#i am going. to McLose it

[soldier-poet-king]

Absolute uncontained hysterics tonight for no discernable reason

#posting from the 1800s being diagnosed with female hysteria as we speak #Franposting #TRULY JUST. I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE IM JUST. MCLOSING IT #i laugh cried for 20 straight minute #minutes #i am going to. wash my hair. light a candle. NOT force myself to meal plan even tho i should. it can wait til tmrw #and then??? idk. gotta do smthn that wont make me feel insane. maybe mindless sdv while watching d20 #maybe read more naruto #ahahhhhhhh #also tooth HURTY im increasingly worried and my dentist appt is tuesday night

[ryanxross]

is ted lasso seriously going with the “forgive your abusive parents. for yourself :)” trope

#me the entire episode: ‘and i was so caught up in the euphoria of jamiexroyxkeeley that i almost forgot about #the absolute horrendous messaging surrounding forgiveness and abuse!’ #i am going to mcLose It #ted lasso #jamie tartt

[isa-ah]

bro do u ever just wanna be held so bad it's crippling

#i am going 2 mclose it #ahhhhhhh

[mercymaker]

reading anna's lore for a set and like

As soon as Anna was able to walk, her mother started teaching her how to survive a harsh, solitary life in the northern woods. Living in such an extremely remote and dangerous area required skill and resilience. When sunlight became too dim for productive activities, they would take refuge in their house, a sturdy old cabin constructed to resist the toughest winters. Close to the hearth’s warmth, Anna would rest in her mother's arms, surrounded by the few wooden toys and masks she had crafted for her.

maleane anna deebeedee au when

#life #listen i am going at 57782km/h absolutely wrong lane too #mclosing it but going strong in .psd and .gif formats

[liceparade]

shin/baylan are amazing characters trapped in a disney production unfortunately lol but i’m working on a supercut of their scenes only specifically because of this

literally the roman roy "is he in there? can we get him out?"

real talk tho supercuts are the backbone of fandom, if you ever have the time/energy to finish it pls pls pls drop a link!! (or msg me off anon so i can follow u lol)

#when she ignites that red lightsaber and has a padawan braid and we realize baylan still thinks he's a jedi i was mcLosing it #also zero pressure to come off anon btw i am just v tumblr friendly lol #am kinda mad i didn't watch far enough to see what was up w them. baylan seems like replacement c'baoth which. wild. #i know i will go crazy over shin as girl attack dog we neeeever get girl attack dogs!!! #UGH

[quiets-cradle]

does anyone know what those bits of hair that hang loose when you put your hair up are called? they're too much hair to be just loose strands. i thought they were side bangs but from a quick google that's something else entirely.

#more rambling #i'm mclosing it google is failing me spectacularly 😔 #and i'm too scared to go on discord so here i am

[fishwyfe]

Having a crush is terrible, it means letting a man explain how basketball draft and player trading works all because he has some stubble that afternoon

#I am going to McLose it

[lunarriviera]

on the importance of beta screaming

i would like to say a little bit here in this chili’s tonight about the vital, indispensible role of beta enthusiasm.

because yeah we all know we get tied in knots in our prose, write sex scenes with impossible numbers of hands, dangle modifiers, repeat words, commit horrifying typos like “he licks with his tounge.” i have several useless graduate degrees so yes i can fix all those things for you or offer revision suggestions. as well, i am a north american who lived in the uk and divorced a londoner, so i can also britpick or yankpick your fic. then, it’s important to have at least one beta who can check you if you’re writing about a culture other than your own. finally, i usually will only beta for fic with whose canon i am intimately familiar.

those things are helpful, even essential. but there is something else a beta reader not only can do, but has to do, and that is scream.

look it’s hard out here for a pimp okay. we are in our little offices or bedrooms or hunched on the bathroom floor with the phone just trying to write our little stories. we made a tiny gay man and we gave him problems, and now we are going to make it YOUR problem. and then we will all thrash around and yell happily together, for we love this tiny gay man.

but until someone picks that fic out of the tag and clicks on it and reads it and starts keysmashing in the comment box, you’re all alone. just you, in your head, in your room, while you’re walking around the park, while you’re shampooing your hair, while you’re cleaning the cat’s litter pan—it’s just you. (and, sure, also the imaginary friends who spout riveting or hilarious dialogue in your head. them too.)

and when you’re all alone with just your words and your little people, a terrible and completely unique kind of loneliness can sink in. were they the right words? were they funny, pretty, tragic, joyful, smart? do they truly convey the depth of your feeling? and above all else: can they compel someone else to feel what you felt? because you’ve read that fic that made you scream into a pillow at 2 am. and you wonder: can i do that for someone else? can i feel my feelings so strongly and so well that they reach out of the screen and haul someone else in along with them?

and in the hours, days, weeks of waiting for someone to reach back through the pixels for you, a beta steps in to fill that space. this, she will let you know, is good. this is REALLY good. this is so good she’s gonna dword. she has no chill. she is about to mclose it. how dare you. she thought you were friends. now you’re in a fight. elmo in flames dot gif., screaming girl dot png., spongebob burying himself dot webp.

this is not an OPTIONAL feature of a beta reader. this is not just a nice thing that it’s nice to have. this might be the ESSENTIAL function of a beta. her hand is over your head and it’s briefly sheltering you from the pouring rain. hey listen! she says, and she cups your face in her hands: SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP. and you, wherever you are in the world, even if you’re 24 hours away from her on the globe, you put your palms to your cheeks to feel the warm blush of happiness and relief. someone else is out there, picking up what you’re throwing down. and you did not fuck it up. it’s actually entirely possible that you nailed it.

without her, you wouldn’t know. and in fact in a small fandom, without her, there wouldn’t BE that much of a fandom. so you and your beta get to be a part of that little group of people who keep a set of stories, a family of characters, alive. that’s fun too. (plus you get to backchannel about all the horribly Wrong Opinions everyone else has. this both saves you from making an ass of yourself on social media, and will make you guffaw during a zoom meeting if you’re not careful.)

so get you a beta reader who’s a screamer. i said what i said. don’t settle for someone who can be nitpicky about the past perfect but who never says anything positive; people will remember and come to read the fic that’s stunning and strange and new even if you forget to use “had.”

i aim for about 50/50 between praise and suggestions (the same proportions i use as a professor), but if i’m honest it winds up being more like 80/20 for fanfic. that’s okay. if i’m gonna err, i’d rather err on the side of encouragement.

we get so little of that, either as writers or just in the world. we get so little hand-holding and shoulder rubs and affectionate hollering. so when you beta, think about letting loose a little. think about, sure, exaggerating for effect. you know how sweet it feels when someone gets all exuberant all over your drafts—so maybe allcaps a little bit, as a treat. it feels pretty great. you’ll see.

(oh and ps: save a life. leave an ao3 comment.)

#y'all beta readers are out here every day doing the lord's work #show them some love #buy them some dark chocolate #beta readers #beta reading #fic betas #fanfiction betas #writeblr #fic writing

[desceros]

ok so the maternal instincts are slightly higher than usual today...

[peeks over your shoulder to catch a glimpse of Bayverse Leo wanting a baby]

i am positively,, going to,,, McLose it when you post that fic

ooooh it’s over here on ao3 for you to enjoy!!

that just leaves the we do it together verse rise leo and papatello fics for turtle dads…. well. for now [weeps at the state of my wip pile]

#ask tag #so many turtle dads……… chin hands

[soldier-poet-king]

I don't have an afternoon coffee. I'm anxious and upset. I DO have an afternoon coffee. I'm anxious and upset. I'm beginning to think this has nothing to do with my caffeine consumption

#truly lads im mclosing it #franposting #CAN WINTER BE OVER PLEASE #i am going to start tearing down buildings with my hands i am so desperate for warmth and sun #and im constantly upset or weepy or cranky for NO reason #and CONSTANTLY low-key have a cold #i just. want to be healthy and not chewing the walls mentally #everything feels stressful but if i sit down and try to identify the specific stessors #its like???? bitchy y r u worrying theres nothing major wrong #just all the ususl little wrongs and inconveniences but those are usual

[maybanksbabe]

shower sex with JJ is driving me insane I’m going feral

I AM GOING TO MCLOSE IT ANON -

#jj maybank x reader #jj thots

[aceoxide]

24 hours before EN3 and I'm McLosing my McFreaking Mind

Okay so like, there's obviously a pattern that every EN gen has been following. Let's put aside whether or not it was intentional or not. Actually no, I guess it's best to describe them as archetypes.

The Leader: This should be obvious. I guess this is more due to the idolness of Hololive but it's the person that more or less keeps the group in check lore-wise. Perhaps it's more accurate to call them the "heart." Examples being Ame in Myth, Bae in Council, and arguably Shiori in Advent

The Musical Prodigy: Again, obvious. This is the one that is the standout musical genius. Biggest example is Calli in Myth, Irys and Bae in Council (stick with me I'm coming up with something I think), and presumably Nerissa in Advent.

The Diplomat: For HoloEN specifically, there is always someone who knows multiple languages, mainly English and Japanese, for the sake of being able to communicate with HoloJP proper. Examples being Calli and Kiara in Myth, Bae and Sana in Council, and presumably the twin dogs in Advent.

The Artisan: This one is someone who has specific knowledge of a particular specialty outside of streaming. Ina from Myth (drawing), Sana (drawing) and Fauna (ASMR, writing) from Council are examples. We won't know who the specialist is in Advent.

The Specialist: I'm going to be honest this is pretty much the misc. section.

Actually writing this more I don't really think you can properly put every holo into one archetype since a lot members share a lot of similarities. Like, both Ame and Kiara can be leaders, Kiara and Calli are both diplomats, and I honestly have no idea where you can classify some members like Mumei, Gura, and Kronii?

This was a kinda silly thing to write or maybe I should wait until we see Advent debut but I'm legit too excited for anything.

#ace notes

[tricksheart]

"Please.....just....let.....me.....sleep.....ISG if someone bothers me before dawn or the morning hours again, I am going to fucking McLose it....." Here is a rare cranky mister lazy bones in his natural habitat.

#[ just a cage a bones. there is nothing inside. IN CHARACTER ] #open to mutuals #poke him at your own risk lol

[cryoniic]

KAEYA ALBERICH LOMFL I AM NOT NORMAL OR AVERAGE OR OKAY ABOUT HIM AND HIS HANGOUT IS NOW AVAILABLE I AM GOING TO MCCRY MCDIE MCLOSE IT MCFUCKING AHHHHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭 SOMEBODY HOLD ME😭😭😭😭😭

#I THOUGHT IT WAS TOMORROW BC I JUST DID #BUT ITS TODAY #GOD BLESS BEA FOR LETTING ME KNOW I AM #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[corgiteatime]

I have a lot going on at the moment and I am this close to fucking McLosing it

#i am having a tough time at the moment

[koreandragon]

ljk going on main and basically telling the world he has been in love with iu for years by comparing her to a character from basically the ONLY purely romance drama in his filmography is the most romantic shit i have ever seen and i am NOT okay like??????? he looks like that and can act his ass off and is a hopeless romantic who has been pining after the same woman for basically a decade?!?! and finally got her too!!!! AS HE SHOULD!!!!!! apparently he even went out of his way to plan their whole christmas trip to japan too. like he did all the booking and flights and everything himself plus personally invited her brother PINE I AM MCLOSING IT HOW IS THIS MAN REAL I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!! i am both happy for iu and envious as hell?!?! like do they need a third? i will happily be their third!!!!

not to reduce korean people to purely kdrama tropes (even though ljs did it himself) but like this is literally a kdrama plot I'm crying?? what kind of slow burn friends to lovers shit is this that's crazy... i think we have couple of the decade, dare i say surpassing hyun bin and son yejin...

#I'd love to get in as a third damn #ask #anonymous