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visualtaehyun · 4 months

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2023 in review 🏳‍🌈

Tagged by the lovely @btwinlines (here) and @chickenstrangers (here) ✨ Thank you 🙏

>> Post your most popular and/or favorite edit/gifset/analysis for each month (it’s okay to skip months!)

This took a while to assemble because I first needed to track down all my original posts which are strewn across several personal tags because I didn't know at the time I established them that I'd be shitposting, getting back into giffing?? etc.

January-June

Still lurking but I took to commenting on Thai BLs on YT a lot. The thoughts needed to go somewhere but I wasn't back on tumblr yet cause I'd been mostly using it for Kpop for several years at that point. My first Thai QL related reblogs are from January 2023 though.

Fun fact: I watched Theory of Love in 2019 after stumbling across OffGun and promptly watching their entire back catalogue lol I even watched a good portion of 3 Will Be Free as it aired but fell off of Thai series entirely and I don't recall why! My only guess is that I was too into Kpop and learning Korean, nerdy proof from vocational training below lol I got back into BL in late summer 2022 via Semantic Error and from there I fell quickly!

July

popular: I only posted twice that month! Be My Favorite was one of the reasons I un-lurked and this breakdown of the pronoun talk in ep. 10 was me deciding to start sharing my vibrating-in-my-seat-about-Thai-language energy lol

honorable mentions: Wedding Plan's YiwaMarine were the original reason I stopped lurking because I wanted to make some noise for Thai GL and for this show - hence this ramble of a post was created!

August

popular: this Only Friends meme? shitpost? about Cheum being a textbook U-Haul lesbian

honorable mention: this Wedding Plan parallel edit of YiwaMarine / LomNuea / Yiwa&Lom <3 and this post about the food, tongue twister, language in Hidden Agenda ep. 5 because it exemplifies how/what I learn from Thai series and because it's the third show I ever posted about

September

popular: an analysis of how the two main couples or two sets of best friends in Naughty Babe (and Cutie Pie) talk to each other

honorable mention: this rant about how the Korean remake of Why R U?, specifically their Fighter, Tutor and Hwa adaptation, frustrated me because it makes no sense if you don't already know the Thai original and this Naughty Babe post about pronouns and names between the two families

October

popular: unsurprisingly it's this Only Friends SandRay post aka Phi Bug and Nong Rabbit

honorable mention: this was the month I finally watched La Pluie so there's a few posts where I'm basically talking to myself lol about some subbing choices, among other things. This was also when GMMTV's press con for the upcoming year happened and I got too interested in all the wordplay in the Only Boo! trailer.

November

popular: I still haven't started watching Cooking Crush (too bitter about the uncut situation tbh) but I did write up an explanation of a pun in ep. 1. And because this is the month that I almost exclusively posted about Thai GL - this Love Senior ep. 1 post with various language observations.

honorable mention: This was also the month I suddenly got back into gifmaking, something I had dabbled in throughout several past fandoms (don't- just- don't go looking lmao). Basically no one's watching Wednesday Club? -> a gifset of May as played by Piploy. There's barely a ZeeNuNew fandom to speak of on tumblr? -> a badly thought out ZNN gifset lmao. The video in question doesn't have English subs? -> Love Senior cast and director shenanigans giffed! I haven't made a single gif since btw djsjdhsj

December

popular: Pronoun changes, my beloved! Because of course the switch to พี่/น้อง /phi, nong/ in ep. 5 would get me to start rambling posting about Last Twilight lol

honorable mention: I expanded on that when I went back through ep. 1-6 to examine the entire evolution of how MorkDay speak to each other. Also wanna mention this very random post about a meme and Thai song (that I've played endlessly) and that time I hijacked @zimmbzon's doc Jim post to reply to their tags :D

A very busy year with lots of shows watched, lots of new acquaintances made on here, and a steadily growing understanding of Thai! If the utter devastation I seem to already have caused with that Rung/rainbow Last Twilight post from the other day is any indication of the year ahead, then it sure is gonna be a fun one lmao

I'm honestly not sure who has been tagged yet and who even wants to do this but some no-pressure tags: @ueasking @thegalwhorants @pharawee and, of course, if you read this and wanna play the tag too, feel free to tag me! If any mutuals have already done this, please point me towards your posts too~

#bl wrapped 2023 #bl superlatives 2023 #tag game #bella and the blorbos

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nctaezen · 2 years

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I knew it, brb am going to throw my phone out to space (it feels like it is happening more? I swear I thought it got fixed but nope and I heard of that glitch you are having! Alas not sure what to fix it as I cannot be sure myself but I hope it got fixed?)

Omg you did!?! How come I never saw your lil Easter egg under glitch mode sets!? I am a bad buddy for not noticing that jdjsdkdk but I do giggle we have glitch mode as a song. Someone from sm is a fan of our lil friendship xD jk! Now we have beatbox and I lean more into glitch mode personally? Both are good songs and fun ones but based on my listens, glitch mode is more. I did see a mutual make a hsm and beatbox gifset which makes me giggle because it very much is high school musical and I love it! A very well put album i agree, im trying to catch up because so many of my favs had comebacks and ontop of that I am a fan of a new group so I am all over with content lol (that and other things which I will get into a bit later)

Oof see life wasn't the easiest for you, I hope things are better now!! I hope thy job is good, shame its a far distance but I hope you can like manage through it, remember slap people with fishes if needed! Also you mentioned a special someone? Pray tell hehehe *pulls up tea and chair* as for life over here its alright! Granted for me life sort of flipped upside down a month ago since I have lost a parent so it hasn't been sunshine and rainbows rn in many ways but I don't want to just throw all of that onto here to also be respectful to your followers! Im trying of course, I have better days than some! I guess one positive news is I have started making gifs myself!! Granted I don't make alot of gifs for nct but I am happy of what I make! Nowhere near your level of awesome gifs, no one can get to your level (alexa play next level) I think thats it? Sorry for not really sharing some fun stuff like usual but I do feel comfy telling ya this update and such. I really do hope you are happy and are much better than me! Sending you a big hug and I hope you can feel my hug! I loves youuu!

Hey my dear glitch friend! I bet you didn't expect my sudden reply, but as I told you, things would get chaotic with my new office location and today I could finally get some rest.

My birthday gave me the right to get 2 days of rest from work today and tomorrow, thank goodness I was waiting for this day to come so fast! Not because it's my anniversary but because I really wanted to rest soooo badly! I worked so much this week and spending extra 3 hours per day stuck in traffic is the worst thing to me.. Thank goodness I convinced my boss to spend the rest of the week WFH.

Whoever came up with Glitch Mode, we surely sent some telepathic vibes of our friendship! You always come on my mind when it randomly comes out on my playlist.

More things happened since our last time we talked and NCT 127 anniversary made me feel a bit mushy, especially with Taeyong's messages, there was a lot to reflect and relate. Also it brought me back to 7th July 2019, when I saw them perform for the first time and we also spent their 3rd anniversary together in London. It was a beautiful happy memory but unfortunately..2019 ended up tragically for me, despite all the beautiful memories I collected through that year.

Because I can feel what you're going through, it was the same year my dad left us as well and it wasn't easy to get over it. Even these days I do think of the images I have stuck in my memory (it was a long fight and it didn't end up peacefully). I know I never openly talked about it here, because I would not stop crying once I would start writing my life story. I've seen lots of friends and people I follow here being more open about these things but I am the type to keep it for myself for a long time. Well I guess now that you talked about your hardships, you gave me the courage to open up myself.

I think the only one who can actually heal us is only ourselves and time. I couldn't find much comfort in other people's words and I know you must feel the same. On another note I wanted to encourage you to focus on things you love the most and hey! someone is debuting into cc's world! I think you'll catch up fast. When I look at my past creations, nothing looked pretty since the beginning, but I tried my best to satisfy myself until I could see positive reactions from other people as well. And it's sure, giffing was a huge source of self-healing for me. And I'm very thankful of thinking of my gifs as being the "next level" haha It already played on my head while I was writing it.

Once again I'm happy you felt comfortable enough to share your story with me. I will be around here for the next days, in the hopes we will get some pretty content soon to share. Sending you a big warm hug and lots of love ♡♡♡ Stay safe, don't skip your meals and keep hydrating yourself

#anon #glitch anon #reply

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asleepinawell · 4 years

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End Of The Year Writing Roundup

artists do their end of the year posts with highlights from each month and, since i had a really productive writing year, i wanted to do something similar for my writing

As a note, I talk about how much I wrote quite a bit because I’m very proud of the amount of content I produced, BUT I do not in any way, shape, or form think that quantity = quality or that writers who put out a lot of content are better. I judge my own writing pretty harshly to myself and a lot of my best writing is actually shorter pieces. Good to keep in mind!

Highlights of 2019:

--I broke one million words posted on ao3! (posted ever, not 1 mil in 2019 that would be nuts). 916,677 of those words were shoot fics.

--The ao3 stats list me having written 389,262 words this year, but that is inaccurate. The stat includes the full word count for every fic I added to, even if most of it was written a different year. I was too lazy to figure out exact numbers but I think it was probably closer to 280k. That’s a lot!

--Machina (a fantasy au) was the longest thing I wrote (only 3 chapters were from 2018) though sadly I did not finish it this year as I’d hoped (an unfortunate amount of vampire smut was written instead oops)

--The Lighthouse Keeper was almost definitely my favorite piece I worked on this year. I wrote it in a 2-day hyperfocused haze and I was super pleased with how it turned out. Also learned a ton of cool but probably useless facts about lighthouses. Through Dark Waters was my next fav. They have a very similar aesthetic in some ways.

Jan-March: 11 chapters of Machina

April-June: Through Dark Waters (my poi dishonored au) + 1 more chapter of Machina

July-August: Force Outcasts (my poi star wars au), Disentanglement one-shot, a chapter of Feedback Loops, The Lighthouse Keeper (lovecrafty gothic fic)

Sept-Nov : 6 more chapters of Machina, a chapter of Feedback Loops, Once Bitten Twice Gay (the first of the vampire fics)

Dec: A fic for shoot secret santa, and FOUR more vampire fics

Conclusions:

I wrote a lot of E-rated content this year wow what happened

I got fond of writing shorter (under 20k other than one exception) fics in full before posting them which is a departure from how I usually write

I started using reference materials a lot more while writing. Mostly in the form of finding pictures of places, clothes, weapons, aesthetics to help me internalize a mood or describe something better

In 2020 one of my goals is actually to write less and read more. I tend to stop reading (and doing anything else) when I’m writing a lot and when I go back and crack open a book it’s like feeling my mind stretch and wake up. I strongly believe that reading is one of the best ways to get good at writing and also my reading backlog is terrifying

Maybe also I will finally revisit Neon and Dust in 2020

I was trying to find some favorite lines I wrote but most of them make no sense out of context. nonetheless, they are almost all humor of some sort. This one may really be my favorite though:

So it’s been a great writing year and I want to say thank you to everyone who read/liked/reblogged/commented/kudoed! Here’s links to the fics I wrote this year:

Machina - shoot fantasy au (almost done i swear) Through Dark Waters - poi dishonored au Force Outcasts - poi star wars au Disentanglement - one-shot fic about root and identity Homecomings - chapter of feedback loops of shoot enthusiastically welcoming each other home Touch - chapter of feedback loops that’s basically just about how gay root’s last braincell is The Lighthouse Keeper - new england gothic/lovecrafty poi au Winter Mystery - cute one-shot for secret santa Shoot Vampire AU - series of fics with shaw as a vampire

As a side note to this, since I also do content-creation in the form of gifs and edits:

96 poi gifsets in 2019!!!!! what the FUCK

34 poi edit stills

6 poi crack posts

A smattering of gifsets for other fandoms i’m too lazy to hunt them down

The great mystery of why I’m always exhausted is becoming clearer!

#ty for indulging this moment of self-reflection and shameless self-promotion #mp #my writing #personal #the gifset number feels too high and i kind of want to double check but i'm worried it's right and i'll be even more bewildered

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annakie · 5 years

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Notes on a Blog Cleanup, Part 5

...And now I’m at Page 611. I’m in the end of 2016. So, a little under 400 pages to get through another 18ish months. Big change from the first 1000 pages being 18 months.

And this is when things go very, very wrong, for all of us, and then for me in a big way, in particular.

This is less about the blog and just more about reflecting on a time period.

And maybe my last post on this series. We’ll see.

This got real personal at the end. I’ll see if I keep it up tomorrow.

I really loved going through the last couple of years on the blog, but I was very, very much dreading getting to November, 2016. We all know why.

The second half of 2015 was pretty great. Went to NYCC a second time (though I never got around to doing recaps of that trip, which had its ups and downs but mostly ups), and then mom and I went on a Caribbean cruise, which I also didn’t do much recaps of. Because on that trip, my grandmother had a big downturn on her health. My mom nearly left the cruise early to fly back to Dallas (and the Princess Cruise people were so, so good to my mom when the front desk found out what was going on). But in the end she stayed, but getting back home was like when everything really started going wrong, and why I say that the end of one of the best times of my life stopped after that cruise.

We got back, and a week later grandma had the stroke that signaled the end, and after a little over a month of hospice care that was very difficult to watch (and my mom and aunt and even dad were so brave about), she was gone. Some good stuff happened in there, like The Force Awakens released, a fun Christmas party at work... but yeah.

I kept alluding to other bad things happening in 2016 and yet I honestly can’t remember now what was so bad, except that my oldest cat and my dog’s healths were both starting to fail. I’m sure I had other reasons, but hey, from the standpoint of 2019, I’d just about to kill to go back to one ordinary weekday of January through very early November 2016 when we had a sane president and relatively sane political climate, I still had my job with the people I loved, and Jim and Cebu were still alive.

Not that things are THAT TERRIBLE now, I just... really miss all those things.

I deleted a lot of political posts from the blog back then because, tbh, they just hurt to much to see. I was like 90% sure Hillary would win, weren’t we all? It wasn’t supposed to happen this way.

I got to one post the day the Cubs won the World Series and was like “That was the last day where things felt... hopeful and normal?” Like wow this one really cool thing happened (at least to me it was awesome) and then like two days later... the world turned upside down.

I took the next day off work to stay in bed and just... cope. When I went back to work the next day a friend of mine and I were talking and she told me that she knew how I felt but thought it wasn’t going to be that bad. That maybe I was overreacting. A year later she told me she was wrong to have told me that.

I’m counting the months until, hopefully, this is all over. If we’re lucky, sixteen months. If this impeachment thing actually yields results, much less. If we’re very not lucky... much, much more than that. I can’t even deal with the thought.

I’ve... decided to press pause on the blog cleanup, even though I have 600 pages (which is still THREE YEARS!) to go.

I got to my first post where I admitted on the blog that I knew it would be Jim’s time to go pretty soon, and at the time, thought I still had around 6 months for Cebu.

In the last few years, I have gone back and visited my posts about how my close to 17 year-old cat died on Christmas morning and then my 14+ year-old dog died three days later. It was, so far, still considered to be the worst week of my life. I had no family in town to turn to really, but they called, and friends who reached out online, and I made it through that time, but it’s three years later and it’s still hard to really think about when I’m not in the right headspace.

The entirety of the end of 2016 until... honestly, like June of 2018 was like a freight train that hit and didn’t let go. Things were actually okay when the grief cloud lifted around March of 2017 until the end of June, and then I found out my company was getting bought out, and then, well, this happened. And it was worse than what I wrote in that post, to try and not mudsling as much as I could have.

I am still finding posts I want to tag, entire gifsets I forgot to tag correctly here and there, or things that should have been tagged personal post or TAH or Mass Effect or whatever that weren’t. As time goes on, I tag better and better though, and very little needs to be deleted other than “stuff is one sale right now!” or “This is no longer relevant” posts so... it’s relatively good now.

I’ve been feeling pretty shitty the last couple of weeks. My dad’s oldest sister is dying, she’ll be gone in the next week or two. I went to Palm Springs to visit her at the beginning of the month. She was always so bright and vibrant and... classy. I hadn’t seen her at all in like a decade though. It’s weird how time gets away from you like that.

The last time I’d seen her and my uncle, my entire family including my (mom’s sister) aunt, my (mom’s mom) grandma, my brother, (pregnant at the time!) SIL, and her parents were all supposed to go on a cruise, and Mom/dad/grandma/aunt and I were to stay with that (dad’s sister) aunt and uncle for a few days over thanksgiving before getting on the ship. Grandma got sick, so I did Thanksgiving with (ds) aunt and uncle on my own. And it was really fun. I’d been so nervous at the time to be there without my parents and... nope it was a great weekend. They took me to a Christmas fair, a NA Pow-wow (public was invited!), antiquing, bought me a sweatshirt and a copper bracelet... spoiled me rotten.

Seeing her so diminished and what she and my uncle are going through now... very difficult. My parents have been out there for over a month now, they’ll be there to the end.

I thought I’d posted about this but I guess I hadn’t? Over July 4th weekend I drove to visit my brother and sister in law and their (four!) kids. My parents were there, too (they’re RVers, they can be wherever they want in a few days) My dad’s OTHER sister and his brother flew in for a day and a half, too. I saw more family this year than I had than the past 10 years before this combined. It’s really started to make me think about the value of family, if they’re good to you, which mine are, even if you don’t agree with them about everything.

I thought I was getting sick all day, I came home from work at like 10:30 this morning, called into a meeting, slept through lunch, worked for an hour or two, had my afternoon meetings canceled by my boss then just laid in bed. I was supposed to go play D&D4e tonight, and I didn’t go. I could have. I just... realized late this afternoon, I’m not sick, I’m just... blah. I’m not sure if going through this blog was a symptom of that, or a cause.

I think the impeachment stuff is getting to me, too. It’s a part of how I feel. I can’t stop looking for news of it. I don’t want to get my hopes up. I keep telling myself to let it go. I can’t. We are all so tired of what’s going on. I’m exhausted. We all are.

I can’t get the idea of moving to where my brother lives to be near him and the SIL and the kids out of my head. I’ve been looking at real estate listings and can probably get a slightly nicer house there for what I could sell mine for here. My job is... it’s fine. But I could probably get a similar one there. There’s one thing holding me here, my friends. I keep wondering now if that’s enough. I’ve lived in Dallas literally half my life. Am I going to spend the rest of it here? I’m not as happy as I used to be, that’s for sure.

Maybe. It’s just a thought. It’s a lot of work. I don’t know. I probably won’t go anywhere.

I think I need to go get some more sleep.

#personal post tag thingy #notes on a blog cleanup

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