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#i didn't even get to the military school thing but i agree: i don't think it had anything to do with kendall
zaricats · 2 years
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I'm interested, what do you think of Roman and Kendall's relationship overall? I feel like they were close when they were little but got driven apart when Roman's psychological issues got him sent to military school and Logan covertly encouraged him to blame Kendall for making him turn out weird (mainly to take any responsibility off of himself). I don't believe Kendall was aware of anyone other than Logan hurting Roman or that Kendall abused Roman himself, but... it's complicated.
!! i don't think roman and kendall were ever very close, actually - i think they've always been pretty distant
this got away from me in the extreme so im going to put this under a cut (i'm so sorry)
the dog cage story in the episode with tom's bachelor party i think is indicative of two things: how siblinghood in the roy house functioned, and how kendall (as well as connor) react to guilt/abuse.
connor says, when roman asks him if he really did enjoy being put in a dog kennel, that they all had a hierarchy to learn and that once they learned it, they would be happier. we're meant to take this as a sort of metaphor: in childhood, the siblings were likely pitted against each other (by logan) to be the 'stronger dog'. roman was the 'weaker dog' because he was the one stuck in the cage - kendall was stronger because he put him in there. kendall rationalizes it by the idea that roman somehow belongs in this position, wants to be there and is happier for it, so that kendall can feel better about participating and winning.
i don't necessarily blame kendall for participating (he was also a child), but that sort of competition and play would likely prevent any sort of close relationship. roman was four - that would be an extremely early memory for him. logan likely intended to prevent any close bonds anyway, because in order to have control over someone, you have to be the most important person in their life. a close relationship with a sibling could ruin that; it could be a threat to you, even.
the dog cage story is also extremely tied up with roman's "sexual perversity", and is also, imo, extremely indicative of csa (bed-wetting, 'you enjoyed it', etc). kendall doesn't really remember the story at all, at first, and his next reaction is to get defensive. he insists it wasn't that bad, and that roman wanted it. i agree with the idea that kendall wouldn't have known if someone other than logan was hurting roman, but that sort of denial and avoidance still wouldn't (and doesn't) play very well with roman. it hurts when your suffering goes unnoticed and/or unprevented.
even if roman isn't a victim of csa (i don't think anything fits better, but i digress), it's very possible kendall exhibited this sort of avoidance/denial in regards to just logan's physical abuse. i know he defends roman at argestes, but that doesn't necessarily indicate anything about their childhood (for example, logan's already snapped at iverson at this point - this would have changed kendall in a fundamental way).
i do think roman was close with shiv as children - they seem closer in age, and they have a rapport/banter/cadence with each other that neither have with kendall. this could be because kendall just isn't good at that sort of banter, but i think we're meant to read a special sort of closeness out of it. it's a mean sort of affection only roman and shiv have.
shiv also isn't competition in the way kendall is. her distance from waystar in the beginning of the show is non-threatening, and i think her position as a woman also prevents her from intimidating roman in any sort of significant way (this goes for kendall as well). even still, once shiv exposes logan's offer to make her CEO, roman's relationship with her becomes a lot more aggressive. their teasing becomes acidic and cruel - the way they poke at each other about sex (shiv having too much, roman having none at all) grows exponentially in both amount and cruelty. i think this is where roman and kendall have been their whole lives.
i think theres a lot to be seen in the way roman wrestles with both shiv and kendall as well. with shiv, roman wrestles just to wrestle - its very reminiscent of two kids getting into a scuffle because its fun and they need to get the energy out somehow. when they wrestle in the hospital, its almost cathartic; its a strange way to process logan's sudden and eminent mortality.
with kendall, wrestling is a competition - its a genuine fight. think of the hunting retreat: kendall is trying to take something away from roman, kendall is trying to get roman in trouble, kendall is trying to put roman down so he can get a leg up with logan. again, their relationship is about competition.
i do think something changes after roman gets back from turkey - he starts showing real concern for Kendall, makes attempts to get closer with him (and shiv) by suggesting they talk seriously, etc. i think this is a new thing, however - i don't think they're going back to something they once had. it feels new and awkward - i think they've always been dogs at each other's throats.
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ssahotchnerr · 9 months
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hello hello, aaron thought incoming: i just KNOW aaron would destroy every single one of the team members during a game of beer pong, which leaves them all standing there like 😦 and reader finds it incredibly hot (bonus if reader and aaron are a couple and flirt throughout the entire evening)
if you don’t want to write something about this, it’s totally fine!!! just wanted to share this thought with one of my favorite writers <333 hope you have an amazing day!!!
thank you for thinking of me and for sharing!!!!!!! and omg yes yes YES
i feel like in college, aaron went to the occasional party, BUT in high school, he went to parties weekly. if someone was throwing a house party on a friday or saturday night, he was 100% there. all his friends frequented parties. like he had just gotten back from military school, and while it shaped him a ton, he still wanted to rebel a bit - his bad boy tendencies hadn't gone away completely, he just had a bit more control over it. like in his high school, he was the guy who was a bit nerdy and followed the rules and all, but he got along with everyone. and so he was always invited to numerous things, and he wasn't afraid of letting loose at such. he was one of the cool not-so-cool guys, if that makes sense. AND everyone totally had a crush on him 🤭
when he and haley got together, he mellowed out a bit and stopped partying as much, but when they would go to the occasional party together, she was always his beer pong partner 😭 UGH just the vision of a young aaron at a party >>> 😵‍💫 with haley glued to his side, his arm around her waist at all times </3
and so, he's had a ton of practice and experience when it comes to beer pong:
SO now, you're all having a get together at penelope's apartment - like one of her day of the dead parties - she and derek set up the beer pong table. it's a few games later when aaron's asked to play; he agrees but mentions how he "may be a little rusty" and everyone thinks he's saying that simply as a cover - like oh he's going to be shit at it but that's his excuse why 🙄 BUT clearly they're wrong and HE destroys everyone.
and while everyone else is dumbfounded and questioning everything they thought they knew in life LOL, you just can't pull your eyes away from him 😮‍💨 aaron's wearing a short sleeved shirt, so you can see his muscles flexing every time he raises his arm to toss a ball. or you can't help but stare at his neck every time he raises his head to drink a cup 😵‍💫😮‍💨🤤 he's just oozing confidence, he's cocky in a nonchalant attractive kinda way - like he knows he's good and isn't afraid to show it <33333333 and he's showing off for you, to impress you and he's just glowing every time you cheer him on, it just urges him on 🥰 he's laughing and smiling and just looks relaxed for once, simply enjoying himself.
hehe i love to think this would take place when aaron and you are just in the very beginning of your relationship too 🤭 nothing is labeled just yet, but you know he has a thing for you, and he knows you feel the same 🥰 the two of you have shared some kisses, spend your weekends together, AH hehe and all the beginning-of-relationship nervous jitters are still there 💓💕💓💓
he's driving you home (he didn't drink too much and isn't tipsy or anything - don't drink and drive 🫵🏻) and you turn to him, all flirty, amused, still a bit in shock, and say, "i didn't know you were a master at the art of beer pong"
he chuckles a bit, eyes shift from the road to you for a moment 🦋, a small smirky smile tugging at his lips and he responds, "there's a lot you don't know about me" 🤭 <33333333333333
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pencileraser1 · 2 months
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u were keatposting in my asks. now i must do the same in yours since my brain is so obviously filled with him. share ur keating thoughts i know theyre hiding in there!!!!!!!!
i'm just gonna thoughtsdump about this it might not be coherent?but here we go
a lot of my keating thoughts are kind of depressing uh
i think the really tragic thing about this movie (or one of them i guess) is that in the end basically everything that happened likely didn't matter enough in the long term. and one of the biggest losses is that i kind of do think that after keating left, almost none of the students would continue to apply what he taught them. the biggest exceptions to this would be todd and sort of half charlie, i do pretty much agree with the post canon idea that it's likely that todd would end up an english teacher. and i think that he's probably the only person who would genuinely continue to actually apply what keating taught him. charlie i think would continue to be rebellious for a bit longer and then eventually sort of fall in line with what his parents wanted from him in the end, the best outcome is probably that he'd go on to be some sort of artist but i don't think it's super likely that that's what he'd do long term/all the time if that makes sense. for the rest of the poets, i think they'd all go back to how they were before pre-keating. i think you mentioned that neil was really the person who understood keatings lessons the best, which i agree with, and him dying likely prevented the rest of the poets from really getting it before keating left. basically my thought about this is that at the end of the movie, todd and keating are both fundamentally changed, but the rest of the poets aren't, and how much they were able to change is not enough to create a lasting impact.
on a lighter note someone said that possibly the most impressive mark of what keating did was that hopkins stood up on the desk at the end. and while i think that the combination of todd being able to stand up on his desk first, and how keating and neil made it possible to do so is more impressive, i think it maybe comes in in close second for me (i know i just went on a tangent about this not mattering that much but it did matter a little bit and this is still very impressive. like the guy shown to be the Most skeptical stood on the desk that's a lot)
i've seen a theory floating around every once in a while that keating's experience with the first dead poets society might have been similar to what happened with neil, like he had a friend in the society who also committed suicide, and i kind of don't like that theory very much? i guess there are a few elements to it, the biggest being that if someone died the first time, i don't think that keating would even entertain the thought of restarting it. and the second is that i honestly think we could come up with something a lot more interesting.
keating went to welton during ww2, (there's a small possible plothole/timeline issue which is that nolan tells keating he taught english "way before you're time," per the annual, keating begun attending welton in 1941, when nolan was probably about 40 and i suspect not principal since there isn't really any familiarity between the two. my personal theory which i actually really like now that i'm thinking about it is that nolan wasn't at welton from 1941-1944 for some reason, probably ww2 related. not sure Exactly how, nolan's old enough that it's unlikely he would've actually fought unless he had been in the military before, but that could also be interesting, idk there's a lot of possibilities) the us joined ww2 at the end of 1941 so for almost the entire time keating was in school, that would have been going on. and i think that would have put a very unique type of stress on the school and i think it would be really interesting to think about the poet's experience during that time. what i do think happened in lieu of someone dying is probably that they got in some significant amount of trouble at some point, or possibly that they didn't exactly get in trouble but that there was some other issue related to the administration.
other interesting details from the annual: keating was varsity soccer captain and editor of the school annual, likely how he got dps under his name. also btw keating was the soccer coach during the movie if that wasn't clear since the soccer team is. just keatings class minus cameron whose doing fencing. and i only realized this after reading the book (which i do not reccomend if you want to read the book just read the old script it's got all the same stuff and i honestly think the writings better in the script)
anyways i think we should come up with more theories about the original dead poets. bc i think that could be interesting.
i think we were kind of talking about the keating/neil parallels a bit and i'm just gonna talk more about that as well bc i'm a bit insane about it. so like as previously mentioned!!! neil is the one who fundamentally understood keating the most probably (todd and charlie also understood keating but in different ways kind of??? and i think you've spoken about this before too) and there's a lot of like; keating likely starting the original dps/neil starting dps 2.0, both being editors of the school annual (sort of), both encouraging people (todd) to express themselves in ways they might not have thought possible
the way keating and neil's storylines end are also similar. they both set out with a specific goal and while they are successful at first, they are both stopped in ways that are ultimately kind of catastrophic. not fully coherent about this yet but. wanted to add it.
also just wanted to briefly mention keating and mcallister bc i really liked their relationship, all of m thoughts have already been said but i just wanted to add that
keating is in a position where he understands what his students are going through in a way that none of the other teachers do and throughout the movie i honestly think his goal was at least partially just to make their lives just a little bit better. like some of his students would get it and some wouldn't, but for all of them they have one class where the teacher is nice and not as strict or exhausting or gives them ridiculous amounts of homework. and even if keating is just. the one class that's a little bit easier. that still probably helps so much with how the environment at welton was. obviously keatings ultimate goal was probably to teach his students to think for themselves and about what they specifically want but i think the smaller impacts of like. ok here's one class where the teacher isn't a hardass is meaningful too.
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on-partiality · 3 months
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Okay, so I'm absolutely curious:
I don't know if you've been asked this already, but how would you rank the Founding Fathers (from the ones you like the most to the ones you really don't)?
Sorry for taking forever I got sick and then I had school camp but here's how I'd rank them:
1, Alexander Hamilton: I've studied him the most out of the main founding fathers so I've grown rather attached to him. I still acknowlege his flaws like the fact that the trading charter he worked for when he was younger also sold slaves, the fact that he was sexist just like the typical 18th century man and that he did cheat on his wife. But even with all of those, he's my favourite of the bunch.
2. James Madison: when creating this tier list type thing I realised that I really don't know much about Madison that's why he's higher in the list (because I've studied him so little compared to the others, I don't know as much about his flaws and problematic actions as I do the rest of the bunch) I've read a lot about him doing silly things and supposedly being a good husband but the fact that he got along so well with Jefferson throws me off because I really don't like Jefferson. So yeah, I'd say I'm pretty neutral with Madison.
3. John Adams: I haven't studied him as much as the other founders (still more than Madison though) so I find it difficult to have too strong an opinion on him. I like his stance on slavery and the fact that he never owned any, however, I don't like his thoughts on women and men without property (and just generally the requirements he wanted to make on who should and shouldn't be allowed to vote) and I don't believe he was a very good father from what I've read about how he treated his oldest son, I also don't like his personality.
4. Benjamin Franklin: I know that no one is going to agree with me on this one but something about him just grosses me out, probably because I'm semi-sex-repulsed and hearing about the way he was with so many women makes me want to gag. Additionally, the comment he made about old women being the same in the dark grossed me out heaps. I get that he technically wasn't that bad and he freed his slaves and invented so many things but his personal life throws m
5. George Washington: Look, he did some HORRIBLE things, he owned many slaves, his treatment of Native Americans was terrible and I completely disagree with most of his political views... But I really like him as a military commander and a soldier and I like his personality a lot and that's why he ranks higher than the next person on this tier list, I don't agree with most of his actions. I don't support racism or genocide. But also I have far more fun studying Washington than I do the next founding father on this list.
6. Thomas Jefferson: child rapist, owned more slaves than any of the other people on this list (I think) and was really weird with his pets. He advocated for religious freedom and he was smart, I'll give him that but I don't like his personality, I don't like his political views and he was very hypocritical. Really, with his views, he wouldn't have even liked himself and he didn't do enough to make me like him. He's still interesting to study but I find it far harder to empathise with him than I do the men listed above because I really just can't see him as anything but vile.
Bonus!: I would put Aaron Burr between Adams and Madison because while I agree with most of his views and he's really fun to study, I like Hamilton a little bit too much to rank the man that killed him higher than 3rd.
(note: I wrote this on like an hour of sleep, this may be the worst amrev take ever)
Edited, 24th of February: Got reminded of this post's existence thanks to a comment by @c0ckmuncher pointing out how inaccurate one of these takes was and checked it again and safe to say I'm never posting anything late night ever again, the rankings have now been changed to better suit what I actually think of these men
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prodigal-explorer · 2 months
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You say that both Palestine and Israel are in the right and wrong, which first of all is the most bullshit I've ever heard.
Stop saying that you're "staying neutral" when it's fucked up, sick headed people like you that the government leeches off of. Its your ignorance that they profit off of, your privilege to lay in bed, to watch a fun movie, to hang out with friends and eat your full plate. That is a privilege that Palestines dream of.
Little kids dreams of Palestine dream of watch TV. They dream of playing outside without the fear of their lives on the line. They dream of going to school, having families, growing old, yet Israel kills them for no reason. This is genocide of innocent civilians.
And don't say "BuT hAmAs!!" As if that's your supporting argument. Nothing, and I mean nothing in the world can justify the genocide happening in Palestine right now. The numbers don't lie, Annie. The 30,000+ people didn't deserve it.
I hope you enjoy riding Israel dick and I hope the true guilt you feel once you finally see past your comfort zone hurts you so bad.
Genuinely, for all of us. Delete your pathetic excuse of an account and never post a thing ever again.
hey!
first of all, i never said that i’m staying neutral. wanting peace isn’t the same as staying neutral. i’m not encouraging the genocide just because i’m holding empathy for both sides and wanting both sides to have peace.
your cruel words are just a further example of all the hate that social media is spreading that isn’t helping anyone. i’m spreading information about charities to SUPPORT PALESTINE. i’m spreading information to uplift the voices of israeli and palestinian people who have LOST FAMILY MEMBERS due to this conflict, and trying to uplift the things THEY are saying. if i deleted my account, all of that stuff would be gone. the stuff that’s helping palestine. so you want palestine to have less help? that’s so woke of you. /s
i never said that israel should be bombing innocent people. i’m not supporting that and i never ever did. i never justified the genocide one single time and the fact that you think i did only goes to show that you didn’t read my posts. you just wanted to get angry and righteous and you chose me to attack, but it’s not going to work. i will apologize for saying that both sides are in the wrong because that is a bit of a bold statement which could easily be taken as excusing the actions of the israeli government, which was not my intention. palestine didn’t do anything to deserve this attack. the actions of hamas do not represent palestine as a whole.
for the record, if i had to choose a side, i would choose palestine. the way that the israeli government is using the money america is feeding them is horrible and disgusting. too many people have died in this conflict. but it is unfair to paint israel as a whole in a light that suggests that they are trying to wipe out the palestinian race because that’s not what’s happening. did you know that in israel, citizens are required BY LAW to serve in the military? they’re sacrificing their lives and being forced to do things they don’t agree with because the government is forcing them. israeli people don’t enjoy doing this. if you’re going to point fingers at someone, point at the 0.01% of israeli government officials who are making these decisions. not at an entire race, an entire population of people who are just doing what they are forced to do. it’s hypocritical to get mad at people for addressing hamas while also accusing all of israel of terrorism when the only real decision makers are the government. it’s the same thing, blaming an entire population for something that only a small group of people are responsible for. neither should be encouraged.
i don’t agree with what the israeli government is doing whatsoever. but that is not an excuse to wish death upon the people who didn’t even make any of these choices. these people were born in israel and they have to follow the laws. you can’t stand here while you’re privileged and on your phone typing angry little paragraphs that you wouldn’t do the same to keep yourself and your family safe.
so many people are using this issue as an excuse to be antisemitic. that is what i’m addressing in these posts. people like you are so fucking performative that you can’t see what the real issue is.
i know both israeli and palestinian people whose families have died. who’s YOUNG family members have died due to this conflict. and you know what they are telling me?
they aren’t telling me to go on social media and attack random people. they aren’t telling me to post about how all israelis/palestinians are awful people who deserve to die. they are telling me that the only way to stop all these innocent children and people as a whole from dying is to promote PEACE. and guess what. it isn’t just palestinian people saying this to me. ITS ISRAELI PEOPLE TOO.
THATS WHAT IM ADDRESSING IN MY POSTS. promoting PEACE is how we can do more for these poor children than just getting angry on social media. when we pick sides and polarize, we create more of a divide between two beautiful nations who deserve to live in peace and harmony. we further remove the chances of there being a reconciliation.
what do you suggest we do? kill all the israeli children? what will that accomplish??? this is so much more complicated than petty revenge. what feeds a war is the possibility of winning. and creating sides and pretending that the other side are full of evil heartless monsters who are doing this for no reason is only making the war WORSE because it fabricated the possibility of one side winning MORE.
so if you think you’re helping anybody with this bullshit, you’re not. your mindset is a prime example of the horrible performative activism that america is doing in order to pretend to be helpful while thousands of innocent children are dying.
maybe put some of this righteous energy into donating, or listening to israeli and palestinian voices instead of talking over them and speaking for them. that’s what would really be helpful in a time like this.
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ranchiballz · 2 years
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The Fall
Please read part 1 to this story The Window
Pretty woman by Van Halen is what gave me inspiration but that doesn't mean reader is a woman. just an idea, enjoy luvs ♡
Pairing: Vance Hopper x GN! Reader
Word Count: 930
Description: Y/N doesn't like heights, I mean who does
Warnings: Language, Fluff, Insecurity, Fear
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      You step through the window, being cautious of your step. Vance still had your hand in his as he guided you across the roof. Your room was on the second floor of your house, so sneaking out was always a hassle. Luckily your garage roof was right outside your window. You and Vance used to sit up there all the time, that was before the spider incident (but that's a story for another day).
"How in the world did you even manage to get up here from the ground?" You asked him.
"The trash cans." He said it as if proud of his strategy.
"So that means there are dents in my trash cans?" His face faded into a guilty grin when you commented.
"Well, maybe but you can always just... undent it." He said as he hopped down from the roof. He did it so effortlessly. He was always jumping from one place to another. You had tried to convince him to join the army, said it would be good for him, and that he was good at taking people out. He didn't deny that, that he could take anyone down, he was a little too aware of it. He later explained how military school was enough for him, and you agreed, saying you didn't want him taken away from you any longer.
You stared down at the ground, then your feet, then him. The more you looked down the dizzier you got.
"Hey, don't look at the ground look at me. It's not that far down anyways, you got it." He said reassuringly. He knew you didn't like heights. He learned that once when you started puking on the school roof. A very interesting day that was.
"You're gonna catch me right?"
"Yes I'm gonna fuckin catch you, what kind of question is that?" He said as he rolled his eyes. He kind of took it offensively, did you not trust him? It's not like you guys haven't done this before. Well from a smaller distance... and in water.
"But what if you lose your footing and fall back when you catch me? Then both of us will get hurt." You said in a worried scream whisper.
"That's not gonna happen" Vance commented quietly while you were freaking out.
"OH MY GOD, WHAT IF YOU HIT YOUR HEAD!" the sweat was already showing on your forehead from thinking about it.
"JUST FUCKIN JUMP!" When Vance said yelled this, a switch went off in your head. You held your breath as you leapt off the ledge. 'I'm gonna fall, I'm gonna crush him, I'm gonna kill him' you thought to yourself. You wholeheartedly expected to feel a hard surface hit your body, but it was large, soft, and warm. Slowly, you opened your scrunched-up eyes. Vance was holding you, one arm under your knees and the other behind your back. He gave you the "was that so bad" look, but the only thing you were focusing on was how it felt to be held again. You hadn't been held like this in years. Like how you were when you were young, it gave you a sense of protection and made you feel like a little kid again. That's how Vance made you feel, like a little kid. You were forced to grow up, be the adult. He made your inner child come out, and you loved it, or loved him? You didn't know, but you loved something about it him.
"Don't look at me like that." You said as you pushed off of him letting him know you wanted down. He gently put you down so that you were standing right in front of him.
"Like what, maybe I just want to look at you." That did it. Heat rose to your face, so you looked away, at the ground. Because the ground was so interesting, hey was that pebble always there? It was awkward for a second, even Vance noticed it. That's another reason you liked Vance. Nobody looked at you. Besides your friends or your siblings, no one did. Not the boys at school who loved poking at the way people looked. Not the girls who judged a person based on their beauty. It's not like you were invisible, I mean people noticed you, but they never really looked at you. Vance did. He was always charmed by you. There were way more attractive people than you that he knew. Maybe he pitied you, maybe this is a bet, a really long bet to see who can go the longest in a relationship with someone random. These thoughts haunted you. 'How could a man like HIM ever look at a person like me, let alone date one?' you wondered. You felt your stomach turn and a lump in your throat.
"So where to first? Wanna go grab a few snacks? I think the Grab'n'Go is still open." Vance asked you as you were still looking at the ground. 'Man, they are really pretty. Wait no, boys shouldn't be having thoughts like that. Wait, do men have thoughts like that? What is so interesting about the ground Y/N?' Vance questioned.
"Uh yeah sure. I could go for a Coke." You said finally looking at him. 'I'm so parched right now'.
"Lead the way, your highness." He actually knew how to get to there from your house. He just wanted to lighten the mood. But all he got from it was an eye roll. But deep down he knew you were smiling...internally.
"Where do you think you're going" _________________________________ A/N- sorry this took so long I've been busy, this part is a bit shorter but this story has been getting more attention than i thought it would. I'm thinking about writing one shots about the spider, y/n puking, and the jumping in water one. idk let me know. Love yuh -♡ g
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hero-in-waiting · 6 months
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so i was thinking about Mav wanting to give Bradley a family when Carole dies. Because Mav never had one, but he's had good friends and he knows how friends can help you and he's hurting as well because first Goose and now Carole and he and Ice aren't always around each other bc they've still got careers. And so maybe Mav just starts making plans with whoever is around. Maybe Slider comes over one day to hang out, and then the next time its Slider and Wolfman, and slowly Mav keeps inviting people until it's a thing and anytime people are all in town they inevitably end up at Mav's.
But they're all military and are gone randomly and so Mav starts to go to school meetings, Bradley's events and talks to people and makes friends so Bradley can have more friends over and everyone soon learns that Mav's house is a good place to hang out and sure they might learn how to flip a knife but they also know Mav is good in a crisis so its a catch-22. But then Mav is also making friends and he's fine right, he's been alone for most of his life and he's got Ice and everyone else so he's doing this for Bradley, not realizing that he's also making friends, and while he's doing his best to make sure Bradley always has a family, he's also building himself one.
People learn that they're welcome at Mav's house, and the first time Bradley has a friend over who got into a fight with their parents he just sets up the spare room, calls the parents to let them know the kid is there and tells them to come over the next day when everything settled.
So Bradley grows up loved and surroudned by people so he's never alone like Mav was as a kid, alone in the foster system and he's happier for it even though his parents are gone. he's got Uncles and their partners and kids, honorary Aunts and cousins and grandparents and it just keeps getting bigger and bigger until they have to shut down the block for the 4th party that Mav throws because there's so many cars but everyone's happy to be there and relaxed.
And maybe, because Mav is making sure Bradley is healing from his loss, he's healing from his own loss and it also means he's got more people to talk to when Bradley gets older, and his promise to Carole draws near and people who don't understand what it's like to be military kinda tilt their head and say it should be Bradley's choice even if Mav is scared.
And so, instead of pulling his papers, Mav sits Bradley down and tells him his Mom was terrified for him, and she didn't want him to fly and asks him to go to college first just to see if there was something else out there for Bradley. For his Mom. And Bradley agrees because its for his Mom and he gets it.
And maybe he still ends up in the service but now he's got support, bc Mav and everyone else is there and he's not so mad at the world and maybe as time goes on and he talks to people he starts bringing friends home during leave who don't have anywhere to go and Mav just takes them all in because Goose and Carole taught Mav what family means, and he made sure to teach it to Bradley who is now teaching it everyone else.
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People I am very suspicious of and do not trust:
Dr. Owens - I think this speaks for itself. He works with Brenner even if they don't always agree. Even though he seems like a decent person (he has morals most of the time unlike Brenner) he still is loyal to the lab above all else and there are clear ties to shady behavior regarding Henry, Will, and El. He knows a lot more than he's letting on. And bringing El straight to her abuser was an unforgivable move imo.
That FBI lady who worked with Owens - The secret agent dudes who were at the Byer's house fall into this category too. Because even though she got Hopper, Joyce, and Murray out of Russia and even though the agents protected Jonathan, Will, and Mike at the house they were still there on Owens orders. And I still think they were there to protect Will and not necessarily for El. That story didn't add up. Will even says they don't seem to be thinking things through, but I think that's because they aren't telling the truth so it just seems like they aren't thinking things through because they are holding back.
Lonnie - This dude is obvious an awful human being. Him and Brenner are the true villains here. There are a lot of unresolved issues here for Will, Jonathan, and Joyce. People I am sort of suspicious of but mainly because I need more information:
Kali - I cannot decide if she is good or bad but I feel like she was waiting for Henry so I lean more towards not trusting her. But she is ambiguous. I am very curious about her backstory and I think this will stir up good drama with El. But I really hope her friends don't join her.
El's Aunt Becky - I realize she helps Joyce and Hopper out in S1 and she helps El in S2. But this whole situation is weird. It seems like Terry is trying to warn El (at least about Kali). But does she work for the lab and is keeping an eye on Terry? Or is she innocent?
Hopper - He's obviously not a bad guy but what was the deal he made with the lab at the end of S1? Because in S2 it seems like his role here is to keep things quiet for them (he says as much to Owens) but that can't be all it is. He seems like he tries very hard to get Joyce to continue to take Will to the lab when she is ready to take him somewhere else. I am suspicious. I think when he traded El for Will at the end of the first season he was put in a really shitty position. He knew Will was dying and he knew El wasn't alone. He deliberately doesn't mention to Brenner that Nancy and Jonathan are at the school too and I think he did that because he was hoping it would be an advantage and would allow them to get El out. El does get away and this results in him searching for her and keeping her away from the lab. All while making sure Joyce is taking Will there for regular check ups with Owens. I don't think he is deliberately trying to hurt anyone. But I do think he has some secrets he probably should have shared a while ago.
Murray - We don't know much about him. He's incredibly paranoid and lives in a bunker. He knows Russian and a lot of info that is convenient. I could honestly see him being a traitor. I don't think he is for the record. But seriously, he could go either way. He could genuinely be a good guy helping out his friends. Or he could be a Russian operative collecting intel on the lab. Or he could work for that branch of the military trying to find El and is keeping an eye on things? Idk. But his lack of backstory makes me suspicious.
Flo - This woman has been quietly working in the police department for years. She knows shit. Don't tell me she hasn't put this whole damn thing together by now. Murray has ranted about a little Russian girl, and Troy was brought in because a bald girl broke his arm with her mind, Aunt Becky was calling looking for Hopper because a girl showed up at her house, a mother found some random girl at the park and she disappeared, Will and El look alike and Hopper was confusing the two in S1, and Joyce calls constantly because something is wrong with Will. Pretty sure she knows Hopper adopted this random Russian girl and is hiding her and Joyce is involved and she's just very tactfully minding her own business.
Henry - Obviously the dude has done some shady shit. However, there is clearly more to this story. I don't trust the version of events he tells Nancy and Brenner's version to El was "cherry picked". Victor also was unintentionally biased. I don't think Henry is necessarily redeemable at this point, but I do think we aren't getting the full story and some of it will likely reveal that he was a victim as much as Will, El, and Kali.
Karen - I always thought she knew way more than she was letting on even back in S1. The theories about her possibly being Alice Creel are interesting. I feel like she knows exactly what Nancy and Mike have been getting into and is worried about them and she's going to have to reveal some info soon.
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getting a few things off my chest about Gen Kill. sorry im in your inbox. but i am. you can publish this ask or keep it in the DM, both are fine.
First, actually the hardest series to watch in all three shows for me. I'm ok with the level of violence in the other two (as well as other trigger-warning content) but the level of civilian casualty in GK just really fuck with me. I find it very hard to want to rewatch GK, even tho I do like the show a lot.
Second, Both TP and GK, for me, are the anti-thesis and deconstruction of BoB. In two different ways. TP talks about another theater and how fucked up these stories are and basically pushes the audience away. Don't look, it's not a story to share (vs BoB that invite you to take part and be with the characters). GK is the modern day glory-seeking meaningless chaotic and toxic reality of the US military (vs BoB's fighting for the right thing, our officers are smart and capable). And they're both meta answers to BoB's more propagandistic story.
Third, ok, let's get silly lol. I have to say whatever is going with Brad and Nate is fucking homo. "Not to be homo sir, but I can kiss you right now" um what. And the eyes contact. Bro. Bruh. That being said... I ship BradRay xD Their bantering old-married-couple dynamic is more my speed, than BradNate victorian yearning dynamic xD
hello, no worries, it's all good, my inbox is always open for thoughts, insights and opinions! this got pretty long so i'm gonna put it under a read more so it doesn't annoy anyone
i published this bc i ended up adding a lot of my own thoughts about it and didn't want it to seem like i was directing them specifically at you or your opinion bc i do go off track a lot.
it was the hardest series for me to get into as well at first, for a similar few reasons. first of all, it felt like i was being dropped into a locked room with men who would hate my guts, and not just have bullied me in high school, but detest my existence too. so i think that atmosphere of over the top toxic masculinity instantly made me uneasy, but that's the point. that's the whole reason the articles, book and show exists really. to show how that mindset and atmosphere laid the groundwork for what happened. i think if they were to have made a show where we as viewers are allowed to laugh along with their jokes, enjoy their interactions, but not be forced to confront the realities of both the invasion and the people taking part, then it would defeat the message and themes that the show is trying to present to us. i think the civilian death, and basically the way the military treated civilians in general, has to make you uncomfortable, otherwise it's not doing its job as a text or piece of media. at least from the writer's perspective and what they wanted to say about what happened there, bc ultimately, everything is a construct with biases and a goal. so i 100% agree with you in that it's easily the most uncomfortable show to casually watch in that regard, but if it didn't show all of that, it wouldn't be a show with a purpose, imo.
i would personally put the pacific a bit closer to band of brothers than gen kill when it comes to discussing its propagandism actually. bc whilst it has the caveat of "this is the reality and brutality of war, it's horrific, you don't want any part of it" and "it's not all camaraderie and brothers being bonded for life", the show still has its 'heroes' who are depicted as sacrificing either their lives or their mental wellbeing for 'the cause', and it still carries the message of "yes this is terrible but it's needed". two things that propagandist themes can thrive amongst. just reading some of the more bootlickery youtube comments about the pacific shows how some of those people cling onto the brutality and harshness of that theatre of war, and the show itself, as a display of heroic bravery and badge of honour. i've seen a few commenters on reaction videos and stuff and they're basically frothing at the mouth about how it's so much more brutal than band of brothers, and they aren't saying it from a critical perspective either, which is what the show may have intended, but more from a "omg brutal war porn nice!!" kinda way. i know i'm rambling off point from what you said, but it's just some of my thoughts. i'm probably gonna ramble a bit in the rest of the post so don't see it as me disagreeing with your points bc i think we have pretty much the same opinion in most ways, but i guess your ask has prompted a lot of thinking from me so i'm just getting some of my thoughts out about the shows.
i think for me, i would say the pacific is a stepping stone between band of brothers and generation kill. i do agree in that it is pushing the viewer away from the idea of war as noble, in favour of saying "no! it's dirty and cruel and harsh and you won't survive it, even if you're alive when it's over" but it's also presented in the same way as band of brothers in regards to how we're supposed to view these men. there's many competent and intelligent guys making decisions and the humanity of those men is always on display. they're still shown as heroes, even if they're broken ones. so i think i can't fully align it with gen kill as a direct opposition to the messaging in band of brothers, but more one that says "ok, we've seen it from that perspective, now let's open up the casket up a little more and try to understand it looking through another lens".
whereas for me, gen kill sets explosives in the casket and blows that shit to pieces. there are no noble heroes competently achieving great feats, or sacrificing their lives for 'the greater good'. the people who do die, or get wounded, are seen as wasted casualties and missions gone wrong, fuck ups that we see in the corner of exterior shots to remind us that it's not all singing avril lavigne in a humvee, that there are consequences, even for the invaders. we see the destruction they inflict on civilians constantly, but the marines that get wounded/die are essentially proof of the incompetencies and fuck ups that even the most militaristic audience has to admit to.
the line of morality is non-existent, apart from a few people that we meet, but they have no power whatsoever. they can't actually do anything even if they disagree with what's happening. they stand by and they watch. we get nate who hates it, very clearly, but his whole thing is that he literally can't do anything. he has no actual power or impact on anything there. i saw a meme on here a few days ago where it was like "i'm competent at my job but i'm starting to think i'm just decorative" and it's funny and just a silly meme but it's also kind of the truth. we see him make a few decisions that go over the head of the initial orders, etc, but in the big picture, they have so little effect that it's a drop in the ocean comparatively. so the little competency we do have is ineffective. and even the more authoritative roles within the narrative that we get to see, like ferrando, are shown as not just making bad decisions, but actually not having much control over matters themselves. they're all floundering from top to bottom. there's no basilone or winters or ack ack there to make us sigh with relief as viewers bc finally, someone will make things right, make the right choice, do the right thing. instead we have these very complex people who have a lot of messed up flaws and shit within them, but some realistic relatabilities too. and sure, a good few of them want to do better and will call out certain shit they see in different ways (doc bryan, nate, espera, brad) but ultimately, they're forced to not just watch and let it happen, but a lot of the time, take part and be culpable for those actions too.. and it's not depicted as a noble sacrifice of their morality, it positions them as helpless and incapable. so the viewer doesn't get their usual hbo war heroes, which to me, feels like a direct answer to both band of brothers and the pacific in that kind of way.
i feel like walt's character shows us that (on a surface level basis but still). he's presented to us as the more appealing contrast to trombley. they're both young and in brad's team, two sides of a coin you could say bc we're shown immediately that trombley is the problem child and walt is the pretty golden boy that spends his scenes telling brad to get some rest or trying to fix the dodgy equipment they've got, or essentially is just trying to be helpful. but they both fuck up bad and kill civilians as an individual. we don't get to keep our clean innocent pretty boy. he fucks up. bad. his hands aren't clean. none of theirs are. not nate's, not even doc bryan's. he says that himself. walt clearly feels terrible afterward and that's the difference between him and trombley (though i will say i do think trombley is much more complex than we see on the surface), but walt doesn't get to escape the blood on his hands. even the most seemingly "innocent" characters never get to remain that in this show. there are no heroes.
and then the second point i mentioned above about the message of "yes was is terrible but needed sometimes" is the other thing that gen kill throws away and abandons. nothing, not a single thing, is depicted as needing to happen. yeah, they're told it's needed and honestly, a lot of those marines were brainwashed into believing it, but the whole point is that it wasn't. it was a colossal fuck up in every way and the show holds up a massive flashing neon sign showing us exactly how, but from the ground.
so absolutely fully agree with you that this show is positioned as a meta deconstruction to band of brothers themes, and even the pacific, especially when the shows are presented as a package deal, as hbo war so often is. it's all a lot more nuanced than what i've said bc i've just been rambling AGAIN, but i think there's a lot of dialogue going on between the three shows when you analyse them from further away that is really interesting to discuss.
so yup, definitely agree with what you said and thank you for dropping by my inbox to talk about this kinda stuff with me! i'm sorry if i went into too much detail or overtook this ask with my own opinions or anything but yeah. i think we all know by now that i tend to ramble when asked about anything!
NOW ONTO THE FUN PART!
it genuinely feels like bradnate have taken up residence in a very large part of my brain. i had heard a lot of people mentioning bradray on here before i watched, so i was expecting that to be the main 'ship' of the show, and kinda thought i'd probably end up getting onboard with that, but i actually only got platonic besties vibes from them. i'm always down for as much gay as possible, so i support it, but i just don't really see anything outside of platonic love between them? i do really enjoy their relationship and interactions though, and some of their scenes are my absolute favourites.
but i'm ALL about the victorian repression and yearning, so ofc bradnate is where it's at for me. as a gay man who repressed all his emotions growing up it just calls to me like a siren lmao. i think that's why i'm like a feral little gremlin about nate actually
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Maybe Faith would be a match for Quaritch I Paz's daughter? Or something similar to the mother's name like Topaz. Although I think Ada also fits. The name Gunner didn't really suit me, but maybe that's because it sounds weird in my native language haha
Could you ever write more headcanons about the twins or the life of the Quaritch-Socorro family in general?
Personal I headcanon that Quaritch is an atheist so I don’t think he’d name his daughter Faith even though that does seem like a southern name to me. Maybe if he was religious he’d go with that. I also considered the name Hope thinking about how she would have been saved after her mother was killed but then I thought that was too hokey.
I considered the name Aiden instead of Gunner and others have suggested that name to me as well. Gunner isn’t really to my taste either. I do prefer the name Aiden actually. But I’m not naming my son. I’m naming this hypothetical son of Quaritch and I still think he’d go with something like Gunner. That name just sounds harsher to me. I can feel the weight of it when I say it if that makes sense. Aiden just seems too nice to me.
I wrote a bunch ideas for a cabin in the woods sibling au here so I'll do a part 2 of that now.
 
So fast forward. Spider has been living with his dad in his childhood home for the past three years. He's fifteen and while he would love to have a normal life he's made peace with the fact that this is the best he's going to get until he turns 18
I'm going to say Quaritch isn't as controlling of Spider in this au. Because in Cabin and Blood Brother's Quaritch needs to break Spider's world view and will to get him to fall in line. Spider is willingly staying with him in this au and so thing are much easier between them
In this au Spider got his nickname from his mom calling him "her little spider monkey." So Quaritch doesn't have as much of an issue calling him Spider as a pet name, only using Miles or Junior when he's being serious.
Quaritch is so happy to at least have one of his kids that he's less of a military dad with Spider, letting him wear ripped jeans and band t-shirts, and letting Spider keep his hair on the longer side. Quaritch thinks his eldest looks likes a punk and would prefer it if he "took more pride in his appearance" but at the end of the day who cared. His son is happy and healthy and that's all that mattered.
When not doing school work, Spider skateboards around their property (they live in the middle of nowhere 20 minutes from town so there's little danger of someone seeing him) draws, or plays video games.
His old friends don't realize it but Spider is actually playing his games with Lo'ak and Kiri and talks to them over chat. Quaritch doesn't know who Spider is talking to but does approve of his son getting some form of social interaction.
Spider "visits" his siblings with his dad pretty often. They don't have set days, they just go at random times to never attract suspicion
Spider does not like Hunter adoptive parents. He thinks his timid brother would be infinitely happier with him and their dad but at least his gets to live a normal life.
Spider thinks the twin's moms are awesome though. They're very involved in there kids lives, let Ada and Gunner express themselves however they want, and are always loving and accepting. Spider low key envies his youngest siblings but he is genially happy for them.
He's gotten to interact with his siblings a couple time. After practically large growth spurt (Spider could barely get out of bed his body hurt so bad. His dad called over his uncle Ja to make sure he was okay, and he was, he was just growing really fast. After a couple of months he was significantly taller, his voice had dropped, and his jaw line was more pronounced) his dad agreed that he looked different enough to make a few public appearances as long as they weren't seen together, and Spider made sure no other adults were around.
Spider talked to Hunter a few times outside of his school. Hunter's parents were always late picking him up from book club. Spider would sit and talk with him under the guise that he was waiting for his younger brother to finish up with tutoring so they could walk home together. it took time for Hunter to come out of his shell but once he did he could talk for hours about all his interests. Spider loved every second of it, the way his brother's eyes would light up and he'd get more animated as he talked. And then one of his parents would pull in and that light would die. Spider would have to quickly say goodbye so Hunter's parents wouldn't notice him, but Spider would still watch as Hunter got into the car, his shoulders slumped, all the life drained out of him
Spider played soccer with Gunner a few times while he waited for his coach and teammates to get there for practice. Ada had to be at dance at the same time Gunner had to be at soccer so he'd get dropped off long before everyone else and just play on the playground. Spider and him would have a great time together, kicking the ball around, chasing each other around the field.
Spider didn't get to interact with Ada as much. She wasn't really left alone like her brothers were. But she liked to draw just like Spider, and had even been in a few kids art shows at her school. Plenty of other older siblings were at the elementary school art show so Spider didn't look out of place walking around admiring his sister's work. Ada caught him looking and had excitedly skipped up to him to talk about it. She was a little motor mouth but Spider didn't mind. He actually found is really endearing.
Every interaction made Spider so incredibly happy. But then he'd have to leave and he'd feel his joy crash and burn. It was unfair that his family couldn't be together. But he had made his peace with it. His dad would never get back custody and besides his siblings were settled in with parents that loved them. It'd be cruel to rip them away from that.
Summer approached. Spider and Quaritch made there usual cross country road trip to their cabin. This time though they made a real road trip out of it stopping at a bunch of tourist attractions instead of driving straight there like they usually did. Spider didn't think much of the change. He just figured since he looked older now, and they where away from their home town his dad felt more comfortable going out in public together.
Really Quaritch was giving Spider a last hurrah before trapping him in the cabin for the foreseeable future.
So they're at the cabin for about a month when Uncle Fike shows up to apparently babysit Spider for a week while his dad "attends to some important business" Spider is confused but doesn't ask to many questions.
a week later he wake up to find his dad is home- with all three of his siblings laying unconscious in his dad's room.
after getting over his initial shock Spider starts screaming at his dad. Because how could he kidnap them! how could he tear them away from their lives.
Quaritch waves him off "you cant kidnap your own kids. This was the only way our family could be together."
Spider tries to physically fight him but gets subdued, Quaritch sedates him and putting him in bed with his siblings
So all the kids wake up together, with ankle monitors locked to them. Quaritch does his little blood brother spiel. All the younger siblings recognize Spider and he mostly tells them the truth. That he ran away from his foster home and took every opportunity he could to see his siblings but he leaves out the part were he's actually been living with his dad for the past three years.
Lyle and Z stay with them for the first few week to help get the kids under control.
Spider raises hell at every opportunity, constantly fighting with his dad. He'd never admit it but this whole situation hurts him deeply. What his dad did was totally unforgivable. He wants to hate him but that's still his dad. Spider tries to convince him to give up his siblings. He'll forgive him if he does the right thing, he'll stay if his dad does the right thing. Quaritch blows him off, "you've got no power here kid. I'm holding all the cards, you've got nothing. Besides you'll come around. You can't pretend like this isn't everything you've ever wanted."
Hunter is jokingly dubbed the "favorite child" because he's the most well behaved. really he's just too terrified try anything
Ada screams- a lot. and bites. and kicks. She screams every time an adult tries to tell her to do something. she bites when any of them tries to touch her and she'll kick at every opportunity.
Gunner is worse. He doesn't really speak unless spoken to but he's so stressed that if one of the adults so much as breathes around him then he starts throwing things, trashing the place like a bull in a china shop. It's so bad that after a few days Quaritch turned the hallway closet into "Gunner's Quiet room." Gunner bangs his fists against the door and Spider, Ada and Hunter, shout and beg for his release but Quaritch refuses until all the kids are calm.
I have to end it there because i'm about to hit the character limit but I hope you enjoyed! Let me know if you want a part 3 💞
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skittles-the-whumpee · 11 months
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MY CAUTIONARY TALE
I think it's about time I tell you all my story. These are real life events that happened to me years ago. I am not looking for sympathy nor do I want any. Most will see this as a black spot in my past but that's not how I see it...it's what shaped me to be what I am now. I was underage for the first portion, so I will gloss over the details and omit others. Please keep in mind that this was all pretransition and before I even knew that I was trans. I know some of the details are jumbled around from what I have told some folks, that's because I had to focus to get them all in the correct order, my memory isn't the greatest.
This is NOT a whump story or any kind of entertainment. It is a cautionary tale that needs to be heard.
TW: sexual themes (some forced), grooming, enforced captivity, beating, contractual service, willing minor (myself when I was young), severe Stockholm Syndrome, human trafficking.
When I had turned 17, I was...well...promiscuous. I know what you're all thinking and I don't frankly care, I don't need your approval nor your disgust, it's what made me happy and I enjoyed being a slut. Do I approve of sex with minors? Of fucking course not! Is that maybe a double standard since I was the minor in that situation? Probably, but it's what I did and I'm not ashamed of what I did in my youth.
Anyway, when I turned 17 in 2007, I started looking on kink sites for older guys who wanted to have some fun. Besides the usual time-wasters that still exist today, one man stood out. He was polite and understood that I wanted to explore the kinky side of sex, telling me that he was looking for a pet to serve him long-term. I agreed to meet up with him for a casual date to discuss everything, which went very well. We talked about my limits, how he would treat me, safewords, the works. I was so excited to begin, that I became blind to things that, in hindsight, were obvious red flags.
The first time I went to his house, he didn't pick me up in front of my sister's house (where I was living at the time), he told me to meet him three blocks away. I didn't think anything thing of it and since he was now my "sir", I blindly obeyed. Once in his car, he had me use both hands to hold onto his hand that he had in my lap as he drove also having me stare down at it for the entire hour drive. In case that's not obvious: my hands couldn't reach for the door without him knowing and I couldn't see where we were going. We got to his house and I began my training to be his fuckpet. It honestly wasn't bad, even in the moment, I actually enjoyed it. He was my Master and I was his boy.
This went on for months, I'd visit on weekends whenever I didn't want to go home (I attended a military boarding school that was just a couple-hour train ride from his home. I knew which station to get off at, but he had me follow the same protocol as before: eyes down, hands on his. I never thought about it being a red flag, it was what I was supposed to do and so I obeyed. My sister never thought to ask me where I was going on the weekends I didn't come home. Part of me thinks she didn't care, I was out of her and her husband's hair. Her husband didn't seem to care either, for that matter.
After about six months of being his loyal pet, I had to stop going as the school had somehow found out where I had been going and obviously didn't approve. I called Master and told him the terrible news and that I was devastated, he was not thrilled either but he calmed me down and got me to stop crying. I would not see my Master again for two years.
When I turned 18 the next year, I got expelled from the boarding school and with no job, my only choice was to enlist in the Army. I had been going to a JROTC-based school for three and a half years, that got me brownie points with my recruiter as I was a shoo-in. I did one year out of the three in my contract and got out with an Honorable Discharge. The details of my military service will not be discussed, do not ask.
When I got out, it was December of 2009. I had nowhere to go as I couldn't show my face around my brother-in-law, a die-hard former Marine, after not even completing my military contract, I'd never hear the end of it. So I went to a cafe with my laptop and did the same thing I did before, I went online to post on the kink sites, offering myself in exchange for a place to stay. I would have contacted Master...but I couldn't get a hold of him.
Enter, Master Travis, a lawyer in LA who was searching for a houseboy to serve him and his wife. I was to sign a contract that stated that, in exchange for a room, new clothes, and food I was to do all chores (including cooking) and let him and his spouse do anything they wish with me. Anything. I didn't want to be on the streets so I signed. I was then given three identical uniforms consisting of a black leather collar, a white long-sleeve button-down shirt with a rouched front and black buttons, black slacks with sizing straps as I was not allowed a belt, a black clip-on bow tie, black dress socks, and black dress shoes. When Master Travis didn't have any guests, I was to go barefoot.
At this point, I was 19 and fully legal for sexual use, which Master Travis and his wife took full advantage of quite regularly. My morning routine started with a caning, then a shower where he would fuck me, then I was to finish my shower and get ready for the day. Throughout the day, I would be summoned to please either one between chores. I didn't mind any of this. Even the caning was necessary as it was a form of maintenance discipline.
What I did mind, however, were the beatings Master Travis would give me whenever he was angry or had a bad day at the office. He would restrain my hands above my head and punch my torso until his stress or anger was relieved. It usually didn't take long and he always made sure that he only hit below my collar and never bruised my hands, hiding the damage beneath my uniform shirt from any guests that he may have over. He also made sure that he never broke anything besides minor fractures that healed with time.
I served Master Travis for two months before he and his wife decided to move out of state, unable to take me with them. He didn't want to fully release me so he asked me if I knew anyone that would enjoy having me like he did. I told him about my first Master and he told me to get a hold of him, no matter what it took. After two days of trying, I finally managed to contact Master. He was elated to hear from me but he wanted to talk to Master Travis. They discussed when and where to hand me over and I got my old clothes back.
Later that day, Master Travis brought me to the meeting point; a neighborhood I had never seen before. Upon arrival, Master Travis instructed me to take my things from his car and put them in Master's car, which I began doing. As I passed by them, I heard Master Travis telling Master about the training and skills he has given me, to which, Master responded by offering monetary compensation for me...he was offering to literally buy me. Master Travis declined and said "consider him a gift for your troubles". They shook hands and Master told me to get in his car, I obeyed. I was his boy again.
When we got to his home, he told me to leave my things in the garage and so I did. He then took me inside to give me a proper inspection. When he saw the bruises and my post-military physique, he wasn't happy. He said that I didn't have the young body that I used to have but he would make do. That didn't feel right...I thought he was happy to own me again, full-time this time, and he was...he was just disappointed that I didn't look like a minor anymore. He also treated me differently from before, he seemed like he didn't care about me like he used to, not caring if he hurt me during usual activities, often giving me a cold shoulder and disregarding my pained cries.
One day, he had been particularly cold towards me while he had me in his home office as a stress pet, and with being young and stupid, I tried doing something I had never done before: be defiant. He wanted me to pleasure him and I refused. This angered him to the point of throwing me to the floor and pinning me beneath him to have his way with me. I had hit my limit. I started screaming for help, for someone to call the police. Houses in Southern California are really close to each other, someone would hear me. He froze and went pale before getting off of me and giving me back my clothes. Then he had me tell him where he can drop me and my stuff off. I didn't have anywhere else to go.
I figured I had been through enough, I just wanted to go home so I told him to take me back to my sister's place. He did and I never heard from him or Master Travis ever again.
This all may seem unbelievable but I assure you it is all true. This is what happens when you're not careful and rush into things before you know a person. Don't let desperation and horniness get the better of you and you end up being abused and trafficked. I talk about wanting to go back to Master Travis but I need to make it clear to everyone who reads this that just because I want it for myself, it does not mean that I wish it on anyone else.
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I'm flat out thinking about rewriting OG! Ghost's backstory. I absolutely love the og story of Modern Warfare, but I feel like that version of Ghost had so much potential for something new and fun. I know technically that the reboot did this already but fuck it I want to do this anyway! 2022 Ghost and 2009 Ghost are not the same man, fight me.
2009 Ghost still grew up in a shitty home; his dad an abusive alcoholic and his brother being a piece of shit to him while growing up. However, I feel like him and his brother as they grew older would get closer and his brother--I'm going to rename him--Jackson, would realize how shitty of a father their dad is and would yell at him every time he'd put his hands on Simon.
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Simon started going by Ghost when he was in high school rather than when he joined the military. He got this nickname because he'd just appear out of thin air, having used to being quiet all the time at home; this would transfer over to school as well. His classmates calling him "Ghost" more as an endearing term rather than mocking.
I feel like Ghost would play sports while he was in high school Rugby is what everyone things of, but I feel like he'd be more into Wrestling, a way to get out his frustrations. Remember, he's a brit, they don't have American Football in high schools over there. (I think, if anyone British reads this; please tell me if this is correct or not).
Due to playing sports, I feel like Ghost would end up being a big kid by the time he joined the military; In fact, enlisters being excited seeing this big 18-year-old sign up was something to go around.
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The first time Ghost was captured and tortured was when he was 20; he moved up the ranks pretty quickly, but this mission went sideways. After that, he'd end up training himself hard and better to make sure it didn't happen again.
By the time he was 24 and met Lt. John "Soap" MacTavish, he'd have over 50 stitches, been on countless number of pain meds, and even have to get cartilage shots. Soap saw this young Sargent, thinking, "What the fuck happened to this kid?"
When Soap saw Ghost for the first time on the field, he thought he was seeing an actual Ghost; his speed and precise aim scared even him--there's a reason why he's called Soap.
Afterwards, he went to Price about it; Price suggested that he would join Task Force 141; which Price was already forming by the events of Og!MW. Soap offered it to Ghost, and he hesitated. Yes, he was skilled and wanted to be the best in his field, but he didn't want to leave the men that he'd already grew up with from the time they enlisted.
After weeks of contemplation, Ghost agreed to joining the Task Force.
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thoughts on The Last Of Us episode seven, largely in the order I had them:
[thoughts on: 1.1 | 1.2 | 1.3 | 1.4 | 1.5 | 1.6 | X | 1.8 | 1.9]
— it took me a while to realise that the shapes at the end of the credits are ellie and joel. it's grim - two figures, alone, growing out of this infested world.
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— she can't be actually about to leave joel?? splitting them up at this point isn't allowed, what the shit
(unless she can get there and back quickly enough to bring him medical attention in which yes please)
— first glimpse of the military school!! it's a little odd to realise she had more access to music than joel did. I can't quite remember ellie's first mention of her friend, either - it might've been the first episode?
— did not expect a dressing down in a military school to begin with "what's going on?", gently spoken
— captain kwong I actually really like you. he's an inherently manipulative bastard and I don't trust him but this is another adult talking to ellie honestly and giving her options rather than just making decisions for her, and it's nice to see, in a messed up way.
— and ellie's also not scared of him - or she doesn't look scared. she did tell sam that thing about being scared all the time and I don't think that was a joke. not cowed by him, then. and okay, maybe it's on purpose, maybe he's deliberately avoiding crushing her spirit because they don't just need grunts, they need officers too - but he's still not crushing her spirit entirely, and it's a relief.
— …he really believes they're what's holding civilisation together, too. he's genuinely scared and doing what he can to try to keep things going.
(and still, he has to know that there are abuses of power under a military dictatorship. he has to know, and he's justifying them, because he believes the work they do is that important. I really don't agree with him but I sort of don't know where exactly to fault him on his reasoning, and that's chilling.)
((and I'm doing a LOT of speculating about a character we only see briefly, when he's manipulating a teenager for the cause. but still.))
— gosh, I know ellie got culture shock looking through the teenager's bedroom in jackson, but this is such a normal teenage bedroom too. I mean, almost. one with the vibe of a cell or a ward. but we get a glimpse of everything up on the walls, the drawing of the dinosaur, the mortal kombat poster.
— okay an awful thought is occurring to me. I had to look up transcripts to double-check what ellie said about her friend first: when ellie calls marlene a terrorist, marlene says "was riley a terrorist?" and the past tense there and ellie's expression both felt... significant.
so we can guess her friend died tragically. we know ellie killed someone and doesn't want to talk about it. and it's awful, it's so awful, but if she had to kill a friend who got infected, that could answer it. and it'd add extra angst to her trying and failing to save sam, too - because hey, she didn't even know to try before, maybe she can manage it this time! and then she can't.
— OH GOOD, RILEY'S A SHITHEAD TOO
— she has a good grin.
— "turn around." "you're so weird about that." <3
— uh oh this doesn't bode well
— okay maybe it bodes fine. is it even a girls' night out if they don't see a corpse and have a laugh about it
— ellie and riley are bad influences on each other and also very cute
— riley I've known you for five minutes and I know you should be smart enough not to go into a mall that's only allegedly full of infected. "if it's sealed off then why isn't it sealed off" THE CEILING CAVING IN DOESN'T MEAN THEY WERE LYING about this specific thing at least
— the moment riley said they were on a mission I just. sigh. nonzero chance this is an actual firefly mission.
…fuck, is this gonna be where they both get bitten
— you know, ellie cutting and killing that infected in the cellar where joel stopped to pick up a cache of supplies? that makes much more sense if it was revenge for riley's death. because she hasn't been quite that brutal since. but like, the chance to safely look into the face of the thing that should have killed her, that killed her friend, and get to know it a bit, then quietly regain some of the control she lost? that makes sense.
— …riley directing her into place so she can watch as the mall flickers to life, oh gosh. oh that's beautiful.
— THE FOUR FIVE WONDERS OF THE MALL. STARTING WITH ELECTRIC STAIRS. OH GOSH.
they're so gonna end up at the arcade.
— shoutout to whoever took the time to put lipstick on a glasses advert when the world locked down
— and dawn of the wolf part 2 is definitely a twilight movie equivalent
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— environmental storytelling </3
— you know when you feel deep fondness but also your heart breaking a little but it's not sad, it might not even be bittersweet but that's the closest match? yeah. ellie checking her reflection in the victoria's secret window.
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— hi this scene is just so soft and so pretty and so sweetly ow
— ARCADE TIME, I KNEW IT
— "you asshole." "yeah, I'm the same asshole that spent an hour yesterday breaking this fucker open." okay riley put so much effort into that night oh heck
— I'M SORRY THE MILEENA VORE IS AN ACTUAL THING. SHE ACTUALLY BARFS BONES. why am I even surprised
— can the camera not zoom out ominously please. this is sweet this is fun let's not do this right now
— ellie's attempt at a goodbye that was also an "I don't like you enough to leave the school and join the fireflies with you," but they both know that, it's not a surprise, fuckin' ouch
— "how does a computer get drunk? it takes screenshots." "what are screenshots?" "I don't actually know."
— (listen I used to write in what was technically a postapoc setting, though the worldbuilding was crap so we mostly ignored that, so I keep wanting to go back and incorporate ideas, it's terrible.)
— riley crashing at that mall with at least one ticking timebomb just chilling in one of the shops, turning the lights on and playing loud games multiple times, I really really don't like this
— oh this hurts. it was set in stone from the start but it still hurts.
— OH SHIT MAYBE NOT. fake screams wtf that's mean, show.
— "maybe the fireflies aren't what I think they are but they chose me. I matter to them." "you mattered to me first." heY OW
— seriously these are baller lines. these lines alone I could see people going feral over. this is the good angst that people write fics about.
— do they have to have this incredibly cute dance party in a shop with lots of faces and figures in the background while we know there's an infected in the mall, please I am suffering
— oh they're so cute and also so doomed
— we still don't know who ellie killed.
— "we can just be all poetic and shit and lose our minds together." yeah, I mean, ideally you could, that's a really sweet and tragic sentiment-
— present-day ellie? is a fucking badass. and I say that not to negate the fact that she's a scared kid trying to keep her caregiver alive, but rather because she's a scared kid and she doesn't know what to do and she's trying even though it's so, so hard.
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— the face of someone who's not gonna lose him too.
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it is so so so crazy how mike barely does anything when el gets bullied at the rink, and even when he himself is subjected to bullying in s1 but he stood up against troy for calling will names, and will wasn't even there. also, there weren't even indications of him worrying about el possibly liking someone else when she moves away w the byers but is so scared to lose will bc what if he joins another party? :-( he is so passive when it comes to el
Yeah, I agree with you. I've been thinking about the difference in how Mike was when looking for Will vs. when he was looking for El this season as well, and I always felt more of a certain level of giving up and passiveness from him when looking for El that wasn't present when he was searching for Will in season 1 too, and I can't really figure out why that is either. Something just felt.. removed. Off. Maybe that's just me, I don't know.. but to me, he seemed more obsessive about finding Will than he was about finding El (I mean, before the military shootout, he was even fine with not finding her and just going straight to Hawkins, until Unknown Hero Agent Man tells them as he's dying that El is in danger). It's similar to the difference in that Mike never stopped looking for Will in season 1, basically going to the ends of the Earth to find him, and being so easily convinced he was still alive after just hearing his voice once over the walkie talkie, meanwhile with El in season 2 in stark contrast, he assumed she was dead (see the quote when he's talking to Max in episode 8, "Yeah, she was (awesome). Until that thing took her, just like it took Bob.") but thought he was going crazy because he kept seeing her and hearing her voice (I believe he kept calling her out of hope that she would be alive even if he didn't fully believe it because he was going through survivor's guilt much like Nancy with Barb and was having a really hard time processing it, because he was the one who weaponized her, quote, "She's a weapon! Do you seriously want to fight the Demogorgon with your wrist rocket? That's like R2D2 going to fight Darth Vader! We're no use to Will if we're dead", and then when he later tried to stop her from fighting the Demogorgon like he had originally wanted after growing closer with her, she wouldn't let him and sacrificed herself). So, accepting that Will isn't dead after hearing his voice only once vs. assumption El is dead no matter what he sees or hears until everyone else sees her, too. Again, a certain level of giving up that just isn't present with Will. I thought it was interesting how he reacted to El being bullied vs. Will being bullied when he wasn't even present, too. With El, he just tells the DJ to turn the music off and only tries to get to her at the last minute after the damage has already been done, but gets lost in the crowd while she runs off and hides to cry. But with Will, he stood up to Troy in front of the whole gymnasium and pushed him down in front of them, and Will wasn't even there to witness it. So it's not like he's afraid to take a stand for the people he loves.. or.. person he loves, it seems. So the fact he doesn't rush onto the rink immediately for El is interesting. The end of season 3 also kind of foreshadowed Mike feeling he's losing Will with the voiceover of Hopper's letter reading "but lately, I've been feeling.. distant from you, like you're pulling away from me or something" as Mike is watching the cars and moving truck leaving, and then he sadly gazes back at the Byers house before riding away for the last time on his bike. We could also infer then that it was Will he was most upset about losing since it's paralleled to the couple times in season 2 where he watches with concern and sadness as Will leaves school with his mom, the first time for a check-up at the lab in episode 1 and the second time after his possession on the field in episode 4. And this prediction/theory that he felt he was losing Will was confirmed in season 4 when Mike tells him, "maybe I feel like I.. lost you or something" and tells Will that Hawkins isn't the same without him. For Mike.. it was and has always been Will that he's most afraid of losing. And it's Will that he'll give his all for.
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Yeah, I agree. I think that in Brazil it can be more helpful to get into to university first and if you turn up not liking the course you chose, it is easier to swap when you're in there, especially when it is in the same area (like people who go from law into studying political science or from one type of engineering course to another). Because when you have to make changes here you have you have to do the test again, which will make you have to study again because it is hard to remember everything that goes into the test (all school knowledge, writing well and being aware of current national and international affairs). It gets harder because the system is also going through changes over the years.
ENEM became more important around when I was in highschool and even then, some people did not give a fuck about it, didn't even take the test properly. Now it is pretty serious and people rely on it more heavily. And they say the test is getting harder. Vestibular is also a different test for every university, and you usually try out for multiple universities because getting in is pretty hard. Some places accept people that are from the second year of highschool, which I kind recommend people trying, even though you enter it about one year younger than others.
Here you spend basically from the last year of middle school studying really, really hard until the end of highschool (13/14 year-olds to 17/18 year-olds) and sometimes you have to attend a special class focused on ENEM or your local university, or spend years studying even more heavily in what we call "cursinho" (little course is the translation but there is nothing small about it), it gets pretty heavy in your final school year and in cursinho (it can go from 18 year-olds to... whenever you get into university, which might take years and years).
I would go to school on my final year and class would start at 7 am and only leave at 9 pm (we had gym class at night after a whole day of classes). It would usually go from 7am to 7pm.
They would be strict to the point we had to sneak out if we wanted to go to the bathroom or get water because teachers wouldn't always let you go, you couldn't hug your friends in my school because it was considered that it might "look romantic" (no matter your sexuality really). I heard that a gay kid I studied with was outed to his parents by the administration (the kid was pretending to be straight but everyone "suspected him" so the school talked to his parents, supposedly). They had cameras on every classroom of mine, and they did record us. I could not use my phone. You can't break uniform rules. And I wasn't in a religious school nor in a military one, they can be harsher than that. Schools where I lived were pretty insane with their rules. I knew some people who had severe mental health issues, I got depressed, everything was so stressful.
It can be really, really stressful in highschool.
I know some schools go far easier on students than mine did, my school was one of those "good schools" that "train you to beat the tests and get into university". But all kinds of crazy stuff happens in these "good schools". I had a few teachers that would encourage us not to be friendly to each other because we were "each other's competition, not friends". Honestly, the kind of stuff that happened on my old school was so intense...lol. I still have nightmares. I can understand a lot of the pressure, how hard the exams are, how hard it is to study, kids staying in school all day and studying all night... it's tough.
I know it's so hard to choose one thing to do, and if you don't, I encourage you to at least apply for different courses so you can pick one of them later, to at least have one field of interest if you wanna change it later so you don't have to study for exams again when you're older and have to take vestibular over again. Or trying to get earlier into college if school gets too much. I knew kids that went to study in other countries because Brazilian highschool was hell for them (but that's a very privileged thing because it costs a lot of money and our economy is really bad right now).
I felt like it might make it easier to understand if I told my experiences as a Brazilian when I was in Brazilian highschool. Not every highschool was so strict, but the ones that are considered good schools focus heavily on the university exams (vestibular) that are different to every university, ENEM (a national exam you take that is supposed to tell how much kids all over the country are learning but is largely treated like a shitshow by the government and should help you get into college but is getting harder each year). Uh, yeah, I had some good times in highschool but all of us were dying to get out. They don't focus much on you actually learning stuff, but passing all universities exams.
I am not trying to be rude, just trying to talk more about how highschool can be where I live. I don't know which country your from, and I am sorry if I am explaining all this to someone who is brazilian hahaha @troubled-pasta
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themadauthorshatter · 2 years
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I forgot to add this WAY back when and haven't picked it up
Until NOW���🤩
GRITVIN HEADCANONS 2: PARENT EDITION!!!!!
(Because I torally didn't forget Cameron or their existence when making the first batch of headcanons)
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For context, this is mixing the Dad!Charles x Toppat!Henry thing I did and some of the Toppat!Henry stuff I made
Here Charles and Victoria have been together for a few years and are very close together, quite literally because they've moved in together.
Victoria did indeed want children but didn't need to voice it because Charles came home with a toddler he needed help caring for because he found it off the street.
She legitimately thought he lost his mind for a second before agreeing to help.
Cameron was very happy to have two parents again, but had a small adjustment issue because they were afraid of being left being again.
Victoria proved to be a pretty decent mother, though she and Cameron did have trouble connecting, especially when Cameron started going by they/them and Victoria had no idea what LGBTQIA+ was.
As parents, Charles and Victoria get the hang of it as much as they can, though there still times when theyvstruggle because Charles is a caring, gentle father while Victoria has a very 'tough love' mentality.
That mentality did drive a wedge between her and Cameron, one that led to Cameron avoiding her as much as possible until Charles found a way for the rwo to sit down and talk it out. While Cameron could accept that Victoria was not Charles, they legitimately didn't know if Victoria loved them or not, something that really struck Victoria where is hurts because she does love Cameron.
Where Charles and Cameron bond with cooking and being goofballs, Victoria and Cameron bond by having some very interesting discussions/debates and through teaching each other things.
Both parents have found the other asleep while holding Cameron and it was the cutest thing they found EVER
Victoria also teaches Cameron how to defend themself because she's a concerned mother
Did Charles marry Victoria? Yes. Did a majority of the military see it? Yes. Did Cameron Participate? Absolutely because they were their ring bearer.
Captain Canterbury wasn't really keen on Victoria getting hitched to Charles, but he warmed up to Cameron and respects Victoria's choice as much as he can
There was a discussion on whether Cameron should go to public or private school and the two ultimately decided to let them go public because Cameron could live a normal life that the two arguably didn't have
Cameron is still the government's kid and is their parents' child; goofy and efficient like Charles, but also mature with a soft, sweet center like Victoria.
... Who's ready for some angst? 😈
So, Toppat!Henry timeline, Cameron and Victoria are DEVASTATED that Charles is gone and when they find out what's happening with him, it's even worse because Cameron runs away to a jewelry store they think the Toppats will strike; their line of reasoning is that they'll be taken there and they can save Charles SOMEHOW.
They had to stay behind from the rescue mission and take a short vacation to the cabin, which is when the family reunited and Cameron begged Charles not to leave again.
Alternate ending, Victoria deals with Henry when he makes the mistake of going into the cabin in search of Charles.
Something of an off-hand timeline AU thing: Victoria equally gets Henry mad and intimidates him because she is Victoria Grit.
Galeforce and Victoria do teach Cameron how to use a gun for 'just in case' matters
Victoria and Cameron watch the Don't Hug Me I'm Scared show and it mashes them both laugh. They eventually pulled Charles into it and they quote the show on a daily basis
Does Charles have nightmares about being trapped on the orbital station? Of course, and that makes him lose sleep, despite Victoria's best efforts. Cameron is also aware of these nightmares and the three end up building pillow forts in the living room rather than going back to bed
Cameron did have a coming out talk with Charles and Victoria, mainly one where they wanted to go by they/them and not have their gender disclosed, and Victoria half-scowled at Charles, who smiled and said, "Hey, (non-binary, agender, genderless, etc)! I'm Charles, your dad!" Victoria was happy that her child was honest with her, she just knew Charles would not resist doing to joke.
NO ONE in Cameron's school picks on them because of their parents.
There was a scare because of Cameron having an allergic reaction to eating cherries, but it happened solely because the twins were watching them, and Victoria nearly killed them for it.
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