#he’s just an anxious little guy

[thatsrightice]

In Part 2 of Masters of the Air, Crosby said he could make overthinking into a an Olympic sport and after reading his book I can confidently say that it’s 100% valid.

Here’s his recount of what happened during and after the mission to Trondheim, Norway in his book A Wing and a Prayer:

What did they do to a navigator who had screwed up as badly as I had? I never knew where I was. I had forgotten completely that I was to radio back a position report in code every fifteen minutes. I didn't give the groups enough warning before the I.P. If the Germans hadn't sent up the smoke screen we might have gone on to the Arctic Circle.

I had done everything wrong. I messed up the rendezvous. I should have given P.R.'s to radio and a strike message, which he was supposed to send in code back to HQ. None of that. I had left the briefed course. Because I didn't think I could navigate in Norway I took us to Scotland. Instead of being at altitude most of the time I brought us home on the deck.

What did they do for stuff like that? Court-martial? Ground me? That didn't sound so bad. Send me back to the States? Disgrace. As we headed home, I figured no headings. I computed no ETA's. I made no entries in my logbook. All I did was sit there, ooze sweat, stink, and feel sorry for myself. I grimly realized I was not airsick. I didn't use even one paper bag.

…

After we landed, I decided I could not endure the debriefing. I got out of the nose, dropped onto the ground. My frozen ankles hurt as I hit. Without speaking to the ground crew I walked off the concrete and into the woods. It was about a quarter mile to my quarters, but I made it, slinking along to avoid anyone talking to me. When an enlisted man offered me a ride in his jeep, I waved him off.

At the 418th site, no one was around. I went into our Nissen. Empty. I dropped onto my bed. The sweat. The smell of fear and shame. I could not bring myself to take off my fleece-lined flying clothes. I had forgotten to take the radio headset from around my neck. I remembered leaving my parachute in the plane. I should have turned it over to the rigger. What else?

Trouble.

I heard a jeep drive up, stop. A knock at the door.

The court-martial was beginning.

#he’s just an anxious little guy #Harry Crosby needs a hug #fun fact: he got a Distinguished Flying Cross for this mission and he thought he was going to get court marshaled #Harry Crosby had hella anxiety and honestly me too bro #THESE ARE LITERAL QUOTES FROM HIS BOOK LIKE #and this was published in like 1993 so you know he was WAY more dramatic when it actually happened #someone rewrite the scene after Trundheim where he just walked off into the woods to wallow in self pity #Harry Crosby #masters of the air #historically accurate #a wing and a prayer #mota #mota musings #quotes #real mota

[bard-of-beasts]

#my meme #off game #off #off elsen #he just like me for real #when you’re anxious but just a little guy #the skrunkly

[aka-indulgence]

If you ever see those “reblog/copy paste this thing or get (something unpleasant)”, here’s a tiny helpful wizard who’ll dispel them :>

#i saw a post like that earlier and it made me anxious #so theres this little guy now :> #reblog if youd like he just wants to help #aka doodles

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all! It's weird question time again! So that doctor I mentioned before that I wanted to make a dog plushie for because he has improved my quality of life so much* (and also inexplicably reminds me of like a greyhound or a borzoi) is my endocrinologist And, as my endocrinologist, he recommended back in December that I go see a rheumatologist, because he thinks I might have rheumatoid arthritis**. The staff at his office have been trying to get a rheumatologist for four months now. I know that, because yesterday I got a call from the rheumatologist's office and the nurse I spoke to said "Your doctor's office has been very...persistent about getting you this appointment" So now I kinda want to get something for the whole office? But idk what I could get them or make them. Like, in non-medical contexts I'd make cookies or brownies for a group, but I can't bring cookies to a doctor's office. I mean, I guess I could, but if I were them I would definitely not eat them, and I run the risk of allergy-ing a fellow patient. Is there like a gift basket or gift card or thank you card or something you can recommend?

*I mean he maybe should have found a diagnosis before offering me steroids about it but the low dose steroids have made such a HUGE difference in my quality of life I am thrilled with Tennessee's weird (to me, with my experience in California) medical practices **I don't think I have enough joint pain for it to be rheumatoid arthritis, but he's like the fourth doctor to tell me it's weird that when I got hives they usually started on joints, so maybe I'm wrong? I have the weird version of enough medical things that at this point I would not be surprised if I had Weird Rheumatoid Arthritis.

#the person behind the yarn #I want to show my appreciation to these people! #but in a not-super-weird way #because they are my doctors and I want them to think I am a normal human who is rational #so they continue to treat me well. because I am a little paranoid about that with doctors #because of That One Guy at the local urgent care back in socal #who decided one day I had anxiety instead of. you know. allergies. #and he saw me before the allergies got super bad when it was just moderate hives and gave me anxiety meds about it #and then like a year later I was in the beginning stages of a severe allergic reaction #which I knew by then was going badly so I went to the urgent care (like my doctor told me to!) to get steroids for it #and the same guy gave me anxiety meds again and sent me home #I had to go back the next day to get steroids #and the second doc took one look at me and like left the room to go set up a steroid shot #I was COVERED in hives #anyway it both makes me appreciate good doctors #and makes me want to try very hard to make them think I am Not Anxious #something both normal to want and possible to achieve lol

[realbeefman]

boy best friends (:

#i think he was into fat mac #and it made him uncomfortable #bc mac just got MORE hot somehow #and mac is supposed to be his #he almost views mac as an extension of himself #his other half even #and so why is he attracted to a man who is overweight #when he himself couldnt shouldnt wouldnt EVER allow himself to look like that? #hence why he’s soo anxious for mac to lose the weight #he my fucked up lil guy #cant let go of the control even a little #or else the World will end (dennis will have gay thoughts) #macden #mac mcdonald #dennis reynolds #iasip #its always sunny in philadelphia #its always sunny

[nurseydexunsolved]

i Must Discuss something funny & sweet i noticed about murph.

murph obviously plays either Little Gremlin Guys or Big Buff Bois, all of which contain parts of him. he’s mentioned that theo in particular is the character that contains his most idealized self—the kind of person he wants to be.

so when the question was posed of which character you’re most like: he said riz, while brennan and emily both said they see him as most similar to theo.

the person he really wants to be, that may be far away in his eyes, is who his closest friends already see him as🥺

#murph #i just think its so sweet. they think he is so bighearted and a protector and he IS #but also the parts of him that are anxious riz obv make that harder to see #and he IS riz too! riz is SO selfless and generous while also being a ball of nerves lmao #brian murphy #adventuring party #dimension 20 #d20 #also big big fuckin shoutout to this man for so often playing the Grubby Little Guy #i feel like thats such an unusual choice for a default PC but like SOMEONE has to do it there are just not enough GREMLIN characters!! #theobald gumbar #riz gukgak #acoc #fantasy high #mine

[tai-janai]

littel... voices,,, hug and makeu p...

ill do the rest of the scene too so part one i guess

#i kept reading thar 'for what' as if para just wanted him to specify #like he had already forgiven him but he just wanted to hear it #yeah smitty you do not want to get involved in that #nobody can blame para for getting so attached to hero. LOOK AT HIM. #SOFTIEST FUCKING GUY TO EVER EXIST #RUNNING OFF INTO DANGER #who would win #man with zero self-preservation #or his angry anxious wife #stp little voices fanart #little voices #the voices #parahero #para #hero #voice of the paranoid #voice of the hero #remaking-machine + tai-janai

[arthurslesbian]

maybe the real tragedy in merlin is that such a great destiny fell on the shoulders of such a happy go lucky, foolish, careless boy and broke his spirit :(

#merlin #merlin meta #watching season one and. man #he was just so #like so brave ofc and happy and positive and such a little guy #and remembering how it all ends and who he becomes #like ofc someone like him would become overly cautious and anxious #ofc someone like him who loved with all his heart would turn to blind loyalty #merlin :( my beloved #ash watches merlin again

[skrunksthatwunk]

LETS GO LETS GO HARUKA HARUKA HARUKA!!!!

ft. kiryu "faildad" kazuma

#SORRY i love her dearly #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #like a dragon #sawamura haruka #haruka sawamura #kiryu kazuma #ykz #havent been drawing much but suddenly had to draw her #literally a little guy. shes so silly what a sweet pea what a delight!! #ft kiryu being internally anxious and externally awkward #YES THE PRETTY WOMEN THING IS REAL #haruka's line is anyway #it's one of their overworld conversations!! kiryu says he tries to see ppl for who they are outside of looks #it's quite sweet #but i thought this deserved a classic kiryu dialogue fail option so #there that is #anyway i think it would be funny if haruka and kiryu were both bi and kiryu (freshly off his midlife queer awakening) is like oh NO #bc he just got here!! what does he tell her??? does he send her to rina???? how does he help her w that when it took him so long #do you like pretty women 'too'. sweet jesus. queer ppl everywhere these days (2005) #also haruka seems like a charm bracelet kinda girl :) #sorry for doing this on lined paper lol #one day i will go back to digital art and things will be clean and visible and pretty. but today is not that day #gotta clarify that the 'too' there refers to her also liking pretty somen.. not kiryu liking men.. idk if that was clear #but thats the og context #skrunkart

[allthoseotherworlds]

It's honestly pretty frustrating sometimes how I feel like so many people say they love Martha, but mostly what I actually see people saying about Martha is how much she probably does/should hate the Doctor for not returning her crush, or sometimes how much people hate Blink/Family of Blood/Last of the Time Lords because they were hard for her.

And like, the former of those is frustrating because a) Nobody is obligated to return someone's romantic feelings, b) Being oblivious to someone having a crush on you might suck for the other person but is not actually a moral failing and c) Martha was sad about it but like. She didn't leave because she was furious at the Doctor for not returning her crush? She left because she knew her crush wasn't reciprocated and wasn't going to be, but couldn't get over it on her end while travelling with the Doctor. And also because the past year had been pretty traumatizing for everyone, including her and also the Doctor and also everyone else who was on that ship thing.

Anyways

I just wanted to talk for a bit about the things I like about Martha, or that are interesting, that are unrelated to those points above.

I think she's the first companion in New Who to join Unit, and I think still the only one to be a medical doctor with a strong scientific backing. Which is cool!

I think it's interesting that in the first episode she appears in, her family is shown to be kind of messy and kind of frustrating, and it feels like that's something she's a little glad to be getting away from for a bit when she travels with the Doctor (though it's not the reason she travels with them). And then, at the end of the season when her family is in danger she prioritizes their wellbeing enough to snap at the Doctor about it. If I remember correctly their phones were tapped or something and it wound up making things a bit worse, but I appreciate the nuances of her relationship with them and how important they are to her despite the messiness.

Despite all the ado made about her crush on the Doctor, I really loved how she really seemed to get the point of travelling with the Doctor. I think that she nailed both the joy and excitement of the unknown, and the compassion and sense of care that motivates the Doctor's travels, and which I think is vital to all of my favourite companions.

It also contrasts in interesting ways with how her personality shifts after she stops travelling with the Doctor - she still cares about people's wellbeing and seems to value the things she learned while travelling, but working with Unit and Torchwood does make her more military, and then of course doing freelance alien fighting (? or something?) in the End of Time.

I think Martha and the Doctor are an interesting duo because they contrast each other in interesting ways. They're both compassionate, hopeful but practical, and good at what they do, but they reflect those qualities in ways that almost, but don't quite, fit together nicely. They don't conflict, really, but they're not quite sustainable either.

They work well together and care about each other, but they're too similar in some ways and too different in others to ever quite see eye to eye, which is why they end up going in different directions. And I think that's not anyone's fault, or indicative of any deep flaws in either of them. Or even really a tragedy, because Martha seems to be doing new and interesting things every time we see her, with plenty of options available and a decent rapport with the Doctor whenever they show up.

Anyway this got way longer than I meant it to. Tldr: There are so many more interesting things to say about Martha than just "She must hate the Doctor". Here are some of them.

#Also I didn't have room here but. I understand hating the family of blood stuff but. John Smith is not the Doctor. That's the whole point #John Smith is absolutely rude to Martha and I dislike him as a person. But he is also not the Doctor #And I absolutely do not believe that the Doctor handpicked the persona and went “Yeah. Making him rude and racist and like guns” #I think they just got out the chameleon arch and said #“Here's the time and location that gives us the best shot at avoiding the family of blood. Give me and Martha random identities. Thanks” #That said it's actually not an episode I particularly like so I don't know why I'm rambling about it here #I get anxious about things where characters are Not Themselves and being rude and mean in ways they aren't #And also found the ending a little Too Much personally #Anyways I'm just monologuing now #Doctor Who #Doctor Who Meta #Martha Jones #I am talking #I am just some guy (gender neutral) #This post brought to you by another person joking about how Martha is so strong for putting up with the Doctor because of the crush stuff #And me as an aromantic not enjoying the implication that I am something to put up with and that the most interesting thing anyone can say #about a dynamic between two people is how much it sucks that one of them didn't know the other had a crush and 'led them on' #or whatever. But just ranting about that again didn't feel constructive so I tried to say more interesting things instead

[pass-the-5sauce]

Luke rubbing Michael's back soothingly while taking a picture with fans 🥺

#this is so so so soft #the little pat on the shoulder #and then the repeated arm movement you can barely see as he rubs his back #all while posing for a group fan pic #like 'i know youre anxious but im here i got you' #and then michaels smile at the end #and him patting lukes shoulder #those guys just always know when one of them is not feeling well #and theyre always there to support one another #i love them so much #muke #michael clifford #luke hemmings #mgc #lrh #5 seconds of summer #5sos

[transgender-catboy]

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#BUT THE TAGS ARE A WHOLE OTHER STORY BABEEEYYY #AHHHHHHHH #JSHSHDKSKHSVDBDNDBGGRRRRRBARKBARKBARKBARKARFARFARF #GDHJSJDH #LOOK AT HIM DUMB FACE #stupid stupid stupid #he's so. AAAHHHH #also the little pinky thing is cute. and also something i do #just. just his hands #ya know? #i just know he's like. the ideal guy to hild hands with. ue probably does that little comforting thumb thing #ya know the one. when you're just laying together holding hands and they rub their thumb on the back of your hand #oh and he always does a little hand squeeze as a check in if he thinks ya might be stressing (whether it be when you're out and anxious) #(or maybe just when he thinks something is on your mind) #god. fuck #he's comfort personified. had to go through depression to get there though. like the best of us #it's late rn so ignore my typos #pls #teehee. now the fun tags since I've created enough space from the front. #this man... oh. okay. um. ehe. he's a giver for sure #like. ya know. um. actually I'm too shy to say the rest of that #ehe. #he just seems the type who loves to [REDACTED] #I wanna say cuddles would be necessary afterwards but i also think he runs hot so he'd probably feel gross and sticky #so he'd either immediately shower after or just flop down dead because he's an old man (lovingly jokingly) #ya know? uh. yeah. okay #rant over for tonight

[woolydemon]

i am so apathetic to popular male transformers characters, but i have a simple trick to make me care abt them: i turn them into robot women then i suddenly start seeing their appeal

#grimlock would be so awesome as a butch woman. DO YOU HEAR ME DOES ANYBODY HEAR ME HELLOOOO #also crazy in depth conversation i had abt this made me think abt why i get rlly. apathetic abt popular tf characters #esp when i realize all the popular characters im Whatever abt are all men #but i always have interest in the female ones and also the niche little weird guys #you are looking at rare scrounge fan. rare wheelie fan. and Number 1 Fan of Blurr* #*when hes a dorky weird anxious guy. yknow the ones ppl dont care abt bc hes “annoying” and “ugly” #i dont give as much of a shit abt the handsome cocky racer blurrs #i realize. because tf fandom has a weird thing abt only caring abt how attractive a character is #and tends to gravitate to male characters for that aspect #like lets be real here. there is such a high priority in this fandom for what characters look best in porn. im right. #and ppl love the yaoi robots for that. #and i. am on the aroace spectrum. and do not find as much attraction in men (though i do sometimes. just less so) #so this doesnt appeal to me #so i find myself so incredibly apathetic or a hater to a lot of the tf fandom bc of this #in turn i do not care so much for the popular characters or straight up see them as red flags (admittedly im a bit irrational for this tho) #a lot of times i get a feeling like “ok whats so special abt this guy. its just another conventionally attractive man" it feels boring to m #so that might explain why i become more interested in these characters if they arent men #this is all being said from a nonbinary person that leans more transmasc btw. just noting that. #rando thoughtz

[jerek]

Fear not. My Wrathion's toxic unhealthy dynamic is with his CHAMPIONS

#midhaposting #midha 'ok yeah hes forcing enmeshment on me but hes probably just anxious bc of what happened w anduin' #'hes just a baby hes just a little guy sure hes a little enmeshed. sure he called me his mother-daughter. he doesnt even have any testoste #[violin sting as the first nanogram per deciliter enters wrathions bloodstream] #RIP the classic bates falsity

[myososheep]

it's the Bird Instincts(tm) Rhea, he can't help it

harpies are known to enjoy perching on high places, as a kid Hibi took a habit of perching on Yoan's shoulders that followed even into adulthood.

he does have to battle those instincts on some occasions, especially later in the story when the group get familiar with Vrisk and Othia

#my art #watercolors #my ocs #hibi #yoan #rhea #othia #vrisk #he's just a little guy! #anxious birb boy

[prophecyofgray]

watchjgn over the garden wall for the first time ever (I Know.) and was anyone gonna tell me that wirt is literally me

#i know i say thsi about every autistic transmasc little guy but in all fairness i AM an autistic transmasc little guy #and he wears a silly hat. AND PLAYS THE CLARINET #and is an older brother and his mom remarried and he is so anxious but also so stubborn and bitchy #the physical reactions im havign to this kid being Just Like Me #FOR. REAL. #audie talks #'i dont have the embouchure for bassoon' HE'S SO SILLY. AND AUTISM.