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orbdotexe · 11 months

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Trying SO hard not to give Wolf more people on their side bc they're the ultimate Depressed Bitch... I don't even know what to do about Saint yet!!! I have no idea if Osiris believes them or not! but here I go thinking about Saladad and the Young Wolf's Howl :(

In my defense, consider:

This is more than a weapon. Forged by Lord Saladin within the hallowed halls of the Iron Temple, this sword was intended for you, and none other. When you wield it, its burning flames represent the bright light of your valor — and the all-consuming sacrifice that you have promised to make, should you be called to it.

According to Saladin, that sword is a promise. Become what the enemies of the City fear. The only Nightmare worth fearing, as Eris put it.

At its core, the sword is an Iron Lord's oath to protect the City, no matter the personal cost.

Like... What does it mean to Saladin, to see it on their back when they pull the trigger on Lakshmi? That it was with them when they tried to kill Cayde? That they're still using it now, even as they sow the end?

Is he angered to see his next generation, the one who was supposed to carry the torch of his fallen friends, turn their back on everything he taught them?

Or maybe he knows, in some part. Does he see that they believe they've upheld their promise, even now? Does he think they're delusional?

Even worse, consider them returning it. I'm very drawn on this, though, because of what it means. Wolf giving the sword up would be an admission that they don't care, and Wolf does. Wolf cares so, so much. and they're a sentimental bitch here!!

BUT. What if Saladin found them, one day, treating the sword?

He tells them that sword is an oath, and they tell him they've kept it. He asks why they tried to kill Cayde, and they don't answer. He asks why their killed Lakshmi, and they tell him Ikora would know.

There's silence as he considers this, glaring them down. Wolf stands up, holding the sword in an almost reverie. They ask if he's here to take it back. He doesn't answer.

They set it against the wall, telling him they have more swords.

They leave.

#yeah im still on this. what about it #the forsaken exile #i have so many feelings about this sword. i never even got it but it means so much...#uhhh i am mildly obsessed with the Only Nightmare quote ever since I did the Deathbringer quest #i love that SO much #i dont even actually use Deathbringer!!! I just love Eris <3 she says some RAW shit #i VERY much want Wolf to be using the Born In Fire ornament but for lore reasons #and we all know how i feel about the Young Wolf's promises!!! yeah baby!! over commitment!!!!!!#Like... they're broken and shattered. but they still keep their promise. They still keep the sword!!!#so i feel like it would be fitting for the sword to have those molten cracks...#but like... what lore reasons? why did the sword break?#pain.#ALSO on the Ikora thing: tell me she didn't have Hidden in Lakshmi's ranks #Even if she found out LATE what Lakshmi's plan was. she would still know eventually. so here Ikora has just... chosen not to release that #Not out of malice. but imean. its the Vanguard. its politics. Wolf took the shot of turning hatred on themself #and away from the House.#Best not to waste that and introduce a new factor. No need to muddy the waters further #politics is a balancing act where what's good isnt always right! Ikora knows she should put it out there but its for the better of the City #essay tags my beloved <3 #i just got up. this probably makes NO sense

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radrezi · 2 years

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wishing you all a karkalicious 612 :-)

#homestuck #karkat #karkat vantas #homestuck fanart #612 #jumping on here to post whatever. whatever this is im rushing #update on my stats prof the final exam assignment page has not updated and im just laughing!#but yeah i promised karkat and here he is. will i ever draw hs again? i dont know really #i have nothing against it besides all the general stuff people have against it im just burnt out #im still happy to do comms of hs ocs and such you know just phew its been a long 6 years #anyway //diffuses through the mosquito screen #click this tag for pain and death

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cryptocism · 2 years

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hi, sorry to ask, but i was randomly recommended this on ao3 and now i am very interested in your too many thads au. unfortunately, the only place that i dwell is ao3, and i have no idea where to find your fic? comic? i'm not really sure.. anyway a link would be nice. i am now going to slink back into my lair.

im trapped in a cave and the cave is called this fucking fic

there's a wizard that keeps me walking in circles and the only way out is to post the fic

the wizard is also me and they say i cant post anything until its finished because i know myself and if i post it as a wip it will forever stay as a wip and ill lose steam and never finish it

help ive been here for months and im not even done yet

#asks #anonymous #too many thads au #like in case anyone was wondering if im still working on this #i very much am #and i promise im gonna be fucking insufferable about it once its finally done bc i want validation for all the time i spent writing this #but i need to not post it until its done otherwise i shoot my own creative process in the foot #idk maybe ill stick to my schedule and manage to finish it by the end of the month #heres hoping #but yeah sorry theres nothing to actually read yet ive just come up with too much plot stuff

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youeverjustmarryabountyhunter · 8 months

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No one will ever find this picture as funny as I do, but that's okay

Context?

One of my best friends has recently gotten back into their security breach hyperfixation and I ended up binging Mark's playthrough again. (Haven't watched ruin yet)

I made the unfortunate mistake of reading the comments and realized that "wow. I will defend this kid until the day I die, actually??"

Which led to a joke with my friend about how similar Boba and Gregory are which led to this image.

Do you have feral, orphan, child (probably around 10) who is hated by a community and has definitely bitten someone before and is most definitely a criminal?

No you don't, that's my kid now actually.

#boba fett #fnaf gregory #star wars #five nights at freddy's security breach #boba wondering why gregory got an adopted dad that called him superstar while all he got was more abadnoment issues #the person with them is my persona btw #my 5'1 ass has so business lifting a 10 year old on my hip but here we are #both of them have blasters how cool!#except one is just a laser and the other commits ya know murder #all im saying is that i as an adult would absolutely desytroy some robots if they tried to kill me all night #so yeah i think im gonna defend him on this one ya know?#insert that one meme where its like “please stick your fibgers between the bar of my enclosure i promise i wont bite you”#except its “please ask me about my opinions on young boba fett”#i have so many #i have gone on for litteral hours #also im still working on the first chapter for the fix it au so hopefully that'll be done soon #art #crack art #fanart

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eddiesfaerie · 9 months

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its missing eddie hours :(

#yeah im still here #i lurk like most days before i go to bed #life has been so crazy #im thinking about writing again #no promises #but hi if youre reading down here :)

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boxwinebaddie · 1 month

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sorry guys i'm alive, i swear, i'm just...

*sigh*

Cleaning. :/

#nina speaks #i have two weeks off #but unfortunately when ur a mentally ill disaster girl who is working 7-3/4 everyday and writing #it doesnt leave u a lot of time to take care of ur life or ur responsibilities which im already bad at #so my entire life is in chaos rn like specifically my house so im taking the next couple days to get everything #and i mean EVERYTHING #clean around me before i enjoy my break bc remember when i told yall i was deep cleaning last time #well...i started and then stopped so guess who is deep cleaning fr this time #but yeah if u wanna say hi to me in the asks i will respond in between me scrubbing and screaming show tunes #me: makes a stiff nina colada bc im crying #my answers might be kinda short bc call me cinderella the way i be cleaning the floor w these bitches asdhlsahd Literally #save nina #tldr i promised i would deal with everything i didnt deal with before i started being cute and writing on here again #BUT UNTIL THEN U CAN TOTALLY LEAVE ME QS OR ASK ME PLOT STUFF THE BIG STUFF JUST MIGHT COME LATER #if i am being silly and goofy i am heavy handed w the malibu #( also i hope we still care i am havin an anxiety moment abt dragging all this out 2 long r we still having fun ravesey nation )#i’m trying to channel jers while cleanin

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the-kipsabian · 4 months

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maybe instead of a fic writing goal list i should make a fic reading goal list huh

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taegularities · 11 months

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please dont leave</3

love you all to bits 🤍

#yk what...#one thing those miserable anons had right was that i do love y'all's attention/affection/validation. it's why i'm still here too #and that attention affection and validation are reciprocated bc im gonna catch a bullet for y'all >:(#the community here is amazing and beautiful and i'd be damned if i didn't enjoy it and let ppl who mean nothing to me kill that joy lol #everyone in the inbox is right — i can't do more than own up for my mistakes n i WILL try my absolute best to be better and not hurt anyone #i promise #so yeah thank u <3 to those who are mad stay mad i can do nothing for you so go dissect this too #(none of those anons were in MY inbox btw) (i won't perceive those anymore so keep talking to yourself ig)#(but YOU guys were all SO sweet thank you again!!!)#anyways #notes for rid 🌹#anon

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devotedlystrangewizard · 1 year

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tbh i think that there are two varieties of enemies to lovers when a lot of people consider there to only be the one and thats like. 90% of "are toxic ships valid" discourse. bc everyone who isnt really in the toxic ships business tends to think we all view every toxic ship as an "ok they both hurt each other a lot but what if they would grow past that" ship. yeah theres enemies to lovers that ends in a really sweet relationship and thats fantastic! but some toxic ships really are just toxic. theyre fun because theyre toxic. because exploring character dynamics is fun. something like that

#AND EVEN WHEN WE WRITE OR DRAW THESE PAIRINGS IN CUTE WAYS TRUST. TRUST THEYRE STILL HORRIBLE PEOPLE #i was thinking about burakhovsky again sorry. i think theyre cute. idk #like yeah they need character growth but they could. eventually. be a pretty damn healthy relationship. imo #but then u have things like hannigram like. thats never going to be healthy. thats never going to be normal. but theyre FUN #watching hannibal stab will in that kitchen changed me. i think #which is also why you do tend to see aro people shipping the most toxic fucked up little ships.#i personally am romance repulsed irl and romance neutral when it comes to fiction #so while yeah!! the relationship is cute!!! i cant find fulfillment in coffeeshop aus #it is purely character dynamics that draws me to a ship. that gets lost in the Cute AUs #either way i feel like 90% of toxic ship discourse would be over the SECOND people realized #most of us are here BECAUSE of the fucked up connotations. and we know. especially when ur talking to adults i PROMISE. we know #believe it or not some of us CAN find the difference between fiction and real life #granted im aromantic so the odds of me seeking out a toxic relationship are TINY to begin with #but #eh

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mukamibabe · 2 years

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Hi!

Maybe a scenario on Karlheinz and Richter getting addicted to their s/o's blood? Like they had her blood once and ever since became addicted to it.

ok... because i'm not sure if you meant karl and richter separately or not so.. i present you with all three options: karlheinz, separate, richter, separate and then both! karlheinz and richter being addicted to their s/o's blood. i.. just got another thought of them ,, 'accidentally' getting addicted to eachother's s/o's blood's(?). ? i dont feel like im phrasing it right. and if that was terrible grammar? i don't have an excuse other than - sometimes i'm dumb sdhfksdf anyways. i may post that last idea in another post, kinda depends if anyone wants it/?? but for now!!:

also. it killed me to actually write short scenarios for once lmao also if the cuts bother anyone just let me know?? im not new to tumblr etiquette but its been a while jdskfhsd if anyone has issues with it please tell me bc i have no idea

karlheinz + richter sakamaki getting heavily addicted to their s/o's blood. (both separate and also. not lol)

umm, for content warnings i guess, there's really not much to any of this but is more like.. a mental dive into like.. their sanity during this ?? ahfdss i almost want to say it gets yandere-ish, but honestly i'm not sure. dialovers has really confused me with such lmao

if this isn't to your liking/what you preferred, i'll rewrite to your liking!! still not sure if i'm making sense but its 4 am. yea i know i write everything at 3-4 am buuut.. everything still comes out ok right??? DSjfhdsf idk i feel like it also came out more of like. a poem or something. hfhghd just let me know ok?? thank you for the requests as always <3

edit: this might seem a little sloppy ? maybe? hopefully not ??? i ended up writing this a while back and coming back to something after a while .. is tricky. i still really hope this is okay!! i need to get content out hjgfdsf busy times ;;

karlheinz

He wasn't sure how it happened. He could recall when, however. As cheesy as it may be, Karlheinz' first taste of them was, for some reason, one of the things he'd craved the most since a long time. After he had gotten just a taste of their blood for the first time, it almost drove him mad with how much he wanted more. Not only because controlling that itch is difficult (though not exactly a struggle for a more powerful vampire such as himself), but also because he couldn't put a finger on why. Why did their blood taste like nobody else's he's had? It was almost annoying with how Karlheinz' thoughts were busy running constantly, the taste stuck in his mouth yet, there was none of it.

It was dangerous. For both of them.

If the king started to lose himself even more, which he already was, for some reason he couldn't piece together, which then added yet another thing to his mental, and physical torment. Something in him snapped that very first bite, and ever since, the man has felt himself lose his grip on both himself as well as reality. Even if he had indulged, the more frequently he did so, the more likely death was to approach his beloved.

And for whatever reason, even daring to think about living without them was painful. He felt as if he should keep them isolated, protected from his desires that only got greedier day by day. Was it fear? Karlheinz did not believe so, but what he did believe was that this had to end. Before he truly went mad. Before they die. In which Karlheinz would tear them apart, savoring their delectable, deadly blood for the last time. Perhaps it'd be better that way. If they no longer existed in the world, it would make things so much easier for Karlheinz.

This likely wasn't love, Karlheinz knew so already. But did it matter? As long as he could keep them to himself, with no one to interrupt.. Perhaps it wouldn't be so bad. For it to just be the two of them, his sweet little thing that makes the man want to succumb constantly.

To be rid of them was definitely the best option, if both Karlheinz and his precious prey held any value for their life. This sudden downslide of his sanity was a first, and every possible way he could think of for handling it did not please him. If Karlheinz kept them, they’d be completely drained after a point of time. If he disposed of them, there’d be an emptiness to Karl that couldn’t be filled. Letting them live but keeping a distance from Karl would not work, either. The thought of anyone else drinking their blood was almost... painful.

There was another option, however, if such thing was possible.

To turn them. To stake his claim over them forever.

There were to many options. None of which he wanted to pursue, really. He wasn’t sure about any of it. He wasn’t sure how they managed to beguile him in such a way.

What he did know was that this obsession he had over them- the way they had him completely spellbound, somehow- was frustrating. And, it was definitely not going to last for long.

richter

In the perspective of this brooding vampire, love at first sight was nonexistent. The way he treated his prey almost said otherwise, though it certainly wasn’t love. Nor did it have anything to do with sight; rather, it was taste. He had always been an obsessive man, an obsessive lover. It was almost inevitable for everyone he managed to get close with. The number of such is low, for sure, especially for being someone his age, but regardless, this has happened before.

Unlike his awful brother, Richter could expect this. He foresaw it the moment he even considered drinking their blood. It wouldn’t be the first time, and, if they are able to survive his obsession, which was already pretty intense, then hopefully it’d be the last. It also wouldn’t the first time he’s said such a thing.

To his own dismay, he knows this should end. He’s not concerned for himself, but his beloved, rather. As odd as it may seem, the man has loved before. His view of love may be just as strange as the rest of his family, but did it matter? His love also just so happened to be one of the reasons he was thriving, both figuratively and literally. Blood was a powerful thing, and after so many years, Richter could admire it, at least slightly. At the very least, he was thankful.

However, in this case? Their blood was purely his. He knew this, yet, he worships it. He worships them, for being his, for being such a bewitching creature. Maybe it wasn’t just them, perhaps it was just his nature to dive deep into any sort of attraction he develops. Maybe it was something else completely.

He knew what he had to do. It would be merciful. The ‘humane’ thing to do.

As if he had morals.

His love was not safe near him, and truthfully, it was a genuine concern whether or not they’d survive Richter’s never-ending hunger for everything they had to offer him. Blood, body, soul. But, he wasn’t strong enough to do so. They were his weakness.

And he planned to keep them for as long as possible.

+ bonus karlheinz & richter

Again.

Of course.

Fate was not kind to Richter, and he was aware of this. Yet, it seemed the world was not content with allowing him to not compete for love.

If this was even a matter of ‘love’. It was definitely arguable- he enjoyed their company, sure, but whether their company beat their blood taste? There was a clear winner, for now, anyways.

Yet again, the younger Sakamaki must fight for what he desires. Because, naturally, his elder sibling yet again had no need to fight for anything. It was them. The one Richter had grown ..attached to, putting it lightly. And what does Karlheinz do? Swoop in and try to seduce them into his own arms?

It was horrid. But, unsurprisingly, not the first, and definitely wouldn’t be the last. It seemed to be the way the world worked- Obviously fate favored Karlheinz over Richter. Surely.

Karlheinz did not believe so. Was there an issue with seeking out what you desire? Karlheinz knew what good blood tasted like, had sampling plenty throughout his life. He just had an eye for it, you could say. Apparently, this was something he had in common with his brother- the dark haired man had a knack for picking out good prey, something Karlheinz couldn’t deny. So, why wouldn’t he try to get a taste?

In Karl’s eyes, if they truly were a good little pet, they wouldn’t need to even think of any options. Why refuse him? He could show them a world so much better than any way his brother might have already.

Unfortunately, as lovely as it may be, at least for Karl, the two brothers can’t fight forever. Eventually, one of them will give up, despite both of them sharing yet another similar characteristic- determination. Ambition. Stubbornness, even.

It’d be a constant tug-of-war over the prey, and at some point, their toy might lose themself before they choose one brother over another. Neither Sakamaki will allow for it. They belonged to them. Not both, exactly, but with the rate in which things were happening, neither were going to give up any time soon.

Perhaps all three would just have to get used to endless sharing.

#HGdfshgf more about putting things under read mores: i know it's good to do so where like. . there's like. mature/triggering content #and also longer content. i just have no idea what's *too* long and what's not lol #i mean? i dont think anyone's annoyed by it and i'm 100% overthinking but shhh let me #but also dont lol thanks #its terrible and awful!! and a waste of my time!!!#cindy said :) tantrum time #no honestly not really jsdfhsdf im just tired and abusing the tagging feature. and using it as my diary lmao #also.. ive been fixated on other things. dl is still here i promise #its actually providing me lots of inspo so thats fun #honestly i'm just trying to figure out how to balance my free time more #life requires lots of work and im just ! living Jsfdjdf i want to keep myself occupied with other activities that im fixated over #first one being : genshin #the other one is a secret but its super dark. like very. anyways #yeah that's where ive been #then?? then i just fell into naruto again somehow lmao #it always happens to me :'((((#FJDHFJDSFH #right now the fixation is on sasuke. for some reason. umm #KHFdsfs #honestly idk if i like this but i just needed to post something #or else i'd get eaten up by guilt #i hope this is okay ;;;;#Diabolik Lovers #yandere diabolik lovers #like i said i feel like i went with a completely different style with this one ..?? i dont think i love it but.. whatever #karlheinz #karlheinz sakamaki #karlheinz sakamaki x reader #richter sakamaki #richter sakamaki x reader

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thecherrygod · 1 year

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i havent been into it for too long but im kinda surprised i havent seen a harrykim good ol classic florist and tattoo artist au

like yeah im not so sure how the logic of either of them being in those proffessions would work but im talking mostly aesthetics here

like. harry being a florist just. does something to me. like when kim is like he needs hobbies if you get the gardening gloves he suggest gardening is just very good. maybe its a bit of like instead of becoming a teacher first hes a florist first and stays there. or when he was a teacher they had some of a garden in there and he learned and then maybe got a part time job at a florist to support him on his teacher salary bc those usually arent enough. also i think he still has at least some of his adiction issues but not necesarily to the in game level (maybe amphetamines to be able to keep up with his lifestyle also maybe he grows weed but less relevant until later). and maybe he actually got to marry dora and is actually divorced here. working too much, not making enough money, and when back at home hes still an addict, maybe the relationship lasted more but still it never got good enough to keep.

and kim... theres a few options. either undercover just being on the tattoo shop somehow which is like. not the most sense making but still a possibility. or.. he never became a cop, either, got too disappoined by the system early on, noticed the injustice, but realized that it didnt matter what he did it wouldnt be enough. or he did join the rcm for a bit and then quit bc of that, maybe also eyes died in here too and that was the last straw for him leaving. maybe hes not necesarily the guy doing the tattoos, but more of the designs and piercings (i assume its a million times easier doing piercings than tattoos. i dont mean that it doesnt require a technique too tho but getting a needle through skin for a piercing seems easier than having the pulse to work on a permanent piece in someones skin with specific pressure with consistence, and if he was a cop and quit maybe he has shakier hands.... idk. i dont know how stuff like this works generally ngl. also idk. can you have a tattoo.. parlor? and do designs but not the tattoos themselves? id assume you can but no idea)

ok yeah something like that maybe. and also the shops are either side by side or right across the street. i can imagine harry walking through the tattoo parlor and looking at the designs and looking at a few plant based designs and liking them and just. going in. not exactly for a tattoo or anything but more to like. know how it is and maybe meet the artist and then he sees kim which i imagine with a lot of tattoos and piercings which is sort of whats fueling this at this point bc i wasnt gonna think about it for too long but now im too deep into it and like i imagine this kim as.. kind of distant as he tends to be, will try to hide the fact he was a cop bc at this point hes not proud of that, he just likes making designs while listening to speedfreaks fm, which you can hear from outside the parlor while walking on the streets, but he is cool, and if you talk to him he will talk to you, hes just maybe awkward but also he is kinda weird (which has harry like 👉👈)

and this was just going to be me saying "man i havent seen any of this" and instead i sort of made my take on it and it got longer than i expected. anyways!!!

#my posts #and for organization #disco elysium #harrykim inked flowers au #that. doesnt mean im gonna actually make it. maybe. maybe. but i dont make promises #i make tags for myself. for my own organization and to find things later #inked flowers is bc i worry if i tag it as florist/tattoo artists au the tag is gonna get weird when i search for it #...... but i am attached to it now #............. i. would anyone believe me if i said this is like the second au ive made in my life lmao #i dont do this a lot bc i usually just see what others do i just make canon art and concepts and maybe post canon stuff #..... yeah. also it got too long lmao #also regarding the weed situation yeah i think harry would grow his own and at some point share with kim sfihsiug #like i think kim still has his one cigarette only and not much else. a bit of alcohol every once in a while and just weed #i think i should properly think about harry in here btw #this is all just placeholder for myself if it ever happens?#...... i think i am in a mood to like. write long posts today and also a lot of tags apparently #like... just rambling udsighsudig anyways. yeah. i love them i wanna think about them

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