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lxnerwriter · 2 years

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Honesty Is The Best Policy // Seo Moonjo

Summary: Hiding emotions is Moon-jo's true talent. But when he meets Y/N's ex at a bar, jealousy takes control and leads Moon-jo to do the unthinkable. And he doesn't regret any bit of it.

Pairings: Seo Moon-jo x Reader

Genre: Smut, Toxic Relationship

Rate: 18+

Word Count: 3, 656

Warnings: Kidnapping, Extreme Smut, Oral (M), Slight Degradation, Daddy Kink, Choking Kink, Murder Kink, Obsession, Jealousy, Slight Breeding Kink, Etc.

Note From Author: hey! this is my first fanfic ever on Tumblr. I hope you enjoy! please give me some requests by message! I am still figuring out Tumblr. so soon, there will be a better way to leave requests. make sure to reblog! and have a great day!!

You were down bad. And you should have trusted your gut when he showed you his necklaces made of human teeth. Did nothing click? Did nothing tell you that this man was no good? Obviously not because here you are, heads and heels in love with a psychopath. When you first met Moon-jo, the lightbulb should have clicked on once you saw his smile. Something was off about his it. It was cute, yea, and every smile is different, but something about his smile was odd. You really couldn’t find the right word to describe it other than creepy. But it drew you even closer to him; and at the end of the day, you would try anything to see that smile. You will always remember when he told you his true identity, and when you saw that creepy smile for the first time.

It was a Friday night, and you were coming back from your classes. As you made your way into your house, a pool of blood was on your kitchen tile. A loud scream escaped your lips when you felt a pair of hands wrap around your mouth.

“Shh,” a warm breath was felt in your ear. You squirmed but eventually stopped when you realized who held you hostage.

A muffled “Moon-jo” came from your lips, and he chuckled.

“Baby, I need you to stay quiet. If you make any more loud noises, then I will be taken away for a long time.” When those words left his mouth, you nodded and he let go of you.

You panicked. “Fuck, fuck, fuck. What did you do?”

That creepy smile spread across his face. “Want to see?” He inquired, and you hesitantly nodded. When he showed you what he had done, you ran to the trash and vomited. Laying on your living room floor was a man wrapped in a plastic bag. And when Moon-jo opened it, you couldn’t believe your eyes. The victim's face, which was bashed in, was unrecognizable (and to this day, Moon-jo will not reveal the identity of this man.) “Look at him. Isn’t he beautiful?” Moon-jo reached his hands in his pocket and pulled out a necklace. You gasped as the necklace he held wasn’t a normal necklace, but a necklace made of teeth.

Your eyes met him as you stuttered, “I-is it? A-are these t-teeth-“ Before you finished, he bent down and opened the mouth of the deceased man. The man’s mouth was empty, except his tongue which was sitting limp in the back of his throat

“I guess you have discovered my secret, dear. Don’t run away from me.” Moon-jo reached his hand out to touch your back, and in response, you flinched. But you didn’t run. You didn’t dare run. Was it fear holding you back? Possibly. Probably. Or was it love? Your love for Moon-jo kept you there. You were scared, of course, but you loved Moon-jo. You couldn’t just leave him.

And you didn’t leave him. It has been two years since your life-changing discovery. And what pains you to say is the fact that you help him. You help hide the bodies. You help bury the bodies. And it is exhausting. So exhausting. Mentally and physically tiring. And sometimes you think that you are the one being kidnapped and tortured, unable to escape from his grasp. Knowing that if you leave, you will end up in the grave like the many you helped killed. So you pretend to be happy. You pretend that your relationship is like the normal couples. And every once and awhile, you force him to go out on a date with you, just like any normal relationship.

Date night always took place on the first Friday of every month. And to your delight, it was the first Friday of the month. The morning went by slow as usual due to your unemployed state. When you moved in with Moon-jo, he told you to quit your job and live in luxury with him. He basically made you his little house wife ( without being married, of course.) Moving from his old crumby apartment, he now lived the lavish lifestyle. He didn’t build a house in the middle nowhere (which would have been his dream so he could have you all to himself) but on the outskirts of Seoul. How did he get all this money? Many patients claimed he was unsettling and uncomfortable so the dentistry he worked at fired him. But due to his amazing skills, he instantly got hired at a better dentistry which paid him way more than before. So here he was, rich and in love. What could be better? After having a stressful day at work, he always could expect you to be waiting for him, and he could fuck all the stress out of him.

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After hours of getting dolled up for your little date, his personal driver picked you up at your house and took you to your destination. Once there, you sat at the bar, waiting for your beloved to arrive. While scrolling on your phone, a text message appear on the screen.

Moon-jo: Running a little late, love. I will be there soon.

Y/N: Ok:) Already have a two seats at the bar saved.

“Y/N?” A familiar voice said your name. Confused, you turned around to see your ex, Ji-hoon, standing there with a surprised look on his face.

“Ji-hoon? Didn’t expect to see you here!” Ji-hoon was your boyfriend of three years before he cheated on you. It is not like you didn’t miss him, because you did. But he brought you so much pain and heartbreak, but you did share good memories with him as well.

“Still look beautiful as always. How have you been?” He looked you up down with those same playboy eyes which you were all familiar with.

“I’ve been good. And yourself?”

“I’ve been busy. I’m just trying to settle down, you know?” He smiled at you with those straight white pearls of his. His smile was different from Moon-jo. Ji-hoon had a more genuine smile, and you did love his smile, but that was past.

“Well, I wish you the best of luck. I-“ And as you were about to shoo Ji-hoon away, another familiar voice was heard behind you.

“Well hello, dear,” a pair of strong arms wrapped around you as a familiar pair of soft lips left a kiss on your cheeks. “You look ravishing as always. And who is this?” Moon-jo asked as he gave you a stare which left your heart pounding.

“U-um. This is Ji-hoon, my ex. He happened to be here tonight,” you stuttered knowing you couldn't lie And knowing how possessive Moon-jo can be, you were truly scared.

“Well, it is nice to meet you.” He was lying, and you knew that. Moon-jo was a superb actor, and every once and awhile, you would joke around and say that he should star in a k-drama. He was an expert at faking emotions. For example His creepy smile would spread across his face while anger would bubble inside. He also had a very good poker face so you didn't dare look into his eyes right now.

So after the brief introduction, Ji-hoon made his departure.

“I’m buying drinks, love. What would you like?” Moon-jo asked you in a soft voice. He grabbed your hand and laid a kiss on it, a delicate one which caused butterflies to crowd your stomach. Once you made your order and he was busy talking to the bartender, you couldn’t help but wonder where his sudden calmness stemmed from. To your surprise, he was acting as if the introduction between him and your ex never even happened. Knowing your boyfriend, you expected him to take you to the bathroom and punish you. Or drag you out of the bar and speed home with you begging for forgiveness. But here you were, sitting at bar waiting for your drink.

Once your drinks were made, Moon-jo out his hand on your thigh.

“Didn’t know youwere going to have a guest join us tonight?” He rose his eyebrows as his soft lips wrapped around the straw.

“Trust me. I didn’t know he was going to be here either. I-I should have told him to leave once he walked to my table. I'm sorry... really sorry.” you stuttered. Words were just flooding out of your mouth, and he could tell. So when he grabbed your jaw lightly, you instantly stopped talking.

“I am not mad at you, baby. So please, calm down. I just hope he realized how beautiful my babygirl is, and how much he is missing out on.” Moon-jo told you as that creepy smile spread across his face once more. You blushed as his hand rose up your thigh to the hem of your dress. “You are mybeautiful girl, right?” He brought his other hand to cup your cheek.

“I am,” you replied while leaning into his hand, a fatal blush spreading across your cheeks.

~~~~~

You both spent the evening basking in each others presence and for once in a lifetime, you actually felt loved by the man in front of you. Not like Moon-jo didn’t love you because he did, you just wish his love wasn’t an obsession. And what was terrifying was the fact that you completely adored him. You couldn’t live without him, or so you thought.

After a drink or two, you could say that you weren’t drunk, but a little buzzed. But Moon-jo, well, alcohol seemed to have no affect on that man because he was still sober despite his alcoholic beverages. One thing for sure, you were exhausted and your boyfriend could tell.

“Are you wanting to go home?” He asked, and a simple nod was your response. With his hand intertwined with yours, you both made your way out of the bar and to his car. He sat you down in the passenger seat and buckled you up. You were dosing off, and he could tell. “You can fall asleep, love. I’ll wake you up when we get home.”

You smiled, “Ok.” Your eyes fluttered close, and a deep sleep overtook your body.

~~~~~

Sooner than later, you felt yourself being lifted up by a pair of arms. Your eyes opened slowly to see Moon-jo carrying you in his arms. You were still in a drowsy state, but the familiar scent of your home reached your nose. You were home. Moon-jo brought you up the stairs and into the bedroom. He undressed you with much care and love. Grabbing the nearest makeup wipe he could find, he slowly wiped your makeup off and laid you in bed.

“Moon-jo, lay with me,” you reached out of him lazily as he stood by the bed, your body fully nude and his body fully clothed.

He left a kiss on your forehead and walked to the bedroom door. “I'll come to bed soon, Y/N. I have some things I need to do.” The lights flashed off, and the door closed which resulted in complete darkness. You dozed off, entering the land of dreams once more.

~~~~~

“Baby… wake up,” Moon-jo whispered in your ears as you squirmed in your bed, not wanting to leave the restful state you were in.

“No,” your answer was quite muffled as you dug your face deeper into your pillow.

He shook you lightly, “I have a surprise for you.”

Huh? A surprise? Confused as ever, you lifted your head up from the pillow and let out a scream. In front of your eyes was Ji-hoon, tied to a chair which sat infront of your bed. He squirmed, trying to escape but with no success. How did he even get there? You panicked not knowing what to do. But you knew one thing for sure, Moon-jo was the one who put him there.

“Moon-jo, w-what did you do?” you didn’t budge, but stayed leaning against the wooden bedframe of your king sized bed. Moon-jo chuckled as he walked over to Ji-hoon and patted his shoulder.

“Well, Ji-hoon seemed like he missed you when he saw you at the bar,” he looked into Ji-hoon eyes which were filled with fear. “So I brought him here for you.”

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. He did it again. And this time, it was Ji-hoon. You have seen this happen time and time again, and you knew that your ex boyfriend would end up in the grave. There was nothing you could do when Moon-jo was in charge. To be honest, you were scared. If you tried to help Ji-hoon, you would end up in the grave with him. It was either help kill or get killed. And death wasn’t apart of your agenda.

When Moon-jo turned his back, you mouthed your apologizes to Ji-hoon, knowing his fate. Some tears filled your eyes, but quickly disappeared when you heard the voice of your boyfriend.

“Don’t cover yourself up, Y/N. I think Ji-hoon would like to see your beautiful body once again” Moon-jo walked around the room, as if he was trying to find something, but he didn’t know what.

You didn’t realize that you were covering your nude body with the bedsheets. When your boyfriend was in a state like this, you knew not to disobey him, so without hesitation, you dropped the sheets which revealed your fully nude figure. A small gasp was heard underneath Ji-hoon’s gag; and when Moon-jo heard it, he froze where he was at and walked over to your ex with a knife in his hand.

“Oh? See something you like?” Your boyfriend guided his knife across Ji-hoon’s neck, not piercing the skin, but clearly scaring the victim. “Now, don’t lie to me. Do you find my baby pretty?”

Ji-hoon looked at you, not knowing what to do. One thing that was special about your relationship with Ji-hoon was your ability to communicate through eye contact. When you too started dating those many years ago, you could simply stare at him, and he could understand what you were trying to say. And right now, that is what you were doing. You told him to be honest through your gaze. So he was honest.

Ji-hoon nodded rapidly. And that’s when your heart dropped. Honesty was usually the best policy, but in this incident, you knew that your ex’s honesty was going to have him killed.

Moon-jo’s eyebrow shot up. “I had a feeling you were going to say that.” Your boyfriend walked over to you and drifted his hand across your check. “Why don’t we put on a show for him?”

Huh? What was he talking about? A show? You looked at your boyfriend with confusion as you questioned him. “A show? W-what do you mean?”

“Get on the floor, baby. On your knees.” Moon-jo looks at you as he sits on the edge of the bed. When he hears no movement, he turns around to look at you. “Did I stutter, little girl?”

You instantly slid to the floor and made your way infront of him. You were completely nude, and Ji-hoon eyes were focused on you which caused a blush to spread across your chest.

“Take my cock out and suck it,” your gaze moved up to meet his while he rose an eyebrow. “You know the routine; we do it every night.” His eyes got darker within a second; and you knew that at this moment that if you didn’t obey him, he was going to humiliate you infront of Ji-hoon, and you did not want that at all. So without hesitation, you unzipped his pants and took out his hardening shaft. You held in a breath as you stroked it with your tiny hand; you always were in awe of how big his cock was. It was thick and long and absolutely perfect.

After a few strokes, you took his cock in your mouth, and he let out a tiny groan.

“Yes, baby girl. You are a little slut for my cock, huh? My little cock slut,” his bottom lip was tugged in between his teeth as he made a makeshift ponytail with your hair. You took him farther into your mouth and let out a moan which sent vibrations down his dick. “Mmm.”

After you gagged around his cock for minutes on end, you lifted your head up and gave him an innocent look. “Daddy?”

“What do you want, slut?”

You looked at Ji-hoon. His eyes were wide open, glued on you. And he was embarrassed because when you looked down, you could see a tent in his pants. He was turned on by this, and to your surprised, that urged you on. “Can you fuck me, daddy?”

“What makes you think you deserve to have my cock?” He reached down and took your breasts in his hand. He squeezed and fondled them which caused you to squirm.

“B-because, ahh, aren’t we putting on a show for Ji-hoon?” Ugh, you were sick. You were disgusting. You were as bad Moon-jo. Were you enjoying this? Your boyfriend was, and you were scared that you were turning just like him.

A smile spread across his lips while he tweaked your nipple. “We are, aren’t we? I think you are actually enjoying this. You sick bitch. But you’re mysick bitch. I’ve taught you well. Get on all fours on the bed. Now.”

You looked at Ji-hoon before you scurried on the bed. Seeing him tied up with no way to escape made you wet; and you hate to admit that. After getting on all fours, your eyes looking into your ex’s, you waited patiently for Moon-jo. He was securing the restraints which held Ji-hoon to the chair, “Stay…” Moon-jo told his victim, and of course Ji-hoon obeyed due to the fear which was running through his veins. “Good boy.” Your boyfriend ran his hand down the face of the restrained man.

You were excited, and so so obedient that Moon-jo rewarded you with hard slap on the ass. You jolted in pleasure as your back arched in the air due to his touch. “Oh yes. You always make me feel so good…”

“But I haven’t even been inside you yet,” Moon-jo’s cocky spirt made way as he looked at Ji-hoon, “Did you ever make her feel this good?” Ji-hoon looked down in shame. “That is what I thought… Y/N belongs to me. You get that?” Moon-jo lined himself up with your pussy from behind. Both you and your boyfriend were in a position to where you both faced Ji-hoon. And when Moon-jo pushed inside you, you didn’t care about Ji-hoon, all you cared about was the huge cock which was stretching you wide open.

“Oh, daddy…” you moaned out of pure pleasure. Ji-hoon squirmed in his chair, not knowing how to respond to his ex getting fucked by her psychopath boyfriend. Moon-jo thrusted into you with no restraint. In and out. In and out. Over and over and over again. You just wished you could see your naked boyfriend, who was fucking you doggy style, instead of your ex who was continuously squirming his chair. “Stop moving, Ji-hoon! I’ll fucking kill you if you don’t stop moving!” You never would have expected those words to leave your mouth, but they did. Did you regret them? No, not one bit. Moon-jo paused his thrusting and a loud moan erupted from his lips.

“You wanna kill him, hmm?” Your boyfriend questioned as surprise filled his voice.

“He… he is being annoying.”

“Oh fuck. You make me so hard, my little psychotic slut. I was going to edge you until you cry, but I am so proud of you,” he started thrusting with such power that you threw your head back as he kissed your lips with passion. “No torture today. You can cum whenever you want too.” But there was always something he wanted to test out, and Ji-hoon’s jealous gaze urged him on. So he removed his hands from your hip dips and wrapped them around your throat. He squeezed your throat, stopping your breathing. You gasped, and gasped, and gasped, and then out of no where, you came. Your juices soaked the bed sheets underneath you as pleasure over took your whole body. Moon-jo let go of your throat, grasped onto your hips, and thrusted into you, trying to reach his high.

“Baby, baby, baby, baby. Please…” You moaned, urging him on.

“I’m coming for you. Fuck… You want me to come inside you? Mmm? You want to get pregnant with my children? Want to get big and heavy, walking around with my seed inside you? I own you, Y/N. You want me to mark you as mine?” Moon-jo spanked your ass and when you moaned a “Yes,” his cum coated your insides. All you cared about was him… He fled your thoughts. And you forgot that Ji-hoon watched this whole thing.

Your body dropped limped on the mattress while Moon-jo petted your hair. “Good girl…”

Once you regained your sense, you looked up at your boyfriend with a look which he had never seen prior. “What are we waiting for?” you asked as Moon-jo’s eyebrow rose in confusion.

“What are you talking about, baby?”

“Aren’t we going to kill him?” you questioned your boyfriend as your innocent eyes looked into his. And the smirk that once scared you spread across his face. "I think those nice pearly whites which sit in his mouth would make a great bracelet," once that suggestion left your mouth, your boyfriend became so happy he thought he could burst. That was right up his alley.

“We are.” And he let out his psychopathic laugh, you joined. Ji-hoon knew it was the end for him. But Ji-hoon wasn’t the only victim, you were too. You became like him, and that is all he wanted.

hope you enjoyed!

with much love,

a writer from no where:)

#seo moon jo #stranger from hell #seo moonjo x reader #kdrama #lee dong wook #one shot #reader insert #seo moonjo #fanfiction

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sofarraway · 3 years

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The Rashomon effect: when the same event is described in significantly different—often contradictory—ways.

It's pretty clear how things ended in the webtoon. But not really in the live-action adaptation. After all, it doesn't make sense that Seo Moonjo said almost the exact same words twice. They couldn't both be real, nor could they both be hallucinations. One had to be real, while the other had to be a mere hallucination—which was practically Jongwoo's attempt to lie to himself. Just like what they said in the Rashomon, "It's human to lie. Most of the time we can't even be honest with ourselves." So Jongwoo hunted down everyone else there, killed them one by one. Then went back to the 4th floor, where Moonjo and unconscious Jieun waited. He freaked out when he realized that he, too, enjoyed killing. Moonjo touched his neck, praised him, and then left him there. To his broken mind, to him hallucinating—and that's when Jieun regained her consciousness, witnessing her boyfriend got lost into his own delusion. Nevertheless, I have to emphasize here that Jongwoo never tried to trick his mind into believing that Moonjo killed all those residents. He was fully aware of what he's doing, and even thrilled when he did it. The only thing he was hallucinating about was him killing Moonjo. Because in his mind, killing him was the only way to end this madness. The only way to 'save himself'.

With the theory above, everything would be in line. Everything would make perfect sense. Except for the facts that the detective practically announced Moonjo's death to the thug, and for Officer Soh's reaction when she saw Moonjo at the hospital *sigh in delusional*. (Well she seemed so sure it was just hallucination. Besides, that's not how a police supposed to react to seeing a fugitive, wasn't it)

So I guess it's the other way around: the killing was real, and the living and breathing Moonjo that Jongwoo saw when they're in the torturing room was hallucination. But that doesn't really fit into the puzzles, in my opinion. Because Moonjo's hair was wet when Jongwoo killed him (while Jongwoo's hair was supposed to be the wet one, since he was the one who went to the rooftop). It doesn't make sense that Officer Soh hallucinated about him either, she was mostly assaulted by Nambok instead of Moonjo. She's not traumatized enough—at least not by Moonjo—to hallucinate him.

If I want to keep my delusions, I can say that the detectives lied to the thug to make sure he told them nothing but the truth. I can say that they also didn't tell Officer Soh that Moonjo survived because they didn't want to involve her even further into the case. I can also say that the police filtered the information that went to the media about a fugitive running lose. But all those would be too... irresponsible to be real? Haha.

And if I really really really want to keep my delusions... I can say that both versions of the event only happened in Jongwoo's head (especially considering what happened in the webtoon). Sksksks halluciception skakjdheuf.

#strangers from hell #hell is other people #lee dong wook #im siwan #seo moon jo #yoon jong woo #by me #rambling of the day #rashomon #is this spoiler #by farr #did he call him honey too in these scenes

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gongwookie · 3 years

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i'm super into the comment the pd for strangers from hell made about seo moonjo not being his real name. it would be interesting if he stole a dentist's identity instead of going to dental school. also kind of explains why he doesn't have an id pic at the end but the others do (except kihyuk) since his face wouldn't show up when looking for that seo moonjo, and that picture was readily on hand at the office

#strangers from hell #tagging i guess ;v;#is this a theory or am i just brainstorming about a fic i may or may not write stay tooned

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farraway · 3 years

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Seo Moonjo is not one to ask for love, even less beg for it. But Jongwoo is an exception. He's always the exception. He's very special to him, his beloved, and he never minds to admit that, from the very first time they met until now. And he knows that Jongwoo knows that. Moonjo always makes it clear how much he means to him and how far he would go for this man, because he has gone far enough—killing 2 men impulsively, taking people as hostages, letting his family died, faking all the evidences, faking his own death—all for fear of losing his darling.

So when Jongwoo turns his back on him, he can't help but grab his wrist, forcing the smaller man to face him again. "I did everything for you." Almost just a whisper, pain and anger and frustration are thinly veiled in his voice.

Jongwoo only scoffs at that. He looks at him in the eyes, "And when, exactly, did I ever asked for all of those?" Moonjo freezes at that. "I have no intention to enter the life that you’re living in," Jongwoo continues, lips curved into a disdainful little smile, "so count me out."

He jerks Moonjo's hand off of him and walk away.

#strangers from hell #fic #another fic based on my own mental breakdown sksksk

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braceletofteeth · 2 years

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is that the aroace flag in your icon? can you talk about why you chose it for moonjo? genuinely interested in your hc for him

Hello, anon!

Yes, that would be correct. This is the most popular flag used by aromantic asexuals. I’m happy that you recognized it, and I’m glad you asked about my headcanon, because so far I’ve talked about it here and there, but, until now, I’ve never delved much in the subject (to people other than myself).

The reason why I chose the aroace flag for Seo Moonjo is because I believe he may be part of both the asexual and aromantic spectrums, for not experiencing sexual and romantic attractions, or experiencing them in a way that comes as non-traditional in comparison to that of allosexual and alloromantic people.

To begin with, when it comes to sexual attraction, I feel inclined to say he feels it absentmindedly, faintly, or that he generally doesn’t experience it. He may be able to recognize when a body is aesthetically pleasing by common public criteria, or in his own criterion (if he has that), but he doesn’t necessarily feel an urge to do something about it (**sexually, I must specify, because Moonjo, being Moonjo, may still desire to work on a body in some artistic/intellectual capacity, in response to his compulsion to break and rebuild things (that’s not the topic in hand, though, so let’s save it for another day)).

That’s the default, I’d say, but only in general conditions. And I put it that way, with room for change, for exceptions, because I also believe that the possibility of Moonjo’s sexual attraction would rely on context. It would depend not on how physically attractive a person is (considered to be), but rather in specific circumstances / a specific connection.

Therefore, because the nature of this type attraction is conditional (to something beyond gender), I often refer to Moonjo’s sexuality as “graysexual” (sexual attraction depends on particular circumstances) or “demisexual” (sexual attraction only becomes a possibility after some type of connection is formed).

Despite these personal preferences, I have also seen another plausible term being brought up inside the fandom to refer to Moonjo’s sexuality, being it, for your information’s sake, encephalosexual, which is also a sexuality under the umbrella of the ace spectrum, and refers to individuals that need to feel a mental attraction towards someone, or bond intellectually with them, in order to later develop sexual attraction. This “intellectual bond” can be formed over shared wisdom, interests, aspirations, hobbies, etc., and even though not all of us are convinced Moonjo is part of the asexual spectrum, everyone was a witness to Moonjo and Jongwoo’s intellectual bond, so this idea has a strong theoretical foundation.

In all honesty, I don’t worry much about the label. The most important part I usually focus on is the fact that Moonjo experiences (or doesn't) sexual attraction different than most, which is enough to define oneself as asexual, even if a person is not completely sure about what “different” implies in their case.

Now, moving on, in regards to Moonjo’s aromanticism... I must first admit that I’ve only recently come to terms with it. Before, I was torn between thinking “no way someone can fall in love so easily, so fast, and be aromantic” and acknowledging that he had too many aromantic traits to be anything but aromantic.

One of the factors that helped me end the conflict was my reexamination of an older headcanon, about Moonjo already feeling romantically attracted to Jongwoo during their first meeting. Lately, in contradiction to that, I have been giving more credit to the idea of him gradually falling in love through the week, as Jongwoo’s true self distinguished him from Moonjo’s past projects.

It made me consider that, in alignment with his sexual attraction, perhaps his romantic attraction could also depend on specific circumstances / bonds.

And to that conclusion some people may reply “well, wasn’t that an obvious leap?”, to which I feel obligated to clarify here that, although for allosexual and alloromantic people their sexual and romantic attractions are almost always aligned with each other, with aroaces is a common thing to find discrepancies between one and the other. We should never assume that someone’s romantic attraction defines their sexual attraction, and vice versa.

Still speaking of Moonjo’s romantic attraction, now. It may be infrequent, but it isn’t feeble, when he does feel it. For some aromantics, especially grayromantics, it can come as a light pull, easily dismissed and forgettable, but that didn't seem to be Moonjo’s case.

Let’s keep in mind, however, that Moonjo, being aromantic, may have a hard time distinguishing (what he thinks that is) romantic attraction from something else, which could be another type of attraction (platonic, aesthetic), an obsession, or a different desire. His desire for (worthy) companionship, for example, could have led him to want a romantic relationship, despite never having felt romantic attraction in the past. It could have led him (as well as me) to imagine he had fallen in love, when in reality it could have been nothing more than “wishful thinking”.

It can be hard to tell the difference. When you're aromantic, the line between what is romantic and what is non-romantic may be unclear, which brings you to draw your own line, come up with your own definition of romantic love (that you may or may not be favorable to), or accept the definition of others, even if you don’t understand it, or if their definition makes you indifferent or repulsed by the idea of romance.

Moonjo appears to me like someone who came up with his very own definition of love, in order to explain what he felt—an unfamiliar feeling, difficult to place, because he had no precedent of his to compare it to. Perhaps he had felt something similar in the past, but not quite like it; never directed at someone. Only things—not people (and the things that were once people didn’t count; the craving and the fascination were of a different kind, a new kind).

... And that’s pretty much it for this headcanon? I hope it made sense to you, anon. I’m sorry for using many terms you may not be familiar with, I tried to explain them to the best of my capabilities. If you have any doubts, or any questions at all (about this subject or something else), feel free to sent me another ask at any time.

Bye <3

#answered #strangers from hell #took me two non-consencutive days to write this but two months to approve it #still feels like I'm missing something but I can't figure out what #explaining the aroace experience through someone else's perspective is very hard I discovered #even if the person is Moonjo and I've been studying his mind for a long time now #I feel like I got a little lost by the end..........#why is romantic attraction so complicated 😩 I act like I know how it works but hdhjxjxhdh WHO knows

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i-am-just-a-kiddo · 3 years

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ten favorite characters from ten different things

i was tagged by @vishcount, thank you dear 💖

i’m listing characters from shows i’ve watched in 2021 so far, otherwise this tag game would be impossible to finish. there is no specific order. am also following your example and putting some song for them? it’s usually just smth i associate with them.

tagging @intyalote, @sassyassassy, @the-cloud-whisperer, @cortue and @isabellaofparma - as always, no pressure! just thought you might wanna scream abt your faves

excuse my rambling:

Matteo Florenzi / DRUCK

well, where do i start? choosing one character from druck is so incredibly difficult. i wanted to put david here but in the end i was torn between our mains fatou and matteo - well, here is my trash son now. i don’t know how else to put it other than he is what i was in highschool. the beauty of skam and its remakes is that they show you something so close to your own life and when i watched druck’s season 3, every episode just hit me like a damn truck. and yes, i absolutely adore david and i wish he had gotten his own season because i guess i would relate to him even more so, but matteo? is made of the same stuff as me. gosh how his struggles resonated with me, how he is so flawed but he is truly trying his best. he is such an asshole sometimes but i can’t be mad at him because i know in my worst moment’s i’ve been there too. he is so tired and so scared and in the end, he just wants to love and be accepted.

🎵 Ich geh heut nicht mehr tanzen by AnnenMayKantereit

Lee Rang / The Tale of the Nine Tailed

this list is going to include a lot of questionable characters but let’s start here, shall we? honestly, i don’t even think he is questionable, i simply adore him with all my heart. going into this show, i did not expect to be absolutely destroyed by his story and the bond he shares with his big brother. lee rang is the classic case of good person who lost their way because they were betrayed but holy shit, does it hurt? all he’s ever wanted was a family and to not be left alone and yet, life turned against him and he decided to turn against the world. i can’t think about the ending of this show without tearing up so i just want to say: when lee rang found a family, suddenly he felt like he could heal, like he could live. fuck everything. (as you see i am hurt)

🎵 Hurt by Oliver Tree

"Teh" Krittikorn Saetan / I Told Sunset About You & I Promised You the Moon

i started watching ipytm only yesterday so i can’t talk about it (except that i’ve already cried through the first two episodes goddamnit), so this is based on the perfection that is sunset. i was torn between oh and teh because both of them are so incredibly vivid and precious in their own way, but in the end i chose teh because he feels so incredibly real to me. i am completely amazed at the work the actor and the director put into his character, i think of it whenever i see him on screen. teh is a character with so many intense, overwhelming emotions and it makes him into a very multi-facetted person - in a sense that he always stays fundamentally himself, but that sometimes he just can’t control where his intense emotions will take him? sometimes i curse at him, sometimes i ache, sometimes i am so afraid for him, and in the end i smile when he smiles and i cry when he cries. he is so good, as a person and as protagonist character. i want to kiss everyone that was involved in making him real. (also i wonder if i am the only one headcanoning him as somewhere on the autism spectrum? it just screams to me and i wanna cry with love)

🎵 Mind If I Stay by KADEBOSTANY

Seo Moonjo / Strangers From Hell

here we go, my first problematic fave. my dearest bastard. my sleep paralysis demon. my mr. dentist, how i kept telling vishie while yelling about him - i’m still so sorry about that. this is the classic case of ‘god i hate that i adore this guy’ because apparently i am not immuned to sexy villains. to defend myself however, i truly think he is one of the best villains i saw in a while? he is so deeply unsettling and charming in the same breath, i adore what they have done with him. i don’t want to keep comparing this show to nbc’s hannibal but seo moonjo and hannibal just share this amazing quality of being completely, utterly deranged while sincerely loving and believing their own principles. i don’t know how to put it, but seo moonjo is not a loveless man, he is not full of hate against the whole world, instead he is convinced that the world fits into his palm and that it’s his plaything, that he simply is so much better and that no one can match him. he is an ArtistTM and who can blame the man, he just wants to do his art for god’s sake. bless. i got no excuses for myself

🎵 Chlorine by Twenty One Pilots

Zhang Cha Cha / The Journey Across the Night

i used a promo picture cause i couldn’t find gifs - this show needs so much more recognition, i am sad. still want to thank vishie for introducing it to me ❤ i adore the entire main cast but gosh, cha cha ripped my heart out. i knew her actress from original sin so i had a soft spot for her from the beginning and from there it just went downhill. i think she is the best written female character i’ve seen in a c-drama (if we exclude nirvana in fire) and her story absolutely broke me. i loved the energy she brought, her bubbly and lively attitude, covering the depths she sometimes retreats to. i guess her fear of being vulnerable and open speaks to me so damn much. i felt her anger at her friends when they tried to intervene - and i am glad she opened up to them! but gosh i’ve struggled with the same and seeing it on her broke my heart. my brain is mush when it comes to her because in the end i can’t put into words why she stole my heart like this. the whole show did, and i’m so happy vish was willing to share this with me

🎵 Spiaca Krolewan - Marta Bijan

Tian Sopasitsakun / A Tale of Thousand Stars

i almost forgot about my son! i don’t know if i have much to say about him? i just enjoyed the whole journey of atots so much, i was so excited for it every week. it felt so lovely and sincere and it had so much more than just a calssic BL trope. it truly allowed to just settle into the world they built and i think tian was the perfect protagonist for that? i remember yelling about this show to vish and i’m not really sure what i said about tian but i remember i was so full of love for him and the way he was potrayed. this whole show was just so magical.

🎵 Where the sea sleeps(파도가 끝나는 곳까지) by DAY6

Zhan Junbai / Killer and Healer

i don’t fucking know mate. let’s list all the reasons i hate this guy: he is a power-hungry, manipulative, corrupt finance shark that uses all his influence to get away with everything. everything i hate in a politician, public figure, and person in power. but also i love this asshole? i guess i explain it that way: i enjoyed killer and healer a lot and i loved the other main leads and the supporting characters, but in the end this guy’s scenes captured my interest the most. doesn’t help that his tension with yu tangchun was so delicious and that he finally showed a silver of humanity when he was with him. vishie must have been tired of me constantly yelling about this shark boy while they were crying over the main couple’s angst? he is just a very interesting character and he absolutely hated that he was in love with this opera singer. secretely however, he always wished he was emperor ai and that yu tangchun was dong xian.

🎵 Bad Karma by Axel Thesleff

Nishi Yuuki / Life: Senjou no Bokura

while this entire show made me cry my heart out, i remember sobbing at this scene so much - nishi finally reaching out, allowing himself to be vulnerable, reciprocating the feelings ito is giving to him so openly. most of the characters that are on this list hold a little piece of myself but watching this character on screen exposed me in a way that felt way too real. i sort of don’t want to go into depth but if you’ve seen the show, maybe you understand what i mean. i see so much of myself in him it frightens me

🎵 Sweet Hurricane by Phum Viphurit

Wang Zhi / The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty

oh hey, my second favourite bitch. while i wish tsomd had explored their characters more in depth, what i got for wang zhi was enough to make me cry (yes i rate my affections for things by how much i cry about them). this too, was lovely to watch with vish and i remember telling them that i loved how wang zhi was the second most powerful character of this show but also the most vulnerable of them all. i love how he knows to navigate himself around, how he has this certain confidence when he faces other people, but in the end he dismisses himself in many ways. it hurts the most when he see how tang fan has this found family gathering around him and wang zhi just? knows he won’t be a part of it, even if deep down he sees how lovely and healing it is. he’s just already decided he will be alone and accepts it (not convincing tho when he refuses to leave the guy who betrays him behind, just saying. i love you)

🎵 Shahmaran by SEVDALIZA

Wen Kexing / Word Of Honor

and here he is, my favourite bitch!! i’m happy i found gifs of the scene that made me fall head over heels in love with him. it’s been months and i am still unapologetically wen kexing trash. it’s interesting how characters that live a completely different life and have a very different past than yourself feel so close, as if someone had carved them out of your chest? yeah. vishie keeps telling me i have a type and i just?? i am so confused. why does this guy make me ache so much, why do i feel so personally attacked? i could psycho-analyse myself but am not gonna do it here in front of ya’ll. other than that, who doesn’t like a sexy unhinged murderer that is a huge softie and part-time teen mom in reality. his bond with gu xiang is a specially raw spot for me. also wow, wen kexing in the novel hurts me just as much. yeah there’s no words left in my brain now, just take it.

🎵 The Light Pt. II by BROCKHAMPTON

my brain is mush, but this was nice? i hope any of this was coherent lol. if any of you bothered to read it i congratulate you

(honorary mentions: qingming from the yin yang master, gu xiang from word of honor, tang fan from the sleuth of ming dynasty, fatou jallow from druck, chishiya shuntaro from alice in borderland)

#WHAT IS MY TYPE VISH #TELL ME #hhhhh #my brain melted out of my head towards the end fghjkk #thanks for tagging me this took me three hours and it was amazing #tag game #personal

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flowcrsoul · 4 years

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@personnages asked : 🎰 👀 - SEND 🎰 FOR ME TO PUT OUR MUSES INTO A RANDOM LIST GENERATOR THEN POST THE FIRST FIVE AS POTENTIAL SHIPS! (ACCEPTING!)

cheng yu x nikolushka : honestly my default vibes for nikolushka is Tiny Baby so I’m??? Cheng Yu can be chaos babysitter though, esp in modern.

mei changsu x kirill akhrosimov : oh goodness, barring the fact that kirill is kinda hella married and idk if he swings that way - IDK I can maybe see it? regardless of how we end up merging universe, in terms of sheer personality, they’re both quiet thinkers (overthinkers, shhh) but mei changsu’s got a bit more. Biting edge, I guess. They’d probably get along as...War Buddies, uh, in any case.

violet evergarden x andrei bolkonsky : gosh, finally one that doesn’t require a t o n of wrangling for them to end up in the same-ish universe together, goodness. Um, well, I...? Can maybe sort of see it? But also not necessarily. They both Bring the War Home so to speak and I think they both need to heal and around each other I’m not sure that’s possible. They could be friends though? She could write letters for him, pffffff.

ji euntak x anna rostova : once more, barring the fact that anna’s hella married and idk if she swings that way/idk how to merge these universes except in modern - uh, euntak probably reminds her of a younger sister? baby sees-ghosts girl could use a big sister tbh : ‘ D

seo moonjo x lise bolkonskaya : oh g o d get the evil trashman AWAY from the tiny baby cinnamon roll. seriously lise, you see this man, you RUN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION, man’s a damn serial killer -

#personnages #i. » ooc : you swore and said we are not shining stars . this I know . I never said we are .#((weLL ship roulette is aLWAYS FUN))

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sofarraway · 2 years

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Seo Moonjo as INTJ

These days I've been into MBTI, especially since apparently the official MBTI of Seo Moonjo is ENTJ. Which I don't really agree. I'm not gonna pretend like I'm an expert on this, but I want to ramble about what I think :D

ENTJ's cognitive functions are Te Ni Se Fi. But to me, Moonjo is more of an INTJ whose cognitive functions are exactly the same but with different order: Ni Te Fi Se.

Introverted Intuition (Ni) as dominant

It’s his dom cognitive function I think. He has such a deep and scarily accurate intuition. He’s also has this ability to effortlessly predict what’s gonna happen in the future. He looks for meanings behind things, not at face value. This cognitive function was shown the most clearly when he met Jongwoo at the rooftop on ep 2: he only saw Jongwoo for a couple of times yet he already recognized the potentials in him. Or when he immediately understood Jongwoo’s weakness (his neck) when Jongwoo told him about the protagonist in his novel.

Also since he has high Ni, once he decides on something, it’s hard for him to be swayed from it. He just focuses himself on the thing until he gets what he wants. Just like how he’s so hyper focused on getting Jongwoo in his hands, even though the people around him were clearly not supporting that idea. And also remember when he said “once I bite, I never let go” to Jongwoo? Yeah.

It’s also the reason why at times he can appear to be “empathic” despite of being an Fi, me think? Since he can immediately understand how other people think and predict their next move? I’m not sure about this part tbh

Extroverted Thinking (Te) as auxiliary

Well he’s indeed very logical in his thinking, and that logic often can be easily understood even by us who don’t share the same value with him.

He’s also very organized, systematic, and efficient with everything he does. Especially in manipulating Jongwoo (along with his Ni). It takes him only a week what takes Hannibal years to get sksksks. The Te in him helps to effectively use what his Ni has gathered.

This aux function acts as a servant/provider to his dom function (Ni), to strategically and systematically execute/apply the information/visions he gets from his Ni function. As in he does things (Te) for a reason (Ni).

It’s also the reason he likes Raymond Chandler’s novels, I think. Tho I’m not sure whether he really likes them or just lies to get closer to Jongwoo :D

Introverted Feeling (Fi) as tertiary

He has unshakeable unbreakable unshiftable value that he uses as moral compass. As a guide in his daily life. Every single thing he does is based on this value of him. From the way he puts on a mask every single day as a saint-like doctor, the reason he presents himself the way he does to people around him, to the way he expresses himself genuinely when no one is around, they are all based on this value. And that value/moral is the art of torturing/murdering/shaping other human beings.

He obviously has his own moral value that is different from the rest of us and he’s very individualistic in that matter. But since it’s not one of his higher functions, it’s not as fully developed yet (or practically underdeveloped in his case sksks), he hasn’t learned to balance it and therefore he doesn’t really respect the society’s moral value. Tho he still can have empathy towards those who experience things that he himself has experienced.

This function is also the one that makes him like Metamorphosis by Kafka me think? And art?

Extroverted Sensing (Se) as inferior

I’m actually not sure about this because I don’t think it’s his dom/aux cognitive function and because overall he’s more of an intuitive than a sensor. And the director never really showed us what’s in his mind (except that one time when he was being super Ni when he met Jongwoo at the rooftop sksksk), but to me he doesn’t seem much of an Si.

As an inferior Se user, it throws him off balance, making him super duper Ni. In ordinary circumstances, he is future oriented, he sticks to a specific plan/vision, and that makes him not impulsive, makes him stubbornly stick to 1 thing. Very in control, very cold-headed. But under stress, when you poke him with a stick too much, it would manifest in such an immature way. Boiled up in a wrathful way. Just like when he killed the twin and Jaeho. He was being impulsive and killed them, both because of the pressure to protect Jongwoo.

Also he’s an Se in the sense that he likes to create things with his hands. But since this function is lower than the others, it’s filtered by the other functions (especially his Fi, I think?) and manifest as his fondness of making teeth jewelries.

Him being an ENTJ doesn't make any sense to me because Moonjo is always so focused in his own value/moral/conscience/individualism in his every day life, while ENTJ has inferior Fi (which means that function of him doesn't work as good as the other higher functions). Everything he does is based on his value, it just doesn't make sense that he has inferior Fi. And I also don't think he's an extrovert. Every single thing coming out of his mouth is for a reason, not because he genuinely enjoys/gets energy by being with other people. And unlike ENTJ, he's the type of leader who remains behind the scene, he even had Kihyuk as front-facing to do that role for him.

#strangers from hell #rambling of the day #seo moon jo #seo moonjo #hell is other people

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braceletofteeth · 2 years

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Ten characters I fell in love with in 2021

I really wanted to do this when I saw it for the first time, but told myself to wait at least a week. If no one tagged me, then I'd do it anyway. But a few days ago, an ANGEL, @adithemadfangirl, did it <3 I was SO happy, thank you so much, darling! <3

*This list is in no particular order. It'd be too cruel to ask me to rank them.

1. Yoon Jongwoo (Strangers From Hell)

He's so small, it's like having a cute little bunny in the palm of your hand. Except this one can, wants to, and will kill you.

He's confusing and deceitful, but I'd be lying if I said it doesn't make me love him even more.

2. Yook Dongsik (Psychopath Diary)

THE LEGEND. Makes you think he's an ordinary clown but then you find out he's actually the owner of the circus and all the clowns wanna BE him, BEFRIEND him, or KISS him on the mouth.

(A true inspiration. Has the most satisfying character development of all time).

3. Eve Polastri (Killing Eve)

Beautiful mess. I want to sit back and watch mesmerized while she does normal stuff, like chop some onions or smother someone to death.

4. Ryu Sooyeol (Bad And Crazy)

Facial expressions are A+. He's a good son and a good wife.

Also mentally ill (to add some spice!).

I've only had this wimpy detective for a month, but you can pry him from my cold, dead hands.

5. Shintarō Midorima (Kuroko no Basuke)

60-years-old-grandpa trapped in the body of a teenager. Nerdy and grumpy. Makes you covet his respect more than his affection.

Even his superstitions are endearing.

6. Lee Dongsik (Beyond Evil)

Has anyone that met him not been marked for life?

7. President Gu (Life)

The last decent bussinessman standing. Could make an empire out of nothing, out of absolute chaos. He commits fully. Wanna get on his way? Better have an alphabet worth of backup plans (because he sure does!).

... He's also thoughtful and kindhearted. Much more than you'd think :(

8. Oksana Astankova/Villanelle (Killing Eve)

I missed her voice every day for weeks after I finished Killing Eve. I could hear her accent all the time and never get tired of it. She's the one I have the most of a good time with, doesn't matter where she's at or what she's doing.

Everyone is underdressed in her presence.

She made some mistakes but memory is a funny thing haha, I don't remember any of it ?? :)

9. Seo Inwoo (Psychopath Diary)

Pathetic. Main cause of his own problems. Has Family Issues (as in his whole family is a fucking issue). Has the cutest crow laugh. Usually calm and collected but all his brain cells check out when his hand is held by another man.

Heinous, horrible individual, in serious need of jail time—but not for too long, because then I miss him :(

10. Seo Moonjo (Strangers From Hell)

Annoying. The reason why I know petnames in eleven different languages.

Made a home in my head, infests it with weird thoughts like a parasite. Never leaves; therefore, I'm never alone.

[Honorable mentions:

XI. Luke Brandon (Confessions of a Shopaholic)

I was on my extended Hugh Dancy Era when I came across this guy. I would say his name and no one would know who the fuck he was.

He tries to advise poor people that are being fooled by rich assholes. He's a lawful good that cares deeply about things like "honesty" and "credibility". How could I resist?

XII. Lee Yeon (Tale of the Nine-Tailed)

Gave my favorite fox (Tomoe) a run for his money.

I love how he keeps getting dangerously attached to a lot of people despite his 'I don't give a shit' personality.

Extra points for having a cool sword.]

I'm tagging @softneomirotic @somebodycallixii @mangodelorean @jentonic @smiley-wookie and @chhagiya if any of you guys haven't done it yet and would like too <3

#tag game #I really wanted to do this one aaaaaa #is it obvious that I love this kind of thing #please keep tagging me I really don't mind <3 #oh I need to give a little explanation here:#I watched SFH at the end of 2020 but only allowed myself to really dive in the story and the characters in 2021 #that's why Moonjo and Jongwoo are on this list #it's hard to imagine now #but I don't think they would have made the cut in 2020 lol #for 2022 I wish MORE WOMEN #and by god I will find them

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