#had a shitty stressful day

[outerintervoid]

listening to fragrance rn, god bless

#i need this #had a shitty stressful day #i shouldnt get so worked up over this so instead ill try to clam myself down by fragrance #thanks gackt. one of the few banger songs in your discography #gackt #outer music #SoundCloud

[marsalta]

Take the happy Alastor

#scatters off into the abyss of Radioapple brainrot #hope everyone is having a good day :] #hiding in the tags while i talk #ive had a very shitty past couple of weeks ive been stressed non stop #finding comfort in a ship and seeing the support and love ive received on here and twt has been both wonderful and scary #especially an aroace character as on the aroace spec myself it means a lot #one day ill probabily make them kiss and make out but i really like drawing these simple domestic romanatic scenes i hope #people are enjoying them too #thats all :] look after urselfs drink some water eat something 🫵

[readingwriter92]

I love when i have to fight off the Thoughts. Constantly.

#ugh why has this whole month just felt like it’s been ten thousand years #it’s been stressful and I stg the Feb bad has just continued into March and ugh #shut up sarah #sorry I just. Thursday was shit. Friday was stress. Saturday I had four hours of sleep and then Sunday and today I’ve just been dead not #wanting to do any work but knowing I have a bunch and literally nothing is wrong but #on the plus side I found a great corner in my home for crying in. very comfy good little corner surrounded by furniture so it’s great #fav new spot to sit and ponder my existence for my allocated shitty brain time for the day before I make myself half do the pressing shit

[rzeckism]

absolutely beautiful gorgeous stunning graceful bewitching

#i cannot describe to you how mesmerised i am by the bloody gojo we got this chapter #i love him to death #had a shitty stressful day but this panel made my day okay #because look at him!!!! the guy the legend himself #jjk spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 226

[mer-se]

long day yesterday 💤

#saw my sister 🤍 #was nice even if it wasn’t very long #lots of driving and walks in the fog #in numerous locations #through the commons was my favorite though #I’ve been tired like deep soul tired for days #the rain doesn’t help #christmas stress and overworked probably I push myself too much at times #and my days off are always rainy and shitty #a nice sunny day would fix me #I’ll keep the fog though #yesterday was nice #I forget sometimes how much relief and happiness she brings just seeing her face and hearing her voice #my nephew is so cute too #he’s so sweet and chill and had cute little cowboy boots I wanted to steal and wear #mine

[archduke-enver-gortash]

worst song on my gort playlist. presented with no comment but i can elaborate if needed lol

#it FITS with my aro + grayace hc #i am sorry my blog is just a live mental breakdown at this point lmao #had a stressful shitty day can you tell #enver gortash #bg3 #baldur’s gate 3 #gortash #Spotify

[milf-harrington]

where im at mentally these days: my mum hugged me and said im doing a good job and i burst into tears <3

#i mean it was a little more fleshed out than that #i asked for a hug and she asked if i was okay and i didnt say anything so she said something about me feeling like #untethered. just kind of floating through life. and i said yeah. and she told me im doing a good job like. getting through the day basically #and i cried about it because i dont even know why its so hard #and i feel so shitty all the time because i just feel like a shit person like i dont try hard enough with my nephew #and hes so little and so smart and im so awful and every day im worried hes going to stop liking me bc im still learning how to be. gentle. #because i grew up with yelling and a locked pantry and an older sister who had to raise me #so i dont know how to not yell and not escape into my own world when i cant be bothered #and i have really good days and really terrible days and hes not a Job hes my nephew and i want to treat him like my nephew #and it feels so selfish to say im tired and that its hard and stressful and i dont know what im doing #bc my sister has to do it too and she doesnt get breaks like i do #she doesnt get to just decide to leave for the night - and i mean i dont do that but i have the option #and everyone keeps. like. telling me im doing good and im helpful and my sister especially tells me often shes grateful for me #and it makes me feel Awful bc i feel like i dont do enough and that the stuff i DO isnt good enough and just argh #anyway #vent over i need to go to bed its 1am and i have to get up in 5 hours #captain speaks

[slutdge]

anyways shoutout to my local burrito place down the street for being open til 2 am, sometimes u need a burrito to cope with the late night horrors

#they LOAD that shit too 10/10 #idk why but burritos are just my go-to comfort food when ive had a shitty stressful day so. thank you local burrito place ily

[ouroboobos]

i am 100% an advocate of kids being freely noisy and excited when they play because i wasnt allowed to as a kid and it was very stressful. however

#its always so fucking loud here i hate itttttttttttttttttttt #i rly rly hope one day i can afford a little house or like somewhere more isolated #also my neighbors are shitheads so theres grown adults fighting and throwing tantrums and screaming at the kids to shut the fuck up all day #also not bothering to watch their kids like. at all #my shitty neighbor leaves the door open while hes passed out and his little baby daughter keeps trying to walk down the stairs on her own #it stresses me out shes gonna crack her skull open if he doesnt get a grip. we've had to lead her back to her apartment multuple times #also they leave their 7ish yr old kid in charge of her all day and then scream at him when he doesnt watch her. yeah hes 7 dumbass

[ff2-soda-pop]

I'm starting to question if I should even bother with the stupid paper.... I'm probably just gonna fail anyways lmao

#ive been running around stuck on Babysitter Duty for the past three days and the teacher only gave us any instructions on thursday yet #somehow expected a full paper done and edited by sunday. even if i wasnt stuck on babysitter duty she'd get a shitty paper just due to how #little TIME that is to get things done. but because i am on babysitter duty uhhh..... well so far there's no paper #ive been spending practically full days having to take care of my sister and i cant just Ignore Her so i havent done my paper while watchin #her because again: my focus needs to be on Her. and shes incredibly loud which makes it super hard to focus. fun combo /s #so i was like 'i'll just stay up Really Late and do it then' but that hasn't worked because my sister WONT GO TO BED if im awake. i was up #until 4am last night hoping she'd fall asleep and shut up and i could work but Nope! #and then i got too tired to even care anymore #i've tried explaining this to others and they're just like 'ok well you just need to find a way to make it work :/' which is very much #easier said than done! and im scared about this paper because this teacher doesnt accept late work at all for pretty much any reason #and im sure she wont understand my situation. because shes also the teacher that didnt understand that i didnt have the textbook on time #because it was still being shipped and i dont control the rate at which book ships and she was like #'..........okay well you still need to have the book by tomorrow at least <3' when i told her the book had Just shipped and idk when i'd ge #the dumb thing. so yknow i dont have high hopes about this #also just as extra 'make stuff more difficult' i have zero accommodations because my mom cant keep track of my fucking IEPs and they wont #let me have accommodations unless i have that and idk how to get a copy anymore. so i've also been running around with no help in that area #and it's not great </3 #idk im just stressed out and frustrated and i Want To Cry :) #vent

[guinevereslancelot]

how do i stop feeling like i'm in trouble all the time fr. sitting here on my lunch break like everyone's gonna be soooo mad when u get back...from lunch...which you are allowed to have.....(?)

#social anxiety kicking my ass so bad every day #unless my supervisor actually says hello you are doing an amazing job today and i dont hate you im like omg she hates me bc i suck...... #miscounted the kids yesterday and left one on the playground for like two minutes and im still traumatized #she wasnt alone or anything there was another class w teachers but 😬🔫 #killing myself killing myself killing myself #i counted them five times today tho #and the playground was empty which made it easier but ugh #infinitely better than my last job and im actually good at this but i still feel like my supervisor doesn't like me #even tho i think she's just a bit awk and has anxiety also lol #she was reading a book abt coping with anxiety the other day lol #also my other coworker w the drama likes me but the drama is always threatening to happennagain bc she doesnt like our supervisor #anyway #my mentor just got here before lunch for her half day shift so i feel better but aaaaa #way less stressful than my last job tho and im grateful but very stressed lately #also the owner of the school was in the room im taking lunch for a while and im like omg she's gonna be annoyed that im here #she's gonna judge me for having a chocolate bar like a shitty spoiled young person or whatever and listening to music bc im rude #i need to calm down fr #she complained abt lazy inconsiderate young people at my job interview so now im paranoid abt every interaction w her lmao #bc i am a lazy oblivious young person and also i took a sick day my first week which is what she was complaining abt said young people doing #but i legitimately was throwing up i Had to call out #that's life in child care #but ughhhh #i was determined not to bc this is a job where they expect you to come in even if ur sick #but puking is my limit i genuinely couldn't do it #anyway. #normal adult experience #doctor who told my mom i was high functioning i want our money back

[nightmareonpeachstreet]

having a family that's so incredibly on my side is just...really comforting

I tend to doom spiral when things go wrong, and my family understands that and tells me about how things will be okay even given the worst case scenario

#had kind of a shitty day today #like sorry I didn't get as much done as you wanted me to #so glad I fuckin showed up today when like half the team didn't just to be treated like dogshit #so sorry for inconveniencing you with my best maybe next time I just shouldn't show up at all #would that make you fucking happy? #ugh sorry I just #it's hard to work all day just for your boss to be a fuckin dick about it #like I get you're stressed because there's too much shit to do #but don't take it out on me when I'm one of the few people who is trying to help you fuckin get through it #work // #rant // #vent //

[forbiddennhoney]

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#personal #ugh #not a day goes by where i dont think of her /: #we were such good friends /: #and like admittedly i needed to take space after all that i don't regret it #but i h8 that she prematurely apologized b4 even hearing my frustrations or why i was hurt #bc she apologized for what she THOUGHT i wanted to hear #and it sucks /: cause i really hope she's doing better #i hope shes ok #and i miss her #but i cannot bring myself to message her bc like...... #i just don't understand how you hear your friends say something shitty happened with someone ur involved with #and blow up at them and demand proof of it #like i dont care how stressed you are with other stuff .......... who does that?????? #nvm the fact that like. majority of the stress she had expressed to me then was literally about...... the ppl who did the fucked shit....... #idk. im just sad #she made me feel so seen and held and heard and we were just friends but like..... i cherished her so much ): #ALSO NVM THE FACT THE DAY BEFORE SHE DID THIS I LITERALLY TOLD HER (after talking to her abt smthn separate) tht #the only way we'd stop being friends is if she did LITERALLY exactly what she did #and yeah she sent it to my Wife's DMs #but honestly that makes it worse cause she knew i was there #nd treated my wife after all that like she was an evil meanie while she apologized to me #(which imo idc it reads and transmisogyny) #and she just like. up and left Everything b4 realizing she fucked up #like she did choose this #and im respecting that and respecting myself enough not to try running and begging her to be friends again #i just. idk man. it sucks

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

#this is so ridiculous fhfjdkdl #i do not like driving fjdkdl i know i should not be on the roads #but unfortunately i have to bc i live rural and also my parents insist i ''just need more practice'' #practice is not going to fix the dissociation 😭😭 practice will not fix the Other Drivers being shitty and scary and reckless fjfkdl #it might make it slightly easier bc i wont have to think as hard about shoulder and mirror checks and roadsigns and speed limits #and where i am located on the road and intersection rules and whatnot #but like... it does not fix that i live in a town (and world lol) where ppl are fucking bonkers on the road #i had someone riding my ass for like a full five minutes. we had only two feet btwn us. MAYBE. IF THAT MUCH. #he was BIG mad that i was going the speed limit #and THERES A POLICE STATION LIKE RIGHT NEAR THAT AREA MY GUY IM NOT GONNA GO OVER THE SPEED LIMIT RIGHT THERE LMAO ???? #also im a rule follower usually so i do tend to go Exactly the speed limit fjfkdl #and maaannn that makes people SO fucking angry dhfjdl its impossible to drive Anywhere without having someone right on ur bumper #its so ridiculous like... that's not helping anyone ??? ur not getting to ur destination faster by riding up on somebodys ass ???? hewwo ??? #ANYWAYS. i drove around the neighborhood and then went up the highway and thru some intersections and then into the main core of town #and then i got my dad to take over from there bc it was lunch hour and the core of town is a lawless land at the best of times #MY NERVES ARE FRIED. i need Guz to act as a weighted blanket or one of those pressure therapy vests for me LOL #im like... shaking fhdjsl that was far more than i thought we were going to do for driving today good lord #IM OKAY THOUGH I SURVIVED I DIDNT EVEN HIT A CURB OR ANYTHING #i think I've only hit a curb once so far in all my times driving and that was on my second time driving on a road i think #so pretty good track record... im a very careful driver fjdkdl i work so hard to be safe and drive smoothly #during my driving test the only thing the test guy had to critique was that i waited at an intersection when i could've gone #but the reason i waited was bc i wasnt sure i could make it across the traffic lane before the oncoming vehicle got to us #so it was like. a safe decision overall but a little too hesitant which can actually be unsafe fjdkdl #AUGH ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING SM #driving stresses me out so bad and my lip is all raw now and i have so many physical stress symptoms the past few days fhfjdl #after tonight i should be able to calm down a bit hopefully fhfkdl theres a thing we're going to tonight thats been stressing me out so bad #but after tonight it'll be over and hopefully I can get myself settled down again fjfjdkl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i really do love practicing 🎻

#i'm in music school so now it's a much more significant source of my already very significant fears #but practicing only feels stressful when i don't do it enough and i'm trying to 'catch up' #some weeks fly past me like hurricanes and i get to my lesson and i can't say i've made any progress and that fucks me up #and i don't think that's ever going away- like i'll always have weeks like that cuz everyone has bad days and bad weeks #from time to time #but when i plan correctly (which is becoming more and more the norm for me) my practicing is something im really proud of :) #i have a System. i didn't do very well before i had it and i would die without it now. #i get excited about learning! i get excited having realizations abt things to change or work on when i practice! #it feels experimenty a lot of the time and i like it!!! #i have a lot of catching up to do in terms of comparing myself to others but i'm not here for them i'm here for me #i will do my best and i will learn from others of course but my goals are to make my Me better first and worry abt other people later #i won't lose sight of that #<- and when it doesn't feel experimenty it can be calming to just be like okay ik what i need to do now just. Practice. Repeat. #i mean music is a fucking rollercoaster and sometimes you are at the bottom and i hate that but it comes w the territory #sometimes you're just Stuck but you do get past it and in those moments i just try to think back to previous times ive felt like that #ive felt horribly shitty before and gotten through it and come out the other side slightly better! #life is like that i think #anyways. hashtag iris loves music and being a musician 🙄 nothing new over here hehe

[twistedappletree]

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#apple babble 🍎 #non fandom #i need life to give me a fucking break fr like????? #almost immediately after i finally crawled out of a major depressive episode #infected fucking dog bite from some asshole’s unleashed dog #major tooth abscess that literally has my entire left side of my face and head and neck throbbing with pain #can’t afford to get the damn thing pulled until a few more days #so my body is fighting 2 major infections rn and my heart rate is at a constant 100-115 #can’t think straight can’t focus on anything #couldn’t walk priya today bc of how shitty i feel #had an EXTREMELY stressful anxiety ridden day with my client today which didn’t help anything #my work days have been so fucking long that i don’t have time to take care of my medical stuff before everything closes #i had to race to get my antibiotics WHILE i was working bc i knew i wouldn’t get there in time after work #bc my fucking client kept adding shit for me to do last minute #then was like ‘oh btw you only have an hour to make these 10 fucking stops bc my appt is soon’ #give me a fucking break liKE COME THE FUCK ON #IM SO MAD AND ANNOYED #i didn’t even walk the dogs this morning #i just too them to a secluded place off the trail and fucking cried for an hour #i really hate things rn like i really hate how difficult and fucking expensive it is to stay alive #i fucking HATE IT #delete later #i guess idfk whatever