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binniebakery · 3 months
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College AU Bestfriend!Beomgyu x Gn!Reader .. not exactly fluff! kinda suggestive? ♡ Warnings: thunder? rain? ig being in the dark? my first time writing kissing .. my first time actually writing ANYTHING so it might be bad im so sorry guys ♡ A/N: this is my first little fic (if you could call it that)! i literally hate it but i think i got the point across LOLL regardless i hope someone will enjoy please lmk what you think <3 lowercase intended + not proofread ~
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7:32 pm. sighing softly, you placed your phone that was softly playing your favorite tunes back down on the small table over your lap. you tapped your pencil on the table in frustration as you once again for the fifth time readjusted your legs on the bed of your best friend's bedroom. time was going by excruciatingly slow and it didnt help that this math problem was taking you a million years to solve. the sun had already set outside and heading back to your dorm seemed less favorable by the minute. hearing a soft shuffle from the other side of the room you looked up at your best friend. rain began to patter outside. looks like you'll be staying for longer than you intended. beomgyu, who had his deep-colored headphones on was moving his head to the music as he wrote down notes from his study guide. his hair softly wrapped around his features most attractively. you began to mentally trace the lines of his nose, his eyes… his lips.. the dim lighting of the room adding more charm to his aura. "y/n..? are you okay? i could feel you burning holes into my head." beomgyu said as he shook off his headphones to fully put his attention was on you. snapped out of your daze, you mentally kicked yourself as you felt embarrassment creep onto your cheeks. how long had you been staring at him for..? "sorry gyu. if i was staring i didnt mean to" you softly laughed, trying to seem nonchalant and cool about the situation. beomgyu, seeing your embarrassment, chuckled at your reaction. "youre okay, i know you look at me because im cute" he grinned and you rolled your eyes. "oh shut up! you know i was daydreaming. i cant focus on this assignment anyways, its too hard. i think im gonna just finish it tomorrow." you smiled as you threw a pillow at him. he was always cheeky when he had the opportunity. anything to see you react. "daydreaming? so you do think im cute?" he grinned wider after recovering from your pillow attack. you huffed and placed the table that was on your lap onto the ground. "you know youre so-.. ugh and what if i do think you're cute?! what would you even do about it, huh?" you retaliated as you sat on the edge of his bed, now fully facing him. you faked a pout as you were feeling a bit bolder than usual today. your homework giving you enough pent-up rage to have the energy to give in to his bickering.
"okay well i dont know how much truth there is to that but if you really meant that id probably kiss you." your eyes widened at his response. you see beomgyu's face turn into an unreadable expression. he hadnt realized you were only half joking and fully meant the compliment, but it was too late and by the time he caught wind that you were actually flustered he felt his stomach flip. even he was shocked by his own words. he slipped. had he said too much? after a few seconds of silence that felt like minutes. the rain outside seemed to get louder. his eyes finally met yours and you looked away. you felt your heart pounding at the thought of you saying too much. both of you overthinking the situation and awkwardness that you both never have had before taking place. you and beomgyu have never had an awkward moment like this. normally you both laugh things off but this time felt different. "you trust me right?" his voice sounded sincere. this tone was rare for you to hear from him but you knew immediately he was being genuine with his question. "h- huh? yeah of course.. why?" you responded. "okay well.." you noticed beomgyu was now fiddling with his headphones, it seemed like he was turning all the gears in his head to get out what he wanted to say. "y/n.. theres a chance you may have not been telling the truth but if you were- look regardless if you meant it, i meant what i said." you could feel your stomach turning. he hardly flirted with you but when he did it always felt different from his usual teasing. you never said anything though, in fear of ruining your friendship. yet you always thought about what it would be like if he also returned the feelings you felt.
the room's atmosphere seemed to change. suddenly you were both hyper-aware of his neon led light being the only source of light aside from his computer. your playlist had stopped and the silence felt unbearable. in one swift move, he stood up, and turned off the led light on his wall.
the room was a lot darker now, his computer screen's light being the only way of telling you what he was going to do next. you watched as he plopped down next to you. he was so close that you could see the slight tinge of pink on his ears. your senses began to be filled with the light scent of his cologne. "i.. look- the only way i can say or do this is if the lights are off- im not trying to be weird its just you make me so nervous.. i cant look at you." he mumbled as he looked at your hands resting on your lap. it was so dark and both your hearts were racing. "gyu.. " was all you could muster with his hands now softly on yours.
"can i…" beomgyu began as he leaned in closer, only centimeters away from your face. his eyes staring intently into yours. he had this look of pure admiration, nervousness and love. it was all too surreal. realizing what he was asking, you silently nodded as you stared at his lips. he pressed his forehead on yours, the thick tension in the air causing your body to tingle in anticipation. as you felt his hair softly tickle your features from him leaning in, your lips connected. he kissed you oh so softly as he held your cheek gently. your hands, as if moving on their own, were softly placed on his arms. his lips softly moving along your own. he was patient. it felt as if he was waiting for you to respond, unsure if what he was doing was okay with you. you moved your head to the side slightly to deepen the kiss, causing him to sigh. it was all he needed to know you felt the same. his hands moved to your waist as you settled your fingers into his long hair. softly pushing him towards you to intensify the kiss. all that could be heard was the rain outside aside from the soft exchange of sighs and hands roaming. "ive liked you for so long.. you have no idea.." he began between kisses. it was all passionate, slow, and tender as if he was handling you like glass. his hands pulled your waist impossibly closer to his. he separated first, leaving you craving for more. "trust me, i liked you so much i was so scared you didnt feel the same way despite you teasing me the way you did." you chuckled as you pecked his cheek. "you drive me insane.." he softly spoke. "y/n, every time i tried to say something.. my brain just went to mush.. its so bad i swear. i could only be this confident with the lights off.." beomgyu laughed as his eyes began to trail your facial features. he was admiring every curve and feature, and at that point, both your faces were impossibly red. "gyu.. can you just.. kiss me again..?" your voice came out hardly a whisper. "i like you so much i feel like im going insane from the way you just confessed." he smiled fondly at your words and nodded, leaning in once again. as soon as your lips touched you could both practically feel the electricity pouring through your bodies. as if on cue, thunder struck the moment you connected again. your arms wrapped impossibly tight around him, slightly tugging and playing with his hair. his arms remained at your waist, slightly circling over the shirt you wore. you could feel the warmth of his fingers through the fabric.
his tongue slightly swiped along your lips for permission, and you parted your lips in response. having his tongue explore your mouth had your brain going numb. time felt like it had stopped, with just the rain as your only witness to the quiet whispers and confessions that only you two could hear. when you both finally were running out of breath, you separated with beomgyu looking into your eyes. you stared back, lips equally as glossy as his. "are you.. going back to your dorm yet?" thunder struck once again, as if responding to his question. you smiled. "its raining a little too hard dont you think?" beomgyu chuckled, realizing how silly his question was. "yeah. youre right, i think you should stay." you bit your lip as you pulled off each other, both of you immediately missing the warmth. beomgyu shook his head fixing his now fluffed hair thanks to you as he ran his fingers through. he then stood up to turn the led light he had turned off previously back on. "so.. how about we watch a movie?" he spoke as the light clicked. you could almost burst into laughter from the question given the events that just happened a minute prior. give it to choi beomgyu, your best friend, to turn a situation less awkward by simply being his charismatic self. the personality you fell for since day one of knowing him.
"sure gyu, but.." you trailed off, shy about what you were about to say next. honestly, could this get any more awkward? "yeah?" he turned to you and tilted his head in that attractive way he does. "leave the lights off." you looked at him with a shy smile. he flushed at your words. and for the last time again, lightning struck. "yeah.. lights off" he replied, led light clicking once again.
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shurisbathwater · 2 months
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paige w smart girl head cannons
Okayy im gonna try bc im English smart not math smart ✋🏾 either way lets get it
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𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐠𝐞 𝐱 𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐜 𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐧!𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐜𝐬
We all know shes a hoverer so she always ends up staring at your screen when youre doing homework or studying
“What is that—is that even English?”
Especially if You’re in the chemistry, physics or biology world chile
Looks like gibberish to her 🤷🏾‍♀️
asks you questions about your homework so she can hear you explain it because she thinks its cute when you ramble or get excited about something youre interested in.
You most definitely help her with her homework God knows that girl is illiterate even when she genuinely understands it she pretends not to so she can just hear you speak or watch you explain it and talk her through it.
“Okay, do you get it now?” You turn to face her.
“Huh?”
You roll your eyes as you realise she wasn’t listening. “Less focus on me, more focus on your work yeah?”
“You know that’s impossible bae.” And does that lightskin smirk hdhdhd
She’s most def seen her fair share of u hiding in your dorm for days, them braids (or js hair) up in a messy bun and glasses on chileee, you staring at the screen for hours
Always checks on you though :) brings you food, takes care of you or whatever you need
Especially after an exam you took, self care day together always
It can be really any way, shape or form. Just chilling together, doing facemasks, other advances,or literally just sleeping in bed together because you’re so tired.
Literally your #1 motivator. Always picks you up when things get a little too stressful for you.
Tears are streaming down your face due to stress, your head in your hands real girls cry over stress 😩. “I cant do this.” You utter.
“Hey, hey. Relax. You got this, okay?” Paige says as you walk over to the bed in which she is sitting on.
You sit next to her, sniffling as she pulls you into her arms,making you closer than before.
“Youre a genius, and i know you know that. Take a break for a second.” She says softly, wiping your tears with the pad of her thumb.
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the seven + a few others future headcanons
percy:
becomes a high school teacher
teaches high school marine biology (idk how it is in other schools but when we hit sophomore year we got to choose different bio classes ie: marine bio, ag bio, med bio + regular bio)
also teaches the mythology elective and is the swim team coach
annabeth:
we already know this queen is an architect with obvious inspiration from greek architecture
learns how to make blue food for percy and their kids from sally
has traveled all over the world looking at different architecture
learns the basics of many languages so shes able to communicate with the locals
her and leo team up to build a small school near camp half-blood for year rounders so everyone can learn consistently but dw they get summers off
piper:
love her but shes a nepo baby
she doesnt act like it tho
”are you tristan mcleans daughter?” “who?”
loves her dad to bits but does not like being seen out in public by the paparazzi
marries shel, they dont have kids tho, neither of them want to bring any into the world especially with america’s downfall and the government erasing women and poc rights
is basically leos big sister atp
leo:
him and calypso dont last, maybe a year and a half in they split bc calypso wants to explore the world and leo is very emotionally unstable and calypso has a hard time understanding
they end on good terms but dont ever talk unless its with a group of friends
he goes into a trade to become a mechanic and owns his own shop
starts smoking cigarettes/vaping
his friends dont really approve but they understand he cant quit just yet as hes not in a mental space to do so
goes to therapy with a psychologist whos a demigod that specializes in grieving and war trauma
they all go to therapy but hes the last one to do it
he’s still the ‘happy go lucky’ guy hes always been but as he gets closer w the others they start to see the true sadness in him
piper and him grow a lot closer after jason died and have a big sister little brother relationship
hazel:
my girl stays at camp jupiter
takes nicos place at camp
horse trainer
her and frank also dont work out as a romantic relationship, they felt that the age gap was too much after frank turned 18 and hazel was 15 theyre still friends tho
hazel often visits leo in his shop
as much as leo reminds her of sammy, through therapy she has recognized that theyre separate people and to not push all her past feelings for sammy onto leo
not only does she train horses but she also teaches little kids basic math, science, and history to the younger kids
they all call her ms. hazel
she prefers to teach the really young kids (age 4-7)
wears her hair in different braid styles after BOO
frank:
my friggin HOMIE
i relate to frank a lot personality wise
therefore i think hed be a 4/20 fanatic after BOO
hes not stoned during training or during important camp duties
but otherwise you try talkin to him and you dont really notice until you look and see the far off look and red eyes and he just goes “huh?”
other than that hes a great leader
after he gets his cool new look from mars he takes really good care of his body including consistent exercise and eating really healthily (maybe he has a soft spot for fast food when hes hi)
him joining the military does not make sense to me
he lost his mom to war, and he was in one himself, idk about you but i would not wanna join the military after being the main character in a war
he studies to be a veterinarian for exotic animals
when no one is around he shifts into the animal to find out whats wrong
”dr. zhang prefers to work by himself” “why” “idk but hes always right, if it aint broke dont fix it”
jason:
rip home-slice
nico:
my other homie
my guy does not get taller than 5’8
stays at camp during the summer to train the new and old kids
him and will get a house together
teaches history at the camp school
cat dad (5 cats and counting)
will:
takes nicos last name when they marry bc its cooler
him being a doctor doesnt click w me i more picture him being an EMT
EMTs are hotter anyways
does med training with new apollo kids whenever he gets time
if he’s not busy during working hours he drops by nicos classroom w his fav drink from dutch bros (starbucks is MID) and hangs out with him and his students
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hellsburners · 10 months
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summary: you're a new library assistant in an elementary school and you cant help but fall for the cute teacher visiting your desk. pairing: teacher!peter parker x librarian!male reader word count: 2.2k (im being ballsy with these fic lengths its actually fun) warnings: none really more of fluff a/n: was in a fluff writing mood :> (might get a part 2 if it gets received well)
masterlist | more peter parker
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You did everything by the book, literally. There was a handbook resting on the front desk of the library with everything you needed to do as an assistant. You took the books back to the shelves and made sure it was in the right order. You tidied up the library computers making sure every unit was logged off and the chairs weren’t a mess. You also took note of orders from the teachers, some lists from Mr. Jones, Mrs. Longford, Mr. Hayward, and Mr. Parker. You stretched your arms and legs, cracked your neck, and gave a little prayer to the universe that you wish your formal first day will be good. 
Ding! 
The bell on your desk pinged. A man, probably in his early 40s, stood in front of you. He wore a loose shirt with a pale pink tie, his hair was brown and sparse. 
“Mr. Parker?” 
“I’m sorry, I’m Roy Jones, from the math department,” he responds. You gave an embarrassed oh and gave him his stack of books. 
“Sorry, it’s my first day.”
“All good kiddo, you haven’t seen trouble yet, good luck on your first day,” Mr. Jones gave a kind smile before walking away. 
By 8:30 am the students came rushing to your door, you logged borrowed books, received returns, you even did the occasional hush to students being loud, it was going smoothly. The kid in front of you was borrowing a copy of The Picture of Dorian Gray, an excellent choice you thought. You scanned the QR code inside the book, logged in the student’s info and you kindly smiled while giving the book away. Hours passed of you sitting around, sipping on an orange juice box. By 11 am at least 3 students were studying. 
Ding! 
Oh. The man standing in front of you was tall and handsome, probably in his mid-30s, he wore a neat suit in neutral colors, and his brown hair was combed to the side. You placed your juice box down. 
“Mr. Hayward?” you traced your fingers on the sticky notes on your desk. 
“Parker, Peter Parker,” he replied. Shit, not again. 
“I’m so sorry Mr. Parker.” you shook your head. 
“First day, huh?” you nodded shamefully. He gave you a cheeky smile. 
“Yeah, I’m so sorry,” you took the stack of books with the label Mr. Parker on it. He reached out to take the heavy books, your fingers were slightly touching. Your cheeks warmed from the contact. There was a certain pleasingness in his presence. You scanned the pile trying to spark a conversation. “So you teach physics?”
“Yeah, 8th and 9th actually,” he carries the books in his arms, he may look lean but you could see the way his arms flexed under his suit. “Are you new to the city?”
“Well kinda, I was born here but my family and I moved out when I was 5. I figured coming here in the city could give me more opportunities,” his brows would raise while you talked, making you feel like whatever words came out of your mouth he listened to intently. “How about you? Did you grow up here?”
“I grew up with my aunt, went to Midtown for high school, and Empire State in college. So, yeah, full-time New Yorker here,” he chuckled. “My daughter and I still live in Queens too.”
“Daughter?” you said shockingly. He looked down at his toes, and he laughed again, that soft deep laugh. “Sorry, you don’t look like one”
“I don’t look like a dad?” he said.
“I mean you look pretty young,” you bit the insides of your cheeks. “I’m sorry I must have been taking up too much of your time Mr. Parker, ‘twas a lovely chat though.”
“Oh it’s fine, I’m on lunch break anyway.” you waved him goodbye and he reciprocates the gesture. “By the way, Peter is fine, just Peter.”
He leaves, and you sit back down on your desk, your heart beating a little too fast for your liking. Your knees felt funny like they were going to give out. Oh, god. You were crushing on the physics teacher. 
Before your shift ended Mrs. Longford called and said she couldn’t go to the library due to her pregnancy. You gladly said you would deliver her the books instead. On the way to her room, you couldn’t properly find her classroom, they all looked the same to you, so you went one by one, looking through the windows and checking to see if Mrs. Longford was there. By the eighth classroom, you could see him. Not Mrs. Longford, but Peter. He was demonstrating the law of inertia to the class, making a funny action of being hit in the hip by force, and the class laughed. He seems nice, and the students all listened to him, taking in every word of his lesson. It was admirable really, to have such charisma over a bunch of impressionable kids and use it to educate them. 
The bell rings, and a swarm of students floods the halls. The books in your arms fall as a student bumps into you. You cursed, bending down to pick them up while a pair of arms reached out to help you. It was Peter, he had ditched the suit jacket at this point, his shirt sleeves rolled up to show his veiny arms. 
“Thank you, I was looking for Mrs. Hayward’s classroom and I couldn’t find it,” you hugged the book while Peter carried the other stack. 
“Mrs. Hayward’s room is in the other wing. Don’t worry I’ll walk you to it.”
“Oh no, you must have another class, I can find my way.” you try to take the books but he moves away.
“No it’s fine, my day is done. Let me walk you to her room.” he smiles, again, that pretty Peter smile. 
On the way to Mrs.Longford’s room, you talked about your education, where you went to high school, and in college, and where you live now. The conversation later went to his daughter, Mayday, named after his aunt who has sadly passed. She was 5 years old and in first grade, a smart girl, he says. 
You reached the 3rd door in the left wing. Peter told you that the lady with short hair and red cat-eyed glasses was Mrs.Longford, the baby bump also verified his claim. You knocked, and she waved at you with a smile, you and Peter went in to bring the books. Peter and Mrs. Longford exchanged greetings and talked about an upcoming faculty meeting. You asked Mrs. Longford to sign some papers for the book requests she had made and she obliged. 
Peter walked you back to the library. You continued to chat about random things, your favorite food (he was pizza), your favorite color (he was blue), and your favorite movie (his was Interstellar). You unlocked the library and turned the lights back on. You went back to your desk and Peter took a seat at a nearby desk. You stared at him, arms crossed, legs spread. 
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Weeks passed, and Peter had been visiting you in the library. Usually, he’d stay to check student papers or read new scientific publications on the school computers, he was nerdy about stuff like that; but most of the time, he just stayed around to talk to you. He would talk to you about Mayday’s science project, which you helped him come up with. It was an iced tea stand presentation that used butterfly pea flower tea and lemon juice, and it changed the blue liquid to a bright purple. She won a silver prize, Peter says. 
Peter had mentioned before that Mayday lives with her mom and that she rarely gets to see her dad. You could see the way the line his mouth would make and how it would frown sometimes when he talked about her. You wanted to give him some piece of comfort, but every time he would smile because it was Mayday, it was his only girl. 
You were at your desk enjoying a sandwich with your favorite orange juice box, Peter sat on the floor next to you hidden from anyone who came to the desk. He, too, enjoyed a sandwich you made. You scrolled through your laptop, mainly on the news. 
“Hey Pete, have you ever seen Spider-man?” you said, Peter almost choked on his food.
“Spider-man?” He cleared his throat.
“Yeah, I mean you’ve been here your whole life you must’ve seen him right?” you took a sip of your drink. Peter thought long before he answered.
“No, I haven’t,” he whispered. 
“Boo! You’re boring,” you threw an eraser at him.
“Hey! It’s not my fault he doesn’t swing by my apartment once in a while.”
“Well, I wish he’d come by mine, take me into his arms as we swing away into the sunset,” you waved your arms around thwipping your hands like Spider-man. 
“You’re so silly,” he laughs, he takes a big bite of his sandwich, talking to you while chewing. “You know, Mayday’s been asking about you, she said she wants to thank the guy that helped her come up with her science project.”
“She said that?” you were touched.
“Well, I wanted to invite you, and she told me we haven't celebrated her win so why not invite the guy who helped her,” he finished his sandwich, wiping his mouth with a napkin. “You don’t have to if you’re busy.”
“Friday night right? I’m in.” You smiled.
You knocked at the light blue apartment door, you could hear some ruckus inside. Coming! A man’s voice yells. The doorknob turns and there he was, Peter Parker, dressed in a light gray sweater, the sleeves rolled up, and a red apron. Behind his leg was a little girl with light red hair. 
“Hey there, I’m glad you could come. This is Mayday,” she was shy but she gave you a little wave and a hi. 
Dinner started in a few. Peter served baked macaroni and a Caesar salad. Mayday brought a plate of cookies she made, without her dad’s help, she said (Peter shook his head). You brought a box of pepperoni pizza as per Mayday's (and Peter’s) request. The three of you talked over dinner about how proud you were about the medal and if she ever needed help you would gladly be there. 
After dinner, Peter took the dishes, you went to help but he insisted you not. You were left with Mayday in the living room, she was talking about her favorite book, a book about planets. Venus was her favorite, she says. You began to talk to her about the many books you have on planets in your library and if her dad permitted, you would lend some. 
“Do you like dad?” you were surprised. 
“Yeah, he’s nice,” you offered her a smile, and she gave you a curious gaze instead.
“Dad is always alone.” you looked back at Peter in the sink, the fabric stretching on his back.
“You’re here,” you stroked her hair. “Your dad always tells me stories about you y’know.”
“But when I’m with Mom he’s all alone.” 
“What are you two talking about,” Peter stands above you and Mayday, his hands on his hips. 
“We were talking about your hair. Mayday said you’re starting to look like a sasquatch.” Mayday giggles. 
A few hours later Peter took Mayday to bed. Mayday hugged you and told you goodnight. You bend down to hug her and she tells you to be Dad’s best friend, always. You were sitting on the couch with your hands on your lap. You looked around the place, filled with books and a bunch of Mayday’s stuff. It seems like Peter just lets her stuff stay there, so as not to forget about her presence. Your eyelids begin to fall as you let out a yawn.
“Sleepy?” he mutters. 
“Just a bit. My head is just filled with so many facts about space,” you made a mind-blown gesture, Peter laughs.
“She does that a lot actually.” Peter sits beside you on the couch, keeping his eyes on yours.
“She’s a lovely kid,” you smiled. 
“She is,” Peter sank his head on the couch, his eyes closed. 
“You think I’m alone?” he frowns. “I heard you two earlier.”
“I don’t think so. You have me,” you mutter. Your hands fall on your sides meeting his. He laces your fingers with his, you could feel the warmth of his palms with your cold ones. He chuckles. “It’s pretty late, maybe you should get some rest too.”
“You’re right, let me bring you home first,” you refused. 
“I’d be fine,” you assure him. 
You were outside the apartment. Peter was with you in just his flip-flops, his hand never leaving yours. “I had a wonderful night.”
“Me too,’ Peter said, he took his other hand and patted your hair. You looked at him with hooded eyes, his hand falling to your cheek. You inched closer, your face so close to his chest you could smell him, like an ocean breeze. His face gets close to yours, the moment seemingly getting more tense. His thumb rubs your hand, over and over, it calms you. Underneath the moonlight, your lips meet. A tender kiss weeks in the making. Your eyes closed and you lost yourself in him. Your lips leave him a few moments later, a smile plastered on both your faces. You hail a taxi cab and when one comes, you wave him goodbye. 
But you swore that night, the moment you entered your apartment, you swore you saw the Spider-man swing by, almost like he was waiting for you to come home.
part two posted here
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hotluncheddie · 1 year
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Seasons change, but people don't.
or three times steve asks eddie to stay, plus one time he finally does.
(my entry for @thefreakandthehair 's winter fic challenge! my prompt was "lets just stay here, watch the snow a little longer." and it turned into a lot of Eddie Munson being silly and spans all the seasons. 6.2k)
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Spring 1985 
Eddie feels like his skin is too small. His scalp is prickling and he’s had the worst fucking day, okay? His stupid math and science teachers are in kahoots, he knows it. He’s shit in both their classes and they hate him and have it out for him and there's nothing he can do now. His grades are too low, he cant make it up and they don’t like him so there's no way out. Not charming anyone, no sob story that could save his sorry ass now. He’s not graduating. Again. He has to repeat senior year. Again. 
And the added layer to his shit cake of a day? King Steve wants to buy from him. Today, right now. Oh ho ho is he gonna get overcharged sooo bad. Seeing as eddie has to postpone his wallowing to wait at his stupid little bench in the stupid woods behind the stupid school.  
The spring air is nice at least, a little breeze blowing through the trees and the bench is warm from the sun. He's only been waiting for about 5 minutes before the telltale rustles and snaps of someone coming towards his spot are heard. 
Steve the hair Harrington is here. With his long stupid legs and his stupid jacket and eddie is not! In the mood! 
‘Hey man’ Steve slumps down onto the bench across from Eddie with a sigh and, huh. He looks really fucking tired. Like, if Eddie were his friend he would be seriously concerned. 
Steve is not Eddie's friend.
‘Hey yourself. 30 bucks. Cool?’ Eddie gets the baggie out of his little black lunchbox and holds it out. Steve just kind of looks at it. ‘What?’ Eddie snaps. He doesn’t have time for this.
Steve flinches at his tone and looks at Eddie with his big puppy eyes (yes! Eddie knows Steve Harrington is a pretty boy jock and yes! Eddie has had his little gay boy fantasies about Steve Harrington and no! Eddie is not proud of it!) and ohhh my god Eddie does not have time for this!! 
‘Sorry sorry, yeah man. Here.’ Steve takes out the cash and hands it over, but still doesn’t take the bag. He shuffles around, sticking his hands in his ugly preppy jacket ‘You. You wouldn’t roll for me would you?.. I’ll pay extra.’
Eddie scoffs, god what a day! Now this! ‘Baby never had to roll for himself before? Oh! to be royalty. I don’t have time Harrington, go get one of your lackeys to do it.’ He stands and Eddie knows his voice is icy, that a deal in the woods doesn’t require so much bite but he can’t help it. He needs his shitty fucking day to be over.
Steve's cheeks redden and he picks at the table. Eddie was expecting a rise, that classic king Steve bite back. But he just looks kinda like he’s going to throw up? ‘I can roll. I. I could roll. My um, my hands shake. My hands shake so I can't roll anymore.’ And he looks sad, the puppy dog eyes just timesed themselves by like, 10. 
Eddie melts. He knows his heart is too soft and squishy, his dad always loved to tell him so. 
‘Hand it over Harrington. And change your face, you’re breaking my heart man.’ Eddie rolls his eyes and huffs and makes a big show of sitting back on the bench, like rolling a couple silly little blunts for silly little Steve Harrington isn’t literally going to take him 5 minutes. 
‘Sorry, sorry. Um thanks. Thank you man, really.’ Ugh, he still looks sad and now he looks guilty too! Fuck! 
‘You’re fine man, seriously. Okay? I’ve just had a shitty day, rolling your stupid blunts for you isn’t going to make it worse, promise.’ Eddie flashes his teeth, gets out his spare papers and starts rolling. The familiar movements helping him relax a little. 
‘Okay well, thanks still. Uh and sorry, sorry your day was shit dude.’ Eddie side eyes Steve and watches him scrub a hand over his face. He really looks like shit, how did Eddie only just notice?
‘It's whatever. I’m simply forsaken to haunt the hallowed Hawkins High hallways for another year. A travesty for everyone involved honestly.’ and Steve just squints at him for a second, before breathing out a ‘shit, man’ which makes Eddie bark out a laugh. Maybe this new king Steve is more entertaining than the last one. 
‘You wanna um, like, share? Now?’ And isn’t that a question, smoke up with the hair? Oh if Eddie of yesteryear could see him now.
‘Thanks for the offer your majesty but I have a prior engagement’ Eddie stands again and ignores that Steve looks a little disappointed… Weird fucking day. ‘Enjoy though. hope it helps you sleep dude, you look like you need it.’ Eddie packs up his things, he feels a stress headache starting and he really does just want to go home, play his guitar maybe. Build up the courage to talk to Wayne. 
‘Sure, of course. Yeah, yeah. Thanks.’ Steve grimaces, but the corners of his lips rise a little, in a self deprecating way. It looks real, genuine. It suits him, Eddie thinks, being genuine. 
‘No really, you kinda look like shit dude.’ Eddie can't help it, if he’s given a little he’ll take  a lot. Especially if it’s from pretty boys who don’t look like they’re about to beat the shit out of him. 
‘Get the fuck outa here Munson’ Steve rolls his eyes and is smiling like he's trying not to. Eddie’s lizard brain wants to eat him. Eddie’s Eddie brain still wants to go home, but the pit in his stomach feels a little shallower. He starts to walk backwards out of the clearing.
‘Hey, Eddie?’ Steve is looking at the two neat spliffs in his palm. Eddie slows his steps as Steve glances up at him. ‘Just. Uh. There's a lot worse things out there than repeating senior year a couple times, okay dude? A lot worse.’ And there's a fire behind Steve's eyes that Eddie didn’t know was possible. Intense, brave, harrowed.  
Eddie is frozen for a second, held by this person in front of him. Someone he thought he knew, because Eddie knows how to read people and Steve Harrington was always so simple. But this Steve Harrington? This is new. Eddie's stomach twists. He needs to go home. 
He bows deeply, flourishing his hand and spins on his heel… He might just keep an eye out for Steve Harrington from now on. 
Summer 1985 
This was definitely not what Eddie had in mind when he said he would keep an eye out for Steve Harrington. 
He’s ready to head home for the night, after selling from the back porch of cheerleader Stacy Hofferman’s big ass house. The party was to celebrate the coming school year or something equally asinine. But his pockets are fat with rich kid cash and bummed cigarettes he didn’t need, so theres a fucking spring in his step okay? Sue him.
Steve Harrington is splayed on the front lawn, like a starfish and is humming some, carnival song? Wasted. Maybe a little crossfaded, but he didn’t buy anything from Eddie this time so he hopes the near empty vodka bottle is the only thing coursing through those veins right now. He doesn’t need to add Steve Harrington to his conscience tonight. But Eddie is a curious guy, so he saunters over. 
Oh god. Oh no. Steve’s in shorts. Cut off jean shorts. Plus his hair still looks good, even all sprawled out on the grass. Fuck. Eddie hates him. He's still grappling with the memory of seeing Steve in that little sailor outfit at the mall. Now this! 
‘You gonna sing me a song Harrington?’ Eddie’s sneakers stop either side of Steve's head and he leans over a little. Watches as Steve's eyes try to focus, squint a little before recognition brings a smile to Steve's face, mischief to his eyes. Huh, okay that's new. Not bad, but definitely new.  
‘Daisy bell doesn’t have words Eddie’ Steve fucking giggles at him and okay, yep, yep. Wasted.
‘You got a ride home harrington? Might want to cut the party here, yeah?’ Eddie is a weak weak man and something about his first name coming out of Steve Harrington's mouth lights a little fire in his belly. Ugh. Disgusting. 
Steve's face falls a little and his eyes go unfocused again. ‘Nah, can’t be there right now man. M’ good here.’
‘Outside on the grass? You not gonna try getting lucky tonight king Steve?’ Something about Steve being out here alone doesn’t sit right with Eddie. Sure Steve isn’t as surrounded with starry eyed guys and gals after graduating, and maybe a little before then too. But surely he came here with someone who would be pulling him up and away at the end of the night, keeping some sort of an eye out for him. Not that that person would ever be Eddie, but still. It’s, you know, the principle of the thing.
Steve sucks in a breath that puffs his cheeks out, eyes going comically wide before letting the breath out, slow. ‘Nahhhhh dude, haven’t been lucky for a long time.’ and his eyes go unfocused, glassy in the streetlights. ‘Doesn’t feel the same now anyway, not fun like it used to be.’ Suddenly he looks much older, older than Eddie, older than any 19 year old should. Lost in thoughts that draw great shadows onto the planes of his face.   
His eyes snap back up to Eddie, the fog clearing a little. ‘Think the scoops ahoy uniform killed my chances off already anyway. Lots of good things to come out of the mall being destroyed, I don’t have to scoop ice cream in shorts for one.’  He laughs, a little hysterical, and Eddie kind of feels like he's intruding, like there's a lot more to what Steve is saying right now and Eddie is not privy to any of it. 
Eddie smiles though and shoves his hands in his pockets, pulling out his pack and a lighter, fiddling with them. Steve takes another long pull from the bottle, god that shit smells like paint remover. Eddie can almost see the hangover brewing under Steve's honey skin.
Steve’s looking at him again. Upside down, on some girls' front lawn. And then he sucker punches eddie, out of fucking nowhere. ‘Stay and stargaze with me? Whadayasay Munson?’ his smile is dopey and drunk, he's so drunk. Drunk Steve Harrington just asked him to stargaze. Eddie thinks maybe the rumours about Hawkins being cursed actually might be true. But it's Eddie who’s cursed. Cursed to be confused by pretty jocks who turn out nothing like he ever expected. 
‘Fraid not sailor, for I am Cinderella and the clock just struck midnight.’ Eddie amps up the theatrics, he's nervous. Steve Harrington can’t know how on the back foot he feels right now. Confusing, charming fucker. ‘I can also feel the old lady next door itching to call the pigs and I am not about to deal with their hairy eyeballs tonight. No sir, the summer air is too sweet for that.’ Eddie steps away from Steve, angling his back towards the street. He feels goosebumps rising, even in the heat. He wants to run.
‘You gonna be okay tho?’ Eddie can’t help it. Stupid. Steve Harrington turning his heart gooey for a second time. 
Steve sits up on his elbows and looks at Eddie, eyes suddenly frighteningly clear. ‘You’re a sweet guy Munson. Anyone ever tell you that?’ Eddie shakes his head. ‘My secret then. Eddie Muson, total sweetheart.’ he says it into the breeze and Eddie is set alight at the idea of being seen. Being more than the freak who has the goods so we tolerate him. 
‘Don’t go spreading my secrets now Harrington.’ Going for light but the tightness in his throat won’t let him, it comes out raspy. Eddis backs away to his van, parked at the end of the lawn. Steve just huffs a laugh and flops back down.
From the driver's seat Eddie takes his time lighting his cigarette and changing the tape. But his eyes are on Steve, as he gets up on shaky legs, swinging the nearly empty vodka bottle with him. He stumbles back into the huddle of bodies by the front door. Eddie lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. 
Steve Harrinton, full of surprises. Eddie drives home and half hopes to never see him again. Eddie doesn’t much care for surprises.  
Autumn 1986
Eddie shouldn’t be surprised, not now. Not by the Steve Harrington he went to hell with. Who dragged him back into the light. The boy with the nail bat who never seemed to stop swinging, not till Vecna was gone and the gates were locked up tight. Who’s hand still flexes like he misses the weight of the splintered wood, like he wants it back so he can protect the people he loves. Which by some divine intervention seems to include Eddie Munson of all people. 
Eddie shouldn’t be surprised, but he is. Steve Harrington is the single most confusing person Eddie has ever met. He’s obsessed with him. He’s on his way to falling for him. Head over fucking heels fucked for Steve straight boy Harrignton. Divine intervention indeed. 
Steve is waiting for him now, leaning on the hood of the beamer, picking him up after physical therapy, which is still kinda kicking his ass. What with the new colder temperatures making his bones ache and his dick nurse insisting that; no he couldn’t suck himself off before so he definitely won't be able to after, even with all the stretching he’s having to do. What fresh hell am I right? 
Steve is waiting for him, with his stupid long legs and his ugly jacket and the disgustingly fond smile he tortures eddie with because he’s already wrapped in his winter coat. Hood up against the wind because the last, last! Thing Eddie wants these days is to be cold and apparently that amuses Steve enough to look at Eddie like hes a fucking kitten or something. Horrid! 
‘Still a no?’ Eddie is scowling, he knows he is. He shakes his head and Steve's smile just grows a little wider. Fucker. 
‘Come on.’ Steve flicks his zipper and Eddie gnashes his teeth at him. He’s not even in that bad a mood. Steve looking after him sometimes just kind of makes him feel all fizzy, electric. 
It was worse before. Right after. When Steve was coming to visit him in hospital, almost more than Wayne, bringing Eddie things to read and generally being a ray of fucking sunshine compared to the staff and Eddie himself. He would sit with Eddie and Eddie wouldn’t want to talk because everything hurt. He would sit with Eddie and complain about the kids being annoying, bitch about his parents being the worst and bemoan the fact that he needed to find a new job ASAP and really didn’t want to get another shitty retail one. Wanted to find something he was really good at, maybe help people, look out for them the way he did Dustin and Robin, be something that was all him. 
And Eddie? He ate up every bitchy, snarky, earnest moment of it. Got to know Steve Harrington that was equally everything and nothing like who he had met before. But the real fucking cherry on top? Eddie talked too, just as much once he started healing. Talked to Steve with and about Wayne, his shitty Dad, how much he loves metal and Dungeons and Dragons, how all he thinks he’s ever really wants to do is tell stories that make people feel a little less alone. 
They talked and Eddie went and ruined it by letting his heart run away with itself. Fucking swan diving right off the ledge named ‘totally normal none gay feelings about Steve Harrington’ and into the pool of regret that is ‘I want to kiss him, I want to kiss him. Please God let me kiss him, it’s me again Eddie Munson.’ Pathetic. 
So sometimes, when Steve is being just lovely, picking Eddie up. Eddie’s blood boils in his veins and his scarred skin buzzes with the tension of not being able to hold Steve’s hand across the gear stick like he so desperately wants to. 
Eddie doesn't even have the energy to comment on Steve playing The Cure, making fun of him for letting Jonathan rub off on him too much lately (the four (+Argyle) of them hanging out regularly to smoke up). Instead, he internally makes fun of himself for feeling actually personally attacked by how relatable and familiar the whiny, lovesick lyrics sound. The sky opening up into a downpour just adding to the mood, pathetic fallacy up the wazoo today, apparently. 
But Steve is talking to him so of course Eddie listens, because it's Steve and Eddie is what? Pathetic. That's right. 
‘And then Dustin went on this whole spiel about how I should really be thanking him for everything he does. All the advice he gives me, that I did not, actually, fucking ask for. Can you believe the gaul of that kid Ed’s?’ and Eddie laughs at Steve because actually yes, yes he fucking can. 
‘Maybe we should go full revolt and tell Mrs. Henderson about it, really take him down a peg. She’s basically adopted you, she'd take your side for sure Stevie.’ Steve nods at the idea but he’s still scowling because getting wound up seems to be his go to reaction for most things, being vaguely annoyed is his default. Eddie is not happy to admit that this is something he also finds attractive about Steve Harrington. Did he mention he was pathetic? 
‘Well before that you talk some sense into him will you? He’s demanded I drive him over here tomorrow to hound you about something or other, don’t know what, he’s being all cagey and secretive about it. The little asshole.’ Steve is pulling into the dirt road driveway where Eddie and Wayne’s new little house sits. Just big enough next to the check and paid medical bills to make that NDA look actually very tempting to sign, yes, thank you, here was it?
Steve parks and the rain beats down on the roof, Eddie shifts to look at Steve's still grumpy face, grinning. ‘You coming in? We can brainstorm, get the little butt head to stop meddling and start respecting his elders. Or you know, we could get high.’ Steve's face morphs into that little smile again, the one he tries to hide, like he's fighting to stay grumpy. Eddie wants to bite him. 
Steve's face shifts again and what comes out of his mouth shifts Eddies very being into the fiery pits of despair. At least that’s what he would say if he was unhinged, which he is not. Not. One. Bit.    
‘Can’t man, I have a date.’ Steve waggles his eyebrows a little and Eddie feels his grin dim. The remaining smile stiffens. His face like wax. 
‘Oh. Well. I won't keep you then. Go get 'em tiger and all that jazz.’ Eddie knows it comes out weird, like he’s annoyed and upset. Which he is. But he knows he absolutely shouldn’t be. He just can't help it. Fuck!
Steve is looking at him, he looks all worried and confused. Of course he's confused, no reason for Eddie to act the way he is. Act like a freak. Eddie needs to get out of here. Save them both from the weird ass vibes his treacherous heart has caused.  
Eddie twists for the door. ‘Hold on Eddie, wait with me till the rain stops yeah? I’ll keep the heater running.’ Steve reaches out, hand on his shoulder. Eddie looks at his hand gripping the door handle and wishes. Wishes he could turn around and make a joke, say thank fuck because he doesn’t want to look like a wet rat from the rain, ask steve about the girl, maybe make fun of him if it seems like the really likes her. Anything. Wishes he could just be normal. Normal about Steve Harrington.
But he can’t. Steve has a date and Eddie’s heart hurts. 
‘I gotta go Stevie, enjoy your date.’ and Eddie steps out into the rain, jogging over to the front door, already sodden. He unlocks it and steps inside, doesn’t look back once. Leaning against the closed door he slides down into a crouch. He’s in love with him. Fuck.
Winter 1986 
‘Stevie? What the fuck?’ 
Eddie was expecting a night alone. It was the day before Christmas eve and Wayne had gone out with some work buddies. Steve was having some fancy dinner with his parents, Robin’s with her Grandma and the party had plans to all meet and celebrate here tomorrow. So, Eddie was going to sit and stare at a wall. Said wall was going to magically help him work up the courage to maybe kiss Steve’s cheek under the mistletoe that Robin had threatened him with. She knew all about his hopeless, disgusting crush on Steve and seemed to be reaching the end of her patience for Eddie’s chicken shit confession skills. 
The plan so far consisted of some amalgamation of making a big joke about it, throwing up before and after or maybe just staring at Steve until he gains the ability to read Eddie’s mind. In other words, the wall was giving him nothing apart from the urge to bang his head against it. 
The worst part of it all though? The devastating, world shattering part? Is that Eddie’s grubby little brain was starting to think that he might actually have a chance. Because Steve has been.. a little different lately. And while Robin has confirmed that he has not made any of these memories up in some kind of horny Steve Harrington fueled haze, she has also not explicitly told him whether Steve would actually be interested in dating a guy. So Eddie continues to torture himself with memories. 
Memories like when Steve got the new Wham! Record and started asking if he should try growing out his facial hair because ‘it looks really good right Ed’s? With the earring too? Think I could pull it off?’ and then blushing when Eddie said ‘He is a good looking dude… you do kinda look like George Michael, so, I guess?’ because Eddie is trying okay? Feeling the waters that are coming out to Steve. Him blushing seems like a good sign. Right? (Robin had rolled her eyes very hard at this story and Eddie had not appreciated the attitude.) 
Or at movie night last week Steve purposefully squished in next to Eddie, making Jonathan move further down. Before like, stretching and putting his arm along the sofa behind Eddie. But halfway through his arm was more, around Eddie's shoulders? And Steve was maybe, maybe twirling a strand of Eddie's hair through his fingers… 
There was also maybe the fact that Steve had started staying the night a lot more lately. He did a whole lot before too, but now it feels a little… different. He’s not just there because he’s a biblically accurate angel who helps Eddie change his bandages when Wayne has to work. Or because Eddie smoked him out too hard and he couldn’t drive home. Or even because he has to pick Robin up in the morning and her house is closer to Eddie’s now. No, now it almost feels like Steve stays the night in Eddie’s bed, with Eddie, because he wants to. 
God, Eddie wants to barf on himself for even thinking that! But Steve just, doesn’t go home. Instead he shuffles in beside Eddie, in borrowed sweats and having used the toothbrush that’s Steve’s in the bathroom. Snuggles down into Eddie’s pillows and slings a leg over both of Eddies. He’ll look all sleepy and soft and mumble out ‘night Ed’s’, like it doesn’t make Eddie want to clamber on his roof and howl at the moon. 
Eddie is busy replaying these moments in his mind like the most depressing, angsty, pining VHS tape. So, hearing the walkie Dustin had given him crackle from under his bed, well, it makes Eddie near jump out of his own skin. 
‘Shit. Shit. Hello? Um, hello? Over.’ Eddie’s hands are shaking as he fumbles with the walkie. He’s barely used it since everything ended, much preferring the telephone like, you know, most people! 
‘Hi, um, hey Eddie..’ Steve’s crackly voice could be heard through the little speaker. Eddie stands up, taking a calm down lap of his room, his heart still beating fast. ‘Stevie? What the fuck?’ 
‘Sorry, sorry, this is dumb, sorry. Sorry I’ll, I’ll just go.’ Eddie peeks through his bedroom curtain. Steve, illuminated by the dash light in the front seat of his car, is on the front drive and Eddie can see the walkie gripped tight in both hands. Steve rocking slightly. 
‘Oh Stevie.. Come in sweetheart, why are you still outside?’ Eddie’s voice is putty soft because something is wrong. All his fears have been switched for concern as he descends the stairs to the front door. Ripping it open to find Steve with his hand raised ready to knock.
‘Hi’ Steve’s smile is sheepish but Eddie can see his eyes are rimmed red like he’s had the shittiest fucking night. And now he’s embarrassed? Fuck that!  
‘Come in, come in come in. Sit down Stevie I’ll get you some tea.’ Eddie putters around the kitchen, making tea as efficiently as possible to not keep Steve waiting, but also wanting to give him time to settle. 
He was expecting Steve to be sitting on the couch, but Eddie finds him by the big bay window that looks out over the small backyard and further fields. It’s a nice view and the space is already set up with some blankets and cushions: Eddie likes to read here. Fat snowflakes have begun to fall outside. Steve has a blanket draped over his shoulders, he’s facing the window but his eyes seem to focus on something a million miles away.  
‘Here. Take this doll, it’ll keep you warm.’ Eddie hands over the steaming mug and Steve cradles it in his hands, giving Eddie a ghost of a smile. 
‘Penny for your thoughts?’ bumping shoulders with Steve he waits. Looking at Steve's profile in the soft lamplight. There are ghosts in his eyes and a tension in his shoulders that breaks Eddie’s heart. His brave friend Steve.    
‘I just.. Do you ever feel like you weren't made for the real world? Ugh this.. I dunno what I'm saying.’ Steve runs a hand over his face and looks embarrassed. Eddie wishes he could just get it, understand without words so he could help, but life doesn’t work like that. He waits, taking Steve’s hand in both of his. The corners of Steve’s mouth twitch and he looks at their joined fingers. Eddie watches as he takes a deep breath. Eddie thinks he’s beautiful. 
‘Its, it's just. When we were there, in that. When all that happened to me. Obviously it was horrible. Terrible. But, for a little moment? I liked it. I liked having a role, a job to do. I knew the stakes and I knew that the only, only important thing was keeping everyone alive. There was nothing more important than that.’ Steve is looking out of the window again. His eyes are fiery and raw. Eddie so often forgets how much Steve has seen, has been through. 
‘All my life I've been told what’s important and what to care about. Which ended up being a lot of not caring or only caring about really really unimportant stuff. And I just can't do that again. I can't be what my parents want. My fucking, my Dad man, it’s never enough, watever I do. He made that fucking clear tonight.’ He grimaces and Eddie hopes he never meets Harrington senior because he’s getting decked and Eddie thinks he’s finally on Hopper’s good side so maybe that’s not the best idea. Although, he thinks he can make a pretty good case for himself.  
‘I don’t think I can be what anyone wants. Guess I just dunno who I really am. Never have never will… But for a second in that hell, I was somebody. Maybe somebody. And now it's out here again and everyone has all these dreams. And I'm so so happy for them because you all can do anything. Every one of those kids has such a bright future. But I dunno how to do it, Ed’s. I hate it. I dunno how to live as just Steve anymore.’ Steve’s eyes have filled with tears and the hand Eddie’s holding trembles slightly. Eddie lays a soft kiss on his palm. 
‘Steve Harrington you are so good.’ Eddie steels himself to look directly in Steve's eyes, making sure he understands. ‘You are free. You are free and that means you can do anything you want. Anything. Doesn’t matter how long you take to figure yourself out, or work out what it is you need. There are no rules okay? None, and anyone who tells you differently is lying. Especially if it’s your cunt dad, okay?’ Steve's pretty pink lips part and his cheeks are rosy, he really looks like he's going to cry. He also looks like that brave boy who swung a bat at the devil. He’s miraculous. 
‘The ‘real world’ doesn’t exist and most of the expectations people have are bullshit. I should know, I don’t think I’ve ever done one thing that was expected of me in my whole life, honey. Guess you’re just a freak like me.’ Eddie grins with all his teeth. Steve's mouth opens and closes a couple times, eyes wide. Before he’s looking down at his lap and smiling, a few tears spilling out and dropping onto his jeans. ‘Your role is to be you Steve. Nothing more, nothing less. People love you for you, not for what you did, even though it was fucking incredible. They’re alive because of you but they love you for being you.’ Eddie takes a deep breath and swallows the ‘I love you’ on his tongue, not tonight.. But soon, he’ll do it soon. Pinky promise. 
Steve has let more tears fall and he’s looking at Eddie like he's special. ‘Okay?’ Eddie squeezes their hands and Steve nods. ‘Yeah, yeah I’m. It’ll be. I’ll be okay.’ But Steve’s face crumples up again with a small choked sob. He sets down the mug heavily on the floor and covers his eyes with his forearm, folding in on himself. Succumbing to it all for  a moment. Letting himself cry.
‘Oh Steve. Tell me what you need, baby.’ Eddie holds their joined hands tighter and tries to suck up all of Steve's sadness through the skin of his palm. Steve sniffs all snotty and rubs at his eyes with his sleeve. Before, finally, looking at Eddie with his pretty brown eyes and his dumb hair and his moles. Eddie’s heart feels loud but Steve's tear stained face looks more calm than he’s seen for a long time. His brave, beautiful, miraculous friend Steve. 
“Let's just stay here, watch the snow a little longer." Steve says it softly, the moment feels like glass. The two of them in a snowglobe, safe on a shelf. Together. 
‘Of course Stevie. As long as you want. I’ll stay.’ Eddie means it, in his bones, he wants nothing more than to stay in this moment a little longer. Steve asks Eddie to stay and Eddie knows now that he never, ever wants to leave again. 
— 
Morning light filters through the blinds and Eddie shifts, consciousness swimming in that slow way only deep deep sleep can bring. He feels breath on his neck, the weight of an arm over his chest, a hand on his heart, socked feet tangled amongst his bare ones. 
He had taken Steve’s hand last night, after they’d watched the snow leave a blanket over the view from the window. After Steve's tears had dried and his eyelids had begun to droop. He’d lead Steve upstairs and they laid down together, wrapped in eachothers arms. Steve had fallen asleep first and Eddie let himself have a secret selfish moment where he stared down at the boy in his arms. Thought about how much had changed, but how, actually, the Steve in his bed had always been the Steve he knew, he just wasn't ready to see it yet. 
Eddie is looking at him now, there's sleep crusted in his eyes and drool on the pillow and Steve's hair is sticking up in an alarming number of angles. He’s so ugly and soft in the mornings. It makes Eddie feel good. Happy. 
They laze in bed, waking up slow and taking their time before starting the day. Eddie is on his back staring at the ceiling and Steve is leaning up on one elbow so he’s looking down at Eddie. He's staring. Eddie is trying to be very cool and calm about it. Very cool. Very calm. That's right!
‘Oh shoot.’ Steve snaps his fingers ‘I um, forgot your present at home, kinda left in a rush. Sorry.’ He looks genuinely sorry. Eddie doesn’t really care, because just having Steve here is gift enough. Yup, that's how Eddie Munson feels. It’s gross, he knows. 
‘Guess I’ll have to end it all then’ Eddie says with a casual shrug. Steve snorts and shoves him like he doesn’t find Eddie's dramatic’s hilarious. 
‘I do have something I can give you now though. A gift of sorts.’ Steve taps a finger to his chin and looks so mischievous. The light from outside hits the back of his hair so it glows, like a halo. Eddie wants to kiss him so bad. Kiss the angel boy in his bed. Shit.
‘It better not be a wet willy. Toby Hamelton gave me one once in the fifth grade and I literally punched him in the face on reflex Steve it was so fucking gross.’ Eddie knows he’s rambling but it’s the only way he won’t kiss Steve right now. Right on his pretty pretty pretty face. 
Steve smiles at him so softly, so sweetly, like Eddie isn’t being super weird right now. Smiles at Eddie and leans in, ghosts his mouth so so close over Eddie’s, looks into his eyes. Eddie’s breath hitches and he can’t move but he swears he feels his pupils dilate. 
Steve must see it too, because he closes the gap. Eddie’s eyes slide shut and his hands and feet tingle, there are fireworks going off in his ears and his lips fizz and he’s overwhelmed in the best possible way. 
He’s kissing Steve Harrington. Eddie Munson is kissing Steve Harrington. Steve Harrington is kissing Eddie Munson. 
Eddie pulls out of the kiss with a tiny gasp ‘You didn’t suddenly gain the ability to read my mind did you?’ Steve looks so perplexed, eyebrows furrowed and lips in a little ‘o’, staring at Eddie’s mouth. He gives a small shake of his head. ‘Okay good, good yeah. Good.’ 
Eddie goes back in, lifting a hand to Steve’s jaw, holding him softly while he sucks on his bottom lip. Steve is good at kissing, Eddie thinks he could write a whole album about this kiss alone. Maybe he will. He feels like he can do anything! Maybe he’ll kill God later, after breakfast. Why not? Ha! 
They break apart for breath and Steve's pupils are blown wide, Eddie wants to drown in them. He feels giddy, maybe a little hysterical. ‘You know, before you came over yesterday I was working up the courage to kiss your cheek under the mistletoe.. Which seems super lame and embarrassing now that I think about it. Forget I said anything actually. Yeah, uhm so... Anyway, thank you. For. For the gift.’ Steve is loosing romance points for every stupid word he lets Eddies say. 
‘That is pretty lame dude’ Steve smiles sweetly and Eddie knows it's lame and Steve is probably joking but he doesn't need to to be told that right now. Nasty boy… Also.
‘Dude? You sully this rapturous moment, nay my very existence! By calling me dude?’ Is that normal? Do people do that after they kiss? Surely Steve doesn't call girls he kisses dude. Oh no, Eddie’s spiralling. This is a spiral.
‘Eddie’ Steve tries but Eddie’s brain is filled with static. Eyes boring holes in the ceiling, hands flailing. 
‘Steve Harrington kisses Eddie Munson and calls him dude, well I never!’ The gaul! The gumption! The audacity! 
‘Eddie!’ Steve places his hand on Eddie’s cheek, turning it so they're looking into eachothers eyes. 
‘Yes?’ Steve is so pretty and his palm is so warm.
‘I really really like you Ed’s’ and Steve must be able to read Eddie's mind because those words are like a balm on his soul. He feels his cheeks dust pink, all the fears and embarrassment float. Steve likes him back.
Leaning back onto his elbow Steve looks back down at Eddie on his back. The same as before but so so different. ‘Happy Christmas Eddie’ Steve's smile is dopey and perfect and this is the best Christmas ever.
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I WAS LOOKING FOR A JEREMY BPD/ANGER ISSUES POST I THOUGJT I HAD SEEN THIS MORNING PLEASE WRITE YOUR HEADCANNONS AGAIN I BEG OF YOU GIVE JEREMY KNOX THE LOVE HE DESERVES
Okay so this is long overdue, but might as well. I guess this is an observation of fandom Jeremy as much as the canon one, so don't come at me.
I dunno read Jeremy as having BPD bcs... bcs honestly have you ever met anyone who has Sunshine shining from their ass? Me neither. Though I have met ppl with severe personality issues who had a coping mechanism like that, of course they weren't young and talented sportsmen looked up to by many ppl and rooted for by many, so they had enough free space and privacy to go absolutely fucked up at other ppl when they were having bad brain hours.
Yes im including myself here.
The name of the game is If I Give Them No Reason to Leave Me They Won't.
Or If I Give Them No Things To Hate Me For They Won't Hurt me.
But spice it up with black and white thinking, paranoia and unhelathy behaviours jumping off the standard spectrum of bottling things out into like, going on a 4 hour run to cool off bcs you are undeserving bcs you are a bad captain bcs you're annoyed at the freshmen bcs they dont care about your shared goals enough and is thay really a them issue? Or is it actually a You issue? Are you blaming others for your own failures again? Look at yourself, you're fucking pathetic, and egoistic at that, you demand things from others but how do you show you care for what others need huh? You think you're a good captain? Keep telling yourself that, before you know it they will all turn against you. Because you're a failure, bcs you cant even make them care? Maybe you're just not a good enough player , or maybe they can see straight through you, see what you are udnerneath the happy exterior. Yo have just not good enough, not trying hard enough, and you want them to look up to.. to That???
Or maybe it is a them issue bcs fuck that, fuck the smiling, fuck the caring, you don't actually care, if they don't care, why would you? 🤔 you don't owe anyone anything you are so done with everyone and everything cant they LEAVE YOU THE FUCK ALONE, HAVENT YOU DONE ENOUGH TO HAVE AT LEAST ONE SMALL THING GO RIGHT ONCE? YOU ARE SO FUCKKNG ANGRY so you have to do something you feel like smashing something, you could, your body is literally a machine, you could show them what you actually think about their Opinions, how pathetic and annoying they are and actually fuck that you have to leave you cant stand being in the same room as them for one second longer.
But the sunshine Jeremy 🌞 exterior slips on so even though you want to crash the doors closed you smile and wave and say something stupid and cheery you even have a fucking spring in your step.
Bcs you're a fucking liar a fucking impostor you can't help it at this point you are a clay figurine that's hollowed out inside.
You are so tired it's like there's a lump of cloth absolutely soaked weighting on your lungs
You actually feel like crying while you wave at alvarez from the stretch of the corridor, making goddamn plans to meet up for group studying maths later in the evening while your lungs constrict holding down a sob.
You hate them all for the next 3 hours.
And then on hour four while you're circling the campus heading back from your walk/jog/run/staring into the distance/jog again you tap into the very comfortable very familiar hating of yourself.
This is a light version of course but I bet Jeremy is that person that dissapears sometimes like at parties ect bcs they are doing some absolutely stupid shit like having sex with a complete stranger or getting drunk but they know enough about the emptiness and self hatred they will feel ten minutes after they succumb to thay behaviour that they learned to do it when the judgment of the ppl who know them won't touch this piece of him. Bcs it feels like a separate piece.
Like he is parcelled into different breeds of fucked up inside and they are all set on a loop in a music playing machine from a highway diner. One song ends another starts you can choose which one if you throw in a dime.
And also we gotta add in the sensory issues, he sees things, he hears them, sometimes he does a dodge while there's nothing coming bcs he thought it was. Some weeks it feels almost he lives from one training to the next bcs he doesn't remember a minute from what's in between. Good thing he taught himself this sunny persona bcs its an autopilot mode that gets him having to answer the least amount of questions when he doesn't fucking remember what happened from 8 am till late afternoon that day.
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floralfractals · 12 days
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I don't know anything about measure theory, re: f(x)=x on [0,1], what's the deal with integration?
ohh well i guess i did kinda say that without explaining huh. let me elaborate
measure theory is all about sizes of sets, in a generalisation-of-probability-way. the probability of event A is 0.5, the probability of event B is 0.8, the total probability (of any outcome happening at all) is 1. or the measure of set C is 2, the measure of set D is 0.002, the total measure (of the ambient space) is infinity. whatever.
but what is integration if not calculating the space under a curve? is that not dependent of the measures of the sets underneath them?
lets first talk about "regular" (Riemann) integration. basically, suppose you have a function f: R -> R. it has some kind of fun graph, and youd like to find the surface between the graph and the x-axis. one way to do that is by approximation through rectangles. yknow, draw some rectangles of fixed width, put their heights either just under or just above the graph of f, add up their surface areas and bam! you have a numerical method of approximating the integral. or you could make the rectangle width smaller and smaller for exact results. thats integration. heres a visual.
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ok cool so problem solved right? we know the area under the graph? surely this holds for every function?
well, no. suppose we have a really fucked up function. for example, let f(x) be equal to 1 if x is rational, and 0 otherwise. the above method wont be able to determine if the area is 0 or infinity, or something in between!
thats where measure theory comes in. we give sets a measure (notation: m(A)). this measure is not negative, and if you take the measure of two sets that dont overlap with each other, then their measure is the sum of their separate measures (in notation: m(A ∪ B) = m(A) + m(B) if A and B are disjoint. this is called sigma-additivity (the sigma means that it works for countable infinitly many sets as well)). easy! now we can define something called the indicator function 1_A(x), which is 1 if x is in A and 0 otherwise, and we define its (Lebesgue) integral to be ∫ 1_A dm = m(A). usual linearity applies for finite sums (so if a and b are numbers, and f and g are functions, then ∫ af + bg dm = a ∫ f dm + b ∫ g dm) (wacky things happen when sums are infinite: they might become infinitely large, or infinitely negative, or not converge at all).
this solves the issue of our crazy function f we just defined: notice that f(x) = 1_Q(x), where Q is the set of rational numbers. thus, ∫ f dm = m(Q), which (in one of the most natural measures, called the lebesgue measure*) is zero. done!
now for your question. the function f(x) = x on [0,1] (for our purposes: f(x) = x if x is in [0,1], and zero otherwise) cant be written as a finite sum of indicator functions. that means that our newly defined Lebesgue integral wont do without a bit of work. as it turns out, we can take limits in the Lebesgue integral, as long as our sequences increase (in math notation: if (f_n)_n is an increasing sequence with limit f, then lim_{n -> ∞} ∫ f_n dm = ∫ f dm). thus, we need to find such a sequence.
it's probably best if all functions in our sequence are finite sums of indicator functions, since we know how to integrate them. one such sequence with limit f is given by f_n = Σ_{k=0}^{n-1} k/n 1_{[k/n, (k+1)/n]}. that looks kinda scary, but if we let n go to infinity, this turns out to be equal to f almost everywhere (some points are counted twice since the intervals [k/n, (k+1)/n] and [(k+1)/n, (k+2)/n] have some overlap, namely {(k+1)/n}, but we dont need to worry about that since m({(k+1)/n}) = 0). heres another visual.
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as you can see, though, when we go from f_2 to f_3 we have some parts that increase and some that decrease. that sucks because now our limit trick wont work! to solve this, notice we dont have that issue when we go from f_2 to f_4, or from f_4 to f_8. thus, the sequence (f_{2^n})_n would work, since its limit is also f!
now we can do a big calculation. please bear with me (its just this paragraph i swear)! we have ∫ f dm = lim_{n -> ∞} ∫ f_{2^n} dm, so lets solve ∫ f_n dm for any n first. we have ∫ f_n dm = Σ_{k=0}^{n-1} k/n m([k/n, (k+1)/n]) = Σ_{k=0}^{n-1} k/n^2 = (n-1)(n-2)/2n^2. we can work with that, so were ready to take the limit: lim_{n -> ∞} ∫ f_{2^n} dm = lim_{n -> ∞} (2^n-1)(2^n-2)/2(2^n)^2. that looks scary, but luckily its equal to the slightly less scary lim_{n -> ∞} (n-1)(n-2)/2n^2, and thats just 1/2.
therefore, ∫ f dm = 1/2. which is also the value of the riemann integral ∫ f(x) dx, by the way.
you see that we needed a lot of calculations, so its probably not surprising that i needed an entire whiteboard to do this.
maybe this would make you think that lebesgue integration is inferior to riemann integration. however, as it turns out, most applications of this rely on proving that a lebesgue integral ∫ f dm is equal to some riemann integral ∫ g(x) dx, and we can just solve that with our calculus skills.
also, since the integral relies on a measure, we can do some silly shenanigans with that. for example, the ergodic probability measure related to my sickly son (lets call it n to avoid confusion with our earlier measure m) has n([0,1]) = 1/2, and n([1,2]) = 1/4 (in general, n([k-1, k]) = 1/2^k). i used this in my thesis to integrate the function floor(x): turns out that ∫ floor dm is infinite, but ∫ floor dn = 4 :)
hope you enjoyed doing some measure theory with me :>
*: the lebesgue measure is probably one of the more intuitive measures. an interval [a, b] has lebesgue measure b - a, so m([0,1]) = 1. this also means that a single point has measure m({x}) = x - x = 0, and a countable union of singletons (like Q) therefore also has measure m(Q) = 0. however simple this measure is, it also gives rise to some wacky crazy properties! for example, there exist sets that cant have a measure, but you can only construct them using the axiom of choice. scary!
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fatuismooches · 7 months
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SLIDES SHADES ON, KICKS DOOR DOWN AND FALL ONTO YOUR FLOOR, GUESS WHOS BACKKK!;!!;
🌕💗!!!!
BUT AHHHHHFHDH LATIN DOTTORE STILL MAKJNG ME LOSE MY SHIT
and so many of the other posts that i was binginf just now too oh em GEEEEEEE, specifically fragile/coma reader comjng back to sumeru and all that AHHFHEHHHH
ANF ALSO I CANT BELIEVE U REMEMBERED ABT MT EXAMS AND STUFF 😭💗 i got my results recently!! A* EEEKFK back on the grind tho unfortunately
also rlly rlly thinking bout dottore randomly giving fragile reader academic/research-y things to do cus he knows they crave and miss the days where they could get on wit their stuff YKKK??
also omg sometimes i’m scared to like send any kind of brainrot in cus what if someone else has said a similar thing AND AHHDHH
but yea also thinkjng bout tutor zandik + akademiya reader MNNNFFNF
ALSO ZANDIK X POET READER i feel like zandik from like the akademiya days wojld be all poetry’s stupid 🫤 but like one day findinf readers lil poetry notebook whilst tryna find his own research in their dorm and flipping through and finding it littered with references to cerulean blue locks and vermillion irises..and maybe just maybe, poetry isn’t so bad after all
smooches i’ve missed bombarding ur inbox
SMOOCHESSSS :( <33333
🌕 ANONNNN AHHH IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!! I'm so glad you've been doing well, congrats on your exams!! I'm glad your hard work paid off, such a scholar 😍 But you better not overwork yourself that hard again! ALSO. DON'T BE AFRAID TO SEND ANYTHING IN!! I LOVE!! hearing what you have to say okay?? Ily 🌕 anon!! PLEASE BOMBARD MY INBOX. I LOVE IT.
HAHAHA it seems like a ton of Dottore brainrot has been infiltrating your brain huh 😅 Dottie speaking Latin really revolutionized ours brains hngg bUT WAIT I LOVE YOUR IDEA. THAT'S SO CUTE. Oh my gosh newdndow how do I phrase this. He knows you still have a love of knowledge and other things you used to be so into :( But nowadays it's died down since you don't think you're cut out for that stuff anymore, even though you miss it. Dottore being the one who respects and acknowledges your intelligence the most would not let you think that way! He'll let you indulge in as much knowledge as you want to. It's far better here anyway, with no restrictions. He'll even let you sit on his lap while you flip through his notes and try to analyze them. Okay and bear with me, this sounds strange but he would make up fake scenarios/brain teasers for you, and these would be PAGES long and you'd have to figure out the answer and report back to him 😭
Also made me think of this angsty af scenario of the day you officially got kicked out from the Akademiya... The sages and profs were so unsympathetic with your condition despite multiple proofs and notes of it being real... no matter how much you begged and sobbed, they refused to accommodate you and revoked your position in the school. Yes, it could be absolutely freaking brutal in there with the workload of assignments and all, on top of your illness too, but you still had dreams. Dreams that you were working so, so hard to pursue... you were trying your best, why couldn't they work with you? You go back to your room to try and pack since they want you out but your stuff just ends up strewn on the floor while you cry. When Zandik comes back you don't even bother hiding your tears or the reason behind them. You can see he's absolutely furious and about to let pure foulness leave his mouth but you interrupt him with a few simple words - "Zandik, just hold me, please." You don't want to hear any words at this moment, because you know nothing will be alright, but at least his touch grounds whatever is left of you to this world.
Okay moving on... Nah I need tutor Zandik. If he saw my dumb ahh while doing math... gone 😭 HEHE I love this trope... i can imagine initially being very serious about trying to learn. But then their tutor is this cutie? Welp, all of that going down the drain. Though, I think it would be pretty sweet if reader ends up learning anyway. Because the professor's way of teaching is so outdated or simply doesn't work for you but somehow when Zandik explains it you're like ?? oh! That's so much simpler! Another possibility - reader purposely flunking so they can get assigned to Zandik for tutoring 🤭 Bro would be flabbergasted that you're wasting both his and your time... because you thought he was... c-cute? Disgusting.
YEAAAA I ADORE DOT AND POET READER I THINK IT'S SOOO ROMANTIC 😭❤️ lmao yea that man would think poetry/non-academic writing is sooo boring like why would you even waste your time on that 😒 You gave up LONG ago trying to convince him why you love it so much but all of a sudden he becomes a teensy more receptive to it... i wonder why? Totally not because he freaking read every single one of your poems, from the serious to silly ones, most definitely not because he found one named after him with a bunch of sweet references... he doesn't care but they were not that bad... he guesses.
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im back on my ‘contributing to the wednesday/wyler fandom as a whole’ here are some incorrect quotes for y'all :)
Enid: I am SPEECHLESS!! 
Wednesday: *narrating*: despite being speechless she managed to lecture me for the next ten minutes 
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Wednesday: If you had to separate your bees from 49 other identical bees that were all equally excited to see you, how would you determine which bee was yours?
Eugene: I would take my 50 bees home and live like a king
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Xavier: who would win a fight, Enid or Tyler?
Wednesday: I cant answer that - Tyler is my boyfriend.
Xavier:  so Enid?
Wednesday: definitely 
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Yoko: I hate going into the kitchen only to realise im the only snack in the house.
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Tyler: *drops keys*
Tyler: you’ve got to be key-ding me
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Enid: MURDER IS NEVER THE ANSWER!!
Tyler: Of course not! Murder is the question 
Wednesday: And the answer is always.
Bianca: All of you are wrong. The answer was 12. This is why you all failed.
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Wednesday: I would be the worst PR manager ever. My client would be like ‘there are rumours going around that I’m gay and a satanist’ and I would just be like ‘haha awesome!’ 
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Eugene: drug dealer? No, hug dealer! Come here 
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Ajax: anyone would be lucky to date me, I was called ‘a pleasure to have in class’ when I was in primary school 
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Wednesday: in my defence I was left unsupervised 
Enid: weren’t you with Thing?? 
Thing: In my defence I was also left unsupervised 
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Wednesday: idiotsaywhat
Enid: pardon?
Tyler: sorry?
Bianca: excuse me?
Xavier: what?!?!?
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Enid: Yoko! Did u know that there is a rumour that you are gay!
Yoko: rumour!?!?! a RUMOUR!?!? U mean people are doubting it!?
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Enid: can you turn the lights on?
Ajax: I don’t need to, you’re the only light I need in my life.
Enid: Ajax please I cant see.
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Eugene: I’m a genius, I finished this lego set in 3 days!
Wednesday: so?
Eugene: The box says from 4-7 years
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Wednesday: we’re so in sync, it’s like we finish each others-
Enid: homework
Wednesday: huh?
Enid, sliding her maths work over in tears: please
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Enid: you were so drunk at the party last night
Tyler: no I wasn’t
Enid: actually you were
Enid: you called a taxi to take you home
Tyler: so? Thats responsible, I didn’t want to put anyone in danger by drinking and driving
Enid: the party was at your house, Tyler...
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Enid: if a plant is sad, do other plants photo-sympathise with it?
Yoko: I chlorofeel you man
Bianca, tired as hell at 3am: are you guys fucking serious?
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Enid: I have a boyfriend now
Wednesday trying to be encouraging: a boyfriend?
Enid: *reflexively does a panicked peace sign*
Wednesday: TWO boyfriends!?!?
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Bianca: do you have any chicken or pork?
Waitress: no, but we have beef
Bianca: oh, WE have beef, huh? You really wanna fight? Alright, let’s do this. Kent, hold my breadsticks.
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Enid: I changed all of my passwords to ‘incorrect’ so whenever I forget it, it will tell me, ‘your password is incorrect.’
Yoko: genius
Wednesday, already hacking into all her info: dumbass
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Tyler: I just hid Wednesdays typewriter so she would hang out with us… how long do you think I have left to live?
Enid: 10
Tyler: 10 what?
Enid: 9
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Enid at 3am at a sleepover: how do tall people sleep? Wouldn’t their feet go right past the blanket?
Tyler: Enid it’s 3 in the morning
Enid: you can’t sleep?
Tyler: …
Enid: is it the blanket?
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Tyler: Awe look at you Wednesday, getting romantic with all these candles
Wednesday: first of all, I’m summoning a demon
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Enid: *stabbing air between Wednesday and Bianca with a butter knife*
Wednesday: what are you doing?
Enid: trying to cut the angry tension between you two
Enid: it isn’t working
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Tyler: I haven’t been this happy since-
Tyler: 
Tyler: oh, wow. I’ve never been this happy!
Tyler: huh!
Tyler: that’s bad!
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Tyler: I really wish you would just own up to it when you make a mistake
Wednesday, calmly stirring her coffee: I prEFER it with salt
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Xavier: *hugs Wednesday*
Wednesday: what are you doing?
Xavier: appreciating the little things in life
Wednesday: bitch
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*playing scrabble*
Enid: I will put down my ‘A’ to spell ‘A’
Tyler: I will put down my ’T’ to make ‘AT’
Wednesday: and I will add onto your ‘AT’ to make ‘BIOSTRATIGRAPHIC’
Enid: *flips board*
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Wednesday: What if I pour coffee into my cereal instead of milk?
Tyler, taking the coffee pot as he walks by: what if you don’t.
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Yoko: Wednesday, someone dropped your manuscript
Wednesday: are you joking? That manuscript is my best friend and I will straight up ASSASSINATE-
Yoko: it was Enid
Wednesday: of course she did never mind then. 
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Enid: truth or dare?
Wednesday: truth
Enid: how many hours have you slept this week?
Wednesday: uhh, dare
Enid: I dare you to go to sleep
Wednesday: I don’t like this game
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Tyler: Wednesday Addams could slap me in the face and I’d say thank you
Xavier: i’d say thank you too
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Bianca: theres a monster underneath my bed and its really ugly
Kent, on the bottom bunk: honestly, fuck you
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Enid: a Z is just a sideways N
Wednesday, trying to concentrate: can you shut up?
Enid: zo
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Enid: what are you guys doing?
Kent, Yoko and Ajax: *taking a quiz to see what kind of dog breed they are*
Yoko: important stuff
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[after the gates mansion gets cleared]
Wednesday: Nothing good will ever happen to me again!
[twelve seconds later]
Wednesday: so far my theory has been confirmed.
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Wednesday: Tyler annoyed me today so I told him that I can’t wait to see what he has planned for my birthday tomorrow.
Enid: but it isn’t your birthday tomorrow.
Wednesday: But there is something special about watching the colour leave his face as the panic takes over
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Enid: you were supposed to do something about the rat in your locket
Ajax: I did
Ajax: I named him fluffy. He likes coco pops.
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Wednesday: my boyfriend is too tall for me to kiss. What should I do?
Bianca: Punch him in the stomach so he doubles over then kiss him.
Enid: tackle him
Yoko: kick him in the shins
Tyler: just ask me to lean down?!?!?
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Tyler: why would you give a knife to a child?
Wednesday: Enid felt unsafe
Tyler: now I feel unsafe
Wednesday: I’m sorry...
Wednesday: Would u like a knife?
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Ajax: you’re up early
Literally everyone: ......
Ajax: you never went to sleep did u?
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Tyler: my criminal record? The only illegal thing I’ve done is absolutely killing it on the dance floor
Tyler: hahaha just kidding, I’ve killed a man
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Enid: why are you smiling?
Wednesday: what? Can’t I just be happy?
Bianca: Xavier tripped down the stairs
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Enid and Tyler: You will have a hard time believing this because it never happens but it was a mistake we swear—
Wednesday: A MISTAKE?!? *gestures to the table that is on fire*
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Bianca: Have you ever been scolded by Enid?
Wednesday: Im not scared of her
Bianca: So thats a no
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Wednesday *doing something risky* : I am going to do this and not you or god himself can stop me 
Tyler: *Starts typing on his phone*
Wednesday:
Wednesday: ..Tyler 
Tyler:
Wednesday:
Wednesday: *panicking* Tyler what are you doing?!? What have you done?!?!
Tyler: 
Enid: *bursting through the door* wedNESDAY ADDAMS DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL--
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this ended up being way to long congrats to anyone that made it in the end
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iheartred · 2 years
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I LOVE YOUR TBP STORIES/HEADCANONS THEY R TOP TIER PLS MAKE MORE 🙇🏽‍♀️
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m.list
a/n : AAA IM SO GLAD ♡♡♡ here's some more headcanons for u specifically 🫶
cw : fluff / crack
Finney is so bad at roasting or insulting in general, if he did it would be like really bad comebacks
Bully : Hey! You're a freak and a loser!
Finney : well your- your- you suck!
Bye the time he gets it out they're already down the hall and in their classroom
Robin knows how to cook, and like I don't mean just when his uncle is out like his uncle will ask HIM to cook
He loves cooking so much he'll literally bash anyone if they ever try to tell him that that's very "girly" of him
Gwen and Robin will have roasting battles and Finney would join in but he's so bad that they both cringe at what he says
Like they try their hardest to help him learn how to insult right but he's such a lost cause that whatever they say goes through one ear and out the other
(I included this one in the drawing but) I feel like Bruce gets scars/injured in general after playing baseball
His coach is so concerned that he doesn't feel when he gets it during practice, or when someone points it out he'll be like "Huh??"
Team member : Bruce you have another scrape on your four arm dude
Bruce : no I don't??
TM : Yea you do???
Bruce : no I don't??
Then they'd go back and forth till he'd see the red on his arm starting to form
I feel like Bruce and Billy have like cat and dog dynamic
Not in a /neg way but more of a
Bruce : Heyyy Billy!!!
Billy : oh hey :)
Bruce : so what was your last class?? Mines was math and I literally had to take down so much notes!! Such a hassle dude
Billy : yea I understand, I had English thought so if you're having that up next prepare for a quiz
I feel like Billy and Gwen would listen to Queen ☆☆
Gwen would definitely ask Billy for his Vinyl whenever he and the entire group would hang out
I feel like Griffin and Gwen are in the same class, but they act like they hate eachother
They would have glaring contests and spit absolute venom at eachother at any chance they got
But outside of class they'd literally be all buddy buddy and walk to the Grab-n-Go mart to grab some Popsicles or something to help with the heat that day
Robin LOVES animals and will literally take in any stray he finds to take care of it before his uncle would find them a week later
Ofcourse he'd get smarter and keep them in another secret place he and Finney have and they would take care of this dog cat or even pigeon
Finney can't cook for the life of him
He once burned water he was boiling. After that whenever his dad was out Gwen would take over
WHAT'D MAKE IT EVEN MORE FUNNIER IS THAT GWEN CANT COOK EITHER.
They'd call Robin all embarrassed telling him they burnt there food and he's just on the other line like
Robin : I uh what I'm just- HOW
Hed be stuttering for the first time in his life from how unbelievable that is
Griffin would definitely be that kid who got warnings from his teachers
And not for being bad or saying something snarky to the teacher but because he'd get caught doung something dumb
Like he'd try to do a handstand and be in the way of someone else and the teacher would scold him
Or he'd be twirling because his jacket was flapping with him and his teacher would tell him to stop (personal experience smh)
Vance is great at doing first aid
His mom taught him that since she knew that if she tried to tell him to stop he wouldn't so to make it safer for him she taught him how to take care of himself
Vance also probably listens to queen with his mom and has jam sessions with her
He'd deny it if anyone ever caught him doing it and He'd do it so well that the person would just walk away because he just wouldn't budge
The entire group would have study sessions and switch houses every Saturday night
And they'd have a rotation, so if one person's house wasn't gonna be free that Saturday night they would go on to the next person's house and if they all collectively had something to do then they'd do it in the afternoon on Sunday
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harufluff · 2 years
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Hello☺️☺️ may I request numbers 25 and 36 from the fluff prompts list with Beomgyu please?
Have a great day!!
→○°「 lunch confession to you 」°○→
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warnings - cursing, I guess suggestive but not really
genre - fluff, angst, high school au, best friends to lovers, nonidol!beomgyu x gender neutral reader (the x friend is a girl but you can read it how you want :))
prompt - #25 “Please just look at me while I confess, after that you can look anywhere you like, I swear.” + #36 “Not only am I deeply in love with you, you’re my best friend.”
requested - yes ty anon <333
a/n - this is cute. I know he's in his twenties but I like high school au. im like ranting about my school life in this aigeuhaigukaj. just go with me its life and this is whats happening to me so... also yes I named the friend after bitna from nevertheless.
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do you ever imagine your whole world is crumbling?
well that's whats happening. ever since 7th grade you have been with one friend group. you thought they were the ones, that you would be with until after high school and stay friends with forever.
but what happens when who you thought was your best friend starts ignoring you because you start hanging out with other friends during school? they ignore you. 'why would she do that?' 'is it my fault or hers?' why won't everything just go back to the way it was?' cant she just get over it already and forgive?' 'will I ever be friends with her again?' me all these questions that are running though your head all at once.
it feels like its been a month since she started ignoring you. really its only been a few days but man, the tears you have shed for this one person that you thought you would be with forever is not worth your time. cause you're awesome and deserve better than that
you've been sitting with your friend bitna and her friends cause thankfully those weren't your only friends, and they've been really supportive of everything, regardless of knowing close to nothing of whats happening to you.
but the one person that has been though everything with you is your childhood friend...
choi beomgyu.
you met in 5th grade, two years before your other friends, and he's been there for you ever since. he's the friend that you dont necessarily hang out with all the time, but when you see each other in the hallway you always make eye contact. he's always been the first person to find you and make you feel better when you're sad.
you've always known that you feel something more than a friend. but do you have time for that? no you're a high school student what are you talking about?
but lately you've been neglecting him, just trying to keep the drama away. all your emotions and school plus your romanic feelings? no that's a bad mix of feelings. feelings suck
back to real life, still in math. math has never been your best subject but you can survive and at lease get a b or something. thank god there is at least one friend in the friend group you've been sitting with is in every one of your classes.
'y/n, cmon its lunch. you gonna sit with us again?' bitna asked
your brain finally came back to the real world.
'huh? oh oh yea, if thats ok.' you answered, still feeling a bit bad for 'invading' the friend group.
'you never have to ask to sit with us. we like you with us. plus I dont want you feeling bad anymore. its making me sad too'. you smiled at your friends kindness.
'thanks'
you made your way to the field where they sit and sat down with the others. you failed to notice beomgyu staring at you from the other side of the field. you still felt a bit uncomfortable sitting with them so you tried to read while why gossiped about guys and who they think they like and what girls are going to make what sports team. you tried to block it all out until you heard your name.
'oh yea 'y/n knows him! dont you y/n?'
everyone was looking at you and bitna's eyes were glowing with wonder.
'wait what? who do I know?'
'CHOI BEOMGYU. YOU KNOW HIM RIGHT?!'
you slapped your hand over her mouth trying to keep the attention off of you. but sadly the whole field knew. you looked around the area scanning for any sign of the friends your trying to avoid. before you knew it, the one and only choi beomgyu started walking over to you with a smirk and two other friends behind him.
'you bracing about me y/n?' he asked you with a teasing sound to his voice. you glared at him.
'shut up. I didnt say your name idiot. now fuck off.'
oof. now that hurt. he knew something was wrong but he didnt think it was that bad that you would call him an idiot. he walked over to your side while you didnt even give him a second glance. he leaned over your shoulder and whispered in your ear,
'y/n i know something is wrong. why dont you just tell me?'
you shoved him to the side getting him away from you, again still not looking him in the eyes. he looked at you for a second in disbelief. his face changed. he grabbed your hand harshly and tugged you away from the group. you dragged you through the hallway and finally to the entrance and made you sit down on the low wall outside the school. he put his hands on either side of your hips, making you eye level with him.
'what the fuck is wrong with you?! whats up that's making you so unhinged with everything?! you never answer my texts or calls, never look at me in the hall way, and now you tell me to fuck off?! what the hell dude?!'
he had an angry look in his eyes while yelling at you from what felt like a cementer away from yours. and that's it. that was all you had left in you. you broke. you started crying from all the emotions stored up for all the emotions stored up inside. he just look at you in surprise as you just started breaking down infant of his eyes.
'hey hey. im sorry I yelled. please stop crying. oh shit I dont know how to deal with emotions-'
you continued to cry and he just stood there and let you. he didnt say anything until your cries died down to a quiet hiccups.
'y/n. cmon look at me. whats happening? you know you can tell me'.
you did as he said. you told him everything that has been happening, stressing you out, making you feel sad in general. why wouldn't you? he's the one person that has been with the through it all. he stared at you a bit fish eyed as he tried to conceal with anger mixed with sympathy mixed with every emotion ever. when you were finally done, he took in one big deep breath.
'how would you feel if I told you something that might make you feel really happy or even more stressed.' you looked in his eyes, his eyes that are normally filled with mischievousness, but right now were filled with honesty. you looked away.
'I dont know beomgyu...'
'what if I told you its something that's been stressing me out' he cut you off. you looked at him again.
'ok then if you put it like that. shoot'.
'I love you'
you looked at him with wide eyes, then smiled and looked down with your hand on your face.
“Please just look at me while I confess, after that you can look anywhere you like, I swear.”
you finally made eye contact with his and say his deep brown eyes. you forgot the butterflies it gave you to look at him like that.
'look. I've always had feelings for you ever since the first day we met in 5th grade. you make me happy to be around and every time you smile I get massive butterflies and I just wanna smiled too. it fucking hurt when you started ignoring me this year y/n. I thought you hated me.' he was starting to tear up. you could feel it.
'Not only am I deeply in love with you, you’re my best friend. I want to be with you forever. and I know this might make you uncomfortable and shit but if you dont feel the same just percent this never--'
you stopped his rambling by kissing his lips that you have wanted to kiss for too long. It was a sweet, chaste, long kiss. you could feel that his eyes were still wide open while yours were closed. you felt him finally close them.
he grabbed your cheeks in both hands and tilted his head deepening the kiss that both of you were longing for. it felt like it could go on forever and ever, but you pulled away when you felt your lungs tighten.
he kept your face close and leaned his forehead agains yours. his eyes were still closed as you both tried catching your breaths. then his sweet eyes full of love made contact with yours. you leaned in again and pecked his lips. once, twice, three times.
'I love you too. so much' you whispered. you both started giggling quietly trying not to get caught, considering you probably just missed a whole period.
'cmon. lets go back to my place.' he said already walking away from the school with your hand.
'why? we dont even have out stuff?'
'we dont need anything except each other and my bed.' he smirked at you.
'YAH. CHOI BEOMGYU YOU DIRTY SHI-'
'QUIET DOWN I WAS KIDDING' he leaned down fast and kissed your lips to shut you up like you did to him just a few minutes ago. 'we can get our stuff tomorrow.' you giggled at how exited he seemed.
'I just want to cuddle with my baby ok? geez' he said sarcastically with so much love you couldn't even explain it.
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I want a beomgyu. :(( idc if anyone reads my little blurbs at the bottom but im gonna say this anyway cause I think I need to get this off my chest. I am having a similar problem at school that y/n is having in this cause my friend that I thought was like 'the one' is ignoring me and its making me really sad and depressed. so I want everyone who reads this who might have not expired this yet or has, that its natural and people all handle emotions differently and you just need to be the bigger person and just be there for them until they pass this faze. anyway thanks ily <33333
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summerlycoris · 9 months
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So ive been thinking about the elevator ending in Ruin.
Ive tried mathing it out, to figure out if Cassie lives or if its just. Not gonna be possible.
And the first thing i realised is the fall doesnt make sense?
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I had to bring out a timer just to check i was getting things right. But even with that the math doesnt quite add up? Maybe im making a mistake- im no math whiz. I had to be really generous about the fall time- it was actually closer to 6 seconds I think? But i gave it 5 seconds in case i started the timer too early (since could only use sound cues to decide when the elevator actually begins falling.)
Okay, so the math is a smidge off. Not a huge deal. A fall from like 100 metres would be a hard sell. Hitting the ground from 50 metres in free fall is the rough equivalent to getting hit by a car at 112 kilometres an hour. And Cassie nearly doubled that height unless my math is totally off. But kids bounce. And people have survived worse falls before. Preteens are even more likely to live than adults from bad falls.
In fact, the elevator may not have been falling in free fall- most elevators (maybe not fazent ones, considering how fast the atrium elevator crashed at the start of the game.) Have safety measures like emergency brakes to slow down a fall. Also, wind resistance on the elevators bottom panel should slow it down. And the air at the bottom of the pit wouldnt be able to get away in time, creating a buffer and slowing down the elevator. (This is how some people have lived crazy elevator drops in the past.) I cant measure for this- not a math genius- but this would help explain why the fall took longer than i calculated- if it wasnt going at free fall speed.
But Cassie ends up hitting the roof. Thats not possible if both you and the elevator your in are in freefall. Or even if Cassie is in freefall, but the elevator is going slower.
Proof below, because ive seen people claim she crashed while on the floor. No, she dropped to the floor when it started to drop. Then ends up stuck to the ceiling after about a second. Before getting smashed into the floor again as she screams.
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(I cribbed the out of bounds shot from Astralspiffs video, because seeing it from out of bounds helps clarify things. The in cutscene ones i got from rezfinites video because i dont have ruin on switch yet.)
Like I looked it up. You dont end up stuck to the roof in freefalling elevators. If anything you get knocked to the ground as it shakes, and stay there. Because both you and the elevator are moving at the same speed- the speed demanded by gravity.
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For this to happen, the elevator must be falling faster than free fall.
... is the Mimic strong enough to just. Pull the elevator back down to it? The only way the elevator is doing this is if something is pulling on it. (Like that elevator drop ride at disneyland)
Also i hate this because it makes the math WORSE.
Okay- so assuming it is a 97 metre drop, and lasts 5 seconds- this fucking elevator is going at around 70 kilometres when it hits the ground. In free fall this is worse- like 157 kilometres??? Huh????? It doesnt make sense for the elevator that needs to be going faster than freefall to pin Cassie to the ceiling to be going half the speed? Im sure i fucked up somehow, but I dont know how.
Where was i going with this?
Math sucks, and this doesnt make sense. If the elevator fell at, or less, than free fall speed, Cassie should be stuck to the floor.
If it fell faster than free fall speed, then Cassie ending up stuck to the roof mid fall makes sense. But it also makes how slowly the fall took (it nearly took 6 seconds! I was generous!) Even worse. Unless it fell further than where it started.
Say, into a bunker hidden under a freddy fazbears pizzaria?
(Helpwanted2 helpwanted2-)
But also that makes it even less likely that Cassie lives. Being thrown into the roof by the fall, then the harsh deceleration back into the floor... ouch.
It might not be insta death. But broken bones? Head injuries? Bet.
I kinda hope she did fall into sister location if thats the case. Because thered probably be workers there that could 1. hear the fall and 2. get medical attention stat.
...but then that doesnt explain Roxy. Whether it be actually Roxy, or the Mimic, it needs to be there to be saying something to Cassie, right?
....im putting way to much thought into something dumb what am i doing with my life???
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cvbullshit · 9 months
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Simulacra(1, 2, PD) Incorrect Quotes: Shipping Break
These mainly take as if it was somewhat the Content AU(their nicknames, genders, and other) and mixed slightly with canon, depending on the quote. I may do art of them at some point, feel free to do art of them yourself though, if you want, just tag me since I'd want to see it. For context: -The first Simulacra(from Simulacra 1) is nicknamed Phoney. -The second Simulacra(from Simulacra 2) is nicknamed Ripple Man, obv. -The Pipe Dreams Simulacra is nicknamed Flappee. -The MC from the first game is labeled MC 1, MC from the second game being labeled as MC 2. -The MC from Pipe Dreams is labeled MC PD. Rippleman: If I fall… MC PD: I’ll be there to catch you. MC 1: *looks at MC 2* What if I fall? MC 2: Then I’ll fall with you, never leaving your side. Flappee: *watches these two interactions* Flappee, to Phoney: And if I fall? Phoney: I’ll be the one who pushed you. Phoney: I put the pun in punishment. MC 2: I put the top in unstoppable. Rippleman: I put the cute in execute. MC 1: I put the sexy in dyslexia. MC PD: I put the ass in class. Flappee: I put the D in Phoney. Taylor: I sleep with a gun under my pillow. Greg: I sleep with a knife. Anna: Both of you are pathetic. Taylor: Oh yeah? What do you sleep with? Anna: Ashley. Ashley: *about Taylor and Greg* They make a cute couple, huh? Anna: They certainly are standing next to each other. Anna: I love you. Ashley: I love you too. I've waited so long to hear you say that. *Anna and Ashley kiss passionately* Taylor, to Greg: You owe me 20 dollars. Maya: This food is too hot... I cant eat it. Arya: You’re very hot, and I still eat you. Everyone at the table: *silence* Mina: YOU GUYS ARE DISGUSTING! Rex: One dinner... I just want ONE DINNER! Arya: I spy with my little eye something that begins with the letter “s”. Mina: *looks over at Rex and Maya*  Mina: Is it “sexual tension”? Rex: *sees Mina and Arya together* Rex: They're cute. I would put them on a boat. Maya: You mean... you ship them? *Trying to cheer Arya after a break up* Maya: You broke up with Rex for a reason. Arya: I know, I know. I’m just so tired of missing them. Tired of wondering why they haven’t called. Why haven’t they called? Mina: Maybe because you told them not to. Arya: What are you, the Memory Person? Rex: Arya! I can't do this stupid math! Arya: What’s the math problem? Rex: Well, we have to add the bed, subtract the clothes divide the legs, and hope we don’t multiply. Maya, covering Mina's ears, while Arya smacks Rex upside the head: Not going to lie that was hella smooth. Rex: Hey Arya, wanna third wheel on my date with Maya tomorrow? Arya: Sure. Rex: Mina! Wanna third wheel on my date with Maya tomorrow? Rex: Great! I've always wanted to go on a double date! Arya & Mina: ... Maya: Rex... MC PD: Wow, they really hate us. Teddy: Yes, perhaps they’re homophobic. MC PD: But we’re not gay, Teddy. Teddy: MC PD: Teddy: We’re not?
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the-record · 2 years
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loverboy <3
pairing: eddie munson x gn!reader
warnings: school (yuck) otherwise none i think?!!
summary: eddie falls for his tutor
a/n: idea from > @upirs i hope i did ur idea justice it was too cute not to write !
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the last person eddie wouldve expected to tutor him would be you.
you were smart, he knew that. but you never payed any sort of attention in class and we’re constantly late. but your math teacher had assigned you to help him.
so you started meeting up at the library after school.
“this is fucking impossible.” eddie whined, banging his head against the table.
“i promise it’s not.” you took the pencil from his grip, showing him the steps one more time. “then you just have to find x, which is easy.”
eddie wasnt paying any attention though. well, not to the math.
“eddie?” he hummed, sparking back up. “you listening?”
“of course i am.” he defended, sitting up straight. you gave him a look, doubt covering your features. “i have to find x now, right?”
you just nodded and handed him the pencil.
eddie loved you tutoring him. you explained in ways teachers didn’t, getting him to understand things he never quite got all through middle school and highschool.
“so, you’re saying all i had to do, was subtract the first number from the answer?”
you laughed, nodding. “how did you pass middle school?”
“i almost didnt.”
youd been tutoring and studying with eddie for weeks now. spending nearly every monday and wednesday after school with him. even sitting with the hellfire club at lunch most days.
eddie had shown you his favorite spots when he needed peace and quiet. the woods. his van. a nook in the back of the library only he and the librarian knew about.
“do you wanna come over?” he wondered suddenly. you immediately closed your book, looking up at him with bright eyes.
“really?”
over the weeks spent with him, you had grown to have a massive little crush on the boy.
“absolutely babe.”
babe. jesus, he needed to shut up.
the ride to his trailer was quiet but comfortable, some random music playing softly as eddie hummed.
you jumped out the van when you got there, eager to see eddie’s place.
eddie led you to his room and you got to snooping right away. he flopped on his bed as he watched you read spines of books, study photos and and trinkets. he watched as you smiled at his guitar, asking more about it.
you finally reached his cassettes. there was tons, a couple bands you didnt know but most you did.
“oh i love iron maiden.” you told him excitedly.
“huh?”
“i said i love iron maiden.” you turned to him, one of his cassettes in your hand and a smile on your face.
“i love you.” he whispered it softly, but you still heard.
“i- you what?” your brain short circuited as you stared at eddie.
“oh god, i said that out loud didnt i? i’m so sorry, thats so weird. oh god youre gonna hate me now arent you, i cant bel-” he rambled but cut himself off when he saw the huge smile on your face.
“you love me.” you walked forward, taking a seat infront of him on his bed. “you love me.” you giggled tossing the tape to the side. “holy shit eds i dont think you know how long i’ve been waiting to say that to you.”
“youre not weirded out?” eddie questioned as you took his hands in yours.
“jesus, eddie no!” you sat forward a bit, leaning closer. “not at all. im just like in shock.”
“thank god babe i was so worried.” he reached out and took your face in his hands. “can i kiss you?”
“get to it loverboy.”
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gg-selvish · 1 year
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sapnap/unresolved georgenap in rules
someone on retrospring asked me for sapnap's perspective in rules because it's pretty underdevlopped in the fic so here's my answer so i have it saved because it was fun to talk about
ok i. ran out of time for sapnap in rules and i will be the first to admit that. sapnaps arc isnt very as satisfyingly resolved as dreams and thats because the dnf damage was just so intense and so fresh it took priority over longterm hurt but. theres a lot there that he went through thats implied and also in my personal headcanons of unwritten lore that implications stem from that i dont describe well or explore enough in the actual fic (sorry self burn booooooo)
rules is sapnap fell first george fell harder. 100%. its established in chapter 1 that sapnap had a crush on george since they were young and it was implied that george knew about it for most of the time of their friendship because it would be brought up casually/jokingly and while george thought it was lighthearted (and, once they got together, irrelevant) it was pure torture for sapnap.
loving both of your best friends is very difficult, if you could imagine. in my head dreamnap eased into each other better than georgenap did (emotionally) but... thats not really hard to do. dream and him established probably pretty similarly to treacherous in that it didnt take too long for them to realize their feelings for each other, but in rules george is more present so they get together faster because as we all know dreamnap are kind of scared of each other while george is the worlds biggest instigator. dnn complete each other yadda yadda im getting sidetracked
so they establish that they want each other and start this relationship but we're gonna math it out. sapnap isnt getting words of affirmation (outside of e-sex like praise no i love yous) or physical touch from george. he's getting words of affirmation from dream but limited physical touch due to The Rules (wooooooo). another thing thats quick in the fic is that dreamnap kinda lock away from each other because they Want to be together and theyre Not Allowed To so u can imagine the strain that would put on all of their dynamics. theyre so close but limited to compromise with someone who cant even say i love you or touch them like its Hard bro and theres resentment that comes from that piled atop the years of teasing for feelings that sapnap can never even be sure are reciprocated are u kidding????
so not only is there this prodding and underlying making fun of sapnaps feelings at regular interverals and overall memeing on him for YEARS theres george putting him in a painful position in the relationship too. more resentment. the piles getting pretty high, huh? and then they meet. theyre together. and its george but its also someone completely different. suddenly he's being worshipped and touched like gold with the kindest words whispered and he slips into subspace and feels so safe and he loves george so much why does it have to be so hard?
so he settles for when it's not hard.
he consents to cosigning the breaking of dreams heart and lets george sleep with him alone because for just a few minutes or hours he can pretend he means something to george. because he has doubts. maybe id go so far as to say theres times where he really doesnt believe him at all. but he does believe him when he's combing fingers through his hair and letting him taste love on his tongue
i think a lot about dreamnap in oklahoma. how sapnap felt to sleep in the same bed as dream and want to be with him alone the way they were when george was on call but he cant. all the while knowing if george was in his place he could do whatever he wants because hes on another wavelength
more resentment. george always wins, isn't that so unfair?
and when sapnap comes back different. that line is important and holds a lot of weight. thats when he got tired of george being unfair and dragging him through the mud and he wanted to be strong against someone who makes him weak so he tries so hard even though hes being torn in two and he's so tired, can you imagine? so he stops the unsafe scene. more resentment builds. he's done with george. he cant take this anymore. hes ruining everything and so he pulls away from him even more
and then he gets drunk and george crawls under his skin and he fails and can you imagine how much he was beating himself in the head for that? after being so strong and maybe he felt excluded a little because of it but he wasnt being weak and then george fucking makes him weak again and dream catches him and it all blows up because he was weak
and still. even with sapnap and him on the chopping block. george does not say i love you.
sapnap defends him in the fight. and george still doesnt say it.
it takes dream taking him apart and nearly forcing vulnerability. and sure sapnap is told first but was it because of him? do you think he'll always wonder if it was always going to be dream fixing george and never him? do you think he would feel resentful about that as well?
there's a lot of negativity in him. he's been really dragged through it and treated like shit and theres a part of me who has this perspective and sees rules!george apologists and wonders if theyre thinking about any of this. if any of it is even detectable in the tiny one liners i slipped in because i was going too fast
rules is about george at face value, but it's also kind of about dream, and it's definitely about sapnap.
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lilac-5ky · 2 years
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hello :] remember infant strife arc? im curious how would went when gin would have a gf that time. how she would react about the baby when she was with gin for a couple months and they were always using protection during we all know what. it can be headcanons or scenario i don’t mind :]
A/N: Apo? Napo. Of course I remember one of the best early arcs of Gintama, I loved the infant strife arc! From Katsura's reaction to the baby, to Gintoki playing dad all day long with it, this arc had such great moments. It was so adorable, I'm not even that keen on babies but baby Gin was the best! I was going to write it as headcanons but somehow one thing brought the other and it turned out into something in between :p
Gintoki's S/O reacting to Kanshichirou (infant strife arc baby)
Warning: SFW!
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so adorable i cant even ≧◡≦
"Coming, coming!" You yelled while you ran towards the door, the frantic ringing of the bell catching you by surprise. It was early in the morning and you weren't expecting any visitors today, yet the person at your doorstep seemed quite persistent. Just who could it be?
Opening the door, your jaw dropped at once. This... this wasn't Gintoki with a baby, right? Bringing your fists to your face, you rubbed your eyes with your knuckles. However, once you opened them again, you were still greeted with the same sight, of your boyfriend having a baby clinging from his back, a baby that was his spitting image at that. This had to be a dream right? But if it was a dream, then why couldn't you wake up even after pinching your own arm? Why were you still at your front door, why weere they still here?
"What's that?"
"What's what? Do I have something on my face?" Gin asked, his one hand feeling his features up.
"What's that on your back?" You asked again, this time through gritted teeth.
"There's something on my back? Where? Y/N, can you take it off for me? I can't see it." He looked around his shoulders one at a time, acting as if there was seriously nothing wrong with the image.
"Gintoki, why is there a baby on your back?" Your patience was wearing thin with each question.
"Oh? That? Just a guy I met. Say hi to Y/N, don't be rude."
"Gin... that is a baby. Not just a guy and he... he looks just like you."
"Huh? What are you on about? I guess there is a slight resemblance but he wishes he achieved my level of charm."
Slam
Shutting the door on his face, you fell against it with your body. Not only did he have the nerve to show up at your front door with a mini him in his arms, but he also had the audacity to humor you about it. There was no way this baby wasn't his, not when it looked exactly like him. But how could that be? The two of you always used contraception and the math simply didn't add up, the baby looked to be at least 1 year old and the two of you hadn't been dating for so long. Plus, if you were pregnant you would have definitely noticed, no, this was all beyond irrational, unless...
Gintoki had always been a free spirit, he was always getting himself in other people's business and you had never thought much of it. However, now that he stood on your doorstep with a baby, you started to question everything, betrayal piercing through your heart. How could he do such a thing to you? How could he cheat on you, how could he been so sloppy to even have a baby with another woman? How could he hide it from you and more importantly, who was she?
"Y/N! Y/N, open up, I can explain!" He could explain? What was there to explain? Still, you ended up opening the door, a part of you hoping that this was all a misunderstanding. Instead of saying a thing, Gintoki was holding a piece of paper up for you to see. It appeared to be a letter, one that wrote:
"This is your baby. Take responsibility and raise him. I got tired of it."
So it really was his baby! You were about to close the door in his face again, when he stuck the foot between the door and the frame, preventing you from closing it.
"What else do you want to say, Gin? The letter and the baby say everything, don't they? There is no need for you to explain, there is nothing that needs to be explained. I don't care who this woman is but she must have had her reasons for leaving you and the baby. Have a great life together-"
"Woman, are you going to let me explain? This baby is not mine! Someone dropped it at Yorozuya with this note, but it's not mine! I've been on the run the entire morning, I was even hunted down by some jerks, saying I kidnapped the baby and no one believes me! Please, Y/N, just listen to me. This baby is not mine and I didn't kidnap it, just help me out this once!" For once, he looked rather serious, desperate even. No matter how bizarre the situation at hand seemed, it looked as if he was telling the truth.
"How do you always manage to get yourself in such situations, Gin..." Sighing, you let go of the door, allowing him to push it open with his leg. "Just come in already."
Soon enough, Gintoki and the baby were sitting on your couch, the baby on his lap while he gently held onto it. Looking at the two of them sitting like that together, there was no doubt; the resemblance between them was uncanny. It wasn't your fault that you had assumed the worst case scenario, anyone would have thought they were related.
After a while of awkward silence, you got up, moving towards the kitchen while looking at them over the counter. "Will you have something to drink?"
"Strawberry milk for me. He'll have the same." Was strawberry milk good for a baby? Probably not, but then again your knowledge regarding babies was quite limited.
Doing as he asked, you poured the two of them two glasses of strawberry milk, placing them onto the coffee table in front of them. Gintoki grabbed his glass, gulping it down in one go while the baby kept reaching out to his hands, trying to steal the glass. Once he was done drinking, he wiped his lips clean with the back of his hand before taking on the other glass. The baby's eyes gleamed in awe as Gin brought the milk to his lips, tilting the glass slightly so that the baby could drink comfortably. In return, the baby took a sip, clapping his hands together in excitement.
"Tch, at least he has good taste." Gintoki said with a winsome smile on his lips. As much as he tried to play it off, he was obviously doting over the baby, the two of them making up for an endearing sight.
You hadn't been together long enough to consider having kids with him, yet looking at the two of them, you couldn't help but wonder, would your kids look like this too? Would they have the same silver hair and dead fish eyes their father did or would they end up looking more like you? No matter the case, seeing Gin act as a father managed to stir something within you and soon enough, you found yourself looking at them in awe.
"Gin? Do you think that we could...?" You asked him in a quiet voice, your stare going between him and the baby.
"Huh? You want to have a baby? Now? In front of him?" His words were enough to make you blush while you waved your hands dismissively, quick to correct him. "It's not that! I'm just saying that, do you think one day we could have a family of our own?"
After a minute of considering it, he gave you an awkward smile. "Isn't it jumping the gun to start talking about such things already, Y/N? Well... I suppose that one day we'd need someone to take on Yorozuya. Perhaps I should start working on my retirement plans."
"So, you'd want to have a child just to gain a successor?" The notion seemed so stupid that you couldn't help but laugh at it. Still, if your child turned out to be as kind and considerate as Gin was, then you'd have one less thing to worry about. Returning the smile, the two of you looked at each other, until the baby kicked his leg viciously, forcing an 'Ouch' sound from the man.
"Fine, fine, I'll let you be the boss!" Gintoki said while rubbing his knee. You couldn't help but notice how arrogant the baby looked, obviously pleased with himself. Who could have thought that there would be someone to resemble Gin even in the way he acted.
"Well, I guess it can't be helped anymore. Looks like he's too grown for strawberry milk. Ah...hey grow up so fast! Before you know it, he'll be getting drunk on sake, stumbling to your door past his curfew while yelling 'Mom, Mom!'. A man needs to know when it's time to let go, a man needs to leave his parent's house after coming of age." Gintoki spoke as he got off the couch, placing the baby back onto his back. "It's time to go."
"Go? Where to?"
"To fulfill his filial duties. His rotten grandad is looking for him all over town, it's about time that he paid a visit to that old geezer."
You followed them to the door, pushing it open for them to step out of your apartment. Before walking out, Gintoki turned around along with a baby, the two of them flashing the same kind of smug smile at you. Rolling your eyes at them you returned the smile, bidding them farewell.
Even though their visit seemed more like an inconvenience at first, you were finding yourself rather sad about their departure, wishing that the two would have stayed more. Getting the chance to spend time with a mini version of the man you loved was a rare opportunity, one that was enough to make you wonder what he looked like a child himself, what your future kids would look like. No matter how irresponsible and lazy Gintoki was, the way he treated the child was heartwarming and you knew that at the end of the day he'd make the right choice. After all, one thing's for sure; when the time was right, Gintoki would turn out to be the greatest dad of them all.
Bonus Kanshichirou gif cause he is adorable:
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