yoongi unexpectedly. “The mister helped me when one of the guys tried to hit me.”
You turn towards the man, who doesn’t react one bit. Well, Yoongi’s never been one to stand down when he sees violence displayed against innocents, especially when it comes to children, so that much isn’t a surprise. Though it does beg the question of just how he got here, when, and why. What’s his connection with Nari? In the three years you’d spent with him, Yoongi is known to be a man who doesn’t stick out too easily, not in the way Jimin or Seokjin does, so he’s not one to attract personal enemies all on his own.
So what’s the deal with Nari? How did he get kidnapped in the first place? And why are you here on the same day as him? You haven’t seen Nari in a while but perhaps she’s been keeping up with what you’ve been doing ever since your last encounter.
She’s obsessed like that after all, not one to simply let things go especially when it comes to someone she feels inferior towards. But she’s never had the chance to go after you with all that she wishes without your father constantly by your side.
She saw an opportunity and took it.
He’s gone now after all.
But isn’t her father still alive? Did her father ask her to kidnap you? No, maybe it was Nari who took it upon herself to take you away. You wouldn’t put it past her.
You look around the cell room, trying to find a weak spot but there are no windows, no holes in the walls, nothing on the ground that can lead to some secret passageway a previous prisoner has decided to dig themselves out from.
The only escape is through the bars right in front of you. Solid, strong bars that seem to be well taken care of without much rust seen on them.
“I assume you were taken alone,” you speak into the silence after leaving Sunoo’s side, voice low as you eye the outside of the bars. Yoongi hums in response. “You think anyone would think to suspect Nari on your end?”
“No,” he states with a sigh. “None of the boys know I even know Nari.”
You turn from the bars, raising a brow as you lean your back against them, arms crossing before your chest with a heel held up against one of the bars. “Who would have thought you have your own secrets you keep hidden from them.”
Yoongi shrugs at your accusation, not denying it as he looks off to the side, eyes falling a bit distant. “Everyone has secrets. Some are better at keeping them than others.” He pauses. “Like you.”
“Well,” you look away at his accusation, “it’s true that no one alive knows of my connection with Nari, which will make it harder to suspect her. Nari isn’t someone who will keep evidence behind for people to find, whether on accident or on purpose. Her people are always there to pick up after what she misses, they’re all meticulous like that, so if none of our people know to connect her with us, that means the only people who can get us out of here is ourselves.”
“You plan to leave with me?” Yoongi raises a brow, suspicion falling your way.
“I killed Namjoon’s brother,” you look back at him, eyes pointed without a bit of falter in them, “I might as well rescue one of his boyfriends if I’m given the chance.” Yoongi watches you, steadily, to deject any weakness, anything at all, but you’re too good to show any emotions whatsoever, and after a brief glance made at your bandaged neck, he looks away, wondering where the girl he saw back at the manor went.
Weakened and out of control.
It seems the further away you are from your Reapers, the easier it is to distance yourself from emotions, from feeling. It’s probably your body’s way of protecting itself, knowing just when to shut down and keep your guard up with the strongest steel, not leaving any gaps behind.
Your Reapers are probably the only escape you can find to help you feel anything, though Yoongi guesses even then, you probably don’t know just how to release everything you actually want to feel. Whatever you’ve gone through, whatever secrets you’ve kept from them back when you were still in love, and the new secrets you’ve created after the divorce, they’re all things he knows he will never come to know the answers to.
Not unless you tell them yourself.
You hurt, you lie, but it is all to protect yourself. He wonders if Namjoon had never forced you out of the Bangtan manor would you have been able to let your guard down a little more? He wonders if you would have allowed them to protect you.
It wouldn’t have been an easy journey but he wonders if you would have been able to trust them a little more in the love that you held for them.
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“Mingyu.”
In the silence of the empty bedroom where the little kid should have been, Dasom’s call is loud and clear as he simply stares at the neatly made bed in the right corner of the room, left untouched.
It’s one in the morning, Sunoo’s roommate has been moved to another room in order to be with his friends, that way sleeping would be easier for him, that way he’d feel a little less guilty about something he has no purpose in worrying over.
“Do you think they’re together?”
You also should have returned hours ago but when one of the Reapers went to pick you up, there were no signs of you anywhere.
Just the same as Sunoo.
“Boss knows how to take care of herself, she would have never fallen into the hands of someone else.” He steps over to examine the boy’s desk, two books sprawled messily, three more held up on a small shelf, a pencil cup, a notebook. “She also knows how to defend herself while protecting others. But,” he takes a book from the desk to flip through its pages, “not unless she was outnumbered and there was a defenseless child involved. Boss would never risk the chances of them getting hurt.”
“So you confirm that they’re together.”
He nods at Dasom’s question and finds the headmaster letting out a sigh of relief at that.
“Yeonjun.” He calls, and the younger man is instantly by his side.
“All the security cameras around here have all been destroyed. The only thing I found was through The Academy’s security cameras but the only glimpse I got from both boss and the little boy is that they headed towards Garden street. The camera doesn’t span very far though. Boss’s gadgets have been turned off a few blocks away but we searched all around and we’ve found nothing to note of her belongings.”
“They either took it with them and destroyed it at a different scene or they have it on them at the moment.”
“Either way, they’re meticulous,” Dasom says after Mingyu as she turns to stare out at the window of the little boy’s room. “No evidence left behind, and they took them hours before anyone saw any of them.” She thinks for a moment as the two boys continue trying to look through the room, before Dasom turns back around, her arms crossed over her chest. “You don’t think it’s someone from her past…do you?”
Mingyu pauses for a second before proceeding to speak. “We can’t rule out anyone but if it is someone from boss’s past,” he glances Yeonjun’s way, “it’ll be a headache to try and figure out who it is that’s bold enough to kidnap boss. Especially with how secretive she is with everything.”
He runs a hand through his hair, already feeling the migraine coming through.
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Loud footsteps echo suddenly into the silence of the hallway, coming closer and closer, and in an instant, you have Sunoo behind you, away from the bars of the cell with an arm held out to cage him back from whoever it is that’s on their way here.
Yoongi looks up on high alert, prepared just as you are, though you both know you can’t make it out as easily as you hope to. But getting any information no matter the circumstances is vital and you’re prepared to do anything to try and find a way out.
No one from the outside can help you after all. None of your people, both yours and Yoongis’ know about your connection with Nari. They’ve never had any reason to suspect it after all, so why would they start now? And with you being so secretive and Yoongi having his own reasons for hiding things, there’s no way anyone outside can find anything to start suspecting.
The guards come in five, all of them buff and tall, and you can feel the beat of your heart drumming harshly against your chest, the memories and trauma wishing to tear you apart but you take deep, deep breaths, steadying yourself.
Mingyu’s taught you techniques to calm yourself down when you feel as if your life will be in danger. He’s taught you how to control the beat of your heart, how to manipulate your mind into thinking things are okay when they really aren’t.
You’ve been placed in scenarios where you’ve had to toughen yourself and let your mind pretend you’re fine before so you know you can do this. If these men are hoping to grab you and take you away to wherever, you can manipulate yourself into believing their touches are not those of men.
As long as you’re prepared beforehand, you can do it.
So you close your eyes when you hear the sound of the chains on the lock moving about, knowing that it is to be opened any second now, preparing yourself for whatever it is to come.
“Mr. Min.”
And yet they call for Yoongi instead.
You look over to where two of them move to him just as another follows but stays a few steps behind, giving you a simple glance with piercing dark eyes that tells you if you were to make one wrong move, Sunoo will have to pay the price.
Both you and Yoongi aren’t dumb enough to make a mistake in costing the life of a child.
So you watch as they place a blindfold over his eyes — a smart move on their part because there’s always a risk prisoners will try to find ways to escape during the maneuvers from their cells — and tie his hands together from behind, pushing him out the cell.
When the door clangs closed and the cell is locked up once again, you hear Sunoo let out a quiet breath of relief just as the six of them all leave.
“What will happen to that mister?” Sunoo asks, his hands trembling when he tugs onto your sleeve, his eyes looking up at you with big brown eyes when you turn to him. He looks frightened, afraid of the fate that is to come to him, so you press a hand on his head to try and comfort him somewhat.
“I don’t know,” you admit, not wanting to sugarcoat things because you know he probably already understands to an extent what is to come for Yoongi. 
Everything depends on what Yoongi means to Nari’s gang — the Viper gang — and how he got involved with them in the first place. Did he piss them off? Somehow that seems a bit unlikely in your opinion. The Yoongi you knew isn’t someone who goes around messing with other gang members that have no association with Namjoon and his orders. He listens to whatever Namjoon tells him, they all do, so he wouldn’t deliberately piss someone off accidentally or due to personal reasons. Yoongi is careful, calculated, and minds his own business.
Whatever his relationship is with the snakes, whatever brought him to be a target under Nari’s radar, that will be what determines his fate in the end.
“What about us? Will we be next?”
He looks so small beside you. It reminds you of the time you first met him down in the undergrounds, a frail little kid so bony the small clothes they had him in couldn’t even fit him properly. Sunoo was malnourished, just like the rest of the kids down there, but in the few months you had them in The Academy, he’s been able to grow some fat and muscles. One day he’ll look his age.
If we manage to get out of here, that is.
You aren’t too worried about him though because if there’s one thing you know about Nari, it’s that she has a soft spot for kids.
She’s a tough nut to crack but in the time you spent with her, you came to realize that Nari, no matter how spoiled of a brat and narcissistic she is, at the end of the day, she cares for something. Perhaps it’s the only thing that has kept her sane in all the years she’s lived as a daughter of a mafioso.
Every child is a victim in the end.
The parents are all to blame.
“You’ll be fine,” so you tell Sunoo, a promise he knows you wouldn’t give him unless you were absolutely confident. You aren’t someone who will lie just for the sake of things after all. You’re strict and hard on everyone, including the kids, and in the adult world of lies, your truth has always been something they could rely on.
“And you?” He asks, and when you don’t give him a reply in return, Sunoo’s brows crease with fright and anger, the sort of expression he didn’t give you when he thought about his situation. It’s admirable the way he cares more for you instead. He was the same for his fellow friends when they were under Ying’s reins.
“You should worry more about yourself.” You turn your body fully his way, pulling the collar of his jacket closer around his neck, then slide your hand through the right of his pocket where you remember he hid the snack he offered you hours before. “Eat. You need your strength.”
“But-”
“Do not disobey me, Sunoo.” When you use his name, he closes his mouth shut. Despite the protest still seen on his face, he listens to your words because he knows he has no other choice. You only stop looking at him with a hardened expression once he’s torn the snack open and begin to bite on it. “If there is something you must know, if you wish to protect me in your own way, that is,” his ears perk up, attention on full display, and you give him a pointed stare, “do not cry.”
It is easier said than done.
Surely you must know it isn’t easy for a child to obey those words no matter how much an adult tells them they shouldn’t cry, right? 
Of course you know.
You know more than anyone.
How many times has father punished you for going against the things he wished for you to do? How many times were you weak when he asked you to be strong? How many times did you still tremble before a gun when he asked you to master it? How many tears did you shed when he commanded no emotions out of you?
It took time to become the puppet your father wished for you to be and despite having mastered it so well you still have his thoughts instilled into you after his death, it wasn’t something that happened automatically after one day.
Still, you ask of Sunoo to listen to this one command.
“When they torture me and hurt me, when you hear my cries and screams, do not cry. Do not move a single inch. Do not show your emotions to the enemies.”
It is the very words you uttered to your Reapers when your father still lived.
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Yoongi doesn’t return.
But the guards do.
And when they do, they take you away without Sunoo, who in turn panics instantly, his face contoured with pain and affliction, fear consuming his thoughts they indicate so clear in his eyes. But you stop him from wanting to go at it with the guards before he gets himself into trouble with a simple look.
That look is enough to have him freeze in place as he remembers the command you gave him prior to the guards returning. He takes it in, watching as the guards tie your hands up behind your back, a blindfold covering your eyes.
The last thing you see is the struggle he holds plastering his expression; a struggle of knowing he must do one thing but wanting to do something else.
He wants to protect you, to rid of the men who’re taking you away to wherever they may hurt you, and yet the words you told him lets him remember that if he does actually want to protect you, the only way he can do so is by doing nothing.
By pretending none of this is affecting him.
By holding no emotions.
Just as the Reapers once had to follow and obey when they lived by your father’s side, watching day in and day out when you would make a small mistake and get punished for it.
Watching.
Watching.
All the while pretending to be robots who cared about nothing.
If a Reaper fails this task, you would be on the verge of death and the Reaper would never see what tomorrow looks like.
Sunoo may not understand it yet and Sunoo may never understand it but you see the way he falls with conflict in the same way Yuna used to look. In the same way Yeonjun did, and Dasom did. In the same way Mingyu did.
And the rest of the Reapers.
The battle between wanting to care but knowing that is the most dangerous risk one can take.
You’re sure he’s holding onto the bars of the cells when the doors lock shut and when you’re escorted away. He calls after you, small voice breaking with despair and fear not for him but for you. 
You know that deep down he must worry about what’s going to happen to him, about the fate that lies before him for the next few days, and yet right now the only thing that really matters to him is your well-being.
You chuckle to yourself.
He really does remind you of the Reapers. He’s got the heart of one, though you know you can never allow him to serve by your side.
Yeonjun has and will be the only youngest member of your guards.
You count each step you take being escorted away, having hope in Sunoo being okay, knowing to keep your head alerted at all times.
The blindfold serves no weakness; it isn’t see-through and you can’t see anything whether you look up, down, or sideways. It’s completely see-proof. So the only thing you can rely on is counting every step you take, as well as the twists and turns you make through the hall of the cells. 
If you ever have to return to these cells for Sunoo or whatever the reason, you can rely on your memorization skills. You’ve done it before in the maze of Leehyun’s mansion.
A door opens, a few more steps, and the ropes fall from your wrists, replaced by two chains on each wrist, holding your arms up from the wall it’s chained to. Only after they’ve secured you do the blindfold get taken off.
And then, you take a deep breath, knowing the pain will now be coming.
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“Poor little girl, still waiting for her happy ending.”
You look up at the familiar voice, wanting to laugh at the words she just uttered while her heels click under each step she takes.
Happy ending, what a joke.
“No one is coming to save you. Get up.”
Exhausted and in pain from almost everywhere, you still listen to Nari’s command as you place a palm on the floor, taking effort in holding your body up as it trembles from wanting to keep strength. You see blood dripping onto the floor, having fallen from your head, yet you can’t take your time to think or keep yourself steady because the chain is forcefully pulling you up once again, causing you to let out a little scream of pain.
Nari looks amused.
“How wonderful it is to finally be able to do this,” she says, her smile bright as she claps her hands together, shoulder hunching with delight. “Buttercup, you don’t know how happy I am to see you in such a state. I wish your father had allowed me to let me play with you in the way he allowed the rest of his toys to do so.”
“That’s never stopped you.”
“Right, right,” she nods at your comment, remembering those times as if it was a fond memory to look back on. “But father always reprimanded me once he found out. It was your father that had to pacify my father in the end.” She lets out a sigh, releasing her hands. “Isn’t it such a shame my father was so fond of you and your father was fond of me? What a twist in a fairytale.”
As if she’s ever had to struggle through a father’s lack of love.
“But then again, you’ve always had it far worse than me, didn’t you? Father would never let anyone hurt me after all.” 
You feel your consciousness coming in and out, eyes a blur, sometimes too dark to see anything.
“Tell me, buttercup,” Nari holds your chin up by the tip of her fan, not wanting to get herself dirty in the slightest, and if you could spit in her face you would but you know better than that. “Aren’t you upset your father’s death hasn’t done you any benefit? I mean look at you. You’ve been going after everyone that’s done you wrong and yet they still do things to your head, don’t they?” She pokes you hard on the head, causing your body to stumble back. 
Yet you keep your legs steady. You have no other choice, if you were to let your legs give in, the chains holding your arms up would tear them apart.
“You aren’t as smart as you believe, buttercup. I mean look at you, in the palm of my hands before you could even get to me.”
You sway a bit to the side so you let your right leg take a step towards it, keeping your upward stance. “You were never on the list of guys I wanted to go after.”
“Yes I was!” Nari’s quick to deny, her bold brows knitting between each other, those pearly white teeth bearing against one another. “You were going to come after me sooner or later! You’re just mad I got to you before you could me.”
“Why would I go after you, Nari?” You look straight at her despite your blurring vision, a light chuckle leaving you. “You never posed a threat to me.”
She seethes at your words, offended you would think so little of her after all the time she’s spent trying to make your life a living hell by making fun of you and picking on you whenever she got the chance. She would flaunt your father’s kind attention towards her whereas he always acted indifferent towards you. There were times when she’d order her people to hurt you, times when she’d pretend you did her wrong in front of your father, just to prove and show off the fact that he cared more for someone’s daughter than his own.
Though you always knew the truth behind all of that.
Nari had always been insecure when it came to you. It was your beauty that made her pay attention to you in the first place, because before you walked into her life, she was the prettiest anyone had ever seen, yet the attention flew your way the second you walked by.
Her father and the people that served under her shifting their attention fueled her insecurities.
For a good while you had let her get under your skin because she was right, father always acted as if he cared for other people’s daughter than his own, than you, but the person you are now knows he’s still a psychopath who doesn’t actually care for anyone.
Father always did what he had to do in order to bring forth allies.
He never cared for Nari in the way she thinks he does.
“You’re wrong! I am a threat to you!!” She bellows in a loud screech, already throwing a tantrum upon such simple words. If you’d known these small ticks would get to her, you should have used it against her in the past.
Too bad your past self was too kind and naive though.
“Your father cared for me in the way he’d never care for you! And I’m pretty!” She lands a hard slap on your face before stepping forward to put her hands on your shoulders, shaking you hysterically, forgetting the fact that she hates getting blood on her body. “Look at you, buttercup, look at how you look right now. You’ve got blood running down your head, you’re chained up against your will, barely able to stand on your two feet. You think you look pretty right now?”
You laugh at her naive way of thinking. It’s a bad idea, Nari’s got a big head with a huge ego and anyone who threatens that — her beauty most of all — will be on the receiving end of her wrath, whether they mean to or not. 
“You really think a few hits in the face will cause those heads to turn away?” Still, you provoke her, wanting to have fun in the way you never could when you were younger; always the one who got the punch and never stood up for yourself.
What a pitiful little thing.
Nari’s right about one thing; Nobody is coming to save you.
Her head is quick to snap towards her men in the room, who aren’t fast enough to avert their attention from you. So in that split moment she caught them staring, it only adds fuel to the fire, and you laugh a little louder when she starts screaming.
“Careful, little celery, you almost look like you want to kill them yourself. But don’t you hate doing the dirty work?”
Min Nari.
Minari. The Korean word meaning water celery, a nickname she hates most of all, and along with the fact that she finally realizes she’s tainted her hands by touching you out of anger, she flinches when she catches sight of the blood on her palms. Her eyes bulge, disgust morphing her expression as if she was a germaphobe.
She’s not. She’s just dramatic.
The door clicks open before she can let out another shriek of ire, a voice walking in. “My little princess,” he calls, and Nari is quick to answer to the nickname that’s been bestowed to her.
“Papa! Y/N is—” Her breath hitches suddenly, shoulders flinching, and when you find the sight of her face morphed with something that looks like guilt, you realize perhaps her father didn’t know about this whole setup with you.
Though it’s not the only thing that surprises you today.
Min Yoongi, low and behold, comes walking in right behind the head of the Viper gang, along with a few more members of their force, without a scratch on his face.
So he isn’t an enemy of theirs?
Then just what is his relation to the snakes?
When he meets your eyes among Nari’s sudden silence and Junmyeon, her father, who looks as if he just walked into a scene his eyes weren’t meant to see, Yoongi’s eyes widen slightly at the state you’re in. Though he’s quick to mask that moment of weakness away before anyone else, aside from you, can notice.
He blinks, looks between you and Junmyeon, and you know you shouldn’t reveal anything about your relationship.
Not that you were going to.
“What are you doing?” Junmyeon, that old man, is quick to scold Nari though not without panic. “Quick! Release her!” He commands the nearby men and being that the head of their gang has given them the order, they know not to be in defiance no matter how much Nari begins to refute.
“Papa! You can’t do that!”
“Don’t you know who Y/N is now?” He rushes over to where you fall to the floor the instant the chains are loosened, but freezes when you hold a hand up, asking him not to touch you. He looks frantic, eyes scanning the area everywhere, and Nari doesn’t understand the reason behind his panic. “The Reapers are our allies! You can’t go around kidnapping and hurting just anyone, princess, especially not the new head.”
“Why does that matter?” She complains, her nose flared as she watches the way her father rushes to unlock the chains around your wrists himself. “Papa, you’ve always let me do everything I’ve wanted, why’re you stopping me now?”
She stomps over to where the two of you are, pushing her father aside and grabbing the chain that’s still on you, yanking it so that you’re forced to pull away from Junmyeon, the metal around your wrist digging further into your skin.
“Don’t you love me?!” She shouts, lower lip jutting out into a pout as she ignores her disgust for blood and all things dirty, sitting behind you and bringing her free arm around your neck, pulling you flushed against her chest. “Why do you always care so much about Y/N?”
What a child, still throwing tantrums when things aren’t going her way.
“Princess, I know you’re upset but please—”
His appeasement only makes her more upset. “I want her gone!”
“Get away from Y/N, please. She’s the Grim Reaper.”
“And?!” She tightens her hold around your neck. “She got that title handed down to her only because her father died! If her father hadn’t died, she’d still be living under his shadows. What makes you think she’s strong enough to go against others, much less me? She’d be nothing without her father’s men.”
What a foolish little girl.
You see the way Yoongi looks off to the side and the way dread and alarm contour Junmyeon’s face.
“Don’t you know why her father died?” Well, when speaking to the leaders of your father’s old allies, you did only exchanged words with the heads, not anyone else, so you guess you shouldn’t blame Nari too much for being left in the dark.
“He was murdered, why else?”
“By Y/N!”
By Y/N.
By you.
You feel Nari tense up in an instant, the grip she has on you frozen in place, and even though you can’t see it, you know her face must have quite the amusing expression plastered on now that the cat has finally gotten out of the bag.
“B-but…”
When her doubts kick in, ready to rebuttal her father’s words, Junmyeon continues speaking. “Bangtan saw her the day the former Reaper died, Yoongi can confirm it with his eyes.” Nari looks his way. “And a few weeks prior, Y/N met up with each leader of the Reapers’ allies and we, in turn, helped her plan her betrayal.”
What a day that was, seeing the expressions on the allies’ faces when you met up with them secretly without your father. They questioned what was going on, wondering why the Reaper’s daughter would ever seek out an audience with them without her father. You were always with your father when meetings were held after all, never alone, never away, and when you brought everything you had to the tables, threatening them with things beyond their abilities, they all eventually came to comply.
All you asked was for loyalty in return and loyalty in the mafia world is a code that must never be broken.
Not unless someone more powerful offers them something better than you can.
You forced them to break their loyalty to your father, you’re sure there may be others out there who can try and lead them astray from you, but at the moment, no one is more powerful than you.
The same goes for the Reapers.
You only decided to discard your father’s men rather than use them against him because you needed absolute loyalty. If they would be willing to betray your father for you, that meant they could betray you for someone else. And the Reapers in your hand are people you know would never betray you. You gave them the one thing no one in this world could, after all.
You saved them.
And they, in turn, gave you their life.
Your father’s allies all have the chance of stabbing you behind your back but that’s all the more reason you keep your Reapers beside you. With them, there are no loopholes, and no one will leave your eyes if one were to plot treason.
Though you never expected a certain spoiled brat would think to kidnap you, using a child to make you comply.
You admit that was smart on her part.
But now she’ll be facing the consequences of her action.
Junmyeon lowers his head before you, hands lying flat on the floor, bobbing his head up and down, forehead meeting the wooden tiles beneath him each time.
“I apologize, Y/N, please forgive me,” he begs.
“Papa, why’re you bowing to her?!” Nari still doesn’t understand.
“Nari!” So he calls her name for the first time, a rough, scolding tone in his voice as he levels her a glare. He’s never used her name before when addressing her. “Beg on your knees now or our gang will go down in history.” He returns to bowing again and again your way.
Smart man.
Yet Nari leaves your side to push her father from his repeated action, anger surging further for her father not listening to her and not being able to let things go the way she wants. “Stop it! Stop! Stop bowing to her! She’s nothing!”
“That’s where you’re wrong, Nari.” Her head snaps back your way, glare now leveled your way as you find her eyes red, stinging with unshed tears.
“Shut up!” She shouts at you, her emotions getting the best of her as she marches your way once more to land a loud slap that echoes into the room.
The room falls frozen though Nari breathes hard through her teeth, still in denial she’s in a position beneath you, still not wanting to accept it. She refuses to.
And while everyone else around her has turned solid cold, you only let out a hysterical laugh that makes Yoongi look at you with concern, Junmyeon and his men’s expression fall with terror, all the while Nari seethes even more, her face now more red than it’s ever been.
She turns away, stomping when she leaves the room, only to return seconds later with a certain child in custody, her hand wrapped around his neck while the other points the tip of the gun on his temple.
“Stop laughing or I’ll kill him! I will do it!” She threatens in a loud shriek before the corner of her lips curls into a smirk that shakes unsteadily.
She’s frightened of the power you still have hidden up your sleeves, but she still wants things to go her way.
“I know you care for children, buttercup, you wouldn’t let me hurt him now would you?”
Speak for yourself.
Sunoo stands there against his will, and when you meet his eyes, he’s calling out to you. What happened to you, my lady? Why are you hurt? Despite the fear instilled in his eyes (because what sort of child wouldn’t be frightened of a gun pointed to their head), he still watches you with panic and worry. His eyes show anger, and for a second he scans the room, wanting to know just who it is that has caused you to look the way you do, but he returns to you as quickly as they had left.
In a state where he should be more worried about his own life, he puts you first.
That’s what makes him so strikingly similar to the Reapers.
“Nari-”
“And you!” She points her gun at the man who had spoken up, brows furrowed so deep her wrinkles are showing — a sight you know she hates more than anything. “Papa, why have you brought him back here! I thought you only cared for me so why would you bring brother back? He ran away on his own, you should have let him stay that way!”
Brother?
Brother?
You quickly bring your attention to Yoongi, eyebrows raised, eyes widened, because of all the things you thought about Yoongi’s involvement with the Vipers, being Junmyeon’s son was never on the list.
Min Yoongi.
Min Nari.
Min Junmyeon.
Yoongi never told you he had a father who belonged to another gang, much less a sister. In all the times you spent with him, listening to his secrets and insecurities, he never mentioned any of this to you. And with the fact that he’s confirmed that Bangtan wouldn’t know to suspect the Vipers in his kidnapping, you’re sure he’s never told the boys either.
But why?
Now that you think about it, for all the years you’ve known the Viper gang, Junmyeon has never mentioned ever having a son, so…is Yoongi illegitimate or did he receive the same treatment you had?
Neglected and forsaken?
After all, for the longest time, no one knew your father had a daughter and that was all because he didn’t want anyone seeing just how incompetent his own daughter was. Only a few close allies knew of your existence, and after you grew strong, only then did he allow the world to know of you.
Though even then, you were still hidden from most of the world.
“I get it, I get it.” Junmyeon scrambles from the floors to where his daughter stands, hands out to try and appease his daughter. At the end of the day, he will always be a fool for his daughter. “I know you’re upset but hey, now that your brother’s back, you can play with him instead. I know you like having your way with Y/N but don’t you remember the times when you had fun with your brother?”
Fun.
Nari’s definition of fun is different from that of the average citizen, and when you look at Yoongi, he reacts with nothing but his eyes facing the floor, looking tired.
Yoongi. Min Yoongi, is not the type of person who likes torturing his prisoners. Not because he doesn’t like getting his hands dirty like Nari but because it disgusts him and he’d rather leave that to someone else. There are times he’ll stop the others from doing too much to the ones that’s done them wrong, times when he’ll leave the room and only return when the screams have died down.
Yoongi will never lay a hand on anyone unless someone has truly pissed him off, and it takes a lot to piss off Min Yoongi.
He doesn’t raise his voice, he doesn’t raise his hands even during times when it seems reasonable. He doesn’t get upset for himself but he’ll get upset for others, and even then it will take a lot on the other end to actually get him to do something.
You’ve seen Yoongi upset before, you know he’s capable of being the hard man Namjoon and the others are when they’re upset, but you’ve never seen him lose control to the point of wanting to punch someone until their death.
Min Yoongi doesn’t get angry.
And you think that perhaps he’s always been such a quiet man because the family he grew up with never cared to hear his voice.
Here is Junmyeon, his supposed father, trying his best to make his little princess happy, by using his own son as a way for her to take her anger out on.
In the end, every father in this world is messed up and the children are to pay for their actions.
Nari, messed in the head. Yoongi, letting them stomp on him.
“I don’t want Yoongi! I want Y/N!” Nari continues complaining like a child, stomping her feet and shaking the gun she has in her hand. “Papa, can’t you see? Ever since she walked into our life, my life has been a living hell!” What an exaggeration. If she really wants to see hell, you can show it to her. “She has the audacity to be prettier than me and laugh in my face! Papa, can’t you do something?”
“She’s the—”
“I don’t care!! Whatever Nari wants, Nari gets. Isn’t that what you’ve told me my whole life? So why are you stopping me from getting what I want now?”
“Because—”
“No one would know,” she says quickly. Quietly. “How would they know?” You raise a brow when she spares you a quick glance. “Her Reapers don't know of our relation, they wouldn’t know to suspect us. How many days have passed already, papa? Have you gotten any threats? And brother’s people don't know either because he’s good at keeping his mouth shut.” She looks between you and Yoongi, a smirk curling along her lips. This one is confident. This one is arrogant. “No one would know.”
“Princess…”
When Junmyeon continues arguing, she keeps going, trying to reel him in. “Papa, aren’t you ashamed to be worshiping the grounds of woman? I thought you were stronger than that, I thought you were more powerful. Now that I’ve gotten everything set up and no one knows to come for us, isn’t this the perfect opportunity to take back the power you had before the Reapers ever came into our life?”
What a cunning little girl, smarter than you expected.
She knows just what to say, knows what pushes her father’s buttons and what motivates him. It’s true that the Vipers have never been more powerful, much less on the same level, as the Reapers. Your father was a great emperor who ruled with strict guidance, leaving no room for discussion, and if he had to make his allies into his pawns and throw them out when they were no longer useful to him, he’d do it in a heartbeat.
The Vipers were just a gang he associated himself with to grow and they’ve been nothing but a pawn in his game of chess.
It’s true if they rid of you now, no one would suspect a thing and they would gain more power than they’ve ever had in their long line of reign. You’re powerful and strong and so is Yoongi, but with Nari using Sunoo against you, the two of you can’t think of escaping without the chances of Sunoo dying.
Junmyeon finally looks convinced when he glances your way, that impending smile on his face just waiting to come, and you lean your head back into the wall behind you, wanting to scoff at the situation.
Well. Looks like you can’t finish your revenge plan after all.
Only death awaits.
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cloudykaii · 1 year
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little scenarios
pairing: txt x 6th!member, platonic
warnings: nothing too bad i think, maybe some cursing and crying
this is like an extendeed version of my little things series! just instead of bullet points it's little scenarios. for comparable work, check out care, on my bts masterlist
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When you first joined the group there was a bit of controversy about it. Granted, you had joined them as the last member to be added, but you had still debuted with them. It was what attracted the most attention to your debut. Five tall guys and one short girl? You were also the youngest, so you were still a minor at debut. It took a while in order to get to the point where people seemed to be genuinely interested in your talent instead of how crazy or ridiculous it was for you to be in such a group.
         Unlike the general public, the guys never really seemed to care. When you were added, there was a few days of panic. Were you all going to share a dorm? Would you even be comfortable that? Then, when you moved in, that changed to the topic of how to not accidentally walk in on you and what to do.
         You had been nervous, too. You had worked as hard as you possibly could and then some in order to make this happen. You just got handed the opportunity of a lifetime and what if they didn’t recognize how hard you had worked in order to prove that you had the talent and the backbone to handle this opportunity?
         But then you actually started working together, and everything seemed to fall into place,
         Debut performances made anyone nervous, anything could go wrong, and what if you secretly weren’t as good as you thought? But you were nervous for a different reason about your debut. You didn’t mind being the only one given a skirt while the guys were in suits on some sort, and you didn’t mind the shoes they gave you to make you a little taller and to monopolize on the cute look you were supposed to have… but the skirt was really short, and the shoes only seemed to magnify that.
         During the little interview beforehand, you had been given a jacket to lay over your lap. You were grateful for that but now that you were going over the moves in front of the mirror before you had to actually perform, you couldn’t help but notice that while your outfit was cute, the last thing it was is functional. When you practically flashed yourself in the mirror you decided enough was enough and shyly moved to find Soobin.
         He was talking to someone that looked like a staff member for the show you were performing on, and you stood by him, anxiously clasping your hands together as you waited. You tried to hold out until he could give you his attention all by himself but knowing that time until the stage was closing in, you finally reached out and anxiously tugged on his sleeve. He looked down at you finally, eyes widening slightly as if he was surprised to see you there.  He must have seen the anxious look on your face because the first thing he asked was, “What’s going on?”
         “Uhm.” You began. “I could probably tough it out if it’s an issue, but is there any way I could borrow someone’s jacket or something?” Your little voice was practically a whisper and he had to lean down a little to hear it, but he got the message. He pulled away a little to look down at you and his jaw dropped when he realized just how much of you he could see. He moved to cover you a little, slipping his hand into yours.
         “Let’s go find your stylist.” His cheeks burned with a blush as he kept his eyes straight ahead, looking for the woman in question. When he found her going through her makeup supplies, he immediately started in. “Can we get a better skirt? Honestly, change the whole outfit if you have to, but she cannot perform in that.”
         She looked at him, confused. “But.. she looks fine, and she wore it for the interview, so if she’s the only one who changes outfits then it could spread rumors about her being a diva..”
         Soobin stared at her, face blank. “I don’t care. Respectfully, she is not only a minor, but she’ll flash the whole audience if she goes out there dancing in that.” He was trying to be as respectful as possible but he was just getting the vibe that she just didn’t want to go through the effort of changing the outfit, and you looked so scared behind him, he felt something surge in his chest. He was ushered out the door so you could change finally.
         When you came back out only minutes before the performance in a longer skirt and with a much more comfortable look on your face, he was satisfied. When you gave him that big, happy smile and went, “Thank you,” all shyly, he felt his chest swell with pride for helping you as a person and as your leader. “Any time,” he said softly. “Now, you ready to go blow the world away?”
Sure, not all of the moments shared were happy, especially in the beginning.
If there was one thing Taehyun liked doing, it was fucking with you- sometimes, at the expense of others. The entire dorm was woken up at seven in the morning to the sound of your screaming. It was alarming in itself, but when you were the only one with your own room, it became an emergency. However, when they went to open the door, and all they saw was you on top of Taehyun and hitting him with one of your textbooks while he laughed uncontrollably, they didn’t know what to do at first. Finally, Beomgyu moved to tug you off of the younger boy, taking away the book.
         “What is going on?” Soobin asked sleepily, but Taehyun was still cackling. “Oh, you should have seen it! She screamed so loud!”
         A sarcastic comment like “We heard,” was about to leave Yeonjun when you huffed. “Every day this week, Taehyun has found some way to mess with me. All I want to do is sleep in, so that I can wake up and focus on getting all of my assignments done so that I can practice more for the performance this weekend!” You looked exhausted, Yeonjun was the first to notice.
         You were pale, there were dark circles under your eyes and more than mad at anyone, you looked like you were about to cry. Taehyun stuck his tongue out at you, and you lunged at him again. Yeonjun had an inkling of what was going on, judging by the way things were strewn across your room. He knew you were under a lot of stress, but he didn’t really know how bad it was. Between classes and working on your Korean and performing and any other social aspect, you felt like you were drowning.
         Figuring you probably wouldn’t want to be seen crying, Yeonjun pulled you with him out of the room. “Hey, what’s going on, little shark?”
         You sniffled a little at the familiar nickname before mumbling. “I just wanted to sleep.” His heart broke when you broke down in tears, and he rubbed your back softly. He saw Taehyun’s sheepish face and moved to shut the bedroom door with his foot, shaking his head as if to say not now. “Have you not been sleeping?” he asked you softly, and you just sniffled. “No.. I’ve been trying to do as much homework as possible so I don’t have to do it whenever we have something big! And I’ve been trying to practice my Korean and my dances and I’m scared because what if I’m not any good at it and I’m so tired,” you cried and he just soothed you for a second. No one was judging you for being so upset. Hell, they had all felt like that since their career started, and worse than that, you were so young.
         You were giving up everything to chase your dreams, and that took a lot of guts- Yeonjun figured you had more than enough bravery to match the pressure you were under. He gently pushed you away from him to lay you down. “No, I need-“
“What you need to do,” he interrupted, “is get a few hours of real sleep. This is the quietest, and coldest room here, so just close your eyes for a bit.” Yeonjun brushed some of your curls out of your face. “You can rest now, it’s okay.” It was hard to remain noble against him and insist that you needed to work when he could see your eyes were already droopy. He just made sure that you were tucked in and asleep. And, to Taehyun’s credit, he did apologize. He hadn’t really understood the amount of pressure you were under; after all, you never really talked about it and you managed to make everything seem so easy.
But that was just how it was sometimes, sometimes you needed someone to realize you were drowning and reach out to help you, and that was exactly what they were there for.
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elli3luvs · 1 year
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falling in love at a coffee shop pt. 4 [ELLIE W]
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summary: when your favorite barista turns out to have a girlfriend (an ex? you weren't too sure) you got cold feet and ran
genre: fluff/angst
wc: 2.5k
a/n: lord.... im so sorry this took so long and tbh im not happy with it at all LMFAO im thinking either one or two more parts to this as well! so sorry i haven't been updating recently life has come at me hard! im hoping to get fewer hours at work so i can have some free time bc omfg!
part three
The phone buzzing against the desk was seriously starting to distract you. It had been going off incessantly since you left Ellie's house in a rush, and you just assumed it was her wanting to explain her side of the story. To be honest, you didn't really want to hear it. Your heart felt like it was torn into two earlier this morning. But you should've known, someone that attractive and funny and kind had to come with some sort of baggage. You just didn't expect it to be a whole girlfriend.
Your thumbnail was sitting in between your teeth as you slightly nibbled on it. Dina was laying across from you with worry etched into her features. She was usually amazing with words, never having trouble gossiping or giving advice, but when you came storming in with tears about to fall over your lash line, she couldn't quite find the words to console you. She awkwardly stammered until she realized all you wanted was moral support. 
The phone had only been silent for a minute before it started buzzing again. You groan, sitting up to finally grab the stupid device. The buttons on the side were squeezed under your fingers until you could swipe to fully cut off the phone.
Now it couldn't bother you anymore.
Dina sits up, staring at you with pity, "Would it hurt to just hear her out, maybe? Didn't you say you heard her say something about breaking up?"
You gnaw on your bottom lip, "I can't," Dina seems upset at your choice, "Seeing that girl, Cat I think, in front of Ellie was like a slap in the face. She could've been lying about breaking up, Dee. I just don't know." You sigh, crossing your arms to try and soothe yourself a bit.
Dina jumps off of the bed and makes her way to you, a grin spreading over her lips as if she just thought of the best idea. Knowing Dina, you had a feeling about what she was about to say. 
"Wanna get trashed?"
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The bar was packed even though it was a random Tuesday night. Sounds of college-aged people screaming the song playing filled your ears and chatting with their friends filled your ears. Dina had already shimmied to the bar, ordering a drink for you and for her, before making her way to the dance floor. She was gone with the wind now. You only hoped she would make it back to your dorm without you dragging her home. You decided to keep a low profile and hang by one of the back walls. It was better that way.
You didn't feel like dancing away your inner struggles. Realistically, you needed to talk to Ellie about this. But how could you just call her up when you ignored her for a whole day? A shiver went down your spine when you thought about the conversation that was going to have to take place.
A part of you was still mad at Ellie. You didn't want to have the conversation. But you were going to have to be mature about it one day. You couldn't just ignore her forever.
A voice cut your running thoughts off, "Aren't you?" You turn around to meet Jesse's eyes, "Hey, it is you! How ya' doing?" As kind as ever, he gives you a side hug while enthusiastically greeting you. 
"I'm good!" You shout over the music. He motions to the cup in your hand and you nod, "Some sort of tequila."
He grimaces, "Oh, lord. You tryin' to die or somethin'?"
You purse your lips, "Yeah. Something like that."
Jesse pats your shoulder while laughing off your statement, "How did things go with Ellie? Man, she was so excited about it." His hands shoot up to gesture, "That's all she could talk about last shift was how you were gonna go over to her place. She was like a kid in a candy store!"
Your heart shatters. It felt awful to ignore her like that and a part of you wondering if you were acting crazy. Ellie said she could explain, yet, you just left her. Then you turned your phone off as if you couldn't give her the time of day.
Your eyebrows pinch, "It was good... until..." The words die in your throat. Jesse was a good friend of Ellie's and you had come to get pretty acquainted with him but was he a good one to confide in?
His face falls into confusion, "Until?" You see a flash of concern before his face returns to the original confusion.
"Until," You bite the bullet. Now is as good of a time as ever to pour your heart out, "Until her ex or maybe girlfriend? Until whatever she was came over. I totally left Ellie after not giving her a moment to explain. I'm starting to feel like a little bit of a bitch about it..." A fake half-laugh comes out to deflect how truly awful you felt.
Jesse's eyes widen and he sets his drink down, fully turning toward you, "Woah, woah. Was her name Cat?"
You nod and Jesse rubs his hands over his face. The loud techno music silents his hushed curses before he grabs your wrist to drag you out of the bar. The drink in your hand flies out as your legs try to keep up with his wide stride. Your eyes scan the room until you see Dina — who is cheering you on? She looks at you with a thrilled expression before giving you a thumbs up.
Oh my God.
Words of protest spew out of your mouth, trying to get him to just slow down yet Jesse only walks faster. Once you make it to the parking garage he turns back to you. You just hope he ignores the way you are trying to catch your breath. 
Jesse starts to fidget with his hands as if he's thinking over what he's about to say. 
Your anxiety spikes when he finally asks you what he wanted.
"Is it okay if I take you to Ellie's?"
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The ride over to Ellie's house felt as if it took forever. The beating in your chest almost had you sick as you thought of all the possible things that could happen. What if Ellie completely rejected you after this? What if she looked at you with disgust and contempt when she opened her door? What if that Cat girl answers the door instead? You slide down farther into the passenger seat as the anxiety-ridden thoughts became too much.
You were beginning to recognize the area. It didn't make you feel any better — it just meant you were that much closer to having to be mature and talk through what happened. As much as you enjoyed hiding from those complicated feelings, you couldn't do that right now. 
Jesse taps his steering wheel while taking in a deep breath, "Look, I know you're nervous and all but... you really shouldn't be," You lift your head to look at him, "She's really into you. I think she will be over the moon that you decided to talk this out face to face."
You purse your lips, "Yeah, but what if she isn't? I left in a completely bitchy way."
Jesse shakes his head, "Trust me, I would've done the same thing if I woke up to Cat's shrill whining."
You were slightly taken aback, "What do you mean by that?"
"I think it's better if Ellie explains that to you."
The air from the vents blows on your face, warming it up. The city lights slowly started to disappear behind you.
"If I know anything about Ellie," His car goes into park. Your head whips to your right and there it was — her house, "She loves giving second chances. Now, go talk this through. I do not wanna deal with a mopey Ellie tomorrow." He jokes around. His words made you feel somewhat better but as you opened the car door and the cool air hits your face, the anxious feeling started to creep up again.
The steps took you a good 30 seconds to get up — stopping every so often to look back at Jesse's car to which he would lift his hands in a supportive motion. Like a father telling their son to, 'go get 'em, tiger!' except he wasn't your dad and you weren't ready to get 'em.
When the large oak door is finally in front of your face, you turn around one last time but Jesse's car was pulling off now. At least he waited until you were fully on the doorstep. It was now or never.
Never sounded pretty good.
Working up courage was never your strong front and god, you wished Dina was beside you to knock on the door but she wasn't. You were going to have to do this. Your hand makes contact with the door producing three heavy raps against the door.
She doesn't answer. She doesn't answer for a while. There isn't even a sign of life behind the door. All you hear is the cars honking faintly where you came from.
You begin to feel hopeless. Deciding to give her one final chance, you knock even louder this time. When you hear rustling on the other side of the door, your stomach lurched. 
"Coming..." Her voice sounded solemn. A grimace pulled at your features at the sound. You caused that.
The door swung open, it seemed like she didn't even look into the peephole, and she openly gawked at you for a couple seconds — a dusty pink rose underneath the smattering of freckles on her cheeks. Her socked foot tapped against the wooden floor as she leaned against the door. She finally snapped out of her catatonic state.
"Uh," She voices first, "What are you doing... here?" The words were strangled as they came out.
You take your bottom lip in between your teeth. There was no dancing around this, "Can we talk? About this morning?"
Ellie perks up a bit. There is a look of pain still lingering but she looks more eager to share what actually happened. You were eager to hear it. 
"Yeah," She opens the door further, waving you to come in, "Please come in. It's cold."
Stepping inside her house gave you a weird feeling. There was such a great memory inside of here but also one that left you with the worst bitter taste in your mouth. You wanted nothing more than to make more amazing memories in here but you needed to hear what exactly happened this morning.
Ellie guides you to the couch, the couch where you talked for hours, which looked as if she had lived on it for the past 10 hours. There were blankets stacked upon each other while water bottles were littered along the table in front of the couch. You saw the noise cancelling headphones strewn on the table and figured that's why she didn't answer.
You sit down on the edge, rubbing your hands on the front of your thighs. Ellie joins you except she is leaning back on the couch but you can tell with how she's wringing her hands, she's just as nervous.
"I guess the most burning question I have is," Ellie sits up at the sound of your voice. Like she was ready to give you any answer you needed, "Who was she? Why did she seem so hurt by me being here?"
Ellie clears her throat, hands tapping on her leg now as she searches for the right words, "That was Cat, my ex-girlfriend," It would be a lie to say you didn't feel some sort of relief at that, "She is having a hard time coming to terms with that, though. As you saw, she still frequently comes to my house even if I tell her not to." Ellie gives a pained laugh before flicking her eyes over to you to gauge your reaction.
You sigh at that, "How long has it been? Since you broke up?"
"Oh," Ellie scoffs, "A while. It's been around.... 7 months? 7 and a half? Long enough. Jesse calls her a pimple that just won't leave." It suddenly makes sense why Jesse wanted you to come talk to her. 
A tension lifts off of your shoulders at that. Ellie wasn't playing you for a fool. She just had a clingy ex. Your hand reaches out to grab hers, which she lets happen without any sort of resistance. Ellie even looks at you while a smile tugs at the corners of her lips.
Guilt settles deep within your chest now. You wanted to smile back but the dreadful emotion was eating at your chest. Ellie notices how your body went from relaxed to tense again. She twists back to you.
"Hey, you've gone rigid on me again," She jokes, her hand soothingly stroking your forearm, "What's wrong? Please, tell me or ask me anything. I'll say it all. I don't wanna keep secrets."
Your eyes flicker over to meet hers, tears brimming your waterline. Ellie shakes her head at the sight as if she's telling you not to cry. But the tears still sit in your lash line, threatening to spill over. Ellie's hand comes up to cup your face while the hand holding your hand squeezes tightly trying to reassure you.
You try to blink away the tears but instead one drips down causing Ellie to coo, "I feel like a bitch, Ellie. Didn't even give you the chance-"
Ellie cuts you off, "I wouldn't have given me a chance to explain either," Her voice wobbles a bit, "I don't blame you, who wants to get woken up by that? I just was scared I, fuck is it too early? Whatever, I was scared I lost you this morning."
You purse your lips at that while you shake your head. Ellie continues, "I know we haven't known each other for a while but I want to continue to see you. I think... I think I really like you." Her face flushes a bright red as she says that. Her palm precipitates a light sheen of sweat while she waits for your response. You can see her mentally preparing for the rejection.
You decided not to keep her waiting. She had done enough waiting today, "I want to continue to see you too."
The beaming expression she gives you clears any guilty emotions you had lingering. Now you just needed to show Ellie how much you liked her.
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meganwritesfanfics · 10 months
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No Son of Mine
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Jamie Tartt x Reader
What was supposed to be a nice trip to visit his mother, turned into Jamie running into someone he had hoped to avoid.
Check out Part 1, Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5
Trigger Warning: Emotional Abuse, Parental Abuse, Negative Self Image
She felt huge as she stood in front of the mirror in the guest room of Jamie’s mother's place. They had come down for an off weekend and Jamie wanted to walk around town and give her a tour of the city. When Jamie had first suggested it she had been so excited, a romantic moonlight walk was just what she was craving, Jamie hadn’t been absent by any means, but with his regular training and on top of his training with Roy, he was exhausted. And she was also exhausted, so when they hung out together, either one or the other would fall asleep. But now standing in front of the mirror at almost 7 months pregnant, she felt extremely insecure. 
She had made her way through all of the outfits she had brought for the weekend and she couldn’t find anything that made her feel good about herself. 
“Baby what’s wrong? I thought you said you were getting dressed?” Jamie asked when he walked in and found her standing in front of the mirror in just her underwear. 
“Yeah I was until I realized that everything makes me look terrible.” 
“I mean I love this outfit you got on right now.” He smiled seductively as he sauntered his way up behind her. 
  “Stop it.” She snapped smacking his hand away before he had a chance to lay it on her stomach. 
“Woah!” He threw his hands up in defense. “What is going on?” 
“I just don’t understand how you can be attracted to me when I look like this.” Y/N said her voice filled with emotion as she sat down on the bed. 
Jamie opened his mouth but he couldn’t think of anything to say. Slowly he just sat down on the bed next to her. 
“Babe, you know that you look beautiful.” Jamie said as he reached out to grab her hand. 
“No I’m not.” She cried. 
“Y/N. babe, you are the sexiest girl I have ever seen.” 
“Even though I look like a whale?”
Jamie couldn’t help but let out a giggle. “You do not look like a whale.”  
“Well I sure as shit feel one,” She sighed and she could feel tears form. 
“Look at me.” He said seriously as he gently placed his hand on her cheek. “Baby, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. And the fact that you have a fucking baby growing inside of you, just proves you are the most badass. What can I do to convince you that you are stunning.” 
Y/N sighed as she leaned into his embrace. “This,” 
They stayed like this for a moment before Jamie kissed the side of her head. “Did you want to stay in for the rest of the night?” 
“No!” She gasped. “I want to go out, I want you to give me a tour, I just need to find something to wear.” 
“Did you want to wear my hoodie?” 
Y/N beamed, she loved wearing Jamie’s hoodie, it felt like Jamie was constantly holding her. She kissed him hard before she lifted herself off the bed and grabbed his hoodie throwing it on. The minute it was on, her mood instantly was better. She then matched it with a pair of her favorite maternity jeans. 
She took a moment to look at herself in the mirror, and as she did the baby gave a good strong kick. 
“See, stunnin’” Jamie smiled as he wrapped his arms around her. Gently he placed his hands on the bottom of her belly and lifted up ever so slightly, a trick that he found helped take the strain off of Y/N’s back. 
Y/N let out an audible moan as she leaned her head back into the crook of Jamie’s neck. “God I love you so much.” 
“Alright now let me go show off me beautiful girl to me hometown.” He smiled as he grabbed her hand and took off to explore the city 
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It had been a wonderful day. Jamie took her everywhere, museums, libraries, even a few churches. They ate amazing food and of course had to stop by some football stadiums. At the end of the day, they strolled along the waters edge walking hand in hand, and Jamie at that moment had never felt happier. He knew that now was the right time and although he didn’t have a ring, he realized that all he wanted to do was ask Y/N to marry him. 
“Y/N,” He started as he stopped walking his hand still in hers. 
“What’s wrong?” She asked. 
“I love you so much.” Jamie smiled. 
“And I love you too, what is going on?” 
“You have made me rethink how I feel about everything and I…” He started and he was just about to get down on one knee when he heard someone call from behind him. 
“Oi, big time.” The voice called and Jamie immediately felt his blood run cold. “Are you really going to come home and not see your old man.” 
“Let’s go.” Jamie whispered under his breath as he gripped Y/N hand tightly and started to walk away. 
“Look at me when I’m talking to you.” The voice growled, and Jamie felt a hand roughly grab his shoulder and turn him. And there behind him was the man he had not seen in almost a year, and a man he frankly would be happy with never seeing again. His father. 
“Don’t touch me.” He snapped and he instinctively moved Y/N behind him. 
“Ooo he thinks a big man now does he. Out here in my city with his bitch of a…” James Sr’s eyes suddenly drifted down noticing Y/N’s extended stomach. He let out a loud laugh and took a step towards Jamie. Jamie in response took a step back, hand still gripping Y/N’s. “God and just when I thought you couldn’t be more of a fuck up, you go and knock someone up.” 
Jamie couldn’t even speak, he just stood there frozen. Frozen in fear, and rage, and disgust, and shame. It felt like he was a child again. 
“You know children are a waste, a waste of your time and a waste of potential. I mean look at you, I have tried so hard to get you to be successful, and you have cocked it up every step of the way. And now, a fucking baby ha. You can kiss that career of yours goodbye.” 
“Don’t you fucking dare!” Y/N snapped as she let go of Jamie’s hand and pushed past him getting up in James Sr’s face. “You don’t get to all of a sudden pop up and start berating Jamie like you actually give a damn. You are a worthless piece of shit who should be thanking his lucky stars that he has a son as wonderful and as talented as Jamie. He is an amazing person and he is going to be a wonderful father, and our son will never know who you are.” She screamed as she slapped him across the face. 
“You bitch!” He screamed as he shoved her back hard into Jamie. Instantly Jamie saw red and he ran up to his father. 
“Don’t you ever lay your hands on her again!” He snapped. “I want you gone, now, before I beat the living shit out of you.” He fumed. 
James Sr laughed again, the smell of alcohol strong on his breath. 
“Such a disappointment.” He sighed as he staggered off. 
Jamie stayed like that for a moment, his breath shaky and his heart was beating at a rapid pace. 
“Jamie,” He heard Y/N whimper and his attention quickly turn to her. She was standing behind him her hand gripped her belly tightly and a look of pain was on her face. He ran to her. 
“What is it whats wrong?” He asked panicked. 
“I don’t know, something is wrong I just…” She let out another gasp of pain as her knees buckled. 
“Woah,” Jamie cried as he caught her before she hit the ground. “Hold on, I'm uh… I’m going to call my mum.” He said as he shifted them both onto the ground holding Y/N in his arms.
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fnv companions react to a courier who may or may not have sold their soul for stunning looks. you could dunk them in radioactive sewage and come out still looking amazing.
Sorry for taking so long... I hope you like it 💖
Arcade
"Have you ever had a bad hair day? No? Didn't think so."
He'd definitely notice their beauty, but it really wouldn't play any part in the way he treated them (unless they were confirmed Batchelor in which case he'd be slightly more awkward) though after a particularly gruesome fight with loads of blood shed and dirt caked everywhere he'd notice how even after all that they still looked like a God. He'd assume it was a genetic thing, but secretly be a bit jealous of how their hair stayed in place under any circumstances.
Benny
"Goddamn pussycat, I'm not used to being outdone, but you are quite the looker you know that?"
He would flirt so hard with them that it was pathetic. Sure, he shot them in the head and all, but it was dark then! If he had seen their eyes...well shit... Anyway, he thinks they're swell.
Boone
"You- I- uh....nevermind"
It took him a while to notice, actually. Boone had trouble looking people in the face because sometimes he sees the faces of people he's seen through his scope. Well, one day, as they were wiping sweat from their brow after a particularly close call, he looked and became a little flustered because he'd never seen someone look that good... especially not after a fight. the words just sort of stumbled out of his mouth, which only made him more flustered, and the left the courier confused
Cass
"Face like yours must get a lotta free drinks, huh hotshot?"
They were easily the most beautiful person she'd ever seen, so of course she'd casually flirt, but if the courier didn't really seem interested, she'd just kinda leave it alone, but hey can't blame her for trying!
Raul
"Carefully Hermosa/Hermoso might break a nail, god forbid."
He'd assume they were really into their looks, but once he realized they didn't even try, he'd find it hilarious actually and tease them even more.
Veronica
"Ya know I'd be nice if you'd share some of your inhuman beauty with others... starting with this one brotherhood scribe... you might know her, actually. "
I mean, for Christ's sake, they'd been shot in the head, buried alive, and walked across the entire Mojave just to get revenge, and they still looked gorgeous doing it! it just wasn't fair. She had to put time and effort into her appearance to look even half as good as six.
Vulpes
"Your appearance may charm the profligates, but you'll quickly find ceaser and his men aren't as simple minded"
He says while admiring their beauty. He'd hate himself for it because their looks should be the last of his worries.. a soldier needed to be strong, clever, and quick in battle. Their attractiveness played no part in their success, and yet he couldn't help but feel like they were sculpted by Venus herself... and he resentes them like crazy for reducing his thoughts to something as trivial as obsessing over anothers beauty
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charmercharm3r · 1 year
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Stray Kids as Ouran High School Host Club
OT8
Masterlist
wc: 2.4k
warnings: none
I hate that I love this show, no one look at me :o
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CHAN AS KASANODA RITSU
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Now, it was hard to choose another character to use since there’s only 7 main characters and 8 of skz, but the appearance Ritsu had in ep. 22 and 23 did a real number on me. Ritsu is the next leader in line for one of the most powerful yakuza clans, so he was raised to be independent from a young age. Sometimes he just wants to act his age, kinda like Channie he's five. They’re both just always wanting to be a better version of themselves, which is why Ritsu wanted to join the host club in the first place. He takes in “strays” and shelters them within his clan, which if that doesn’t convince you that Chan and Ritsu are one in the same idk what will. There was also the bit where Ritsu meets Haruhi for the first time and develops a little crush on her while he still assumes she’s a boy, then later walks in on her changing on accident and is still attracted to her. I remember Chan mentioning something about feeling like he was intimidating to approach, same as Ritsu who people assume to be scary but really they’re just big softies. They both just want some love! When everyone finds out how sweet they are, it’s hard not to fall for them. Ritsu doesn’t end up staying in the host club to lead his clan, but Chan would make a great host considering how flirty he is. I can imagine it going something like this…
Having some tea, “you like my dimples? Feel!” He takes your hand and leads it to his cheek, except he doesn’t let go even after you poke him. Instead, he guides you to cup his cheek and lean into it, smiling sweeter without looking away from your eyes. “Your touch is so gentle, isn’t this nice?” The skinship is what makes you keep coming back and requesting Chan every time.
MINHO AS MORINOZUKA TAKASHI
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Okay, I was really struggling to choose who suited Minho the best (Kyoya was a strong competitor). But Mori just made so much sense the more I thought about it. They’re both seen as the silent types, brooding and mysterious– which is all true. Though, they’re both the kind of people you have to get to know slowly and sort of sneakily, if they find out you’re trying to truly understand them, they’ll run away! But not because they’re unsure, more like they’re afraid of voicing their real emotions out of fear you won’t want to stay after they reveal more of themselves. They’re both observant and let people come to them. Mori and Minho are wildcards when you finally peel away all their protective layers, one day they’ll barely speak two words and the next they won’t leave you alone. Mori is also extremely protective of those he loves, take Honey for example. Minho is the same, loving quietly but when you realize that’s what his small acts of service are, it’s like he’s carrying a permanent banner above his head written in bold letters saying, “I care about you! (maybe too much…)” You’ll never doubt their feelings.
“Oh, you have something right–” he reaches across the table and thumbs across your lips, wiping away some stray frosting, “here.” You watch with your mouth slightly dropped as he brings the same thumb to his mouth and licks the frosting away. You’re a blushing mess while it seems Minho hadn’t given it a second thought. Except, he was jumping up and down on the inside, afterall, he isn’t touchy with everyone and you happen to be his favorite customer. Something about how you bring treats for his cats ever since he briefly mentioned them a while back.
CHANGBIN AS HITACHIIN KAORU
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As we all know, Changbin is nothing short of a gentleman. But he is also very playful and loud. When it’s needed, Changbin can be super serious or not have a single care in the world. Kaoru is the younger of the Hitachiin twins but is clearly the more mature one (i.e. the Hikaru-crushing-on-Haruhi arch). When the Hitachiin twins are together, they’re absolute menaces that can only be calmed either by Haruhi or someone even more annoying Tamaki. Changbin has voiced that he has very big feelings, but proves that he can control them. He isn’t afraid of those feelings and utilizes them in his creative process. Much like Kaoru, Changbin doesn’t let his emotions blind him side eyeing hikaru x haruhi again. Even though both twins have romantic feelings for Haruhi, Kaoru doesn’t act on them much out of love and respect for his brother. Changbin as Kaoru just makes so much sense to me, even though I really did consider putting Mori just for the sake of muscles and Mori’s 6’4 ass. Changbin doesn’t seem to need very many friends, but the ones he does have he knows are some incredibly good ones. He sees the good in people and will do anything for them if they can see the good in him as well.
On a walk with him and you come across a large mud puddle, “oh, let me carry you! Can’t have your pretty shoes getting dirty.” He lifts you easily and steps around the puddle as carefully as he could. Changbin doesn’t stop walking, escorting you all the way back with you in his arms. “You’re so cute, I wouldn’t mind holding you like this whenever you wanted. I mean, as long as you wouldn’t mind having lunch with me when we’re done.”
HYUNJIN AS SUOH TAMAKI
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They’re both princes, what can I say? I have no self restraint. Tamaki is dramatic in every sense of the word and lies more on the irrationally emotional side, especially with Haruhi. Though, that is because Tamaki is also another one with big, big feelings and he has trouble managing them sometimes. Sort of the same with Hyunjin, they’ve both found outlets for their big emotions. Hyunjin has his art and dance, to which he pours his soul into. When required of them, both Tamaki and Hyunjin leave no room for error. The happiness of others is what both of them thrive off of. They try to stay optimistic and see the beauty in everyone, which is only a small portion of what makes them attract attention like moths to a flame. Both of them can lean a bit on the obsessive when it comes to the things they want to excel at or when they want someone’s attention. Tamaki has a few hidden talents, such as playing the piano. With Hyunjin, it’s his art. It stuns everyone upon finding out they’re much deeper than just a pretty face, only making you love them even more. Tamaki’s attachment to Haruhi stems from the fact that she didn’t just see his looks or money, but rather he himself. Tamaki can be painfully oblivious at times and needs it to be right in front of his face in order to understand, but that’s okay because like Hyunjin, once he gets it, he really gets it. 
Hyunjin has his art supplies the next time you’re scheduled to meet. “I want to draw you, if that’s okay. I’ve wanted to for a while, actually.” You don’t mind the silence as he concentrates on his sketchbook, looking up at you every few moments with a particularly tightly wound-up expression that indicates how hard he’s focusing. He doesn’t take long, not wanting you to get bored. But when you tell him you don’t mind, Hyunjin lets the biggest smile spread across his lips. “How did you know quality time is one of my love languages?” The following meeting, he gifts you the drawing which is now painted with a beautiful assortment of water colors.
JISUNG AS HITACHIIN HIKARU
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Jisung feels things very, very deeply– which isn’t a secret, just look at this man’s extensive discography. Like Hikaru, they’re playful and like to have a good time, always wanting to make people smile. But also, Hikaru has immense trouble voicing his feelings in a way that makes sense, usually coming out as a burst of pent up anger because he can’t articulate it the way he wants. Hikaru and Kaoru are usually up to no good, which is why Jisung and Changbin as the twins makes perfect sense– the Hitachiin twins aren’t pockets of sunshine together like Jisung and Felix, but rather raging balls of chaos that leaves not a lot, but just enough damage to make you weary and side eye them from across the room. Jisung is also very loyal, though introverted. Hikaru is the same way, unless approached first, you won’t catch him looking your way. Hikaru is deeply bonded to all the other hosts in different ways, like Jisung is to his members. They’re both silly and smiley and love a good laugh, but they need that extra reassurance that what they feel is valid, no matter how big or small.
“You loop it, then make some bunny ears–” “I know how to tie my shoes, Jisung,” you giggle, patting his hair as he looks up from his kneeling position in front of you. “If you knew, I wouldn’t be down here doing it for you, would I?” He laughs back, resuming his mission of teaching you to lace up your shoes. When he finishes, Jisung stands tall before you and pets the top of your head the same way you did to him. You thank him and he smiles big and bright, “can’t have you falling for anyone but me, right?”
FELIX AS MITSUKUNI "HONEY" HANINOZUKA
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Everyone knew this was coming, c’mon now. They’re both cute, love sweets, and both martial artists. If I didn’t know better, I’d say the creator based Honey off of Felix because they’re one in the same. Honey’s personality is big, there’s a lot of sides to him you wouldn’t see because he doesn’t like anyone viewing him as anything but happy, much like Felix, they don't want anyone to worry about them. Despite their child-like natures, Felix and Honey are very observative and can read people rather well. They hate seeing their friends upset and go to great lengths to cheer them up, even if only a little. Do I dare mention their attachment to plushies? Usa-chan and Dwaekki would be besties, not to mention they’re both pink bunnies. Honey is someone who just seems like he needs to be protected, queue Mori. Felix is always being babied by the members, even if he doesn’t do the same back to them. Honey explains that Tamaki and the host club is the reason he’s able to be himself, much like Felix and his members. Their endless support encourages Felix to be nothing but himself, everyone is head over heels for him and can’t do anything but take care of him.
“We should have some cake! This one tastes really good with the tea,” Felix all but shoves his own cup of tea towards you and finds the best looking slice. He only grabs one fork, insisting on feeding you. As you chew, his eyes are staring at you widely, awaiting your reaction. You tell him it’s delicious and that he’s right, the tea and cake are a great combination. Felix gently rubs the underside of your chin like a cat and feeds you another piece, “I knew you’d like it. It’s sweet, like you!”
SEUNGMIN AS OOTORI KYOYA
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Do I even need to explain this one? Kyoya is the cold, detached type of host but everyone knows it’s just a front in order to avoid emotional confrontation. Seungmin is blunt and straightforward, but like Kyoya, it’s charming. Never rude, but rather classy in the way they approach topics. Kyoya is logical, never forgetting to remind the hosts of their duties while also accomplishing his own. Seungmin is like Kyoya in the sense that their first priority is honing their abilities and applying them wherever needed. Kyoya is also the single holder of the brain cell in his and Tamaki’s friendship, Tamaki idolizes him for him ability to stay cool in the most stressful of situations. Much like Seungmin’s relationship with Hyunjin, Seungmin just breathes and Hyunjin is on the floor laughing (who can blame him, mans is a comedian).
You asked Seungmin to help you with your math homework, which was a mistake. It had only been forty five minutes and you were already regretting letting homework take up your time with him. He’d been doing his best to help you, but you just weren’t getting it. “C’mon, I know you know this. You’ve got such a big brain in that pretty head of yours, you just gotta use it.” Backhanded, but nevertheless a rare compliment that made you blush and put the homework aside all together.
JEONGIN AS FUJIOKA HARUHI
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Okay listen, lisTEN, LISTEN! Jeongin is just the main character, alright? The world does in fact revolve around him. To the host club, Haruhi is their favorite girl, even if she doesn’t act like the ones they’re used to. But that only makes them love her even more. Jeongin doesn’t necessarily care about others opinions, he just needs to exist and all the members fawn over him. Leave it to Jeongin to do the bare minimum and have every single one of them giggling and kicking their feet. With Haruhi, she has the mannerisms of a warmer Kyoya. As a host, she isn’t cold but she isn’t overbearing. Jeongin is the same, he gives just enough to make you want more. He understands both the male and female gaze, making Jeongin just that more attractive. He’s the youngest, but has the mindset that could easily be mistaken as older because he has such high expectations for himself. Jeongin and Haruhi both expect greatness from themselves, Haruhi in her studies and Jeongin with his singing. Depending on who they’re interacting with, Jeongin and Haruhi’s personalities may shift a little. When he’s with Seungmin, Jisung, or Felix, Jeongin has someone to tease and bicker with since they’re closer in age. The older members minus Chan sometimes tend to let him act younger and enjoy the small bit of babying. Jeongin is the epitome of main character.
Spending time outdoors during the spring was a necessity, asking Jeongin to accompany you for a stroll through the gardens. Walking shoulder to shoulder, he loved talking about the latest fashion trends from all over the world. “Windbreakers will be making a comeback, I’m telling you!” The breeze picked up and made you shiver. “Told you you would get cold. Here,” Jeongin began taking off his cardigan, “keep it for the weekend. Maybe when you give it back, it’ll smell like you when I get to wear it again.”
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A/N: let’s all ignore how terrible this show actually is and just look at it extreeeemely surface level🫣
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thefandom-casserole · 7 months
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Dndads Teen Headcanons
(It got kinda outta hand, and these aren’t even the angst ones…)
Hermie curls their hair and Taylor straightens his (but because of the adventures neither of them have been able to do it so they’re slowly reverting back to their original state)
Hermie uses they/them pronouns when not in a roll and Dood uses they/it
Normal and Hero have watched Adult Swim shows from a really young age (Lark, Sparrow, and Rebecca either didn’t care enough to turn off Cartoon Network, or just didn’t realize)
Linc and Hermie were PBS kids
Taylor is always playing games on his Chromebook at school (coolmathgames rules)
Taylor has a ton of pins on his jacket and hat
Scary has a TON of birthmarks, freckles, moles all over her body. It’s gorgeous
Dood‘s Teen body rotates between four outfits that all seem too large and slightly too old for it… (it’s Hildy, Robert, Meryl, and Stud’s outfits) (even if It never technically met Meryl)
FUNFACT: none of the Teens have a nuclear family
Hero’s first language is Spanish (Lark and Sparrow decided that forcing her to go through an almost entirely English-speaking school without knowing English would help “toughen her up”)
All of the Oak’s are fluent in Spanish and English
Scary is afraid of going under tunnels (when she was Terri she’d close her eyes and squeeze someone’s hand)
Linc types like an old man but can game really really well
Hermie does cosplays and posts them on the future equivalent to TikTok
Everytime they go to a mall of something Normal tries reallllly hard to convince them to all squeeze into a Photo Booth (it has not happened yet)
Hermie loves Starkid
Taylor really likes FNAF
Scary’s favorite season is winter
Linc’s favorite is spring (even though soccer season is autumn)
Normal likes all of the seasons (he takes after his grandpa!!)
Dood loves everything (all the seasons), though they absolutely despise the mosquitos and gnats…
Taylor’s favorite season is probably summer
Scary was diagnosed with ADHD at a very young age (not autism though), but when she started being Scary she tried to stop taking her medication (she started taking it again)
Taylor used to LOVE dinosaurs. He had every Jurassic Park movie, the book, everything. He still has the anime and the original downloaded for bad days
Scary is tall without shoes (only shorter than Linc and about the same as Hermie) but she wears platforms to make herself taller (queen <3)
Hermie has a younger brother and a younger sister (like, 6 years old) who were not born by Scam and Jodie, and Hermie has no idea where they’re from
Hermie’s two favorite people are their siblings (they would do anything for them)
All the Teens but Dood and Linc had Amino at some point </3 (but for completely different fandoms/communities)
The only class Normal has consistently had an A/100 in has been GYM
Normal, Scary, and Linc are very very athletic
Hermie is more athletic than people would think they are (you run a LOT in theater, and singing takes a ton of energy)
Normal constantly plays the Zip Game throughout their travels (everytime you see a horse you yell ‘zip’ and keep track of how many horses you’ve called, everytime you see a cemetery you yell ‘cemetery’ and everyone else loses their horses)
Normal and Hermie know a ton of car games (though Hermie wouldn’t admit it) because of looong car rides with their sibling/s
Hermie works at a Haunted Attraction during Autumn
Hermie is freakishly worried about their siblings after coming home and not finding their parents (has not mentioned it to anyone though…)
Scary uses her notes app for everything (song lyrics, poems, reminders, etc.)
Dood is the shortest out of them all, then Taylor
Taylor has a ton of stickers on his cane (anime, survival, etc.)
They’re all autistic and queer <3
Scary has a vent notebook and a lyric notebook
Linc doesn’t really get cold, which is why he always wears shorts and tanktops
Scary only eats the Oreos with the orange filling
Taylor either sleeps with a TON of blankets or with only a sheet. No in between
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onomatopoetic101999 · 7 months
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Chapter Two: Incorrigible
Chapter Three: Iconoclast
Ignis Fatuus Masterlist
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Incorrigible: beyond correction, reform, or alteration
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After debating back and forth on which restaurant to visit, you eventually decide on "The Landscape," which touted "The best view in the galaxy!". You both chuckle at the name, but when the hostess brings you to a table against the window, you can't deny that the sky's watercolor of oranges and reds takes your breath away.
Sam pulls your seat out for you. He also presses a kiss to your cheek as he pushes you in, and you let out a breathy laugh. He grabs your hand across the table the second he sits down, and rests his chin on the other, blue eyes roaming your face.
The feel of his thumb rubbing along the back of your hand steals your breath, and you find it hard to meet his gaze. It was so strange; when he was teasing you and laughing with you the way he always did, touching Sam, much less looking at him, wasn't even close to a problem. Why was being around him suddenly difficult when he was being affectionate?
After the waiter comes by and takes your drink orders, he tugs on your hand playfully. You glance up to meet his eyes. He's just really pretty, you suppose. That's probably why. You've never been flirted with, much less 'married' to, someone this attractive before.
He smiles at you, and you let yourself blush. You're only human! It isn't your fault he's hot. He does need to stop staring before you burst into flame, though. You squeeze his hand before reaching across the table to turn his face gently towards the window.
"Stop looking at me like that, Sammy! It's making me self-conscious."
You're not sure where the nickname comes from, and you feel him tense ever so slightly when he hears it, but he recovers quickly. He covers your hand with his and turns his head, pressing a kiss to your palm.
"I can't help it, Baby. You're just too beautiful."
'Baby'? 'Beautiful'?? You thought you had figured out what was going on in your head, but feeling the full force of Sam Coe's flirting makes a kaleidoscope of butterflies erupt in your stomach. He thinks you're beautiful? Why does that matter to you? You try to keep how much the name and compliment affect you from showing, but you have a feeling Sam can tell when his eyes narrow ever so slightly, lips tilting up in a smirk.
Your eyebrows furrow, and you tilt your head, trying to figure out what his game is. He shifts his hold on your hand, moving it so he can press a gentle kiss to the back of it as well. When he starts to press steady kisses up your arm, your eyes widen, and you pull your hand back as if you'd been burned.
Sam huffs out a laugh, and it clicks. Ah. He's making fun of you again. You're a little disheartened; had he actually meant what he said then?
When your face falls, Sam's does too. He reaches out, but before he can take your hand again, he's interrupted.
"Oh aren't you two the sweetest! How did y'all meet?"
You whip your hand into your lap and out of Sam's reach just before he can grab it, and you feel your face burn as you turn to the kind looking elderly woman who asked the question. How much did she see? Why did her interrupting Sam's silly game bother you?
Sam remains unfazed, but it takes a second for his eyes to move from your face to address the woman.
"We met at work. I was taken with her the second she walked through the door."
While the woman 'aww's, you glance at Sam, surprised how smoothly he had just come up with an alibi. He must have figured out everything he was going to say beforehand, you decide. You hadn't realized how good of a liar he was.
The woman turns to you, patting a kind hand on your shoulder.
"He's a keeper, Sweet Pea. You can tell he's head over heels for you from a mile away."
You let out a small nervous laugh, though you have a feeling the woman thinks it's because you're flustered, not because the idea of Sam being in love with you is amusing.
Your suspicions are confirmed when she shifts her hand to cup your cheek instead. "Aren't you just the cutest?" she looks at Sam now and remarks, "She really is adorable, isn't she? You just want to eat her right up!"
You've managed to stay relatively unbothered by the whole conversation, but when Sam rests his chin back on his palm and responds with a husky, "oh, I plan to," any chance of staying ambivalent goes right out the window.
A blush fills your face immediately, and the woman erupts into giggles when she feels the heat against her palm.
She takes a step back and grabs the hand of the older man smiling indulgently behind her.
"Oh, I just adore young love. Never lose that spark, you too!"
She leads the man away, and the second they're out of ear shot, you lean forward to flusteredly whisper, "'Oh, I plan to?'" at Sam.
He just shrugs.
"What? We're married, aren't we?"
You shake your head at him and pick up the menu, trying and failing to keep a smile off your lips. Even if it is just meaningless teasing, you can't deny how nice it feels to be so obviously admired, much less by someone as amazing as Sam.
"Do you know what you plan on ordering, Honey?"
Sam recognizes the change in subject as the white flag of surrender that it is, but he doesn't let you off the hook that easily.
"Only if you're on the menu, Darlin'."
He doesn't move fast enough to dodge when you lightly smack the menu on his head in response.
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Chapter Three: Iconoclast
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shortfeather · 3 months
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the way the water echoes
did a little sprint based on that neverend mod idea, centered on cleo courtesy of @tripping-sideways. posting this mostly unedited; i think tumblr-only writing is gonna be more casual for me than AO3.
warnings: isolation, sort of imprisonment, liminal spaces, drowning, minecraft death mechanics including deliberately forcing a respawn
It doesn’t really hit her until she’s staring at the pit that leads to a second level, communicator hanging silent at her waist, how much trouble she’s in.
Cleo had been searching for an End portal a little closer to their base. Even with the Nether shrinking the distance eightfold, the main portal was ridiculously far from their home, and considering the amount of endstone she was going to be using this season it made sense to find one nearby. The stronghold had been half flooded, and they’d come close to death against the Drowned in the halls before finally making it to the portal room.
The lava was warm against their undead skin, even as the portal frame exuded a voidlike chill. To their delight, the frame had been mostly filled, just two eyes short. Cleo had popped them in, set a bed down for spawn, double-checked their gear, and hopped on through. Had bent their knees slightly, the way every new player is taught, so the jolt of the hard obsidian landing doesn’t do any damage.
Instead, she’d fallen far and landed in a deep pool of water, surrounded by white walls and with a beautiful blue sky shining down from above her. The exact opposite of what they expected.
Really, this whole dimension is about as different from the End as it gets. The End is all disconnected islands, here is a never-ending series of halls and rooms. The End is dark and cold, here is bright and pleasantly warm, enough for the cool water that covers the floor to feel like a comfort. The End is dead, and here there are bushes of something her inventory calls liminalgae, and occasionally, groups creatures similar to axolotls called poolfish. She can even pick them up, attracting them with the liminalgae like a cow to wheat. They're rather cute. The End is mostly void, here there is a beautiful flat ocean beyond the walls that an invisible barrier prevents her from reaching.
The End is a place Cleo knows how to leave, and here she does not.
She’s tried. The first thing she did upon scrambling out of the water was message X, only for her communicator to show a chat validation error. Their messages can’t go through, though waiting about ten minutes shows that they can still see the messages everyone else is sending. That’s comforting, to a degree; if they wait long enough, someone will realize something is wrong, and Xisuma can do his admin-y things and get them out of here. She’d told Joe what she was doing right before she found this dimension; maybe he’ll look into it even before someone thinks to call X in.
While she’d waited for other messages to come in, she’d taken a look around the room. Everything was made out of some variant of an unfamiliar block, similar in look to an iron block, but with a grid pattern and a feel like glazed terracotta. The entrance was decorated beautifully with bushes of the liminalgae stuff, which broke easily beneath her fist and stacked nicely in her inventory.
Which was also how she discovered her inventory was empty. 
Around then, her communicator had displayed a message from Mumbo, something about server lag. Cleo ignored it for a moment, because their inventory was empty, even their armor slots and offhand—they’d been fully prepared to go End mining, going so far as to stick a carved pumpkin on their head. It’s all gone.
Then they process that their communicator buzzed, and the fact that it’s not completely broken isn’t nearly as relieving as it could have been. They still can’t send messages out, but they can see what their friends are coordinating, and be prepared for whatever rescue entails.
Whenever rescue comes.
It doesn’t take long to get bored, which is why Cleo starts exploring, despite the fact that their F3 screen only says no, lmao. X is going to get an earful for including whatever mod this is when she gets back—
For now, they wander. They find some bizarre architecture choices, and rooms full of poolfish and liminalgae both. They discover, with a deep sense of dread, that the beautiful view of the flat ocean outside is a mirage; exploration reveals a set of windows that theoretically should point directly into another hallway, but instead show that bright blue sky. Whatever’s out there… 
Well, she’ll never know what’s out there, because the block refuses to break beneath her fist, no matter how long she punches at it. Same with the walls.
For untold days, she wanders. Without her F3 screen, there’s no way to be accurate about the time she’s spent here, but it feels like a week and a half. There’d been a jolt of hope when Joe asked if someone had seen them recently—but Tango had reminded him that they were End mining, probably deep in the grind by now. It’s been a week and a half, approximately, of ankle-deep water in hallways, and deeper water in grand, open rooms, and nothing to eat but liminalgae and nothing to do but walk around and breed poolfish. They’ve been staying close to the spawn room, unwilling to lose their one known location in this unknown dimension.
Their communicator buzzes more as time passes: Doc pranking Gem, Gem killing him in revenge. Xisuma reminding everyone to avoid the world border chunks until the next update. Grian pretending to be Iskall’s conscience, teaching him how to use boats. She mutes the communicator. It hurts to see everyone this way, while she’s stuck here.
She still checks it; she's not stupid. She just… can’t keep watching the texts fly by without her.
And then she finds the pit.
It’s a room unlike any other she’s seen so far. It leads down, deeper than even the deepest pool of water she’s encountered, and it’s filled with rows of stacked arches, bridging the gap. She crouches onto one and peers down. It’s darker, but not pitch black, and there’s a pool of water at the bottom, the same shape and size as the one they originally fell into.
In her inventory, her collection of favorite poolfish squirm. Cleo’s guts match the motion, because this is obviously where the dimension intends them to go. The pit yawns before her like a beckoning, like a challenge. But there’s no blocks here, no drops from poolfish or craftables with liminalgae. If Cleo jumps down, she has no way back up.
No way save dying, drowning or starving wherever she finds herself. Because that was the other thing she’d tried, when her messages refused to send and her inventory yielded nothing. Cleo had dove down to the bottom of the spawn room pool, and pushed all the air out of their lungs, and breathed in that cool water.
It worked everywhere else. It wasn’t pleasant, but it worked, and they were a grown-up who could work with something that wasn’t pleasant.
They’d respawned in free-fall and crashed into the very pool they’d just died in.
That had been a very brutal realization: they were stuck here. And yet it feels like that realization pales in comparison to the pit before her, the pit that calls to her so tauntingly with its insinuations. That there is more to this place than white walls and fake ocean and sunlight. That there is escape, if she’s willing to fight for it. Escape that may come quicker than her friends.
Cleo has always been a fighter. But they’re smart, too. Before committing either way, they check their communicator.
Unread messages:
<GoodTimeWithScar> DONT HOTGYU ME
<GoodTimeWithScar was shot by Grian>
<Grian> get gud 
<iJevin> seriously, is cleo just living in the end at this point?
<StressMonster101> Im sure theyll be back soon, luv
Without timestamps, it’s impossible to tell how recently Jev and Stress sent their messages, but they make Cleo waver. The safest option is to wait near the spawn room, where X or Joe will eventually spawn in and help her escape with their admin-y ways. With the poolfish and liminalgae, she can survive as long as necessary, although the liminalgae doesn’t seem to regrow. Still—up here, where she understands the terrain, is safest.
<iJevin> stress its been a MONTH
<iJevin> even for a megabase grind thats ridiculous
Cleo’s stomach falls out from under them.
A month?
They’ve been stuck in this endless pseudo-paradise for a month, and people are only just now worrying—
No. No, fuck this, fuck everyone except Joe who asked about them way back towards the start, except he hasn’t said anything since so actually fuck him, too. And fuck X for chatting about updates like everything’s normal, and Ren for saying innuendoes and double entendres like nothing’s wrong, and Grian and Scar for being Grian and Scar when she’s stuck in here—
Fuck Jevin especially, for saying that where they could see, where they could realize no one is coming for them.
Distantly, Cleo realizes that this is a bit much, that people do regularly go off and grind resources for absurd lengths of time, but that doesn’t stop her from beating back sobs by fostering the rage in her chest. Distantly, she realizes that this is all uncomfortably close to a breakdown, and they don’t get those. They don’t do those; they’re a fighter, someone whose first answer is violence and barbed words and arson. 
So. Fuck their friends. Fuck them all. Cleo will rescue herself. 
They double-check their poolfish and liminalgae count—enough to last another goddamn month, if need be—and jump into the dark waters far, far below.
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dracoslittlepet · 2 years
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📚 Between The Lines 📚
🐍DRACO MALFOY X HERMIONE GRANGER ONESHOT🐍
She used to mildly tolerate him, he used to loathe her. But what if his intentions had secretly come from a good place? What if the notorious Slytherin golden boy secretly harboured certain feelings for the bookish Gryffindor? What would happen if, Merlin forbid, he actually let slip those feelings he has for her...?
• fluff; language
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He had never meant to like her, to actually like the girl. Sure, he had occasionally thought she was rather pretty, even for a Mud- No, no... Draco quickly shook his head, suddenly finding that he couldn't quite finish the thought, a rare occurrence for someone like him. Gritting his teeth, one of his hands clenched into a tight fist atop the table, as he snuck another glance over at Granger.
She was sitting at one of the far tables in the school library, poring over a massive text in front of her, her attention totally occupied. Her lips were parted slightly, occasionally forming the words of whatever it was she was reading. Draco found himself quite unable to look away from those perfect little rosebud lips...
An intrusive thought suddenly snuck its way into Draco's head: "What would it feel like to touch those lips with his own, to be able to kiss Granger...?" Draco shook his head again, though his eyes remained focused on the Gryffindor girl. She was rather attractive, if Draco honestly had to admit it to himself.
A few stray remnants of a memory flitted through Draco's mind, images of Granger in that frilly pink dress at the Yule Ball during fourth year. He hadn't wanted to admit it out loud then, (nor would he have ever actually done so back then), but she had looked... Radiant. Not like her usual bookish self.
Draco ran his fingers through his hair with a sigh, which abruptly caught Granger's attention, much to his dismay. The two stared at each other for a few seconds, until Draco impulsively made a face at the girl. She merely rolled her eyes at him, her attention once more returning to the thick tome in front of her. Ugh, why had he done that??
Draco quietly groaned, running a hand over his face. Of course this wouldn't be easy, not by any means! With another soft grumble to himself, Draco slid his chair back, rising from his seat and striding over to Granger's table, trying his hardest to be as casual about it as possible.
Upon his arrival, the Gryffindor girl looked up, a wary sigh slipping from between those perfect lips of hers, her eyes holding a rather tired expression in them. As Draco stood there, he suddenly realized that he had never actually bothered to notice just how... Pretty? Yes, pretty... Granger's eyes were. They were a warm, soft brown, deeply inviting and kind at the best of times.
Draco was so busy staring at Granger like an idiot that he didn't even realize she had spoken to him until a few moments later, when she arched one dark brow at him. "Er... What?" he asked, a bit of color appearing in his cheeks. "I said, what do you want, Draco?" she repeated slowly, as if speaking to a toddler who didn't quite understand.
Any other time, this would have earned Granger one of Draco's infamous sneers, followed by a few hurtful words and a parting threat. But this time, there was something different about the way she spoke to him, about the way she said his name, that really stuck with him. And to his slight horror, Draco found himself wanting to hear his name coming out of Granger's mouth again, even if just once more.
Swallowing hard, he adopted a casual expression, one of his shoulders lifting in a shrug. "What are we reading?" he asked, nodding down at the thick book on the table. She rolled her eyes at him, tugging the book closer to her, though he could swear he saw one corner of her mouth twitch up in a brief smile.
"We are not reading anything. I, however, am just catching up on a bit of light reading for Charms Class this year." she answered. Draco tried not to smirk as he eyed the huge book now clutched in Granger's hands. "That's light?" he thought, but instead, he blurted out the only other thing that came to mind. "If you need help, maybe we can work something out."
He knew even as he said the words that it would be pointless; practically everyone in the entire school knew just how smart Granger really was, and just how little help she actually required with her studies. Still, the words left Draco's mouth before he could stop them. And as he stood there watching, the Gryffindor girl's lips parted slightly, her eyes widening a little in what could only be surprise.
"You... You're being nice to me." she said slowly. "Way to state the obvious!" Draco's inner thoughts retorted, but he shut them down as quickly as they'd appeared, instead continuing to stand there and stare at her expectantly. "Why?" she added, half a minute later. His expression turned to one of slight confusion, though a faint ghost of a smile crept across his face.
"Does there always need to be an ulterior motive, Granger?" he asked, amused. That eyebrow arched up again, as she leaned forward in her seat, closing the book rather loudly and staring up at Draco with her hands folded neatly in front of her. "I don't know. You tell me, Malfoy." she shot back, imitating his use of her last name.
There it was again, that little thrill that ran down Draco's spine, made him feel... Alive. Why was he reacting so strangely like this?? It's not like he and Granger would ever be friends... Right? "You could be, if you let her in..." his thoughts unhelpfully chimed in again. "No, we couldn't." Draco mumbled, before he could stop himself.
"I'm sorry?" Granger asked, that eyebrow still raised. Merlin, she must think he was an absolute idiot, standing here talking to himself! With an irritated sigh, Draco shook his head. "Nothing. Don't worry about it. I just... Yeah." he finished lamely, his cheeks reddening in embarrassment.
With that, he abruptly turned and made a hasty exit out of the library. Too eager to escape his own discomfort, Draco wasn't paying enough attention to notice how Granger's eyes followed him as he left the library, one corner of her mouth turning up in an amused little grin...
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"I'm telling you, it was... Odd. I've never seen him look so bothered before!" Hermione recalled with a slight grin, later that night in the Gryffindor Common Room. "Maybe he's officially gone round the twist." her friend, Ron Weasley, piped up from one of the armchairs by the fireplace.
Hermione couldn't help the small laugh that escaped her at that moment, though she soon found herself feeling a little guilty afterwards. "Oh, I shouldn't laugh, really. He did seem like he was genuinely trying to be nice." she sighed. Her other friend, the infamous Harry Potter, spoke up from one of the other armchairs. "Maybe. I still don't trust him, though. He's one of them." he said.
Hermione couldn't help the small, irritated noise she made. "Oh, not this again, honestly!" she groaned. "What?" Ron asked. With another sigh, the Gryffindor girl turned to face her friend. "Harry keeps insisting that Draco Malfoy is now a Death Eater." she said with a roll of her eyes. "You saw it too." Harry pointed out, for what felt like the millionth time since the start of the school year.
"Like I've told you, I don't know what I saw. Besides, is Draco kind of a bully? Yes. But would he honestly murder someone in cold blood, like the rest of their lot? No." Hermione said. But even as she spoke the words aloud, a feeling of uncertainty settled within her. How could she be one hundred percent sure that Draco wouldn't actually kill anyone?
Almost as if voicing the girl's concerns, Harry scoffed. "Hermione, please! Don't tell me you're actually defending the git??" he said, exasperated. For once, Hermione found that she didn't have the usual smart comeback, the usual logical answer to this. But deep down, she already knew the answer, even if she wasn't entirely willing to voice it aloud.
"I'm off to bed. You two should do the same. Goodnight." she said curtly, getting up from the couch and heading towards the stairs leading to the girls' dormitories. Behind her, as she climbed the first few steps, she could hear Harry mutter to Ron, "You don't think she's gone round the twist, has she?"
A lone spark of irritation suddenly ignited deep within Hermione; these two didn't even know what they were talking about. They hadn't been there in the library today; they hadn't seen Draco practically stumble over his words trying to talk to her. They hadn't seen what she had seen: someone who very desperately needed a friend, someone to talk to, anyone to talk to.... Someone who, given the chance, could even perhaps be worthy of love, real love...
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There she was again, this time sitting on one of the benches in the Northwest courtyard, near the huge willow tree he used to sit in during fourth year. Ah, fourth year... Those same images of a strikingly pretty witch in pink dress robes once again replayed themselves in Draco's head, and before he could stop himself, a lazy sort of smile had crossed over his face.
But his good mood was short-lived. Right as he had taken a step towards Granger, he heard a voice behind him, one he absolutely loathed with every fibre of his being. "Don't even think about it, Malfoy. You stay away from her." Potter said. A muscle in Draco's jaw twitched as he turned around, the smile dropping from his face.
"What's it to you, Potter?" he spat, suddenly irritated. Who did this absolute prat think he was, telling him who he could and couldn't speak to?? Potter's green eyes narrowed as they shifted behind Draco to glance for a second at Granger, before returning to meet his own cold gaze. "I mean it. Leave her alone. She doesn't need to be seen with somebody like you." Potter continued.
The nerve of this... This utter child...! "I think that's for Granger to decide, thanks." Draco retorted, turning around and taking another step towards the Gryffindor girl in the distance. Before he could get too far, however, he felt something hit him in the back. Turning around and looking down at the ground, he saw... A rock. Really?? A smirk settled on Draco's face, but there was no genuine humor in it.
"Throwing rocks at me? What are you, Potty, five? Pathetic." Draco sneered. "Leave her alone." the dark-haired boy said again. And then to Draco's complete amusement, Potter held up both of his fists, taking a warning stance. A short laugh rose up from Draco's throat as he took a step towards the boy.
"Really, Potty? You want to settle this like a fucking Muggle?? Fine by me. Maybe you'll fight better than your parents did." Draco laughed. He knew even as he said the words that they would hit deep, they would hurt... But Draco didn't care. How dare Potter speak on Granger's behalf, like she didn't have a perfectly lovely mind of her own??
The smile dropped from his face again as he closed the distance between him and Potter, his right hand curling into a fist. The next few minutes went by in a blur, an absolutely chaotic whirlwind of punches being thrown, voices loudly cheering on the fight, and more than a little blood being spilled.
By the time Weaselbee and a few other Gryffindors had managed to pry Potter away from Draco, the damage had already been done. Draco was now sporting a few deep cuts on his face, as well as a black eye and a split lip. But at least he didn't look as bad as the other boy did.
Potter's face was a mural of cuts and bruises and blood, all the handiwork of one pissed off Draco Malfoy. The boy in question couldn't help the smirk that appeared on his face, though he winced when it pulled at the edges of his busted bottom lip. He took a step towards Potter, spitting out some blood on the ground in front of him.
"Don't you ever make decisions for Granger without her permission again! She can think for herself, you prat!" Draco hissed, before turning and storming off towards one of the covered archways leading back towards the school. As he passed by Granger's bench, he saw her get up, out of the corner of his eye.
Great, now she was going to see him at his worst, if she hadn't already. She caught up with him fairly quickly, somewhat pointedly ignoring the protests of Potter and Weaselbee in the distance behind her. The two of them turned down a hallway, neither of them saying anything, until finally Draco couldn't take it anymore.
"Go on, then. Say it. I know you're going to." he muttered. Granger was quiet beside him for a moment, until he finally heard her voice, speaking softly. "You don't know, actually. But enlighten me, anyway." she murmured. "Say it." Draco repeated, a little more insistent. "Tell me that I'm an absolute idiot, and that Potter had every right to hit me." he continued.
Another moment of silence passed, before she spoke up. "Alright, fine, if that's what you want to hear. Draco Malfoy, you are an absolute idiot." Granger announced. "But," she continued a second later, her voice a little quieter, "you're also wrong. He had no right to do what he did. You were only defending me."
Draco stopped dead in his tracks, his heart skipping a few beats. Very slowly, he turned to face Granger, his eyes widening. "You... Y-you heard? You knew?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper. She shrugged, one corner of her mouth lifting in a wry sort of smile. "He's not exactly subtle. Besides, I could sort of tell what happened, based on what I saw." she answered.
Draco didn't know how to process this. He had just beaten Potter to a near bloody mess, and yet... Granger was seemingly unbothered by it?? What the ever loving fuck was going on, here?? Swallowing hard, Draco tried to put on his usual cocky demeanor, but of course, Granger saw right through him. "You're still an idiot." she pointed out, as the two of them started walking again.
Draco's mouth twitched up in a smirk, some of his former bravado returning. "Yeah? Suppose it's lucky for me then, that you're as smart as you are." he retorted with a wink. "Otherwise we'd both be fucked." he added in a loud whisper. At that moment, Draco could swear he heard Granger laugh, before the girl quickly disguised it as a cough.
"Pity for you, I suppose." she shot back, fighting to keep the smile from her face. Draco let out a low whistle, glancing sideways at the Gryffindor girl. "Why, Granger, how touching. And here I didn't think you cared." he said, smirking again. She rolled her eyes at this, though that smile still tugged at the corners of her mouth as she tried to keep a straight face.
"I have no idea what you're talking about, Draco." she said. There it was again, his name coming out of her mouth. If he let down all of his walls he had built up over the years, it didn't sound so bad, hearing her talk so easily with him like this. It was even... Pleasant.
"You know, you really should have Madam Pomfrey fix that for you." Granger suddenly added, gesturing up at his face with one dainty little hand. Draco fought back against the overwhelming urge to take that hand in his, to hold it within his own. Instead, he swallowed hard before shrugging, trying to hold onto some of his former cockiness.
"Nah, too far of a walk. Why don't you do it?" he drawled lazily. At this, Granger abruptly stopped walking, and it was a few moments before Draco had realized this. Turning back around, he stared at the place where she still stood, her dark brows furrowed and a frown marring her pretty face.
"Granger, what's the holdup? Let's go." he said, but she didn't move, instead continuing to stand there, an expression of pure confusion on her face. "I don't understand." she whispered. Heaving a sigh, Draco walked back over to where she stood, stopping in front of her. He was only vaguely aware that he and Granger were the only two people in this corridor at the moment, but he didn't care.
"What don't you understand?" he asked slowly. She looked up at him then, big brown eyes full of confusion and innocence and even a shred of wariness. "You. I don't understand it. Why are you being so nice to me, it's not like you..." she whispered. Her words were an echo of yesterday's, in the library: "You're being nice to me. Why?"
Draco sighed, before running a hand through his hair. "Like I told you yesterday, does there always need to be an ulterior motive?" he asked. The girl's frown deepened, her brows knitting together and the expression in her eyes growing a little pained at his words.
"But that's just it. It's always a game with you, only the rules seem to change all the time. I don't know where I stand with you, Draco." she whispered. Draco's heart nearly stopped in his chest; did she really not get it? Did she really not understand? "But what if it's not? What if I'm tired of the game, of... This?" he asked, gesturing down at himself.
Granger still looked confused; heaving a sigh, Draco hesitantly reached out with one hand, tucking a loose lock of hair behind the girl's ear. "Read between the fucking lines, Granger. Maybe I'm tired of it, all of it. Being the school bully, having people fear me when they look at me... Maybe it's time for a change." he sighed.
"And maybe," he added in a softer tone, gently walking forward until Granger's back was against the wall, "just maybe... I actually don't think you're all that bad... Hermione." He could hear her breath hitch in her throat at the sound of her first name coming out of his mouth, he could see the miniscule movement as she stood there staring up at him with those wide, warm brown eyes.
He could feel it radiating off her, all of it: the longing, the warring confusion, even the sweet tang of curiosity. He recognized it, welcomed it, even. Because it was all the same things he was feeling, in that moment. Once again, that intrusive thought from yesterday crept back into his head, as he stared down at Granger, his hands pressed against the wall on either side of her, effectively trapping her. "What would it feel like to kiss Granger?"
And then it happened. Before Draco even knew what the hell he was doing, he had leaned down, closing the distance between himself and the petite Gryffindor girl, his mouth on hers in an instant. He was kissing her like nobody else had likely ever done, like he was drowning and she was the one thing that could save him, the one single breath of air soothing the burning ache in his lungs, in his heart, in every part of himself.
He knew it would only be a matter of time before she pushed him away, demanding to know just what the hell he had been thinking, how could he, how dare he... But no. Heavens, no. Instead, to his complete surprise, she kissed him back, seemingly with a passion and fire to rival that of his own.
Her mouth worked insistently, almost desperately, against his own, and was that her teeth tugging his bottom lip...? Holy Salazar, she was good...! Draco groaned, pressing himself closer against Granger... No, against Hermione...
He closed the final bit of distance between the two of them, one of his hands moving down to lightly grip at the small of her back, his other hand winding its way through the hair at the back of her head, holding her closer to him. He could have sworn he heard the tiniest of moans slip unbidden from her throat, but it was quickly swallowed up as Draco continued to kiss her like his life depended upon it.
Only when the pair pulled apart to catch their breath did he hear her breathlessly whisper to him, "You do realize anyone could turn the corner and see us like this? What would they say?"
Draco discovered with a sudden burst of realization that he didn't actually care anymore. Had this little encounter happened three years ago, maybe four, it would have been possibly different. He more than likely would have feared what people would say about him, what his father would think... But now, things were different. He was different.
"Let them see, let them all talk. I don't give a fuck." Draco growled, ignoring the admonishing look Hermione gave him at his choice of words. Leaning forward again, he pulled her closer to him, kissing her once more. This time, it was his teeth tugging on her bottom lip, it was her groans that he heard. Her name slipped from his mouth, muttered like a swear word, earning another soft groan from her.
The hand on the small of her back slid down towards her outer thigh, hitching it up to rest against his thigh, his fingers splayed out across the soft, smooth skin. "They... They could see us... Draco!" she protested again, in another breathless little gasp. "Darling... It's so... Cute... That you think I care." Draco whispered back, in between much softer, gentler kisses.
Breaking away to look down at her, Draco offered her a light smile. "They have something to say, they can say it to my face." he murmured, reaching out with his free hand to tuck a stray lock of hair behind Hermione's ear.
His other hand still rested against her outer thigh; giving it a soft squeeze, he released her, but not before leaning down and giving her one last, light kiss on the mouth. "Mm... Speaking of your face...?" Hermione said, a rueful sort of look starting to form in her eyes. Draco smirked, shrugging. "I hear you're good with spells, have at it." he drawled.
She made a face at him before taking out her wand, pointing it delicately at his still-injured face. "Episkey..." she murmured softly, followed a second later by "Tergeo" to get rid of any remaining blood. Draco reached up with one hand to lightly touch his left cheek; there were no longer any deep cuts in the skin, it was as smooth as it had been before his and Potter's brawl in the courtyard.
"Back to normal, eh?" he said with a smirk. She arched a brow at him, a sly look in her warm brown eyes. "Define normal." she retorted, trying not to grin. "Ouch! Vicious for a Gryffindor, aren't you, darling?" he said with a grin of his own. She blushed, suddenly avoiding his gaze and focusing instead on the wall behind him. "That's going to take a bit of getting used to, I suppose." she said softly.
This confused Draco a little. Had nobody ever called her that before, had nobody really ever given her any terms of endearment, in the six years that they had attended school together?? "Er... Would you prefer I go back to calling you Granger?" he asked, frowning slightly. "No!" she blurted out a little too quickly in response.
"Ahem. No. No, I... I wouldn't. I actually don't mind your pet name, it's just... Different." she added, a little more refined this time. Her eyes met his in that instant, and she offered him a tentative smile, one that made him weak in the knees and faint in the heart. "Merlin, you pretty girl, what the devil are you doing to me...?" Draco breathed, shaking his head.
With a soft answering smile of his own, he held out his hand towards the girl, feeling more than a little pleased with himself when she placed her hand in his. How perfectly they fit together, the two of them. "Almost like we were made for each other..." the errant thought ran through Draco's mind. For once, he didn't try to quell those kinds of thoughts, instead simply letting them in.
A small sigh of content left Draco's mouth, as he began walking down the hall, Hermione at his side. "Where are we going, by the way?" her voice was a soft lilt, music to his ears. He shrugged in response, a rather carefree step in his walk. "Anywhere and everywhere, darling." came his simple reply.
As the two of them strolled through the hallways, Draco was fully aware of at least more than one passersby staring at the pair of them, but he chose to ignore them all, his hand still clasped firmly around Hermione's. His earlier words came back to him as he walked. "Let them see..."
Yes, indeed, let them all see. Let them all see how much he, Draco Malfoy, had changed. Let them all see that he had managed to win over what was quite possibly the prettiest (and smartest) girl in school, let them all see how deeply his heart lay with her.
For once in his life, Draco felt like he could finally breathe, like he could finally live, maybe even love. Sure, it was a pity that it had taken him this long to figure it out, but better late than never, right? He figured as long as he had Hermione by his side, things could only get better from here on out... Maybe that was what he had needed, all along.
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A/N: I don't quite know where to begin down here, but... Hooray? This was my first ever Dramione fanfic, and I think hope that it turned out alright?? 😳 Please, please, share your thoughts with me, comment, reblog, etc. I need to know that I didnt screw this one up for you guys. Thanksss... 🐍💚
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brightoakgame · 1 year
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Are the ROs all canonically bi/pan? If so, how did they realize?
Canonically, I'd describe attraction as a spectrum for each of them. 💞 The action of Bright Oak takes place primarily in 1968, when the vocabulary surrounding sexuality was more limited; I'm hesitant to apply modern language / titles the characters themselves would not necessarily use,  or which carry slightly different connotations in the present day. So while in a modern setting Sparrow's expressed views and attractions might well lead him to identify as nonbinary and pansexual, even with his comparatively liberal experience (he's lived in San Francisco’s commune culture), if he were asked to define his gender or sexuality in the course of the game, likely he'd answer that gender is silly, and he's attracted to attractive people-- that is, if he answered at all, and didn't just throw out a few cryptic quotations and walk away.
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Not all the characters' established patterns of attraction are an even split, though general preference patterns don't dictate individual affections, and by no means invalidate a potential romantic relationship with Kit/the MC, regardless of the player's choice of pronouns or gender identity (also, non-romantic relationships are a valid option in the game). For the latter half of your question, I'll touch on the characters' individual past experiences and attractions (placed beneath the cut, for those who prefer to let the characters' words and actions in-game stand alone in speaking for them).❤️
John: Perhaps surprisingly inexperienced, given his popularity; I think there was likely some tentative fumbling under the high school bleachers with a girl or two, but not much (if anything) beyond that. Aware he's also attracted to men-- even primarily attracted to men-- which scares him somewhat, to the point that he's avoided pursuing any romantic interests, regardless of gender.
Marybeth: She actually doesn't tend to experience immediate or impartial attractions, and I don't think she's dated anyone seriously before; she's kissed both men and women, but very much as an experiment to see what the fuss is about. While she has found herself attracted to friends in the past, she has never felt inclined to act on it, since making friends doesn't come easily to her, and she'd be hesitant to jeopardize the relationship she has for a potential relationship she herself is skeptical of.
Patti: Despite her considerable self-discipline, Patti's a bit of a hedonist: she takes pleasure on her own terms, as she finds it, albeit with no intention of sacrificing her independence over it. She has little interest in forming a local or long-term attachment that would tie her down, but when traveling-- in college, or for rare leisure-- she has never minded engaging in clandestine kisses and brief affairs to be fondly remembered later. Most of her liaisons have been with men, but there have been at least a couple women as well.
Sparrow: In his early youth, Sparrow's nascent attractions were focused more on characters in books (Anne Shirley, Jane Eyre), authors/poets (Emily Dickinson, Emily Brontë, E.M. Forster), and musicians (Billie Holiday, Buddy Holly, Johnny Mathis), more than anyone he knew personally, which continued as he remained a social pariah into high school-- but he blossomed once at university, and dated around a bit before falling very hard for someone after his move to San Francisco (this comes up in his story path).
Jasper: Jasper's brain trips him up at every turn when it comes to personal relationships, and while he does experience attraction to people (most often women, though not exclusively so), his inclination to act on it is very limited because he simply can't turn off the alarms in his head that tell him there are other responsibilities more worthy of his focus and time. He's been in relationships, but they inevitably fail because his primary devotion is to his ongoing work (there's reason for this, addressed in the game during his story path). He's not one to do things halfway, however, and has spent a sleepless night (or several) over the years researching pleasure and romantic gestures, determined that what perceived failings he has that can be corrected or compensated for, shall be corrected and compensated for. Good luck with that, MC.
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isekyaaa · 1 year
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Speaking of faceless extras, it'd be fun to write a story from the perspective of essentially a faceless NPC. Like literally when they look in the mirror, they don't have any eyes or a nose. Only a mouth. They're only attracted to clothes that literally every other NPC wears. Their hair color is a muddy brown. Honestly they are not sure they even have a name.
That being said, they know they are in a story. They know who the main characters are. It's hard not to. The main characters have faces, bright clothes, and funky hair styles and colors. The NPC don't know what the story is, but from their place within it, they are able to watch everything unfold. They aren't upset though. They know their role is to fill up blank space and they're happy with it. It's safer that way.
Then on a very random day that something very small ends up interrupting their schedule. They realize at the end of the day that they forgot their umbrella. One of the kind protagonists notice and lends them her umbrella. The NPC doesn't give it much attention. That character is known for being kind and helpful, after all. But then everything slowly starts changing from there.
Soon seats are changed and the NPC finds themselves sitting beside the girl. They don't think much of it at first. The girl is still preoccupied by her main and side character friends. The only time she addresses them is when she greets them in the morning or when she picks up an eraser they accidentally drop. But then it becomes more. One day the girl is absent and she comes back a few days after and asks to borrow the NPC's notes. Then she starts making conversation with them when her friend group is busy during lunch.
The NPC tries not to think too much about it all. While the girl is starting to befriend them, she doesn't belong to the same class as the rest of the main characters. It wouldn't be like the NPC's interactions with her would be broadcast in the story.
But then a haircut gone wrong one day occurs, and the NPC begins to stand out a little bit more. Just a tad. The girl says it looks nice. The NPC tries not to think about it. Then on an errand to buy clothes, they almost find themselves purchasing a jacket that's slightly more saturated than they normally go for. They find their interest beginning to grow in accessories and piercings. The NPC tries to ignore it.
It all culminates one afternoon where the NPC is returning from their club to their classroom. They find themselves passing the clubroom of the protagonists, and from there floats the sweet voice of the girl. She's talking about someone rather cheerily. Then she mentions a name, one that the NPC has never heard before. And yet, they know this name. They know it horrifyingly well.
It's their name.
Panic overtakes them. Sweat drips down the back of their neck as they take a step back in fear. They run.
They're not seen at a school for the few days following. They know it'll only make them stand out more, but they're too afraid. They don't want to face her. Their purpose is being torn away from them and they're terrified to know what'll result because of it. They weren't supposed to be destined for more. And if that meant locking themselves in their home until the danger passed, then so be it.
But a knock at the front door interrupts their frenzied thoughts. Their mom calls for them to answer it. She is busy putting on makeup, but she mentions she is expecting a package. They trudge to the door, but the person that meets them isn't a deliveryman. It is one of their classmates, an NPC like themselves. He stands before them alone. The girl, their neighbor, one of the protagonists—she is nowhere to be seen. The classmate tells them they were missed at school. He brought the homework they missed, as well as notes from their various classes.
It's almost shocking how normal everything is. Were they freaking out over nothing? If they were changing, it would've been either a main or side character at their door, right? But instead, it was someone like themselves.
So, in relief, they thank their classmate for bringing them their homework and turn to leave. But before they can do so, they notice their classmate staring at them oddly. Before they can ask, the classmate speaks.
"Has anyone ever told you you have an interesting eye color?"
Their body acts before their brain does, and they turn to face their reflection in the glass door. They don't know why they find themselves staring so intently when it's the face they have seen their entire life. But at the very least, their classmate is right.
It is an interesting color.
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Couple hours late but here’s aro questions for you
2. 4. 5. 9. 15. 16. 25. 27. 32. 35. 38. 44. 45. 50. aaaand 53. :] enjoy
Oh my gosh so many!many!! YES yes I love oversharing and talking about aro stuff ty so much for giving me the opportunity and don't worry about it ^-^!
2. How would you describe your identity?
I'm pretty happy and content with the label of aroace agender to describe myself! Really I'm just vibing and gender is a mystery to me so that's just part of my identity now lmao
4. Are you romance favorable, neutral, or repulsed?
Oof, this one is slightly complicated but I would say I lean slightly more on the repulsed side as I just can't see myself ever being in a straight up romantic relationship and tbh, I don't want to SJSJSJ
5. What kind of attraction do you feel?
PLATONIC!! PLATONIC, with a little dash of queer platonic to spice things up but im a big old sucker for platonic affection and love over literally any over kind of love lmao. Call me your friend or just friend terms and I'll be falling over myself
9. What made you realize you were aspec/arospec?
Okay so, funny story about that, I unironically figured out that I was aro thanks to techno. I found it out cause I kept reading queer platonic em duo stuff and every time techno talked about his love for philza but zero romance attached to it I was just like....... Oh....... another thing is that weirdly the dsmp fandom is just the only one that I've ever seen actual aspec rep IN the fandom content itself
15. What made you realize you wanted a queer platonic relationship?
I think the one thing I do like in the idea of romance is the loyalty and commitment attached to it which is how I began wanting a queer platonic relationship. That type of love that feels like home but without the romantic expectation and just creating your own definition of love with your partner is the dream for me :]
16. What confuses you about typical romantic relationships?
So many things you have absolutely no idea. I've never really understood the whole physical longing thing and having someone take up all of your thoughts and decisions to a worrying degree. I've never got wanting to act in an idealized way so that your crush might like you cause what's the point? I've never got how love confessions are this big relationship changing thing cause I just don't care and never thought of romantic love as a concern. Grade school was hell man SJSJSJ
25. Are you good at flirting? Do you flirt often?
I don't really think I flirt?? Idk if compliments can be seen as flirting as I love being nice and complimenting people but I, don't think that's flirting?? Im hopeless at this whole flirting thing just throw me to the curb
27. Do you enjoy seeing romance irl/online/in media/etc.?
Irl it's kinda impossible to avoid romance so I've just gotten really good at ignoring it in that context! But in media and online? I'll fully admit that my romance repulsion comes out really hard and I don't like seeing or reading romantic content if I can help it. God the amount of blocked shipping tags that I have in my filters SJSJJS
32. Come up with the stupidest way to ask someone out, right now!
Hey baby wanna find out how I can make this heat wave even worse?
(was that good? I have absolutely no fucking idea SJSJSJS)
35. Do you enjoy valentine's day?
For the sweets and chocolates? Yes, for the romance? Oh god no, I always end up staying completely offline for that entire day cause I get so annoyed that it's just better for me to play video games or something sjsjsj I do enjoy the red, white, and pink aesthetic though, it's cute! ^-^
38. How many arospecs do you know irl/online?
Fun fact! My wife is actually on the aro spectrum herself! :DD I love her so much she found out she was aro a bit after me and its been great lmao. All in all I believe I only know two aro people overall? Which is a crime I need to make more aro friends but making friends is so hard sjsjsj
44. Do you have an aro ring? Do you want one?
I don't have one yet but I've been thinking about getting one! :D it's just a really pretty and lovely idea so I genuinely might do it, that is if my brain allows me to wear a ring lol
45. Do you have an ace ring? Do you want one?
Gonna get both so I can give the simultaneous finger to both sex and romance SHSHSJ
50. Any arospec headcanons
YES, LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Loz wise I strongly believe oot link and hyrule warriors link to be on the aro spectrum!! ^-^ I mean, oot link literally ignored a whole ass marriage proposal so hard that I half believe the fact Ruto was interested didn't even REGISTER. hw link is so extremely funny to me cause the IDEA of him being aro and being chased by an evil sorceress is the embodiment of my poor aro meow meow. He didn't ask for this, he didn't want it, he doesn't even understand what's the big deal about romance WHY is she destroying REALITY FOR IT!!!
53. What is the best part about being aro?
The relief of knowing that I don't have to force myself to find or force myself to pretend that I feel romantic love. The relief that I can be my genuine self and be happy in the different forms of love that bring me happiness instead of what society expects of me. The fact that I have a name to explain what I've been experiencing my entire life and the fact that people reflect my thoughts have brought me more comfort than you can imagine. It's the relief of knowing I don't have to act or sell myself for a nonexistent partner and instead pursue the queer love that I've always dreamed of. It's the fascination of exploring the very foundation of love and how I interpret it by having a complete absence of romantic love but so much love for other things. For me being aro is comfort, acceptance, and living with the fact that you are not lesser for not experiencing something that a large amount of people, it's finding happiness in that absence as it allows you to instead fill that space with what you choose to love. It's carving out a little space for that queer love whenever it arrives and it fits perfectly within all the other things you've given love to, so much so that you never even think of how you may be different or may never experience something that everyone else cause you're so incredibly happy with what you have! That you could never think or want anything else, that's what being aro is for me and I've been much happier with my identity ever since I realized that ^-^
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