#i hope my gf never sees this

[riefol]

the only thing i'll ever upload on here and never upload again

#tadc pomni #tadc #the amazing digital circus #digital circus #pomni #my art #digital art #this is stupid #colleen ballinger #toxic gossip train #ukulele #apology #pomni making an apology video #glitchx #is this ever gonna reach out #i hope my gf never sees this #babe if you see this im sorry #tadc fanart #fanart #please dont share this #i will cry #the last post i'll put on my tumblr #no really i barely go on here #pomni is gay

[ahkylous]

I can’t lose you too

#*points excitedly* I did that!! #seriously tho I have never been more proud of my art #my art #fanart #art #hoping people see this. took me so long to do #gravity falls #au #gravity falls au #drifting stars au #portal au #mabel pines #gravity falls mabel #gf mabel #portal mabel #sad mabel pines #ford pines #stanford pines #gravity falls ford #gf ford #portal ford #gf comic #gravity falls comic #comic #ford and mabel bonding

[bigkickguy]

morning doodle! malkuth gebura and the meme drink

#library of ruina #malkgeb #malkuth #gebura #kickdraw #malort is funny #i love seeing people either swear by it or think it tastes awful #my bf thinks i would die if i drank any #meme aside i hc geb mainly drinks shitty college beer #and malk probably never drank much before and is like ??? i'll have uhh whatever my gf is having :) #netzach saves her at some point and finds her something she likes i hope - thanks king

[anti-transphobia]

Everyone posts about how Stardew Valley is a cozy LGBT+ inclusive game but NO ONE mentions the lack of a platonic option for the bachelors/bachelorettes. Which would be good for aspec people and also just more pleasant for many casual players I believe but that's not even the point. I just want to become best friends with everyone and not only does that require me dating everyone at once and feeling like a sleazebag because of it (ik the bad cutscene can be avoided but I know in my heart they'd be hurt if they knew) BUT it also means the women flirt with me!!!!! Constantly!!!!!!! It makes me sick to my stomach. Truly ruining the characters I liked

#this post is not that serious or meant to be an Analysis or a Discourse Post or a Hot Take or whatever #i just think the dating thing needs to be handled differently #i should be able to Not Date characters and still get 10 hearts with them #also ive never made it far enough in stardew valley to marry someone and this is the first time i could even date someone #and ive heard that the flirtatious comments dont stop once you're married which is. really awkward for me #i mean i could probably handle the guys flirting with me while im married but id hope being married would be an off switch for it #its just awkward to have ppl im not actually dating and only gave a bouquet to so i can be their friend be called my bf/gf when. they're Not #i seriously need to find some kind of mod to fix this once i finish getting all the girls up to ten hearts #i will deal with the stomach churning grossness of the flirting for a while so i can see everything #but then I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!!! I just want my friends back!!!! #maru and abigail and haley !!! my buds!!! #NOT emily shes scary and NOT leah because we just didn't click and DEFINITELY not penny because i fucking hate her #penny sucks. penny dni #but yeah the flirting feels gross because im gay and repulsed by women romantically/sexually #and even though i did open myself up to this by playing the game. because i dont want it it feels like its being forced on me #which makes it feel even WORSE than normal #and its like. not only do i feel like I'm stringing along these characters #but i feel like my friendship with my favourites is ruined :(

[chirpsythismorning]

🎨 🖼️ 🌈 🩹 🧍🏽💡 🔮⚡️☄️

Secret by Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark

previous ⏪ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist

#byler #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #will byers #will's pov #i still stand by the fact that will did have hope at one point that mike could feel the same ie. 'i guess i did. i really did' #and despite mike's outbursts in s3 with 'it's not my fault you don't like girls' and 'that's bc she's my gf will' / 'we're friends x2' #i also think will's anger both times was still in large part over him being mad that mike is distancing himself AS HIS FRIEND #but it's in these moments in the aftermath that reality hits will and he starts to question himself and his own motives #s3 was a huge wake up call for him #it's caused him to distance himself from mike out of fear he's coming on too strong #in all honesty it's not will's fault mike is so insecure to the point where he could think that will doesn't care #bc to will his feelings are obvious to the point where he could never imagine mike would think he didn't care #'there are things that you know damn well' #in will's eyes despite this all being a secret that he now has no plan of revealing outright to mike #he simultaneously thinks mike knows and he's just subtly rejecting will through all of this vague language and by pushing him away #'and now you see. my secret is #is love.' #mike was entirely misunderstanding will for the past year and now he knows the truth is that will actually does care #*enter mike's most doubtful era over his and el's relationship yet* #'every day you're always there. you comfort me. you make it feel like it's worth my while. and then i look around and you're not there' #'and every day you say you care. and i'll beware.' #as much as will is willing to forgive mike for anything and everything #i think he's also at a point where he feels that he can't trust mike by sharing his true feelings anymore (not like he could back in s1-2) #hence why he goes from telling mike everything (at mike's request) to telling him little nothing (mike hasn't requested in a while...) #so it's this open secret now where he can't tell mike directly bc he's convinced mike can't possibly feel the same based on his actions #*enter unreliable narrator will byers feeding this inaccurate point of view to the ga* #4x03 #gif

[myiayse]

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꒰ ɞ̴̶̷ ·̮ ɞ̴̶̷ ꒱

/>🥯c\ ♡

#ensemble stars #tatsumi kazehaya #mayoi ayase #tatsumayo #BOO did i scare you i hope i did #this is for looks around my gf looks around and ourblooks around anniversary looks ariund #IF YOU SEE THIS IM STILL IN SHOXK YOU FOLLOW ME HERE AND I NEVER EVEN KNEW hai though giggle giggle

[shimp-heaven]

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#i will be hospitalized sometime this afternoon #ive never been before #if you have and want to share please do #i dont think theyll let me have my phone so if you see this late and i dont reply im just admitted #i hope they let me have a plushie #my gf has been taking care of me but she has work tomorrow #and i dont think i can be left alone #im kind of scared #i dont know what theyll do with my fresh self harm marks #i hope i get my own room #i know theyll probably have someone watching me #that scares me #i just hope they let me draw or color #maybe even watch tv or youtube #libby says its the best option for me #that they can help me #i dont know.

[im2tired4usernames]

My parents should be fuckin ashamed

#you borrow 80 bucks then can only find me 21 back then i put that 21 into good for your kids then spend the rest of my paycheck getting #diapers pull ups medicine more food for kids and then i fill up the 15 passenger van and then when dad asks why i don't have money to eat #on my lunchbreaks at work like I'm some over spending wild irresponsible bitch when he's the one going to concerts and paying for fancy dat #s and jewelry for his gf and buying groceries for her but you know it's fine #take all my time and energy #so that i literally am a zombie and fall asleep on the very very very limited free time i get #(after doin extra chores to earn said free time) #wo that i fall asleep half way in which isn't fair to my partner and isn't fair to me #take all my income so i cant afford anything #take all my time #take all my energy #YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED YOU GROOMED ME AND MESHED THE FAMILY'S ENTIRE LIFE STYLE FOR ME TO BE LIKE THIS #I CANT MAKE HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS BECAUSE I JUST CAN NOT FUNCTION IF I'M NOT GIVING EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE #IT SUCKS I HATE IT #THEY'LL NEVER ADMIT THEY FUCKED ME OVER #EVER #THEY'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING TO FIX IT OR CHANGE #AND I HAVE NO HOPE FOR ANY CHANGES #MY LITTLE SIBLINGS SEE WHAT I DO FOR THEM AND THEY HUG ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH THEY LIVE ME #'thank you so much for taking care of us' that tell me all the time 'you do so much for us' #it breaks my heart i wish i could give them the world i love them so much they deserve so much better #my mom lost her chance to be decent my dad better learn soon otherwise all his kids minus his favorite will hate him #i love ny parents #and i know they live me and my siblings #but they groomed me into the most miserable personification of elder daughter syndrome and they should be ashamed for what they've done #and be ashamed that they sucked so bad that they're own child had to step up

[tgaiii]

the universal trek experience of having non trekkie family/friends call your favorite characters ugly...

#my gf keeps insulting spock it drives me cray #i hope she never sees quark lol #lov her tho #star trek

[myownprivatcidaho]

thoseve yall who were here a year ago might remember that a year ago He was liking tweets like "idk how people can cheat when im in love im obsessed😍" and "the honeymoon stage rlly doesnt die if youre with the right person🥰" and he was liking stuff like that up till recently now shit like this is in his likes something is BROKEN in him

#i feel bad. i dont even mean it in a conceited way but i cant help but feel like a bit of this is my fault #hes so bright eyed and ambitious that the idea of him losing any of that idealism is nothing short of a goddamned tragedy im sorry #yes this is the guy who lead me on (unintentionally???) and flirted with me for a year despite seeing TWO people during that time #the latter of which became his girlfriend (who i told Everything to ...) #and like. he never apologized he never explained what was going on or why he acted like a fucking simp for a year #but basically we're not talking now and we're on bad terms and angry at each other #(me because. well yall were there for that . hes angry because i ratted his flirty ass out ) #god that all stings so bad i havent talked about the details of what happened to anyone...... #but yeah i just. even still after all this time i hope he stays bright eyed. the idea that he wouldnt is heartbreaking in and of itself. #that one crush situation lol #idk if theyre still together. it was early novembet i reached out to his gf and laid the whole thing out for her #& she said theyd 'take it from here' (??????) and was uncomfortable with me and him communicating with the knowledge that THAT ALL happened #even while they were together. i told her i could respect that (even though i wanted to ask her who the FUCK she thought she was. anyways) #and then i reached out to him one last time to clarify i wasnt dredging it up for retaliation or to break them up but bc she genuinely #deserved to know. then he sorta said fuck my feelings and then reiterated what his gf said that we shouldnt be talking anymore #its been radio silence since then from bothve them. if they did break up id feel bad (cause how COULDNT i?) but if they didnt. #that means the only factor that changed here was. well. his 'relationship'/chances of a relationship/flirtationship/friendship with me. #i dunno. im not gonna act like i have all the facts and im not gonna act like he hasnt screwed me over #but getting back to my main point. imagine knowing him and watching him lose his idealism. try not being heartbroken over that.

[lochnessbian]

hey guys doing my monthly scroll through this place 2 see what’s up… how r the vibes what’s going on with y’all

#a little update on my life: i’ve been running through europe seeing things i thought i would never b able to afford to see #so that’s cool! #i also got into an accident on a vespa which kinda traumatized me 4 a bit but now i have a new toof n some cool scars #can’t b too mad abt that #anyway hoping 2 live the ex-pat life if it can work at all for my gf #if not we shall see

[im-fuck3d-90]

So, my dumb ass...

TW: Talk about weight

So, recently, my weight has plateaued, and as you guys know, that's hella fucking infuriating. So, I decided to start excersising more, and since my thighs are a problem area for me, I decided to do leg exercises. Well, my dumb ass over did it, and now it's been a few days and it's hard to walk.

Fml...

#I just wanted to exercise... #Most likely the earliest I can see my doctor is late next week #but I won't hold my breath... #The American Healthcare system everyone! #I'd be lucky if I can see her within a few weeks #I HOPE it clears up by then #but since Google's saying Get to a doctor ASAP to prevent long lasting damage #I'm doubtful #I learned from my gf #she had pain in her arms for months before she went to a doctor and now she's physically disabled #I really hope it doesn't turn into months #Tbh I've had a feeling in the back of my head that I'd end up in a wheelchair at some point in my life #even tho I never planned to live this long and really can't imagine myself at an older age #but anyway! #(I'm also a practicing Witch and have had prophetic dreams and shit) #I may be screwed... #ok to rb

[sapphic-luthor]

Good Morning Happy Sunday!! Have you done any cool jigsaws lately? My friend introduced me to this company that makes all their puzzle pieces individual shapes instead of the normal buddies and I can’t decide if that’s better or worse. Hope your week ahead is restful and calm when you need it to be! Sending lots of good vibes your way! - SMA

WHAT IS THE NAME OF THE COMPANY ANON

#I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF THIS I DID NOT KNOW #i have not done any recently because they take up my whole entire coffee table and i don't want to piss off my housemate #if it takes me too long to finish it #gf has covid so i have been an anxious mess and also nursing her the best i can #somehow by the grace of the gods i've managed not to get it SUPPOSEDLY but . we will see #had to cancel a new tattoo appointment unfortunately #so. desperately hoping my week is full of quick recoveries cause i am very scared and have to pretend i am not lol #n e ways #thank u. lovely to hear from u as always. hope ur keepin well #sma

[munamania]

sorry bitterness consumes the soul etc etc <33 i will say though. depending on what is going through her head this could all be really fucking cruel lmfao

#like. alright. idk if she Knows i have feelings for her but given the whole blocked stories thing and whatever like. who knows #what bf said. and whether she is or was at any point genuinely confused or something because she does like him but we. hit it off. and it #was all just a Lot. like that doesn’t give the excuse for the times when it felt like she was sorta.. leading me on. yk. though maybe i was #truly delusional and stupid last semester i don’t know. maybe she just also enjoys talking to me on a friendly level and that’s fine and all #but it’d be really weird if she like. also refuses to acknowledge me outside of class? or anything like that.. #or like. basically was just using me to stroke her ego in that sense if she does Know. like that would be shitty #would i like to be friends sure do i think this would absolutely crush my soul probably. #and i’d like to say ohh i don’t think she’s doing xy or z but i truly don’t know her. you know. beyond the little bits #of time we’ve had to talk about our lives and whatever #and anyway. it is stupid that i’ve spent so long trying to guess at what’s on her mind cause i’ll never know unless you know. #we’re ever close enough that we can talk about it or. whatever. #so. i definitely think when i see her again i’m going to take any chance i can to say something about last semester. um yk. in a way that #makes sense i’m not just insane. though i do hope that i can subtly make boyfriend seem really paranoid and weird. sorry. lol. but he was! #honestly if i were hitting on her or trying to make a move i’d understand him being like that but i was polite and friendly #so he has no business getting involved in my personal feelings! yeah i #don’t like him yeah i have feelings for his gf but you get what i mean i’m not. Trying to be an asshole here. #do i wish they’d break up? if she’s not happy. but am i going to like literally be a homewrecker? obviously not again who knows #if i even have the sway to. SORRY i’m being soooo insane one thing about me i can talk about a topic #a million times. anyway. #i just hope it’s not insane emotional manipulation or anything on anyones part i don’t know. #we have a really easy banter so i think it’ll be easy enough to talk to her and then hopefully. have a little bit more clarity as to where #we stand. yk. #abby talks #might delete this later if i decide i’m being a little tooooo 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #i guess what i’m trying to say is. because this isn’t all the clear and obviously it’d be fine if we’re just friends. but the way we #interact is a little. idk. like we tease each other a lot and it’s like girl idk u tho… i’m having fun but huh?

[slimeylee]

why have these last years fucking sucked ass

#slimey-vents #trigger warning below hi did you drink water today and eat something i hope u did ur so cool and amazing pls get some rest gives u a cookie #please scroll past if uninterested i also dont want u to feel obligated like u have to read n listen to me vent and ramble on abt dumb shit #like 2020 - 2024 . have just been ass . #we're not even halfway into 2024 and it already is just #garbage . like its fucking horrible #i dont see how this year could get . any worse ?? but i wouldnt want to get my hopes up on that itll get better ? #like god what has been happening . #covid came up technoblade got cancer and passed away israel's continuing their mass genocide #and a lot of things have happened in my personal life . such as my mother passing away . #and . its just been so fucking hard ?? #i wish i had lasting hope in humanity . but tbh i dont think its ever gonna get any better and that really fucks w me #ive been having suicidal thoughts and ive just been in a very shitty mental state recently #like social media #is honestly the only thing i have to live on #i have honestly boring friends n all my friends dont go to my school . my gf doesnt even go to my school #ive had to switch schools after having a fun time and doing a lot better . the only thing that im holding on by a thread to is social media #all my friends . my fandoms . etc . i talk to through my phone and through here #im so glad to have met everybody that i have on here #im sorry this is getting really long ive started going on a ramble but i just want everyone to know that i love yall /p #i appreciate everybody so much . all my moots and my close friends that ive made not only here but irl as well #and everybody that ive talked to throughout the time we've known each other . i really just want to think that everything will get better #everybody that ive met through my years of social media and school have really changed my life . and idk what i wouldve done #having never met any of them . especially my moots on here that ive grown close to #its just been stressful . but ive strived to get through it all . despite how hard it is #and how desperately i just want to let go from everything #but ending one thing doesnt end any pain it just gives it on to someone else #and i know that im way too pussy to end anything anyways . #but on another note . #please remember that you are amazing . talented . strong . and i appreciate and ily so much . /p

[gregoftom]

going to see saw x tomo HYPEEEE

#txt #my gf watched saw with me in prep to see it i never thought she would 😭🥺 #then she watched 2 with me!!! we completely felt the same she LOVED the first movie #which i was like!!!! omg about! because she’s critical of movies #so i was very happy and she agreed that 2 was Not as good. very mid to low tier #and mayyyybs i can persuade her to watch the resttttt? i hope sssooooo bc they’re better than 2 #BUT EEEE HYPE