#i think i have serious problem

[future-crab]

It's been said before, it will be said again, but it's still worth saying: the fact that art centering on straight romance is allowed to just be bad, but art with queer romance in it always has to be indicative of A Serious Problem With the Way We Tell Queer Stories makes being a queer person making queer art deeply stressful

#just saw smthing about red white and royal blue #and like i never watched/read that one so maybe everything ppl say about it is true #and i never watched heartbreaker or love simon so maybe those ones are also genuinely a sign of a serious problem #but idk. the fact that this happens every damn time makes me think that maybe queer stories are being held to different standards #and it's exhausting writing stuff while having a chorus of voices in the back of my head saying i'm misrepresenting my own identities and #making the whole community look bad by writing mediorcre romance #and knowing that even though i'm neither straight nor a girl there WILL be ppl calling me a straight girl fetishizing queer relationships #lgbt #queer community #writer stuff #idk what else to tag this #asexual #bisexual #nonbinary #venttag

[personishfive]

in which his life is like a video game

#persona 5 #joker p5 #morgana p5 #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #my art #p5 spoilers #<- i mean. i dont like. say anything outright but like. i feel like i say *enough* in this one. lol #this ones actually pretty old i was just bored and wanted to draw but didnt want to draw enough to do anything serious so i finished it #i almost scrapped it because well it was hard to wrangle and had a minor tone problem but well. they cant all be winners <3 #not my best work but i think the concept is. um. kind of really funny. lol #morgana: shit maybe it'll help him a little to play a game. get his mind off recent events. (it does not do this) #i still think this game is the funniest addition to royal. like they went out of their way to add this akechi themed video game in royal #im gonna be real with you. i think the gray pigeon theory thing is kind of silly. but goro akechi featherman parallels r so real. real shit #have you guys seen proof of justice. wasnt that crazy. that was crazy. #anyway. i want a love so strong it'll bring me back from the dead! or however that featherman episode goes. seeya #comics

[tazmiilly]

#normal old guys with normal old guy feelings #it is sooo hard to draw anything serious abt bill ever.... if i think too hard abt it i will have Problems #remaining vague forever abt it but maybe someone out there understands #anyways #scribbles #gravity falls #ford pines #fiddleford mcgucket

[arthursfuckinghat]

I know the gang cares about Arthur and they knew his sickness was serious and it's part of the narrative and whatnot, but really would it have killed them to just offer the occasional "is there anything you need Arthur?" or "anything we can do to help?" or even "how are you feeling today?" - I'm sure Arthur would rather be pestered slightly than have his rapid illness get straight up ignored yknow?

#I know you can talk to one of the girls and rev swanson about it #but other than the mood being down at camp everything runs as normal #“hey arthur I know you have a serious illness but I need to you to go hunting get supplies and help micah and john and sadie and bill and-” #my face when susan started ranting about the lockbox getting broken and how upset she was and arthur was just like 😐 #the guy has bigger problems susan I mean that respectfully #😭 #most of arthurs greet lines in beaver hollow are asking how people are doing and thanking them #but whenever anyone speaks to arthur it's always “oh hey arthur” or “dutch told me to tell you to meet him somewhere” #or they express how much they don't like the camp and arthur just apologises #:( #arthur cares so much about them it would be nice to see them appreciate him a bit more #he saved as much of them as he could #oh arthur #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #red dead redemption community #red dead redemption 2 spoilers #mick thinks

[ectoplasmfear]

Honestly, the way that the cast and the fandom remembers Kalvaxus is really funny to me because... he was not that guy. Kalvaxus was strict but never quite mean. He had a very no nonsense approach to his job, but had to do a lot of the more stable parts of administration considering the other person involved with the day to day running of the school was Arthur Aguefort, a deeply unpredictable hubristic cokehead with all the power in the world.

The Bad Kids - more specifically Adaine - said that she really liked the school and thought he was a really good vice principal - the episode where it was revealed he was evil. When he saw Fabian randomly hit Gorgug, he told Gorgug that he shouldn't apologize for being randomly assaulted. When he handed a ticket to Adaine, he hesitated because Adaine was clearly on the verge of a panic attack. He gave Jawbone a job. He was genuinely trying to help the Bad Kids after Aguefort did some typical Aguefort shit and killed himself in front of them. He absolutely presented himself as a very helpful adult authority figure who maybe wasn't nice but he came off as trustworthy and largely fair.

Is any of that his true "deep down" personality? Obviously not. He's a banker, a libertarian, and an imperialist conqueror. He'll allow a few select students to be influenced onto this path. He can't say he approves of the Harvestmen being at his school but they're a good expendable workforce that he can discard afterwards to prove that despite being fiscally conservative, he is an ally and he is trans inclusive. He takes his little pleasures. Murdering Riz's father. Poisoning Aguefort, making him too stupid to see what his right hand is doing. Conspiring with his horrible capitalist bank that doesn't give out pens or lollipops. Investing in stocks, consorting with gangs of creepy tieflings. And when the mask is off he lets forth a storm of viciousness, hate, malice, verbal cruelty. Which is pretty par for the course for being stuck with teenagers for five hundred years, tbh.

But again, he has been doing this song and dance for five hundred-ish years, playing the role of the helpful authority figure. Dragons - particularly chromatic dragons like Kalvaxus - are infected with an absolutely massive ego, a destructive sense of pride that compels them to dominate, collect, amass, always amass wealth. It's baked into their immortal souls. They go to places, they commit violence on things there, and then they collect their rewards. It's a vicious cycle, and not dissimilar to the violent destructive cycle that adventuring tends to follow.

So when you take his ability to ever conquer, destroy, rule, devour, amass wealth.

Being good. At this stupid fucking JOB. That he HATES. Teaching teenagers. That he HATES. At a school. That he HATES. With only one man who knew what he was really like, the real him, only one man he didn't have to deceive, and it's the INSANE COKE SNORTING MOTHERFUCKER KEEPING HIM HERE.

#kalvaxus #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high #arthur aguefort #goldenhoard #i have a more serious meta about how penelope kipperlily porter and kalvaxus all act under arthur's principles surrounding #adventuring #it's just like. what if the people acting under that principle weren't great people. #but i also think kalvaxus is infinitely funnier if you remember how much he tried to do his job he was cursed to do forever even in the fac #of problems that he caused

[expectiations]

Is it just me or does the phrase "dumb Darillium River" make your ears ring too?

That phrase hurts me like crazy because it takes away how the post-Manhattan events affected her so deeply. And now that we have the added knowledge that she gets to see her parents in New York even after Manhattan, THORS now presents itself in a different light.

River's resounding "the Doctor does not and has never loved me" cements the implication that she and the Doctor had a huge row after Manhattan. What would you feel if the love of your life told you he "does not and has never loved" you? Certainly not happy.

Do you know what grief does to one's mind? No matter how brilliant you are, grief changes you. Grief makes you a different person. I would know, having experienced it myself. And River, in her grief, jumped into a headspace that shut out (or tried hard to) the Doctor.

Yes, she should have recognized it was him she had unknowingly dragged along on her space Robin Hood quest, but for her, it isn't him. It wouldn't be. Because that was the last thing she had heard him say.

Grief and pain clouding her mind, she proudly asserts that no, the Doctor isn't there. He won't show up for her. He has never loved her. But of course, she loves him. She's never denied that. But he proves her wrong soon afterwards. Because she is the Woman The Doctor Loves.

So, yes, on the surface level, "dumb Darillium River" seems to be what THORS had made River to be. But no, it wasn't. It isn't. It was about a grieving River and a chance for the Doctor to right his wrong. (And yes, we were robbed of that kiss. Homie here quite clearly wanted one.)

originally posted over on twitter.

#I do have my problems with some parts of THORS but I just wanna defend post-Manhattan River because my girl went through some serious shit #i mean - row with eleven. his time with older River was up. he only saw younger and even younger versions of River. the next time he saw a #River post-Manhattan was on Trenzalore which was data ghost River. anyway that's the topic of my next thread and i'll be sharing it here to #river song meta #think piece: river song #i also need to make a new tag of my writing stuff so am gonna choose #tia thinks too much #lol #river song #doctor who #eleventh doctor #doctor x river #yowzah #the doctor #twelfth doctor #dw #the husbands of river song #doctorriver #bring back river song #dw musings #here's the thread i was talking about Tree in tumblr form! i sincerely hope i haven't driven you away with my incessant yapping 🥹 #sometimes i worry that i talk too much 🫨

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Tumblr is way chiller than Twitter for sure but sometimes I see a post and I'm like. Y'all DO remember this is a block game, right? You're not gonna get legitimately pissy and passive-aggressive over characters doing things in a block game, RIGHT???

#i talk #qsmp talk #Chatter: Jaiden don't do this— twitter will cancel you! #The rest of us in chat: Why should she care about anything Twitter says #People on frickin twitter AND tumblr: *whining about Jaiden* #LIKE BRO YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS LMFAOOOOOO #fandom wank #I'm gonna start unfollowing people #not even just for bad opinions I'm just tired of seeing people being mean and bitter #I'm just here to have fun I don't want to constantly see whining #Critique characters and stuff all you want that's part of the fandom experience but some of y'all are so damn mean for no reason lmao #Touch grass and seek therapy #I know me posting this is part of the ''too many people complaining'' problem but Jaiden's my gal I am a little bit annoyed by that #Again: character critique is fine #but sometimes it's just so passive-aggressive and like. written like the character did a personal attack on YOU #<- the last tag is the most important point here I think

[hallowclave]

What a whimsical looking young man I wonder if he has received any job offers recently

Original photo

#my art #project sekai #rui kamishiro #if u saw this get posted before: no u didn’t #forgot to schedule the post for the morning incident 60 dead 600 injured. #i feel obligated 2 say I actually post abt pjsk on my main (apotelesmaa) frequently (I have brain worms) #& I only post on this blog once in a blue moon and it’s usually not serious art atp #so do not expect anything. #curtain call. what an event. love rui he’s such a good character. I hope he explodes. #he is so full of love and so bad at recognizing his emotions and problems. #‘I don’t have any emotional hang ups about anything’ says the guy who has so many emotional hang ups #rationalizing pulling back as safety measures instead of fearing abandonment/concern of hurting tsukasa (or others) again -> #rationalizing accepting asahi’s job offer because it’s the best for his future even if it’s not the best for himself #also tbh I think to some degree u could argue accepting the job offer was his way of getting ahead of being abandoned #not that it would happen and not that he’d recognize that to begin with #negative self awareness king! he is not processing his emotions at all! #would love for him to mention the job offer in a future event. even just offhandedly. shaking him by the shoulders. talk to ur friends moron #me when I’m in a not recognizing what I’m feeling and how it effects me competition and my opponent is rui kamishiro from hit game pjsk #etc etc. anyways. #once again falling into the ‘sure whatever this can go on the art blog’ category #in that I used simultaneously too much effort and very little in creating it #once again: [hope you’re hungry. for NOTHING] dot jpeg. as is typical here at hallowclave dot tumblr dot com.

[good-beanswrites]

If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?

Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references. 

(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)

Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday �� it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.

Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.

“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.

“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane. 

The girl just shook her head. 

She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”

“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.” 

“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...” 

With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her. 

“I can’t let you do that.”

Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.” 

Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”

“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”

Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”

“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”

“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”

“You just pity me because I’m young.”

“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”

The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.

“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”

A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.

“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”

“Of course.”

#milgram #amane momose #mahiru shiina #thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got #the gears turning!! #i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :( #if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death #and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients #so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived #which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care #even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment #but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of #divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that #so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently #but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!! #everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :( #still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated #so. yeah. #i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this #tw cults #tw child abuse #drabbles

[autistic-katara]

oh my god can ppl find a reason to ship/not ship something that’s in the middle of a ship war w/o trying to make out the other character to be the worst person in existence? honest to god it’s not that hard to say “this ship doesn’t work for me bcz of xyz” u rlly do not need to go “uhhh actually no it’s not character a that’s a horribly racist asshole who thinks SA is cool (that’s so stupid wtf, they barely did anything), its character b. did u not see how they [smallest thing possible]??? can’t believe the hypocrisy u have going on here…” like seriously PLEASE u do not have to justify urself to this level it just makes everything 10x more annoying

#kataang/z*tara ship war posting in the year 2023? more likely than u think. #also abt the whole jancy/st*ncy thing but this was spurred by me seeing a kataang v zk argument where both ppl just sounded so insufferable #literally “aang is so racist for not liking this one water tribe dish” “actually zuko dismissing aang’s anti-revenge philosophy is the same #as the great grandkid of an ss officer making fun of jewish culture” #(not even exaggerating they both said that basically verbatim) #like babes please it’s really not that serious- #i hate how this happens every time there’s a ship war that’s boy x girl v same girl x different boy #it’s always “erm actually it’s implied in one frame in s1 that boy 1 hates black ppl bcz of the red x over the black background” #“oh yeah? well boy 2 was an asshole pre-character development so he’s definitely homophobic as hell” #with minimal mention of the girl u guys r shipping them with #like look i love kataang nd while jancy might not be my fav of all time i still ship them #but holy shit u guys can be as annoying as the zk/st*ncy shippers u claim to hate #idk this is just a problem i have with fandoms a lot nd i needed to yell abt it #rant #ship wars #fandom bs #atla #kataang #pro aang #pro zuko #ryan shut the fuck up

[moondal514]

I like MXTX books because in every one of them, the narrative allows the gays* to successfully run away together**

*privilege of main characters and their husbands only

**only after 1-4 deaths from either said main character or husband

#on a more serious note though #there is something kinda sad about it too #MXTX books have the main characters realize that they cannot fix the problems in their societies #so they will put their effort into enjoying what time they have with their loved ones instead #I’m mostly thinking about mdzs when i say this but from a certain pov this applies to svsss and tgcf too #mxtxcu #mdzs #tgcf #svsss #moonie posting

[nocinovae]

I feel like so many people just going with this suuuch obvious frame of q!BBH is a total insult to q!BBH’s intelligence. Like seriously???

A law could be passed against stealing furniture. A law that really only targets BBH.

Then someone steals ALL of EVERYONE’s furniture.

It’s so situational!

Why would he try to provoke everyone which would only get a law passed that he doesn’t want.

He’s smart enough to know that’s what would happen!!! Make it make sense.

And like especially bc ppl know he’s silly and goofy and his shenanigans 1. don’t usually Target everyone and 2. is on a level that causes serious conflict (unless it’s Foolish but they’re ✨special✨ )

#RP #ALL ABOUT THE ROLEPLAY #qsmp #qsmp bbh #qsmp liveblog #honestly bbh’s furniture stealing is also something people haven’t even fought him on KNOWING he’s done it #and BBH is someone who helps everyone and gives people SO MUCH and furniture is so cheap. #yes i think bbh does have a problem but everyone’s reaction is so large compared to bigger issues going on ;-; #these are my feelings toward roleplay and everything is about the characters #meaning they are not serious feelings just my view of the STORY

[deuynndoodles]

casual reminder that tone tags which use acronyms or shortened phrases/words are inherently inaccessible, and thus are useless. spell out the whole thing instead :]

#rambles #as an explanation: tone tags that do this are inaccessible to people who have poor memories #or misinterpret what the tag means #i have a friend who can never remember if /s means sarcastic or serious. thats a problem #if /pos makes something think theyre being called a piece of shit. thats a problem #type out the full tag #its better for everyone #(if you have trouble typing or use aac this post is not abt u. love yall) #note: this post was drafted in sep23

[essektheylyss]

migraine day means sketch time feat. the newest addition to my list of "wizards that live in my head rent-free"

I only noticed today that Suvi has a little smoking incense holder in her hair and I'm not gonna lie, I'm obsessed with it.

#it's the lapsed catholic tbh. yes I WAS an altar server. #spent way too much time on this for how rough it still is but I also didn't really open csp intending to do anything serious so #it's fiiiiine #do not know why I have nO problem sitting doing art for a couple hours with a migraine but writing? forget it lol #worth it tho suvi's design slaps. the cheekbones on this woman. #suvirin kedberiket #worlds beyond number #my art #I know I say it every time I post literally any art but. wild that I could fully be decent at art if I was at ALL capable of consistency #aggressively sitting here like 'do not over-render do not over-render do not over-render—' #gee megs you know how you'd manage that more consistently? ACTUALLY FUCKING DRAWING— #me? posting this during off hours before I lose my nerve? more likely than you'd think #yes I can yeet whatever fic directly onto ao3 but art is SCARY this ain't my medium alright

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[painalotwww]

#eminem #slim shady #fanart #eminem fanart #Detroit: become android #智械危机 #这个年代还在炒底特律大变活人的冷饭这样真的好吗 #My housekeeping Android is a dumb bitch whos only capable of use the microwave #Then I found out he was just a piece of junk been made from sex doll that had gone off the market #So I decided to treat him the proper way like fuck him everynight，you got a hole down there why should I waste it #I think things are going well，I maybe in love with him already…… #oh yeah，he's my wife now #however since he really doesn't know how to do housework，I ordered a new model of Domestic Android，you know，cause I really can use it #I didn't know this decision would become a serious problem #Damn he thinks I'm replacing him #he's really having some trust issues，given his past work experience I got him #But that's not the excuse for him stabbing me like ten times