#but for once

[thegoblinwitch]

apparently, all i needed was a hard reset

i.e sleep for 30h straight

#the shit show that was the end of last week #and the nightmare of monday's therapy session #apparently took their toll #at least i was in a position where i could do a hard reset #needless to say #i woke up hungry #but for once #i actually feel kinda refreshed #which is a novel experience #🤷‍♀️ #kit's #diary

[hallowxiu]

sometimes i come very close to messaging my ex best friend and being like, "bestie i miss you!!" because i want them back in my life, but then i have to remind myself how i was treated at the end of the friendship, and how they literally shelved me once they got bored and found new people, and then i decide against it, even though it hurts.

#and that's on not falling back into toxic habits I guess #even if i know they'll try to spin it in a way that makes them look favorable and not feel as bad #but for once #out of any conflict i've ever had with a friend #i can know with 100% certainty #that i am not in the wrong #not even a little bit #i was open and i communicated #multiple times #and i only cut them off once they made it clear they didn't care #so they can say or think whatever they want #which i know they have #but i can sleep perfectly fine at night knowing i have never done that to ANY of my friends #but i guess they can't say the same #which is a shame because i thought they were different and i thought so highly of them #all i can hope for them is that their new group of friends don't ever treat them the way they did to me at the end of our friendship #because it's a shitty feeling to experience and it's isolating #and i could barely handle it #so i know they wouldn't handle it at all

[pocketsonny]

am dying (stomach hurts)

#text #i'm being dramatic #BUT FOR ONCE #it doesn't hurt due to nerves IT'S JUST BEING A BITCH #AUGH #right before i gotta leave

[gayahithwen]

So, trying to analyze the current political landscape of the US. And I can so clearly see a path to a reasonable future, but I don't really have any power to make it happen.

But... the status quo isn't working. And the Democrats are finally realizing the extent of that. That's why they're doing the January 6th hearings.

And that's why they'll allow some amount of real election reform. Because the GOP aren't playing by the rules of the game anymore, so the Democrats will do everything in their power to get them out of the game.

So they'll institute some more measures to make elections more fair. Definitely do something about the gerrymandering. Maybe institute ranked choice. Even if they lose some of their base by allowing more leftist parties to gain a foothold, they will also gain a lot of moderates once it becomes clear that the GOP can't hold on to their seats in a fair election.

The Democrats would love to be the voice of moderates rather than radicals. Most of the leadership isn't really much better on a personal level than the GOP leadership. But. The difference is that the Democrats understand the value of being seen to follow the rules, in being observed adhering to a basic standard of human decency - and that's why they probably would allow the game to change. Because they believe they can still win.

But. My point is. There is a path to a future wherein the GOP drastically collapses. And the main political debates actually starts being between Democratic Capitalists (i.e. current Democrat party) and the Democratic Socialists. And probably there'd be a Green Party, too.

Just... it's a possibility. All the pieces are in place for something to actually happen. That's why I'm so pissed at the anti-voting rhetoric being thrown around in some places. It's not about believing in the Democratic party actually fixing the system at large because it's the right thing to do. I'm not asking anyone to take that on faith. It's about seeing how it's actually in the Democratic party's own best interests to make it harder for the GOP to hold on to any appearance of legitimacy.

They want to play the game again. They want to have boring policy debates and to find clever ways to work the system to their advantage. That's the kind of grifters they are. We can work with that.

That's why I so strongly believe the right thing is to vote blue in this election. Because a big turnout in these midterms, a Democratic supermajority... they are so ready to kick the GOP to the curb for the shit they've pulled.

#my posts #engaged democracy #us politics #I'm ranting #just... #most politicians like politics #that's the core of it #and the GOP are doing politics wrong #I trust the Democrats to serve themselves #but for once #doing that might help the rest of us too

[paintingraves]

I only have two seasons of House left to watch. Given that at the beginning of season 7 everything is beautiful and nothing hurts, I am of course expecting to have my heart ripped out of my chest very soon.

#house md #oh boy i wonder what they're gonna come up with #the last two episodes of season 6 were insane. again. btw #if anyone asks #but for ONCE #it ended happily 😭😭

[msboutofcontext]

#magic school bus #out of context #ms frizzle #keesha #ralphie #top of the foodchain #but for once #i hate field trips where we get eaten #tuna fish #food chain #Gets Eaten

[peepotalking-archive]

anon i want you to know the only thing keeping me from ripping your jugular out is physical distance. on all other levels i am tearing into you like a wild beast and then crying over your body out of pure misery.

#picture this you're me #you work an awful shift at your awful job #you haven't eaten in eight hours #you have been sworn at multiple times for things you cannot control #you have a sunburn #you arrive home. you park your car. you pull up the parking brake and check your phone briefly before going into the house. #omg! lit! you have an ask on tumblr.edu! #will it be someone nice? or complimentary? or funny? #no #it's someone speculating about the genitals of a minecraft youtuber. #i am two minutes away from committing acts that would get me put in federal prison. #i know you're a bait anon and i shouldn't care #but for once #i do want to indulge and give you the reaction you're hoping for #is this it? is this what you wanted? #i hope you're very pleased with yourself darling anon.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[slavicafire]

sobbing into my plate after overhearing a conversation between a mom and her tiny daughter in this shopping centre food court

#żmija gada #I will elaborate once I get home but gods. loving conscious and tender parenthood just makes me #break down

[haunted-xander]

If you skip a meal Senshi will materialize next to you w/ food at the ready

#(rins the one talking off-screen btw) #kabru is shit at taking care of himself and regularly forgets to eat #once senshi finds out he is gonna make it his duty to feed that boy bc god knows hes not gonna do it himself #whats kabru gonna do. stop him? lol. lmao even. #kabru #kabru of utaya #senshi of izganda #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #this is intended to take place post-canon so like. its implied i guess? #dunmeshi spoilers #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have! #I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play. #I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks. #Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere. #Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios. #The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*. #This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those. #Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human. #Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her. #She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist. #The damsel was the dragon all along! #...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

[thoodleoo]

it's me boy, the medieval scribe speaking to you inside your brain. listen to me boy. draw in the margins of your notes instead of paying attention

#medieval goings on #every once in a while i feel like i get possessed by brother eadwig #queueusque tandem abutere catilina patientia nostra

[monakisss]

falin holding cat!izutsumi like jesus holding a lamb

#when i say cat!izutsumi i mean the domestic cat version ryoko kui drew once #dunmeshi #falin touden #dungeon meshi

[ace-and-ranty]

I gotta say, one of the greatest achievements of my 20s was that I learned (mostly) to differentiate between:

"I truly do not want to go" and

"I'm just feeling the Demand Avoidance, and I will like it once I get there."

#I have learned in my 20s #sometimes I DO just gotta make myself go places even if I don't feel like it #I'll like it once I get there.

[tariah23]

White people are miserable, racist losers period. They’ve even been getting mad at Japanese people for correcting them about Yasuke as well.

#rambling #seen wp go ‘they’re mismembering their history is all-‘ #as if they’d know more than the actual Japanese people #comments on ever post about yasuke are full of racist wp arguing with Japanese ppl and telling them that yasuke was a ‘nobody slave’ #while Japanese ppl are just like ‘well anyway-‘ on their asses it’s kind of embarrassing #the guy is literally an historical figure bro #how are you mad that everyone from a country that you have such an unhealthy interest in isn’t as racist as you are??? that’s what it’s #giving #I’m sure there are lots of Japanese ppl being racist af too #since antiblackness is global and everyone has a problem with black people simply existing but #they hate us too but 😭 #it’s just #expect full blown kkk bullshit as soon as a black character pokes their head out from around the curtain #antiblackness #I see white ppl cry about yasuke every other month man #or at least once a year on Twitter

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!