turning 27 tomorrow is actually unreal, one because I never thought I would’ve made it this far.
I don’t have time for details because it’s 11:13pm as I’m typing and ready to lay in bed.
I just want to say how scared I am but so brave all at the same time. scared because I actually made it this far and no one will understand how hard life was growing up and how alone it felt, and how alone it was that no one would believe the things I said about what I went through.
brave because I am doing such great things in my own way and accomplishing things that are important to me in life. although brave, I am endlessly stressed and the moments of depression still exist but due fade on more days than ever, mostly because in this moment I am doing so much - if only you knew how many hours I put in a day. I feel like I’ve had many failures as an adult that I’m still trying to get through.
I’m excited for 27 and all that it will bring, I know I feel struggles now but as the years pass everything seems more peaceful. I hope to do more all of the things clare loves, and accomplish more growth.
sadly this boy ended up breaking my heart a couple weeks after we got these cute little photos done and I want to share them because they are too fucking cute, so why not here because every where else is too public for family and I don’t want them to see.