#i domt kmow if this is good

[xllesis]

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Reverse 1999 headcanons!!

Characters I wrote headcanons for in this post -

Pavia, A Knight, A fool

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My last post about my Зима headcanons did very well! In fact, it was my most liked post on this account which I've created during January/February of this year!! I just wanted to thank you very much :3.

And again, some of these might be inaccurate/ooc! I'm basing the hcs on the characters appearance/voicelines, though some of them might just be what I think :3

By the way, I'm using they/them pronouns for the fool. I'm not sure if it's correct or not, but since there's a voiceline in which the fool declares that they have no gender, I'll just go with they/them for now. If it's incorrect, please let me know!!!!

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Pavia was a piano player. While it seems unrealistic, and quite out of character for him to play the piano, (because he very obviously seems like the person who you'd see with an electric guitar on his back), it's also not too far fetched. His 'perfect hands' (as he describes them,) adorn ten 'perfect' long fingers which seem to be familiar with the octaves of piano keys he has found in his basement. He'd try to recreate that melody his mother used to sing to him before she was sent to an asylum. Though he must admit, he hasn't played the instrument for long. Maybe a few months when he was younger at best. He found himself too bored with it, and the strings in his mind were being pulled by the thrill of holding a growling, and whaling (electric) guitar in his arms.

A knight was a red head. It seems almost comical, but before he has lost his appearance — except his muscular frame which was contoured by the cloak, and armour he usually wears (which also gives an idea of his height) — his hair was shoulder length. It was slightly wavy, but not much, because he didn't understand how to take care of it. It was usually slightly tousled, and thrown back against the back of his neck. He didn't tie it often though, and despite his hair bothering him, he has never thought about cutting it.

A fool often quotes shakespeare. "We know what we are, but know not what we may be." as the fool likes to say. Their hand dramatically stretched out above their head with the same blue rose (at least I think it is) held in their hand. Their fingers played around the stalk of the flower while their red bangs fell over their mask with their theatrical bow.

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I apologize if they are inaccurate, or cringy. I was a bit too lazy to add any more headcanons, but I will probably make more in the future if I will feel like it :3

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[borderlinegerard]

#personal #my posts #warning: suiciceeand selfharmn talk in this rant #i think these meds are making me feel worse and i dont know what to do about it #gettinf used to these meds in the first place was so hard. i cant do it again #and like. i dont know. #iwant ro kill myself so bad and the only reason i can find is “maybe it will make someone sad” #but even that uts like. thats not a reason for me #theres no benefits for Me staying alive #like holy shit sometimes i forget i am So suicidal and then i have a night like this #usually these thougjs come late at night which is whyni started going to bed earlier #but things are changing and its 7:09 and im dealing with these thoughts Now #like Wow i guess injust deal with these thoughts forever no matter what. cool... #and i domt know. feeling the scars rub up against my sleeve makes me feel so bad #like theyre healing super fast but its still not enough #i think the worst part is the relief i always have after. i feel ao bad but thus tike especiallu i was jusy like #i cant believe people are reying to stop me from doing rhis... its so good for me #but like the blood soaked towel is doing nothing to help anyone #idk. i dont kmow what to do to feel better anymore

[othercrossee]

Pinterest comment is like if u let your intrusive thoughts win but also u r cringe in a deragotory way

#z rambles #* but cringe isnt real z ur just mad kids r being kids* they r terminally online and need to get off there #pinterest is seen as a safehaven for so many kids but safehaven on the internet is mever safe and not healthy #and by the shit they be saying and posting. i kmow its not even a safehaven anymore these r CHILDREN mind u #pinterest was oerfect just the way it is who decided on the comment good lord #obv some kids stupid comment isnt gonns ruin my dsy but it does ruin the experience sometimes 👍 #but all is good honestly i just like tslking shit i domt even go on there much snymoe #anymoe...

[transfemzedaph]

Pssst, is it okay if I add thoughts? <- said even though they're gonna do it anyways

But okay context: We are writers, we adore worldbuilding. As both of those, we look at the Watchers and just kind of sigh?

To explain it a bit better, Watchers are only good when you know what you're doing and/or when you don't focus on just three characters. Look away from those characters, and the entire idea of that worldbuilding just crumbles.

People can have their own opinions and views, but when you see those exact. Same. Options. Ideas. And views. Everywhere. It is just simply boring and bland.

- this has been: Fruit raging over things (btw we erased multiple paragraphs cus it just. It got a bit much. We had Thoughts and Opinions on some things.)

fruit ily im so glad we r mutuals djdhjsshjsdh but yeah its just most people who do watcher stuff like domt even know anything abt evo & just take it all from fanon which makes it all boring and the same and even worse

and not to say all the watchers fanon stuff is bad all the time like ive read some good things with it! but as far as i see it watchers was a thing from the past and then something martyn was doing some lore with but then they have the evo/watchers symbol on the head thingy in sl which im like. really. was that necessary. most people wont kmow what it is and the people that do care will probably become insufferable abt it. bc that was a thing for those people from evo to play with if they wanted, but now its been brought into the wider universe of minecraft smps which means people will make everything watchers (even more than they already did) bc they feel like its more justified

#original post tag #ask tag #ough worldbuilding i fucking love worldbuilding <- thinking abt my ocs & the worldbuilding i have done for them so far >:3 #but also 👀👀👀 more thots & opinions djhdjdhdjd #idk if im making sense towards the wnd there i think i lost the point i was making bc i get anmoyed abt this shit

[youm3us]

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how are you, my friend? doing well? watchu up to? :o

I am good! Beem rpimg amd watchimg youtube all day, how are you?

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Fren

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*scritchies your chinnie*

THAMKIES

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hiii dean how are you

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I’M GOOD! I JUST WOKE UP!!!

HOW ARE YOU?

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[jodysaywer]

*whispers* can u maybe add some diversity to ur Woke Feminist Movies? Ok thank

#like i love lil women but like #yall make a remake every so often and its basically the same #like hmmm ok #dont get e wrong its good #but uhh DO BETTER #And like evry white girl lead now is seen as revolutionary but its not #also most of them get away w racism ie. lady bird #like ok thank i domt want this #GIMME GULRS OF COLOR #I I KMOW MY ART ISNT GREAT BUT GIMME WOC #little women #little women 2019 #jo march #amy march #beth march #meg march #my art #artalulu

[pangtasias-atelier]

The Genealogy of The Holy War arranged soundtrack is a flop cause the little "Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo. Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo. Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo. Doo Doo Doo" harp part in the Girl of the Spirit Forest sucks compared to the in game version

#random #i will die om this hill #i domt kmow why but that's like my favorite little part of any FE song #it's so good of a nice lil bit

[berrymeter]

wow its so cool my art is "gender" yeah amazing but is it actually anything like does it actually look good i dont kmow i domt really understand why someone would want me to draw anything when others would do the same but so much better idk i just dont get it im still so far from being anywhere near good & im convinced whenever i finish that comm it just will not be good enough

#perth.txt #im sorry for having negative emotions its been way too long a day & i just really need a rest & a hug #ill be normal again tomorrow or something i just feel like my art is so fucking bland & boring & just not good #it sucks i was so proud of it a few days ago but i feel ao bad now my mouth hurts

[idiot4idiot]

long incoherent vent twtw u can ignore infact please do i just needed to explode

i dont want to die i just dont want to live like this in this world the way it is now. it drives me fucking wild how am i expected to get a job and work my life away being miserable because i dont have the time or energy to do anything else besides work. if i dont get a job i cant survive. if i somehow managed to get on ssd i cant survive. thats not enough money to sustain a humans life. and right now the only thing keeping me going is expensive as fuck and i have no income and every day im scared and im angry because theres no point i live for what???? working??? to keep a roof over my head???? eventually when i get kicked out of my dads house for beimg useless ill just go live with my mom again !!!! and she can go back to treating me like shit and drrain me even more. i feel so hopeless lmfao howwwww am i supposed to get a job i am so scared of covid which btw one of my brothers is antivax and its stressing me.out because i keep thinking about him getting covid and i cant deal with it. i keep thinking abt going and getting help in a psych ward but all i cannthimk about with thst is anxiety of notnbeing home not knowing anybody not having Any control what would happen with my meds??? theyd mess it up imnsure and would they eben help me literally nobody i know has had a positive experience and bc im publicly trans thats a whole other thing and then i have to deal with life after you get back and its awkward andnthen youre labelled as unfit anf whatever and just thinking about everything is so much and thr only solution would be killing myself thats the only thng i keep coming back too i wouldnt have to deal with anything but i dont know what happens when you die and i cant think about that anf it stresses me out and im just notnfucking okay!!!!! i think about everything all tbe time im fucking loosing it i dont do anything all day i can barely walk now compared to when i was in highschool my muscles have ngotten so bad im so embarrassed by all of this i can barely function and i hate it i wisj i wasnt like this i feel so horrible all the time i am so scared of life its so stupid i wish i could just be normal and happy i want to experience good things in life but i have no motivation i cant im stuck and i feel like im gettimg steadily worse and i domt kmow how to actually deal with it so i just dissasociate all day until i go to sleep and then i repeat but im still putting on a face going places i want to do things but i dont enjoy anything anymore and im tired and disconnected from my whole life

#idk how to tag this #tw #sui tw #vent post #im sativa high and this is the first time in months i was able to actually put my thoughts into words #very incoherently but #anyway ignore this #im fine #i dont actually want to post this but i need it to be somewhere i need to tell Someone how im feeling #long post #dont rb

[oppsallbadfeels]

i domt kmow why i fucking try im just not good and thats? thatlike people aren't gling to like your shtty post becasue you're not good

[gaylilfireball-blog]

Rant time (open for discussion if you want)

(Hey sheridan if you could just not read this thatd be great thanks)(but tbh i mean i cant stop you so🤷‍♀️)

Okay so yesterday i spent a better part of the day cuddling with this guy. Hes someone ive been friends with for almost a year and a half but its been a friendship mostly revolves around heloing each other through depression. Anyway last few months ive been working on actually making it a more thoughtful friendship bc he is genuinely a sweet guy.

About a week ago i hung out with him for the first time and we just walked around the mall being obnoxious teenagers and i walked with him to his apartment because he wanted to show it to me and i didnt want to make him walk by himself. Well then i was leaving and he ended up walking me back to my car at the mall. A few days after that we had planned to hang out again but this time at my house (wanted to meet the cats)

Like a day or two after that i kind of had a crisis and wasn't sure if i was developing feelings or not. I had a little crush but i wasnt sure if it was because i actually genuienly like him or if i was just latching on because he paid attention to me. He also has been pretty flirty for most of the time ive known him but its a small enough that it can still be considered friendly and him jusy being nice. I had asked about it previously and he mentioned that he tended to come across as flirty to a lot of people on accident. Anyway i did the ol' 20 questions thing and hinted out that there was a possibility of a crush but didn't mention anything after it

Hours later into the conversation he said that crush was mutual. I did make it fairly clear that i needed to figure out my jead and that i didnt know what was going on and that i wasnt promising anything. We continued the random q n a over the next day or two and it was a generally pretty open 20 questions. Didnt really not answer anything.

Well on the day he was coming over he planned to bring a movie (Rango) and i wanted to watch the black mirror movie so it was like already pre established we planmed to have casual movie day. We had both been keeping up the casual flirting and whatnot and like the night befire he had asked me if i wanted to cuddle as we watched movies. I did one of those like half answer things and basically did the "theoretically yes, realistically im anxious" but it was fine🤷‍♀️.

(I should probably preface with the fact that about 2 years ago i came out as pan rom and ace but like thats still very confusing bc honestly sexuality is hard? Ive dome some things that def werent ace and i enjoyed them kinda? More if the emotional aspect rather than any physical pleasure? But i still have very mixed feelings about said things so i dont even kmow anymore. Its kind of like i want to do and experience those things with another person (boy or girl) but like the thought if a dick kind of rly grosses me out and i dislike General nudity. So that aspect of my life is super wacky.)

(My first and only relationship was with a girl and it lasted about a year and 4 months. We lived pretty far away from each other (like a 30 min drive which was a lot bc neither of us amhad our license at the time) but we had been best friends for years prior. We did practice on the same team 12-16 hours a week together but we werent able to actually be a couple at the gym. Anyway we were already pretty close and comfortable with each other and it became like that physically as well. However i was very conflicted physically because i wanted the emotional bond that came with physical intimacy but the actual like pleasure aspect wasnt quite there. In the moment it was generally fine and enjoyable but ive never really understood like the big deal kind of? And afterwards it was kind of uncomfortable to think about so i mostly just ignored it. I also think i allowed myself to go too fast bc we knew each other really well but not necessarily in the relationship aspect. So we had been dating for 3 months maybe but i would have only seen her outside of practice like 4 times? I domt know im just kimd of scared of doing that again)

But anyway back to my story. Yesterday the boy camw to my house and it was pretty casual playing uno and joking around with each other. We started watching rango and were sitting on two pieces of a sectional together but not really together id you know what i mean. It was more of like separate cushions and i was leaning up against the wall on a pillow but our legs were touching. (He totally thought at one point he was playing footsie with me but it actually my shin. That was pretty hilarious) He also made a terrible joke "why are you using that pillow when theres a 6'2" one right here" (yes he is tall boy but i am tall girl so its fine) (i didnt take him up on the offer either.)

We had later moved to my bed to watch black mirror on my phone and were laying on our stomachs side by side. Totally ended up pressed together along oir sides and he was playing with my feet but it was warm and nice but goodness i was nervous. There was so much like tension.

I ended up flipping onto my back (bc i can only lay on my front for so long befire my shoulders and arms absolutely die) and told him he could do whatever but that i was laying on my back. He took that as an invitation to cuddle on me (it kind of was ) and thank god bc i was losing my mind. It just started out with his head on my shoulder/chest but as we got more comfortable his arm was around me and i was leaning into him.

Anyway(how amny times do you think ima say this lord) it was real nice and all but what inspired this rant was that i wish id like participated more in cuddling or like done something more with it. But then again im also like noooo dont go too fast calm doooown.

I also have the problem of like not being completely attracted to him. More of emotionally attracted but maybe im alao just attracted to the idea of him and i really could put anybody in that place? But he keeps fishing for compliments and its rly hard bc im not one to be untruthful but i look at hom and its just ?? I dont know. Thinking back to my ex girlfriend i never particularily found her attractive until we agreed there was mutual feelings and right before we dtarted dating? Then she basically became the light of my life and was perfect in my eyes. Kind of hoping that happens with this boy but i dont know.

I really just dont wanna like get his hopes uo and like keep it going that hey i like you and thrn jist kind of throw it all away later? But i also really love this whole like casual awkward flirting and im desparate for cuddles in my life. But it could also just be with anyone and i feel terrible for it.

So yeah what do??

Also thanks for actually reading through this clusterfluff mess of writing. Gosh this actually could be like a fanfic i wrote wow. Idk feel free to leave your thoughts ig. Do you want you want😂🤷‍♀️🙃