#i feel so awful rn

[boyfeminism]

im wildly fucking anxious right now and i dont know what to do about it

#speaking #ive pinned down that part of my procrastination problems are bc thinking abt what i need to get done makes me feel like im being hunted #for sport so like. i havent worked on buying a car and forgot to plan how to get to my job #bc i didnt Forget its that every time i thought abt it i started to get level 8 anxious so id just Avoid thinking abt it #but this is my last week at this job and im so fucking scared #like wildly scared. like the only reason im not fully backing out of changing jobs is bc thats emberrassing. #and i cant tell how much is unnecessary anxiety or what #i feel so awful rn #i really should probably get into therapy. but thats ALSO scary why is everything so scary!!!!! #i am abt to cry rn but i will not instead i will clean bathrooms 👍

[phantom-does-a-thing]

Oh tiny container of Advil, we’re really in it now…

#phantom didn’t get to take a break earlier #so I’m just now getting to eat #and I have a HEADACHE #I’m gonna cry #I genuinely think if one thing goes wrong I will start crying #I feel so awful rn #rambling #phever dreams with phantom

[rouxlz-kaard]

Walmart: *schedules me one day a week*

Me: *applies for partial unemployment bc wtf*

Also walmart: ....*claims to the unemployment office that I'm lying causing them to withhold funds*

#i hate the society we live in #i feel so awful rn #vent #pls ignore

[n3on-graveston3s-calling]

I've officially entered the

Squinting eyes in order to see

Phase of being sick with this flu.

#i fucking hate this #i feel so awful rn

[identitty-dickruption]

one of the worst things in the world is that feeling unloveable can (and will) make you act in ways that reinforces itself. I feel unloveable so I don’t respond to messages so people reach out less so I feel unloveable. one of the hardest things in the world is fighting back the brain demons long enough to break the cycle

#my best friend doesn’t have tumblr but I am mentally sending him so many apologies right now jesus fuckkkkkkk #I feel so fucking awful rn #I went and watched taskmaster and that distracted me a bir #but literally. suicidal thoughts out of nowhere. urge to drink out of nowhere #it’s like. 8:15pm and I’m thinking of just going to bed now #only way to get my brain to shut up #I have such a busy weekend ahead as well #godddddd I want to enter hermit mode so bas #I’m not gonna do anything stupid don’t worry #but I sure Feel Like Doing It

[afootnoteofhappiness]

o god am I having an anxiety attack?

#i feel so awful rn

[rapidhighway]

They need to stop trying to make Sonic good and instead just make him cool as fuck you know. Do you know what I mean

#they need to make it COOL #it's so cookie cutter rn idk man go back to when they were fighting the military and witnessing awful trauma you know #they tried to make him thee coolest guy in sa and i loved it so much and now he just feels like some guy #who has good intentions #but he should be cool also that's like #very important stuff #idk if i used the cookie cutter word correctly but you will not force me to check a dictionary BLEH

[uncanny-tranny]

Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way) #(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle) #anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you... #...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition] #i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀 #even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭 #it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected... #...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

[mintybagels]

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!!! CROWLEY ALWAYS SHOWED UP FOR AZIRAPHALE FOR ALL HIS WEIRD LITTLE SCHEMES AND SITUATIONS BUT WHEN CROWLEY WANTED AZI TO TRUST HIM ABOUT HEAVEN HE LEFT CROWLEY ALL ALONE

#also why tf did aziraphale let crowley just remain living in his car #it’s midnight and i just rewatched episode 6 for references #crowley ain’t perfect either but god i just feel so awful #i’m drawing sth rn i’m probably going to cry over loll #good omens 2 #good omens #good omens spoilers #mint screams

[bottombaron]

there is no way that Guillermo’s pussy wouldn’t drive Nandor absolutely mad with power

#wwdits #nandermo #nandor #guillermo de la cruz #what we do in the shadows #i have so many thoughts about how Guillermo makes Nandor feel powerful #(not in a sadistic power trip way tho) #the full force of someone as strong and beautiful and awe-inspiring as Guillermo choosing to bless Nandor with adoration #a man so used to being worshiped and yeT #you can see it in his eyes #how absolutely terrified of how powerful Guillermo makes him feel #with simple things like a soft smile and kind eyes #like how a former addict looks at drugs #and i find it so compelling that Nandor comes from power and conquering and yet he's like #fucking Guillermo would be like using the One Ring #Guillermo would casually say that he's upset Bravo cancelled a show and the next day the entire hq had been destroyed like a nuke hit it #like i'm srs guys i have five different long posts in my drafts abt how powerful Guillermo makes Nandor feel #(and how pussy-whipped Nandor would be if Guillermo ever gave it to him 😉) #but i can't process my feelings abt that rn so you get this

[koszmarnybudyn]

I think my weeb days really show in this one.

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #normal oak #link li wilson #hermie the unworthy #taylor swift dndads #scary marlow #scary marlowe #i really need to make more comics im not great at it yet #is it what link really said idk but it is what i noted #this is based on my doodle schetches btw #hermie wasn't there at first but i had an extra panel #i still have a cold rn so im glad i finally feel god enough to finish this #being sick is awful but it did make me finish a game and listen to a lot of a podcast #my art

[prophet-and-catalyst]

just got to the chapter in magic ship where Malta decides to sneak out to the harvest ball and oh my god did it nail the feeling of being a 13 year old girl

#the universal feeling of 13 and everyone and everything is just so uncool #realm of the elderlings #rote #liveship traders #ship of magic #Malta is annoying rn but like I get it because I also was like that at 13 #also I have such a hatred for Kyle he is awful

[moveslikekeithrichards]

its so hard to talk about how traumatic it is to watch somebody be claimed by dementia without going "well i cant complain because at least i wasnt the one losing my mind (for now)" but that shit fucks you up so much. that ghost is going to haunt me for the rest of my life and all i can do is hope it Stays a ghost

#tiddytaco #b #thinking about it rn bc today while i was driving my mom home from pt #she saw someone she knew from years ago driving & was like FOLLOW THAT CAR & we met them in a parking lot #& the conversation turned to 'hey what the hell happened to your parents' pretty quickly bc our families hadnt been in touch #& it was a long conversation in the hobby lobby parking lot #& idk if itll ever Stop being fresh in my mind but now its Extra fresh in my mind #that whole time period was just so insane & awful #bc it was like Ok we're caring for both grandparents #& then my grandpa died #& all our pets at the time were very old #& when he died it occurred to me that we could easily lose both grandparents and all 3 pets within the year #it turned out to be like a long drawn-out year & a half from the first to the last #& looking back it seems impossible that is was that short a time period bc it felt like an eternity #we got off easy with grandpa bc he died before it got too bad but with grandma it just kept getting Worse #& the climax of the caring experience was traveling to take her to my uncle bc he wanted to take his shift caring for her #& that was so . So bad. SO bad #like it literally could not have gone more smoothly and it was SO bad #just thinking about it i feel like im there again i get so stressed out

[nouriyx]

Grocery shopping + the one without the grocery bc i DID NOT DESIGN THESE BANGER OUTFITS FOR NOTHING.

#Also being able to carry a bag of rice is such a flex. I am asian i have carried rice before heavy AF. #nou’s art #emerald trio is rotting in my brain rn i love their dynamic #i feel like we should give them a better name tho since so many trios are called emerald trio #i have no suggestions tho #my brain cant come up with any good names smh #the owl house #toh hunter #hunter toh #willow toh #toh willow #toh fanart #toh gus #gus toh #since they are all witches they gasp and awe and everything and make up the craziest theories on how those contraptions work #most of the time it’s gus and hunter theorising #i think it would be funny

[wikiangela]

wip wednesday

tagged by @jesuisici33 @callaplums @daffi-990 @loserdiaz @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie 💖💖

made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷

prev snippet

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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.

“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.

“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out. 

“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve. 

“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.

“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.

“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.

“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired. 

“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.

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#wip wednesday #sick eddie fic #eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao #this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha #buddie fic #buddie wip #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop #and this one isnt going so smoothly either #but im here and trying to work on it all! #ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it #i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope #thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol #this got venty lmao ignore me #i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha

[june-again]

In the heart of the lush rainforests of Sumeru, where the verdant canopy kissed the heavens, there existed a hidden sanctuary of botanical wonders. Tighnari found solace among the towering trees and elusive flora of his homeland. But amidst the emerald depths, his heart found its true sanctuary in the form of his beloved, whose name was whispered by the wind and carried through the rustling leaves.

One breezy evening, beneath the embrace of the celestial canopy, Tighnari embarked on a journey with you to unveil the mysteries of Sumeru's flora. Hand in hand, you ventured into the heart of the rainforest, where the air was heavy with the scent of earth and the chorus of creatures filled the night.

Your first encounter was with the ethereal Rukkashava mushrooms, which adorned the ancient trees like celestial ornaments. "Behold," Tighnari whispered with reverence, "the holy crystallization of Rukkhadevata's legacy." With gentle hands, he guided you closer, explaining how these fungi grew in layers upon layers, resembling a sea of clouds suspended in the embrace of the forest giants. Together, you marveled at the intricate patterns and delicate hues, feeling the pulse of life that thrived within each layer

As you ventured further into the depths of the rainforest, you came upon a group of kalpalata lotuses, clinging to the sheer cliffsides with graceful tenacity. "Though it shares the name with the lotus, their essence is entirely their own," Tighnari murmured, his voice carrying the reverence of a devotee. With tender care, and careful as to not fall, he plucked a blossom from the vine, its petals unfurling like the wings of a butterfly. You admired the intricate beauty of the flower, its vibrant colors contrasting against the rugged backdrop of the cliff.

The wind led you to the forest wetlands, where the nocturnal blooms of the nilotpala lotuses awaited your discovery. Under the shimmering moonlight, the flowers illuminated the darkness with a celestial glow, casting an otherworldly aura upon the tranquil waters. "See how they bloom only under the cover of night, their petals as bright as the moon itself," Tighnari whispered, his gaze alight with glee. Hand in hand, you waded through the moonlit waters, enraptured by the beauty that surrounded you.

Though, you noticed, Tighnari was staring at you.

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AGHFDGKJGKLDFJLKFDLJFSKDJFSKDSF LDLKSDJLKFSDLKJFKLSJDDSKLF I LOVE TIGHNARI I LOVE THIS GUYYYYYYYYY he's so infodump about you at you ! guy

#june's asks #anonymous input #🍯's input #tighnari x reader #tighnari imagine #genshin x reader #this is so cool thank you !!!!!!!!!! #i'm halfway through finals and moving rn and i realized imma be way too burned out to work on the art idea once everything calms down #but this .... #i feel kinda awful because if you're a mutual i don't recognize your writing style specifically #i want to know who you are so that i can read more of your writing though.... even if i have already read it #sigh. the sting of mystery