#atm life is hell

[itsalwaysforyou]

jafar raised jay to be slippery and selfish but jay knew there was strength in numbers and decided to trust and love and hope despite everything else. and he protects these people that he finds, the only things his father can’t take from him, his own treasure he guards like the lion’s head at the cave of wonders.

he’s the last one out, there to watch their backs, as close to them all as their own shadows. he’s their third eye, always hyper-vigilant, always on the look out. he knows when to start a fight, and when it’s best to leave it alone. it’s nearly always best to leave it alone. he wrangles them all back in, keeping them safe so they don’t have to worry about injuries or repercussions or consequences. his job is to keep them safe, and keep them alive.

and yet, in auradon, with no brawls or street fights or leering parents or turf wars or rivals or enemies, what is there to protect them from? passive aggressive comments? pastels? afternoon tea? what is a guard dog with nothing to guard? jay has built his entire life, his entire self, around servitude. if it’s not his father, it’s his gang, always the helping hand and the shoulder to cry on (metaphorically, of course) and the reassuring presence. without any of that, he is nothing.

he is the thief that gives. the boy desperate to hold on to his only sense of purpose. it’s all he knows: give enough away and they might let you stick around. chameleonic, knowing exactly who to be where and when. the charmer, the heartthrob, the villain, the protector, the liar, the snake, the attacker. anything you need. he can be anything at all, as effortless as breathing.

#ANYWAY #where the hell did that come from hello #i just think that jay having no sense of self #because his entire life has been spent giving himself away!!!! #idk like he learned from jafar that ‘love’ and ‘protection’ is conditional #he had to be good enough - had to be PERFECT #and so with the gang it’s like. he cannot afford to be anything other than that strong & unwavering anchor #he’s unfazed by everything #he makes jokes and doesn’t take things seriously bc he can’t express what he’s really feeling #he’s trying to relieve the tension #it’s shielding the true paranoia and fear and guilt he’s feeling #and GAAHHHHH. JAYYYYYYY #like he just cares So Much. all of his actions are bc he just loves his gang so much and he wants what’s best for them #and he will get that with any means possible #i could literally go on forever about him #he’s been sidelined atm bc of my new hyperfixation but i am ALWAYS ready for a jay rant #descendants #jay son of jafar

[uhhhhmanda]

OK, I finally finished The Devil Judge. I already had an ao3 tab open and waiting. I clicked over to it and ... 10? Just 10 fics out of 1,135 are bottom Kang Yo Han? I rarely give a fuck who penetrates who in M/M fics but am I seriously in this kind of a tiny minority when it comes to Kang Yo Han getting railed by the guy with his beloved older brother's face? The older brother he was absolutely obsessed with? It's just me and (counts on fingers) 7 other people who think he wants to hear Kim Ga On whisper in his ear while he's facedownassup "it's ok to call me hyung"????????

#i am losing my mind #i am not going to sleep tonight #but will i write my own damn fic? #LOLLLLLLLLLLL #bugs_bunny_no.gif #i have not got the brainspoons for writing atm #if i did i would though #perhaps if the frustration percolates enough it will coalesce #tears snot torn sheets gonna-need-a-lozenge-after-all-that-screaming life-altering cancel-my-therapy sex with the guy who looks just like #but sure as hell isn't #your hyung #i need to be struck by lightning #the devil judge

[hirazuki]

Haruno Sakura & Sasori; Haruno Sakura/Sasori (can be read either way), Uchiha Sasuke, Uzumaki Naruto, Sai, Yamanaka Ino, Hatake Kakashi, Kankurou

blank period | canon divergent | ongoing

It is two years after the Fourth Shinobi War and the world is finally settling down. Sakura’s life has also fallen into a steady routine of hospital shifts and increasing responsibilities, with a stability she hasn’t been afforded since her early genin days.

She should have known better than to think it would last.

#sasori #haruno sakura #sakura #sasosaku #naruto #i really have absolutely no business attempting a longfic at this moment in my life #like. i know there will be no consistency to writing/posting. i can guarantee it. my life is too messy atm. #but you only live once and all that so. #what the hell XD #what's the worst that could happen? that i leave it unfinished? #like i haven't done that before lmao #so here we go #my writing #hira writes naruto

[kiealer]

i feel like it's been a hot minute since i've done a proper drawing for nina and it just. turned into her drinking boba for some reason.

#║ ✰〳art. #║ ✰〳ninazu. #[ i'm not sure which version i like better so. have them both #also bc i've drawn her in this exact outfit at least a couple times before #anyway i am uh. still busy in life hell. i'm much easier to reach on discord atm ]

[thereisabearonmyceiling]

Requests? Are open?

A Pearl of any kind please!

she's so important to me. dl! pearl you will always be famous <3

(requests are open)

#pearlescentmoon #trafficblr #double life smp #lumi's swag art #i might clean up that pearl & tilly sketch at some point cause i like how it turned out #but i'm in a car atm so all my lines are shaky as hell

[jtownraindancer]

Ace's TURИ for Burn Rewatch: Eternity How Long

#there's so many good moments this episode but i had to go with this one #love love love when he's sneaking #burn gorman #major hewlett #edmund hewlett #edmund my dearest 🔭 #my beloved starboy 🌌 #he's such an ass in this one; my yankee heart wants to throttle him ♡ #turn #turn washington's spies #amc turn #my gifs #man i need a tag for burn now fuck #the burn collection #another brown eyed boy ruining my life #h a n d s #love all the slow panning in this series for pretty much everyone ♡ #like hell YES show off the costume and prop designs!!!! #so tempted to do a gifset for each character per episode but atm I'm here for one guy and one guy alone #(simcoe would totally be next though jfc samuel your face is fucking art) #shut up ace

[hella1975]

their relationship means everything to me

#THE WAY TINA WAS THE ONE WHO HATED SYD THE MOST AND MADE HER LIFE HELL AT FIRST AND TRIED TO GET HER TO QUIT #BUT SYD INSPIRED TINA AND THEY SLOWLY SLOWLY BEGAN TO WORK TOGETHER #AND NOW TINA IS THE FIRST TO ASK SYD IF SHE'S OKAY ON A BAD DAY AND SYD IS THE FIRST TO TRUST IN TINA AND HER SKILL #BAWLING ACTUALLY!! #this show is so genuinely good like i was saying to my mum the other day that this is the first time in so fucking long #where ive watched a new piece of media and it's just genuinely been GOOD. like i find myself pointing out shit that was once a given #in media like 'every single character is given time and depth and purpose and everyone has dynamics with everyone #not just the leads with each other and there's difficult-to-love characters that work hard to grow on you' etc etc #and it's such a shame that the entertainment industry got to such a place where every piece of media currently coming out was just awful #and you'd have to really dig to find something good but i hope with the strikes atm at the very least we're headed in the right direction #and i know this disney show isn't exactly some radical new thing but. idk it's just nice to watch something good again #and get really into something that is generally quite mainstream #the bear

[ashendalia]

Actually you know what

It's not worth the time or energy to bitch, and I don't need that to sit on my dash and ruin my mood

Last thing I'll actually say is this community can be really nasty and rude despite claiming to want to be open and nice, and it makes me sad because I used to have fun here and now it's just...not.

#fate rambles #anyways i love you all and i hope you have good days and nights #im just trying to get through the days atm bc my allergies really are making my life hell to exist through

[mossflower]

ok while i’m ignoring the fact that i have a 9am lecture in six hours does anyone want to listen to me rant about nanowrimo

#so. last year i decided to do it very last minute with zero planning #it was not a good story but i had a lot of fun writing it and!! i actually finished it!! #this year i have planned a story. i have a plot. i have characters that i like. i have themes and settings and all that jazz #but i kinda just want to abandon it and work on an older project!! which is very annoying #the older project is part of a whole damn universe i’ve been developing the past few years. i am Obsessed obsessed with everything abt it #it’s very close to my heart and i really want to make something of it! and i don’t think i’m a competent enough writer to do it justice atm #also if i abandon my current nano project i highly doubt i will ever actually write it #which would be a shame because i like it! it’s a story i would have liked to read when i was like fourteen fifteenish #and tbh would still like to read now #i think actually writing it would be good practice! and i know i would enjoy it #when have i ever not enjoyed anything featuring magic time travel and lesbians. like honestly #i don’t think it’d take long for me to start writing the older project after nanowrimo either #i have a tendency to get stuck in brainstorming hell but i know how it ends. which makes everything much easier to sort #also if i don’t write something featuring the love of my life maria soon i think she will physically claw her way out of my brain #so there’s that <3 #morganposting #nano 2023 #now thats a scary tag to be using

[atsumou]

hello :) i graduated uni!!!!!!!

#‧₊˚ 𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. lunar letters #today has been so so so so busy and reaaaaally tiring #i was in heels for like ~9 hours and my feet HURTS like hell #BUT ya girl finally graduated !!! #i still remember my first year days where i cried and all bc of this degree but look at me now!!! #received lots of love from friends and family today and aaaa i’m just grateful for everything :> #apologies that i’ve been so MIA here 😭 life happens and yeah!! #to anyone else pursuing their degree atm: you can do it!! i believe in you so much!!! #ik the road is absolutely not easy but it’s all worth it in the end :>

[calkestis]

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#listen if you're living in western europe or america or canada or anywhere that's not next to the border of ukraine #and you feel the need to express opinions online about how ukraine's neighbours should handle this conflict just fucking don't #just shut the fuck up #i've seen so many dumb people - some americans some not americans #but all of them way too far away from the conflict #expressing opinions about the fact that russian drones apparently flew above romanian airspace #and how romania is stupid for not acting (as in escalating) #bitch you have no clue how real this war feels here and how real it's been ever since the first refugees arrived in our country #hell even i can't imagine how real it feels for people living 200 metres from the ukrainian border #having drones above their houses every night and knowing one slight military mistake could end their lives #i'm not saying that our authorities should do nothing which they basically are atm because they're some useless pieces of shit #but you and even i living hundreds of km away from the border can't fucking imagine what it's like to have your life on the line #so if you have an opinion just keep it for yourself cause none of us want to read it on the internet

[breadclipp]

give me the strength to go grocery shopping and fold laundry

#blog #there’s a shortage of my ADHD meds here atm #unmedicated life is hell

[comehellorhighwatertheywillwrite]

i mean dang ok then

#submission #‘my life is falling apart so I’m not feeling particularly sexy atm’ #dude idk if anyone could be in the mood after all of that it’s remarkable you’re writing at all #come hell or high water they will write #the devil works hard but fic writers work harder #ao3 notes #archive of our own #fanfic writing #fanfiction

[lavend3r-stardust]

Date idea: build legos with him until he falls asleep on the half-finished set

#i'd lowkey get him star wars lego sets for his birthday ngl i bet he'd love them #FIENDING FOR HIM RIGHT NOW HOLY HELL #we neck deep in the crushing trenches #shira is pining hard atm #soft love #soft life #domestic bliss #affection #txt post #spilled ink #cute suggestion #romantic suggestion #soft suggestion #crush suggestion #love suggestion #cute memes #cutecore #gentle love #queer love #lovecore #bisexual love #bi love #pining i guess #pining and yearning and longing my guy #crush thoughts #queer crush #crush things #crushcore #crush tag #gentle suggestions

[maudlin-scribbler]

why is intercting with people so hard . Why is life so hard in general.

#Corin's lore #I asked [insert friend's name] if she wants to meet up and she still hasn't answered my text. #Which doesnt bother me. She probably hasnt seen it or cant answer me atm. #But a part of me worries she is avoiding me and hates me or something. Or just doesnt want to idk anymore man. #Idk i just wanna hang out with her. Life isnt very good right now and I havent seen her in about a week and i miss her. #School is hell and i like talking to her and making her happy bcs it helps me ignore my own stuff. #I know shes also busy and shit with school but also it rarely takes her this long to answer my texts so idk #And im not calling her. Im very ackward on the phone #Im in my own personal hell. #I just want her to tell me if we can meet up this weekend or nah!!!! #Will probably delete this later idk #And im also yet again doing my homework and studying at night. Go me! (sarcasm) #Especially since i have to study for history and geography and i literally have a test at latin tomorow(i wanna do VERY well on the test + #+since i love latin and the teqcher and i dont wanna dissapoint her but honestly when ill even study?? #My life sucks!!!!!!!

[frutavel]

Maining Alarion during this expasion has been fascinating, because the more I play and experience the content and the stories through his eyes, the more I realize how incredibly out of place he feels.

Alarion left Outland as a barely adult drake after a series of traumatic events that definitely left lasting marks. In Azeroth, Alarion threw himself at every chance he had to explore and adventure and just not think about what he went through - that meant he's spent much if not all of the past years among mortals, in a mortal body. Something about him that's always been true and that I find fascinating is that he can’t quite blend in with mortals, but there's been many times where he just... forgot he was a dragon.

Now on the Dragon isles, there's no forgetting, and there's no way around it. Alarion is a dragon, surrounded by dragons much older and much more experienced in being a dragon than him, that, unintentionally, remind him of how alien he is compared to both dragons and mortals.

And I'm starting to think that Alarion really... doesn't know what to do with himself here. He feels out of place. He's constantly being reminded that he's different, that's he's alien, that he's the result of a magical mishap, a footnote in the history of the Black Dragonflight. The Netherwing aren't even one of Deathwing's many intentional experiments with dragons, they're an accident; an accidental flight left to fend for themselves on a broken world, and seemingly forgotten.

In conclusion Alarion is very anti social when it comes to other dragons and he's straight up not having a good time rn

#blabbles #oc:alarion #world of warcraft #netherwing #netherwing dragonflight #he feels bitter and also may be developing body dysmorphia #also the autism is making his life hell atm /j #some of it comes from my own frustration w dragonflight but those come from me being bad at video games as a whole #but i am amazed by how its translating into alarion's own thoughts and feelings #anyway #i have feelings for him