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d4t-webserial · 10 months

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D4T: Page 7 (Lu POV)

//cw: ableist slur and depiction of internalized ableism// go here for more info on d4t

After telling her about his detransition she proceeded to ask a handful of follow up questions (they were pretty incoherent, and he honestly didn’t know enough..), he did his best to answer them until she just told him “srry for so mny questions idk if u can rlly give me what i wnt…for answers i mean! i think i jst need some time to thnk” (so there’s still, a chance they stay friends, hahaha,,, he’s dying ;-;).

But actually tho what the fuck just happened? Lu was so confused… did Alice just ask him out, or ask him to ask her out… why? He’s so… subpar, how long had she liked him??? Her little brother always called him her “boyfriend” to tease her, but he thought the joke was cause of how… mediocre he was. He knew she would say stupid things to make him flustered but, but wasn’t that to get a reaction out of him (plus she teased all her friends). She always did sit close to him when they hung out (but like she’s a girl, girls hug and cuddle and hold each other's hands all the time… right?). Wasn’t there that guy she liked??? Was she playing a prank on him?... no she would say that’s cringe and lame probably… so she likes him. He still can’t begin to process that but, luckily he won’t have too! Since she now knows about how absolutely disgusting his body is she’ll stop having feelings real quick (yay problem solved ;~;)... this sucks, if she had just never liked him it wouldn’t have hurt this much, was she gonna grow cold… like… nvm, he didn’t want to think about that, he didn’t want to think at all actually… she was his only friend (unless you counted his roommate Tanner… he seems nice… they rarely talked tho.) why did he have to like her so much, why did she have to like him back! If she was just not interested he could repress and hide away his feelings as tho they didn’t exist, but instead she ripped his heart out of his chest and now that she knew… she would throw it away. In this moment he wished more than anything he could be a feather floating thru the wind not needing to feel emotions or have thoughts, just going where the universe takes him.

Alice was somewhat more distant than before, but Lu was surprised how much she kept in contact. They didn’t really talk about what happened, which was comforting. He didn’t need to worry about what to say or do to keep her in his life, it was as tho they had an unspoken agreement to not acknowledge it. One day she asks to hangout at his, it was just after a big test so his roommate was out at a party…

trashbag_minister (Lu): “sure thing”

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “yay!”

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “when wll u get here btw”

trashbag_minister (Lu): “around 20 minutes”

Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “❤️❤️❤️❤️”

She just sent him hearts, he thinks his brain is about to explode… did she used to send hearts?... he thinks so… maybe, but like it had to mean someth- no… no no no. He wasn’t going to do this, he was going to be normal. She’s his friend.

When he picked her up she waved to him and got in, the car ride was quiet, but that was normal (he was so bad at talking and driving). But when they got out she was a bit quieter than usual, she barely said a word until they got to his dorm. When they did she hesitantly started talking about her life as they often did, but it felt strange, like she was padding for time. After a couple of minutes of this he asked…

Lu: “Is there something you wanna talk about?”

Alice: “...”

she seems more nervous than he’s ever seen her

Alice: “yeah…”

(oh god, dear god, please let it be no big deal)

she is fiddling with the seam of her shirt ever so slightly

Alice: “I don't super know what your detransition means to you…”

Alice: “... i mean, i tried to learn, but there aren’t many… resources or anything”

Alice: “anyway i don’t know what it means, but i still like *you*”

he lets out a deep breath

(thank jesus)

Lu: “Cool…”

Alice: “...”

Alice: “Do you… like me too?”

(shit)

Lu: “Oh… you meant like *like like*.”

Alice glares at him like he just said the stupidest thing in the world

Alice: “Yeah no fucking duh, also who says ‘like like’ past the age of ten”

Lu: “i don’t umm…”

Alice pulls back and once again becomes more timid

Alice: “Do you not? It’s okay if you don’t i… just thought you did…”

Lu: “No i d-do- i do, i just…”

Alice both looks affirmed and confused

Lu: “You shouldn’t,,n’t l-like me.”

Alice: “Why???”

Lu: “Be-be-be-cau-cause you can do better-ter…”

Alice: “That’s retarded!”

Lu: “L-Lys! You can’t sssay that!”

Alice: “Jesus fucking christ Lu, i… i just *fucking confessed to you*, and you respond with the dumbest shit i’ve ever heard, i can respond however the fuck i god damn want!”

Lu: “go-ju-Alice! I- it’s- god like you- you- you could- could have any s-s-ssself respecting man you want, you sh-shouldn’t se–se-set-t-tle for… *me*”

Alice: “I’m not settling, i *like* you, you’re smart and caring and sweet, why wouldn’t i like you.”

Lu: “Why *w-would* you! I’m a fu-fu-fu shit fuck god damn it! I’m a- I’m a fucking pathetic little shit preten-pretending to be a man, i-i-i can b-b-b-barely even s-sb-sp-speak, i…"

she rests a hand on him and looks in his eyes, he didn’t realize he was crying

Alice: “Are you okay?”

Lu: “...ye i just, it’s nothing, my brain is stupid sometimes”

Alice: “That's okay, i’m sorry for getting you worked up."

she smiles up at him

Alice: “I’m just… if you like me and i like you there isn’t any real reason not to date right?”

Lu: “But it’s more,, complicated than that-t”

Alice’s jaw clenches for a second but she takes a somewhat forced breath to relax

Alice: “Why? Why does it have to be?”

Lu: “Because of all the s–st-stuff i said.”

Alice: “But i don’t care about any of that.”

he pulls away from her

Lu: “I don’t even have a f-f-d-di-dick Alice… how would that- how would that even work”

she looks somewhat surprised at that, but responds quickly anyways

Alice: “Tons of people make that work.”

Lu: “But you shouldn’t- you shoulnt have too, your boy-boyfriend should be a real man not a tr-tr-trans girl in denial”

Alice: “You could be my girlfriend then, we don’t hav-”

Lu: “I don’t want to be your girlfriend!”

Alice: “...”

she looks down at her lap where her hands are gripping hard into her pants

Alice: “ok”

they sit like that awkwardly, tensely until…

Alice: “I want to go home”

Lu: “ok… can i go to the bathroom first”

Alice: “of course”

Lu walks into the bathroom, and sits on the floor. What was he doing? She was like the girl of his dreams, and more importantly, his best friend. Was he really gonna throw that all away because of… fuck, he entirely forgot what his point was. He was so scared. For almost a year now, ever since he detransitioned he just… accepted he would never be in a relationship again. But then Alice came in with her unending confidence and had the gall to just… like him, as he is… she didn’t care, not about his body, not about his brain, not about anything… god damn it. He walks out of the bathroom and sits next to Alice, when he approaches she seems to wipe something from her face…

Lu: “What’s wrong?”

(why did he say that jesus christ)

she looks at him like he asked her if she preferred drinking water or vegetable oil

Alice: “...nothing”

Lu: “mhm?”

she looks at the floor

before she could ask him to take her home he put his arm around her

she rests her head on his shoulder

(good sign… here goes nothing)

Lu: “You don’t have to say you’re fine.”

she looks up at him

Alice: “*I am fine*”

(she very obviously isn’t)

Lu spends some time trying to find the right words

(god damn it he is so bad at this)

he holds her cheek

Lu: “Look as your boyfriend, you should- you should tell me when you aren’t ok.”

Alice: “You’re my boyfriend?”

Lu: “I mean, even if i think you have bad taste, who would i be to deny the most b-b-gorgeous woman i-i’ve ever laid eyes on”

(that was the cringiest thing he’s ever said)

but she’s blushing very hard

Alice: “... i… you think i…”

she attempts to compose herself

Alice: “I don’t have bad taste, you’re very…”

Lu: “The point is you should tell me why you feel bad.”

she rolls her eyes but smiles

Alice: “I actually feel alot better now.”

(now Lu wasn’t so autistic that he didn’t *know* it was because of him before, but man did it feel good to hear her pretty much say she felt *better* because of him)

riding that high he kisses her once softly on the lips

Lu: “I hope that means you don’t have to go home right now, cause i,, i really wanna,, be with you a bit longer”

she responds by grabbing onto his shirt and nuzzling further into him

Lu can’t stop the massive smile on his face, as he hugs her tight. Nor does he want to, as he thinks about how lucky he is to be here.

#d4t #webnovel #web fiction #webfiction #web serial #webserial #romance #queer #trans #transgender #detrans #lu #lu d4t #lu d4twebnovel #d4t-webserial

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ca-dmv-bot · 24 days

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Customer: D4T IS D"FORTY" WHICH IS THE CHASSIS CODE FOR MY MODEL YEAR. A55 IS THE ENGINE CODE THAT CORRESPONDS TO THE 2.0T ENGINE FOR AUDI DMV: DAT ASS Verdict: DENIED

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1nf3ct3d-x3 · 4 days

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STOPSAVINGDANKMEMESONYOUROLDCRUSTYCOMPUTERNOW!!!!!>:(-computer anon💻

N3V3R!!!!!!

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hellsite-yano · 1 year

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#doom #counterattack #d4t: death foretold

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eldritch-spouse · 9 days

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Imagine being a government cyber security agent and you're investigating why the term “Clergy's Eye” seems to disappear from the web as soon as it appears. Your poking around ends up attracting the attention of Fank-e.

Oh he loves to fuck with you. Hardcore.

Fank-e likes the persistent ones, the ones who actually do know a thing or two about tech, about how to exploit search engines and look for patterns hidden in too many lines of code for your average Joe to care.

Fank-e has never been sloppy, ever, but he likes to leave a mention up just a little bit longer so that you can feel accomplished, feel like you discovered something, that you're getting closer to some sort of fantasy breadcrumb trail.

It's much like playing tug of war with a dog, you have to let them have their way once or twice, or the dog will get disappointed and bored. So Fank-e plays with you, one crumb there, one blurred image here. He sees the joy in your face through your webcam when he leaves those little presents.

Your room is a mess, your life is a mess, there are bags under your eyes and your skin has acquired a sickly sebum. It's clear this investigation of yours, fruitless from the start, has taken over your entire existence. You've stopped being a functional person even. Fank-e isn't the best human caretaker out there, but even he is starting to feel a bit remorseful for the state this little game has put you in. For tricking you into messaging him, into making it seem as if "Skiddled33znUts" is yet another researcher who has noticed "the Clergy patterns"- As opposed to your very rival, eliminating extra bits of potential evidence through your conversations.

Yes, it's quite sad he determines.

Which is why he figures you should get to see the results of your work. You should see The Clergy's Eye! He's going to take you there. Keep you. You're his favorite squishy so far. So fun to play with, so smart, he loves the way you type and the workarounds you find to his lovingly crafted digital barriers. Fank-e refuses to let this end.

It's about time he does something too, you're becoming frail, this game is becoming too taxing on your poor mind, and it shows in the way you reply to him, always so open. Like a book.

You: Idk, I feel like I'm running in circles at this point...

Skiddled33znUts: naaahhh d0n'7 b3 L1k3 d4t. 1 B3t W3'r3 cl053 70 F1Nd1n' 50M37H1N' 900d!!

You: I don't think so skiddle

You: I'm tired

You: I'm stuck

You: I need

You: idk anymore dude

Skiddled33znUts: h3y.

Skiddled33znUts: 17'5 L1k3 4Am.

Skiddled33znUts: U 5h0ULd G3T 50M3 5l33p.

You: I guess you're right

You: I'm being dumb

You: Goodnight

Skiddled33znUts: G3wdn1Ght! ;P

Yes.

Tomorrow.

Sleep tight, dummy. He can't wait.

#Fank-e oc

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1nf3ct3db33tl3 · 2 months

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ur so buge..... opinions on pest?

1 4m th3 bug35t tbh.

P35t 15 gr34t, m4n! L0v3 d4t guy.

D0n't th1nk h3 l1k3s m3 th0 >o<

#sickbug.resp #regretevator kasper #infected regretevator #regretevator infected #regretevator roblox #regretevator #please send asks #send asks #ask me anything

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kory-and-kasper · 1 month

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Hey look at this

"WHAT AM I LOOKING AT DAWG!"

"d1d h3 4c7u4lly d0 d4t...."

(i apologize for saying id draw the asks and then not doing it i will try and get 2 it 2day...)

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h4tsun3-inf3ct3d · 7 days

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[ @midnightstaresandwalks2 ]

"I couldn't find uranium OR arsenic. Anyways, how has your day been?"

" 1FHY bY TyL3r, tH3 Cr34t0R. 4Nyw4Ys, D4t w31Rd F0LlY p3Rz0N c4Ll3D m3 k4ZP3r 4nD tH3n t0Ld M3 mY bR41n Iz R0tT1Ng l0l (˃ꌂ˂ ) "

#hatsune infected rp blog #^ ^ hehe #i've been listening to puppet by Tyler all day/ooc #now i'm listening to ifhy lol/ooc

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sk10rb0i · 2 months

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DO UOU LIEK ANIMATION MEMEZ?? >_<

1dk wut d4t 1z, s0z xP

idk wut dat is, soz xP

#regretevator #roblox regretevator #regretevator infected #infected regretevator #sk10rb0i!#ask blog #he would love them 100% if he did /ooc

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doom-nerdo-666 · 1 year

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Hi, I just recently got into DOOM (and found your blog). Do you have any good recommendations for fan doom mods/maps? (they range from the most popular ones to your own personal favorites or little niche levels)

I'm going to see what i can think of because there's always good stuff that not even the Cacowards bring up.

As for mapsets or wads:

Romero's Sigil is obvious as if it should be official.

Memento Mori series

Requiem

Icarus Alien Vanguard

300 minutes of /vr/

Ancient Aliens

Anomaly Report

Alien Vendetta

Back to Saturn X series

Doom 2 Reloaded

Doom 1/2 The Way id Did

Some of the Doomer Board Projects like AUGER;ZENITH and Emerald City

Doom Zero

Doom city which is pretty good for a single map

Epic 2

Good Morning Phobos

Jenesis

Japanese Community Project

Moonblood

Munity

Plutonia 2 and Plutonia Revisited

Rebirth

Scythe 2

TNT Revilution

PhobosDeimos Anomaly

UAC Ultra

Going Down

Doom 64 for Doom 2

Consolation Prize (PS1 Doom and Doom 64 but compatible with gameplay mods)

Whispers of Satan

Note that some of them could be difficult or even have things like DEHACKED enemies or whatever can get in the way of a gameplay mod.

And speaking of gameplay mods:

High Noon Drifter

GMOTA

Combined Arms

Space Hunter

Colorfull Hell

DAKKA

Legions of Bones

Vanilla Doom Plus

Legendoom Lite

MK-Champions

Corruption Cards

TrailBlazer

Project Babel

Supercharge

Samsara

MetaDoom

Doom Delta

D4T

D4V

Final Doomer

Demon Counterstrike

Treasure Tech

Bratwurst

Netronian Chaos

Highway Acceleroid Booster

Eriguns 1/2

Psychic

Cybers Monster Randomizer

La Tailor Girl

Dusted's Pandemonia

Accessories to Murder

Cola 3

Hideous Destructor

Lt Typhon

And for TC stuff

Golden Souls series

Beyong Reality

Strange Aeons

Skulldash

The Edge of Time

REKKR

Reelism 1/2

Adventures of Square

Pirate Doom

StrongHold: Edge of Chaos

Project Uber

Winter's Fury

There's probably still examples i'm missing, so this is what i thought of.

A good way to look for more is see info of people involved like if they have Doomwiki articles or accounts on other websites and see what else they did.

And because this list is already big, you don't have to look most of them right way so feel free to use your time and interest with how you look at them.

Because some of this stuff can be difficult for newcomers like certain wads and mods.

There's also what versions of GZDoom or ZDoom a certain mod could use since some mods might be discontinued while GZDoom gets new updates.

#recommendation #doom #classic doom #id software #someone else's content #doom modding #modding #wad #gzdoom #ask #gameplay mod #map or mapset #total conversion #extra flavor

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d4t-webserial · 10 months

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D4T: Page 5 (Lu POV)

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On one of the rare instances that Lu told Alice about his life he mentioned the school he was going to, to which she excitedly told him she lives in the same city. This is awful, no matter how much he’s become a man, part of him will always be that transbian who wants to uhaul after the first date (and even more so fall hopelessly in love with your friend who’ll never like you back ;-;). Even the moment after this information came about she suggested they hang out, he brushed it off with a simple “hehe maybe later” but knew he couldn’t resist for long, he was under no circumstance going to being to able to deny his only close friend (and an upsettingly pretty one too) the opportunity to hang.

Looking up at his ceiling he thinks about how over it is, when they meet she’s gonna realize how lame he is, and even if she’s fine with that he’ll be completely unable to hide his infatuation with her (he’s surprised he was even able to so far), and then she’ll be grossed out and not want anything to do with him. Life is hell. After a lot of pestering he agreed to hangout, at first she wanted to do it at her house (which is horrifying! what if he was a murderer, or a rapist!) but he convinced her to instead hang at a small restaurant near where she lived. He unfortunately couldn’t get her to untell him her address, but what can you do?

After around 15 minutes of waiting for her, Alice finally arrived. Lu, waiting for her outside asked…

Lu: “do you always come this late?”

Alice: “well i had to walk here”

she looks at him pointedly

Alice: “if you picked me up it would have been easier.”

he doesn’t make eye contact

Lu: “u-um yea i g-guess… i just,, it uh,, would’ve seemed a bit strange no?”

Alice: “whatever you say”

They walk in and order their food. Lu can’t help but notice that her outfit tho masc enough to throw off her parents, is still incredibly attractive (and also that it compliments… nothing, absolutely nothing,... he’s normal). She looks up at him with a small smirk as she drinks, her eyes are stunningly b- no no nonononono. Taking a deep breath in, Lu decides to engage in conversation, because tho he isn’t good at talking, it is something to keep his mind… where it needs to be. They talk about the food they had and what they liked or disliked about it, they talked about the things that they usually do, friendship, hobbies, life and so on. And in that Lu had a brilliant idea.

Lu: “so have you been talking to any guys”

she picks at her napkins

Alice: “...umm there’s one i’m kinda talking to”

(jackpot)

Lu: “that’s sick! are you into him?”

she sits more upright and looks intently at her food

Alice: “ye, but it’s complicated…”

(fuck)

Lu: “how so?”

Alice: “i don’t think i wanna talk about this, with you”

Lu: “me?”

she goes wide eyed like she misspoke and quickly tries to correct herself

Alice: “or like, right now”

Alice: “right now i just wanna chill”

Lu: “o-oh o-o-of course, s-s-ssorry for uhh,, bringing it up”

Maybe his idea wasn’t so brilliant. He wanted to hear her talk about some guy she was obsessed with, so that his “supportive friend” drive would beat out his “god i love women” drive, but instead he touched on a sore spot… “with him” why him? did she still think he liked her (well he did but he thought was doing a good job hiding it), is it just like a guy thing, like this is something you talk about with the girlfriends not your dude friends? It was probably that. They sit in silent awkwardness for a while since he is completely unable to navigate social situations like this. Eventually the conversation picks up again, and it’s like nothing happened. After an hour or so hanging out Alice asks if he wanted to come hang at hers, he again insisted they didn’t know each other well enough but…

Alice: “cmon! we can even watch your stupid shows together!”

Lu: “f-ffine… for a bit…”

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#d4t #webnovel #web fiction #webfiction #web serial #webserial #romance #queer #trans #transgender #detrans #lu #lu d4t #lu d4twebnovel #d4t-webserial

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shittyhomestuckcomics · 1 year

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:33 >> 1 juzt wwv4nmt 2 z(y d4t 1 r11y 1uvw t%1z 4(( 1tz z0 (%40t1( 4nmd 1 4bz01lut3ly 10vw3 it, 1 4mn g01nmg 2 z%0wwv t%3 0t%3r %z pp1 1nm 0ur zyz t%1z (P00r 3qu1uz + t%3 0t%3rz,,, 101) X3 ☆!!

(TRANSLATION : :3 >> I just want to say that I really love this account its so chaotic and I absolutely love it, I am going to show the other HS people in our sys this (Poor Equius + the others,,, LOL) X3) ☆!!)

-Anon Nepeta/Sollux/Benrey

rip equius but youre different

#nepeta leijon #mod joen #hi sorry for not posting </3 anyways i have finals tomorrow. scary

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freeman-verse-au · 1 year

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:33 > Wwvat d0 u guyz thiink abt Hom3ztu(k?

:3 > (if u knowwv wwvat d4t iiz,,)

(TL; :3 > What do you guys think about Homestuck?)

:3 > (If you know what that is,,)

@ every1 btw :3

— And I'm answering for everyone cause my answers are the only good ones. —

#Also because none of them knows what the hell Homestuck is(¿?#Half-Life #Freeman's Mind #FM Gordon Freeman #Gordon Freemind #Free #Freeman Verse AU #Freemanverse #Gordonverse #tw stroke mention #tw Homestuck #just in case(¿?

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pesterloglog · 6 months

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Karkat Vantas, Terezi Pyrope, Dave Strider

Act 6, page 6017-6921

KARKAT: WHO???

TEREZI: YOU KNOW...

TEREZI: VR1SK4S 4NC3STOR?

TEREZI: TH3 FR13NDLY ON3 WHO T3LLS LONG STOR13S

KARKAT: OH YEAH.

KARKAT: HER.

KARKAT: I DON'T KNOW, I CAN'T KEEP ALL THESE GHOST NAMES STRAIGHT.

KARKAT: FLIPTUNA? MEOWLIN...

KARKAT: WASN'T THERE A CARLOS?

KARKAT: FUCK IT. THEY WERE ALL NAMED CARLOS AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.

KARKAT: WAIT. EXCEPT MEENAH. SHE WAS ALRIGHT. A LITTLE FORWARD, BUT...

KARKAT: WHATEVER, THIS ISN'T THE POINT.

KARKAT: ALL I REMEMBER ABOUT MY INTERACTIONS WITH THE SERKET GIRL WAS GETTING CORNERED INTO THESE LUDICROUS MONOLOGUES, THEN RACKING MY BRAIN FOR EXCUSES TO GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE.

TEREZI: Y34H W3LL

TEREZI: 1 W4S 4 L1TTL3 MOR3 T4CTFUL TH4N YOU 4ND 4CTU4LLY L1ST3N3D

TEREZI: 4ND L3T H3R T4LK M3 1NTO SOM3TH1NG 1 SHOULDNT H4V3 >:[

KARKAT: SO SHE WAS JUST LIKE

KARKAT: *POOF!*

KARKAT: AND SUDDENLY YOUR EYES WERE BETTER?

TEREZI: Y3S

KARKAT: WHAT IS SHE, SOME SORT OF MAGIC FAIRY??

TEREZI: UM. Y3S?

TEREZI: TH4TS K1ND OF L1T3R4LLY WH4T SH3 1S

KARKAT: OH

KARKAT: ALRIGHT, I GUESS HER STORY CHECKS OUT THEN.

KARKAT: GOOD FOR HER.

KARKAT: BUT THIS DOESN'T SEEM LIKE YOU TEREZI. I MEAN, I DIDN'T THINK YOU EVEN WANTED YOUR EYESIGHT BACK?

KARKAT: I'VE NEVER MET ANYONE AS CHUFFED ABOUT HER OWN DISABILITY AS YOU. I WAS ALWAYS UNDER THE IMPRESSION YOU FELT LIKE IT WAS A BIG PART OF WHO YOU ARE?

TEREZI: 1T W4S!!!

TEREZI: TH3 MOM3NT SH3 H34L3D M3 1 KN3W 1 M4D3 4 T3RR1BL3 M1ST4K3

TEREZI: BUT 1 COULDNT T4K3 1T B4CK

TEREZI: 1 THOUGHT 4BOUT 1T

TEREZI: L1K3 JUST BL1ND1NG MYS3LF 4G41N 4ND PR3T3ND1NG 1T N3V3R H4PP3N3D

TEREZI: BUT

TEREZI: 3V3N TH3 W4Y 1T H4PP3N3D OR1G1N4LLY W4S SOM3TH1NG SP3C14L TO M3

TEREZI: 1 C4NT DUPL1C4T3 TH4T

TEREZI: 4ND 3V3N 1F 1 COULD 1T ST1LL WOULDNT B3 TH3 S4M3

TEREZI: 1 C4NT S33M TO FORG1V3 MYS3LF FOR B31NG SO STUP1D

TEREZI: FOR SOM3 R34SON 1 THOUGHT 1T W4S 4 GOOD 1D34 TO T4K3 TH3 ONLY COOL 4ND UN1QU3 TH1NG 4BOUT MYS3LF 4ND "F1X" 1T

TEREZI: WH4T W4S 1 TH1NK1NG?

KARKAT: WHOA WHOA

KARKAT: THE *ONLY* COOL THING ABOUT YOU?

KARKAT: TEREZI. I WANT TO BE UNDERSTANDING, BUT I CAN'T GET BEHIND SOME OF THE SHIT YOU'RE SAYING ABOUT YOURSELF HERE.

KARKAT: WHAT MADE YOU START UNRAVELING LIKE THIS?

TEREZI: 1 TH1NK 1T W4S WH3N W3 ST4RT3D M33T1NG OUR 4NC3STORS

TEREZI: 4ND 1 THOUGHT TH3Y W3R3 4LL COOL3R 4ND OLD3R 4ND MOR3 1NT3R3ST1NG TH4N US

TEREZI: 3V3N THOUGH TH3Y PROB4BLY W3R3NT?

TEREZI: TH3Y H4D 4 LOT OF PROBL3MS 4ND 1NS3CUR1T13S TOO

TEREZI: BUT 1 GU3SS TH3 K1ND TH4T OLD3R K1DS H4V3, 4ND WH3N YOUR3 YOUNG3R YOU DONT R34LLY R3COGN1Z3 TH3M 4S PROBL3MS

TEREZI: YOU LOOK 4T THOS3 TH1NGS 4S JUST P4RT OF WH4T 1TS L1K3 B31NG SOM3ON3 WHOS MOR3 1NT3R3ST1NG 4ND GROWN UP TH4N YOU

TEREZI: M4YB3 S1NC3 1M NOT 4S YOUNG 4NYMOR3 1 GU3SS 1 C4N S33 TH4T NOW

TEREZI: BUT 1 W4S STUP1DLY 4W3STRUCK BY SOM3 P3OPL3 WHO W3R3 NOT SO 1MPR3SS1V3 1N R3TROSP3CT 4ND 1 M4D3 4 DUMB M1ST4K3

KARKAT: WAIT. WE MET ALL THOSE PEOPLE LIKE...

KARKAT: KIND OF A LONG TIME AGO?

KARKAT: HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS FROM EVERYONE?

TEREZI: 1 DONT KNOW

TEREZI: 4 Y34R OR SOM3TH1NG?

TEREZI: 4ND 1 W4SNT H1D1NG 1T

TEREZI: 1 JUST D1DNT T3LL 4NYBODY

KARKAT: YEAH! THAT'S WHAT HIDING IT MEANS.

TEREZI: BUT

TEREZI: YOU USU4LLY C4NT S33 MY 3Y3S 4NYW4Y!

TEREZI: C4US3 OF MY GL4SS3S?? DUH

KARKAT: I KNOW, BUT NOT TELLING ANYBODY THAT IS STILL BEING POINTLESSLY SECRETIVE!

KARKAT: YOU COULD HAVE SAID, HEY KARKAT, I FUCKED UP AND NOW I CAN SEE AGAIN. MAYBE WE CAN TALK ABOUT THIS SO I DON'T GO INTO A TRAGIC DOWNWARD SPIRAL AND MAKE YOU WORRY ABOUT ME FOR NO REASON!

TEREZI: 1M SORRY!

TEREZI: 1 SHOULD H4V3

TEREZI: BUT 1 W4S SO 4SH4M3D

KARKAT: AND WHAT ABOUT THIS CLANDESTINE BLACKROM NONSENSE YOU'VE GOT GOING ON WITH GAMZEE?

TEREZI: WH4T?

KARKAT: HAVE YOU BEEN DATING HIM FOR JUST AS LONG?

KARKAT: WAS HE INVOLVED IN THAT DECISION??

KARKAT: LIKE, DID HE HELP TALK YOU INTO HEALING YOUR EYES OR SOMETHING?!

TEREZI: HOW D1D YOU KNOW W3 W3R3 D4T1NG!

TEREZI: D1D H3 T3LL YOU?

KARKAT: OH MY GOD. TEREZI, YOU ARE A FUCKING CATASTROPHE.

KARKAT: YOU USED TO BE LIKE, CUNNING? AND CONSIDERABLY MORE INTELLIGENT THAN ME, WHICH I HAVE NO PROBLEM ADMITTING.

KARKAT: BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS. EVEN IF I DIDN'T FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF, WHICH I *DID* BECAUSE IT WAS *OBVIOUS*, YOU ARE UP HERE ON THE ROOF LYING UNCONSCIOUS IN A PILE OF HONK HORNS AND FAYGO BOTTLES.

KARKAT: I AM NOT A MASTER OF DEDUCTION, BUT UNLESS YOU WERE RECENTLY STOMPED ON BY SOME SORT OF GOLEM COMPOSED OF GARBAGE FROM A CIRCUS, IT SEEMS FAIR TO SAY YOU ARE OFFICIALLY DOWN WITH THE CLOWN.

TEREZI: UUUGH

TEREZI: OK

TEREZI: Y3S

TEREZI: 1TS TRU3 >:o[

KARKAT: WELL? WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY ABOUT IT.

TEREZI: 1 COULDNT G3T UP TH3 N3RV3 TO T3LL YOU 4BOUT TH4T 31TH3R

TEREZI: 1N 4 W4Y, 1M 3V3N MOR3 D1SGUST3D W1TH MYS3LF FOR D4T1NG TH4T 4SSHOL3 TH4N 1 4M FOR H34L1NG MY 3Y3S

KARKAT: THEN WHY ARE YOU DOING IT!

TEREZI: 1 DONT KNOW!

TEREZI: 1 C4NT BR1NG MYS3LF TO STOP S331NG H1M

TEREZI: 3V3RY T1M3 1 TH1NK 1 C4NT STOM4CH TH3 S1GHT OF H1S UGLY F4C3 FOR 4NOTH3R S3COND

TEREZI: H3 PULLS M3 B4CK 1N

TEREZI: H3 1S JUST

TEREZI: SO

TEREZI: 4444WFUL

TEREZI: H3 4LW4YS KNOWS 3X4CTLY WH4T TO S4Y TO P1SS M3 OFF

TEREZI: 3V3RYTH1NG H3 DO3S

TEREZI: H1S F4K3 GOD T13R SU1T, H1S SMUG 3XPR3SS1ON, TH3 DUMB4SS W4YS H3 BUTCH3RS H1S S3NT3NC3S

TEREZI: S4Y1NG SH1T L1K3 '4LL G3TT1NG UP 4T H1S MOTH3R FUCK1N HONK ON', 444444RGH!

TEREZI: 1 H4T3 1T SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

TEREZI: BUT 1 K33P COM1NG B4CK FOR MOR3

TEREZI: H3S L1K3 4 DRUG!

TEREZI: 3V3N MOR3 4DD1CT1V3 TH4N TH1S...

TEREZI: R3VOLT1NG SOD4 1 C4NT STOP DR1NK1NG

TEREZI: 1V3 H4D SO MUCH F4YGO 1 C4NT 3V3N T4ST3 TH3 COLOR 4NYMOR3 >:[

TEREZI: 1 JUST T4ST3 TH3 SUG4R 4ND TH3 BUBBL3S 4ND TH3 4WFUL FL4VOR 1T L34V3S B3H1ND, WH1CH JUST M4K3S M3 DR1NK MOR3 TO W4SH 1T 4W4Y

TEREZI: UNT1L 1 F33L SO N4STY 1 H4V3 TO T4K3 4 LONG SOD4 N4P, BUT 1 W4K3 UP LO4TH1NG MYS3LF 3V3N MOR3

TEREZI: SO 1 JUST R34CH FOR 4NOTH3R BOTTL3

TEREZI: 1T 1S TRULY...

TEREZI: TH3 W1CK3D 3L1X1R

TEREZI: *SOB*

KARKAT: TEREZI...

TEREZI: 1 W4NT H1M TO B3 OUT OF MY L1F3

TEREZI: H3 1S TH3 WORST TH1NG TH4TS 3V3R H4PP3N3D TO M3

TEREZI: BUT

TEREZI: 1 GU3SS YOU C4NT H3LP WHO YOU H4T3

KARKAT: THIS IS KILLING ME, HEARING THIS.

KARKAT: I SERIOUSLY WANT TO WEEP ACTUAL PUKE OUT OF MY EYEBALLS FROM THIS STORY.

KARKAT: HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???

KARKAT: I'VE GOT TO SAY, I DIDN'T SEE IT COMING. IF YOU TOLD ME SWEEPS AGO YOU AND HE...

KARKAT: I WOULDN'T BELIEVE IT. LIKE IF THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL THERE, I SURE AS FUCK DIDN'T READ IT.

TEREZI: Y34H, 1T SNUCK UP ON M3

TEREZI: 1T D1DNT H3LP TH4T H3 T3RROR1Z3D US WH3N W3 W3R3 H1D1NG FROM J4CK

TEREZI: R1GHT UND3R MY NOS3 TOO

TEREZI: SOM3HOW 1 D1DNT PUT TH3 P13C3S TOG3TH3R 4T TH3 T1M3 4ND L3T H1M G3T 4W4Y W1TH MURD3R

TEREZI: 4ND GR4DU4LLY 1 ST4RT3D H4V1NG TH3S3 UNCONTROLL4BL3 THOUGHTS 4BOUT H1M

TEREZI: D4RK THOUGHTS

TEREZI: 4ND WH3N 1 WOULD C4TCH 4 WH1FF OF H1M 1N TH3 CORR1DORS, L1K3 H3 W4S T4UNT1NG M3, TH4T JUST F4NN3D TH3 FL4M3S

TEREZI: TH3N W3 ST4RT3D T4LK1NG SH1T W1TH 34CH OTH3R MOR3 4ND MOR3

TEREZI: 4ND H3 W4S SO MUCH N4ST13R TH4N H3 3V3R US3D TO B3! W4Y MOR3 TH4N 4NY OF OUR FR13NDS 3V3R W3R3

TEREZI: ON3 T1M3 H3 ST4RT3D MOCK1NG MY BL1NDN3SS

TEREZI: WH1CH N3V3R BOTH3R3D M3 WH3N 4NYON3 3LS3 D1D 1T

TEREZI: BUT SOM3HOW, TH3 STUFF H3 S41D...

TEREZI: 1 L3T 1T G3T UND3R MY SK1N

TEREZI: 4ND COMB1N3D W1TH M33T1NG 4 LOT OF N3W P3OPL3 1 F3LT L1K3 1 COULDNT L1V3 UP TO

TEREZI: TH4TS WH3N 1 ST4RT3D R3CONS1D3R1NG 4R4N34S OFF3R

KARKAT: I KNEW IT!

KARKAT: I KNEW HE MUST HAVE HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THAT DECISION. THAT SLIMY BASTARD.

KARKAT: THIS IS MOSTLY MY FAULT. I WASN'T VIGILANT ENOUGH WITH HIM, AND I LET OUR MOIRALLEGIANCE BREAK DOWN.

KARKAT: IF I KEPT A CLOSER EYE ON HIM, MAYBE HE WOULDN'T HAVE LURED YOU INTO HIS SPINNING TENT OF SHIT.

TEREZI: NO, YOU SHOULDNT F33L L1K3...

KARKAT: OR MAYBE IT'S KANAYA'S FAULT? SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN A REALLY GOOD AUSPISTICE. MAYBE SHE COULD HAVE PREVENTED THIS, IF SHE WASN'T SO PREOCCUPIED HERSELF.

KARKAT: NO WAIT! IT'S ACTUALLY MY FAULT AGAIN! IF I HAD BEEN ON THE BALL AND AUSPISTICIZED BETWEEN HER AND ROSE, SHE WOULD HAVE HAD THE TIME TO AUSPISTICIZE BETWEEN YOU AND GAMZEE!

KARKAT: DAMMIT, I ALWAYS SAY I KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT ROMANCE, YET I ROUTINELY UNDERESTIMATE ITS COMPLEXITY, SO I ONLY FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO AFTER IT'S WAY TOO LATE!

KARKAT: GOD I'M SO STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID

TEREZI: BL4RG SHUT UP!

TEREZI: 1TS NO ON3S F4ULT BUT M1N3!

TEREZI: 1M TH3 ON3 WHO H4S TO D34L W1TH 1T

KARKAT: YEAH OK.

KARKAT: FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, HE'LL PROBABLY JUST BREAK IT OFF AND LEAVE YOU ONCE WE GET TO THE NEW SESSION.

KARKAT: ALL HIS LOYALTIES AND PRIORITIES ARE TOTALLY WARPED NOW. I'M NOT SURE WHAT HE REALLY CARES ABOUT ANYMORE, BUT IT SURE ISN'T ANY OF US.

TEREZI: YOU TH1NK

TEREZI: H3 W1LL L34V3 M3?

KARKAT: YEAH. I DO.

TEREZI: *SOB!!!*

KARKAT: WHOA, WHAT??

KARKAT: ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU WANT?

TEREZI: NO!

TEREZI: 1D B3 D3V4ST4T3D 1F H3 JUST

TEREZI: SUDD3NLY D1TCH3D M3 L1K3 TH4T

KARKAT: OK, HELP ME OUT!

KARKAT: YOU'RE CONFUSING ME HERE.

TEREZI: 1D F33L P4TH3T1C!!!

TEREZI: 4ND 1 GU3SS

TEREZI: 4 S1CK 4ND T3RR1BL3 P4RT OF M3 DO3SNT W4NT H1M TO GO

TEREZI: BUT 1F H3 DO3S 1 W4NT 1T TO B3 B3C4US3 1 T3LL H1M 1TS OV3R!

KARKAT: WOW.

KARKAT: ALRIGHT, I GUESS THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY.

KARKAT: I'M JUST TRYING TO BE SUPPORTIVE HERE.

KARKAT: BUT I'M NOT ALWAYS SURE WHAT THE RIGHT THING TO SAY IS!

KARKAT: I'M DOING MY FUCKING BEST. THIS IS COMPLICATED FOR ME TOO, YOU'RE BOTH MY FRIENDS.

TEREZI: 1 KNOW

TEREZI: 1 4PPR3C14T3 YOUR 1NT3NT1ONS K4RK4T

TEREZI: M4YB3

TEREZI: M4YB3 1T WOULD B3 B3TT3R 1F YOU W3R3NT S1TT1NG UP TH3R3 1N TH4T B4CKW4RDS CH41R WH1L3 YOU T4LK3D TO M3?

KARKAT: WHAT?

KARKAT: WHY??

DAVE: yeah dude you should probably ditch the chair

KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY CHAIR.

DAVE: or at least sit on it frontways

DAVE: or offer her another chair?

DAVE: i dunno its kind of a dumb affectation in this context

KARKAT: NO, LOOK. IT'S CASUAL AND RELAXED.

KARKAT: LIKE, IT VISUALLY CONVEYS THAT MY PRESENCE IN THE CONVERSATION IS HUMBLE AND NONTHREATENING, YET FRANK AND ATTENTIVE.

KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

DAVE: to sit on the goddamn floor

KARKAT: WHY SHOULD I SQUAT ON THE DIRTY FLOOR, WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE!

DAVE: so you can be on the same vertical plane with your friend while you exhibit compassion for her grody clown problem

TEREZI: D4V3 1TS F1N3

TEREZI: N3V3R M1ND 4BOUT TH3 CH41R, 1 DONT C4R3

TEREZI: 1T JUST STRUCK M3 4S 4 B1T D1STR4CT1NGLY S1LLY, TH4TS 4LL

KARKAT: OK, WOW, FINE!

KARKAT: FUCK THE CHAIR. PARDON ME FOR MAKING MYSELF COMFORTABLE DURING A SINCERE HEART TO HEART DISCUSSION WITH A DEAR FRIEND IN NEED!

KARKAT: BUT THE TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO CEASE STRADDLING THIS DEEPLY OFFENSIVE PIECE OF FURNITURE! AWAY WITH YE, FOUR LEGGED TEMPTRESS! DISTRACT US NO MORE WITH THE MOST BASIC AND UTILITARIAN FORM OF CREATURE COMFORT YOU SUPPLY!!!

DAVE: karkat just threw a tantrum about a chair

DAVE: i just won karkat tantrum bingo

KARKAT: AT LAST!

KARKAT: WE ARE FREE FROM THE ACCURSED INSTRUMENT OF ASS ELEVATION!

DAVE: where did you even get that chair

DAVE: did you steal it from the common area

KARKAT: UNLIKE EVERYONE ELSE EVER, I HAPPEN TO MAKE A PRACTICE OF CAPTCHALOGUING ITEMS WHICH MIGHT BE CONVENIENT ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS.

KARKAT: SAY I'M STROLLING AROUND AND FIND MYSELF IN NEED OF A PLACE TO SIT? BAM. SUDDENLY, A CHAIR.

KARKAT: AND NO I DIDN'T STEAL IT.

KARKAT: HOW COULD I STEAL SOMETHING FROM THE COMMON AREA? NOBODY ACTUALLY OWNS ANY OF THAT FUCKING FURNITURE.

KARKAT: THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED THE *COMMON* AREA, YOU ACCUSATORY PIECE OF FILTH.

DAVE: sounds like communism

DAVE: are you a communist or something

DAVE: actually that makes perfect sense what with your sickle and all

KARKAT: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??

DAVE: wait john has a hammer oh shit its all adding up

DAVE: when we arrive are you going to team up with john and seize the means of production

KARKAT: YOU APPEAR TO BE JUMPSTARTING A FACETIOUS DISCUSSION ABOUT SOME SORT OF HUMAN ECONOMIC IDEOLOGICAL FRAMEWORK, WITHOUT HAVING THE SLIGHTEST CLUE THAT YOUR VEHICLE IS PARKED SQUARELY IN THE NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ZONE.

DAVE: im just saying

DAVE: first chairs what next

DAVE: see i am all about private property and pocketing dough

DAVE: do you have any idea how rich i am

DAVE: i am a man of MEANS motherfucker

KARKAT: WHAT IS YOUR POINT?

DAVE: just dont come after my boonies dude

DAVE: or should i say karkat marx

KARKAT: YOU AREN'T BEING SERIOUS NOW!

KARKAT: THESE ARE NOT THE WORDS OF A SERIOUS PERSON.

KARKAT: I WAS HAVING A *SERIOUS DISCUSSION* LIKE A *BIG TIME ADULT* WITH MY GOOD FRIEND TEREZI.

KARKAT: YOUR CALLOUS AND NONSENSICAL REMARKS ARE DERAILING US FROM THE DELICATE SUBJECT AT HAND.

KARKAT: WHY DON'T YOU BE USEFUL AND SAY SOMETHING REASSURING TO OUR SAD MUTUAL BUDDY, YOU WAILING JET ENGINE OF INFANTILE STULTILOQUENCE??????

DAVE: i dont have much to say about this

DAVE: ive kinda got to recuse myself on the matter

DAVE: im all kinds of on record as being squicked out by the idea of hatelationships

DAVE: so i got no point of reference for gauging when one is fucked up the way thats normal for trolls or if its fucked up cause its actually fucked up and terrible

DAVE: this is like some ex alien boyfriend prime directive shit

DAVE: i cant intervene cause i dont know what im talking about

DAVE: but you do so i guess keep going

DAVE: you were saying some pretty good stuff before i started riding your jock about chairs

KARKAT: AUGH.

KARKAT: TEREZI, DO YOU SEE? DO YOU SEE WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH??

KARKAT: ACTUALLY, I GUESS YOU CAN! YOU CAN NOW LITERALLY SEE WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, AND EXPERIENCE ALL DUE EMPATHY FOR THE FACT THAT I HAVE A DOUCHE AS A BEST FRIEND!

TEREZI: Y3S, 1 C4N S33

TEREZI: TH3 V13W FROM H3R3 1S

TEREZI: DOUCH3T4CUL4R >:]

DAVE: thank you

KARKAT: SO THAT'S IT THEN

KARKAT: NO ADVICE AT ALL, SMARTALEC?

KARKAT: WHY DID I EVEN BRING YOU HERE FOR THIS INTERMISSION THEN.

DAVE: intermission?

KARKAT: INTERVENTION I MEAN. SORRY, I MISSPOKE.

DAVE: its not an intervention either

DAVE: my ghostly heads all beamin out of this crab for moral support yo

DAVE: i am in my homies corner even if he is a massive socialist

DAVE: terezi i think can probably figure this out

DAVE: she grew up alone and blind in a forest i think she will manage to bounce outta her juggalo phase

DAVE: but yeah terezi you should at least quit the fuckin soda

TEREZI: Y34H

TEREZI: OK

KARKAT: OK???

TEREZI: Y3S!

TEREZI: 1LL STOP

KARKAT: WHAT. JUST LIKE THAT?!

TEREZI: SUR3

TEREZI: 1TS R34LLY GROSS >X[

KARKAT: I THINK WE ARE MISSING THE POINT HERE.

KARKAT: THIS ISN'T JUST ABOUT AN UNHEALTHY OBSESSION WITH A FOUL SOFT DRINK.

KARKAT: IT'S ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF.

KARKAT: YOU ARE BARELY FUNCTIONAL RIGHT NOW. YOU CAN'T EVEN PICK YOURSELF UP OFF THE FLOOR AND PUT ON A PAIR OF PANTS.

KARKAT: REMEMBER PANTS TEREZI?? YOU USED TO LOVE PANTS!

TEREZI: Y34H, P4NTS 4R3 PR3TTY GR34T

KARKAT: YOU USED TO...

KARKAT: YOU USED TO BE A LOT OF THINGS. AND ALL OF THOSE WERE GOOD THINGS.

KARKAT: BUT NOW THAT WE'RE ABOUT TO ARRIVE, RIGHT WHEN WE NEED YOU THE MOST, YOU DO A SENSATIONAL BELLYFLOP INTO A CIRCUS VAT OF YOUR OWN TANGY SLOBBER.

TEREZI: OH PL34S3

TEREZI: WH4T COULD YOU POSS1BLY N33D M3 FOR?

KARKAT: YOU'RE AN IMPORTANT MEMBER OF THIS PARTY!

KARKAT: WE'LL NEED YOU TO HELP STAND UP TO JACK, AND WHATEVER ELSE IS WAITING FOR US THERE.

TEREZI: 1 DONT TH1NK 1 W1LL B3 V3RY US3FUL

KARKAT: WELL, NOT LIKE THIS YOU WON'T. YOU'VE GOT TO GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER.

TEREZI: NO! 1 M34N

TEREZI: 3V3N TH3N 1 WONT B3

TEREZI: 1 DONT H4V3 MUCH TO OFF3R 3V3N ON MY B3ST D4Y

KARKAT: WHAT ABOUT YOUR MIND POWERS THOUGH!

KARKAT: WHAT IF WE NEED SOMEBODY WITH MIND POWERS? TO DO SOME SORT OF...

KARKAT: MINDY THING.

TEREZI: WH4T M1ND POW3RS??

KARKAT: YOU KNOW. THE ONES WHERE YOU...

KARKAT: FLIP A COIN. AND...

KARKAT: SOMETHING CRAZY HAPPENS.

KARKAT: OK, I DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW HOW IT WORKS. BUT WHAT ABOUT THAT?

TEREZI: PFFF

TEREZI: 1 N3V3R D3V3LOP3D THOS3 POW3RS V3RY W3LL

TEREZI: 4ND 1TS B33N 4 LONG T1M3 S1NC3 1 3V3N THOUGHT 4BOUT TH3M

TEREZI: 1 DONT TH1NK TH3YR3 V3RY V4LU4BL3 HON3STLY

TEREZI: 1N F4CT 4LL TH3Y 3V3R S33M3D TO DO W4S TR1CK M3 1NTO F33L1NG L1K3 1 KN3W WH4T 1 W4S DO1NG

TEREZI: TH3Y 4CTU4LLY M4D3 M3 B3L13V3 1 W4S 1N CONTROL OF OTH3R P3OPL3S F4T3S

TEREZI: NOT 3V3N TO SP34K OF MY OWN

TEREZI: 1T W4S 4 R34LLY D4NG3ROUS K1ND OF D3LUS1ON

TEREZI: 4ND NOW 1T F33LS L1K3 TH3 ONLY "H3RO1C" TH1NG 1 3V3R D1D W1TH THOS3 POW3RS

TEREZI: W4S US3 TH3M TO JUST1FY K1LL1NG MY FR13ND

KARKAT: HUH?

TEREZI: ...

KARKAT: OH.

KARKAT: RIGHT.

TEREZI: 4ND WH4TS WORS3 1S

TEREZI: TO TH1S D4Y, 1M ST1LL NOT 3V3N TOT4LLY SUR3 1F 1T W4S N3C3SS4RY

TEREZI: 1 TH1NK 1V3 LOST TH3 4B1L1TY TO T3LL 1F 1M B31NG PUN1SH3D FOR WH4T 1 D1D, OR 1F 1 4M PUN1SH1NG MYS3LF

KARKAT: WELL, YEAH. OF COURSE IT WAS NECESSARY.

KARKAT: EVEN IF IT WASN'T THE MORALLY RIGHT CHOICE OR WHATEVER, IT WAS OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING THAT HAD TO HAPPEN.

KARKAT: THAT'S THE CRUEL THING ABOUT PARADOX SPACE. IT SYSTEMICALLY VALIDATES ALL YOUR MISTAKES AS NECESSARY OUTCOMES.

KARKAT: NOT EVEN NECESSARY FOR YOUR OWN GOOD OR PERSONAL GROWTH. IT'S ALWAYS BIGGER THAN YOU. LIKE YOUR ERRORS IN JUDGMENT ARE INSEPARABLE FROM THE WAY REALITY HAS TO UNFOLD.

KARKAT: SO IT NEVER LETS YOU FORGET ABOUT THEM. BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL CRITICAL TO THE BIG PICTURE, AND ALL YOUR PAST FLAWS ARE LIKE...

KARKAT: SCARS.

KARKAT: SCARS IN SPACETIME THAT NEVER HEAL, AND ALWAYS SERVE TO REMIND YOU THAT THE PERFECT VERSION OF YOURSELF YOU WISH YOU COULD BE CAN NEVER EXIST. BECAUSE THE SURVIVAL OF EVERYONE YOU CARE ABOUT DEPENDS ON HIM NOT EXISTING.

TEREZI: 1 KNOW 4LL TH4T

TEREZI: 1T DO3SNT STOP M3 FROM WOND3R1NG

KARKAT: IT'S SIMPLE. IF YOU HADN'T KILLED HER, YOU WOULD HAVE WITHERED AWAY IN A DOOMED TIMELINE.

TEREZI: Y34H! 4ND SOM3T1M3S 1 W1SH 1 H4D!

TEREZI: 4T TH1S PO1NT 1 TH1NK 1 WOULD R4TH3R B3 TH3 B3TT3R P3RSON WHO M4D3 TH3 R1GHT D3C1S1ON

TEREZI: 3V3N 1F 1T 4LSO M34NT B31NG TH3 ON3 TO F4D3 4W4Y FOR3V3R

KARKAT: WELL, *I* WOULDN'T WANT THAT!

KARKAT: DOES THAT FUCKING MATTER TO YOU?

KARKAT: DOES THAT FACTOR ANYWHERE INTO YOUR DREARY EXISTENTIAL EQUATION???

TEREZI: YOU PROB4BLY TH1NK 1M CR4ZY

TEREZI: JUST 4S CR4ZY 4S YOU TH1NK 1 4M FOR D4T1NG G4MZ33

TEREZI: BUT

TEREZI: 1 R34LLY M1SS H3R

KARKAT: NO

KARKAT: I DON'T THINK YOU'RE CRAZY FOR THAT.

TEREZI: 4ND Y3T

TEREZI: 1F 1 3V3R S4W H3R 4G41N

TEREZI: TH3R3S NO W4Y 1 COULD T4LK TO H3R

TEREZI: SO P4RT OF M3 HOP3S 1 N3V3R-

TEREZI: OW!!!!!!!

TEREZI: D4V3, YOU D1CK!!!

DAVE: what

DAVE: dont blame me

DAVE: i cant control the crab

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