#considering what i studied in school

[cementcornfield]

It's important to fans to understand me, and me understand the fans. I put a lot of work on my English to talk with you guys. And I think I'm doing a good job.

#elly de la cruz #i adore this man #i am genuinely SO impressed with how much his English has improved in less than a year #athletes and language learning and the use of interpreters was already so interesting to me even before i become a Sports Person #considering what i studied in school #and baseball is such a crazy overlap of all that #the most 'American' sport but also so international #and then you think about everything going on with ohtani and his interpreter #which is wild and bringing a lot of attention to the language industry (and maybe not good attention!) #and it's like yeah - interpreters and translators absolutely need to have an ethics code and oversight considering the power they have #but not many people think about that! #anyway i'm rambling whoops #but i fully support interpreters AND athletes learning to speak the languages of the countries they play in #and elly is killing it #which is unsurprising #he is good at everything!!! we're so lucky to have him

[koetjingwarrd]

You're my baby, say it to me...

#gundam witch from mercury #gwitch #wfm #sulemio #suletta mercury #miorine rembran #i bet on losing dogs as per gwitch current story progression aka ep17 do you see my vision... #i have particular mixed feelings on ep 17 most of which i feel that the story is done a bit sloppy i think it started around ep 16 or 15 #i really need to get this out so i could study damn it !! #first of all with miorine with the one who's losing a lot by being complicit with prospera's quiet zero significantly trapping herself furt #er in the cycle of revenge and also losing the friends she has come to cherish and also... at the same time knowing hal truths of what real #ly happened prospera true plan. vanadis. aerial and suletta true nature. earth as a spacian battleground. and the whole lot #i feel like she's rushing thru her birthday to eject sul asap from prosperas plan and now whats done is done i feel like she underestimate #what conviction on how suletta values what family means to her. prospera lines where she wonders whether sul will give aerial up #easily is giving vibes that its possible for suletta to take drastic measures to get her family back. miorine grows up on a world that #is defined by strict rules but suletta does not... that is after she's starting to get over her heartbreak i think... #whats interesting about gwitch is that although it considered utena as one of its base material it mixes said materials with how gundam sto #ryline works while simultaneously keeping up with today's themes. so honestly... when this happened today im a bit pissed #another thing that even though on a surface level suletta plays the role of utena with miorine as anthy they are also anthy and utena #respectively. suletta and utena with their kind hearted and naive self with a sense of justice left behind the insidious plot of the school #anthy and miorine titled the bride who adored their respective partner up to the point of deception and betrayal for their own good #SULETTA AND ANTHY GOD THE WITCh. red motifs. i find it funny they both have siblings okay this is messed up. the character shrouded in myst #ery. SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS THE CHICK WHO IS YET TO HATCHH !!!! RAHHH #insert utena student council theme somewhere around here #and lastly utena and miorine. the “princess”that is ready to take on a world that is threatening her loved one. both are only child god no. #this is my personal feelings but i will find it heartbreaking that despite everthing suletta will runs to miorine no matter how much she #push her away... but i also want and find it interesting where despite loving and believing in her suletta will slowly will ALSO despise #her for letting them drift apart kind of like anthy and utena on the akio apocalypse arc....... do i want this to happen...? do i....? >yes #regardless augh what a heartwrenching lovely episode despite me knowing it will happen at some point during the show #im like the surprised pikachu meme with tears in my eyes

[mainapnifavouritehoon]

hi guys i-

#Hey so i wanted to talk about this really bad this has been bothering me for quite some time #i have been busy a lot these days and i dont get time at all to do anything but i can see myself wasting my time just scrolling #I have school and then coaching and then ofc i have to study on my own for which i barely take out time as im highly careless #My last 2 exams went absolute shit and that fucking scares me because i'll be having my JEE soon #Mummy has been telling me to stay away from my phone and ik she trusts me but she but she deserves a daughter that studies ig? #And now i kind of consider that as an option because this phone is very very distracting #I have been thinking about deactivating but i realized it would mean i would lose all my precious posts and interactions #So i wont be deleting this blog as i am too attached (i will be coming back istg) #I will be taking a break and ig thats what yall call a hiatus #I will be giving away my phone to my parents (trust me i have to) #Ik this will be hard for me to just leave all of a sudden so i'll slowly start vanishing if that makes sense? #This message also doesnt mean that i will be shutting down my phone rn at this moment and that this is goodbye #This is just to prepare the people that i love and who love me that i will be highly inactive and not come online for maybe months #This is not an impulsive decisions i have really thought through this #Also just to tell you again MAIN ABHI GAYAB NAHI HONE WAALI BUT THODE TIME MEIN I WILL GO ON A BREAK THIS IS JUST A PRE HIATUS MESSAGE #Also i hope you guys will still love me and remember me once i come back #Because coming months are going to be hard for me #I hope you understand and ily guys okay? #(Oh god why am i so dramatic about everything) xoxo

[rimouskis]

#this is SUCH a joke btw I know having crushes in high school is like. a deeply normative experience #the more accurate meme would be me posting the 'your experiences are not universal' meme @ myself #'my experiences' being...... #idk I don't consider what I had crushes. I simply wanted to study them like a bug then made them my best friend + demand all their attention

[essektheylyss]

no more "fix-it fics". enough "everybody lives au". everybody DIES au. I could make it (canon) WORSE.

#this joke brought to you hilariously not by recent events but in fact rediscovering my old ffn fics from high school #they exist and are easily findable lol #and boyyyy have i not only really not change. but i have MELLOWED on the angst. #if you think my fics are rough now... #literally wrote MULTIPLE fics for a romance-oriented procedural where one or both of the leads died and someone else had to deal with that #hilarious. like. this was 'i know they're gonna get out of this tight spot canon left them in last episode. but what if they didn't. :3' #like say what you will about some of my sadder content but the characters aren't getting MURDERED #also went out of my way to write the cockblock rival LI sympathetically in one scenario #like this character was universally reviled. MEANT TO BE in fact. and several comments were just 'icb you made him impossible to hate' #me at all times: have you considered. this character is not evil. just trying their best and not favored by the narrative but like. fine. #and also do you want to talk about GRIEF? #would love to study my high school self like a bug. who was she. fuck if i remember lmfao #ANYWAY this is genuinely so funny #also damn ffn reviewers were brutal about update times lol #also were not shy about 'WOW this is so ooc' (they were wrong. to be clear. they were mad about a ship thing) #the writing was 'eh' but the specific aspect of the characterization they were mad about was not lol #but also uwu over some of the comments i was looking through last night #some of them were like 'wow someone said this about tiefling fic last week!'

[bredforloyalty]

you know what? it's fine.

#tomorrow i either pass clinical psych or i don't pass. or i get a 3 and i'm forced to consider if it's worth trying again or not #that's fine. then i try to do something with the school psych assignment over the weekend #then i do a bit of preparing for the stupid fucking neuropsych online exam. so I don't go in blind #you gotta know how to cheat and how to use your notes y'know what i mean. #and then i start studying for the comprehensive exam and also work on the research paper #and if i fail clinical psych i can try again one or two weeks later (can't really do one bc i don't want to be back here that week) (so two) #and if i fail the comprehensive exam (or if it's crap like it's a 2 or a 3. bc it kind of needs to be a 5 bc of the degree grade) then i #try again on may 7 #and if i don't manage to finish the research paper by may 6 for the first check‚ i still have until the 19th to do it #i will make it through if it kills me.. and it shouldn't like if this tests my limits then i deserve to be hit with a #giant hammer until i die 💀

[disdaidal]

So, I met my nurse today and she said I'm finally getting scheduled for the ADHD testing on Dec 18th—after all these years. Albeit she said that it may not change a thing, but it's good to test it anyway.

I also had a discussion with my teacher today about my problems and we went through some stuff, and I might feel a little bit more enlightened about some things, which will hopefully help me.

Still. I'm having trouble with planning some stuff at my workplace because the staff there simply doesn't have time, and my instructor is also a very busy person (plus she's fussy and impatient and a little upset/disappointed with me which is not making it any easier for me), so that is still giving me a lot of stress right now.

So, I don't know. On the other hand, one teacher says I'm doing a good job and that I shouldn't quit. Then again, this particular school and their style of teaching simply might not be the thing for me and I expressed that concern today as well. I need help getting through with some stuff and nobody has time for me, so it's obviously not good.

I also need to find another place to train soon and that workplace would have to be something where I wouldn't have to manage 15 things at the same time and well. Finding that could be a challenge, too.

But. I suppose we're going somewhere.

#personal #last week i cried twice after a workday #and my nurse also mentioned today that i still have a learning disability which will definitely make things harder for me #but also that there's nothing that can be done about it so... great #so i mentioned this to my teacher and she wrote it down but #basically there are only two choices for me now #either i pass this training somehow and plan my displays at my current workplace so well that i never have to do this again #or i will only complete my training for this period and then find another workplace and do my displays there #i can't postpone them much later apparently or so i understood. so they are not giving a lot of choices there really #and we did talk about me considering another school as well #where i can spend more time in the classroom actually learning things and less time working and trying to study at the same time #because this clearly isn't working for me. i can't do two things at the same time. not well at least. and i want to do well #but i tried applying for that kind of school in this field last summer. i didn't get in & i was 8th in line #i would've gotten in working with kids instead. but that school was further away and i probably would've found it even more stressful #than what i'm doing now #so i don't know. this is so fucking stressful for me honestly #like i like what i'm doing but i also really hate what i'm doing because this also requires stuff from me that i am simply not good at #and i'd have to put extra energy into it but i don't have much energy in me right now tbh #ugh

[britneyshakespeare]

This is just a map of New England (minus Connecticut the fake New England state)

#text post #new england #source: boston 25 news website: believe it or not massachusetts is not the most irish state new study finds #18.9% of mass residents have irish ancestry #really this is not surprising at all. massachusetts is the most population-dense state by far with the most immigrants #and new hampshire? ask anyone where their family lived before they came to new hampshire. it was massachusetts #new hampshire is full of ethnically irish and italian and polish catholics whose families have been here long enough #to assimilate and move to the suburbs and become xenophobic and anti-immigrant. #literally bothers me so much when ppl named molly o'flannigan and patrick sullivan talk shit about dorchester lawrence etc #and other immigrant-dense areas in new england. i'm like baby your grandparents lived there #well or at least that's my experience #new england still does have a shocking amount of wasps whose families have been here since the fuckin mayflower #i dont have a direct link to that in my own family but it's very strange how that is taught to new england children as like #'our' heritage in schools. plymouth plantation and the puritans and all that. you're weirdly made to identify w it #and like as time goes on #just factually that only represents the population of ppl who live and are raised here less and less. #not to mention it does nothing to address DIVERSITY in the area. but i suppose there's like a local mythos #we have to teach a story to children and it has to be a 'we' story and that story has to be pilgrims #bc the story has to start at colonization and not expand after that. thats too complex. happy thanksgiving? #new england white people have a habit of thinking theyre irish catholic anglo-protestant settlers and they built this country #they dont parse out their own identity at all and they certainly don't want to have to consider other ppl's. #wow i didnt mean this to turn into a culture-critical rant im sure most of my followers arent even from here so idk what this means 2 u guy #happy saint patrick's day!

[kidrat]

guys I love them so much

Toby, Lou, and Tzipporah from left to right. minor characters under the cut lol this is a post for meeee

Top row: Toby's friends Josh, Spencer, and Aisling

Middle row: Tzipporah's little sister Yael. Her love interest Sturdy

Bottom row: Toby's parents Alexei and Ruby. His girlfriend Daisy. Who is dead! That's definitely not just Lou pre-transition!

#Sturdy should have a choppy shag. straight haired ellen ripley. #i just chose the closest thing that was giving gay. also dont think they'd wear traditional clothing much but she DOES wear that colour lot #and none of the other outfits worked at all #also CONSIDERED giving Toby the little blue and white striped tshirt bc he Would... #but thought w the cigarette he might look too french #hes not. hes eastern european and jewish/space southern american #if ur interested toby and aisling (at 17/18) and tzipporah and josh (twenties) #were both victims of well why not relationships. theyre all still friends #tzipporah avoided josh for like three years but the breakup was amicable she's just like that #also if ur interested ruby and alexei run ruby's family's farm #mostly sheep :) #aisling's family are in horses #i dont think the other two of toby's group were brought up *on* farms but they know what theyre doing in that regard #josh works for aisling's family and spencer studied mechanical engineering #tzipporah did history with french #and then moved to a planet where no one speaks it. after The Traumas #lou barely has high school level education #toby was happy being a farmer pre Space War #but in another universe he might have gone to college sometime in his twenties and done men. (badum tsshh. he'd have done philosophy) #louniverse

[13eyond13]

As much as I roast Beyond Birthday for his lack of subtlety I also kin him for it. Because in art school we were sometimes required to incorporate deep symbolism into our art pieces, and I was always doing things like drawing a dude holding a compass and wearing goggles to represent that he's feeling directionless about his worldview

#seriously art school was such both a good learning experience and also an embarrassing bummer all at once hahaha #i think the worst part about it is i started feeling like i couldnt have a sense of playfulness or humour in what i made? #not necessarily because anyone told me that but i just somehow internalized it and it sucked all the joy out of making stuff #i had to relearn a lot about why i used to love doing it in the first place and all that jazz people always say about art school #but anyway i just cant not be literal and hamfisted so i really shouldn't make fun of B #for being like #hmmm clocks!! eyeballs!! the number 13 #it's really not as easy as it looks to be subtle and artful about such things #i think part of the problem was i went to school basically for making fine art to hang in galleries #when all i really ever loved art for was all the comics and movies and games and cartoons i took in #i didnt live somewhere where i could often go to museums or galleries so i lived through books and screens alone for art basically #and i really started believing all the stuff i loved wasnt the 'correct' kind of art that i should be focusing on anymore because of school #i definitely recommend considering your influences when it comes to the kind of schooling you do #like pick something where you'll be studying the artists and art you genuinely were inspired by because #so much of art school was studying fine art and artists that legitimately did nothing for me #not because they werent worth studying but just because they werent my personal taste #beyond birthday #p

[leqf]

Gauss was right (obviously), they should have been named lateral numbers

#also I just vividly remembered when my (extremely arrogant) younger cousin saw I had a textbook called Algebra #and then very snarkily and completely seriously implied that I was stupid and must be bad at math #since I was still studying algebra and she was doing that in high school #it was Artin’s Algebra 😭😭😭 LIKE BRO what you consider algebra and what I consider algebra are very different things #anyway that cousin still somehow manages to imply that they’re the smartest person in the room and the rest of us are idiots #every. time. I. see. her. #chris.txt

[whisconsun]

Me to friends: Mental health is the key to college. You can't pour from an empty glass, and you can't use and uncharged battery.

Me to myself: GRAD SCHOOL'S DON'T LOOK AT YOUR MENTAL HEALTH, THEY LOOK AT YOUR GRADES

#i am fearing grad school #send help #i am only a freshman how is this happening #what year do you need to start studying for the GRE #(all things considered i think i'm doing ok) #for now

[catastrxblues]

great i think i’ve finally caught a hint of a cold. my question is, where the fuck were you a month ago, when i could actually afford to take a day off?????

#😭 #my throat is starting to feel a bit ehhhh and then my nose is runny and i keep sneezing *sighs* #make sense considering that i spent almost the entire weekend outside and that it kept raining once i was going home so #bjt still #also that part about loving chemistry and stuff I LIED #i’m starting to get sick of her #i spent the first five days of this week (well technically last because it’s already 12:17 am but) crying and stressing over it #and then the entirety of this weekend at school studying it #AND THEN i’m going to have to spend the entirety of next week ALSO studying it #and by entirety i mean entirety!!! like i’ll be excused from all classes nrxt week (from morning to afternoon pretty sure) to study the #materials. AND THEN this guy had the audacity to still keep the chem extracurricular going after school on monday 😭 #and we usually go on until five HELP ME #AND THEN after that i have extra course and GUESS WHAT. on monday we have physics and CHEM. chem again 😭 #the worst thing about this is that i knoww i’m not good enough to pass the first round anyways you know #it’s like i’m suffering through this for nothing it’s just aghhhh #bismillah though i guess #*smiling through the pain* #chem tag #nadirants

[francisforever2014]

guys i think i wanna be a professor …. first of all that’s so sexy plus it just fits like multiple older people in my life have told me unprompted that they could see me as one and i agree <3 i never considered it bc i wasn’t sure i wanted to continue with academia at all but now i’m really comfortable within in (and want to do my part in fixing the parts that i hate) and would loveeee to continue on and teach others

#i also never considered it bc i knew i didn’t wanna teach like public school #not bc of teaching but just bc there wasn’t a subject i liked enough to want to devote to teaching it #but i love mas and gws so much like i would literally love to pass it on and continue my own research so much #i have so many ideas about my teaching style and grading and everything already #me and my friend who’s studying to be a teacher are always talking about it #and i do a lot of examination of my own professors styles and what i like/don’t like #and it’s all just so interesting and exciting to me <3 yay #i feel like i belong in grad school being a ta rn like let me innnnnnnn

[j-esbian]

i know it’s a common millennial gripe that kids are coerced into picking their life trajectory so young, that a lot of people pick college because they feel that it’s What You’re Supposed to Do, rather than what’s right for them, but like. despite all of that, i really thought i was different

#it’s like. i had a Situation so i was like ‘no college is totally my choice’ but even then #really not a lot of thought went into it #not that i regret it but i just wish kids had access to different kinds of guidance #honestly very little info about anything beyond ‘which college will you go to’ #assumed that you already know what you want to study #my high school was pretty focused on. either you’re gonna study the humanities or you’re going into healthcare #i know i have these moods every few months where i entertain ways my life could be different #lately i’ve been thinking. i barely even know what engineering as a profession MEANS #i like to make things. i’m not opposed to math. i just never even considered it as an option #because i liked to read as a kid and that’s what all the english majors said #i’m just. tired. and i feel so bad realizing the fact that #multiple generations say the same thing. and yet nothing changes. because kids still feel like #they need to get their life planned out at 18 #i don’t know a good way to get through. because kids always feel like ‘rip to you but i’m different’ #and maybe they are!! but we need better education and guidance imo #idk. i just feel completely lost still scrambling for a path to not feel like a failure #and i have no idea what that means because i’ve already exhausted the option i’m familiar with #catch me. a grown adult. going to a career fair for high schoolers just to scope it out #the good thing is i could probably pass for 17 #mine

[poptartmochi]

however.. it's not just blorbo thoughts that haunt me with that song... it's teacher thoughts too! 🤯

#for the past few months I've been going back and forth about whether i want to teach middle or high school #and this is nowhere near a deciding factor #BUT... consider the following with me.. performing one version as a mass piece at the beginning of the year with the full choir and then. #🤌🏻 #at the end of the year doing the other with just the seniors because they have become the old man who will never again pass this way 😭 #i feel like dickau's would be better as a mass piece because of it's more relaxed rhythms. the chords sound fuller than macdonald's which #would probably sound nicer with all hands on deck! and then macdonald's more rhythmically challenging arrangement would be cool for the #seniors 😁 but this is to my untrained and pretty rusty ear so 🕴️ we'll see how i feel when i go back to school #another idea I've entertained is giving each class a like. Challenge Song their freshman year and recording it‚ then reprising it their #senior year and letting them compare their performances to reflect their growth as musicians.. i think that would be really cool :] #i dont think i could conduct the bridge builder with that in mind though.. id start crying lol! but i think it is fundamental as a choir #student to watch your director cry in the middle of a song+ continue on as if nothing was happening #but anyhow idk man.. the idea of working with high schoolers to really build up their musicality and prepare them for the world is very #appealing to me but you can't be a musician without the foundations which i could establish in middle school #and foundations are very fun to teach as well!! but foundations can be taught in a beginning choir course or during summer camp #so 😩 #the music i want to direct is all satb which suits high school better. but is it selfish to choose which way to go based on what music you #like? 🕴️🕴️ the contemplations man.... anyhow i have a lot more growing and learning and Studying to do before this will even matter #can't prepare kids for the world when I've scarcely explored it myself! #sriracha.txt