#etc etc etc i could keep going

[venomgaia]

Guys that go bump in the night

(minorly inspired by @karniss-bg3 's response to this ask)

#bg3 #astarion #rhylolin/lobo (oc) #kar'niss #drider #baldurs gate 3 #driftoodles #alternative titles thst were suggested have been: the monster mash; two charlatan party crashers and their plus one #a drider a lycanthrope and a vampire walk into a bar #etc etc etc i could keep going #i imagine this would be a post bg3 plot thing . dunno what trouble theyre getting into but #whatever theyre up to someones probably gonna have to bail them out. my moneys on gale #with how ive been sketching kar'niss ive been drawing him more emaciated during bg3 bc i noticed his abdomen wrinkles at the bottom which #is a trait of dehydration in arachnids. hes probs not eating very well in moonrise lmao. but i imagine lobo heres been taking p good care #of him. also i think karniss still isnt used to being complimented so every time anyone says he looks nice he throws a fit about it #arachnophobia #but yeah so i try to draw him with rounder n softer features if im drawing him doing smthn post bg3 #anywayyys i have a big day tomorrow i wish i had more energy to put smthn neater out but. for now. woe drider #i actually planned on replying to the og ask with more refined doodles but i may do thst later shdkdnkd

[starspaceace]

god it sucks knowing like. i have no reason to be like in a bad mood or upset but i am :(

#its several things. its embarassing i got upset bc ppl on my dash are shitting on fob like i dont even really like the new cover #but im like making stuff for the concerts im going to and im like well thats cringe now obivously #and then it sent me down a spirial of thinking of just everything else ive been upset about so now its all compounded so #then i cut my hair and it didnt look great and maybe i should just sleep but then thats morning and then work and i hate my job #etc etc etc i could keep going #like i know it doesnt make sense its not like. cringe for me to enjoy things i shouldnt be so upset about nothing #carley talks

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!) #so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!) #when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :] #idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #(it's me they should hire me. please DC i have ideas listen to my red hood pitch PLEASE-)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

fantasy au scribbles!!

#ft. bardaby and wall beefing <3 #ok yeah im just gonna call possessed wally wall. #cause yk. homes. home. walls. wall. #the alternative options were like. walome. holly. etc. bad options #In My Mind that scribble is the result of barnaby's first time seeing home possess wally #he did not know home could do that! they'd already had a very stressful and bad few months! #both of them were at their limits and were ready to Start Biting! #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #wh au #welcome home au #anyway yeah i gave howdy a lil ponytail. what about it #and his lil magic bullet bandolier <3 #ALSO DRAWING THE PUPPETS WITH TEETH IS FUN BUT ALSO VERY STRANGE #I AM NOT USED TO SHOVING CHOMPERS IN THEIR FACES #but in this au they're Real Fleshy Beings so. they need teeth i guess #ok i just wanted to give them teeth in a way that my brain allowed #still very unwell about this lil au btw #my little imaginings have been keeping me going lately #my favorite plotlines at present are bardaby-home bonding / wally & home are separated / ocean adventures / disembowelment <3 #fun things all around!

[anistarrose]

the thing I keep coming back to about TAZ Balance, I think, is that there's heroes — lots of them, even — but there's not really a hero, not a singular one. when our characters try to save the world all on their own, and oh, do they try, their arcs — while eventually culminating in happy endings, for the most part — are, at the time, cast as tragedies. lone heroes, in TAZ Balance, are invariably tragic heroes.

Lucretia can't gather all the Grand Relics and defeat the Hunger on her own. Barry can't find Lup, much less sway Lucretia from her plan, on his own. Lup, crushed by guilt, sets off to neutralize her greatest mistake without even facing her family as she leaves, and that decision sets the story into motion in the first place. their intent to spare their family, to shoulder the burden alone so no one else will have to, fixes little and leaves them isolated. lonely. trapped.

even Magnus, rustic Folk Hero of Raven's Roost, fails to avenge the community that took him in. he sets off on a solitary mission to do so, never opening up about his pain to even his closest friends, but he never sees Kalen again. yet, maybe not too late, he learns, or rather, remembers — the strength to protect and avenge others comes from the strength to ask for help. the last thing helping anyone is trying to do this alone.

Lucretia assembles the Bureau, and as soon as she sees a way, brings Tres Horny Boys back under her wing. Barry, the very same day that Lucretia recruits them, sees the Phoenix Fire Gauntlet surface, and realizes it's time to put his trust in his family again — he shows himself to them soon after, and even with him putting up a facade, that's progress. and Lup, with endless time to reflect, is possibly the first of all of them to see where she went wrong. she won't be making that mistake again.

there's not a singular hero of the story, because taking on the burden of saving everyone is no task meant for one person. there's "our heroes," Tres Horny Boys, and there's the secondary, "secret," but no less important heroes who complete the ranks of the IPRE, but none can defeat the Hunger — nor reunite their family, nor vanquish an old foe — without leaning on each other, and on the new bonds they forged on this cycle. leaning on Johann, Kravitz, Team Sweet Flips, and the whole ensemble; every single connection that convinced them not to flee but to fight.

accepting that none of them can, that none of them should, be the hero alone — that's what averts the tragic end. the Hunger, terrible as it is, is wholly united, sharing and amplifying each other's despair. the only way to victory is to rely on each other, to care for each other, to learn how to be cared for, and to let your loved ones grant you hope.

#taz #taz balance #taz balance spoilers #taz meta #lucretia taz #barry bluejeans #lup taaco #magnus burnsides #i just typed this in a haze but like. give me an hour and a powerpoint and i could keep going with this! #like don't even get me started on how lucretia and barry and lup responding to guilt in deeply similar ways #that were well-intentioned but counterproductive at best and self destructive at worst #limiting their interaction with their family let alone with the world #“i would feel guilty living in a world that i poisoned” etc etc #but those bonds with both their family and the people upon the world proved critical to stopping the hunger! #like it just Gets to me. i will never stop thinking about it

[hedgehog-moss]

French TV journalist having a hard time trying to get woman in the street to comment on Macron's latest speech yesterday

Protesters organised casserolades (aka banging on pots and pans) in front of city halls across the country at 8pm, when Macron was speaking, to symbolically drown out his voice. Later that evening, Macron was filmed singing a song with some 'random people' in a street in Paris, trying to show he can go out and meet people and have fun because protesters don't exist. The people he was singing with (members of a choir, some of whom are 'alt-right-leaning') were using a folk song app created by far-right activists that was criticised a few months ago for hosting a Spanish fascist anthem & Third Reich military marches.

The government's response was that the President "couldn't know the background of the people he met that night." Maybe if he wants to avoid being associated with the far-right (that's a big if, I know), Macron should keep in mind that with the kinds of strategies and positioning his government has adopted lately, people in the street who welcome him with open arms and are proud to be filmed with him have a higher than average likelihood of supporting fascism.

#genre hier darmanin qui dit qu'il faut sanctionner les gens au RSA et aujourd'hui le maire pour qui fraudeur = maghrébin... #also the far-right ppl who made that song lyric app got 40K€ of public funding from the ministry of culture #our government is 'questioning' public funding for the human rights league but not this #so yeah this is just 1 thing out of the avalanche of bullshit the government keeps unleashing these days #i could have made a post about the minister of the interior; a known rapist; saying #that french people are angry about the reform but ''they swallowed it'' #that was yesterday; this week is going well so far #cool thing that happened last week is that the film director who won the césar des lycéens award #made a speech in the presence of the minister of education in which he said #''it must be hard to be minister of education for a president whose words and actions reflect the opposite #of the values school is supposed to teach the youth: contempt rather than respect; dictating rather than dialoguing'' (etc) #also last week when macron went to notre-dame and of course forbade protests in the area #so protesters hopped on a boat and protested on the seine next to notre-dame #frpol

[allthegothihopgirls]

the batfamily would NOT be on social media at all realistically, but of course tim loooooves photography, so i think he'd be a super dedicated scrapbook-mom type instead. (to compensate for the incredible instagram posts he WOULD make)

like, he's got books for each of his friends, one for each family member, and multiple for pictures of parts of the family and all of them together (although rare). he even has separate books for people in-costume and out-of-costume.

every christmas + birthday he recieves a loooooot of scrapbooking materials, he has draws of washi tape and stickers in his room.

he definitely tries his best to match the themes of the pages to the people in them too, and not one book has the same feel to it. he always writes very sincere little captions under the pictures as well. if he wasn't so attached to the books, he'd give them as gifts.

#the chronicles of billionare bruce wayne and his tendency to go all in on his autistic kids special interests #he also keeps EVERYTHING he could possibly stick in a scrapbook from an outing #receipts. candy wrappers. arcade tickets. stickers. tickets. and god knows what else #i think theyd also be something he uses to ground himself when people are on long missions. or when he hasn't seen people in a longtime #just to remind him that they're real etc etc #i have a timkon addition to make to this post but i'll put it in a reblog #tim drake #robin #red robin #batfam #batfamily #the robins #batboys #dc comics #dc batman #dcu #dc #gothihop speaks

[queerofthedagger]

I just think that there are many reasons why one can go back and forth on whether Ygraine's spirit is really Ygraine in s2e8, but judging her and/or the situation one way or another over the fact that she is for once someone who tells Arthur the goddamn truth really just ain't it. Like. of course he would be furious! maybe because - and hear me out here - the truth is something to be furious about! Everyone constantly fucking lies and lies and lies to Arthur, to spare him, to stop him from being angry, for one million supposed reasons of knowing better, so maybe yes a sign of actual love is to not put yourself into the line-up and be honest, for once in his goddamn life

#*mine #mona rambles #bbcm #arthur pendragon #bbc merlin #merlin meta #that's my GIRL leave her be #not reblogging the og post everyone's entitled to their opinions etc etc but also i am. biting #also. she's allowed to hold a grudge against uther. she's allowed to not be a rational saint. she's allowed to tell her son she loves him #and to be fucking /enraged/ at his first words to her being an APOLOGY FOR LIVING #like. i do keep going back and forth on whether it was really her but this is literally THEE least reason why oh my god #i could go on but i just got up i need coffee. man

[penwrythe]

What's stopping the possibility of a ceasefire is pretty simple. Hamas is holding 239 Israeli civilians hostage including children and the elderly. What's happening in Palestine is a travesty and horrendous. But Israel can't initiate a ceasefire from the position they're in, so we need to be agitating for Hamas to release the hostages and call for a ceasefire instead.

NO GENOCIDE IS JUSTIFIABLE

HOW DOES THE KILLING OF INNOCENT PEOPLE ON THIS EXTREME LEVEL FORCE HAMAS TO RETURN HOSTAGES??

ISRAEL'S BOMBARDMENT AND INDISCRIMINATE SHOOTING IN GAZA THREATEN EVERYONE THERE INCLUDING DOCTORS JOURNALISTS CHILDREN ENTIRE FAMILIES AND THE HOSTAGES

EVERYONE IS TARGETED

YOU HAVE HOSPITALS BOMBED HOW ANY OF THIS IS JUSTIFIED

@sarroora @fairuzfan @palipunk @wearenotjustnumbers2

You know more about this than I do.

#do you really think this will work on me; like hell I'm gonna stay silent for you #I hoard bookmarks like a dragon so guess what I have been saving from the posts I had reblogged to this blog and my sideblog #firefox bookmarks manager are a blessing oh my gods #how does one block anons #sorry for going full Black here on this post but yeah I'm a little livid #the entirety of Western media heavily propagandized for Israel and the US #how the US media covered this look at how our politicians keep funding Israel with money that could have gone to #our schools healthcare housing etc; my tax payer money is being used to kill innocent people and silence protesters #tw death #tw racial profiling #palestine #update: changed a few tags because I mistakenly compared Al Jazeera's coverage to Western Coverage #Al Jazeera has the best coverage of what is happening in Gaza and unfortunately also lost journalists #They deserve respect for what they are doing #thank you for the corrections wearenotjustnumbers2 (see their response in the notes pls) #genocide

[front-facing-pokemon]

#gogoat #i like this Less than skiddo. which is unfortunately why i rarely ever end up using skiddo in my teams #that's the main thing stopping me from using a lot of pokémon in my teams. i like their prevos but the final evolutions just don't do it #for me for one reason or another and since that's the only reason to use a pokémon on your team aside from the early game i just #never end up using that pokémon. because they'll just fall so drastically behind so quickly that i never use them #so pokémon like skiddo‚ fennekin‚ vulpix‚ ponyta #etc etc i never end up using just because i only like their weak baby forms. and like i guess it's a me issue bc i could just give them an #eviolite and say it's a strat but i always feel like i'm missing out on a lot by not letting them evolve. some pokémon get such a huge stat #boost that i feel like keeping them a baby is just holding my whole team back #so i never use skiddo despite loving it to death. justice for skiddo. y'know what #i'm gonna go change my discord icon to a skiddo RIGHT now #get skiddo'd

[emry-stars-art]

Thoughts on prince Riko’s “perfect court” before anyone escaped Evermore ( @thefoxesraven pls remind me if it was you with the branding vs tagging idea on that insta live)

@snazzy-jas-z-is-a-fan-of came up with SO MUCH of the possible politics and family ties of this au, it was incredible to watch and I think I finally understand enough to post about it 😂 there’s a balance of power between the two branches of Evermore royalty, which balance is shifting slowly to the Moriyamas and by the end of the story belongs solely to them with Ichirou as king. I’ll try to explain it in a different post if there’s interest

(And lest we go a day without Abram angst: he does in fact get his brand and more, when he’s taken back to Evermore and Riko takes the chance to reclaim his property ‘like he should have done to begin with’.)

#CRIES I WROTE THIS WHOLE POST TAGS AND ALL AND LOST IT TO THE VOID #hhhhhh anyway. new designs who this #I think I’ve drawn riko maybe like. twice. and i wanted to give Jean curly hair #which 👀👀👀👀 sir #AND he gets to grow it out?? #oh but it hurts to think about why Kevin and Jean #who both are closer and spend more time with riko than Nathaniel #would want to keep their hair short while at evermore #in this the ‘long haired men’ au #TOO MANY ANGSTY THOUGHTS TONIGHT #but thank you so much jas for your thoughts and incredible world building #AND I could go on MORE about the unnecessary measure of Riko branding Jean #it was just to be cruel and mock him and cause him pain #AND I COULD GO ON ALSO ABOUT ABRAM AND BRANDING #but I WONT because I learned there’s a TAG LIMIT #so if you want to know. you know where to find me #dms are open etc #im also on discord and insta #30 tags smh #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #royal au #neil josten #kevin day #riko moriyama #jean moreau #perfect court

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[ekingston]

Apart from show canon, at which point did u think it was too late for lena's immediate forgiveness to kara's identity reveal

oh boy. anon, here is where i come clean about my shoddy recollection of canon’s chronology. i’ve done so many fragmented rewatches and skipping back and forth—there’s a reason i rarely dabble with canon-adjacent stuff! and that even when i do, i create worlds where Lena figures it out herself! 

second road bump to answering this question is that i have a LOT of feelings about how things played out on the show, and most of them are incongruent with the tone of sgcw. i understand their narrative reasons for keeping the secret from Lena for so long! but the execution is so, so terrible! ignoring large swathes of canon and replacing them with my own is the only way i’m able to enjoy at least the last tiny handful of seasons!

here is where i spend an hour procrastinating from my WIPs, while not successfully answering your question at all:

to be perfectly clear: i adore most parts of canon Kara. and i think i may be hard on her in ways i wouldn't be if i didn’t relate to her so much. i think her backstory is extremely compelling and i admire her ability to hold on to her kindness and hope and joy even after losing everything that was important to her, even when she’s tired and lonely and mad. 

BUT. a healthy Lena—one who we were made to believe was finally freeing herself from Lex and Lillian, rising above the coping mechanisms she’d developed as an unwanted and emotionally neglected child? i don’t think that Lena would (should?) have forgiven canon Kara at all.

after the rift, canon Kara flitted between telling Lena she’d lied to her ‘to protect you’ to ‘one person who sees me only as Kara’ to ‘your last name’ to ‘didn’t want to lose you’ until she literally told Lena she was on her own, and she’d treat her like any other villain until Lena repented, even rejecting her apology at first, as if Kara’s own decisions had played no part in Lena’s downward spiral at all.

the Kara Lena would have forgiven is the much more cohesive and coherent Kara brought to us by our talented fix-it writers: a Kara who is willing to let herself be vulnerable and to second-guess her motivations, one who is able to put together a proper apology and actually listen to Lena's own. 

but, okay, lets table all of that. this is me trying really, really hard to entertain canon:

Kara and Lena’s friendship became painfully lopsided by season 3. i think that was, if i recall correctly, when the super-friends decided to trust Lena enough to regularly ask her for assistance—but not enough to let her be part of their in-group; it’s where they left Lena in the dark about the fact that her best friend had come close to plunging to her death right in front of Lena's eyes, and was actively still fighting for her life; where they tricked Lena into having an extremely personal conversation with J’onn, while he was wearing Kara’s features, only to make belly-laughing fun of her about it later. 

and even then, honestly, it might already have been too late. what about the aftermath of Jack’s death? was that season 2? Jack was Lena’s ex-everything, someone who genuinely loved her, who saw her through the fallout of Lex’s arrest. he was one of her last remaining friends, and Lena pressed the button to let him die in order to save Supergirl’s life. how would Lena knowing that Kara went through that with her, knowing Lena had chosen to save the life of her favorite person in addition to National City’s hero, have changed the way she felt about that horrible situation? that’s where that extremely wonderful heart-to-heart on the L-Corp couch happened, right? Kara swore she’d always be Lena’s friend—while keeping silent about the fact that she was there when Jack drew his last breath, that she had witnessed their final moments.

so—i really can’t tell you anon, i’m so sorry. the 100th episode already fabricated reasons why Kara couldn’t possibly come clean to Lena back when she made the conscious decision to be her friend (and not in a ‘keep your enemies close’ kind of way!), and i’m beginning to think that was the only moment Kara could have told Lena that would have kept her conscience completely clear. Kara should have made it part of her decision—either she was going to be Lena’s friend and give her the same trust Lena was giving her, or she would keep things professional, and keep her identity a secret from her. 

Kara tried to do both, and if i really think about it, i don’t believe that was ever fair.

#i could have kept going anon #drifting further & further away from your original question all the while #i think it would have helped it supergirlcw would have figured out at one point what kind of show they wanted to be #and possibly maybe also perhaps if they'd managed to make up their mind about who these characters were and what they wanted? idk #is it lighthearted and fun? then lena knew all along and kara half-suspects but it's still hard to come out and actually say it #is it dramatic? maybe lena still knows but she's convinced kara not telling her means she's just another luthor AND MAYBE SHE IS #is lena just another evil luthor? so kara was right keeping her secret from her! bring on the (actual proper) villain arc! #etc etc ad nauseam & ad infinitum #thank you for letting me get this out i guess anon lmao #perhaps it is A Day #ask me things! #anonymous

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao #feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy #danbles #and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth #or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities #or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to #or whatever else #i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy #I’M certainly not going to #but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer #and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc) #i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where #i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything #but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on #it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way #idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences #even negative ones are valuable to me #but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem #maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem #fuuck guys ​i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀

[skitskatdacat63]

I want his gender

#mentally im still here #that turtleneck outfit has haunted me since november when i watched this #daniel brühl the twink prince that you were #tbh most of his roles are very gender evny #this !!! #frederick zoller another twink #dont even get me started on zemo especially tfatws zemo and his slutty coat... #him as niki lauda??? #all very gender #if i ever can recreate this outfit irl i will be very happy #(what is it w me and getting gender envy for german protags istg every german show/movie i watch i get rly obsessed w the protag) #(maybe one day ill go back and gif deutschland 83/dark/etc and my german twink collection) #(thatd be a fun project! i could never rly find the fandom so itd be cool to be self indulgent) #(i always wanna rewatch those so if i can multitask w gifing that would be great) #(im super non committal and me doing race recaps is one of the major things keeping me consistent so maybe i shall do that but w this) #daniel brühl #daniel bruhl #good bye lenin #goodbye lenin #catie.rambling.txt

[8bit-mau5]

Update

Hey guys I didnt mean to disappear the way I did this month, but especially in the more recent weeks. I've been in an UNBEARABLE amount of pain with migraines almost every day for over a week and I may very well have a sinus infection (': Like I WAS diagnosed with chronic sinusitis last year iirc but this is unbearable. My throat hurts, my teeth hurt, my face hurts, I can't breathe out my nose. I feel miserable tbh.

Another reason for absence and being so slow on work is because I came really close to calling the cops on my mother in the middle of a fight not too long ago. I'm certain it would've gotten physical if Popo hadn't walked through the front door when he did. Thankfully things DIDN'T get physical, but I'm still very shaken up about it. I'm in no danger, but I'm getting around to making an official post for my [GoFundMe] that's been successfully published now. That was the last straw I just cannot handle how my cats and I are treated. It's seriously affected my workflow for far too long.

Anyway I could really use some positivity and distraction. I missed this place and I missed you guys, home life has just been.. a lot. And I'm exhausted.

#abuse #abuse tw #animal abuse #animal abuse tw #i think thats everything? #okay to reblog #since it has my GFM link? #i had to call my shitty hardly-present in my life father to calm me down but like. the way he talks to me aint great either #the treatment ive gotten from mom has gotten exponentially worse since my sister moved out just like we all expected tbh #ive NEEDED to move out for ages but now i have like. a plan #i just need to make the money for it now #honestly id be happy to even reach 7k. the deadline is just in a few months so.. i'll be keeping it up for rent and move costs. but id like #to raise a bit to properly PAY popo for driving me up there and back. so $ for gas. food. hotel stays. etc. and paying for a rental truck #8bit beeps #god i wish i just had a friend i could move in with RIGHT NOW just to weather out the storm and work on raising more money #to go to chicago w/my boyfriend