#ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

new pfp :3

#new blorbo acquired #i love him #i love all of them but he’s my fav #stone ramshackle #ramshackle #ryan shut the fuck up

[tboy-insanity]

what if i just turned this into a vent account

#ryan shut the fuck up #<- i feel like i should use a different tag for this acc but i can’t think of one #idk

[autistic-katara]

finally was able to unmutual that one pretty antisemitic mutual‼️

#i feel bad abt it but i don’t wanna keep watching them fall down a pipeline and don’t have the ability to stop them #so idk hope u stop seeing jews as expendable or whatever someday ex mutual but i’m not gonna be here when u do #jumblr #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

bro no homo but if we were fictional characters there would be so much fanfic where we kiss

#ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

any time i see someone say “Pikuach Nefesh” i read it as “Pikachu Nefesh” and i can’t stop 😭

#i’m not even a pokemon fan </3 #jewish #jumblr #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

“i’m going to kill myself” tired. overused. actively harmful to you.

“i’m going to commit an act of terrorism against the united states government” beautiful. reasonable. makes both your mental health and the world so much better.

#for legal reasons that last part is a joke or whatever #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

#mike wheeler #byler #stranger things #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

i love the terms “girlkisser” and “boykisser” like yeah i do kiss those fuckers

#ryan shut the fuck up #girlkisser #boykisser #gay #lesbian #bisexual #queer

[autistic-katara]

anyone else have that one mutual that they never rlly talk to but whenever they come up in ur notifications ur like :D !!!

#ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

yeah wild how someone making a post about a transmasc child being murdered would believe transmascs are oppressed, they should be killed for that horrible backwards opinion forreal

edit: not sure if i need to clarify this or not but i’m very stressed rn so id rather just do it but yeah. i probably shouldntve called Nex transmasc bcz apparently they didn’t identify as transmasc (i didn’t know nd thought id seen them referred to as such before) so idk sorry abt that i would properly edit it and word it better but aforementioned stress isn’t exactly letting me think clearly so

#to be clear idk who made the post they’re talking abt nd if they are actually transmisogynistic then yk fuck them #but this person uses the term “transandrophobia truther” there’s an equal chance the person they’re talking abt just said “trans men arent #privileged” or something #transandrophobia #ryan shut the fuck up #edit 2: turning off reblogs i’m sorry i’m way too stressed for this rn

[autistic-katara]

communication is too complicated why can’t he just homoerotically kill me?

#ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

reblog to be lovingly beaten to death by a tumblr mutual

#ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

i need all of u at some point tomorrow to spam ask/dm/reply/reblog/whatever to me to finish this stupid fic bcz im dangerously close to the deadline nd i need to do it

#please #i need u guys to annoy me past the point of no return on this or idk if i’m gonna do it #i may regret making this post but idfc i entered this thing i need to submit a fic #do it please #please.. #like queue it or smtjn #idk #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

“i hope u die” lame, boring, unoriginal. “i hope ur favourite mostly female show’s top category on ao3 is f/m or m/m” horrifying, blasphemous, tragically realistic, no way to survive.

#derry girls #cmon guys we literally have a canon lesbian why r all our fics erin/james #where is my clare/erin??? #where is my clare/anyone??? #there r like 3 male characters why did u guys decide to obsess over one of them THIS hard??? #(don’t get me wrong i love james but dude) #ao3 #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

being a fanfic writer is researching bullet wound first aid so 2 characters can fuck

#this is about soukoku incase it wasn’t obvious #writing #ao3 #soukoku #ryan shut the fuck up

[autistic-katara]

imagine you’ve possessed a doll. you have no control over this possession; you didn’t do it intentionally and can’t leave it, you’re stuck in it.

it’s scary, instead of flesh your skin is made of plastic, you’re tiny compared to your proper hight, your clothes are probably strange too. you can’t just act like a normal doll. play the parts the kid who owns you wants to play, act out the little lives she wants you to have or sit on the shelf like all her others when she’s busy. half of you wishes you could for her sake and the other half wants to rebel harder against her stronger force than you already have to.

there are ways to feel more comfortable, become more outwardly human. they’ve invented ways to make you a normal hight for a person, to make your skin as close to flesh as possible, to make you seem human again. but they’re hard to get. they’re expensive, it takes a while to even get to the clinic, it needs to heal, it won’t be a perfect recreation and worst of all, the kid has to be cool with it as long as she’s still playing with you; which she’s not. she also wants to play with you forever and ever or at least be able to go back to it if she wants to. you’ll be breaking her heart if you ever go through with it but she won’t just say yes while she has the power. you don’t care about what she thinks about it. you hate yourself for it too though.

you didn’t mean to kill her perfect toy, it wasn’t your fault (or hers) that something shoved your spirit into her plastic friend. but it happened and because she can’t accept it all you can do for now is try and get your hair to look less synthetic and wear people clothes instead of the doll ones, though she keeps trying to put you in shirts with velcro at the back (they just don’t make human clothes in your size and the ones we shrink down break so quickly!).

the kid almost pretends as if she believes you. she says she loves you but you know she just sees you as acting out for fun, she talks about you that way, sometimes too your face. you feel bad about taking her precious pretty doll from her but it wasn’t like you could control it. you resent her for dehumanising you like this, though. no matter how hard it is for her. you just want to be loved as a person.

#ryan attempts to explain gender dysphoria and tboy mommy issues™ at 2am to no one in particular instead of sleeping (fun :3) #trans #transgender #gender dysphoria #trans boy #transmasc #ryan shut the fuck up