#i got full marks on it lol

[qwertywrites]

The Hallway Mirror

description: i literally wrote this for english class and was proud so decided to post it here lol. prompt was 'gothic literature using the motif of a reflection' if that helps

When Mother saw me in my new gown this afternoon, she’d said that I looked like a beautiful swan. When Estelle Beaumont glided into the lavishly decorated ballroom, blonde curls cascading over her shoulders, I’m fairly certain I bore more resemblance to a duck. 

Mortified by my complete and utter plainness, I retreated into the crowd, aiming to slink away to a corner where I could glower at my cousin from a distance. As most of the people present were preoccupied with the way Estelle’s dress sparkled in the light of the candelabra overhead, I found it an easy task. Although Mother had expressly forbidden me from leaving the ballroom– “It’s all well and good for you to run off at other people’s events, but we are hosting tonight and you are not to make us look foolish, Jane Reynolds!”– she had not forbidden watching from the side like the pathetic duck I was. 

Unfortunately, keen eyesight was among Estelle’s many blessings. 

“Jane, darling! You must come and see the ring that Lord Wethershaw proposed with,” her joyful voice called, soaring over the crowd. Reluctantly, I turned, plastering a grin on my face and widening my eyes in false glee as Estelle rushed to my side. With a giggle, she thrust her left hand towards my face. 

“Look!” she squealed, waggling her ring-adorned finger at me. It was gorgeous, the thin silver band topped with a stunning pink diamond, a legion of small white gemstones encircling it like soldiers guarding their queen. Lord Wethershaw must have known her well– it fitted perfectly. The small crowd that had gathered around ooh-ed and aah-ed their admiration, and I forced myself to join in. 

“Oh, Estelle, it is simply beautiful! Of course,” I added with a stiff laugh, “so is the rest of you. Wouldn’t you all agree?” Again, the crowd gushed their approval, Estelle’s cheeks flushed pink in delight, and I took that as my cue to leave. 

Alas, despite all Estelle’s charm, she seemed unable to recognise that I did not desire to be within a two-hundred-mile radius of festivities– particularly ones related to her, my cousin who was getting married first despite being a year my junior. 

“Jane, I adore your gown! Where did you get it?” 

Heat rushed to my face. What point was she trying to make? There she stood, in a custom-made gown that rustled elegantly as she floated across the ballroom floor, and she was complimenting my dress. She was better than me in every way, yet still felt the need to offer me a pity tribute as salt in the wound– what sick satisfaction could she get out of that? I felt myself begin to panic, my heart beating so fast it could’ve been trying out for the Kentucky Derby as the gathered audience waited expectantly for my answer. 

In a futile attempt at composing myself, I gestured vaguely before managing to stammer out “I, uh, don’t quite remember. I should go–” before fleeing the scene, ducking and weaving my way through the throng of people to get to the large oak doors. Ignoring the confused looks from the crowd, I slipped through the gap, and escaped their judgemental eyes. Immediately, the oppressive heat in my face eased, and the gallops of my heartbeats slowed to a nervous trot. 

I glanced back at the doors to the ballroom, but couldn’t bring myself to go back inside that glittering hellscape. Certain that I had made a fool of myself, I desperately looked around for the nearest escape. Luckily, the ballroom was near the exit, and a mere hallway was the road to my freedom. My steps were quiet as I hastened for the door, the plush carpet beneath my feet swallowing the click of my heels. 

As I got further from the ballroom, the light drained until the hallway was nearly pitch-black. The weak flickers of the wall-mounted candles didn’t do much to dispel the shadows creeping down from the ceiling, and a sudden chill penetrated the air, raising the hairs on the back of my neck. Still, all that did nothing to quench the relief flowing through me. I couldn’t wait to be out of there, away from Estelle and her perfect life that served no purpose but to remind me how pitiful my own was in comparison. 

The door was in front of me. I reached a hand out to grasp the gilded handle. Before I could, however, the image of a pale face in the corner of my eye alarmed me, and I whirled around to see—

The reflection of my own face. 

Of course, I remembered. Mother had hung a full-body mirror by the door so guests could inspect themselves upon arrival. I hadn’t paid much attention to it earlier. As a rule, I avoided mirrors; reminders of my inadequacy were not something I was normally fond of. This time, however, something compelled me to lean in closer, my nose hovering inches away from the girl in the mirror. 

She was a homely creature, with mousy hair hanging limp and flat from her oddly-shaped head and thin, pinched lips that naturally twisted in a spinsterly frown. Most of her other features were similarly dour, but it was her eyes that were the worst– small, dark, beady things encircled by the dark rings acquired by late nights spent reading by candlelight or fretting about whatever took her fancy. Really, it was no wonder she- I- would die an old maid, I thought. The exit long forgotten, I tilted my head left and right, watching the girl do the same. While I internally listed her faults, a strange flicker crossed my reflection’s face. It vanished so quickly, however, that I dismissed it as a trick of the light. 

The longer I looked into those eyes, the more an unfamiliar emotion bubbled in the pit of my stomach. I couldn’t quite place it, but it steadily grew, becoming all-consuming. It was only when the face in the mirror contorted into an expression I’d never seen before that I recognised what it was– pure, unadulterated loathing. 

I loathed the girl in the mirror. I despised that her features had cursed me with this life, that she was too dull and homely to ever let me taste happiness. A scream of rage tried to claw up my throat, but I suppressed it. Yes, I sorely wanted to smash the horrible reflection that pursued me wherever I went, but what good would that do?

Still staring into my eyes, I raised a trembling hand to the mirror and pressed my palm flat against the cold glass. A triumphant gleam sparked inside my reflection’s eyes, and I scarcely had time to wonder where it came from before her clammy fingers intertwined with mine and I was yanked forwards. The still lake of the mirror’s surface parted easily and I was falling, further than should have been possible, and the world swirled around me like a kaleidoscope until I landed with a thud on an identical floor surrounded by identical furniture. Bewildered, I looked up at the mirror to see my reflection standing straighter than I ever did with a delighted smile I never wore. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. 

My reflection kneeled down until we were face to face again. Head spinning, it was all I could do to sit upright and gape at her, both in confusion and betrayal. She continued to smile, but it had become a cruel, mocking thing. 

“God, you’re pathetic,” she said with my voice, regarding me with disgust. “Do you have any idea what it’s like to watch you, day after day, squander everything that you have because you’ve decided you’re not pretty enough?” 

I weakly attempted to bang on the glass from my newfound prison, to cry for help, but it was to no avail– I couldn’t seem to speak. My reflection seemingly realised this at the same time I did, because her smile widened even further and she stood, brushing her skirts in mock nonchalance. 

“Oh, now you have something to say? I think it’s rather too late for that. You, Jane Reynolds, are a wretched, ungrateful creature, and you would have wasted this life fussing over everything but anything of real importance.”

My heart sank to the bottom of my stomach, the truth a heavy anchor dragging my hopes down with it.

From my new position, I could view her in her entirety, and it struck me that perhaps she wasn’t so plain after all. In fact, with the way the white lace of the neckline threaded across her shoulders and how her long eyelashes framed the deep pools of her irises, she could, under a certain light, even have been considered… appealing. 

“Now, if you’ll excuse me,” she announced, “I have a party to attend.” 

With a final, derisive sneer, Jane Reynolds turned and walked away from the mirror, leaving her reflection behind. 

#original work #this is literally something i wrote for class that i was lowkey proud of #i got full marks on it lol #figured it was as good as anything else ive written to post #hope ppl like it :3

[sysig]

Chewtoy (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Squeeze him - he makes a squeaky toy noise #Everyone needs to bite Gaster! He doesn't yield like flesh so it probably doesn't even hurt right? Yeahhhh he'll be fiiiine #There is something very funny to me about him just sitting there and taking it tho lol - feeds into his martyr play ♪ #As if I don't already have a favourite martyr hmmm don't worry about it lol #What was he even doing why is he just letting 2-P bite him lol #Socialization? That's not a good thing to just let him do! He's still got a young mind! Boundaries are important #He does offer a way out - hehe ♫ - but he doesn't enforce it! You're setting them up for failure #Hehehehe #The bone gift was fun to doodle hehe ♪ He leaves it with him and it goes completely untouched while his arm is covered in teeth-marks pfft #Even with Papyrus a bit more unruly I still like to imagine he acts mean in largely harmless ways haha #Like yeah he's being naughty and biting when he knows better and offered other options - Gaster. Gentle enforcement - but he's not Hurting #He's not using his entire bite force - probably lol or he's just got weak little baby bites (though those can be quite painful!) #Sans on the other hand would absolutely go 100% full power - and still only do 1HP lol what an unfortunate design quirk for him #If only he had a jaw he could open! He'd bite the heck outta Gaster! Alas #I do like to imagine Fellplates!Sans has just fast-tracked to classic's conclusion of ''You suck and I hate you. Die'' about Gaster lol #Even the possibility of not being mean to him is so alien! What do you /mean/ not hurt you?? Do you know who you're talking to?? #He'll find another way to mess with him in good time haha

[brighteyesredfire]

Death Mark: Manga (2019) - Kazuo Yashiki

#death mark #spirit hunter #kazuo yashiki #shiin #死印 #edit #edits #smile smile #i finally got around to scanning pages of my second manga copy lol #i love how many stressed faces he makes in this thing.... heart #ik the full manga came out 2022 but LEAVE ME BEEE

[cuubism]

actor hob, and pretentious asshole film director dream

[ this got so long and so weird and specific i'm so sorry ]

so hob is an everyman actor. a good actor, charismatic, funny, fan favorite, but not the type that gets cast in highbrow art films. mostly he does like romcoms, mid-budget action movies, feel-good family films, etc etc. and he's totally cool with that, he's good at what he does, and people enjoy those films, anyway. he might be getting a bit bored though, a bit stagnant. might be thinking it's time for some reinvention. and there might be a certain director whose ridiculous and nonsensical but dreamy films he's particularly enamored with...

dream makes REALLY pretentious art films. the types that get studied in graduate level film classes and have fifty different academic papers with fifty different theses trying to puzzle them out. dream is a master of themes and images and subtle construction. he is also a COMPLETE asshole and impossible to work with, an auteur in the most stereotypical way possible, he writes and directs, he micromanages all his projects, he asserts his vision and god help anyone who goes against it. nobody can handle him, nobody can STAND him, and the only reason he still gets funding for these projects is because they win awards, so many awards, and the studios want to ride on the coattails of those awards. but it's getting to the point where even his most ride-or-die producers are ready to give up.

right off the back of dream's most recent bafta, a rather naive Big Exec approaches him to direct the next installment of his Big Superhero Franchise. dream is immediately like fuck off with that bullshit but the exec pleads with him that the franchise is flagging and they really need something new to spice it up. plus the pay will be enough for dream to finance like 10 of his own ridiculous art films without having to rely on producers for money. and dream really is about to get cut off for being a complete insufferable asshole so he takes the gig. it kind of feels like prison though.

anyway, he gets to work trying to make this shitty boring film at least marginally less shitty and boring. he doesn't have a lot of leeway -- a lot of the story is locked in, half the cast is set from prior installments etc. dream immediately regrets taking this job, he'd rather die in actual prison than work on this mindnumbing piece of trash. it feels like it's taking an eternity and who could possibly stand an eternity of this???

well. enter hob, whose agent managed to snag him a 2nd-lead sort of role in this thing. it's not QUITE the reinvention he was going for but the pay and exposure are really good -- and even if they weren't, the moment hob saw that dream was attached he was immediately on board.

cue dream tearing his fucking hair out and basically being a complete menace and diva on set -- no that wasn't good, yes we have to do a 57th take, oh my god this dialogue is horrible give me that shitty script i'm writing my own thing, what do you mean the plot is linear???, wait there are how many cgi aliens????? i'm going to kill myself -- and Hob, pretty much Just Happy To Be There as always, takes one look at this beautiful dramatic emo asshole and is like oh. yes. i don't know what i'm saying yes to, but i'm saying yes. just immediately enamored with this bitch against all logic, he's like i've seen all your films i know how your mind works you brilliant nihilistic mess of a person. i'm on board. let's go.

first scene that hob's in dream is once again ranting about the atrocious script, which he did not write and is hardly allowed to change -- or, every change he makes is too weird and the studio keeps nixing it. everyone keeps sighing and being like oh my god can we please just shoot i wanna go home, meanwhile hob's like alright then. let's workshop it. and dream's just like. what. you aren't just gonna tell me to shut up? and hob's like no, youre right, this script is trash, but i know you're just going to write something really weird and psychedelic that they won't let you shoot. and dream's like you dare to speak to me that way??? and hob just puts his hands on his hips and is like listen, i actually know more about this sort of general audience family film thing than you do, mister arthouse, so are you going to work with me or not? and dream's just like what... is happening... because usually people who try to 'handle' him either just cave to his every demand like wimps, or just fight him on everything to 'prove' that they're in control, and hob is just kind of... not doing either of those? anyway dream doesn't know what to do with him.

so they workshop it. turns out hob actually DOES know how these sort of general audience all-follow-the-same-three-act-structure films work and how to improve things within those confines, and also he understands what like, normal people like, you know, casual feel good movies, not everything has to be a mindbender, jesus. so they bounce ideas off each other for like 3 hours until they finally get something that's okay enough that dream no longer wants to fling himself into the sun. meanwhile everyone on set is staring at them like 👀. then dream is like come back to my trailer we are rewriting the other 116 pages of this script right NOW. what else is hob supposed to do but follow.

then hob becomes the designated Dream Handler on set. dream starts using him as his barometer for what 'normal people' would like because he does not understand that at all. ("hob, will 'people' accept this?" "well considering youre spinning the camera around on a string i'm gonna go out on a limb and say no"). dream becomes kind of obsessed with him because his life is so like, normal, and he's okay with it?? he doesn't find existence to be an insufferable prison from which there is no escape?? and hob is like aw i know you're such a tortured artistic soul *pats him on the head*. plus, hob is actually a good actor, and he's able to put a lot of heart into even this mediocre big budget film, and kind of forces dream to confront the idea that there's more than one good type of story. that different stories serve different purposes and a straightforward happy story is okay, actually.

(and that the problem is the corporatization of the storytelling, not the story itself)

anyway the movie ends up being pretty good, dream still kind of hates it because he wasn't given full artistic license but he has to grudgingly admit that it has at least some merit. after the premiere hob is like (cheekily) so you gonna direct the sequel? and dream is like i did not write that to have a sequel. and hob's like it has a cliffhanger? and dream's like so???? and hob's like well theyre definitely gonna make a sequel. and dream's like i hate this planet. also no i'm not going to make the sequel. i'm going to fuck off to the woods and make a movie about teeth. do you want to star in it? and hob's like you're so fucking weird i'm obsessed with you i'm going to kiss you now.

so yeah, that.

#dreamling #the sandman #just chuckin aus into the void cuz who knows if i'll ever actually write them #sorry this au became insane XD #it got SO much longer and more meandering than i was aiming for i just wanted to write a little 2 paragraph summary LOL #then it grew several legs #long post #anyway dream doesn't have a 'full name' in this btw he just directs under Dream like he's beyonce or something 😂 #you can think of dream as sort of like ingmar bergman or luis bunuel #and hob is like. mark ruffalo. so you can try to imagine that dynamic if you wish XD #sort of inspired by the way art film directors keep getting roped into directing marvel and disney films for some reason?? #my writing

[m-kyunie]

"'Noah's are immortal', huh? I wonder who came up with that crap...?"

episode 77 supremacy

#dgm #d.gray-man #kanda yuu #screencap redraw !!!! #also my kanda nendriod came in the mail Friday after I got back from animeNYC the irony #i love doing redraws bc middle school me wlda been like omg.... #Remember when we all thought Kanda was looking for his long-lost sister or something LMAO man were we off the mark. #i have to make everything abt Alma guys common #but also the animes gay-ass dying montage for yullen? like we were winning wtf #also sorry all my stuff lately is lackluster/not finished. i was working on 2 zine pieces n comms plus I work full time lol wanted to kms #but i finally finished 1 zine n have no backlog comms so I'm mostly free #sighhhhh #edit: there is now a speedpaitn for this on IG

[cordycepsbian]

toasted marshmallow and grilled salmon

#bug fables #mothiva #zasp #team mothiva #stuff i made tag #the canceled moth post put them On The Brain™️ #mostly thinking about species headcanons and funny stylization #mothiva is mostly domestic silk moth with some wild silk and a dash of io #zasp is a smorgasbord of paper wasps but he looks the most like a metric paper wasp #we are aware that drawing his thorax markings like Bug Top Surgery makes no sense #but it's fun so we will continue to do that #he's also got pointy fluff because of all the static electricity he's full of #mothiva has naturally curly fluff but she conditions and brushes it to keep it that way #she'd be a great hugger if she wouldn't throw a fit about it messing up her fur every time lol

[longhands]

Wooo redraw

#trigun #tristamp #i am BEGGING y’all to click for detail and shit this took me a full 8 hours #longhands art #anyway I was obsessed with this shot but I hated that it was so washed out so i took matters into my own hands #also it is SO hard to find good reference shots of his markings. #creature Vash supremacy #i was gonna finish this for the first day of bookclub and then got slammed with coursework #I’m just glad he’s done now lol

[green-mountain-goose]

whatever happens i cant fail is an *abysmal* strategy for living life. and yet rn....

#its not a good long term strategy #also i remember my physics teacher saying life isn't a 98% on a test lol #but also this was the same teacher that hasnt taught me very much mechanics since the start of the year because she presumes people just... #*know* #the further mathmaticians do #not meeeee though #i cant guage whats hard and whats just me being the dumbest idiot there #anyways the way i communicated that to her after the third lunchtime i spent with her doing mechanics somewhat properly was i told her #that it felt like being in plato's cave #and tbh a truer statement has never been said by moi #anyways this all ties together #i cant fail (get less than an A) in phys #and i'm not fucking giving up on mechanics #sooooooo #i'll just cope and get through it whatever way i can #btw i remember my first lesson of statics like 2 months ago #uhmmmmmm..... #she went straight into it and was like guysssss you know this righttttt? ✨ #and she literally speaks with glitter at the end of sentences like this lol ✨ #i should've predicted the future months of mechanics from that huh lol #i mean the only positive of this was like #in my last test #i was able to explain very clearly what principles apply *in words* to a problem #becuase those principles are fucking hammered into my head #i got full marks on those questions compared to a lot of my quite mathsy classmates #idk man im just gonna have at least a competent grip on mechanics so my grade is decent hm

[cursed-onepiss]

i want you all to know that i seem to be capable of only the most unhinged OP crossover fic ideas:

the silt verses main cast gets dropped on the sunny, carpenter has Opinions about the navy and faulkner either drowns or eats a devil fruit within the first day

cutthroat kitchen-style shipwright competition on water 7 OR the entire germa family are saw-style contestants on the show which is happening in the OP world (similar to a davy back fight)

anime!buggy gets teleported to OPLA!buggy’s actor’s house (i think i could make this work as a Who Framed Roger Rabbit crossover maybe)

an entire fake script for a south park episode about a craze for an anime that’s Definitely Not One Piece sweeping the school (this is the one i have the most material for)

#cursed one piece #every single one of my non-crossover fic ideas are just And This Is How Rosinante Can Still Be Alive #i do not write for literally any of these fandoms btw lol #but yeah also hayward would be thriving in the OP world and paige would hopefully just be experiencing a strange sense of freedom #she could vibe with robin it’d be fine once she got some sleep #also paige and carpenter would just have absurdly strong observation haki carpenter more so than paige #paige would have conquerors haki listen to me *listen* #but not control over it #also :) the silt verses teach us that all waters are one water :) #so a) maybe the sea too protects carpenter and b) faulkner’s prayer marks work at sea :) crab full circle #also w the buggy one to be clear that wouldn’t be a ship thing it would be a short bit about an actor meeting the source material #i just think it’s super neat that buggy’s opla actor so clearly read the assignment #anyway i’m going to bed

[luckygumkat]

the alicorn that stole the magic from the ocean (part of an AU idea set between g4 and g5)

#mlp #mlp oc #mlp au #artwork #digital art #sketch #drawing ponies is hard man #the idea for the au though is after the events of the last episode or so (like a lot of time after that) #this unicorn named Wish Well was a pirate captain who fell in love with the sea from a young age and got his cutie mark while sailing #but once he found an artifact full of power #it killed all the magic in the ocean #and the ocean kind of just died there #so he was granted the power he sought #but was cursed to see the thing he loved become nothing but a pit of death and rot #yippeeeee #backstory #I guess #lols

[electronerd47]

Hihi !! ☺️ Can’t remember when we last chatted 😅, but I wrote relationship headcanons tn, and thought they might be comforting to you. 🥺🫶🏽 Hope you + your son are doing alright, and that winter’s treating you well. ❄️

i wish I could put into words how much it means to me that you continue to reach out to me, even if i'm not doing too much reaching back 💜💜💜 i'm terrible at this stuff 😭 so thank you so much for thinking of me!!

winter has been hot and cold lol, it's mostly been fine but my, my son, and his dad all got sick!! dad's over it, me n baby are still going through it. like ugh 🙄😂 i'm handling it like a total baby bc my ears keep getting that plugged up feeling and i just CANNOT deal!! my son is taking it like a champ. aside from coughing, snot nose, and some bad moods, he's still raring at 110% all. the. time. 😂 toddlers!

I'm going to read these headcanons as soon as possible. your writing is always so comforting, even when it's angsty. you're just an amazingly skilled and super-talented author!! ilysm ❤️

#meowzfordayz #you are seriously the best #i have just been so busy between like working and being sick and taking care of a sick child while being sick #not to mention all the car crash stuff #did i mention i got into a car crash? it happened on friday the 13th of all days 🫠 #elijah (my son) was not in the car. just me and his dad lol. we were hurt but we are fine now!! #i just don't know if i mentioned it at all???? #but yeah. bc of the wreck we've been going to SOOOO many doctor appointments. so so so many #that's also been draining #but yes i'm rambling thank you so much for reaching out to me #i suck at reaching out especially because i've been trying to write something to tag you in #like i was gonna write it and post it and tag you in it and it was gonna be a whole thing like like #but i haven't any ideas 🫠🫠🫠 #well i had ONE idea but i am SO rusty at writing atm it's not even funny #and it was super self indulgent bc i have stretch marks from being pregnant and they're only just starting to lighten up #like. a full year and a half later #and i just wanted one of the boys (was thinking giyuu or kyojuro?? or tengen i'm honestly not sure at all) to just. #total body worship reader like 'you gave me children. you're a miracle worker' and all that-- #--'i love you even more as the mother of our children' type mushy gushy #but i get to the word document and it's like.... total blank #OH MY GOD. RAMBLING AGAIN. I LOVE YOU. GOODNIGHT 💚💚💚

[goji-pilled]

love grabbing my tummy and squishing. free therapy.

#you dont understand im not chubby #im FAT i got a big fuckin belly (and other stuf too lol.) #im talking not just tiny rolls but two big fat rolls covered in stretch marks #i can easily take two hands full off it and someone else could also still grab it #squishing it is the most therapeutic feeling fucking ever #love that thing. the fat tum.

[sysig]

They’re too cute, I can’t stop (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Jocasta #Questionably SFW #I mean it's technically nudity but it's possibly the most censored and chaste nudity considering the intent lol #Flirting time! Reverse fluster! Heck yeah #Jocasta being bold in flirting is so cute ah - it's also cute to see her fumble when she's literally so pretty gosh heck but like #I think it's the success of the flirt hitting its mark that just delights me haha #It's not as evident here since there's just the one but I was drawing all kisses all the time for a bit there and they got swept up in it #I remember immediately after I was like ''Wait. How tall are they in comparison to each other'' lol #Let's just say Jocasta is intentionally leaning on her let's go with that I totally didn't accidentally make her shorter pfft #That was actually really fun to draw hehe ♪ Full body kiss! Big hug! Very cute #And leaves Sarah completely unable to function haha #Hey the nudity-but-actually-it's-fine! Lol #Actually now that I think of it I made the same joke with Pop and Soda.... Let's call it a reference and leave it at that lol #Ah frick /and/ Soda's a mermaid! It's really the same joke! Dang lol #And finally capping off with some alternate eye colours to represent hypnosis #Blue is usually pretty good for ''Not in one's right mind'' colour I think - although that might just be the TGWDLM talking lol #And I mean Syreen are mostly blue! Could totally be a Syreen-affected colour! #Although when I think about it green is more common for Under Another's Influence isn't it? :0 Or is that just the Evil X talking?? Lol #Syreen do also have green glowing eyes specifically so there's that - it would make sense #I'll have to do some comparisons #Usually I'm not really much into hypnosis or mind control or the like but on top of enjoying these two I was watching some MEPs and well #There was a femslash set to Hypnotic and the rest is history lol #The entire time I was just like ''Wow these are great ideas! I should do something with them! Hang on'' lol

[crimeronan]

swam almost half a mile this morning :)

#had to quit before the full half mile mark cuz i started asthma wheezing but it barely even hurt. and getting out of the pool didnt hurt #that was nearly twice the workout i did last week where my muscles got so fucked up i quit to Avoid Drowning #can mostly credit the improvement to lucky genetics (it's very Very easy for me to build muscle) but. it feels damn good #swim tag #i was in like agony all thru the holiday weekend lol the sheer Relief when the pool opened back up.... unparalleled

[deus-ex-mona]

thank you, rio, for coming home during this ✨trying time✨

#i said ‘welcome sick’ before pulling this and got results lmaooooooooooooooo #man today is just not my day (aside from this pull) ಠ‿ಠ #my expectations: getting to pack my stuff with my wfh-ing bro lurking in the bg #my reality: my bro is apparently playing wfh hooky(?) and i actually have more bs to pack than i thought so i just. ಥ‿ಥ #i wanted to slack and tl today but it’s apparently not in the cards for me lmfaooooooooooo #also today marks the official end of my solo habitation life :( i’m sure glad i recorded the lxl dances while i could lmaooooooooo #the idea of trying to blast thumbs up no hime at full vol to record the dance while my fam chills in their rooms surrounding my own is just. #ughhh that’s tooooooo terrifying to even think about (ʘ‿ʘ) #the only thought that’s scarier than that is the idea that my dogzo and catjiro plushies may get delivered on the same day as moving day… #…and i haaaaateeeee that that may actually end up happening ಥ‿ಥ this is the one time i don’t mind delayed shipments frrrrrr #if life is still able to bestow mercy upon its sufferers… please delay my shipment till monday. pls. ಥ‿ಥ #man this sure got off topic. what was i supposed to talk about again? oh yeah. gacha rolls. lol #just honeypre things

[salsflore]

just got home from school ～ ate a sandwich to cheer myself up, think i’ll play genshin for a bit and nap ... pulling on shenhe’s banner solves everything

#oh wait i'll give you a mark then! but wait no its still wrong nvm #venting a little because i’m just so bummed and silly and i was in such a good mood yesterday so like how did we get here #i failed my math test and that set my mood for the rest of the day which is dumb i know but aghh #the teacher had us add all our grades and then i was like wait theres this one question i think you mightve marked wrongly #and for a sec he was like that was so embarrassing LOL #i got a 26/30 for history — something i didn’t revise for. i got a 20/20 for my eng lit test. plus bc i did so well on my en oral exam- #-(got full marks btw) i’m being nominated to participate in this speaking thing. when my homeroom teacher found out abt this she even said: #“yeah‚ i expected mika to be a good speaker because everytime she speaks to me i...” and it was a really nice thing to hear but even after- #-all that i’m still so sad. i studied for my math exam i really did. so why did i still fail. i didn’t even pass my class this time #i prepared for a week beforehand. looked at past questions and learned things i never thought i would grasp. asked friends for help & i- #-paid attention in class i wrote down notes i did practice questions why was that not enough. looked up proper study methods and tried to- #-balance everything nicely! so why did i still fail‚ right? and i feel so disappointed in myself. #of course i made the mistake of lightheartedly complaining about this to my straight A & A* student‚ beloved by teachers‚ prefect friend #“you’ll do better! it’s not that bad!” i’m so tired. i know i’m an awful friend for being so bitter but i can’t- #-endure myself any longer. and i got home and i ate a sandwich with my sister and mom at the table and- #-my sister made a comment about how ahhh she’s in a bad mood again cuz it’s a monday !! and i hate that i’m so obviously down. i don’t- #-wish to ruin the mood or anything so like #and i have my malay oral exam tomorrow and i wrote my script wrongly apparently so i have to redo that #i’ve given up on memorizing it i just hate going to school now #and then ahhhh another project another presentation i’m so sick of this so sick of myself #i should have put this at the very start but umm! anyways please don’t reply to this or try to reassure me i appreciate it i really do but- #-i just needed a place to be silly and its already kind of embarrassing enough! so just acknowledge this and move on. thanks. love u guys #cw vent #cw negative