#as friends or whatever we call it

[halfwayup]

you! I say, and mean a million different people. people I once loved. people I still love but not the way I used to. not in the way they wanted me to. In my poems you are both perpetrator and victim, hero and offender. I feel guilty about that. you are the person that’s making me feel the most. or used to, at least. you are my first love. you were the first to break my heart. you are a stranger on the train. someone I used to know. someone I have never known. my last love. the one I see when I look into the mirror.

maybe the truth lies somewhere in the in-between.

(lounging in the in-between)

#the in-between #misery and other sensations #first love #and the pain of continuing to grow with them #as friends or whatever we call it

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #toshiro nakamoto #chilchuck tims #kabru #BF in this context could be boyfriend or best friend. The line is so blurry. #Chilchuck less so but whatever is going on between Shuro and Laios & Kabru and Laios is giving strong: #“dude if you were a girl I'd date the hell out of you”. And from the genderswap extra's that sentiment is canon for BOTH. #This was made prior to the translation of the Laios & Kabru & Shuro restaurant date comic and honestly I am just feeling vindicated. #I don't even know what to call this dynamic other than a situationship. There is so much going on between all of them. #Even on a purely platonic reading - the miscommunication and male yearning for friendship hurt so bad. #When we got the Big Hug scene in the epilogue arc I was whooping and hollering! Pure catharsis moment! #I also don't like hugs very much so I really felt it went Shuro ('hates being touched') went in for the bear hug. #Do not get me started on the agony of 'always lying' Kabru telling the truth (I just wanted to be friends) #and 'always believes' Laios thinking it's another lie and brushing him off. #I am once again supporting dungeon meshi day by posting art. Please watch dungeon meshi. #obligatory edit because I’m tired: YES. Chilchuck cares for Laios and him admitting it was a huge part of his arc #YES he is more just fed up with him that actually hating him. #I needed a third guy to be canonically done with his ass for the THREE WEED SMOKING GIRLFRIENDS reference

[chalkrub]

(probably) final batch of doodles! and they're actually doodles this time

garrot for @celestriakle

panny for @falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand

celeste for @grox-empire

teo for @boymosss

margolia for @shanghai-ohmy

sage for microchipt who tumblr will not let me tag!

funney aminals in hats for @pookabagi @nixie-noo and @babayanska

had to do a lot of headshots towards the end but I hope you all enjoy nonetheless :^)

#my art #i'm going away for a couple days but maybe i'll do some more when i get back #and i will for REAL for real make my sketch blog then too #watched the shittest film known to man today with a friend it was called silent house #we always try to watch horror films on whatever streaming apps we can scrounge from and they're always bad #silent house ranks below the film we watched about an underwater spooky house but still above a film called strays #which was truly TRULY upsettingly bad #not to be an utter snob but thank god for elevated horror or whatever the fuck they call it #anyway. wish me luck i'm going to london for the first time in years and the train is like £50 (VERY cool and VERY affordable.)

[sleepy-stitches]

google search how to safely have my friends from other groups smell each other through the door like cats so they can be introduced

#thinking about birthday plans and it is scary #i have to work out something to actually Do other than just throw a bunch of people in a call and be like we are hanging out now ^-^ #because i feel like there are some flaws with that #although...... almost all of my friends own tabletop sim. which is awesome and has a lot of potential #ouuuugh i also have to think about peoples schedules. which is so fucked up and evil #i should be able to just psychically know if everyone is free on like the fifth of april rather than having to ask #sighs. this is probably more than my brain can handle rn but also if i dont do anything for my birthday ill die. whatever whatever whatever #i stay certifiably silly #original post placeholder tag

[mylittleredgirl]

man i was gonna post a whole complaint post but it’s like [psychiatric distress] [this medication i still can’t get] [my mother died nine years ago and i’d like to be planting things and sweetly reminiscing instead of just not dying] who cares.

#i’m just tired of this #i don’t want to be the hysterical voice on the phone to a psychiatric office like that’s a deep hole to climb out of but i sent a message #i’ll call later if i have to #or just make it til my appointment on thursday #beg friends to drive me to whatever the fuck pharmacy has it in stock if we can even uncross the wires #like it’s fine of course. everyone’s suffering bitch let’s get you some perspective

[freckledbastard]

redid the reaper quests for funsies and this was all i could think the whole time

"hey zenos, yeah theres this voidsent dude calling me his prey? yeah you need to have a pact with another voidsent to beat him and he was being real intense the whole time and talking about how he was gonna devour me and how glorious it would be? yeah- yeah no i know thats your thing dude i tried to tell him and everything but idk, he seems pretty set on the idea of me being his prey... oh youre heading his way already and are gonna super murder him? oh weird thats crazy, anyway."

#final fantasy #ffxiv #zenoswol #arsene kingsbird #zenos viator galvus #theres so many side quests in this game where im like #we have so many friends/allies/people who will fight on our side #why do we never call any of them #like i know WHY because we're the mc of the game #but i personally think arsene should be allowed to be like one sec #and contact her friends on her linkpearl and then beat up the current enemy with all her buddies goddamn #lets get leofard and karasu involved in whatever the latest shenanigans are

[laidenbreecatchall]

Sometimes you wake up at 2 in the morning and in your sleepy haze think, “god, I have got to draw Law more interesting” and then suddenly it’s 5am and like you have a pretty sleepy Law now but at what cost.

#one piece #art #my art #Ryeart #trafalgar law #trafalgardwaterlaw #trafalgar d water law #early morning drawings #this was a poor choice I have a call with my friends in the morning probably #whatever #here we are

[fearforthestorm]

the thing they don't tell you about being raised in a high-demand religion is that everyone who you grew up with at some point will either have a faithbreak or they will continue to stay. and both of those are kind of the hardest thing ever to watch someone you cared about go through.

#.lyr #my closest friend from when we were teenagers just got her mission call. #i was so sure shed make it out. she was always one of the best and most genuinely caring people i knew. #im...crushed. by this. she cared about people more than she cared about rules and i thought shed make it out i thought she already had. #and whatever shes doing is because she really and truly thinks its the right thing #but that doesnt mean it is and that doesnt make it easier #exmo #<- i dont talk religion on here anymore and back when i did i didnt use that tag but like. idk. #added context and kind of hoping that. people who see it from that tag will understand the feeling.

[heather-garland]

harry and james go to the beach

#silent hill #silent hill 2 #harry mason #james sunderland #silent hill fanart #harry mason/james sunderland #sundermason #jarry #whatever theyre calling it these days LMFOA #i had a friend whose mum could float like that and we would try to swim under and flip her over but it never worked #tag of torture

[upathosarts]

happy birthday mei fan one of the silliest guys to ever exist!!

#CHINESE HERO YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS #(<- context me and my friend found an old arcade game called chinese hero so now thats what we call mei fan) #i think the jacket it supposed to be longer but like. whatever #i like how i've accidentally. 3 birthdays in a row accidentally given them a consistent look. guess im gonna keep doing it #liu mei fan #mei fan liu #revue starlight #revstar #starira #shoujo kageki reuve starlight #my art

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[gaytobymeres]

Apparently this is a Scottish thing but I didn’t realise that until today when chatting with friends who didn’t grow up in Scotland.

Leave your answer and where you grew up in the tags if you’d like 🎃

#making us work #my friends and I would have a full routine!! #we were organised #on halloween the kids next door came to the door and just said trick or treat but I’m used to kids saying a joke or whatever #idk I thought everyone did this but apparently no ?? #also we call it guising in scotland not trick or treating

[starsnumber1charliefan]

How dare you 😡

Exer is pointy

Not NO.

It's yes, stars.

Get it right

;)

british scum

#/hj #exer being pointy is my only weakness #also i assume a lobotomy #oh yeah i forgot to tell people so ill js say in the comments #so like #at school last week #my class was taking a walk #and i was w my friend #and we were farrrrr behind so we ran #and then we stopped bc we had cramps #and she was like “my side aches so much” and i pretended to punch it #and she was like “actually punch it” #and i did #HOLY ME #IT HURT SO SO SO BAD #i actually broke one of my fingers bc of it #turns out #she has scoliosis #and she was wearing this brace #to help fix her back??? #idk #anyways i am a damaged person #send help before i punch someone elses back brace or fake leg or glass eye or whatever #once i got hit by a car #AND #ON A DIFFERENT OCCASION #A SQUIRREL CHASED ME FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES AFTER I CALLED IT BABYGIRL #THAT WASNT EVEN THE FIRST TIME #once i called one “radical jim” and he chased me for a few minutes #jackson's diary

[sunforgrace]

he sat there on the ground and cried. for cas. cas told him he loved him was taken away and he buried his head in his hands and wept

#AND THEN THEY TRIED TO PRETEND LIKE IT WAS FINE? and after the widower arc #it wasn’t even as nearly fucked then this time all their friends got thanos snapped and we don’t even get canon confirmation that they were #brought back. even with covid not even a vo or offhand mention or reference #jack is god and in every drop of rain or whatever. #sure yeah whatever they beat the final boss and got over the protagonist angst of it all but the world was still the same it just wasn’t a #chuck story which only ramped up to being The Big Problem in the season 14 finale. #cas was stabbed by an angel blade and dean broke while wrapping his body for the funeral pyre. ALONE. and was. not doing well #and you tell me it’s whatever after he sat there in that dungeon refused to answer sam’s calls and cried during the complete and total end #of the world. that he just bounced back from that and died and drove around heaven for decades in a few minutes and smiled while americana #electric guitar played on some bridge #cas helped oh that’s nice I guess smile now I have GOT to go drive my car around. because I did not get enough of that in my time on earth. #unlike my time with cas which I am satisfied with and in no need of closure. perhaps a conversation. looking upon him to see him alive and #well. healing some of that trauma of the last time I saw him. a reunion hug maybe even which has become tradition. CUT THE CAMERAS deadass #he’s going for the face touch. no this we cannot possibly have time for we have to play carry on wayward son twice #sorry. it has been three years. sorry. it’s just so funny buddy your ass did NOT escape the hamster wheel

[experiencedbullshitter]

If you’re a trans guy and you choose a popular, twink-esque name like Kai or Oliver, more power to you.

If you’re a trans guy and you choose a less popular, old-man-esque name like Edward or William, more power to you.

I’m here for the bitches who choose the stupidest, most common names like Ben and ask their closest friends to call them Benny or Benji. Who hurt you, there are already 4 cis guys you know named Ben. Why does there need to be another Ben. Jesus Christ, man.

It’s me. I’m bitches.

#be quiet ben #new talk tag for a new name! #I will not be going through easily multiple 100s of posts to fix all of the talk tags tho #There’s just two now #fr tho #if you’re my closest of friends (you know who you are) call me benny or benji or whatever stupid ben nickname you can come up with #I’ll most likely melt on the spot #we love being a trans man #trans men #trans guy #transmasc #transgender #name change #new name

[todayisafridaynight]

what makes minedai even sadder is that we never rlly see daigo try to build a bond with anyone else like he did with mine it rlly shows how badly it effected him like yeah he reached out to shinada in y5 but that’s rlly it and he probably would wanna leave him alone after that and not involve him in any yakuza stuff so i don’t think they would’ve hung out or anything like that afterwards. All he rlly had were saejima and majima but they were more like babysitters than anything, wish we saw more of their dynamic tho like we did with majima and daigo in dead souls since that was fun and we were lowkey robbed but in canon he’s just as lonely as he was before majimas promise to kiryu. And mine is the only person he really had a meaningful relationship with romantic or not they were still really close and we don’t see that again with daigo ever (from what i recall after y3) ok sorry for rambling LMFAO

even with shinada, he reached out to him more so out of 'duty' and trying to make up for the misfortune that befell him because of yakuza than wanting to rekindle any kind of friendship they might have had in high school (though it sounds more like they were just acquaintances if shinada needing a second to remember who daigo was is anything), so yah i doubt they really had any kind of bond afterwards

dead souls really was the only time after Y3 where we got to see daigo be more sociable with someone, but its as you say majima and saejima are more like retainers than close friends

#snap chats #you can tell i was into fire emblem when the first term that comes to my mind to call majima and saejima was 'retainers' omfg #but yeah ..... depressing .... #does make me wonder who daigo was on the phone with during the rggo story though. like clearly daigo has friends #apparently. we just never see or hear of them. tho ig it is implied those were his friends from the y2 era. as mine said flarkjla #REGARDLESS yeah after y3 daigo just feels depressing to watch #i think its just because he really has to do everything on his own now #but not even have a friend to just chill with at the end of the day- like the technical work is whatever. for the most part #THATS stressful obvi so to not have anyone to really be personable with thats probably the dire part. imo. #cause yk the world could suck but as long as you have that One Person to just relax with then its ok but with mine gone. 🧍‍♂️ #probably doesnt help that like. during the 'flashback' segment of y3 where we get to see daigo sitting with kiryu and nakahara #we see him all cheery and bein a lil jokester and just. A Happy Dude #granted this is barely a year or two into being chairman so The Horrors Havent Set In relatively but still ... i miss his smile .. #every time i think of daigo post-mine i think of those like. tragedies or accounts of people where its like #'after X's friend/lover died they never found another again' like thats the vibe i always get #he really packed it up and never got close with anyone else again and it makes me want to throw up #y4 widow arc still good tho it makes me chortle