#and then you start noticing a lot of flaws you didn't notice before lol

[skyeslittlecorner]

How about the kings (plus Lucifer and some of your fav nobles if you could 🥺) reactions with an MC who like to bite out of nowhere 😁 and after they bit they ran away while "😛" them

That's so silly! I relate so much, I also tease people a lot when I like them lmao

Satan loves to see you having fun. And he will play along. Are you nibbling at him suddenly? So get ready for him to bite you too. It will be like playing tag, out of nowhere, but with your teeth instead of your hands. After some time, you will start walking around colorful from your biting, of course you more, because Satan will be happy to mark what is his. He was already used to it when one day, instead of biting him, you gave him a kiss on the shoulder. Then you will get a deep 'you're too sweet to exist' kiss in the mouth. He never knows what to expect from you, and that's the best thing.

Mammon… didn't even notice. He didn't feel it. Might as well be bitten by a mosquito, but then he might at least be itchy. He'll sooner see your disappointment and ask if something's wrong. You won't want to tell him because it's silly, so he orders his nobles to find the answer. Maybe it's something serious? But when you see how earnestly they took it, all you can do is laugh and enlighten this dear king. He'll be relieved that nothing happened to you. Next time if you want to bite him, do it in the mouth.

Beel thought it was great fun. He noticed that you sometimes bite him unexpectedly and suggested a bet. If you manage to surprise him, you've won, and if he catches you, he's won. Of course, you knew you had no chance against his reflexes, and you counted on his memory being flawed. You definitely miscalculated. If he is interested in something, he focuses all his attention on it, and you are certainly such an object. But he'll let you win once or twice, just to see how happy you are.

Leviathan finds this stupid and immature. Why are you doing this at all? It does not make sense. Of course, try to get closer than a meter to someone with that sinister glint in your eye, and before you can do anything, poor subordinate will be hanging six meters above you. Oh, no. Now all you have left to bite is Levi, how sorry he is (not at all).

I wonder how much I will revise all the Lucy parts when he comes out lol

Lucifer doesn't think it's a smart idea. Such a cut may become infected. Moreover, such a cut brings you into contact with blood, and what if it infects you with something incurable? So - you mustn't do that… unless it's him. This is the one and only exception. Doctor's recommendation. (Yes, yes, you believe him too, that it's only about your safety.)

Andrealphus may attack when you first do this. He will grab your blouse and rise you up. You will realize that this wasn't the smartest idea in your life. At the same time, he heard your gasp in surprise, so he knew it was only you, not an angel or anybody with bad intentions. He will apologize, but also warn you not to do that again. Learned reflex. He wouldn't hurt you, but rather slowly get him used to your presence and only then try something like this.

Naberius will look at you with eyes as wide as saucers. So this is how you seek attention? Like a puppy that wants to play? That's adorable. Get ready for this funny gesture to open him up surprisingly. You'll end up being scratched under the chin and behind the ears. (And then try doing it to him, he will fall in love with you even more.)

#whb #what in hell is bad #whb satan #whb mammon #whb beelzebub #whb leviathan #whb lucifer #whb andrealphus #whb naberius

[themonotonysyndrome]

Sorry for the length of this, but you got me thinking! I feel like I should have started keeping an eye out on Erik not planning a lot of major plot points when he introduced Xavier right before the games, gave us no time to get to know him, then killed him and had characters (even Freelancer) react in a way like they were bffs with him like what in the Star Trek redshirt was that? But Inversion was so good otherwise to me that I ignored that.

I feel like I really should have taken more notice when Milo recovered from his Inversion injury after two videos (but Erik had personal reasons for that so I went sure). Then, after all this lore talk of how much bloodlust new vampires have and how much they struggle, we didn't see any of that with Lovely, but we were still not to far off from Inversion so I ignored it again lol.

There's some personal preference stuff where I get confused at his lack of consistent framing when it comes to consent where Alexis is the bitch and is more or less a villain (with little nuance so far in canon) for ignoring Sam's consent. But Cutie (with how Erik says they and Geordi aren't broken up) is framed as being able to work towards forgiveness despite years of ignoring Geordi's consent even after he cried about it to them.

I'm on the fence about his 'I intended Imperium season 2 to be the end' because I don't think it's the worst place to stop, but I do think that there's some more story to tell and if the views were a lot better then he probably wouldn't have stopped (only guessing here)?

I think what made me finally stop and wonder 'does he plan?' was how Quinn's capture (after all that build up) happened off-screen and only had Darlin' punch him while he was tied up. I thought the Summit was fine in a very Clue way, but watching the Vega video today had me go '...oh okay' which I don't mind deaths, but that shouldn't be a reaction to that lol.

I feel like I want to give one more of his big plotlines a chance and hope he's planned that one, but idk. The guy capable of making Inversion has to be able to do something even sort of to that level again hopefully??

Don't apologise, Anon! I love reading your thoughts.

Xavier was the beginning. Yes, I was also emotionally devastated; it added stakes to the Inversion, but a part of me always wondered if killing off a character was the only way Erik could add impact to the Inversion? Because no matter how good the angst is, if you introduce a character, make them have ties with one of the main cast and later kill them just to add depth to the main cast, it feels very cheap.

Maybe this is me being salty, but making Milo unable to Shift for at least a few more videos before his Core is healed enough would've been better. The anxiety of not knowing if he became truly magicless and the trauma that would bring would be a better alternative to Xavier's death. I feel like Erik is so damn afraid to do anything bad to his cash cows nowadays. That aftermath from the Summit? The talk that David had with Angel or whatever? That was honest to go foreplay. Yes, the Shaw Pack was affected by William's plan; they saw a murder happening right in front of them, boo hoo... boo hoo. The Summit is absolutely nothing when compared to the Inversion, where hello? Actual and thousands of deaths occurred!?

That thing with Lovely, and how well and quickly did they transition into the Vampiric lifestyle? Lame. Boring. Where's the struggle? Oh right, the fandom scared Erik badly enough to scrap Bright Eyes.

Also, I get that Erik's movie is Clue, and he was trying to do the same for the Summit, but it just turned into, 'Great idea, bad execution' kind of video. Meh.

That Alexis and Cutie parallels... I never noticed that before, Anon! Huh! You have a good eye when it comes to details. Listen, I love Alexis. I love Cutie. I love deeply flawed characters, and I also love deeply flawed characters that either own up to it or revel in their shittiness. I just want Cutie and Geordi to break up already so Cutie can find someone on their level, and Geordi can find someone with enough patience to deal with him and his baggage. Though both of them need to work on their own stuff first, tbh. Cutie is not blameless, and neither is Geordi.

Will we get an Imperium Season 2, though, Anon? I already don't have faith in Erik's story writing so I'm not looking forward to he'll fucked up another series.

Ah! So Quinn's Ending was your tipping point, Anon. I hate Sam and Darling but even I believe they deserve better. Though I giggled when Darling beat up a tied-up Quinn as a way to get their revenge. Oooo, so badass! What a strong Listener! You feel empowered at that moment, Anon? I feel like I was ridiculed after everything, IMO.

Vega's death was a slap in the face to me because of the utter disrespect. You built this character up to be ancient, manipulative, powerful, only for him to moan and die? Wow! I wondered if he actually hated Vega! This might be a gambit, and Vega might be faking his death, or this is some part of his plan, but I don't care anymore. At least give him a proper end, ya know? Again, same with Quinn's situation. I FEEL RIDICULOUS FOR EVER INVESTED IN THE SERIES.

I'm not morbidly curious to see how he's gonna fuck up Project Meridian. I don't doubt that Erik can create a new series that starts off fantastically, only for it to end like a wet fart. Let's hope Inversion isn't his one-hit-wonder, eh?

#monotony's rambling #redacted asmr #redacted audio

[chrimsonfoxdon]

Ooh question, you mentioned rewatching as an adult, and I'm curious, what kinds of things do you view differently now? I'm rereading the manga after a long time too, and the big thing I'm noticing is that I have more compassion now, especially towards characters who I didn't realize reminded me of myself and not in the best ways 😂 And especially during part 1 I found myself wondering why we don't see their parents more often (for those who still have them) and who took care of them growing up (for the others).

I have felt similar!! Ok I’m gonna maybe list stuff out on what I’ve noticed I view differently.

Very long post under the cut of me rambling (again)!

1. My Opinion on What I Consider Good Media Has Changed

Starting with this one as I feel it’s a big overarching thing that’ll dictate all my other opinions and thoughts. I’ve watched, read, and listened to A LOT of other series and media since I first started watching Naruto (also you know life experience and such), so I have a better idea of what is “good” media and what is “bad.” When I was younger, I considered Naruto to be the best of the best, but I don’t think that now (as far as anime that title now goes to FMA:B it’s very good please watch it if you haven’t oh my god). It has a lot of flaws, some endearing and others… not so much. Granted that’s any piece of media. Nothing is perfect (not even FMA:B). But despite that, I’ve also learned that it’s ok to still enjoy it!! Imo it’s not all bad, I mean, we’re still here discussing it yea?

I guess the TLDR of this part is: it’s cringe but that’s ok cuz life is short and we should enjoy the stuff we like.

2. Female Characters/Feminism

I feel like, while these are different topics, they’re very linked together in how I watch Naruto now so I’m putting them together. When I was younger, I didn’t like really any of the female cast (except Tenten). I found them “annoying,” to put it simply. Sakura always chasing after Sasuke?? Lame. Ino being obsessed with her looks?? Shallow. Hinata losing to Neji? Weak. I began to think that I didn’t like those characters because I didn’t like female characters mostly as a whole (which is kinda hilarious cuz I did start making Chihiro back then who does in fact identify as a woman LOL!!). But this negative attitude towards female characters not only leaked into how I consumed other media, but how I saw myself and other women irl. Like I distinctly remember believing that a woman could never beat a guy in anything. Which is uh… not true!! And kinda fucked up!!!

Now that I’m older I just realize that kishimoto doesn’t know how to write women all that well. Imo, it’s not the girls’ faults, it’s their creator. Which is disappointing but also freeing almost?? Plus, I can now appreciate what good they do have to offer!! (I talked a little about the konoha 12 girls and what I like about them in this ask in case you’d like details on individual characters)

I think also being exposed to other fans with differing opinions and views has helped me with this as well. When I first started watching I didn’t really go online (wasn’t a thing in Cuba plus I wasn’t really interested), so I didn’t really have other perspectives to bounce off of.

Also wanted to add that there are definitely parts of the show I laughed off before but you know, just are not acceptable nowadays. Mainly thinking of Shikamaru talking down on girls/women, Neji made a rude comment about girls too (that Tenten corrected him on tho thank you queen), and some bits that could be perceived as a little transphobic (I’m not trans tho so I don’t wanna speak for them on that bit). Its viewpoints that I feel are a product of the time, but does not make the overall series bad per se.

3. Seeing Other Children as a Child VS as an Adult

Ngl since I grew up with Naruto, I feel as if I will always see them as my peers in a sense. If anything, almost like the “older kids” in school. Like I don’t know if this is a common perception, but I remember when I was like in 2nd grade I saw 6th graders as like tiny adults, but then when I was in 6th grade I saw 2nd graders as like babies. Does that make sense?? Anyway, it’s interesting rewatching Naruto as an adult and seeing my “peers” when they were younger. I remember thinking that 12 & 13 year olds were badass and cool and practically ready for the real world (I was like 8 or 9 when I first started watching leave me alone), and being amazed at stuff like the chunin exams. Nowadays my brain just kinda goes “why are we letting these CHILDREN go to war???” It’s a similar story with like the sensei. Thinking they’re so experienced and old and… now I’m the same age as them and I’m still young!!

4. Might Gai is Cringe and I Love Him For That

The way I didn’t appreciate this man when I was a kid is a CRIME. Teaching his students (and friends) that it’s important to find joy in life is SO IMPORTANT and Gai just does an EXCELLENT job with that!! He strives to be a source of light for the people in his life, and to show others it’s important to smile and laugh from time to time. It warms my cold dead grownup heart what can I say. There’s a line in OG Naruto after Lee beats Sasuke in their fight before the chunin exams, where Naruto turns to Sasuke and Sakura as their cringing at Lee and Gai and says, “actually, it’s kinda sweet how they’re all hugging and stuff!” And that kinda summarizes my thoughts on them.

TLDR Might Gai is cringe but he is free and I love him so much for that.

5. Seeing Myself in Characters I Didn’t Before

Off the top of my head, the three characters I see myself in more so now than when I was younger is definitely Choji, Lee, and Tenten.

I was never popular growing up, especially when I moved back to the US after living in Cuba. Kids just didn’t wanna play with me or have me on their sports teams, so I was purposefully left out oftentimes, kinda like how choji was when he was younger. Rewatching that part made me cry honestly HAHA I saw myself so clearly. I’m also plus size so the beauty standards he has to deal with really speak to me. I remember Shikamaru telling him one time that girls don’t have to be skinny to be pretty and I would be lying if that didn’t give me a huge amount of confidence in myself.

Rock Lee’s story has always been top notch, but as someone who chose to specialize in a path that I didn’t really have natural talent for myself it REALLY speaks to me now. I’ll be 100% honest, I was never really one of those “been drawing since I could hold a pencil” kind of kids. I liked it, but I didn’t really consider myself any good until like 8th grade or so. Anyway, there’s this scene where Lee is crying at the training grounds cuz he’s scared that, no matter how hard he works, it’ll all be for nothing and that he’ll always be a loser, and uh… had to turn the show off cuz that struck WAAAAAAAY too close to home for me as an artist with a… let’s be real, a failing art business. Anyway, he inspires me though to keep going cuz this is what brings me joy. I may take longer than most, but that doesn’t mean I’m less of a person for it.

Tenten I’ve honestly seen a lot of myself in even when I was younger! But there’s this filler episode that goes into detail on how she tried really hard to be just like Tsunade, since that was her dream since she was little. Turns out she doesn’t have the capacity to do that (not being able to do medical ninjutsu well, etc), but she finds her own strengths along the way. What really spoke to me was letting go of your childhood dreams. It’s hard. It feels like you’re failing in a way. But Tenten was able to persevere and find a new and even better path forward for herself. And that’s just amazing. I love seeing that, and it helps me feel as if I too and maybe find my path.

6. Final Thoughts and Random Little Things

I think it’s also safe to say that I can pick up on story flaws (I’m looking at you 4th great ninja war arc) and inconsistencies (how the heck does the hyuga clan work wtf). It’s a long series and nowadays you can binge the whole thing in one sitting (I don’t recommend that please take care of yourself). Back in my day I had to wait a whole week to watch the next 26 minute episode with commercials in between. Also I was a kid. AHAHA!! But again, long series, so I’m sure Kishi forgot about certain details while he was being pushed to continue the series.

Also my views on certain things that happened in the series changed based on what I know what happens later, which I find to be quite fun!

Overall I still enjoy the series, both for similar reasons as I did back in the day (Neji) and for new reasons!! Flaws and all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

#chit chat #naruto #naruto meta

[parasocialitevn]

What inspired you to make a VN game just curious.

Well, I've wanted to make games for some time, but when I was younger I had a problem with keeping the scale of my projects more manageable, so I'd often end up with my eyes bigger than my stomach and putting those on hold. When the yandere subgenre started gaining traction, as someone who's been a big fan of the trope for a LONG time, I felt like I had a lot of passion and knowledge about the subject matter to be able to make something enjoyable that I'd be proud of, but I didn't have the courage for a while. When I saw how supportive the community can be, though, that gave me the push I needed.

Eden is a mix of a lot of things for me, parts of her represent issues I struggled with in my own past (though much more severe in her case), she's also my love letter to the yandere trope in many ways; and as more details come out, people with the level of investment I do might notice little details meant to homage to some of the greats and classics. (And even if they don't, I'm content to just sew in these little details and references into the fabric of my work, purely as a labor of love.)

Also, I noticed that there weren't any female yanderes in the sphere of YanVNs, and as someone who has a big bias towards women in terms of attraction, and this being a largely NSFW/Dating Sim type sphere, I thought there was a niche to be filled there. I know the trope started as a mainly female-driven one, but character writing for female characters has... come a long way, lets say. So I wanted to bring a complex, flawed, and intriguing female character into the space that hopefully people will like!

In art school they taught us that each creator has their own unique flavor to contribute to art as a whole. "It doesn't matter if it's been done before, it hasn't been done by YOU." And I like to keep that in mind to keep me motivated when I feel pessimistic about my work or I'm catching myself comparing mine to the works of others.

I hope this rambly response is a somewhat coherent answer to your question, lol;;;;

#parasocialite vn #asks #parasocialite #modsu #lore stream

[calxide]

ー ANSWERs

pairing: kazuha x reader

warning/s: no pronouns used for reader, one-sided pining, mild angst (you might need to squint), lowkey self-indulgent fic, lmk if i missed something

word count: 784 words

NOTE i was listening to joshua's cover of 'double take' on loop then decided to write something to pass time. i just can't take kazuha out of my mind these days hnggghhh. anyways, have fun boring yourself with this drabble as we wait for genshin's maintenance to finish lol <3 (this has been sitting pretty in my drafts for a while now and i didn't proofread this properly sigh) ✧ good luck to everyone pulling for kazuha! 🍃 might turn this to an smau, who knows

EDIT ok, so i made an smau based on this. feel free to check it out! <3 [MIXED SIGNALS MASTERLIST]

KAZUHA didn't mean to fall in love with his friend. He deeply swore in his heart, when you two had first met, that he would never ever catch feelings for you. But it's funny how life works like that sometimes, isn't it? The past months had passed by quickly. After certain twists of events, you and Kazuha found yourselves spending a lot of time together, even forgetting about the existence of your other friends. The time spent together wasn't wasted away either; Kazuha learned more things about you in those months than he knew before, but it was all good. You'd started spending more time together, getting together on weekends, or simply hanging out on the roads in Inazuma. The only thing was that he had been falling head over heels for his best friend, you.

And as much as he tried to resist it, he couldn't keep himself away from you. It was as if your presence was contagious; even if you two are not together at the moment, he still found ways to think about you. Every night, his mind was filled with thoughts about you. And there was no way he could tell you about his feelings unless he wanted to risk losing you.

He once promised that you two would be friends forever. Would confessing his love for you break that silly little promise you two made before? He wanted to tell the entire world just how much perfect you are. How much he loves, adores, and admires you. You may have flaws, but that was what completed you as a person. He always felt comfortable when he was with you.

He felt a confusing switch in his heart the moment he fell for you. It was when he saw you differently; that he wanted to be more than friends with you. It was scary. His emotions are going to consume him one day, and he doesn't know if you'll still be by his side when that happens. So, he tried to distract himself. By doing anything, but thinking about you. He'd start conversations with others, pretend to be interested in their stories, anything to avoid his stupid feelings.

But he sees no one but you. Even if you are lost in the crowd, he'd be the first one to see you. When he's with you, he always tries his hardest to remember everything about your presence. If you are feeling down or sick, he'd be the first one to notice and take care of you. Even in his dreams, he sees your sweet and soft smile that makes his heart melt every single time. Whenever he looks into your eyes, he feels his heart beating fast. He was absolutely horrendously in love with you.

Sometimes, he wonders if you ever feel the same about him. Do you? He doesn't know, and he's not going to do anything about it, he decided. He wouldn't want to ruin the friendship he has with you. Not when he could be having this amazing friendship with you. If it is meant to be, then they will come eventually.

He hated how he strongly believed that if you two are meant to be together, then the universe will send him a sign. But no sign came. It felt as if fate was playing with him.

He would be using the time he has in his hands to write poems, letters, and even songs about you. He would dedicate them to you in the hope that maybe someday, you'll read them. He hoped he could show you how much you mean to him. He also wishes he could say what he has been wanting to tell you since the beginning. He wished you could reciprocate those feelings he has. But the chances of that happening seemed slim.

He wanted to spend his entire life with you. There was nothing better than being by your side, he thought. No matter how hard it got, he would wait for you. Because you're worth it. No one could compare to you. But he knew that it won't happen. So instead, he decides to cherish the moments he spent with you. He'll treasure these memories until the very end.

He wanted to be by your side forever, even if you two are not romantically linked together.

Can you sense the signs that he's sending you? He wonders.

Do you feel the love he's giving you? That one question sends shivers down his spine.

If so, does he have a chance? He hopes.

Kazuha doesn't know and will never know the answer to such questions.

But deep down, he knows that he wants to ask you the truth one day.

#genshin imagines #genshin x reader #genshin x y/n #genshin x you #genshin x gn reader #genshin x gender neutral reader #kazuha x you #kazuha x y/n #kazuha x gender neutral reader #genshin impact x you #genshin impact x reader #genshin angst #genshin drabbles #kazuha drabbles #✍ー rein writes

[lesbiannancytruther]

I wanted to echo that ask about the way Robin and Nancy have different strengths and the example in the meeting with the dr at Pennhurst. I'm obsessed with that scene because of the ronance/nancy character analysis. You mention in a few rants about how Nancy has this whole thing of chafing and struggling against expectations of others for her, particularly in the way it's quite gendered (like the whole thing of the sexism she goes through at work and how she relates to Karen about it). You notice that with that said, she will also exploit that to get what she needs too, so there are a number of times when she leans into femininity and puts on an act. Her whole plan to get into Pennhurst is that but there are other places this comes up too. Robin I don't think does this nearly as much, although we don't see as much of her in different situations, but it seems like she's much more likely to just be herself. The way Robin would approach getting into Pennhurst would be completely different to Nancy's but it's Nancy's plan and she's following her lead and getting dressed up to play the part, Nancy even says "let me do the talking." The plan goes well for awhile but then Hatch stars shutting them down. Robin starts getting pissed off at the way he's talking down to Nancy but Nancy is still trying to play this act. This is the bit where their difference complement each other so well because Robin decides to ignore Nancy's plan and take her own approach which is confrontational and direct. You even see Nancy get kind of hit by Robin's insistence on being herself, meeting sexism head on, and not playing into others' expectations. The whole scene becomes like a microcosm of the ways they are different but also the ways they can help each other, make one another stronger. It makes them effective partners both in a relationship sense but also in problem solving and doing the kind of work the season required of them. I don't really know how to finish off this ask but yeh I think there's a point in all of that lol.

okay so basically yes to all of this!

i love that you pointed out how nancy uses social expectations to her advantage sometimes! because of course she does! as we all know, nancy really ISNT that good of a liar, she's not smooth and often slips, but she gets away with it a LOT, and that's because she often uses what is expected of her as an advantage. often posing as a caring friend, a worried granddaughter, an aspiring scholar, a voice for the people, things that people would expect her to be/WANT to believe her to be. this is effective! until it isn't

robin is like, the perfect solution to nancy's flaws, because she's shown in multiple situations that she's much better at spinning the truth rather than outright lying. was peety mchugh real? who knows! but you can tell robin had FELT that way before, had an experience like that, and used it to their advantage, covering for where nancy's default to relying on social expectations to boost her lying fell flat (taking no for an answer because shes a woman or whatever)

robin also unknowingly helps nancy with an unhealed wound (her experiences in s3 w the newspaper) by standing up for her in regards to her being silenced. (which didn't happen in s3).

i think what makes them work so well together is that robin is not submissive to what nancy thinks is best in the way jonathan is, and not because she doubts her abilities, but because she reacts accordingly to best uplift nancy's original ideas and leads them to success, which is what makes them such a good team.

they wouldn't have gotten in without nancy's ingenuity and they wouldn't have gotten through without robin's quick thinking and adaptability

also bonus: nancy is more physically confrontational and impulsive while robin is more emotionally confrontational and impulsive and tbh i love that for them.

#ronance #robin buckley #nancy wheeler #stranger things #ask #i love when i get asks like this btw theyre also so correct and real

[horce-divorce]

finding myself in a relationship where we have managed, in just 2 weeks, to have more healthy and productive and reassuring conversations about our trauma, goals, hopes & fears, than me and any of my exes ever did!! Ever!!! Combined!!! And it is. insane actually lol. it's so new to me to say to my loved one exactly what I'm thinking, without mincing words, and to not only have him not take it personally and freak out / end the conversation, but he answers eagerly and candidly and in a way that actually puts me at ease and makes my anxiety stop??? He specifically talks with me to make ME feel better??? 🥺

I am finding myself with a guy who hears me state my needs and doesn't immediately make it about him, even if our needs don't exactly match or he can't help me with that right now! It's amazing! It feels sooo much better than when my exes and I would lie to each other about our needs totally being met and it being "fine" and then fight about it when one of us inevitably told the truth. he doesn't try to make me feel bad about it when we don't want the same thing! which is fine bc honestly most of the time we genuinely do! and when we don't it's simply not a big deal! like!!!

and not only that but he notices and cares when I'm in a bad mood and asks about it, and remembers the shit I said about my feelings months ago? I was having some Fears the other day, and he asked, and I told him, and he said, "I remember you saying once that you felt replaceable and that's NOT true!!!!" and then hugged me and told me he loved me and that I deserve all his love and care, until I actually felt better??? Like. that cut immediately right to the center of how I was feeling and I didn't get to saying that part out loud, I started to and he immediately knew exactly what I was getting at, because he cares how I feel and was already paying attention before?? Like, I didn't have to ask him to notice how I feel, because he was already paying attention.

For once my boyfriend is more emotionally intelligent than I am and is actually teaching me so much about communicating and stating my needs and asking for/finding the things I need. He is so resourceful and he's done so much therapy already and he knows so much about like trauma and DBT and coping skills. He's so smart!! He's so good at setting boundaries!!! He is always teaching me new things!! I'm literally so inspired by him every single day!!!!

part of me does feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, and we will face plenty of challenges I can already foresee.. but that's life. my friend told me something so wise the other day. she said "anxiety is loud, intuition is a whisper." anxiety screams constantly that I'm not good enough and that everyone is just biding their time until my true flaws rear their ugly heads. Anxiety shouts and yells and stamps it's feet and demands to be heard above all reason and all other emotions.

But lately there's a quieter voice, much deeper down, that's telling me, "I really believe it's gonna be alright." That he really cares. That these are genuine green flags and not 'red flags through rose colored glasses.' That we want the same things and that following him is not only the romantic, idealisric thing to do, but actually the right thing for me, too. So that I can have someone who loves and cares for me, too. So that I have someone helping me achieve my goals, too!! So that we can build queer community and a family and a life together, cause it's a lot easier with the buddy system, and with someone who wants good things for you.

Yesterday we were hunting rocks on the beach and talking about how people subconsciously look for their parents in a partner, and how he's looked for emotionally unavailable partners in the past bc his parents were so abusive (about his mental health, about his queerness, about the fact that they didn't even want a child; he was never anything more than a chesspiece to his Mormon mother).

And he told me, "you're nothing like my parents." I don't have a word for how it made me feel. Something akin to "hopeful," I think, and grateful, and so much love.

Because I've done that, too. we've talked about this before, how when you've been traumatized, you often seek out what's familiar instead of what's healthy. His mom is awful. she met me once (1) and I was so visibly transgender she went on a month-long rampage that ended with her kicking her own son out (bc it's my fault he's on T, despite him being out & transitioning for YEARS longer than me rofl). I know how hard he's trying to break the cycle and he is actually probably the first person in his whole family to ever do it. He's doing SO good and I am so proud of him bc it's so hard.

To be told I'm nothing like his parents is something to wear like a badge of honor. Thank fucking goodness I am nothing like his parents, for his sake. Thank fucking goodness he finally found someone who can try to love him right. And thank goodness it gets to be me!!! Hot damn!!!!

like not to brag or anything but this absolutely rules. I'm so glad I made it through everything I've been through just so I could meet him, it was worth everything. gay t4t love is healing me from the inside out 🥰

#me #everybody shut the fuck up and look at my boyfriend!!!! #<3 bel

[nonclassyparty]

i wonder what's everyone favourite chapter of svoh. because all of them are on different level of pain. SO WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE??? like the one you could read all over again.

mine would be when you end it. it's insane. the way i thought oh maybe maybe finally mc love herself enough to not counting days for things to end, but no she didn't. not yet.

like it show really so much about how you need to love yourself first before anything, you know? but i like all of it! i like her relationship all of them! like (SPOILER ALERTT)

with yunho(the very first heartbreak so outside the pain it bring me rage),

yeosang (the real enjoyer part but still side eye for sleeping with mc roommate),

hongjoong (OH HE DOES PISS ME OFF mostly because he ghosted her and make her doubt herself all over again),

seonghwa (man this one actually hurt because they point out each other flaws like they're going on a hunt)

AND YUNHO AGAIN (oh this one bring me pain too but i cheered at the fireplace scene like yes burn it burn his house too jk),

wooyoung (crying bleeding throwing up for this one you know why it's so obvious),

jongho one makes me want to put him on a nice coffin and throw him 6 feet down,

mingi. when i read the title i need to take a longggg breath because wtf. how can you cheat for months? WITH YOUR HIGHSCHOOL EX? FUCK YOU. his character can appear in front of me any time of the day and i will kick his ass as hard as i could (by all mean, i'm serious) not to mention mc's mother death this is 100% pain for me but there's the yunho closure so yeah

and san chapter is SUPER DUPER WHOLESOME. I LOVE IT. he's everything. and mc is finally alright at this part. she finally love herself, and met with someone who loves her and themselves just the same is important for her. i love to see her growth. and i love her kids! i love their fight to hehe. (when i read the ask about how you firstly consider yunho as the ending i nearly choked but yeaaayyy thank you for this)

so yeah i love the series so much i can't help but to wonder how others think about it. ESPECIALLY YOU. i love this series so much i sometimes have beef with it.

🌙-

OUUUUUUUUU interesting!!!!! this might be a little long of an answer but i'm in the mood to talk tonight so lets gooooooooo..

well each chapter has moments that i really enjoyed writing and all of them have parts from my own life and experiences that i stitched into them. that series was literally my baby and what i decided to use to introduce myself to you guys on tumblr so it's really important to me. but i do have my favorites hehe

for yunho (first part) it was the childhood friendships and describing the way their relationship grew since they were kids, all the changes you go through when you're a teenager and of course, the first love and the innocence of it all. also it brought up memories of my own childhood and high school years and out of all the chapters this one was the most personal one. it was just a joy to write. now that i'm older (not that old but in college lmfao) i feel like i didn't appreciate those years enough so it was really a nice way to start the series.

then there was wooyoung's part because it was almost like writing a summer romance (if you ignore the overload of angst lol). i think i managed to make his character someone ideal to meet in college, especially after you just got fucked over by an ex and i liked how it turned out altho i'm not a 100% satisfied with it, i feel like i could've inserted a lot more of their relationship (the happy times) into it but still, it's a favorite. i always enjoy writing about summer which you probably noticed from wooyo's part, san's part (i think mingi's, hwa's and jongho's as well but i can't remember now lol) and you will from the final part of starring role. so by default, wooyoung's part has a high spot on my list lol.

and THEN san's part. san's part was just pure daydreaming lol the last chapter was just a way to comfort myself (and everyone out there who feels like me maybe) that in life eventually you will find the right person and it will be someone completely unexpected. i liked how i wrote the relationship between san and y/n the most out of all the other parts. i loved how i developed his character in y/n's eyes from the annoying boy she sat next to at a party when she was in high school to the man she ends up marrying.

can you tell that yunho, wooyoung and san are my bias line from this? 😭 they're all nepo babies getting the best parts of my stories

#🌙anon

[kithtaehyung]

ok, so i know it's a lot but i'm really curious 😭 sorry : 18, 26, 30 , 43, 47, 50, 55, 72 and 79

omgggg!! my love this is dope let's get it :D this felt like an interview djhdf i enjoyed it, so thank you<3

18. Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?

i don't enjoy it but yeah, i do research since you gotta give subjects justice! the one that's required the most researching so far isn't released yet but it's a sugar daddy!jin fic mwahaha

26. What’s your least favorite part of the writing process?

when the fics don't write themselves :')) ehh but also the self-doubt when it presents itself. that's not fun.

30. How much do you edit your fics?  Do you edit as you write or wait until you finish the first draft?

literally edit until i am convinced the story is legitimately boring or not interesting huhuhu it's one of my writing flaws! i edit to procrastinate from writing what's not written yet lol so i do tend to edit as i go. and then again when the draft is entirely finished.

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?

yes! i've been wanting to write a survival au at some point. all the rest that i've wanted to write are wips that i've started ehehe

47. Is there a trope that you’ve written before but are now sick of?

nope! nothing's gotten to that point yet.

50. How would you describe your writing style?

damn, i really don't know. this is actually why i love when people describe it bc i can't seem to pinpoint it and stick with what i think lol. there was a time where i did say that i write like it's perpetually autumn/fall in my head, but with new stories came new "seasons" of writing so i can't really say that anymore.

now i will say that i think my rhythm/cadence is heavily influenced by anime/shows?? like each line break is intentional bc i think of it as a "camera cut" as i see the scene unfolding in my head. this is a huge reason why my paragraphs are rarely long. if they are, it's intentional.

wait!! we can say that: my writing style is intentional.

55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics?  Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

YES. now that i'm writing a lot more than i used to, i'm noticing the small patterns/things i default to when writing certain scenes or emotions or portrayals. i tend to use opposites a lot, and sets of three is a given. for themes, love tends to be the dominant one, whether it's for people, self, or even things like music.

72. What’s your favorite writing compliment you’ve gotten?

this was answered but i wanna shoutout @thisbrokenmask for their compliment on first love, last love. i still remember it being one of the first i've ever gotten on bts fics and it's still stuck with me to this day.

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share?

the art of writing is a journey, and journeys have both ups and downs. but the great thing about adventures is that you get to see yourself improve with each step, whether it's tiny or huge. you meet people along the way. you come across things you didn't expect. and you get to look back at all the things you've been through and accomplished while also knowing there's stuff to experience ahead of you.

so my advice? take it all as it comes. start, keep going, rest if you need. the journey is always more fun than the destination.

fanfic writing asks!

#thank you lua! #ask games #writing asks #long post #*ryenfictalk #mailbox💌

[redux-iterum]

Alright a bit of a weird question about RUNNING Iterum vs the iterum itself. was wondering as an online ‘creator’ (I hate that word but you know what I’m getting at), especially in a fandom such as warriors, how do you avoid the whole ‘pedastaling’ thing, overfamiliarity, and parasocial interaction? I’ve noticed it sooooo much in the warriors community, so I’ve been hesitant to try and out myself out there out of fear LOL.

Don’t feel obligated to answer! Also sending off anon if you’d rather keep it private. Thank you for your time, I hope your day is going excellent!

Well, truthfully, I didn't manage to avoid any of that! I can't tell you any cure-all way to escape them entirely, but I can give you my experiences in dealing with these things and my overall philosophy when it comes to putting out things online.

Firstly, the original Redux was held on a VERY high pedestal - people proclaiming it to be the true canon, at least one person trying to get the actual Erin Hunter team to read it and "take notes", little makeshift books being printed out for it, etc. - and, in the fashion of anything Tumblr held on a high pedestal in that era, it inevitably crashed and burned and led to a lot of drama and disheartening conflict. I won't say people were worshiping the ground I walked on, but they certainly gave me more credit than anyone should give a writer as inexperienced as I was. I think it's just the nature of fandom to get extremely excited about something even mildly good and the cumulative effect of thousands of people getting excited with each other causes a herd mentality that gets only more extreme over time before someone pipes up to the contrary and is actually listened to, whether or not their argument is legitimate, and then THAT becomes the most popular idea. It's way better now than it was back then, believe me - people seem to register when I make mistakes or have flaws without hating me for them, and it's been an overall very healthy perspective from readers and fans on who I am as a person.

To a degree. That's where we'll get into the other two.

Over-familiarity, as well, I certainly have had to deal with, and still do, and this kind of bleeds into parasocial relationships, so I'll tackle them both here. People nowadays seem to have forgotten the most important rule of being online, which is that you need to assume that the stranger you're talking to does not have your best interests at heart and you need to exercise a bit of caution before you get to personal stuff. I've had at least four separate people jump at me with their problems, troubled backstories and traumas (one incident being so severe I don't even want to describe it, and that was their opening line). There are some folk who genuinely want to start a dialog with me and exchange thoughts on things or ask questions about my writing, which is totally fine! That's how I met a great deal of my friends and have a friendly relationship with plenty of fans. I won't say that's invalid. But there are people who seem to think I'm a free therapist or that I know them like they're my buddy, when neither is true. I just recently put up a warning on the About page of this blog that I'm no longer tolerating that shit and will block if one pushes those boundaries. Which I should have done earlier, but I have a bad habit of being too passive and sensitive to strangers.

So those things do exist and can happen to anybody. I won't even try to convince you otherwise. However, they're a really small part of an overall great time I've had putting out fanfics and comics and general creative work. I've made amazing friends (and if it wasn't for me meeting Lynx via the Redux, this whole rewrite would never have happened), I've learned a lot about myself and how and why I create, and, most importantly, I've had people come to me and tell me I've inspired them to do their own thing and give it their all. My effect on the fandom was sizable, whether it was White!Scourge or rewrites as a whole, and it's been a great deal of fun to check my inbox and see enthusiastic messages or questions about lore or even seeking advice, like your ask. I can't give you any sure-fire road to success - I only have a very small idea of why I did as well as I did - but I can vouch for being brave enough to start creating and sharing it with people. If for nothing else, to prove to yourself that your work has worth and can brighten someone's day, even if they don't comment on it (and a lot of people who love stuff, including me, don't say a single thing ever to the creator!).

The piece of advice I would give, if I am to give one, is to establish boundaries. Block whoever makes you uncomfortable or is making your life and enjoyment of your stuff harder. Tell anons when they're being inappropriate or offensive. Delete asks that are probing or trying to get a rise out of you. Put a notice somewhere on your blog if you need to that you're not tolerating whatever it is you're willing to block over. It doesn't have to be some deep-seated trauma of yours. It could be talking about beagles, for all I care. You don't have to discuss shit if you don't want to. Be firm and assertive, especially with aggressively friendly strangers. You don't owe them a god damn thing, whether they think otherwise.

That's about all I can think of to say right now. I hope this answer helped! I encourage you to start posting stuff and just focus on enjoying yourself, rather than any ambiguous problems that could theoretically show up (and they may not ever!). Good luck!

#ask #advice #real talk #seawoven #i speak

[dragonkeeper19600]

I'm so glad i found this blog. I too feel dissatisfied with HNK but if torturing readers was the point of it all and not getting Phos a satisfying comforting ending wasn't well... good job for them ig.

But, like, yeah. So glad you are vocal of your dissatisfaction and frustration about it. I honestly feel regretful reading 100+ chapters of... That. If i had known it all boils down to Phos being alone and without the people she sought acceptance from then i wouldn't have read it... it's those cases where i wish there was author tags like in ao3 lol. The whole "i wish i stuck to don't like don't read mentality" :' )

I can't really blame the mangaka though. I have read their previous works and i noticed they do tend to come up with stories people would not be so into. It's their preference/fetish and i wouldn't judge them. It's just that HNK to me had so much promise, yet perhaps i should have been more strict with what i read.

(sorry for my tangent, i actually came here to say i like your HNK fix it fic ideas, it's a good AU and really spark with my own preference for the plot ^^!! Kudos to you!!)

Hey, sorry it took me so long to get to this ask! I really appreciate the positive feedback! I'm glad I'm not the only one who sees what a mess this series is.

However, I personally don't really see reading/watching a bad series as a waste of time. Maybe I'm optimistic, but I think that it's good to be open to reading as many different things as possible because it can broaden your scope and lead to new ideas of your own. Even when a series doesn't work, it could still carry good ideas, provide an example of what not to do, or at the very least make you think about something you never thought about before.

Based on what I've seen online, a lot of people stuck with this series in particular for so long because they were convinced that the ending would somehow make everything in the story worth it. A lot of people were hoping Phos would defy or "defeat" Aechmea in some way in the end, sort of like the "Hell Ending" I wrote about in one of my posts. So when he didn't do that and just went along with what Aechmea wanted, a lot of people felt ripped-off. However, in my opinion, thinking that the ending alone would make this entire frustrating series worth it was a naive hope from the start. Only very rarely is a mediocre work elevated or redeemed by its ending, and even if it is, if you find yourself waiting for the ending for something to get good, then the work is already seriously flawed. It should be good, or at least decent, all the way through. By the ending, it's too damn late.`

[regentlord]

Sir ....... did you ....... and Dar'Khan, did you ...... sIR DID YOU AND .... DID YOU??? DID YOU. YOU KNOW. :(

always accepting meta asks !

— @acherys

we will neither confirm nor deny those allegations at this time, the regent lord is taking no more questions today

...

ok let me answer this for real because i have had this thought for years and was always too much of a coward to properly elaborate.

in blood of the highborne, we're introduced to liadrin, gallel and dar'khan having been captured by trolls. lor'themar, also captured, arrives later - and immediately promises he'll find a way to get them all out of there. no one will be left behind. it's all or none. ultimately they escape by uniting forces, and become a group of close friends. liadrin's narration makes it clear though they met in struggle, they went on to share in each other's growth and victories - as well as that, being the only one not advancing professionally, dar'khan started to grow envious and bitter.

my point, though, is that while she notices this, she seems like the only one who does - and not really without reason, I think, because to me lor'themar always read as closer to dar'khan than she was. it makes sense, too - despite their eventual friendship, dar'khan shows disdain for the priests. he is proud, arrogant and constantly placing himself above others from the start, but I suppose that wouldn't be so easy to see to one he may have treated as an equal. and I imagine he did because the farstriders are important, they're quel'thalas' main and nearly only significant military force they have. lor'themar is not only one of them but suggested to be high-ranking. I think dar'khan would've treated lor'themar very differently from the disdain and arrogance he shows to others.

and, well, if he was arrogant and a bitch on occasion, lor'themar can't quite criticize when so is he. they're young when they meet, and certainly more foolish; he'd let a lot slide.

anyway. back to the point: I think between the group itself, there are different dynamics at play. lor and lia are best friends, but he isn't as close to gallel as he is to her. he is most definitely close to dar'khan, though, I just think it's. a different type of close.

I don't think they were ever deeply romantically involved, though I do think the tension existed, maybe even some initial feelings. idk about dar'khan really, idk how much of what he showed all this time would have been real and what would've been fake (and not knowing even after is one of the things that plagues lor'themar the most. some moments are easy, he can remember and think himself foolish for not seeing through him before. but others... others he'll replay over and over in his head, turn around inside out, analyze every pause and each breath and be unable to say whether it was true or false and it'll torment him long after dar'khan is finally gone for good). but I do think lor'themar cared for him deeply, and that there was a romantic interest as well, but he never acted on it, at least not in the sense of truly being in a relationship. they were good friends and he didn't want to threaten to ruin that (lol), and they were also both seemingly very focused on their jobs to bother with serious relationships back then. doesn't mean they never explored each other's bodies carnally but I'm not saying they did either.

the tldr is: I think they were really close, in a way that was particular to them and not about belonging to a friend group. I think the tension existed and lor'themar at one point did have an interest in him as more than friends. I don't think they were ever in an actual relationship in that sense, not in any way either of them would consider it a relationship. and I think their even closer bond is also part of why lor'themar would never in a million years distrust him. they had been close friends for ages. he thought he knew dar'khan, flaws included, and treachery wasn't one of them. he definitely saw more good in him than dar'khan proved to have, be it out of it being what he wanted to see, dar'khan faking it, the homoerotic tension clouding his vision or all previous options.

#» out of character — ⌜number one elf apologist.⌟ #» character study — ⌜a ranger at heart.⌟ #this was typed on mobile and tumblr app crashed twice so like #sorry if it doesnt make sense ajhsjahsiahsis i swear i tried

[thestobingirlie]

Hey! It’s revelation anon! How are you doing? I meant to send this in wayy earlier but things came up and I had no time for the tumblr. 

Anyways, my original revelation hinged on Steve’s flaw being self centrism, but I think I can spin it to be the one that the show/the Duffers/fandom wants us to focus on. Anyways, you got it in the tags. I was going to try and hinge it around Steve and Nancy’s flaws being the same, not in a Stancy way, but more in a “why does fandom see Steve’s self centrism as bad while ignoring Nancy’s.” Again, I’m going to try and hinge Steve’s thing about the flaw about what the Duffer’s want the audience to see but not 100% sure it’s going to work. I’ll figure it out.  Anyways, while I was off tumblr, I had a bunch of thoughts about Stranger Things that I decided to elaborate on. I'm not going to include all of them because then this ask would get too long. A lot of them were probably noticed before but I just noticed them/they just popped in my head. The first is just the timings in season 2. Like Barb was declared dead by the lab in November 1984. Why does it look it’s spring at her funeral? It’s December in Indiana, there should not be green leaves on the trees. And like Steve appears to go to the Wheeler’s in the afternoon and when he’s driving Dustin it’s night? One thing that kinda bugs me is why did Nancy dance with Dustin at the end of S2? Like Nancy isn’t really emphatic to characters around her in general. And she and Dustin don’t appear to have a good relationship in my opinion. She slams a door in his face. They don’t interact much in Season 2. She says Dustin is her favorite out of Mike's friends, but we really don’t see her act that way towards Dustin. Like why did she decide now was the time to be nice to him? Like she could be doing it out of the goodness of her heart, but that doesn’t really feel like Nancy to me. Just something that bugged me for a bit.

Also Ro/nance has issues that usually don't get explored in fandom and one of my favorite fics from another fandom did this type of complicated relationship perfectly. (Character A breaks up with Character B and they are devastated and then Character A dates person important to Character B) I was going to elaborate but then it started getting way too long.

Anyways, I hope I didn't annoy you too much with the length of this ask!!

i’ve made quite a few posts about nancy being a bit self-involved, or i usually say not great at empathy lol. but yeah, i could see an argument made that steve’s moments of being self involved, whether you see it as his fatal flaw or not, are always seen as bad things, whereas nancy’s are covered up. honestly, i think most of that just comes from the show refusing to acknowledge nancy’s flaws, and the fans have just kind of picked up on that, and so just kind of ignore any she does have!

okay. so, the duffer brothers are very bad at time management. like weirdly bad. it’s said that scoops troop was in the russian underground for a day, yet two days pass above ground.

i think i read someone say that they think the duffers just like for dramatic moments to happen at night, no matter whether that actually makes sense, and it just totally fucks with the timeline.

also! i cannot say much about barb’s funeral, because i have no idea what autumn/winter weather looks like in indiana, though i will take your word for it!

i honestly have not watched that scene in years because i cannot bear to watch dustin cry. but anyway, i think they just needed a way for dustin to not cry, and nancy was there! it is kind of weird that nancy hasn’t ever really spoken to him before that scene and doesn’t really again. the duffers kind of only care about relationships when they have to. and then just drop them. but to defend nancy a bit here, she does care about other people, and you would feel bad if you saw some little kid crying in the corner. (though i think all that shit about favourites was just her lying to make him feel better lol. i do not think she cares enough about her brothers friends to have favourites)

i have spoken about r//nance at length on this account, and many people have complained to me about it lol. so yeah, i think this fandom just doesn’t like writing complex relationships lol, so they just ignore all the shit that would get in the way of the actual relationship. also, in fics where r//nance is a background ship, the author wouldn’t want to dedicate loads of time to untangling all the drama. and in fics where r//nance is the focus, i just don’t think they care enough about steve and robin’s actual characterisation to make sure it makes sense.

also, i don’t mind long asks! though they do take me a bit longer to answer lol

#steve harrington #nancy wheeler #anti ronance #stranger things #asks #anon

[tinkerbell-dainty011]

I miss you so much, it hurts :(( we met again today. I know maybe I don't mean much to you anymore. We didn't even say Hi anymore. I still miss you. Those moments we shared, even though doesnt mean much to you, were a lot to me. You help me through something. I was feeling something I never felt before. I feel like I can do anything. I am sorry I ruin everything. Our plan to bake bread together never happened. I promise, but I didn't keep it. I am sorry. I hope you know how sorry I am. But I was hurting, I was rushing, I didn't know what I was doing. I know I don't deserve you. You are your own good person. I am not. I hope you find someone, or maybe you already did. If you do, I hope you are happy with your life. I only wish you the best. I wish I get to know you more before things get a little messy. I am sorry. Maybe this is for the best. I am not a good person. I am flawed. But I was a happy person with you. I just want to know I was happy. Even though I feel a bit neglected. Not only a bit lol. but a lot. That is why I got mad. Ugh, I wish we could talk more. I really hope I could get to know you more. But maybe not in this life time. Not now at least. Thank you. Thank you. I am so grateful to get to know you, even though now you hate me lol. Or maybe you don't feel anything about me. Maybe you have forgotten me. But I will remember you. How you manifest a lot of Taylor Swift song in my life lol. How I really feel become the character in august, sort of. The way you literally drop me off behind the mall, because we are really sneaking out. Oh my god, even just a crumb of memories could be so valuable for me. You really are something. I wish you know this oh my god. Please God, let him know how much I miss him. How much I want to know I am sorry. How much I want to be friends again. This time for real. And no rush to do anything, just friends. I hope we can meet again soon. Maybe you are with someone special, and I am now with my special someone too. You are a piece of my life that I am so grateful for. Thank you. Thank you. Let this be my little secret I will take to my grave. That probably every once in a while, you have a special place in my heart. That every once in a while I will always miss. My heart will always skips a beat if I met you in person. I could write so much about you my God. I didn't even know that much about you, rather than your awful taste in music lollll. It's just not the same as me I guess. We are so different. But this feeling, this song, the playlist daylight were all about you. How I notice you for the first time our friend mention that you "supposedly" have a crush on me. That the first time I have my eyes on you I felt electric, it goes on that my body starts to feel it too. My hands will become cold all of a sudden. My heart will skip a beat if I saw you. And my cheeks will blush if we ever made eye contact. I was become more social because how badly I want to be connected to you. I was actually being skinny, maybe because I was so happy that my cortisol actually lowered lol. Now I am not so skinny anymore, but you did. Congrats btw, great effort. You look good now. You always look good in my eyes. Aww. You really do. I love your eyes. Those dreamy, kinda sad, kind eyes. But you are really one tough shell that I have yet to cracked (also maybe never will lol). If someone really get through you, even though they need to stand the cold in you, it must be really worth it. I hope they will make you happy. I am no one but I was really enchanted to meet you. I don't want the night between us to ever end, but it did. I couldn't breathe for a while, because little did I know, things have really fell apart between us. But my special someone has breathe for me. I am living a different life now. And you are now too. I was putting a very high expectations and pressure to you. I didn't know how to do this. But again, that it is for the best. Hey I hope you had a wonderful days ahead. Once again, thank you, T.

[prismit]

alright, here's my thoughts on the current state of online tera raids and how i think they could be improved. excluding glitches in this post, since while yeah there's quite a few that should be addressed, i think the biggest flaws in this system are all just poorly designed mechanics.

under a cut because this got kind of long lol

problem 1: right now it's pretty much impossible to get into one of the 8 displayed raids on the front page unless you click on it within the first few seconds of the page loading (and even then it's pretty much a 50/50 shot). and instead of immediately telling you the raid is too full to join, it makes you wait a full 40 seconds for no reason.

two easy solutions to this: either decrease the time it tries to let the player in to ~10-15 seconds, or ideally just make it so pressing B while trying to join lets you cancel. also, since the front page raids fill up so fast, the refresh button should have a MUCH shorter cooldown; maybe 30-45 seconds at most.

problem 2: the random button is really the only way to consistently get into online raids. because of this, i feel like the time penalty for leaving a raid before it starts is too harsh (especially when you still get penalized even if the host cancels the raid, which is entirely unfair). i understand that the penalty is probably there to "encourage" people to help out lower level players. but on the opposite hand, i had a lot of times earlier in the postgame where i just didn't have anything to counter a difficult raid boss, so i had to choose between being a hindrance to the rest of the team - likely costing them the win - or backing out and taking a penalty for being courteous.

so i have a couple ideas for this: first of all, i don't think there should be a penalty at all for backing out before a raid starts. instead, give players who have beaten the game bonus rewards for participating in lower level raids. nothing too crazy, maybe just some extra exp candies and money items. don't punish players on the assumption that they're being selfish - instead, reward them on the assumption that they're being helpful.

on top of that, it could also be a good idea to have the random button take you to a second page where you can choose what tier of raids you want to join. this would also be a good place to show that lower tier raids can give higher tier players bonus rewards, which can encourage people to join those lower tier raids by choice. this is less necessary than the previous idea, but it'd be some nice quality of life.

problem 3: the raids themselves are way too slow with all the animations. the most noticeable example of this that i can think of is a rock type garganacl raid. every single turn, you have the player's animation (which is even longer if you're using a tera-boosted attack), then garganacl's tera-boosted animation, followed by its actual attack animation, and then the animation for being hurt by sandstorm, and finally the animation for being salt cured. sometimes also leftovers/shell bell and/or grassy terrain heals. every single turn. also, whenever you do something that heals your whole team, you're unable to do anything while you watch every pokemon do its healing animation. and that's not even mentioning how laggy it is online.

they already had a solution to this in sword and shield! abridge the move animations during raids. particles out of the attacker, particles into the target. don't make me watch shadow ball slowly creep towards the boss while a timer ticks down; that lost time really stacks. also this one should just be for every battle, but mention every stat boost/decrease at once instead of having a new text box for every stat. and of course when doing something that affects the whole team, do it all at once. there's a timer, i can't be sitting still for 10 seconds while every teammate is healed individually. the online lag is something i can't give any suggestions on really. that's on nintendo to improve their servers and it's on gamefreak to optimize their game.

problem 4: my final complaint might be more of a nitpick, but i really think the health cheer is way too rng-reliant. it feels like it only heals 1/5 of everyone's max hp most of the time. sure it also heals status conditions, but that doesn't really matter when you're knocked out this turn thanks to a tiny heal anyways. the other two cheers are always a net positive (unless you time them poorly and get your stats wiped immediately, but that's avoidable), but the health cheer way too often ends up doing more harm than good.

i can see that it might be hard to balance this one, but i just think it should never heal any less than 1/3 of everyone's max hp. maybe it heals 1/2 max hp 50% of the time, 1/3 40% of the time, and a full recovery 10% of the time. it doesn't have to be those numbers specifically, but the important part is that the minimum heal needs to be actually kind of decent, at least. otherwise its too much of a risk for something that's supposed to be a benefit.

there might be some other things that could be improved, but i think these are the worst of them. i also doubt they're actually going to fix raids in any way, but one can still hope! at the very least, i hope they learn and improve on these co-op game modes in future games.

#ghost town... 2! #pokemon #also 1 more as a joke: there should be a popup when you open the raids menu to remind you to consider what moves the boss might have. lol #stop bringing belly drum iron hands to a 6 star normal type sylveon raid challenge (impossible difficulty) #(the actual post has genuine gameplay mechanic critiques btw lmao i'm only complaining about other players here in the tags)

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for the book ask game: 4, 6, 10, 15, 19

4. what sections of a bookstore do you browse?

i like to think i read a lot of nonfiction, and i do 100% check out that section, but mostly i just beeline immediately to the science fiction (/fantasy if they're grouped) section lol

6. what books have you read in the last month?

recently i checked out life in victorian england (exactly as exciting as it sounds lol, but pretty decent) and the james patterson book witch and wizard (which is. a james patterson book) from my school library and read them! i enjoyed them both, i had read w+w a long time ago and got the nostalgia from that plus had an interesting experience noticing flaws that weren't there before. meanwhile, the victorian england book was written by a brit in the 60s and actually started out like... weirdly bigoted and self congratulatory? but it definitely got much better as it went on, and didn't distort the facts or anything.

i also read to see the stars, a little indie novella by lyra alice schneider (she deserves support. go support her), and read monstrous regiment near the start of this month, like an october 22 type beat, and that book of course kicked ass. gnu terry pratchett + ily discworld <3

10. do you have a guilty fav?

probably james patterson books like i mentioned above, like maximum ride and stuff. i'll also read a kids book ive read 500 times instead of a new book sometimes ahaha

15. recommend and review a book.

that's what i've been doing and now i'm tired!!!! for the author's sake, i'll recommend you all to see the stars- it's creative, it's queer, and i fell for the leads pretty quickly (there's two, and i really like one of them, melis/meliste). the story takes place on a lost colony, which was founded in the 22nd or 23rd century and socially regressed while everyone else advanced - but meanwhile, humanity was conquered by a federation of planets, which this colony escaped. it's interesting! it's the cultural deviation idea you also find in stuff like generation ships, but with a bigger, more textured world. i'd give it 4/5 stars. it's short, which means it's a nice light read, but they have other books, if you want more!

19. most disliked popular books?

i don't dislike things i'm a positive person <3

i woulddd actually probably say song of achilles? the thing is i haven't read it but i have a mutual who HATES it and also the reason i haven't read it yet is i tried but it just. did not draw my attention at all sorry... i do actually not like a lot of books but the thing is i don't like them because i started reading them and didn't get into them so i dropped them and that's not a great framework for criticism.

#chitra.txt #books #thanks for the ask!!!