#i can't thank you enough anon

[disaster-catalyst]

Hello sorry to drop in randomly but i saw that you reblogged the glorious rejected soulmate au post and i actually found a fic on AO3 based on the prompt. I thought you would like to know about it? Its titled "Danny Phantom and His Stupid Fucking Soulmate" by lets_get_this_salmonella. Its only a couple chapters in but ITS SO GOOD. I loved the prompt and am so excited to see where the fic goes.

Hi! Don't say sorry this is wonderful news that I wouldn't have gotten otherwise without you dropping in so yes thank you!!

The prompt is already lovely (the fluff, angst, and chaos potential is immaculate) so I'm excited to see how this fic turns out

Again, thank you for sharing this with me, anon :D

#alpas answers #this is definitely a pleasant surprise #i can't thank you enough anon #dp x dc #danny phantom #braindead rejected soulmates au #dp x dc prompts #braindead #brain dead

[honnelander]

How did Sanji and reader meet the first time? What did they think of each other at first impression 👀?

hmm interesting question! i feel like it would go a little something like this (in my main "mutual pining" series):

You had originally joined the crew back in the beginning with Luffy, Nami, and Zoro when they were going up against Buggy. Since helping them slice that clown pirate down to size, you were a straw hat.

You never particularly had a dream of your own or knew where you wanted to be, but once you met Luffy and his endless optimism and kindness?? You knew it then: you had found your people.

So when did you meet Sanji? At the same time as everyone else, at the Baratie.

After Nami slipped the host some berry to get your crew a table, you all made your way down to the main dining area. Watching Zoro struggle to slide into the booth because of his swords was practically the funniest thing you've ever seen so you couldn't help the laughter that came out of you and in turn, that made the rest of the straw-hats all join you in poking fun at Zoro and laugh your asses off (much to Zoro's chagrin).

"Fuck you guys," Zoro muttered as he gave each member of the crew their own personal death glare.

When the swordsman locked eyes with you for your own personal Zoro Death Glare, you couldn't help but laugh louder.

Meanwhile, in the kitchen, everyone's favorite blonde-haired chef was busy making the infamous bluefin tuna special that led to him getting kicked out to wait tables that particular night.

As Sanji put the final touches on his off-the-menu special, wiped the edges of the plate clean, and confidently strode to the front of the line, all while bantering with Patty, he felt on top of the world.

Until Zeff crapped all over his dish and kicked him off the line.

"Fucking old man," Sanji snarled under his breath as he pushed the kitchen doors to the dining room a little more harsh than necessary.

As he walked into the dining room, slinging his suit blazer over his shoulders, he was fuming...until he heard a loud chorus of laughter come from his right. He looked up in curiosity as he buttoned his blazer in the little alcove next to the kitchen and scanned the dining room. Baratie was a more upscale, fine dining experience (especially for pirates), so for a table of guests to laugh as loud as he was hearing was certainly new to the cook. Whoever they were, they definitely must not be from around here.

His blue eyes immediately went to the table nearest to him, table eight, where he had his eyes set on the pretty blonde woman earlier in the night in hopes that she was the one laughing loudly but, no she wasn't. When he took the plate of pastries and took a few steps into the dining room, he heard the laughter towards his right and immediately looked that way with a cool gaze.

And the sight he was met with nearly took his breath away. At table ten, he saw the most gorgeous woman he'd ever seen: you. There you were, sitting there at the table, laughing your ass off at the green-haired guy next to you, laughing so hard you were hitting the table with your fist, not a care in the world. It looked like everyone else at your table was laughing along with you, all except for mosshead (a stick in the mud, Sanji thought with a scoff).

Only one thought occupied his mind now, not Zeff, not the bluefin special, not being kicked out of the kitchen, just: you. You and your infectious laugh.

Everything after that happened in a blur. The two pirates at table eight both stood up enraged, yelling insults back and forth along with threats to kill each other, ripping Sanji's attention away from you and pissing him off all over again.

Could anything go right today?

Once he kicked those two pirates unconscious, he then smoothed out his suit jacket, let out a small exhale of satisfaction, and picked up the plate of pastries again. As he strode over to your table, he put on his most charming smile and placed the pastry plate right down on your table like nothing had just happened.

And to be fair? Pirates fighting did happen all the time, that was just another typical Tuesday night at the Baratie.

But meeting you? That was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and he'd do anything to hear you laugh and see your gorgeous smile light up that pretty face of yours again.

He stared right at you as he said, "Good evening, and welcome to our shitty little restaurant: the Baratie."

At his tone and choice of words, you couldn't help but look at your extremely attractive waiter in surprise and confusion and let out a surprised laugh. Didn't he work here?

He kept going though but his charming smile only widened at hearing your laugh, his smile reaching his eyes as he said, "My name is Sanji. What can I get for you?"

And in that moment, without the other person's knowledge, you were smitten with each other.

Taglist: @smolracoon25

#sanji #sanji x reader #asks #sanji x y/n #opla!sanji x reader #opla!sanji #idiots in love series #friends to lovers #mutual pining #thank you for this ask anon! #i had fun writing it #i literally can't get enough of them #this is the most productive i've been in days #once again i get carried away #go fish! au #blurbs

[crystallizsch]

Hello! I would like to say that your art my favorite in the entire fandom, I don't know how to describe it but it just feels the best 💃 The way you draw the characters is very nice, Jamil is one of my favorites and you have his personality captured very nicely! Anyway, I hope you have a good day and I hope a lifetime supply of your favorite food drops from the sky for you 🤸‍♀️

AAHH THIS IS MAKING ME CRYYY ANON

i've never received a compliment about my art like this before so that's such an honor to hear 😭💕💕

THANK YOU SO MUCH I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST (*chucks this out here as another thanks*)

#this just really made me emotional and ridiculously happy hdhgfhgfjf #people complimenting my art is always the last thing i expect #which i dont mind because i throw my art out there preferring thoughts about its idea rather than its quality #but compliments are always such a jumpscare and they always feel good regardless 💕💕💕 #so i really can't thank you enough anon 😭🫶😭🫶 😭🫶 #i also sometimes fear that i make jamil ooc since im basically just headcannoning how he acts if he ever gets the feels(tm) #the most affection he shows in game i think is platonic and he BARELY even shows that #so i'm also so happy to hear you think i portray him well 💕 #i'm putting up this ask on my wall #[— #✦ i have thoughts #✦ asks #(💜) yuusha #(💜) scarabiyuu #★ my art #twst #twisted wonderland #twst art #jamil viper #kalim al asim #scarabia #twst yuusona #twst yuu #—]

[dustykneed]

what was the first piece of Star Trek media you consumed? :)

Anon you have fallen for my nefarious schemes once again... (rips off disguise with an evil flourish) I may look like a trekkie, but I am actually.......

A trekkie who is a huge nerd at heart xDD. I got into Star Trek mainly through assimilating fanfic into my conciousness. I've heard my characterizations are surprisingly solid (YIPPEE) for someone who only vaguely knows what happens in canon. But I've never actually had the pleasure of going through any official Trek media yet! My one flex is that I have no qualms against spoilers of any magnitude lol.

I know this isn't Trek media explicitly, but in the spirit of responding to the sentiment behind the question, ngl, I'm going to have to go with Mythbusters. I honestly didn't really pay much attention to the Trek segments when I watched it for the first time (that being said, I *need* to go back and watch the gorn cannon episode again omg). But Mythbusters was so formative for me because it gave me that push to get excited about science again after spending so many years defining myself as only an art/literature nerd when I was so excited about science when I was a kid.

I think in a sense, my interest in Star Trek is directly descended from the impact Mythbusters had on me-- and I think that's pretty neat :]]

#ace attorney reference who? 👀 #star trek #dust talks #mythbusters #thank you so much for the ask anon!! you prompted so many Thoughts and i can't thank you enough for that honestly <33 #bit of vulnerability in the house today lads! but i really can't express just how deeply significant mb and star trek are to me as a person #these shows are fundamentally about people who love what they do so very much. and that love means so much to me :') #that mixture of art and science!! storytelling and asking questions!!! that...love. #i think i *will* to boldly go. and i think that ill remember if it's worth doing then it's worth overdoing while im at it. #dust reflects #(get it. bc dust particles reflect light. ok ill show myself out loll) #tysm anon!! ily than you for stickin around #thank* #typos most beloathed....

[shortcakelils]

(this one is from sometime in August ^^^)

(same with this one ^^^)

@mimuo-no @acemakes-art @fifithegreat654 @fizz-wizz-dizz

Thank you guys so much for all of the support! It's cus of you guys that I try to post as often as I can! I love you all and none of the stuff I've done here would have been possible if it weren't for you guys interacting with me and sharing my posts!

#answered asks #ask #asks #I'm gonna guess that anon is cupid this time #I'm so sorry to the person who sent it if it isn't #seriously though I love y'all sm and appreciate everything you've done for me #all the fanart #the nice comments #and just everything #it's so special to me and I wouldn't trade any of y'all for the world #you guys are so awesome I can't #thank you to everyone who's given me asks and followed me and liked and reblogged my posts #cannot thank you all enough #ik some of y'all sent these to make me feel better about that long ass anon hate ask I got but ik you're genuine #anyway that's been me #stay safe y'all!

[fluxweeed]

hey. hope this message doesn't bother you. I love you. I love your work. you are one of my favorite fic authors, I am absolutely obsessed with everything you write. reread everything ten times over, drarry or not, fluffy or angsty - even when it absolutely shatters my heart (e.g. for lack of wanting, SUCH a great fic btw i'm so obsessed with it). the four doors? life changing. two to lie and one to listen? engraved into my brain for eternity. what's mine is yours? what a ride holy shit, im VERY normal about it. wrapped? my comfort read. and so it goes.

if I could aggressively smother you with kudos and love I WOULD!!!

awhile ago you said that there's no such thing as "big deals" in fandom and I 100% agree but at the same time you are a big deal TO ME!!! not in the sense of any kind of hierarchy but purely based on the fact that I think you are such a cool person and your writing is amazing and poignant and your presence in fandom makes it so much better. it's been a pleasure following you here on tumblr and just reading your tags and posts.

idk I just think you rule. that's it. thank you for hanging with us. MWAH 💛

ahhhh anon sorry for leaving this message sitting in my inbox for a couple of days but !! i have zero idea how to react to this!! you're so kind!! thank you!! please discard any and all inclinations u have that i am a cool person bc i can assure you i am NOT!!

#tumblr tag essay time? tumblr tag essay time #why can't i do this in the main body of a post u ask? pure obnoxiousness ig idk #scarier when it's not greyed out and in a little whisper innit #1) anon i love and appreciate you + your kind words so so much but i rly cannot stress enough that literally nobody here is a big deal 😭 #like i know u don't mean it in That Way but even so!!! #this is a hill i could write another 1k words about before i die on it again but i will spare u 😅 #2) ur also v v kind to say the thing abt my presence in fandom #but unfortunately i'm coming to terms with the fact that my presence in fandom is v much on the sidelines #a non-presence #i'm embracing my role as the crotchety old hag who does not attend the functions #i have a hut in the woods and u can find me there (here in tumblr tags) muttering to myself #occasionally i'll wander into the town square (ao3) and present an unnerving thing i made from mud and twigs (a fic) and then i'll fuck off #that's about all i can handle in terms of group settings i think 😅 #but the door to my hut (my DMs) is always open if u want to stop by! #3) i can't even begin to acknowledge all the nice things u said about my fics kjhsdf you are truly too generous 😭 #let me smother YOU with love!!! cmere!!! #4) this is the second nice anon message i've had in the last couple weeks which is !!!! #anon(s) i'm kissing you wherever u consent to be kissed!!! #but ofc now i'm paranoid ppl will think i'm sending these to myself skdljf #can't stress enough how open my DMs are on here/twt/discord if ever u wanna chat in a way that i don't have to post publicly to reply to 😅 #5) i'm soooo sorry about these tags #could have just said “thanks!” couldn't i #please put me right in the bin #anyway sorry again thank you again ilu very much ❤️

[averlym]

May I req soft parrlyn please

thank you for the req, here they are <3

#i'm stressed rn bc of stuff due tmr so here is some quick fluff to make my mind chill out so i can Do the Thing due in several hours #at my very core i have a soft spot for parrlyn #smth smth nostalgia smth smth i like their dynamic smth smth they feel surprisingly stable. somehow the most grounded of all the anne ships #like. out of the lot oddly enough i think parrlyn strikes me as functioning gays??? aramour is notable for soft. parrward is notable for #soft but different vibes- like a bit more young and revolutionary than aramour (that one is soft plus stability ish?) and aralyn of course h #has the tension and contrasts going on maxed out to a T. and like katana feels cute but again soft but different vibes??? #i can't explain it. so many of the ships are soft but different vibes. maybe i'll try to draw smth out one day about it #but like. yeah! parrlyn beloved. comfort ship fr. thank you for the lovely request anon #on other notes. i can't draw legs and feet proportionately when doodling bc i keep underestimating the size of a post it note square #so forgive the odd anat on this #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anne boleyn #catherine parr #parrlyn #drew cathy w her hair down!!! hoping very hard no one mistakes her for aragon. but then again?? that would be my fault u-u #anne's other hand is holding her phone but you can't see it bc cathy head in front. it's not being used rn tho

[malleleothreesome]

YOUR MALLEUS POST IS JUST!!!!! AGDKFFLSVFL!!!! WHO KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES I RE-READ THAT THING BUT IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT!!!! 😫😭👌🖤💚

I'm so late to this but thank you so much Knight!! 🖤💚🖤💚 I'm so happy you enjoyed Blindfolded Malleus... I was so excited for you to read it, and I'm very happy it lived up to the hype and anticipation!!! Truly, I am so honored and grateful that you would re-read something so long 🥹 it amazes me how supportive you are!! I hope I can continue to write things that you enjoy! One day in the [regretfully] far future I swear to you that I will put out an Idia fic just for you hehehe. I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of things I am excited to write, but I guess that is a wonderful problem to have! I only wish I had more time in the day to write, but alas, such is life. Why the fUCk am I writing so formal right now daiohssadoi;hdSAO not me saying BUT ALAS. SUCH IS LIFE????? It is so.

I'm actually taking a TWELVE DAY vacation from work starting on the 22nd so I might actually do a little request event where people can send me like kink prompts or something. I think that'll be fun!

Okay and FINE I'll do some fluff prompts too for the fluff people but please don't judge my fluff too harshly, I'm still learning!!! For some reason smut just comes naturally dhaDSAHIDDASijdsan I'll start gathering some prompts and we will do a little ask game or something.

📣 By the way FELLOW HONEST THIGH RIDING ANON if you SEE this first of all, ONCE AGAIN: I wish to express my undying devotion to you and your exceptional thought process. I am positively frothing at the mouth over your request and I am PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE I am finally making good progress and it WILL be out soon. We WILL make him cum in his pants. We WILL make him cry, whimper, and moan.

#sorry knight i took over your ask to make a desperate PSA for my hero: fellow honest thigh riding anon #ILYSM KNIGHT THANK U FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #does my millennial show when I key smash #as someone born in 96 i am actually right on the cutoff for millennial and gen z #so i choose to identify with whoever is getting the best press at the time #just kidding im sorry gen z i can't relate to yall at all... #i still like ugg boots and my hair will forever be side parted #most of my millennial cringe comes from being a tumblr user between 2010 and 2014 #it is engrained #the cool thing about getting older (young people heed my words): #i am unbully-able (and one day you will be too) #you simply cannot make me feel bad about doing things i like to do and enjoying things that make me happy #take pride in what you enjoy and don't let societal norms stop you #also you don't have to worry about getting bullied anyway because adults literally don't do that to each other #everyone in their mid 20s and beyond have learned to stop caring about what other people do for their own enjoyment #because like... lets be real... seeing and learning about what makes people happy... is super cool. the world needs more happiness #this is also a call out: if your friends or online spaces make you feel bad about your interests... gtfo of there #thats not the norm. curate your spaces for what makes you feel good!!! #your 20s are shit enough without so much negativity during the times you are supposed to be relaxed and surrounded by loved ones #this post was made by ugg boot gang #‧͙+ ̊*・༓☾ Erica Answers ☽༓・* ̊+‧͙

[hopeinthebox]

your tags (and also your reductress posts) are the funniest most charming thing i have ever seen on the internet and not to be parasocial but i wish we were best friends

ANON!!! not to be parasocial but we absolutely are?? anyway quick question- is it too soon to say i love you

#i do not struggle with parasocial relationships in fact they come very easily to me #how could you say this to me and expect anything less than a proposal of marriage #funny AND charming?? somebody write this down #skdjfbjdks thank you ever so much my love i wish i didn't have to spend a week smiling and giggling and kicking my feet before responding #but once i'd started i found it quite difficult to stop #wishing you all the good stuff <33 #ask #anon #best friends forever #no but in all seriousness i do apologise for the delay - #i've had a particularly Rough Week but this has cheered me up immensely and i really can't thank you enough #MWAH #💚💚💚

[stick-by-me]

how many new follower stickers do you have to do at the time of me asking? i admire the dedication and personalization of each one!

Thank you so much! I'm glad y'all appreciate them, they're super fun to do :] And at the time of you asking? Oh gosh golly XD. I have 7 prepped and ready in the queue and 14 more I need to investigate/pick out right now.

#If I didn't have my Halloween queue I'd probably be queuing two a day just to get them out faster #But I think 2 og posts a day is enough xD #Because i post them in order too I tend to get Stuck on certain blogs #and even if ive picked out some later ones I can't actually. Add to queue until I figure out the missing one 😭 #I'll figure it out tho I always do 😌 #alSO I KNOW I HAVE SOME OTHER ASKS RN BUT I HAVENT HAS TIME TO LOOK THROUGH MY COLLECTION LATELY #I SEE U AND I LOVE U AND THANKING YOU FOR SENDING ASKS I THINK ABOUT ANSWERING LIKE 24/7 #I want to try and answer them this weekend but. A H. Human responsibilities #We'll see 👍 together #Not stickers #Asks my beloved #anonymous #Anon #It brings me so much joy that yall like the nfs seriously thank u :] #I had a massive influx of new followers from my Mrs. Grossman's anniversary bear stickers and I haven't caught up yet xD #Plus I've posted some other decently popular stickers since then (Winnie the pooh stickers break the bank every time I swear...) #I don't normally have this many to do I swear XD

[shadowxamyweek]

don't it say something about shadow that he's at his best, most enjoyable moments when Amy interacts with him XD he takes himself so seriously with others, but around her he drops the act a bit and flusters, it's very cute

XD XD XD It does. It very much does 💖🖤

I'd be remiss to fail to add onto this, however, that I believe Amy brings that out in everyone.

This may be a bit of a ramble (for that i appologize), but Amy Rose... She has a great capacity for helping people understand that they are loved. Whatever argument or playful ribbing or conversation or moment or joke or anything- ANYTHING she and another character are involved in- that character never questions whether Amy cares for them or not.

Amy cares deeply. Fervently. Frightfully. It's why we love her, too.

That character knows they are loved. Whatever context or interpretation of 'loved' you have based off of headcanons and ships and friend dynamics- it doesn't matter. They know they are loved.

And that... can flustered people XD

But of course, we ship Amy and Shadow XD we notice it more with them (also, we've been starving for them to talk to one another for nearly a decade. The Shadow the Hedgehog game, the last time I believe they spoke, came out in 2005... it has been a hot minute.)

I will add on and clarify- she's not the only person to get past his walls (though she IS the only one who we see do so in The Murder of Sonic). Rouge and Sonic can also get around Shadow's defenses in one way or another. The way each character successfully maneuvers this will obviously get a different reaction from Shadow (we as people are different and react differently to different people, yes? Even our own friends.)

But I do love, as you said, how flustered Shadow got with her specifically, and it IS different from how he responds to others by a large margin. It is in such a way and manner that I haven't seen any other character pull off, and it makes me so happy 🖤💖

#anon #shadamy #op rambles #i hope i did not inadvertently turn your letter into meaning something else #you are 100%- he does get flustered with her- and it is adorable #I just can't can't help but look at it in the context of the whole and- in doing so- find even more meaning and value to it XD #thank you for sending me a letter! i love getting mail! #im glad you all feel comfortable enough now! i was worried i was coming off as scary XD

[hermitcraftheadcanons]

Most recent anon I don't know if that even still is body horror or if it's something else entirely, either way I don't think I can post it here, but for the record I love it and you are a absolutely unhinged for thinking that up. Have a wonderful evening.

~ Mod Shade

#mod shade #not a headcanon #these cleo headcanoners are a whole different breed #(<- is a Cleo headcanoner also) #sorry to leave you hanging with a teaser but I really can't think of a tag enough to dampen the feeling of coming across that one dhdhdjs #maybe it's just me but props on the Viscerally Unsettling anon. 11/10 thanks i hate it

[revenantghost]

Take care Rev!! I'm sorry you're going Through It right now. I hope your kitty recovers quickly and you're able to catch a break. I'm sure if you need to be a little more sparse for this week's bookclub folks will understand- you've put a lot of effort into this as is afterall!

;^; Thank you <3 Honestly feeling so crappy and wondering what the point is with people just being hateful and spreading negativity making me want to backpedal hard out of Trigun--which is the first time I've felt this way here! Normally I can mentally give people being this way the finger and move on, but especially seeing some mutuals ganging up and seeing some more private stuff going down, all while very real things on top of even my poor cat are bearing down on me... I'm just so tired. So thank you for sending this <3 We'll see if/when I get back to bookclub myself, I guess

#It sucks to really not want much to do with something that normally brings a lot of joy #Especially when you need it most #Just because people are petty and want discourse #And it truly is just the silliest of wank #I just feel like I've had thinks I care about dunked on enough #And I'm TIRED #I got some truly disabling medical stuff life is batshit crazy atm and this is what I've got #And yet #Here we are being negative and hateful #Legit I want to use fandom as intended #As an ESCAPE from bullshit #Blahg #Thank you again anon <3 #I normally just try to spin negative shit into positivity #Because it's important to me to bring what I can into the world #But I'm just tired and I really want to fucking cry and I can't #Sorry for rambling #Ask #Anon #Yadda yadda

[despairforme]

hi toby! ive been a fan of your writing for a long time and the threads you had with your now deactivated partner, lexie, and i was wondering on why does nnoitra keep constantly thinking about grimmjow when nnoitra, himself, cheated on him and thinks that hes that deserving of having any form of relationship when he's a bad person. isn't he supposed to be this masculine guy that doesn't let stupid stuff get to him? wouldn't he just move on when grimmjow wants nothing to do with him? curious.

Ah, FUCK. He sure as shit didn't want to talk ( or think ) about this.

Isn't he supposed to be this masculine guy that doesn't let stupid stuff get to him?

Damn, he sure as hell wished things were that easy. If he could choose to NOT let stuff bother him, he'd have the best life ever. Unfortunately, he wasn't like that. He wasn't sure whether or not that had anything to do with his masculinity though. It wasn't like he was whining about his old relationship. He did think about Grimmjow quite a lot though, that was true. Was he not allowed to even think about him? His relationship with Grimmjow hadn't been some fling. It had been a deep, committed relationship. A connection that had lasted for many years. And Nnoitra had never loved ANYONE like he'd loved ( and, in a way, still loved ) Grimmjow.

First things first - the cheating.

Yeah, he'd cheated on Grimmjow, but that was not the full story. People usually said there was no excuse for cheating, and Nnoitra would agree. However, there was an explanation.

His relationship with Grimmjow had been falling apart. Not through arguments, but through a growing distance. Grimmjow had simply stopped giving him attention. Going without sex had been one thing ( Nnoitra had a huge sex drive, he needed to get laid ), but going without affection had been worse. Living with a person who didn't give him any attention what-so-ever. Feeling Grimmjow's love for him dwindle. Fade away. Nnoitra had ALWAYS feared that deep down, Grimmjow couldn't forgive him for what he'd done, and that that would eventually lead him to fall out of love with him. Having this fear unfold before him had been the worst. Nnoitra had never felt more unlovable than during those months. Yet, he'd held on. Hoping. That maybe Grimmjow would come back to him. Would look at him again. Touch him. Tell him: Sorry, I was going through something, but it's not your fault, I still love you. Of course, that didn't happen. It was just a fucking fantasy. OF COURSE Grimmjow would fall out of love with him. If he ever even loved him in the first place. Maybe their whole relationship was just built on Grimmjow trying to somehow cope with the trauma Nnoitra had caused him. Like a fucked up sort of Stockholm syndrome.

When Nnoitra had gotten a text from his ex, Kyota, asking to meet up, Nnoitra had hesitated. Even meeting up with Kyota while he was dating Grimmjow had felt wrong, but - in the end, he'd just NEEDED to see a friendly face. When he'd met up with Kyota at the bar, he hadn't had any plans of going to bed with him. Cheating on Grimmjow with Kyota hadn't been the plan.

But, when faced with Kyota's kindness, and the straight-forward invitation for a good fuck? Nnoitra hadn't resisted. He'd known he was throwing everything he had with Grimmjow away, and he'd chosen that. Just to feel close to someone. Just to feel good, for the first time in months.

He'd never told Grimmjow about the cheating, but maybe the other had figured it out somehow. In any case, one night Nnoitra had come home from work - Grimmjow had been gone. No goodbye. Nothing.

Why did his relationships always end with people leaving him without a word? Nnoitra had asked himself that many times. He wondered if the answer was that his partners were afraid of him. Maybe they were afraid he'd hurt them. Grimmjow had every reason to believe that, so Nnoitra couldn't blame him. Kyota too had left him like that. Without a word, even though Nnoitra had never hurt him. Perhaps he'd been able to see it anyway. See what kind of person Nnoitra was.

That was the story of how he'd cheated on Grimmjow. It wasn't like he'd excuse his behavior. However, he knew that if his relationship with Grimmjow had been good, he never would've done it.

Then, next - it was the matter of him thinking he was DESERVING of a relationship. This was simply not true. Nnoitra DIDN'T think he deserved to be loved. He knew he was a bad person. The worst kind of person, and there was no way he could ever hide that from anyone ( not that he even tried ). If someone managed to fall in love with him ( it could happen, since it had happened before ), they'd fall out of love with him when they saw his true self. There was only so long someone could lie to themselves about what Nnoitra was.

He didn't understand why this stranger thought he thought that he deserved a relationship. He WANTED one, sure. But that didn't mean he thought it was what he deserved. People usually didn't get what they deserved. They just got whatever random shit the universe decided for them. He'd pay for his sins when he died and ended up in hell. In the meantime... He sure would like to at least feel loved again. If only for a little bit.

Why was he so HUNG UP on Grimmjow? Why didn't he "just move on"? That sounded like some shit advice from someone who didn't understand. It was a cliche to say that, he supposed. He just didn't think that how things had turned out with Grimmjow could be classified as "stupid stuff". Stupid stuff was... When you dropped your phone, or someone gave you the wrong drink, or the bus didn't drop you off at your stop.

Having your fear of not being lovable confirmed by the person you loved the most in the entire world - that was not "stupid stuff". Moving past it wasn't that easy. ESPECIALLY when he hadn't gotten ANY sort of closure. It would've been easier if Grimmjow had broken up with him. Had told him everything straight out. Nnoitra would've preferred to hear him say: I DON'T LOVE YOU. Somehow, being left without a word was an even worse type of rejection.

It was unfair to say that he wasn't moving on at all, because - he was. He WAS looking ( though halfheartedly ) for a new partner. Be it a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Sure, he thought about Grimmjow from time to time, but not nearly as much as he had done a year ago. What was he supposed to do? Forget all about him? That wasn't happening. He'd known him since they were fifteen. How do you forget a person like that? He didn't even WANT to forget. He did want to move on though - or, to keep moving on. It was a process. It wasn't like stubbing your toe and "deciding to walk it off".

#[ 8)))))) ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE ANON ] #[ thank you so much for sending !!!!!!! i loved writing this as you can see i WENT OFF AHAHAHA ] #[ T - T thank you SO MUCH for sticking with my writing for that long omg ] #[ i'm so flattered and honored !!!! ] #[ hope this answers your questions t-t nnoitra did his best fjffjf ] #[ ALSO - it doesn't help him that he can't TALK to anyone about any of this ] #[ he has MAJOR self-worth issues and his break-up made everything A LOT worse ] #[ he absolutely knows he's a bad person and he doesn't think he deserves to be in a relationship ] #[ still he wants it tho t-t ] #[ he is not kind enough to want to spare others xDD ] #[ ANYWAYS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SENDING AND FOR YOUR SUPPORT !!!! ] #despair for me. ╱ in character. #talking shit. ╱ answers. #burn the city. ╱ main verse. #longpost //

[acrazybayernfan]

Manu and Thomas lifting the trophy together, nature is healing!!

REALLY ? !!! Oh lord I can't watch anything because my steam is dead but just imagining it already makes me so 🥹🥹🥹. Nature is healing and my heart too.

#i just need them in my life #these feels so good #fc bayern #thomas müller #manuel neuer #my captains #thank you for the ask dear anon you're my eyes and i can't thank you enough for that

[butcharium]

the scene just before these two butches kiss for the first time actually bears a lot of resemblance to the moments before my dearest and i kissed for the first time as well this is almost too much

#hello losing my mind over this book anon i can't thank you enough #butch4butch #wherever is your heart #anita kelly #musings #quotes