#gonna go call my dad rn

[yesloulou]

when lawrence stroll said "the most important thing is to always remember im dad" with his face all scrunched up why am i crying 😭😭😭😭😭

#for a literal billionaire 😭 #lawrence stroll #* #gonna go call my dad rn

[luhman16]

We're costco dads, of course we have our romantic date at the costco

#luh's drawings #art #drawing #rain world #rain world downpour #rain world rivulet #rain world spearmaster #rw dad au #im gonna be using that tag for better organization of my dad au stuff from now on #also i cant remember the ship name for them will look it up some other time im eepy rn #i thinm riv would go badonkers for costco it would become their whole personality just going to costco #in my dad au i think riv is dating spear and spear is also dating gourmand so like a triangle without the hypotenuse #riv seeing a pack of 560 individually wrapped almonds thats 5 cents less than buying them normally at the grocery store: OMG I HAVE TO BUY #spears just tags along and doesnt really understand why riv wants so many almonds even though they're allergic to nuts #riv has the like premium membership card idk what its called #every birthday gift they receive is just a costco gift card and they always get excited for it #rain world fishstick #rw fishstick #ok i found it uwu

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

At the movie theater and nearly falling asleep, but I snore really bad so I can't risk it, but I am so fucking exhausted it might just happen.

#today was a nice Christmas #my roommate gave me a gorgeous purple and white dice set #calling her my roommate feels weird but idk if she would describe us as friends so forever she will be my roommate tbh #but yeah i gave her a calendar with kushroom pictures and facts on it and she gave me a dice set and it was so lovely #my sibling gave me a mystery bag of dice sets and some sword earrings #i fucking love the sword earrings #my mom got me some earrings and sour cherry tic tacs and my dad got mr a mindfulness journal #it was nice. really nice #but god im so tired #our dog has been waking up several times a night to go to the bathroom #i havent gotten an uninterrupted sleep for weeks #we try to take him out later at night. we give him dinner hours before bedtime #but still. every night #barking to take him out #im in the bathroom rn #i dont want to go back into the theater. im gonna fall asleep #and then snore and ruin everyone's Christmas

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

there's something that I really love about characters who choose to do things that are inherently dangerous, because they're Good things and they love them and they know the risks, they know that those risks are a given, and anything could happen to any of them and they KNOW it.... but they're still shocked and shaken to their absolute core when it does. the line snaps and they knew it was always an option but they never thought it could truly become reality. they've weighed the risks and made their choices but they don't know what to do when those risks turn real.

#vagueblogging for robin #except this time it's mostly for kaylie and called-kept because this is brought on by a sudden influx of feelings about dick grayson #like yes i do know that his parents were murdered. but a fall like that is still a possibility ANYWAY in that profession #and maybe at that age (dick was 9 right?) he didn't quite Get It but like.... falling was always a risk #and i feel like that's just accepted as a given. but the given and the REALITY of it is completely different #same with vigilante stuff. like there's always the option for injury and loss and death. but they do it anyway #idk much about the whole thing where everyone thought bruce was dead but i feel like this applies there too #bc bruce is dick's dad basically for most of his life. and they KNOW that what they do is dangerous #but it's GOOD and WORTH IT and they bring hope and safety at risk of their own!!! #and then bruce is gone. and it's like.... dick must have known the risks and seen them so many times #but bruce??? batman??? dead (or presumed)?? not something that computes #for... any of them honestly but considering what happened to his parents I'm stuck on dickie bestie rn #idk just thinking about the inherent risks of acrobatics and acroBATics and the way they still don't seem quite real until they're TOO real #someone talk to me about this i feel like I'm going insane i just want to hug that circus boy 😭 #Lu rambles #this post is fairly nondescript and can apply to many many things but I'm gonna tag it for my own blog anyway #batfam #dick grayson #meta finding tag

[wooahaes]

askbox open back up on this blog bc i might ask for some fic help sometime

#wooahaes.txt #sorry i just. kind of had a mental breakdown a few days ago and im still struggling a lot #kinda got to the s*icidal ideation stage too so uh. yeah. im stil not great. #i dont know if im gonna complete this masters degree so im looking at alternate options rn #and hoping that Maybe i can find something that works for me? #i need to set up a call w my program mentor but uh i have a family member going in for heart surgery next week #so im probs gonna email the guy and tell him ill set up something After shes back home #bc between that and my dad being injured and my mental health being in the gutter.... i dont think i can Make a sound decision rn #on whether i should drop out or not

[boygirlctommy]

ok i have like. the very rough outline for this animatic.

#my post #ripposting #really just need rhe quotes now bcus i know what parts of the song are which fights #oh my god. im gonna have to animate combat. #*frantically pulls up sad.ist* GIRL HELP HOW DO I DRAW FIGHTING #<- uses them as a ref for like every animatic i do lol #i just realized actually. this wasnt intentional but i totally am amking a sa.dist-style animatic rn #its even set to a 2w.ei song ToT #but anyways im sosososo excited for this :DDD the first 48 seconds are just them arriving at the BLOCK #BUT their pirate oath from what binds us is playing. ooo can i do effects on the audio? bcus i kinda want it to be abit echo-ey.... #but yeah and then chip as tay is all like 'we need to get these pirates inside!!' and the guard goes 'did we ever get a name for this crew? #and then theres like this moment of silence. and thats where chips gonna go 'the r.iptide pirates :)' and then BOOM LOUD MUSIC #thats where they fight shrek. i dont remember what that monster was i always called that fight the shrek encounter. then the hall w that #pirate dude!! then the tundra!! oh big j... then its MEAT ROOM TIME!!! and then DESERT ROOM!!!!! at 2:02 is when they start attacking each #other in the desert room :3 then its the center with drey!!! and then theres a quieter slow part. thats where nfw goes. #the song actually ends there but i looped part of it so it gets loud again :3 thats where the running away happens!! and then as it fades #out again thats where theyre safe on the ship and jay screams at her dad even though hes too far away to hear it and shes all like 'IM GONN #BE THE BEST GODDAMN PIRATE YOUVE EVER SEEN!!' and chip goes 'i dont doubt it sureshot :]' CRIESSS anyways then very quietly as the audio al #fades out gill goes 'im glad you got to shoot me' and jay goes 'me too lol' and that is where we end the animatic 👍 #its like 4 1/2 minutes long pray for me guys

[liliavalley]

as someone who lives and breathes found family, i never thought i could get mad at the concept of more father figures for one guy. but oh. it's possible!

#to be honest it's jealously and bitterness because the other guy is the fan favorite and mentor so got assigned as main father-figure #and kept that main spot because it took the writers Four Fucking Seasons to get his actual dad to go from grumpy boss with a soft spot #to actually calling him his son and getting flashbacks about him BEING THE ONE TO TAKE HIM IN AS A BABY. #HEY WRITERS. WHERE WAS THAT IN THE PILOT EPISODE WHEN HE THOUGHT MK FUCKING DIED!!! WHERE WAS IT!!! #FUCK. IM SO BITTER ABOUT THAT. #my biggest fear rn is that season 4 is ALL we're gonna get about pigsy raising mk. a couple flashbacks to the night he took him in #and him calling him son. once. #Only My Interpretation Is Correct. The Rest Of You Are All Wrong

[betasuppe]

When you think too hard about an old fandom you've put away in storage & now your brain is going crazy with new plot twists & you already have enough WIPs, but NOW MORE DISTRACTIONS ARE EVERYWHERE & ITS JUST TOO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#me looking at <...> like #whAT IF THE BAD GUY WAS ACTUALLY THE GOOD GUY #& the main character was mislead & lied to by the good guys #WHO ARE ACTUALLY BAD GUYS #& what if the bad guy was trying to save his family #who had their memories taken by the so called good guys??? #because the bad guy winning wouldnt have been the outcone the good guys wanted #sO THEY RIGGED EVERYTHING #& ALSO THE M/C IS THE BAD GUY'S KID & #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #redesigning some characters #& making some cool as outfits & battlewear #because the family will get reunited & the bad guy & m/c are never gonna stop standing string together! #lets get some dark evil villain into his rightful dad mode & give him a better backstory he dESERVES #no one will guess the fandom & im not gonna post anything of it here but oH DO I HAVE SOME IDEAS RN #damn DAMNNNNN #just gonna go watch the show now #the norwegian dub is like a balm for my mind #the VAs are so good i love this show so much more i norsk #mmm♡

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#looking at the notes ppl in the lab let me on my birthday card. it seems ppl think i should chill the fuck out lmao #a lot were like RELAX!!! and ya kno objectively theyre right but i refuse to listen bc theres something wrong in my head #sigh. i survived the day at least. the timed measurements r done on this experiment. thank christ. and my birthday gathering as so #i dont kno. it was kinda funny and kinda sad i guess. bc i knew it was gonna happen and i didnt want it to but i was like fine. ill meet #at 4. and i expected it to b in the conference room but they set up outside the lab around the corner. so they did kinda surprise me #location wise i guess. i cant imagine what expression i was making. it felt like a pained smile but idk. i had to go back to take #measurements every 4min so i was standing there with a plate full of ice creame cake. kinda away from everyone while they talked. staring #at my phone timer as it ticked down and abruptly leaving when i had to log a measurement. i was basically a non entity while there. which #was kinda idea bc i have too much hurt inside to talk to ppl right now. as evidence by my phone call with my parents when i got home. im #just kinda a bummer to exist around rn. idk maybe i should apologize to my boss bc i kno im not an easy person to do things for #and i really do appreciate the effort. its just hard when i kno how much stress its going to cause me for someone to attempt to do #something they think will b nice. so idk i just feel bad. but its over. and idk what ill do tomorrow. i should do stuff for when i move #like my dad was like: u should prioritize ur future stuff. and hes objectively right. they think i should get a studio apartment which #would b expensive as fuck but i will destroy myself if i have roommates. idk. theres lots still to do bc i have to get a ton of data #processed by the end of the week bc i have 8 days of measurement on another project that needs to get done by may 14th when i leave for #vacation. which my mom was like did u buy ur tickets for next month and i was like. hm how do i ask where im supposed to buy tickets to #without giving away that i dont kno what ur talking abt? bc apparently im going to a wedding? wtf do i wear to a wedding? #idk. i guess im just kinda sad bc this month has been really hard. i made it hard for no reason bc theres something wrong in my head and #that hurt has nowhere to go bc i cant even give anyone an honest account of how awful it was bc its like what r they gonna do abt it? #anything i say is just worrying bc i cant seem to stop myself who whats the point in talking abt it. but idk humans r social creatures so #when im in pain at least part of me wants someone to brush my hair and acknowledge my pain and tell me itll b ok #but idk. the idea of that happening is different from the reality where i seem to opperate at a different frequency to other people. we #just dont seem to properly connect. idk. idk what ill do tomorrow. im afraid to loosen my grip on my schedule bc i might fall to piece #pieces without the pressure. well see. lets home my 26th year is better than my 25th was. bc last year sucked #hope* lets hope that was my low point. bc that was not a fun time and im worry to take account of thr damage done #unrelated

[lilgynt]

i want to blow up my coworkers BRAIN

#personal #they are so fucking annoying and can never not have the convo related to them #like one somebody was asking about my hair which relates to my dad #so i’m like yeah cut and dyed it to keep up with my dads care haha #and then they were talking about my last colors brown and red and this coworker who has red got brought in #and then they go into LENGTH about how they needed to bleach their hair after their birds death #they had the bird for like a week too #and then the death of a different pet and was just laying into it during a meeting #which should piss me off more like oh ur gonna steer a conversation about my dads health to ur fucking pets. kys #then rn i got an agressive called and got called a little shit and was going over it with my boss #and was explaining something and said if it’s looks off that might be me i mix up letters sometimes #and this fucker just CHIMES in like dyslexia is bitch! and so is the one for math or whatever the name is #and it’s like one wasn’t even talking to you two separate thing all together three #i’m not diagnosed with dyslexia but let’s say i have it stop fucking telling people other peoples disabilities #like they have done this MUTIPLE times just casually bringing up my autism or other shit and it’s like???? can i help you #stop mentioning this at my fucking work place #like i get ur disabilities are like cool trading cards and shit but any that i do happen to have are real facets of my life that maybe! #i don’t want shared at work! #and even that i could forgive but worst all #this coworker is so annoying. and cringe. walking 2013 mental health post on tumblr #they used to ask me for rides home too without even knowing me and i did it like twice before i had to cut that shit bc they just #started expecting it #anyway i hate them and i have to hear about their sister tried to kill them one more fucking weekend i’m getting touch with said sister to #finish the dam job

[arthur-r]

i’ve gotten really bad over break at falling asleep in a time frame where i can wake up in the morning and function at capacity. but in other news i’ve written a very angry song aimed at my father. so that’s fun

#good morning everybody i tried so hard to go to sleep when i still had a chance at eight hours #i’m still gonna get seven but that’s like. if i fall asleep immediately #anyway my dad deserves to have a song about his problems i focused too much on my mom with hard to break #although actually the core memory that made me want to write that song is my dad calling me a monster when i was like ten #however the song itself is mostly about the way my mom looks at me. where it’s like i’m not human. which is a mom thing #anyway things have been really bad at home lately like i’ve mostly avoided talking about it but literally earlier today i packed a bag to #run away and just kind of changed my mind when i found out my mom was working #(because the type of running away i mean is not as drastic as it necessarily sounds. mostly just wanted to move into the apartment #permanently and im basically going to do that starting next week like i’ll be supposed to go home but i can always decide not to) #anyway do you kiss my mother with that mouth or let your anger rise and cuss her out? do you want to fuck her or do you say fuck her? #either way you fucking overshare!! do you kiss my mother with that mouth? or tell me to shut up and get the fuck out? #and when you tell those jokes do you understand how deep it goes? cant you see i’m broken from the actions that you chose?? #i just wanna get out of this i just keep getting sadder!! i’d rather not even exist does my involvement matter?? #[/ly] anyway then the song goes on after that for another while. but it’s like. long. so i’ll spare you the rest #came up with the first bit on guitar a few days ago and my dad heard the chords from my room and was like hey that sounds like pink floyd #and i had to be like nope just a chromatic scale. and be glad that i was only whispering the words #anyway if you see me right now no you don’t. and i am so incredibly asleep rn. spooky scary talking in my sleep (/all of this is untrue) #sleeping is like. my favorite hobby. but i am entirely incapable of it when there are this many anxieties floating around my head #it also maybe doesn’t help that i finished the caffeinated lemonade this morning at like 1pm. digging my own hole to lie in here #anyway im going to try and stay after school tomorrow and then go to the apartment from there. rather than see my dad and pretend we’re okay #but hi from after midnight. i miss the days where i could sleep in until ten cause im kind of a night owl i just also really like sleeping #like if i could be blathers from animal crossing and nap for twelve hours getting woke up every once in a while and given a fossil and then #going back to sleep. and then waking up when it’s dark out and every once in a while getting given a fossil. that’s the life #anyway sorry for still being here. i was eyes closed for a while and my do not disturb has been on this whole time. and yet i’m awake #going to post this and go to sleep. though. cause unless we get another snow day in a row then i do have school tomorrow morning #and a snow day would actually be terrible because of. aforementioned not wanting to be at home. and being snowed in is terrifying #ok anyway i really have to go to sleep but yeah. goodnight world wish me luck again with sleeping!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later #ask to tag

[waitingforminjae]

a close relative of mine is probably dying :(

#she's a great aunt but of my extended family i've seen her the most #they host the yearly reunions and i've seen them during other holidays and stuff </3 #like. my aunt and dad are discussing my dad going down to take my grandpa down to see her #and staying down there for a bit #which needs to happen! but i rlly wish i could go too #but i have to stay up here with my mom #her husband is my grandpa's older brother #and i think there's some concern he'll follow if she passes 😔 #not suicide but just how old couples do sometimes #hella personal #i was gonna make the rest of my gifts for my coworkers but now idk if i can #anyway prayers and thoughts and any other religious stuff for aunt anna would be appreciated 🙏 #it's abt to be her husband's birthday too..... #i think i'm also just scared that smth will happen when my dad's down there and I'll find out via call #anyway #idk if i want to talk abt this rlly rn 💔

[lilworms]

wanna hear abt yesterday from start to finish

#no? well #ur gonna #woke up at friends apt got really high when i got home paced in circles had a spaz abt my manager laid on the couch to nap #woke up to my manager calling asking where i was bc i was late. so i said im coming and went back to sleep #n then deiving to work i get into a car accident (everything is 100% okay) but while dealing w us the cop pulls another car over and makes #them wait for him to be done . the old lady involved cqlls her daughter. she shows up and starts SCREAMING at this old woman. and then. #she starts going off abt me. im a stupid fucking kid who cant drive i was probably on my phone fucking child #ive never rolled up my window so fast girly was lucky the cop was there bc oh my god. #i get to work and the store is a mess. shipment everywjere. and then my aunt walks in. and makes homophobic and racist remarks. and says #shit abt me wearing a mask (i am and have forever been chronically ill). she finally leaves. i get a text feom my dad. he hurt himself. bad. #i then get a text from my dm asking for a phone call. 10 mins later my AM tells me she has covid. after this i find out my roommate has bee #shit talking me to A MUTUAL FRIEND. utterly defeated at this pt. closing the store and the register is short $50. my manager doesnt help. i #have to call a different store. he doesn’t answer. i finally fucking leave and realize my gas tank is almost empty. and im v poor rn. #this is the short version btw.

[beaversatemygrandma]

Losing my absolute shit bc i can’t chew with my mouth closed without my wisdom tooth jabbing into my cheek

11 days until these fuckers are gone and so is all my money

#taks speaks #i cant explain just how much i HATE the sound of chewing #and the fact that i can't even follow my own guidelines of chewing quietly with my mouth closed is just Killing Me rn #im already following fucking post op rules bc i cant chew anything #im gonna be so excited to eat real food again in a couple weeks #and im about to stock up on a fuck ton of tapioca pudding bc i have tastes of an old person #id make my own huge batch of it bc my mom has a PERFECT recipe for it but i have no patience for that whole thing #it's like a half hour of just standing there stirring boiling milk and it is an excruciatingly long wait #anywho im temporarily a mouth breather bc i can't close my damn jaw without biting my cheek so I Hate That #btw bc theyre all impacted it costs 400 per tooth and bc i have a baby tooth that shouldve left when i was 12 IS STILL THERE #it's coming out too which is another 300 bc its not impacted. then anesthesia. some steroid. the shit they use to close the holes.... #like fuck it adds up so much #'i thought you were getting your mom to pay for it' my dad says #'she gave me 2.3k' i say #im going to call her this week and be like 'uhhhhh it's so much more money than that' #who knows if ill get more money or not bc she already gave me a good chunk #that i've already spent like 500 of bc of appointments and consultations #and then the 800 i need for another procedure bc impaction and crowding caused problems #i had a dentist say they recommend braces and i was like 'bruh. i'm already over 3000 down the drain. hell no.' #anyway. just have to keep telling myself this is worth it. #no more pain. no more waking up with headaches from sleeping on my side. no more stress of crowding. #i will be unstoppable without my expected headaches im used to and pain of eating #i am just SO USED to pain it'll be weird to not have any #like. this will be HUGE #im just glad i didn't wait TOO LONG to where the teeth fully grew in #that wouldve been worse. by a lot. and potentially more expensive. so that makes me wonder if i did this a couple years ago if itd be 3k #ugh. i hate this. but this is opening up a lot for me. so fuck.

[slashpaws]

having several consecutive burntrap moments

#putting him in dad plinko rn #bro no fuckin chance he's in the dlc but if he is i hope they give him another dumbass name KGMSKNSJR #call that bitch ashtrap cuz that's all that's gonna be left #im sorry i take it back his name isn't dumb #i have a migraine and i'm dying can someone send help thank you #the first time i saw burny in sb i told vegs ''give me like a week and i'll end up adopting him as my new dad'' and look at us now #GODDD i just think he's so cool #I'M SORRY OKAY IDK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME EITHER /LH #im going to take a nap now goodbye #talking.txt

[ii-zi]

My heads a little odd it's like it was filled w water and it had a marble or something and everything I disturbe the water with sound or movement the marble thing goes crazy

#im thinking of a word but can't remember it lol #might have to skip sleep so i can shower before everybody wakes up and ask to be taken #somewhere? #like a clinic or anywhere for a checkup? #like i dont wanna go to er they're gonna make me wait hours bc im breathing and not bleeding lol #but maybe a simi clinic #disoriented is the word #i feel like an astronaut it's funny when not alarming it's like #when im very motion sick without the nausea? im just glad im not nauseous lol my stomachs been so nice the last week or so #we're all sick tho im thinking of asking if i could get a covid or influenza test done bc we're /all/ sick my dad almost kicked it last #weekend and my mom's taking a day off for the first time like ever #I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im #physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol #but i got a /normal/ fever twice or thrice in a week and it scared me so bad lmao they usually make me feel like #i was throw into a furnace but i felt the bone deep cold n all that relatively normal shit but it felt so foreign i was scared #naproxen and a 13h nap (lol) took care of it yesterday tho #im v scared of antibiotical restriction or whatever it's called I'm not very bilingual rn #so i never take them without them being prescribed by someone reputable lol #but I've been feeling like I've got a mild ear infection for what seems like forever which im aware can be super dangerous #but i was too focused on getting them to take me to the dentist first that I wasn't even thinking about that #(and they were going to! but then my dad got his phone stolen and he needs it for his job lol) #anyways my mom said that im either juuust entering a fever or coming out of it or whatevers the right term #which is why im so chatty rn lol my mom says i talk even thru my elbows (thanks gboard for the translation) but she #can tell when i have a fever bc i get squirmy bc of the heat + super chatty it's so funny #hopefully it all goes well and the simi doctor magically puts me a step closer to finding out what's Wrong™ w me #(magically a.k.a. medicine) #ive also wanted to talk w a doctor about how many antibiotics i was given as a kid without the #stomach pro something thing. for like thr flora so it doesn't die w the illness #and how it could be v closely tied to my chronic stomach issues (even tho i was like born w them but like it could have made that worse) #personal