#gaystraight

[losergendered]

ID: a set of two images. the first is of strade from boyfriend to death with a white outline in front of a flag splice of his listed identities. the second is a blank flag splice. END ID

Strade from Boyfriend to Death is a cis man, gorture, mspec gay, mspec straight, gaystraight, and hypersexual!

For @gender-mailman !

#gorture #mspec gay #mspec straight #gaystraight #mogai #mogai headcanon

[strawberrybabydog]

realizing im a lesbian has genuinely been one of the most life-ruining things ive experienced so far :0(

i dont think i know any other lesbians

i am a baby dyke. who likes a baby dyke? apparently nobody. i dont seem to fit into ANY lesbian spaces because i'm green but how do i become not green without experience? apparently i need 10 years experience for an entry-level job :0(??

how... do i even find other lesbians irl? "gay bar" ok first off why would i ever go to a bar. also im pretty sure those dont exist where i live

do i love lesbians because i hate and am traumatized by men or do i love lesbians because im normal. only one answer actually makes me a lesbian

if im not lesbian what am i? :0( i dont want to Just be asexual, that doesnt Mean anything

lesbians are fucking scary. i used to follow 10 sapphic-centric blogs but.... theyre always talking about how horrible/annoying other lesbians are over discourse ive never heard of, meaning, im probably participating in it without knowing

oh yeah. that too. i know nothing about lesbians. and being a lesbian. apparently when you're a lesbian you have to know every single piece of sapphic literature and every lesbian of history or you're bad and stupid and dont deserve to be talked to

it really feels like being hetero is free and easy, like you dont have to think about it you just Love Someone, but being queer is hard and energy-consuming and you have no choice but to dedicate the rest of your life to learning and knowing every single piece of sapphic-centered discourse. it seems like being a lesbian has more to do with knowing facts about historic lesbianism than it has to do with loving another lesbian and i'm sooooo not interested in being queer for the sake of discourse i just want to kiss a lady or whatever but thats not allowed until i pass my lesbian exam that every other lesbian passed 20 years ago

idk. maybe all of this confusion means im not a lesbian. i think if i really was sapphic i'd know the answers to this stuff already, researching would be easy and enjoyable..... but the master lesbian google doc..... idk... it seems like being sapphic requires more than just "Girls Kinda Pretty" and that is awful to me. i dont want to spend 4 years in lesbian university studying lesbianism just to get my lesbian degree so i can kiss a girl. i want to just kiss a girl Now why do i need a masters degree?? why do i have to study and earn and prove my place in a society where i thought the bottom line was Kiss Girls And Chill

"community history is important" i agree but why do i need to know all of this shit First, Before i am a lesbian. why cant i kiss ladies and research at the same time. idfk. idk anymore. i just want to love my gf. why am i 22 trying to figure out my sexuality when everyone i know did it when we were 14, how is that fair to me?? im sorry for being a late bloomer i dont know what you want from me

#i think to other lesbians im always going to be That Bisexual who only dates men but never shuts up about loving women #but its deeper than that. those were longterm relationships. nobody i know irl was ever queer in a way where we could have a relationship #i dont know if im a lesbian but i know how nervous i get around a hot butch or a hot femme #i dont know if im a lesbian but i can describe to you every butch ive ever had a crush on #i dont know if im a lesbian but i think in grade 3 i was trying to impress that pretty girl for reasons beyond wanting to be friends #i dont know if im a lesbian but i am head over heels in love with my gf #i dont know i just dont know anymore i feel like a failure #everyone else had their sexyality figured out at 14 and im 22 #i hated going to the gaystraight alliance at my high school because they would buly me for not being gay enough when the teacher wasnt there #maybe its true maybe they knew better than me that im faking it or something #but on more than one occassion in hs i had classmates beefing about my sexuality i wish i was making this up #ive been told i have a lesbian voice i have lesbian vibes but i dont know if thats true especially if my actual queer friends didnt see it #i feel like im failing myself and every queer person ever i feel like every other lesbian just hates me so much and im so sorry #not dog #personal #big feelings

[borderline-purrsonality]

Not so friendly reminder that nonbinary is an umbrella term and NOT a third gender and if I see any of y’all treating it as one it’s on sight

#juno sayings #nonbinary #trans #serious stuff #been seeing binary people exclude enbies from their own label too #bigender people are a part of the nonbinary umbrella! #you don’t say ‘well im gaystraight because im bisexual so im half straight half gay’ #im multigender and tired of yall using us in discourse when you have no idea what you’re talking about! #goodnight

[grieg]

#they were gaystraight

[autism-corner]

i need to stay awake.... ive got bread to eat.....

#some stuff is nearly out of date so my mom is making 9pm garlic bread <3 #thats what i have in mind at least idk what itll actually be =3=b #augh im so excited..... #but im also soso sleepy i wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz #but bread...... #its a big day for jace (me) tomorrow so i deserve it..... #hmmm..... #i love that reference btw -> big day for jace <- its so fun o7 #shoutout to '36 questions' the musical podcast =w=bb gaystraight divorce <33 #you wouldnt get it..... #anyway!! bread!!!! #sillyposting

[lettuce-tv]

wait is coscule like cosplaying??

nope

#talking lettuce #listen its fine. its fine ok. its fine. i dont have an online gaystraight boyfriend and joke fight with aer other boyfriends who ae has.- #-close your eyes. its not real close your eyes please please pl #ask to tag

[sunforgrace]

this is what long term exposure to the unique radioactive properties of the gaystraight media of supernatural does to you. people will ship the real life ?No and guy who loves attention for years. guy who loves attention will come out as bisexual and walk it back three days later. like jesus. two other actor men announce GAY MARRIAGE and it has you questioning is there a joke here i am not getting. perhaps they mean it as friends.. long term exposure to supernatural mutates your genes into a roommate calling historian

#my thoughts. on the matter

[nokingsonlyfooles]

November Kelly mentioned this test in the latest WTYP. It is TERRIBLE! Still, they clocked me! I guess...?

I don't think "nonbinary" was a word when this was invented! "Androgyne transgenderist." Kinda feels like being classified as a "horseless carriage"! Still, at least they were willing to give me the space to be "possibly neither." God, but most of those questions are fucking insulting. They did NOT account for people who might not have a penis and/or testicles. Among many other things.

Having tripped over this use of "androgyne" which is contemporary with Hedwig and the Angry Inch, now I kinda wanna punch Abigail Thorn for confining that to a binary trans read. I didn't know we were flat out calling enbies that at the time, so I guess it's reasonable that KJB didn't either, but, uh, kinda looks like Hedwig starts out by TELLING everyone she's nonbinary. In context, ya know?

I'll get over it, I'm not gonna punch anyone, but I don't get to see a lot of explicit NB representation, so I can feel a little grabby sometimes.

"Androgyne." Huh. I wouldn't have been thrilled with that. Kinda like defining asexual as gaystraight. No-no-no, you do your gender over here, have all the andro and gyne you want, and I'm gonna go make myself a sandwich over there, 'kay?

Man, this is why we come up with new words all the time. It's frustrating, but, holy heck, our understanding has come a long way, and it's got so much farther to go!

#nonbinary #cogiati #androgyne transgenderist #what kind of queer are you according to this insanely outdated test?

[sevinite]

maybe if i reread the left hand of darkness for a fourth time, i will be made strong enough to draw genly and estraven doing gaystraight sex

#sev.txt #not putting this in the tag. #i’ve resisted bc i would’ve felt bad #but idk. if people can draw gay sex of AM FROM I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM. #(insane.) #then i can draw gay sex of genly and estraven

[epikulupu]

GAYSTRAIGHT

ID 1 START ; the rainbow flag with a blue triangle on the left side. the top part of the triangle is pink. ; ID 1 END

ID 2 START ; a six striped flag, split diagonally in half. on the left side it is the rainbow flag with a blue filter, on the right side it is the rainbow flag with a pink filter. ; ID 2 END

gaystraight !

an orientation descriptor for when one doesn't meet any definition of the word straight but feels more comfortable identifying in some way with the label.

gay + straight

from "gay" and "straight"

this is not coined by us, we are posting it for @corvids-core-sys

id by me

#orientation #orientation coining #mogai orientation #mogai coining #⭘ my terms #coining #mogai #mogaireal #mogaisafe #mogai flag #liom #liomreal #liomsafe #liom coining #liom flag

[thermesiini]

having like a weird kind of gaystraight thing going on with your best friend is like a world ending disaster when you have bpd

[sawtual]

Your ideal episode to start off a new arc for nica's character, and what themes would u want to be at the forefront that either haven't happened yet or deserves more exploration?

ogh well ideally i would reeeally love to see nica in a third movie, kinda like andy! basically it would cover what happens after nicachucky and tiffany fuck off, and be a more fun and campy addition to nicas storyline, however i would still like it to be mostly grounded, so kind of an in between of bride and curse/cult💖 i wana see the nicachucky + tiffany + nica dynamics sooo bad i want to explore how they all deal with each other, and especially expand on the reason tiffany falls in love with nica. it feels so rushed in the show it makes me insane. also more gaystraight sex. whatever tf nicachucky and tiffany had going on. i want that

#asks #I FEEL LIKE U WONT UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS BUT JAJSJFNMGG

[nightmare8-420]

j is being gaystraight again

EIAHNNJIJAHAUGB NOOOO ITS FUCKIN JOVERRRR 💔💔💔 i put up a pole asking if i should get a tounge piercing when i legally and safely can and they said no 💔😭😭 ITS SO JOVER FOR ME. im unsure as wha to do now 🧎 shhsbnndjdnn

[losergendered]

Strade from boyfriend to death is a cis man, gorture, mspec gay, mspec straight, gaystraight and hypersexual

@gender-mailman

posted!

#asks

[squidwardontheside]

The destiel homophobic love confession was bad but being human US nohomo gaystraight love confession where a girl possesses a man to confess her heterosexual love to a another man and they gay kiss but it’s a girl possessing a man’s body so it’s gay straight is probably worse

#being human

[budgerigorous]

Navel gazing post!

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I’m in the process of “unlearning” or “unloading” some very restrictive, punitive, shaming ideas about gender and sexuality that I didn’t know I was carrying around with me. Some of them, I picked up on -- gasp! -- this very website.

I’m not interested in talking about gender too much right now, except to say that it feels like a massive weight has been taken off when I consider that I don’t “have to” be a bi woman or a lesbian to be queer. (“Everyone can be a woman, and every woman can be a lesbian” -- lol.) I have felt trapped and punished and limited by the idea that I need to be “the girl” in the way I relate to other people, or that people who are attracted to me are attracted to “a girl,” and I’ve been jealous of people who, from my perspective, get to throw that away. “I’m too feminine; everyone would be able to tell from the outside already if I weren’t a woman. Guess I’m screwed!”

It’s amazing that I’ve been out as bisexual for almost twenty years and yet still basically think of myself as “gaystraight,” if that makes sense. And I still really think my sexuality is fake. It’s consistent, though? My sexual orientation is very much a consistent “case by case basis,” “fuck around and find out” sort of thing. Which I guess is maybe a little difficult, but it makes sense to me lol.

Additionally. One of the messages I’ve been untangling goes like: If I’m running around feeling all this intense gay shit and having Longings, but I could still fake being a straight cis woman and be reasonably happy in the hypothetical, it doesn’t count. Like there has to be some innate reason or excuse for me to indulge in “sexualizing my friends” (as the therapist I saw as a teenager once scolded me when I mentioned having a crush on a female friend), and my feelings and wishes by themselves aren’t enough. Also, it’s an insult to people who feel like their natural way of being is a curse if I’m getting joy and energy and motivation and love out of mine.

Well, you know what, that’s homophobic and transphobic and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of hating myself and feeling inadequate and ashamed just for being what I am. “If it’s so hard to be gay, why don’t you stop trying” -- what I am trying to do is a lot more difficult than that lmao. I have a natural state and it is perfectly fine. And I can do what I want with it.

#diary entry: a new tag that is for diary entries