#had to reduce some stuff

[swordy-da-goat]

Bap

#tumblr sucks #had to reduce some stuff #stray #stray game #stray fanart #stray zbaltazar #gif #myart

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

there are too many thoughts inside of me at all times.

#hello friends hope you all are doing well. my words have been abandoning me lately. #I talk a lot and feel like I say nothing. it is truly frustrating. #meanwhile I am doing a bible word study and realizing that all the things I have realized in the past might be valid #(namely the way that a lot of people in my church tradition try to reduce biblical concepts of 'peace' to a sort of inward emotional state #and that's not actually a great way to interpret the biblical concept of shalom. like at all. and massively cheats a lot of communities out #of the actual practical real-life extension of the kingdom and how it's supposed to function) #also I had a minor crisis a few days ago when I looked at a boy who I know only vaguely and thought 'oh. shoot. he's cute.' #I am not used to having these sorts of thoughts or at least not to acknowledging them to myself #not sure why I'm telling tumblr this but I have no one else to tell it to and I feel like I should get it out of my system lol :') #ok logging off again gotta eat some noodles and finish this assignment with is already late #I will see you guys at a later date #(probably not too much later tho bc it is spring break and I am unfortunately stuck at college and there are very few other people here :') #gurt says stuff

[ctl-yuejie]

ramblings on Li Ming (and Heart) and homosexuality

moonlight chicken has so many things to offer in terms of technical beauty and interesting themes but what i cannot stop thinking about is the different ways they approach homosexuality in the story.

we have Wen who has a rainbow flag on his desk and pictures of him and Alan on the wall. Wen, who openly flirts with Jim and has no qualms talking openly about his one night stand. Wen, whose step father knows about his sexuality and is close enough with him to discuss his love life.

Kaipa we don’t know too much about. But his mom knows and is supportive and some of the vendors and the chicken family seem to know. But if anyone was questioning in what reality this show is set with all the class discussion and corona featuring, his part of the story shows that homophobia exists and he is worried about how he fits in with his own family, the expectations of his mother and possible the awareness that he makes the family he has “different”.

Jim is arguably even more visibly gay than Wen in terms of what we see throughout the show. He opened the shop with his ex, they prayed at the temple together and even though he objected due to proprities sake eventually they loudly declared their love to each other and the whole neighbourhood knows. Wen somehow feels like he is living in the remnants of a bubble: his circle of friends seems very queer, his closest friend and the whole gym seem to be all part of that as well. This only might change now with him questioning his work and breaking up with Alan: some gatherings he won’t attend anymore apparently.

And finally, we have Li Ming. At school he doesn’t seem to open up to his classmates on most things and additionally is in the closet. While there wasn’t anything alluding to homophobic rethoric being spread at school we can see how the heteronormativity gets to him and feel that there must be good reason as to why no one knows. And it could just be how Li Ming is judging the situation based on vibes, we don’t know. His mother is or at least was homophobic but at the same time he is raised by his gay uncle who is surrounded by other gay people. And I love how it feels like this might have given him enough security to be comfortable with his own sexuality but how it also isn’t enough to shield him from the world at large.

With so many great shows coming out of Thailand and most of them getting more and more political it just feels so real and 2023 to me that Li Ming is part of a generation that knows who they are but still have to battle with the shadow that homophobia has cast way before they were born.

#moonlight chicken #i had this in my draft for a week now thinking if i'd get the time i could put this more leloquently but that was a lie as it turns out #might edit some stuff later #but for now i just have to write about how fantastic this show is for giving these varied realities of queer life #which are all influenced by their environment but also in the way the characters connect across generations #we don't know if him had a gay mentor who could've guided him #whereas li ming technically has him and his neighbourhood friends to reference #but li ming - understandibly so - seems more closeted than anyone else (minus Heart possigly) #in middle school everyone around me proclaimed how supportive they were of lgbt+ rights #but as soon as one guy came out he become the TALK of the school for weeks #he got reduced to his sexuality #and when he dated a girls some months after he got called attention seeking for coming out as gay before #and most people thought they were doing an open-minded thing #and despite knowing that i know that i am not the only queer kid who decided to not come out lest we'd become that talk of the whole school #and our dating lives scrutinized #even though all of us were super comfortable with who we are #and for me that was mostly the case because i had adult lesbian role models close to my family #so i knew i was good and that nothing strange was going on #but still - this othering made the school environment hostile enough to keep me in the closet #so yes - i am extremely delighted with how they depict this dynamic with li ming

[zukkaoru]

i think. everyone should stop reading my most popular fics that aren't really that good and start reading the ones with 18 kudos that are significantly better

#this is about (just wanna be) somebody i'm proud of #yes i had fun writing it. but it's REALLY NOT THAT GOOD #also i cannot stress this enough: that fic was a fluke #it's NOT a good example of what i write. guys i'm so much better at the angsty character study fics #i promise i actually can get proper characterization. i had to sacrifice some of that for the light-hearted stupid cheesy premise #alas #no one in fandom actually cares about characterization #ngl sometimes i even wonder what the point of writing stuff in-character is if the flat #'characters reduced to a single trait that they may or may not even possess' #fics will ALWAYS end up being more popular than the ones with good characterization #anyway i know why the 18 kudos one is so low. it's the mcd tag. AND it's a gen fic centered around a character no one cares about #i wasn't expecting that one to do well #but it does suck that like. my most popular fics will never actually be my best ones #it's the same with bsd but THAT'S a whole other story #that's the phenomenon of everyone reducing bsd to the skk show and not giving the time of day to fics centered around anyone else #do u guys realize there are SO many other INCREDIBLE characters and dynamics???? #like i was doing that bsd fic rec event on twt and almost all of the fics recced were skk #meanwhile i was searching for anything NOT skk bc idk other ships and characters deserve appreciation too?? #and i don't even read much skk bc it's so hard to find anything that's. like. ACTUALLY good. #anyway. i don't actually care if you read somebody i'm proud of #but i hate that that's like. one of my most popular fics by a longshot #i have stuff that is so much better that people won't even glance at bc it's not tagged with the most popular m/m ship in the fandom #hello grace here

[joy-yet-again]

i've been a vegetarian for like 11 years but i still support the use leather bcs it's much better for the environment than synthetic leather which is essentially plastic & far less durable (harmful manufacturing process + ends up in landfills after a few years). a lot of popular vegan food substitutes are also terrible for the environment and/or for the people farming them (ex. quinoa & agave) idk i wish people would think critically about their consumption and stop assuming that vegan = more humane

#also like some people in some areas cannot cut out meat because other food is so expensive to import #not to mention health conditions #i definitely support people at least reducing their meat consumption or turning to more sustainable meat products #like poultry and tilapia and stuff #& supporting local farms #but i hate when i mention being vegetarian and people immediately get defensive. bro im not judging you im not taking some moral high ground #ive had the same pair of leather boots for 6 years and they aren't even scuffed

[magicianrabbidsupremacy]

Oh that's my old channel being deleted off the internet with no explanation. All my old content is now lost to the internet graveyard with almost no chance of coming back

#vent post #i'm gonna go cry now #Almost everything I had. All the stuff I was proud of in that channel is now gone #reduced to atoms #I'm gonna try remaking some of them along with finding archives on my other accounts #this fucking sucks

[usodeshou]

My School Prince President - Ten Minutes Ago Music from Rodgers & Hammerstein's Cinderella (1997)

My brain attacked me this morning yesterday (uploading this was an odyssey 🙈) with the revelation that the music in the dancing scene gives me similar vibes as this song and I kept wondering what would happen if the two were put together.

Shockingly, this is how I ended up spending the rest of the day listening to the movie soundtrack and editing this into a thing lol The deed is done now, I may finally rest 😌

#my school president #my school president fanedit #tinngun #I love the song that plays during the scene but this clawed itself into my brain and wouldn't let me rest until I got it done #'but I could wait until there's more episodes so I'd have more material to work with' I suggested #'no' my brain said. 'now.' #and so I obeyed lol #had to switch some stuff around and add a few scenes to make it work so it's not just the video minus the singer/band with music on top #I'm actually really happy with how this turned out :D #(minus the first few seconds that just keep feeling awkward to me no matter what I do) #(but I've mostly made my peace with it xD) #this is one of the most self-indulgent things I have done in a good while #it's a gift from me to myself :-) #plus nice side effect: because of this I spent pretty much the entire day smiling so it did wonders for my mood 😄 #mjtag #omg I think it actually uploaded?? it's been 84 years T_T #I reduced the file size as much as I could even though it should have been more than fine to begin with #hope it didn't affect the quality of the video too much but I don't wanna upload to yt and embed even though that would be easier #the akktheo video file was bigger than this one and it uploaded eventually *sideeyes tumblr for giving me a hard time* #*myedits

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

what im saying is, splinter genuinely and fully loves his sons more than anything. they gave him a reason to carry on when he needed it most. he’d die for them, he wants them safe, he wants them happy. he is not a caricature of abusive physical neglect who deliberately ignored their survival needs when they were little. to the best of his ability, they were looked after and provided for. he adores them and always has.

what i’m saying is, splinter is a complicated person with a lifetime of trauma and damage thrust into the role of parent at one of the lowest points of his existence, with no support network or resources or coping mechanisms. he was emotionally disconnected with his children in ways that were genuinely hurtful and damaging to them. he could be selfish and impulsive in ways that were harmful to them. his sons step in to act as parents with each other because of the ways in which splinter was not there acting as an involved father (a role that largely falls to raph, but they’ve each had their moments).

and what i’m saying is if your takeaway from the series is that he’s an incredible perfect dad and always has been or that he’s an outright abusive malicious dad who only cares about himself, you missed the point entirely. he is not always a good dad. he is not always a bad dad. he loves his kids but his issues have also been harmful to his kids. he works and improves and apologizes. his very real mistakes and what motivates them are explained without being excused.

#rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt splinter #rise splinter #i come on here to raph stan largely esp about the complicated feelings he deserves to have abt his dad bc like #splinter IS super complicated everything about it is nuanced #he sucks and he messes up a lot but he loves his kids and improves too like #idk its just some very realistic traumatized parent stuff tbh i absolutely know people who have been like this or had parents like this #and seeing it reduced one way or the other SUCKS

[featureenvyproductions]

"Why does everything need to be Gay now it's so shallow to make men attracted to each other when they could be Pure Platonic Friends -"

oops sorry I can't hear you over the sound of me Doing What I Want Forever because I have been watching movies, TV, and animation since the 80s and have watched enough shallow heterosexual romances that would have been stronger as mlm-wlw solidarity friendships to fill the space between stars in a galaxy

#also 1) friends can fuck each other so you're not safe especially since gay guys do this a lot #2) why can't there be a cast with MANY mlm characters where some are strictly friends and some are partners #(bc this is a real thing that happens in the real world shocker I know but sometimes friend groups have several mlm folks) #3) as an aromantic vaguely ace spec person I get the need for good platonic relationships #but uh queer people reading mlm romance into something (often based on their own experiences or representation needs) #that creators refuse to delve into #or god forbid writing it into their own work #IS NOT THE BIGGEST PROBLEM HERE #i can't believe it's the year of our lord 2024 and i am still seeing this thinly veiled homophobic take everywhere #2006 called and it wants its 'I don't wish evil on gays but i dont condone their gay stuff' attitude back #Also when I think about all the shows and movies that came from source material with wlw or mlm characters who were all but TOTALLY erased #Or I think about media about queer historical figures who were utterly straightwashed or had their queerness demonized #or reduced to a footnote or Non Controversial background noise #My rage about this increases like 10000 fold #Anyway TLDR ultimately I fall under the mlm umbrella and that's part of the reason I write the shit I do and I'm not the only one #And I write cheeky posts about it but I actually am genuinely disturbed sometimes at this sentiment #Because no one says it outright but there's this massive undercurrent of an assumption that we don't exist #And we don't create #And we don't create things FOR OURSELVES not even bc precisely because of all the times we were told #'Well that's not really marketable so if you want to see it maybe you should create it yourself' #I feel like I'm talking to a wall here DOES NO ONE ELSE GET ANGRY ABOUT THIS #LIKE HOMOPHOBIA ISN'T OVER YET #ESPECIALLY NOT FOR MLM PEOPLE WHO AREN'T CIS AND WHITE #Like stop calling sex and/or romance shallow when it's gay and SUSPICIOUSLY 0 OTHER TIMES oh my fucking god

[mars-ipan]

talking to my mom is such a blast. meeting of the minds

#marzi speaks #pseudosexuality moment #<- for what the tags shall entail #it’s great we both engage in good faith share our perspectives #and then we both come out of it having learned something new #and it rules!! #we had a really good discussion about kink and sex tonight #and we talked about negotiation and sex positivity and the specific things we liked and didn’t like #and how important it is to communicate that with a partner #and how all of this ties into being acespec #i even explained pseudosexuality to her! and she seemed to get it pretty well! about as well as i do anyways lmao #and then i mentioned my kmda crush bc he’s a good example of it being easier for aspecs in some cases to be attracted to fiction #to which she was like ‘that makes sense- it’s like fantasy’ #anyways i was trying to explain why i liked him to her. and i was like ‘ok kmda. my mom grew up in the 80s. kmda. 80s. what connection. OH’ #and i said he had the JD appeal and my mom went ‘ah gotcha mkay’ #eventually the discussion turned into how stories like heathers are being simplified and reduced for the sake of remakes #and that was also a really good convo #but i really enjoyed talking about kink stuff with my mom. we bonded :] #also it was cool to see where we differed. some things i was like Yes about she was like Absolutely Not about and vice versa #it was also fun to see where we had similarities. rope bunny solidarity 🤝 it’s the GAD lmao #anyways i love talking to her. she’s so smart and when she sees something she doesn’t understand she doesn’t judge it or shy away from it #she just asks for clarification and tries her best to understand and contribute to the conversation #and usually we both end up learning from each other!!! it’s so cool #also a lot of my friends (at least that i regularly see irl) are not nearly as freaky as me so i rarely get to talk kink with ppl #so it was nice to just get to have that conversation

[courtrecord]

stop headcanoning nemik’s manifesto as saying “rebellions are built on hope” he wouldn’t say that. he wouldn’t fucking say that!!!!

#star wars #andor #nemik #he was primarily concerned about the material conditions of the empire and the rebellion #he has like actual fucking ideology for the first time in star wars history and i cannot condone reducing it to like #oooohhh what if he said the thing from the thing SHUT UP #like........ 'hope' is overused in star wars as a way to elide giving the rebellion actual politics but #it could still mean something more specific if u had examples/goals of *what* gives people hope #like. this heist will prove to the people of the galaxy that we DO have a chance against the empire #but does he say that? no. he doesn't #he says the *empire* will learn #n listen i am desperate hoping that we get more people invested in the radical theory of the rebellion so maybe there will be someone else #who is the kind of person to say 'rebellions are built on hope' #like i said. it could easily have an actual political meaning #but nemik is not the one to do that #give my boy some respect. care about his politics and not just the fact that he thinks about stuff #i'm normal about andor. i'm normal about andor. i'm n

[celebiii]

Had a dream about mini black holes being on Earth… like just in varying places for some reason that nobody knows in this case. They were just… there. And surrounded by stars and essentially mini galaxies, they moved around but very slowly so they were just doing their own thing

The whole thing was genuinely more disturbing than any murderer chasing me dream I’ve ever had, I cannot describe the feelings it gave me

#shut up alli #oh and like btw people absolutely touched them and died #and like you didn’t SEE them get ripped apart but you know they did #spaghettified realistically. like they touched it and they were gone immediately #at some point I saw one of them spit out a mangled human arm #which doesn’t make sense i know bc that arm would just be reduced to nothing but ig it was just for the drama #AND IT WAS JUST AN UPSETTING DREAM LIKE BRAIN WHY DID YOU SHOW ME THAT???? #i had to get it off my chest cuz like it’s bothering me JDKDKK anyway im researching black holes now #maybe i’ll do some character stuff with this concept #anyway uh the moral of the story is fuck my brain and space is scary lmao

[fluffy-fedora-blue]

Fuck the Jubilee. We choose between food and electricity every day. I feed two people on £3 a day. I choose between having a meal before work or getting glucose tablets for my diabetic partner. And we’re better off than most, we’re not the poorest in our flat block - let alone the street or area or city. I know people surviving on just £1 if that.

Fuck you for celebrating the monarchy and English colonisation. They don’t care about the poor in their own country, let alone Scotland. We are starving.

#jubilee #platinum jubilee #fuck england #fuck the uk #fuck the government #scotland #energy prices #monarchy #I don’t even live in the poorest part of my city but there’s people who’ve worked all their lives and are surviving on stale bread #and some of them don’t survive #there was a rail thin man that only bought reduced price food. stuff that was about to go off or broken y’know #I served him sometimes. every second day he came in #3 cucumbers for 30p. a bag of carrots for 21p. a half loaf of bread for 32p. tomatoes for 17p #and that would be all he ate for 2 days. when we didn’t have some items reduced he would come in the next day to buy them #he was so so fucking thin. no living family. and I don’t know if he died from starvation but he did die starving. #worked for half a century and died starving and cold #and I know exactly how much those items were. not just because I put them on the reduced shelf or scanned them on the till. #because I’ve bought almost the exact same items (minus tomatoes) when we’ve had to buy soap or toothpaste #you’d be surprised how much cucumber you have to eat before you stop feeling hungry

[sobekc]

thinking of making a slightly shameful self-insert werewolf character/story even though I’m absolute dog shit at making characters and narratives

#I haven’t had an oc since my warrior cats days back when I was 12/13 #here’s the lore i’ve come up with so far: #Character lives in the mid/northern Catskills with their mother #somehow they become a werewolf which in this case is a humanoid wolf monster/borderline furry that has the whole bloodlust thing going on #at some point they eat a few yuppies and figure out that they’re a werewolf since they don’t have any memory of being in werewolf form #there’ve been some reports of some weird roided coyotes deeper in the woods so Character tries to find them #it turns out that theyre werewolves and the bloodlust can be reduced/eliminated but the werewolf must permanently take on a wolfish form #the bloodlust is caused by the transformation into werewolf form so the more wolf you decide to become the less bloodlust you feel #you can choose to become more wolfish but you can’t go back to being more human except.. #werewolves live freakishly long and if they develop enough self control/wisdom or whatever they can change back towards a more human form #more like a lycanthrope but they’ll always revert to wolfy form on full moons #still figuring out how they shift into a permanent werewolf form but it’ll probably be some ritual #I also don’t know what the werewolf form actually looks like bc i’m indecisive #the end hopefully I get good at drawing so I can actually make this stuff #ocs

[victorluvsalice]

Well, Alice was mostly wandering around outside, dealing with the full moon and her rapidly-building Fury. While Smiler worked on their Inner Peace with some yoga, and Victor worked on his by trying out the flower arranging bench for the first time, Alice worked on hers by indulging in some howling, some more scavenging, and a milk, honey, and oatmeal soak. Hey, given she was guaranteed to rampage that night, I felt she deserved it.

Before rampages, though, we had an important event to attend -- the Spirit Squad bar night! Because I was in a race to see if I could max out Smiler’s Spirit Squad rank before they graduated, and hanging out with their fellow Squad members seemed like a great day to do that! Smiler started things off by giving everyone nearby a boost of happiness and doing a few cheers. . .

And then the “Erratic” trait kicked in, and they started showering in the rain before trying to lead another Foxbury cheer while still naked. As you can see, their fellow patrons kind of objected to that. XD The animation never completed, though, so I was able to get Smiler back in clothes to continue the night. They had a pretty nice time, overall -- goofing around with their friends, Detecting Personalities on people they didn’t know very well, and taunting rival students before instantly making friends with them because they’re just so lovable when they introduce themselves. :P Didn’t get as much progress on the organization’s membership bar as I hoped, but completing the “Taunt Rival Student” task and a few cheers did move it in the right direction. At least there’s still a chance of maxing it out while Smiler’s still a student!

But the bar night didn’t last forever, and soon Smiler had to go home and face the full moon. . .

#sims 4 #the lazy save #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler always #the smiler #it occurs to me that I should have gotten that 'spa stuff reduces fury' mod from Waffle's Mix-Ins if I was gonna have Alice soak #another time! #so many mods I want to get... #but she still had a nice bath #and yes Smiler had a good night out #even if they did get nekkid for a bit XD #honestly I would have forgiven the showering in the rain in this instance if they'd done the cheer naked #that would have been funny XD #but alas #at least they got some more Spirit Squad points #really wanted them to end their time as a student at max rank #it's in sight! #queued

[tkbrokkoli]

:3

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #trans stuff #1 month on T now! 😁 i def got the most surprising changes #my voice changed a teeny tiny bit. after just waking up and when im putting in effort it's in the androgynous range now. #it doesnt pass as male at all tho. period is reduced to light spotting. i got some bottom growth but i did not feel that at all #so no sensitivity or anything. i just discovered one day that ive had bottom growth #none of the 3 h's (horny hungry hot) for me. in fact i was worried at first my dose was either too low or high or im not absorbing the gel #well bc i didn't notice anything at all. but nope. changes are happening! #now to the bad stuff. had a thrombosis scare last week. i already have a raised risk and T raises it even more and then i had weird pain in #my calf last week. it went away again tho so maybe it was from working out or smth idk. i probably should've seen a doctor just to make #sure my blood levels are ok and i don't have polycythemia. maybe ill do that this week #also. atrophy 😬 #i did not know you could get this like. instantly. i thought this was smth that happened after years on T #anyway. my junk is irritated. i don't do anything w it and the mucus outside is irritated just like that #it is basically almost always uncomfortable. sometimes worse sometimes barely noticeable. idk if it's just a pH change from starting T or i #it'll settle into smth long term. ive now bought a moisturizing cream for down there. haven't tried it out yet but what I've tried is #just putting some lube there over night and it did reduce the symptoms. let's see how that will develop in the next few weeks #i know there's estrogen cream but you need a prescription for that i think. ill try that if the other stuff fails #so anyway my changes are kinda unlike of what ive read usually happens in the first month except for bottom growth #im not complaining (except abt the atrophy) #also shout out to my doctor for putting in my chart that i want to be referred to as a man and also actually referring to me as a #man. only one nurse is actually paying attention to that though and she's also the one who handled my paperwork once where it said im trans #she just uses my last name w/o anything else which is fine for me. i don't pass yet so it would be awkward if i was sir'd in front of other #patients. also i know one of the other nurses from my private life (she's an acquaintance of a former colleague of mine) so she only knows #me pre-transitioning and it again would be kinda awkward idk. i think ill have a talk w the nurses abt what i want to be referred to when i #a little further along in my medical transition. for now its fine being misgendered in front of other patients bc i dont pass anyway #but it's nice being respected in private ie when im alone w my doctor or a nurse #oh btw i had my first exam this week ugh. i was not as well prepared as i should've been but i don't worry abt it too much #bc this is only the first exam and there are many more to come so now i can learn from my mistakes and prepare better/more efficiently