#idk but it had to have sucked ass

[penofwildfire]

Y'all can we talk about how incredibly traumatizing it would've been for Ray and Maya to be taken from their home and children and kept contained, far away from civilization, not knowing if the people they loved were okay, only having eachother for company, for YEARS??????? Like holy shit that's insanely fucked up. What the fuck Krux.

#we're always talking about Kai and Nya and how they had to take care of eachother and shit but like THEIR PARENTS???? WERE KIDNAPPED???? #HELD HOSTAGE FOR YEARS?????? #like over a decade!!!! what the fuck!!!!! #Krux was EVIL evil goddamn #ninjago #maya #ray #ninjago s7 #hands of time #also where the hell was he keeping them I haven't seen HoT in years lol #some sort of. bog? I think? #idk but it had to have sucked ass

[brother-emperors]

BROTHERS

The river Weser ran between the Roman and Cheruscan forces. Arminius came to the bank and halted with his fellow chieftains:— "Had the Caesar come?" he inquired.​ On receiving the reply that he was in presence, he asked to be allowed to speak with his brother. That brother, Flavus by name, was serving in the army, a conspicuous figure both from his loyalty and from the loss of an eye through a wound received some few years before during Tiberius' term of command. Leave was granted, and Stertinius took him down to the river. Walking forward, he was greeted by Arminius; who, dismissing his own escort, demanded that the archers posted along our side of the stream should be also withdrawn. When these had retired, he asked his brother, whence the disfigurement of his face? On being told the place and battle, he inquired what reward he had received. Flavus mentioned his increased pay, the chain, the crown, and other military decorations; Arminius scoffed at the cheap rewards of servitude.

They now began to argue from their opposite points of view. Flavus insisted on "Roman greatness, the power of the Caesar; the heavy penalties for the vanquished; the mercy always waiting for him who submitted himself. Even Arminius' wife and child were not treated as enemies." His brother urged "the sacred call of their country; their ancestral liberty; the gods of their German hearths; and their mother, who prayed, with himself, that he would not choose the title of renegade and traitor to his kindred, to the kindred of his wife, to the whole of his race in fact, before that of their liberator." From this point they drifted, little by little, into recriminations; and not even the intervening river would have prevented a duel, had not Stertinius run up and laid a restraining hand on Flavus, who in the fullness of his anger was calling for his weapons and his horse. On the other side Arminius was visible, shouting threats and challenging to battle: for he kept interjecting much in Latin, as he had seen service in the Roman camp as a captain of native auxiliaries.

Tacitus Annals 2.10-11

there's a lot going on in there! Arminius switching to Latin is a detail that always makes me feel a deep kind of sadness, especially with how it's preceded by mention of their mother. I wonder what she thought of what became of her sons, on opposite sides of everything but still, inescapably, brothers. even when they want to kill each other. there sure are a lot of fucked up and unhappy brothers around. and Arminius asking about Flavus' injury............I also had a whole thing typed out about the horror of imperialism and colonization and the trauma of assimilation but I think this sets the tone better

Rome's Greatest Defeat: Massacre in the Teutoburg Forest, Adrian Murdoch

and also this, just for fun

(ibid)

this post is already a mile long, so lets add another mile to it: a little scene at the start of their conversation! tfw you go in for a hug and your younger brother who also ended up being taller starts roasting your hair style

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app⭐ko-fi

#long post #SO LONG #roman empire tag #tbh im not jazzed about using that tag when rome is not actually the setting here but i do not have a good era tag for this yet #i'll figure it out later eurhghghesuerhgh #komiks tag #arminius & flavus #idk. maybe also #eye trauma cw #anyway it's all very 'he's my brother and i need a shovel to love him' kind of deal #this (wheezing) this is an idea i had LAST YEAR but it was a solo illustration #i had it posted for about ten minutes before i decided it sucked ass and needed to be revisited as a comic #FINALLY. the idea is complete. im free. it's been bothering me to have it unfinished while the original idea was haunting my drafts #as a reminder to get it done. and now i can delete it. au revoir illustration you will not be missed

[skunkes]

anyway

#i dont think the little braid in the back is canon i just thought itd be cute if he had a Hair Ring back there too #a doodley #its okayyy if im improving insanely slow i wont get better if i dont make art that sucks ass <3 #need to keep drawing humans again so i can get back to my skills frm couple yrs ago. admittedly still shitty #also ok listen. idk how ppl stylize faces turned further than just to the side bc like... #like it was ok here bc talon has visible face folds always #i know all faces have landmarks but how do u draw a face like this w.o the folds...ykwim... #i need to go look at more art #and stylization.....ughhhh #its gonna take me like 10 years to get to a point where all my skilled peers were when they were 16. lol

[starrspice]

I want to experiment with art styles drawing sun and moon

BUT MY BRAIN SAID NO ART TODAY

#BUT I WANT TO DRAW #GRRRRRRRRR #ART BLOCK SUCKS ASS #maybe i should try sketching on paper #sometimes when i struggle digitally i do fine on paper #because its easier to work around a mistake than it is to just undo i #idk #i have a cute style for them #but i wanna try drawing them in a more detailed style #less cartoony #this is when i wish i still did the zaza #never had art block when i was high #rip #starr stuff #ignore me #just venting a little

[klonoadoortophantomile]

can u draw ummm balloudy, nailtag (sorry) or basketball x robot flower ^_^ whichever u want

!!!!

#gahh im so sorry this took so long. i hope this is good. #i had so much trouble deciding which ideas to stick with (i didnt even have many ideas tbh..) and then #actually Drawing It but i had fun w this one so i guess it worked out #bfdi #tpot #bfdi price tag #bfdi naily #scribbles #uve like permanently changed the wya i draw these two its awesome. i love critters =3 #ask #hhjeck #background is neon green cuz of that slutch in ep2 btw . lol #bright colors #eyestrain #nailtag #I KEEP FORGETTING TO TAG THE PAIRING NAMES SOBS #sidenote idk why i keep getting ship rqs but its funny i suck ass at drawing shippy stuff

[33max]

me when I remember that I suck and people hate my entire existence

#honestly like if you ever think ‘I’m gonna send this person all the reason I don’t like them’ on anonymous #maybe just take 0.2 seconds to consider how long it might affect them for #like in the last 4 weeks I’ve cried like every day #had to go on new meds #and isolated myself from like most people #so like idk maybe just consider if anonymous hate is worth it #but like I guess people that send anon hate want to hurt you deeply #but like idk man it’s just fucked #didn’t mean to write an essay in the tags #just think it’s absolutely fucked up that I now don’t have a safe space on the internet #and I will remember what those messages said for the rest of my life probs so ouch #rsd sucks ass btw

[sophiethewitch1]

in my hater era

#sophie speaks #tw vent #like. what. what??? #i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin #struggling hugely #had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something #and you know. thats on me #but saying like #im NOT trying?? #i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person #what??? #trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset #idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this #express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time #but then they dont believe you?? #trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes #like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself #i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive #im so tired #ive been suicidal for like 7 years now #my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just #it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit #cripplepunk core lmao #cripple and im going to kill you #this is just geniunely upsetting #i feel like i need a good cry #i really am so tired #i feel like i just dont want to do this #why am i paying for this? why am i doing this? #if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[leronboi]

Uhhh I forgor I drew this a while ago... It's just more gem au stuff cuzzz size differencesss ggrrrrr grrr. Idk I thought Justin would be oblivious to other gems cuz of his position being a diamond but try his best to show affection or something haha

#myart #Justin #Lawrence #gem au #I wanted to draw stuff about the story I had for them #BUT Idk if that's the story I wanna go for cuz I still don't know lol #Maybe a general idea of what I have so far? #Still dunno what the ending will be #I think I'm inconsistent with their sizes XD #I try not to think about it XDD #Just try to have them the same size ish #I hope yall like this one ksjksjksjs #ALSO I want to draw Belle and the Beast #But the Beast is just a ass to draw holy shit #Lik my life gets sucked out of my body #I will try tho XDD

[theinfinitedivides]

also since i've basically been live blogging watching this i'm going to offer up an unpopular opinion. so pls if you are my mutual and have seen this do not hate me if you haven't avoid this post but uh. Ballerina could have been better than it ended up being and i don't know how to feel about that

#film: ballerina #ballerina #ballerina 2023 #ballerina netflix #netflix ballerina #jeon jong seo #park yu rim #kim ji hoon #like we had a perfect 8-10 ep long setup for a series here ok. i get the point was female rage and f*cking over the scum of society #(which they did and i am grateful for) but it felt empty somehow????? too short. not always realistic ik her taking everyone #out like that isn't supposed to be but you're telling me you're running a f*cking gang whose drug making headquarters is underneath #a racetrack/stable (convinced that's the set of the GSoul Blessed MV btw. i recognized it from the ceiling) and none of you have #a f*cking gun. none of you. not even a rifle. just knifes. are we all Chief Seo at this point just without the skills #ffs we didn't even really get to connect to the best friend dynamic and that sucks bc there was so much material to go over #idk. i'm feeling meh about this. the 'i don't regret watching but i wouldn't do it again' type meh and i hate when that happens #frankly the only good thing about this film was Jong Seo kicking ass with the high school student and the two of them burning #Choi alive on the beach with the flamethrower. ty flamethrower halmeoni we appreciate the gift

[keepthetension]

i actually gave up earlier because yt was so laggy, but there was one more missing bit in part 4, prem walking to the cafe where he finds ten sleeping

i don't know why it was cut, because it's nice to see just how affected prem is by their big moment the previous night

and i like that dy is calling prem because dy needs support, but he's immediately concerned as soon as prem says he's not doing okay. i like how these pals support each other! (really wish we'd seen metha and ten giving fire the support he needed this episode, but you can't have everything i guess)

unrelated: anyone else fighting for their lives on yt lately? on firefox with adblock plus and HOLY SHIT it's SO FUCKING BUGGY and the algo recommends SO MUCH MORE unfiltered hot garbage :/

<prev ep 07 missing bit 💚

#cooking crush the series #cooking crush #cooking crush missing bits #idk i wasn't quite feeling it this week? maybe it is simply The Depression but something just felt kinda off #i think it genuinely bugs me that fire had to deal with his big feelings alone? the friend group dynamic is a big part of what i like here #like ofc it's realistic! people aren't always available! just feels unbalanced. and dy having to take care of drunk fire is kinda weak #plus so much of what made me curious about the show was the parent/child dynamics and what it means to be a Good Child #fire is very much a Good Child! but being gay does not a Good Child make! would've been nice to see him work through this with his FRIENDS #but i expected too much for a side character's storyline i suppose #not saying the show sucks ass like i'm still enjoying it and still along for the ride! #i just have some Feelings i guess #OMG ALSO ten's dad WILL slap him but won't take his phone away lollllllll like what a week for bl parenting

[menstits]

fontaines archon quest is probably the first time in genshin that replaying it gives you a new context of how furina acts like its crazy...watching my oomf play when i finished and seeing furina almost on the verge on a breakdown even on the first acts when most people thought she was just the typical chuniibyou ojousama in charge...crazy.

YEAH like... god it's really crazy especially with furina's initial approach at trying to be the archon like... What could have been her own way of doing it if the crowd hadn't immediately shot down her attempt at being genuine . Like how different that was from the way she had to act for the following 500 years... Man.🧍‍♂️

#asks #anonymous #they really have come a long way from the first few arcs #like. mondstadt was clearly a prelude and liyue was funny enough but neither of them was especially emotionally impactful #inazuma sucked ass beyond belief sorry. #sumeru was better to me like the deal with nahida and rukkhadevata was interesting and i liked dottore cameo and like #at least it felt like all the characters involved like. had a purpose and knew each other #because a lot of what bothered me about inazuma was also like how disjointed the cast felt and how superfluous like half of the cast was #like the resistance was so fucking pointless they didn't do anything and i didn't give a fuck about the random npc soldier either #while like... at least dunyarzad in sumeru was more interesting and they handled the theme of like... #terminal illness and chronic illness decently enough #in inazuma i legit wws like who the fuck is this again whenever teppei showed up and the story acted like we were supposed to know him #while like #I'm sooo glad that in fontaine they focused mainly on the playable cast and made them have interesting dynamics amongst each other #AND made them also like. all be present during furina's trial (except wrio and sigewinne i guess but like. that's fine. their deal IS that #they're a bit isolated from the outside world) #or i mean ig sigewinne did show up but she hsrdly said much #like sorry idk why both in inazuma and sumeru they tried to stick a random npc in there tyat we were supposed to get attached to for no #reason. instead of giving more development to the playable characters? and as i said i didn't even mine dunyarzad much because at least #she had like. a purpose in the story. #anyway sorry that i put my longer response in the tag instead of the actual post #ALSO. this gives me high hopes for snezhnaya. god please please be good I've been hyped about genshin russia since i got into the game #I'm not even thinking about natlan I'm scared it's gonna be racist again #anyway. #bye

[kaeyapilled]

im so happy that kaeya was soloing that spiral abyss more than diluc was. finally. the build is working

#nobody was soloing shit it was all bc of the supports and the diluc team comp sucked ass #(i dont have a diluc team comp that doesnt include kaeya) #(i need to leave only one of them in each half because they are fr my only built dps characters) #i never do spiral abyss idk what came over me. winning the weapon banner yesterday made me very inspired to play this game again #and i had run out of resin already #i had even done BOUNTIES. in MONDSTADT. #i finished a desert quest bro #picked up scarabs....

[perilegs]

I wish I could like inquisition bc it's technically a good game and I would love it if it was just a standalone game that had nothing to do with dragon age, but it just doesn't feel like a dragon age game to me.

#inquisition critical #it's the exact kind of game you get as a result of trying to get your game to reach a broader audience instead of sticking to its genre #i dont play rpgs for the combar but still god it feels so bad in inquisition #it feels like an mmorpg #tactical mode sucks ass. it can't even be compared to wath dao and da2 had #why would you take a good series and make a game to it that's meant to appeal to as many people as possible instead of uh. idk! people who #enjoy the genre the game is supposed to be #inquisition feels so bland and lacks personality bc of it all #gh i'm bad at expressing my exact emotions about this but y'know #this isnt related to the game directly but also i hate how everyone wants to turn everything into an open world game #what does it say about the quality of the open world if getting into a closed or semi closed area feels relieving? #but thats a complaint i have for. numerous games. #leevi liveblogs

[cicadagaze]

wanna play clangen but the knowledge that none of my cats can murder each other without crashing the game makes me sad

#cicada blabs #i want dramaaaaa #but murder is not allowed in my clangen </3 #been trying to figure out why it's Like That but have had no luck.... #would probably need to do a fresh install but i!! tried to work on updating my clangen and! i couldn't figure it out!!! #because they changed some shit that requires New Shit #and the New Shit refused to install #and i couldn't figure out the New Program #and like hell i'm gonna ask for help!! #fuck that!! #if i can't figure it out myself or find a guide that works i am just! not gonna do it!!! #also i don't really want the nutrition update anyway bc i remember when it was briefly added to dev #and it was so fucking stressful that i wasn't enjoying the game anymore lol #i like that cats could starve to death bc it's good for story #but it's also just way too stressful #and idk if it'd be any better now #and also updating my clangen is hell because of the mods and additions i have #and having to code each one back in sucks major ass and takes a lot of energy #and i can't just switch away from dev version because of said mods and additions #and i am NOT playing without them!! #i want my eyes and white patches #and i want double patches #and the accessories #i am not playing without them

[filthyjanuary]

feeling sad :(

#sorry this is such a dumb thing to be sad about im a grown ass adult but like two thirds of the people i invited to my birthday #either cant come or said they would then bailed and like #some of them have legit reasons but some of them i'm kind of like :/ ok well i put in so much effort for yall would be really nice #if a crumb of that was reciprocated #idk i dont ask for much on my birthday i just want to have a nice dinner with my friends #and i have friends who like throw the biggest tantrum fusses about their birthdays and make it this entire spectacle #and people still humour them so it's kind of like #idk #do i really suck that bad that you cant make a saturday evening work to like eat good food #idk maybe next year i just wont plan anything #and everyone'll be like BUT SIMA IT'S THE BIG ONE and i'll be like well! i wish it werent! #bc it'll suck even more to have people not come lmao i dont actually think i've ever had a milestone birthday people just dont give a shit #this includes my parents idk like they are nice to me on my birthday but like no birthday was ever like hashtag special #and like the holidays already sucked so bad this year they did not feel like the holidays half the people i got presents for #didnt get me anything which is like fine i dont give presents to get them back but it kind of sucks to not even get a card? a thank you??? #idk this is so stupid i am turning 29 i pay taxes this should not be a big deal #maybe it's bc i feel like half my 20s were pandemic years so it kind of sucks that theyre basically over and idk im just feeling sad and ol #and lonely and just kind of shitty and unlikeable #AND IT'S DUMBBBBB TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST IDK WHY I'M CRYING FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE