#bi polar disorder two

[katanaski]

I hope ya'll don't mind but I'm drawing me some Bakugou. I miss him and it's been a few rough weeks so I need him more than ever.

#i want you to know that your ask and requests don't go unnoticed #i see them and I'll get to them #commissions too #i still got like 5 and two of them are quite complex but I'll get it done #don't think for a minute i forgot #i just need to be a little selfless for a few days #kind of hate offering up shit and then make ya'll wait but my bi-polar disorder said sike #i got you<3

[moonlit-void-to-the-far-unknown]

Logan Roy would 1000% send his children to be institutionalised if they were more blatant about there mental illnesses.

Like all of the Roy family has sever mental illnesses let’s be real here how can they not growing up like they did.

But I see so many ‘being the youngest Roy sibling’ HC and I keep thinking about being the youngest Roy sibling and showing sever signs of bi polar or depression or schizophrenia *hey hey I have bi polar, depression and had schizoaffective disorder so I can say that shit ain’t fun* so here some Hc? Brain dribble about that.

So it’s under readmore and yeah also I am

Someone who has been in a psych ward many times *dont ask* so I feel qualified to make this.

Like they show signs of it being sever, sever and like they get dealt with, when there like a kid and Logan just punishes them like they are having tantrums. But by like maybe early to mid 20s it becomes very clear when they try to off themselves.

That’s when Logan says ‘fine we’ll deal with this the old fashion way’ and let’s just say the siblings are ya know sitting with the youngest Roy at Logan’s house when the men in white jackets come and basically yank them up and the whole time the others are screaming like ‘the fuck is going on?!’ And the youngest is just screaming for them to let them go and maybe even tries to grab onto Kendall or Roman or shiv while being dragged out.

After logan explains, your just going to a hospital that can better treat you, and help you deal with your mental state better.

Connor fully riots when he hears this happened, storms into Logan’s office with Kendall and Roman behind him trying to ya know stop the fight that’s about to kick off and Connor is fuming like

“You fucking bastard! You already locked my mother up, your once wife! But that’s not enough so you lock your fucking kid up?!” Like this is an anger I don’t think anyone’s ever seen in Connor.

And Connor is the one to visit you every day, he brings you things you may need, or just things he hopes you can decorate your little space in your room with.

Roman brings you like the things you can’t sleep with out at night, like a special stuffed animal or a blanket or pillow. He’s the one who jokes about you being the actual crazy one, and like he gets the need to deflect with dark humor.

Shiv is the one who brings you the clothes you actually would wear, and not the random stuff that Logan had a house keeper pack for you. When she first visits to bring them your in a full on hospital gown because you refuse to wear what Logan gave you.

Kendall is the most awkward when he visits because yeah he went to rehab but like, this is way more lock down and he maybe realises that this could have happened to him if he didn’t ya know get a control on his shit like he tries to.

You meet Tom while still in the ya know hospital and fully tell shiv if she marries him you have a free bed in your room if she needs it.

Logan basically 51-50ed you so like the resentment against him is real, it’s like not good.

You spend like a solid almost 2 years institutionalised. But when you get out, Connor has a welcome home party for you. Everyone comes out, except Logan cause Connor was not about to have that KO fight happen.

You have always been closest to Roman, not really sure why but you two just get each other better and oh the jokes you both make at each other, like makes everyone else so uncomfortable. When eating at the like welcome back dinner he switches your silver wear for plastic and you joke like

“Plastic can still hurt. Wanna see” and like he knows it’s a joke but everyone else gets that like uncomfortable vibe about them

“If I can’t joke about it, I’ll cry about it, so we joke yes? Do you want me to jump off the roof cause-“

Roman casually jokingly makes sure your taking your meds everyday like texts or calls or quips like

“So how’s today? You eat? Take your fucking crazy pills that make you see god or whatever…” like very obvious but very Roman.

I just, I have feelings alright…

#roman succession #Roman Roy #roman roy succession #succession #roman roy x reader #baby sibling Roy #Kendall Roy #shiv roy #Logan Roy #Connor Roy #tom wambsgans

[brooklynislandgirl]

mun horror faves vs muse horror faves

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Turtle's All Time Favourites {in no particular order, and by no means a complete list}: US {Jordan Peele} Get Out Candyman {the Original} The Evil Dead II Re-Animator Subspecies Hellraiser Frailty Bram Stoker's Dracula The Serpent and the Rainbow 13 Ghosts Ghost Ship Red Dragon Lord of Illusions The Prophecy Mary Shelley's Frankenstein The Village {don't judge} Dracula 2000 John Carpenter's Vampires From Hell Bonus section: Fear Itself Anthology's "Skin and Bones" Guillermo Del Toro's Cabinet of Curiosities: Dreams in the Witch House, Autopsy, and Pickman's Model The Stand {1994}

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Beth doesn't watch horror movies, per se, largely because of her chronic insomnia, her night terrors, sleep paralysis, and bi-polar disorder. However, some of her favourite "Spooktober" films are, in no particular order: Practical Magic We Have A Ghost Beetlejuice The Corpse Bride The Nightmare Before Christmas Something Wicked This Way Comes Roald Dahl's The Witches Hocus Pocus Sleepy Hollow {any version of the Headless Horseman and Ichabod Crane, really} Coraline Muppet Haunted Mansion

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Tagged by: my two darlings, @kylo-wrecked, and @bewitchingbaker Tagging: Everyone! but especially @mouthoftheocean, @mynameisanakin, and @morgansmornings

#Glowing Like the Metal|Dash Games #Frightful Films|A Spooktober Collection

[huachengapologist]

Fun fact! There is enough overlap between Autism, ADHD, and BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder, NOT Bi-Polar Disorder) that they are often misdiagnosed as one of the other two! Another fun fact: if you have all three, you may be entitled to compensation! I mean, I haven't received any compensation yet, but I feel like I definitely fucking deserve some because this is not the kind of trifecta that makes existing easy.

#jaxx posts #the trifecta of “oh dear god everyone hates me”

[andswarwrites]

I tend to ramble on the best of days, but if I babble, I'm manic.  I am cheerful and friendly as a rule, but if I'm unshakably positive, if I'm laughing when I should be morose, I'm manic.  I tend to daydream and build scenarios in my head; as a writer this is an asset.  If I start believing that my daydreams and scenarios are reality, I'm manic.  I have a certain amount of natural confidence, but I do feel guilt and I assume blame.  If my confidence becomes overconfidence and I start to feel infallible, I'm manic.  The real kicker is: once the mania is introduced, I'm no longer aware that there's something wrong.  Or if I perceive a danger or a threat, I'm terrified and I react instinctively, which could put me in danger as well as loved ones.

"Bi"polar disorder insinuates two polar opposites: the depression and the manic phase.  In reality, there are levels: I know what stability looks like, it's where you're not too high nor two low, your energy levels shift around, but your mood is manifesting your personality more than your disorder.  Then there's light depression where you are dragging your feet, you feel physically ill and limited.  I tend to notice mania more than depression because I have to cope with chronic pain in my limbs, back and primarily my feet, and this pain is physically draining, so I don't really notice when my lack of energy is the result of my disorder until it's been a few days since the mood lifted and I realize I'd been a little more slow and listless.  I've never had a scary down, to me the scary side of my disorder is the highs.  I think I've stated that before.  No, there's a sense of well-being, of purpose, which anyone would enjoy, except with the looming possibility that you're going to rise too high. 

I'd say all these moods are like layers in the atmosphere.  I've compared the depression to being underwater.  When you come out onto dry land and your feet are firmly on the ground, that's stability.  Now, if you climb up to a high hill and glide off of it, you go parasailing: that's hypomania.  But if you go up to the highest peak in the world, where you're struggling to breathe, and you don't have proper equipment, so you think the best thing you can do to get down is jump: that's mania.

#mental health #bipolar disorder #personal

[hellodolleyes]

I feel like ranting about stuff so I'm gonna do that-

I've been working on my story Ashes and the story follows the perspectives of three main characters being Korvin, Tallow, and Julien.

Korvin and Tallows perspectives mostly explore the larger plot whereas Julien's is more on the slice of life end. His perspective is essentially one I explore with my friends and their own characters so there's a lot of shenanigans going on within his story lol.

Korvin

Korvin is, from an outside perspective, a normal dude that doesn't have much going on for himself. As Cyril (a character related to Julien's perspective) might say "he's the most infuriatingly average person I have ever met".

Cyril would be right as an outsider looking in (also Cyril just plain hates Korvin with no real reason other than the fact that he can't read Korvin like he can with others), it's not like Korvin makes an effort to look interesting to people though.

His perspective mostly follows what he doesn't show to others, and it gets really dark at points with serious topics about mental health and illnesses. Korvin struggles heavily with depression and bi-polar disorder with paranoid tendencies.

Which is why when he first meets Mori he isn't sure whether it's because he's having a weird episode or if the little purple guy is actually real.

Mori is a Bensu, and a supporting character that has his own struggles. A main one in terms of communication is that he doesn't speak any english at first. I mostly use Mori as a bridge character, one of a few to introduce the other perspectives to a hidden world lost on humanity.

Korvin's perspective is one of a struggle to push on even when the world feels like it's weighing him down and keeping him down. And he doesn't feel like he has the right to feel depressed because in his mind there are others who have suffered worse, therefore he struggles in any strides to get better because all he wants to do is ignore his mental state.

Tallow

Tallow is a borrower.. Or well, he's a Bensu that was adopted by a borrower couple and raised as one. He has his mother, father, and two sisters, and he cherishes them all deeply.

However Tallow struggles with feeling like an outcast despite all of the love and support he receives from his family. Being built so different from his borrower folks, he has been left all his life to wonder about himself but gets no answers to his questions because his family, bless them, they don't know what he is and can't give him the knowledge he so desperately wants.

For a time when he was growing up he despised his differences, although now that he's older he's come to begrudgingly accept that he is the way he is. It doesn't stop him from wishing he could just be "normal".

Throughout his perspective it explores his relationship with his family and especially his sister Kimber. And it inevitably leads to a story of self discovery, and especially excitement when he inevitably meets another one of his kind.

I should mention that Tallow, Korvin, and Julien live under the same roof with the exception of Tallow living in the walls with his family. So it would come to no one's surprise that he would inevitably meet Mori, but the situation is actually coincidental in nature.

By that point Mori still doesn't know much english other than the few phrases he's learned from Korb, so Tallow can't immediately bombard the poor anxious lil guy with questions like he might want to.

Julien

Julien's perspective is a little more complicated. as I've stated I mostly use him to play around with friends and the characters they've developed in support of my odd little story. Although Cyril (@cuttlealert 's) and June (@sodaspoppers 's) have a bit more of a complicated history as characters other than being apart of Ashes, I've come to love them and the dynamic they make with Julien in his more slice of life extension to the story.

To summarize Julien's perspective, it's a story about people bonding over their past traumas and moving forward to a healthier path in life. Julien and Cyril learning that they are half brothers that grew up in surprisingly similar situations of abuse. Meanwhile there's June who seemingly appeared put of nowhere, breaking into Julien and Korvin's kitchen to sit on the counter and eat cheerios.. That was an interesting night.

June is a little blue goblin, or a Nocscizu (Nu-ze-zu) who is suffering from memory loss and they are missing brain cells in all the right ways. Julien unofficially adopts them and when Korvin inevitably finds out about June the temporary chaos is glorious.

Cyril is a genius, but he's incredibly antisocial and lacking in empathy due to his upbringing. He's shut himself off from the world and is only now opening up to it with Julien being someone be can finally lean on in life (literally, 6'4" beanpole lookin ass xD).

Julien himself has found that he enjoys being a supportive person, and although he can come off as abrasive at times, he's all in all just a good guy looking to better himself after a bad streak throughout his highschool career. As with Cyril, Julien also found himself in an awful situation growing up, but he leaned more towards anger and violence to cope. He doesn't condone his past actions and actively seeks anger management and therapy.

There are even more characters relating to Julien's perspective, such as Autumn, Olive Owly, Rusty Spurr with his daughter, and Pierce- But the focus is more on the dynamic between Julien, Cyril, and June.

I love this perspective because its far more light hearted than the actual plot of the story and it makes for a good break between the more serious tones I intend to portray. Julien's perspective is just plainly people who are finding acceptance of their past and deserve the life and love they've found in one another. Korvin and Tallow included, even though their perspectives in story don't intertwine with Julien's often.

Conclusion

I just wanted to rant and I hope you've found some interest in my info dumping :)

#g/t #g/t related #world building #Ocs #friend ocs #Ashes #Korvin #Tallow #Julien #I love them so much #I should post more about Ashes

[thefugitivesaint]

C'Mon C'Mon (2021) Context: Viv (Gaby Hoffmann), sitting in her car in Oakland, talking to her brother Johnny (Joaquin Phoenix) on the phone about having to navigate the trials of raising a child, in this case, her son, who Johnny is temporarily caring for in New York while Viv deals with the mental health crisis of her bi-polar spouse, Paul (Scoot McNairy).  I was giving this movie a re-watch and you can consider this post a recommendation to do so yourself (or watch it for the first time if you’ve never seen it). The aesthetic choice to shoot in black and white lends the narrative a melancholic mood that complements the quiet intimacy of a film that revolves around sound and listening to other people. Notable scene, one used in the movie’s trailer, is Joaquin Phoenix’s reading of Claire A. Nivola “Star Child’, a tender moment shared between an uncle and his nephew. 

(side note: originally published in 2014, 'Star Child’ went out-of-print and A24, in the company’s first publishing venture, crafted a new edition inspired by the film. “Speaking with PW about the origins and decades-long evolution of Star Child, Nivola said that the story was inspired by two very personal events: the birth of her son in 1983 and the death of her father five years later. Around that time, she created a little book for her son, held together by a single staple. “I was thinking about death and where does all that plenitude go? And for a child, where does all that abundance, that personality, come from? These are big questions, and I don’t have the answers.” Source) Here’s a review from the New Yorker if you’re interested. I’ve said it previously but it’s worth repeating, I’ve grown fond of Mike Mills’ movies. One of the conventions Mill’s employs in his films, one I appreciate, is citing books (and essays) on screen that are being read by his characters. ‘Star Child’ being one. Another is from the cinematographer Kirsten Johnson called ‘An Incomplete List of What the Cameraperson Enables’. There’s a passage on motherhood taken from Jacqueline Rose’s ‘Mothers: An Essay on Love and Cruelty’ and a passage on navigating the mental health of a parent from ‘The Bipolar Bear Family: When a Parent Has Bipolar Disorder’ by Angela Ann Holloway. Mills’ selections help inform the overall tone of each of his films. It’s a simple convention that adds wonderfully to the cohesion and flow of his narratives and accentuates Mills’ gift of establishing a sense of intimacy with characters (I would have a hard time not appropriating if I were a film maker myself.) Shit, I was just going to share a screen grab from a film I was watching and look at this post now. 

#cmon cmon #mike mills #star child #claire a. nivola #black and white films #gaby hoffmann #joaquin phoenix #a24

[fortheloveofdeaddove]

Ugh just throw all of me in the trash. Anyway, I deleted the chapter I uploaded. I'm in a bad place about it. I'm in a bad place about my place. I am not impressed with my brain or my poorly constructed sense of self worth.

With 4 days sobriety and my first disulfuram pill down the gullet this morning, I should be celebrating. But I knew yesterday that I was manic in anticipation of this. Also just manic because I'd just exited my cycle, and therefore also exited a depressive swing. It's also October, the weather is finally turning, and there's lots of socializing happening. But these are the times when I struggle to be careful because I'm too busy enjoying the reprieve from depression. I even said aloud to two people yesterday that I was manic, but boy was I not listening apparently.

I uploaded the next chapter of TMC last night. I kept going back and forth about how much non-smut was in it and how the majority was straight up exposition, or exposition via introspection. World building. Then the self loathing began to sink in, and then the impulsive behavior. Without really feeling like I'd nailed it, I posted the chapter and went to bed.

I also uploaded a pic of some awesome cosplayers and unbeknownst to myself, the photo shoot was available for reblog on tumblr already, and I hadn't credited it correctly. So I woke up to the reblog about that, and that just kinda pushed me off the cliff. Why am I too sensitive to be held accountable without having disastrous emotional fallout? Woops, made a mistake, it wasn't malicious, feel a little stupid, move on, right?

Immediately it was 2013 again, and I'm trying to participate in fandom activities only to find out I have a reputation. My writing is no good, the only reason it gets attention is because I commission excellent art work for it, I'm difficult and annoying and my ideas suck, etc etc. Being kindly, politely, SWEETLY corrected has nothing to do with that experience, and even that experience is something I blew out of proportion back then and really hurt myself over instead of trying to carry on.

I know I need to give myself a break in some ways. I'm back on the wagon now but just by four days, and I'm not going to normal about things for a while. I am so disappointed in me though. There was about 2 seconds there where I almost just deleted everything. Blogs, ao3 accounts, all of it. That's not some kind of weird flex to demonstrate the difficulty of my bi-polar disorder and rejection sensitivity, it's a fucking complaint about myself. What a waste of what could have been a good day if I wasn't over here Me-ing. Why can't I be the cool kind of mentally ill instead of the worst kind of cringe kind?

#mental health #bi polar disorder #just put me in the corner and hand me the dunce cap #substance abuse recovery

[iamlivingmusic]

There are just an overwhelming number of posts under both the cyclothymia and quetiapine tags which bring me down. They're sad and hard, about medication not working, uncontrollable mood swings, depression, side effects, social deprivation.

So I thought I'd tell my story, for a little bit of hope.

To start - I am a 32 year old woman from Aotearoa New Zealand. The psych who diagnosed me with cyclothymia six months ago suggests that I've been experiencing symptoms for about 20 years - since puberty. I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue and ADHD. None of these were correct.

Cyclothymia is a mood disorder in the same family as bi-polar. It means I experience depression and hypomania. My highs aren't as high and my lows aren't as low as bi-polar 1 or 2, and I'm on a shorter cycle - generally my depressive episodes last 2-4 weeks, and mania 2-5 days. There is nothing else, just the rollercoaster.

I take 250mg of quetiapine each evening for two reasons. First to even out those mood swings. My depression becomes closer to even keel, and on top of the medication can be managed by actions - fresh food, fresh air, time with people I love, routines to make it easier to get out of bed and maintain a hygiene routine. My mania is less effected, but the most important thing for me is that I'm aware that I'm manic - it makes it much easier to ensure I don't over-commit myself (which screws me over when the fog descends).

The second reason I medicate is the long term impact of unmanaged cyclothymia. In this sense, it can be thought of like pre-diabetes. Not a guarantee you'll develop the disease - in my case the much more harmful bi-polar 2 - but if you are careful you can squash that possibility. The more I actively manage my condition, the less likely disorder evolution is.

Sure, I experience some side effects. Orgasm is a little more difficult. I have such a dry mouth some morning it sounds like I'm slurring. Getting up in the morning is hard, but let's be honest, getting up in the morning when you're depressed isn't exactly a picnic.

Over all, after 6 months of medicating? My life is measurably better. I'm better able to spend time maintaining relationships. My overall sex drive is more consistent. I don't feel like I'm racing ahead and everyone round me are idiots who can't keep up with my train of thought. I don't over-commit one day, to under deliver the next. In 6 months, I haven't once thought I don't actively want to die, but wouldn't it be easier for everyone if I never existed?

I'm a better friend, partner, colleague. I'm more me. I play piano and sew dresses I'll never wear and read absolute trash romance novels. I collect vinyl - I order an album and anticipate it's arrival, not forget in a fog. I can budget, because I can find happiness in more than just consumerism and an endless cycle of couriers.

It's not for everyone, and it's not everything. I still need to take a walk, plan my week, make more of an effort than neurotypical folk. On recommendation, because 2023 is going to be a landmark year for me, I'm starting cognitive behavioral therapy so I have more tools when life gets more intense.

But I wouldn't go back.

#cyclothymia #quetiapine #mood disorder #bipolor #mental health #depression #mania #hypomania #hypothymia

[missmcspooks]

The Murder of Bobbie Jo Stinnett

On December 16th, 2004, a 23 year old woman who was 8 months pregnant was found dead in her Missouri home, with her baby being ripped out of her womb. There’s been some controversy regarding the outcome of this case and whether or not the woman responsible should’ve received the death penalty.

Bobbie Jo Stinnett and her husband ran a dog breeding business out of their home, and often attended dog show events, where she met 36 year-old, Lisa Marie Montgomery. The two women talked often online in a Rat Terrier chatroom called “Ratter Tatter,” where they also discussed their pregnancies. However, Lisa’s pregnancy wasn’t real, and received a tubal ligation in 1990, after having four children. Lisa falsely claimed to be pregnant multiple times after her procedure, according to both of her ex-husbands. Something snapped inside of Lisa’s brain, and she made arrangements under the false name “Darlene Fischer” to meet Bobbi at her home, as she was expecting potential buyers for her terrier at that time. When Bobbi answered the door, Lisa forced her way into her home and murdered Bobbi by strangulation, and then proceeded to surgically remove her baby from the womb, and taking off. Bobbi’s body was found an hour later by her mother who called the police, but unfortunately the paramedics weren’t able to revive her, and she was pronounced dead at the hospital. 

Lisa allegedly called her husband around 5:15 on that same day to inform him that she had gone into labor during her shopping trip in Topeka. Witnesses state that they saw her, her husband, the children, and the infant at a restaurant having breakfast on December 17th. Not too long after returning home from breakfast Lisa’s home was visited by police who had tracked her address using her IP address from the chatroom messages. They were only going there to question her as a potential witness, but when they got there, they saw Lisa in the living-room with an infant in her arms. DNA testing was ran and they soon learned that this baby was the missing baby from the murder victim, Bobbi Jo Stinnett. Baby Victoria was soon placed back into custody of her father.

Lisa Montgomery was charged with “kidnapping resulting in death,” and if she were to be convicted she would either serve a life-sentence, or receive the death penalty. On October 22nd, 2007, Lisa was found guilty and sentenced to death. The reason this case is so controversial is due to the long history of mental disabilities that resulted from years of abuse at the hands of not only her parents, but from both of her husbands. Lisa’s mother had an alcohol addiction, which caused her to be born with permanent brain damage. She was forced to be raised in a home where she was physically, emotionally, and sexually abused. Lisa was allegedly raped and beaten by her step-father since the young age of 11. This caused Lisa to start turning to alcohol as a coping mechanism, and when her mother found out about it, she threatened her with a gun. When Lisa turned 18, she attempted to flee her toxic home by getting married, but she ended up just getting herself into another abusive situation. 

Lisa also suffered with depression, borderline personality disorder, bi-polar disorder, psychosis, and post-traumatic stress disorder for years, and was often disassociated from reality. A neuropsychologist stated at her pre-trial hearing that she also had severe brain injuries from the years of beatings she endured, which damaged the part of her brain that controls aggression. It was also argued that she had pseudocyesis, which is the appearance of clinical or subclinical signs and symptoms associated with pregnancy, even though the woman is not actually pregnant. It’s argued that when she realized she wasn’t pregnant, she may have had felt like she had a miscarriage, and that’s what triggered her to commit the murder and kidnap the infant. However, it’s also argued that she did not have this disorder, and some people believe that her ex-husband was going to take her to court and use her lies about pregnancy in order to get custody of their children, so Lisa needed to produce a child in order to keep her children. 

Lisa’s attorneys fought tooth and nail for many years to try and rid her of the death penalty, even using the case of Atkins vs Virginia which ruled that executing individuals with intellectual disabilities violates the Eighth Amendment to the United States Constitution regarding cruel and unusual punishments. Lisa did receive a stay of execution a few times, but always having her death penalty reinstated, and she exhausted all of her appeals. Lisa Marie Montgomery was put to death by lethal injection on January 13th, 2021. 

#true crime #true story #truecrime #true crime blog #true crime community #Crime #death #murder #writing #writers on tumblr #Writerscommunity #blog #blogging #blogger #blog post #blogpost

[robynleefaryna]

Hi, my name is Robyn Faryna - I am 31 years old, married with two dogs and two cats, and I live with Schizoaffective Disorder Type Bi Polar One. I'm starting this blog to mostly get things off my chest, but also try and educate people about my disorder. I am from Alberta Canada - I've lived in the same small town almost all my life. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder when I was 25 years old - originally, it was just Type Depressive - but this time last year I had a full blown manic episode. If you have any question, I'd love to be able to answer them for you! Feel free to message me.

#mental health #mentally ill #mental illness #mental problems #mental breakdown #schizospeaking #actually schizospec #schizo spectrum #schizophonia #schizophrenia #schizo memes #schizoaffective #bipolar thoughts #bipolar positivity #bipolar blog #bipolar disorder #mental disorder #anxitey #bi polar 1 #bipolarone #depressing #depression

[brooklynislandgirl]

❤️ You know I won't ever give up on the familial relationship between Tony and Beth. But feel free to throw any other kinds of ships over here.

Heart to Heart || Accepting Well OF COURSE Tony and Beth will forever be cousins. She might tease him a little, might be a little flirty in good fun, but she's vested in ensuring that he lives his best life, and is his ride-or-die. ~*~ I feel as though Henry and Beth can be a really great June/September kind of relationship, strongly based in respect, cross-culture understanding, and a rare quietude. They each have a lot to teach each other, and a lot of similarities. It could also be a deep abiding friendship, depending on what Henry would like. Beth prefers a quieter, simpler life and values nature, traditional values, and doesn't mind hard work; things that I feel might appeal to Henry. He also has a gentle sense of humour and a wide range of interests that he could pass on. She really wouldn't mind being a ~~stepmother~~ a good friend to Reb. She also doesn't mind Walt, and loves how loyal Henry is to his lifelong friend. ~*~ I can say the same about Spencer and Beth. They are both phenomenally intelligent, both experts in their fields, both have jobs that require more effort and time than anything else in their lives which makes seeing other people difficult at best. Neither of them are particularly socially adept when it comes to dating and the like. And I think Beth can nurture him, where as Spencer can keep up with her and keep her intellectually engrossed. They might also be of use to one another. Spencer might not find Beth's bi-polar disorder off-putting, and she would be more than glad to help him with his own trauma. ~*~ Eliot needs Beth in his life, in the same ways Tony does. And in others as well. Although I could also see there being an adversarial frenemy kind of tension between them {unresolved? passionate? who knows.} due to what Eliot does ~Beth tries very hard to be a pacifist~ and who Beth is. He isn't a fan of people who are that rich. Though to be fair, she's far more inclined to support materially/financially/spiritually the kind of work the Leverage group does, and could probably point clients toward them. Most of the Admiral's cronies certainly deserve what they get. And Beth would be UTTERLY grateful for any food Eliot might make her because Lord knows the child cannot cook and should never see the inside of a kitchen. ~*~ Sam Winchester. Hooo boy. Beth is everything that should give him nightmares; a 'blood' witch, though she would say that's oversimplifying, shape-shifter kin and nothing as 'nice' as a wolf, a medical professional, a woman of extraordinary means. She is, however, someone who could overlook an overbearing brother {she knows what that is like}, the angels and demons on his back, the constant travel, the constant hiding of the truth, and so on. She could provide him a stable home, a vast library of fiction, nonfiction, and grimoires, and a glimpse of life beyond the Hunt. {Shake a magick-8 ball and see where they land}. ~*~ Rebecca Standing Bear is about the same age as Beth. Some of their struggles are similar, some are so foreign that there's likely not ever going to be common ground. Then there's the clear fact that Beth and Henry keep getting closer. On the other hand, I can see Beth 'fund-raising' for legal defense, helping Reb gather evidence, working together to have a clinic for the tribe that has nothing to do with the shame and shambles that is Native health care. Beth would absolutely do everything in her power to protect Native women and children, while Riley would eventually seek work with Walt. Beth's best friend in the world, Jay Morgan, is also a lawyer, and I can see Beth interested in introducing the two women, and see what they could do as a trio of strong, independent super-folk.

#ifyoucatchacriminal #All the ships ever #These are just the ones that easily come to mind #the directions they might grow in #I'd love your input on them and on the ones I haven't gotten down #;)

[skippyv20]

I wanted to respond to this comment….

Having bi-polar does not necessarily give one the ability to ask for help. It is an embalance in chemicals…not necessarily an actual thought process. I am well aware of Bipolar disorder.  They do have a thinking process, although muddled at times.  Yes, it is a chemical imbalance in the brain, and with medication they can be clear headed.  They are not mentally disabled in such a way they can’t tell the difference if they want to live or die.  They also have interaction with people, medical doctors, therapists….etc.  They also have medication routines.  Hopefully, they also have people checking on their mental health to see where there mind is at.  If we take away the stigma of negative thought processes, this will in turn encourage people to open up.   The reason people keep things to themselves is they fear being judged.  They fear the labels.  They need to know they are safe, and they won’t be judged.

My daughter is bipolar.  I have two constant things I say to her….I am not criticizing her….and I am not judging her…this keeps the door open for her to express herself openly….and it sets the tone for our conversation….she is aware I am choosing my words, so that she doesn’t feel attacked, as someone with bipolar can.

[thewriterowl]

Why people keep saying Anakin is mentally ill?

I am start getting curious.

So, I think one reason is there is a series on YouTube called Cinema Therapy. It is where two friends, one is a therapist and one is a filmmaker, sit down and watch movies and dissect them and what they cover and portray in regards to different things one goes to therapy for (like toxic positivity and how sadness is needed in Inside Out to gaslighting and abuse in Tangled). Though I haven’t watched it, yet, they did a focus on Anakin and the prequels and they question if Anakin has bi-polar disorder. I think they may have determined something like that is happening with Anakin.

Also, it makes sense. Even if Anakin didn’t have a disorder, the man is suffering from a LOT of trauma, loads of responsibility, and has been groomed by an older man. He is ill on some level. Potentially exploring that aspect of him is good and it helps people connect with him as well. It’s not an excuse for what he has done, but it also helps make sense of some things and some actions he has done with the prequels  and the Clone Wars.

#owl inbox

[avengernomore]

I’m still kinda heated up over stuff that happened last night, so instead of RP stuff, I have a PSA for you.

Every so often, a bad apple will come to the RP community. No one specific, just bad apples.

And, as you might guess, they do bad things. Ignoring things their RP partners have said, trying to force their ideas on RP partners, general abusive behaviour.

And then when someone confronts them about it, they’ll 'apologise' with the excuse that they have autism, ADHD, bi-polar disorder, depression… those sorts of things.

And then they’ll keep on being shitty.

Here's the thing. And this is coming from someone who has an ASD and depression…

THAT'S NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSIVE BEHAVIOUR.

THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSIVE BEHAVIOUR.

You can claim to have whatever disorder you want, but when you do, and then continue being shitty, there are two possibilities:

You don’t have whatever condition you claimed to have, you’re just a shitty human being.

You do have that condition, but you’re making no attempt to change your behaviour, because you think said condition is a 'Get out of jail free' card, which means you’re a shitty human being.

Take this from someone with autism and who has made some bad steps in the past. It doesn’t matter if you have a disorder, there is no excuse for being a abusive RP partner.

If someone brings up you’re abusive or shitty apologise. Mention your condition, if you must, but do not make it the main focus of it. Do some self work, try to break your bad habits that are harming other people. But if you’re just gonna focus on your condition and keep using it to try to guilt people into forgiving you, then you’re still a shitty person. You’re just a shitty person with a condition, at that point.

Self improvement can be hard, but it's not impossible. No matter what is different about you. Don’t be a shitty person.

#out of chakra #out of chidori #PSA

[stephenjaymorrisblog]

Dusty Smith!

Potentate of Logic

Stephen Jay Morris & Pamela Amodeo-Morris

December 15, 2022

Scientific Morality©

Don’t be fooled: There is no censorship of the political Right in the USA. Let me reiterate: though the American, ultra-conservatives have a militant faction that engages in property damage and the inadvertent death of cops, the military industrial complex would rather have White, Right wing militias to contend with than hordes of multi-racial, Leftists conducting a revolution. Fuck yeah, that’s true! The so-called, “Deep State” knows that Neo-Fascists have a low aptitude because the counter-revolutionary Right has brain-washed their followers against the Left wing intelligentsia. Those type of domestic enemies, are pushovers for the corporate police state. The red neck, rude buffoons, with their AR15s fully loaded, haven’t got a chance in goofy-land to overthrow the government and its arsenal of nuclear bombs! Common sense is hardly sufficient! If you think the U.S. Marines are part of a Jewish cabal of globalists, then you have no hope of victory. So, when the ‘Original Gangsters of Cancel Culture and Censorship’ cry sweet tears of McCarthyite regrets, and amplify their wailing and gnashing of teeth about how they are being censored, just put a boot up their ass and tell them to go home to mama!

There are shit loads of pod-casters on YouTube and other social media platforms. Most them are Right wing grifters and mercenaries, chasing after fame and fortune. Some are Millennial amateurs that want to be the next John Wayne. A lot of them have personality disorders. These disorders range from A.D.H.D to Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Kanye West, the has-been Rapper, has Bi-polar Disorder. Astoundingly, you can actually garner a salary from some Right wing think tanks as a spokesperson for these people. Like Charlie Kirk does.

As for Left wing pod-casters, there are a handful of them; they can be counted on your fingers. Some who lean toward the Liberal and Progressive direction have made a go of it. David Pakman and Kyle Kulinsky are two. Then there is Vaush , the pseudo-intellectual, Libertarian-Socialist. Also, there’s the “Amazing Atheist,” T.J. Kirk.

However. What about the Lumped-proletarian? The pauper with a Southern accent? You know—the authentic human being? A political Charles Bukowski. A dude that has had his run-ins with drinking, getting stoned, and running a porn site. A social fuck up, if you will! Well, that man lives modestly in a small, Mississippi town; the only White man in a Black neighborhood. He is Dusty Smith, overlooked giant of YouTube pod-casting! Creator and producer of “The Dusty Smith Show,” it is apparent that Dusty spends countless hours preparing for each and every podcast. Initially, he appears a bit rough around the edges, but it doesn’t take long to see that he is a sensitive, passionate, intelligent, and empathetic human being. He will yell with conviction at the reactionary creeps whose Internet posts he exposes, until his face is beet red. He will cry heartfelt tears while playing a video that features a victim of unbridled police brutality and cruelty. He will joke like the great comedians of yesterdays past. He will chastise and correct himself whenever something goes amiss during his show—video won’t play; voice is out of sync. Oh, Dusty curses like a longshoreman in some foggy harbor; he comes from working class roots. But that is part of his charm. He is an open book, sharing big and small life events. He provides helpful, Internet links to useful programs and creative websites. Dusty is a creative songwriter, as well, and posts his recordings on Sound Cloud, for free download. All in all, he presents his show with deep conviction, profound insight, razor-sharp logic, and humble generosity.

Also highly noteworthy about Dusty is that he rescues dogs and cats from death row, and houses them in his self-run, animal sanctuary for as long as they need a home. Some of his cats hang around and lie next to him during his podcast, and can be seen on camera. His primary source of revenue is from the tips and Super Chats contributed during his YouTube podcast, donations from Patreon members, and gifts sent via US mail directly to his P.O. box.

So, how does this king of the Anti-Authoritarian Left get treated by YouTube? Like a turd in a punch bowl!

My wife and I think very highly of him. We two Baby Boomers are strong supporters of this Gen Xer, and we catch his podcast, “The Dusty Smith Show,” live every Monday and Friday night at 9 EST. Its duration is typically two or more hours, sometimes three; if we don’t stay for the entire show, we catch the rest of it, on video, the next day or so. I love it when he makes fun of Right Wing pod-casters and Evangelical hate preachers! Were it not for Dusty’s informative and well-produced show, I would be largely unaware of the vast amount of Right-leaning garbage circulating Online.

At any rate, Social Media is trying to purify all Left wing content and Dusty is on their shit list—as am I. But Dusty has way more followers than I do, so his show being banned hits him especially hard. YouTube recently banned it for two months! Not the first time and, probably, it won’t be the last. In the meantime, he is podcasting his show live on Patreon, same schedule. Sign up to watch and support him!

Ever since Elon Musk took it over, Twitter has become a Right wing ghetto, devoid of any intelligence or logic. They suspended me twice.

Social Media is starting with the hard core Left. Once they succeed in purging them, it’s on to the Socialists and Communists. After that, it will be the Progressives, Democratic Socialists, Liberals, and, then moderate Democrats. However, it won’t stop there. They will go after Black conservatives and Jewish conservatives. Conservative women will be demoted to Christian motherhood. I don’t care if you don’t believe me. It will happen.

Dusty Smith and other Comrades must be protected and supported. I said this once and I’ll say it again: We need our own platform! Free speech is idealistic, but at this time in history, it is not practical. Elon Musk does not care about free speech. That is, with the exception for his Right wing buddies. He really, only cares about money and ego aggrandizement. No rich man is going to hand us a web site where we can freely express our opinions. Until we all realize that capitalism is not going to trickle down to us, we need a peoples’ site that is a true, public square, full of soap boxes for us to stand upon. But, the rich pig and his Conservative, Libertarian, and Evangelical flunkies only want their side of the story heard. The so-called Left does not have wealthy sugar daddies to finance us. George Soros? Well, he may have died of natural causes by the time you read this. Like all classical Leftists, we have no money. That is why we robbed banks for the Revolution!

Dusty may be off of YouTube this time around—but he will rise again!

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