#i feel sick i want to cry

[ilostyou]

thinking of any relationship ending as "it had just run its course" makes me so physically ill

#ik i said this after listening to kelseas ep for the first time but like. things like this make me SO SCARED to ever properly love someone #and i mean that. so legitimately #how do you love someone so wholly like that for it to just. end. to fall out of love or whatever. run its course?????? im. #sick to my stomach just thinking about it #i feel sick i want to cry #regardless of it being taylor i hATE THAT LANGUAGE IT MAKES ME ILL #taylor swift #rambling #the hits*

[industrations]

🎶our house is a very very very fine house🎵

#remus lupin #sirius black #wolfstar #marauders #im crying bc im sick and they make me feel too much #i want to lay on the floor and have someone pet my hair too

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

I will never recover from the knowledge that thymoma generally has a very high survival rate, and in most cases that it becomes fatal, the patient has unknowingly lived with the cancer for years. There's a chance that Wilson was sick for half the series and didn't even know it.

#I'm just imagining House looking back at the last few years in horror thinking about the possibility that Wilson had been sick all along #I can see it leading to him feeling like all of their memories are tainted #House definitely blames himself as well even though it was never in his control #I can't imagine how much his already extreme self-hatred was amplified #And he probably looked back at all the mistakes he made and all the fights they had and realizing that - #- while they were having all these fights that now seem so trivial that Wilson was probably sick #They wasted all that time unknowingly with Wilsons cancer slowly progressing as they argued and fought #It makes me want to cry #I'm not a doctor and I know this obviously isn't always the case but from what research I've done this seems the be the standard mostly #house md #house #greg house #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #wilson #housemd #favs #favourites

[roachemoji]

🤡 ⭐️ funny little cardigan 🌙 ❤️

maybe I'll actually dress up and style an outfit or something

#bo posting #my art #crochet #granny square #FINALLY TOOK BETTER PICTURES!!!!!!!!! AUGH #im still unbelievably proud of this #enjoy me never shutting up about it #its the first thing ive finished.... in months #and i feel like crying #ive been so envious of everyone around me being able to even hold a pen #and i had to chanel my creativity elsewhere and that was in this and this only #i was tired and felt guilty for how sick it made me feel to be in artistic spaces #or seeing my friends draw #like??? unproductive. helps no one?? 🗞💥🧠 #so this was my solution #its the only creative thing thats made me happy in a long time #its the only creative thing that ive done for myself lately too #doing something creatively for other people has been hard #wahhhhhhh #i want to put my creative energy ive put into crochet into more things. i dont like how hard thats been #idky i havent been able to talk about it #like articulating it properly is one thing but like? never... even tried #i think it hit when it was the only thing i could tell my therapist that i could do that made me happy rn #the only expectations were my own #wow i did NOT intend to vent but hey thanks for reading 💏💖💋💞

[phatcatphergus]

I think something so wonderful about sunny is that she is such a little girl. The admin that plays sunny does such a good job of giving her a distinct personality but in a way that everyone who was a little girl can identify with. I’ve seen so many people talk about how they acted like sunny did as a kid or would remember specific memories with their dad that they made as a kid that sunny and tubbos dynamic brought back to the surface.

Sunny being a little firecracker and “spoiled” girl while also being incredibly shy and kindhearted and wanting to be friends with everyone. The way she has an idea of what people like (money, fame, respect) and trying to demand that because she wants to be someone important and respected like a leader or princess would but still giving “poor” members diamonds to become rich because she would never want to turn away a potential friend.

It’s genuinely so sweet and beautiful that so many people can relive personal parts of their childhood as a little girl/kid and remember the good times and awkward time and see how they’ve grown as a person just from a Minecraft egg. It’s so fun to watch sunny interact with tubbo and think of how often I would “help” my dad with projects or how I would demand wearing a dress over a skirt because I wanted to look fancy for dinner.

It really just reminds me how we are all people and all experience similar things growing up. No one had the same situation, or the same family or even the same country, but we all had the same emotions and feelings and we can all identify with them by watching a Minecraft egg as silly as it sounds

#I just love how sunny admin is able to bring so many different people together with the same emotions and feelings #but we all have such different backgrounds #it’s genuinely heartwarming that a pixelated egg can do that #maybe i’m overthinking it #and maybe I’m emotional bc I’m pmsing but I want to cry when I see sunny and think about how I grew up #and how much I loved my dad and how similar sunny and tubbo are to me and my dad when I was sick #qsmp #qsmp sunny #qsmp sunnysideup #meta analysis #kinda???? #I’m just being corny and w emotional #qsmp tubbo #tubbo #thank you to anyone who read my long ass rant LMAO

[iangallagherisadeadman]

honestly the character to have the worst, saddest ending in shameless is definitely Karen! I mean, her whole character makes me wants to cry.

She comes from this dysfunctional home, with negligent parents, a sick mom she has to look out for and that doesn't parent her and an absent father, starts her sexual life at like 11yo?, suffers with nymphomaniac, is abandoned by her father, has some rape porn around, gets married with a 30yo something while still a teenager, gets pregnant and has a baby which she didn't want anything with but her mom goes against her wish and expects her to raise him, said mom fucks her now ex husband, goes out of city and theoricly gets all of her money stolen and is almost sex trafficked, comes back and gets run over by a car, got in coma, got raped while in coma by her much older ex husband who's now in a relationship with her mother, wakes up with several brain damage and ends up with a life she could never wish for or be happy living: back with her ex husband, with the baby she didn't wanted, moving to a state she doesn't know and have no one there for her.

I mean what the fuck she became a prisoner in her own body, she didn't had the power to decide for her destiny, sooo fucked up.

Like this? Stfu people acting like Lips some nice guy and not a condescending misogynist pig. Karen is just some girl she's not murdering nobody how is she the devil?

#genuinely makes me want to cry #feeling so sick right now #i swear if someone comes to me with “oh you forgot about that” ill crumble ill get such a psychological damage ill never recover #her life is such a nightmare honestly #like mandy? fucked totally hands down but she can at least make something of her life from here on #the fact the best person in her life was LIP GALLAGHER omg this is so sad and fucked up #like the bar is on the fucking floor #karen jackson #shameless #shameless us #og. #s3

[okkottsus]

kaneshiro really wants the readers to understand how madly in love with each other nagi and reo are and its honestly suicide inducing im being completely serious. IF THEY WOULD JUST TALK!!!! (i know they eventually did but at what cost).....

also, we finally know what reo wanted to say but didnt (bc he thought nagi wouldnt come back to him) when nagi declared he was going ahead on his own and its the most romantic, yet encouraging thing ever nobody touch me

#blue lock #nagireo #reonagi #episode nagi leaks #blue lock leaks #episode nagi spoilers #blue lock spoilers #why do they always do this when im studying #i saw this at around 7pm and its now 1am and im still frozen. #crying reo is real im gonna be sick #OFC WE KNOW NAGI IS DOING IT ALL FOR HIM BUT HE DOESNT HES NOT A MIND READER HES SO HURT HES CRYING NAGI SEISHIRO WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON U #i cant say i want to kms on twt freely so im gonna have to say it on tumblr #god if it wasnt for ch 207 and the voice guide i would be considering ending it all rn fr #im not gonna talk abt the bachisagi reonagi parallels again cause i made a separate post months ago..it feels good to have media literacy

[eleyras]

Even if he already knew his friends were going to face him with hatred and resentment, because since he was a child he had known only violence and disgust at the hand of his own mother, even if he was facing mortal danger and betrayal from them, until the very end Will only thought about protecting them because they were the first people in his whole life he called friends, the first people in his whole life he allowed himself to grow emotionally attached to. And even when he realized that the illusion had shattered, that even Violet, his best friend and the person he believed in and whose affection he valued the most, hated him, he still couldn't transform his hurt in resentment, he couldn't forget his affection for them because it has been maybe the only reason he had wanted to fight, to live for after Bowhill.

And when James came back to him, when Will thought there was still one single person in the world who knew the truth and didn't hate him, there was still a chance to be loved for what he truly was without secrets and lies, the hurt and the betrayal didn't matter anymore because in Will's eyes the love and the acceptance of one single person was ENOUGH to wipe the sorrow and the guilt away, it was ENOUGH for Will to not feel alone in the world anymore, because even if he had lost his friends, his mother, his sisters, Violet, he still had James.

And then he realized that he couldn't have even that, the Collar around James's neck a cruel reminder that, again, he was unlovable, that the only way a person would choose him was under constriction, and not by free will, that every single word James were saying was hollow, like his past with his mother, like the life he was going to live for the rest of his days, a hunted animal, a hated monster, a fearful unnatural thing that should not even be in the world, that should be killed for sins he didn't even commit or remember, because it didn't matter that he was Will, it didn't matter that he was a child, a lost boy. The story repeated itself, the violence and the hatred coming at him again and again, without a way out, a chance to free himself from their vicious circle. All Will had ever wanted was to be Will, a friend, a brother, a son, a lover. And what hurt the most in the end is the realization that he would never have the chance again because no one would give him one.

#i finished dark heir #i dont know what to do with my life #im feeling sick im feeling insane i want to sit on the floor and stare at the wall for the next year #no seriously the last 5 chapters destroyed me #and i haven't even processed the collar #i don't have the mental energy nor any emotional stability to do so #im going to cry again about will so excuse me #dark heir #dark heir spoilers

[midnightcoffes]

httyd book 11 SPOILERS

I. I need more Snotlout lives AU's.

#httyd books #httyd #book snotlout #httyd spoilers #i miss him #I wnat to see more 'what could have been' #I want to see them being friends #I want to see him asking sorry #for hiccup #for fishlegs #I want to see him being snarky but on Hiccup's side #I want him to be happy #I want the family to be happy #these books make me sick im literally crying again #feel free to give me your au's btw #I would love to hear #I.need happiness #how to betray a dragon's hero

[flowerflowerflo]

"im so ocd" "im getting ocd" babe you saw a pen in the wrong spot and put it back to its original position. ocd is not perfectionism

#woahh wdym people with ocd struggle every day because of things they need to control #and morally reprehensible thoughts that make you feel sick and want to cry #omg 😱 #the general public when they find out ocd is not just cleaning and tidying 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 #my best friend of all time ever keeps saying this and its pissing me off so i need to rant ab this #girlblogging #actually ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #girly tumblr #girl thoughts #girlhood #hell is a teenage girl #words #diaries #journal #mental health #mental illness #recovery #mental heath awareness #mental health support #thoughts ୨𖹭୧

[saraminia]

I just feel that we as a fandom moved on too fast from these pictures...

#i'm literally crying looking at these pics #he's disgustingly sexy #i feel sick #so fucking handsome #he has literally never looked better #he's the hottest person at the function #and he knows it #i mean.. he has to know it #if i looked like that i'd never stop looking in the mirror #look at that face #that's the face of a man who knows he can have anyone he wants #and he's enjoying denying all of us access #like fuck you you can look but you can't touch #he smiles his smug smile and charms everyone #and even flirts back when inevitably people start flirting with him #because he's fucking irresistible #he's mere existence is a tease #he knows everyone wants him #we're all fucking wet and hard for him #and he doesn't fucking care #he comes in like yeah that's right #i keep getting hotter by the minute #take your fill now because you'll never know when i decide to give you your next fix #that's right take a mental picture #i know you'll be getting off on it later #and he's right #noah reid #riikka posts

[merlinposting]

Series 6 of House is… unparalleled. Wilson’s episode. Cuddy’s episode. The finale.

#This is the best one so far… genuinely. #Perhaps it’s the later portion of 6 that I love so much… but the storytelling. The cinematography #THE MUSIC. There is so much here. I want to cry #Series one was perfect… didn’t care for two… #Genuinely I feel sick. They’re not going to be able to top this #(btw there is no way house and cuddy is going to work. lucas was so good) #house md #malpractice md #hilson

[fancy-feathercroak]

Other users when Banescales got released: *Very cool and well thought origin stories*

Me: Damn this child almost got eaten

Anyways this was an experiment on trying to fill up traditional art digitally using an (old) scanner that I borrowed featuring Celcius and Hari, is not perfect but I like it.

#Flight Rising #My dragons #My art #comic #Spiral #Banescale #Celcius #Hari #ok but you guys #you guys have no idea how long I have been trying to post this #I had to borrow the scanner #and then my drawing program kept crashing #over and over #and then the file got corrupted and I had to start from scratch #fighting with my old computer #but I did it and is done and I feel like crying #I do want to do more comics and more art #and I appreciate every last one of you that like and reblog and add tags and coments #seriously thank you #I've been so sick and it was part as to why this took so long as well #again is not perfect but is a big step for me #just... just thank you even if you look at this passing by #Dragon rambles #sorry I needed to vent a bit

[soupmanspeaks]

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

#fnaf #michael afton #five nights at freddy’s #glammike #crying child #elizabeth afton #i wanted to allude something to william but idk #would the glamrocks go into the sinkhole? maybe #maybe next to glamrock freddy alongside the weird overlapping face he has and the two kid height faces #there is a face tracking box next to him...standing #remember that post about the ghost hunters comin to the pizza plex? maybe the weird face tracking happens too... #im watching garret watts and Andrew's constant facial tracking anomalies inspired this post lol #anyways i really like the thought that despite being the most friendly Glamrock; Freddy has this......feeling about him #his AI was made just this year! programmed with cutting edge and top of the line technology! #then....then why does he go off script sometimes? why does he say things that wasn't programmed show dialogue? #how does he know about Mr. Afton? the killer from the 80's who committed heinous deeds? #Why does he speak as if he knew him personally? if his AI is just pulling stuff from online; Why does he speak with resentment about him? #IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THE CONCEPT!! #like just because this franchise has gotten more neon and sugery than ever; remember; lights can be blinding and sugar causes cavities #idk what that means just omg there is more horror potential than you think in the SB era of games if you look hard enough #off topic but back to freddy being a sweetie pie i think that its funny okay #freddy sasses adults okay okay but he isnt mean to kids okay maybe michael just idk; MATURED? maybe he just got some whimsy mkay? #listen if i was forced to be in a perpetual cycle of atoning for my own and my father's sins i would find any and all silver linings mkay #aw yeah this is sick i get to be a freddy mercury inspired glamrock bear WOOO #granted michael was probably tired of animatronic bands and pizza by fnaf 6 but ykkkkkkkk it.....could be worse? he could be his dad lmao #anyways headcannon michael listend to freddy mercury and this is the equivalent of cosplaying him scott told me so (trust) #tag rambles! theyre fun lol

[here2bbtstrash]

shoutout to anyone who has Parent Trauma™️ this time of year - love you, i'm here for you

#mposting #mine is flaring up bad the last few days woof #i really just want to hole up until the holidays are over #like why is this time of year so ass ksjndfkfdglfdkg #i am sick of feeling no joy and crying over nothing #BLEH

[downsteepy]

you said you'd never leave me

#my art #devil may cry #resident evil #dante devil may cry #dante(dmc) #leon scott kennedy #danteleon #anyone else think about how leon is still squishy and could die at the drop of a hat while dante does not have that grace. #dante goes to sleep for a month . leon wouldnt Be waking up. #i feel sick . they make me feel so sick and twisted #pairings where one either cannot die as easily or just at all while the other can make me want to *** its so. they are so !