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siineko · 2 years

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Side OC - Mika

Just a trial run with a new side OC I made on a whim, Mika! Note: Mika is nonbinary and uses They/She pronouns. Mika mainly works at a.....club.. that offers fairly lewd services. idk what their world wants to call it specifically, but I’ll workshop it perhaps.

NOTE: This story is very NSFW, and contains multiple instances of borderline s//exual content. (Of course emeto as well, but with a slight moment of implied scat-but only implied, as I refuse to actually show any of that off- doesn’t do it for me, but its story relevant) Note 2- IMPORTANT: Also like every character in this story is like,, midway through figuring out their relationships with gender/sexuality, so if any mention of that contemplation/sliight dysphoria (About one sentence of Mika being slightly uncomfortable w/ their breasts), then this perhaps isn’t the story for you

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For this particular story, Mika tries their best to work their shift, when she begins to feel very unwell, though they deny it for as long as they can, seeing as they certainly need the money.

Pictures will be posted to my Google Drive again, seeing as some of their club activities are openly included in the pictures, and I doubt Tumblr would let that slide. (They could, but I won’t risk it again after the whole “marked as sensitive” ordeal) Picture Link: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1sfwlD7XZFXb8DV24Rac6m3uQDpzc717s?usp=sharing

Anyway! Here we go-

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For Mika, the plan was to go to work as normal. They’d serve some food occasionally, chat to guests, and sometimes tend to guests in a different way, if that’s what the dear guest desired. They’d of course have their limits on what she’d do, but overall, many things weren’t a problem. Man? Woman? Neither? Mika didn’t particularly care (as long as the guest was attractive, anyway).

However, tonight was different. They felt a bit off. They were tired, and their stomach felt heavy and bloated. “Hmm, not necessarily a problem”, she thought “some customers like someone with a little more weight to them”.

They continued their job, and all was mostly well, until their stomach began to feel upset, and would occasionally gurgle ominously.

They powered on, however- They really needed the money, and they sure as hell weren’t gonna let a stomachache send them home, after all.

They decided to distract herself with a client- A young person seemed interesting, and kinda cute, in a shy way. They were average height, had blue hair, and was wearing a short skirt.

“Hey, gorgeous, wanna have a bit of fun?” they flirted as they approached the individual. They jumped in surprise “O-oh hello! I- ummm, maybe? th-this is my first time, and I ummmm I don’t know what to do...” Mika smiled “Oh? First time, huh? Don’t worry- We take good care of all of our customers here”! She then proceeded to explain about the club’s services, as the guest blushed more and more. “And, oh I forgot to ask- If you feel comfortable telling me, may I know your name and what pronouns you’d prefer?” Their eyes widened in shock, were they not expecting to be asked? M-My name is Sai and I.... I ummm..” they faltered cautiously before continuing “I’d like if you used... used ummm... She! She and uh, they- both are fine” she fidgeted nervously as she spoke, seemingly judging Mika’s response, if they were to take a guess.

“Well, Sai- you are certainly stunning young lady,” Sai lit up at the mention, “Oh, you can call me Mika, and I prefer they and she as well!” Mika stepped closer to Sai, and crossed their arms under their chest to make it stand out more. They didn’t always like their breasts, and occasionally wore a binder outside of work, but they served their purpose here, and hiding them with this uniform wasn’t really an option. “Now, to get down to business- Would you like me to... tend to you?”

Sai blushed and nodded timidly “I- I’d like that, if you’d be ok with it... I-I’ll pay what I need to”

With that matter settled, Mika went to work. They placed one hand around her waist, and gently placed another on her breast- causing Sai to gasp and blush in surprise. They continued by lifting her skirt, and began to stroke her thigh, while staring at her to judge her reaction. Sai continued to blush furiously, and tilted her hips towards them, giving them the go ahead to go a little further.

They slipped their upper hand into Sai’s shirt, and rubbed at her chest, while her lower hand continued past her thigh, and towards her crotch, where a bulge began to show through her underwear.

Mika chuckled, and rubbed at it the best she could, causing Sai to moan in pleasure.

Mika continued to tease and pleasure Sai for a while, before Sai had enough for the moment, and cut it off, which Mika understood.

Mika finished up dealing with their end of that, and felt their stomach gurgle again. They had honestly almost forgotten about her stomach, and figured that since they already had a break, they would go sit down in the back for a bit.

They found a nice spot, and sat down, leaning back so that their stomach could have room to settle. They were really bloated now, and they were beginning to feel a bit queasy. Perhaps their activity with Sai just jostled them a little too hard, and they hoped that sitting here, and rubbing their upset stomach would help- and burped a few times in an attempt to relieve the pressure, if only a little.

It wasn’t working, and the feeling was getting worse. They felt like they were going to shit themselves, or hurl, and they weren’t sure which, so they moved to the bathroom just in case, while occasional burps made them move their hand to her mouth, as she was constantly afraid that the next one wouldn’t be air.

They reached the stall, and positioned herself, while clutching her stomach in pain- before proceeding to absolutely shit her brains out. The pain didn’t go away, however, and a wave of sudden nausea made her loose their balance, and they caught themselves on the floor, before burping up a small string of vomit, which tasted heavily of the alcohol that they had consumed while entertaining guests (not enough for intoxication, mind you- just enough for the guests to feel like Mika was included in the fun, and not just watching them drink).

“Ouuugh- *hurp* not like this- I can’t be sick now, I...I have to get back to work...” Mika protested their predicament, and clasped their hand firmly over her mouth, stifling back a multitude of gags, and swallowing down any of their stomach contents that dared to try rebelling.

After composing themselves to the point where she didn’t think they were going to puke, they cleaned themselves up and went back out to work- as their break was definitely ending by this point.

This brought her to their next customer, a feminine individual wearing... a very revealing outfit. They had long brown hair, short shorts, and... and a top that was so short that it looked in danger of revealing their breasts if it was even bumped too hard. However, they looked surprisingly timid, especially for how they dressed. Maybe they were still getting used to dressing like that? Mika could understand if that was the case, as they took a bit to get used to their own outfit for work.

Mika knew they had to be professional, and not get attached, but even their appearance was beginning to turn them on a little.

“Good evening, beautiful- Are you here for pleasure tonight?” Mika asked, trying their best to be as charming as possible. It was already their job, but they really wanted the opportunity to play with those- *ahem* They were getting ahead of themselves.

“Ah- Y-yes, I am.. I’m here for p-pleasure.” They blushed, and seemed shy, but determined. Mika was thoroughly aroused. If they were being perfectly honest, they quite liked when timid bottoms asked for it from them.

They asked their usual questions- If this was their first time, name and pronouns, etc.

“My name is.. Sena. I prefer they and she, and umm.. this may be my first time here but, umm..” Sena blushed “...I don’t mind how you start... I wanna be touched...”

Mika thought this was a dream come true- Same pronoun choice? Unexperienced? A bottom who desperately wants their touch? If it weren’t for the fact that they still felt hot, sweaty, and queasy, this would be the perfect night. But- they REFUSED to let their stomach ruin this for them, and focused at what was at hand.

After some flirting, Mika couldn’t take the slow pace anymore- They began to fondle Sena’s (quite large and attractive) breasts, and slipped their other hand between their thighs and to their crotch.

Sena blushed and moaned “Please... more... I beg you...”

Mika felt themselves going crazy from arousal, and leaned in closer. They lifted Sena’s shirt just a little and continued to fondle their breast, as they leaned in to lick Sena’s now exposed, and quite hard, nipple.

Sena moaned again and leaned forward a little, which only pressed those gorgeous breasts closer. Mika took note, and went back and forth between licking and sucking at their nipple.

They slipped their other hand deeper into Sena’s crotch, and could now feel that they were getting wet- And honestly, if Mika was being honest, they were starting to get wet themselves.

Unlike Sai, who had her fun after a bit of groping, Sena begged for more “P-please! Harder! I- I think I HNNG--” they cut off as they moaned and climaxed from Mika’s touch.

With this bit of work finished, they both caught their breath while talking, and to Mika’s surprise, Sena offered their number. Normally they would be more apprehensive, especially with a client, but whether it was due to their genuine attraction to them, or what may be the beginnings of a fever clouding their judgement, they accepted, and gave their own in return, and Sena left on their way after a little while, leaving Mika alone, resting on the couch that she and Sena had been using.

Now without the distraction of work, Mika could clearly feel her bloated stomach pressing firmly against their skirt, and another gurgle rippled through it. They lifted a hand to it, trying again to rub away their discomfort, but they were really feeling sick now.

It was fine for a little while, but they had really overexerted herself while tending to Sena, and now they sat there, leaned back on this couch, while the room felt hotter than ever.

They burped a few times to relieve the pressure, but not only did it not work, but each burp felt wetter, until the last one ended in a gag. “Oh gods.. I feel.. I think I’m gonna be sick!” They pulled themselves off the couch, desperate to make it back to the bathroom, and their stomach contents swirled with their movement.

A wave of nausea overtook her, and she clutched her stomach as well as her mouth as it filled with thick saliva. “Ughh my stomach... so nauseous... gotta get to a toilet... gonna puke...” They thought one last time before heaving sharply, with such force that it caused them to double over and use their hand to brace themselves, leaving their mouth uncovered.

Without warning, they suddenly couldn’t hold it anymore, and multiple thick waves of sick poured from their mouth, and splattered onto the floor, barely giving them a moment to even breathe.

With a moment in-between, they could spare a glance around them, and saw as the remaining people were now staring.

“Nonononooo not *urp* not here... Not with people watching... gotta get out... so hot... bathroom... I’m gonna-”

She wanted to move, but she was getting dizzy, making their stomach swirl more than before, and she braced their hands on their legs, afraid that they’d fall over if this continued- as vomit shot up their mouth, into their cheeks, and unable to gather the strength to fight back, puked up a few more waves of watery vomit.

Once the waves of vomit stopped for the time being, she stumbled back and collapsed into the couch, and lacked the strength to walk to the bathroom. They were unbearably hot, dizzy, their stomach churned, and the nausea didn’t seem to go away.

Perhaps they had caught something, and to make things worse, their gut gurgled wetly, and they needed the bathroom again... This was still going to be a long night...

Note about characters: - Mika (AFAB) is nonbinary, uses They/She, and though this job wasn’t their first choice, circumstances were what they were- They aren’t fond of their work outfit, and aren’t always comfortable with how “On Display” their breasts are in it, but they deal with it for work, and wears a binder while in their personal clothing - Saihe “Sai” (AMAB), goes by She/They, and is still trying to figure out her relationship with gender, as she only realized she was a girl recently, and is trying things out - Sena (AFAB) is Nonbinary, uses They/She, and is experimenting with their sexual/gender identity as well as trying to see if they are actually ok with having boobs or not, though they often bind

//Please Don’t Reblog to Non-Kink Blogs//

#Siin's OCs #emetophilia

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goldengoddess · 2 years

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being best friends with daisy calloway ♡

authors note: i’m aware that only one (1) person in the entirety of tumblr wants this but i Also want it so enjoy my favorite sunshine girlie (sorry this is a bit short!)

request: haii ik requests r closed so no pressure what so ever but maybe hcs for being besties w daisy calloway?? much much much love🫶🫶

what would it be like being besties with daisy calloway !?

only willow hale really knows

this only my biggest dream ever

my girl is the most sincere person on this planet

a friendship with her includes lots of chocolate cake of course

the two of you have a monthly tradition of trying out different shops in philly

daisy will call ahead, of course, and shut down the entire restaurant just for the two of you

and it’d an entire night of sweets, leaving the two of you in a borderline delirious sugar state

being best friends with daisy would include SO many sleepovers

idk i feel like since daisy never really had a positive experience with friends growing up she would just Really want this classic cliche experience

and daisy calloway doesn’t do anything half way so these sleepovers are another level of iconic

i’m talking all the snacks, especially your favorite ones

pillow forts

every single rom com to ever exist

face masks

slippers that she had rose especially design for occasions like this one

neither of you would fall asleep until like five am after binge watching stranger things

she would also totally be the type to teach you how to ride a motorcycle for the first time, the same way ryke taught her

you and ryke would also be bffs

he’s told you multiple times just how happy he is that daisy has someone like you in her life

the three of you have a sort of weekly brunch thing going

you and ryke are the only ones who indulge daisy’s “i have a theory” game anyways

basically: daisy is the greatest best friend in the entire world

#addicted series #calloway sister series #calloway series #calloway sisters #daisy calloway #daisy calloway x reader #daisy calloway imagine #loren hale #lily hale #ryke meadows #rose calloway #connor cobalt #kbritchie #kbr

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scyllnovus · 8 months

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I promise this is my last post tonight (it's okay I don't believe me either) but coming back to Tumblr after so many changes in my life is so fucking weird to me. Almost everyone I used to interact with on here revealed their true colors and are subsequently out of my life... Those that remain, well, you know where you stand with me 💜

I nuked my old account cause it had been a good 6 years since my last post on there anyway and there were just a lot of lingering bad feelings simply looking at it...

There's a lot of hurt.. The memories are pleasant but the people were terrible, and a lot of the context has taken on fucked up form knowing what I know now.

I still cry over one in particular, who decided I wasn't even worth a goodbye before we went from borderline romantically involved to I'm blocked forever....

But you decided that manipulative bitch was worth more than the potato who consoled you in those long nights when she made you feel shitty..

But even with all the heartache I still feel over you, the one I called my closest friend, the first person I fell for and wanted to be with since becoming polyam... The betrayal, the sting... Gods I hope you're well, even though I know the odds of us ever crossing paths again are all but non-existent... But, let me just put that emotion back in the box for now...

Anyways..

Now I'm here, a new blog, a new (lack of) gender, a lot of new, wonderful, absolutely gorgeous people in my life, a whole ass polycule of support, and idk... I never have to hide myself again...

Sorry for the emotional tangent, it's hard not to talk about when I think of him.

So whether you're here cause I was horny on main, an old friend, or one of the lovely ladies that inspired me to come back here... Thanks for being here 💜

NOW BACK TO YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED HORNYPOSTING

#might delete later #scyll sadposting #oops the trauma slipped

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robot-breakfast · 1 year

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Okay. Okay. Okay. This might be an incomprehensible series of rambling and I think I might be the only one that ships this but hear me out. I kind of just thought of it so it might be half baked but I’ve been rattling them in my brain for like 2 days now. Scout’s a guy who is an enabler of stupid shit if it means it’ll get a few laughs with a mouth that runs a mile a minute, whereas Sniper is a recluse with minimal social skills who defaults to quietly listening and being a professional™ because he’s a little unsure what else to do and ,on the other hand, we have Miss Pauling. And she is a friggin nerd. an absolute dork. Sure, she’s professional™ like sniper but she’s only slightly less socially awkward, like when she tries to awkwardly crack jokes and do impressions of the mercs’ voices when giving them contracts. I view Pauling as being a middle ground between the Scout and Sniper sort of. Sure, she’s stern when she’s under a lot of stress and I know that the fandom likes to portray her as the team mom exclusively but CMON. Despite her high work load, she’s completely down to DM DND campaigns with the mercs, a member the Teufort bookclub and gets excited over Shakespeare reenactments in the park. She’s a professional dork that’s able to loosen up a little. And Scout ,a man with no impulse control (and he himself has a borderline nerdy interest in Tom Jones) ,egging her on is endlessly cute to me.

Although I doubt she’d infodump about her interests like Scout does, Sniper is perfectly willing listen to both of them talk his ears off if given the chance. Speaking of Sniper and Pauling, from what we hear about Pauling and Sniper’s ‘vision quest’, I feel like they’d make a good blunt rotation?? Like if Pauling had more free time she’d be down to chill and smoke a blunt with sniper.

Scout is always physically affectionate, ready to hug Sniper and Miss Pauling at any given notice, and since they’re both touch-starved they absolutely melt. (Side note: If you think Sniper is touch-starved, Miss Pauling is a whole ‘nother level. At least Sniper has his family, which is something Miss Pauling doesn’t have)

Miss Pauling definitely struggles with basic self-maintenance like eating and sleeping properly ,and since Sniper is a little awkward at being verbally or physically affectionate, he’ll help to lighten her workload by driving where she needs to be and helping her bury dead bodies to spend more time with her. Once they’re more closer though, he’ll let her sleep in his van and tuck her into bed while he sleeps on the floor. And getting up early to forage for stuff he can use to make a decent breakfast for the both of them

And okay this is a random thought but although Scout thinks of Pauling as ‘classy’ so way out of his league, but honestly the girl doesn’t know her wines at all. Wouldn’t be surprised if she never has the time to cook and has been subsisting on cheap takeout for years up til this point. And I’m just imagining scout and her casually going out to get fried chicken when possible kinda like that scene from the Simpsons some enchanted evening where they go to the drive through in fancy clothes and dance dorky in the car. Or better yet, scout learning how to cook (this manchild has also been subsisting off of cheap take out for years) and actually making Miss Pauling a nice meal for once. Though since she’s busy she’s making calls for contracts while eating, but lets scout know how much she appreciates him

(Admittedly I talk more about Miss Pauling’s dynamics with scout and sniper + Miss Pauling in general as opposed to Sniper and scout’s dynamic. I want to elaborate more on my brain rot but I might just send an ask about this or just make my own tumblr post about it idk. Thanks for listening to my Sniper x Scout x Miss Pauling manifesto)

#tf2 #tf2 scout #tf2 miss pauling #tf2 sniper #tf2polyswagpropaganda

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von-frappe · 2 years

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what are some overrated characters in your opinion, can be from any show/movie etc.

I'm mostly just gonna do glee because that's what my blogs mostly about, but I'll complain about other characters at the end for funsies.

also I think the term "overrated" is weird but these are basically just the popular characters that I personally don't fuck with as much

Sam Evans

he is fine, but when I see the excessive praise he gets for literally anything and how people sweep over some pretty bad character moments, I'm left thinking "he really not that good"

he can be lovable, I like some of his relationships and he has some interesting storylines but I'm just not on the sam dick riding train really.

Quinn fabray

For my taste, Quinn just lacked that special something that would have compelled me to want to see more of her because by the end of s3 I was completely fine with her leaving for good, and I wish she hadn't returned in s4 because the way she acted was borderline the same way she did at the beginning of s1 which made her whole story seem like a waste of time.

idk I get the appeal in some ways but she doesn't appeal to me, and I feel like they just kept on rehashing the same three points with her which just got annoying and exhausting to watch after a certain point

Mike Chang

the unproblematic king. Call me old fashioned but a character having flaws is what actually makes them interesting to watch, or even idk... if the character does literally anything. sure he doesn't do "problematic" things... but he literally does nothing to all which isn't fun to watch

that being said I like harry shum jr. and think he's really talented and it would have been nice if he got more, but he didn't.

Sebastian Smythe

this little rat man is awful truth be told, he's a mediocre villain at best who's whole "redemption" consists of him realising that maybe calling someone a fat unlovable bastard is actually not very nice, not that it matters because the next time we see him his personality reverts to what it was like when we first saw him.

Brittany Pierce

are we surprised?? I get that there's a healthy dose of brittany slander on Tumblr, but not liking brittany on tiktok is like kicking a puppy, there's plenty of "what?? how could anyone not like brittany??" and it's so weird to me that brittany get's viewed as so universally loved and nice, when she's really a massive cunt to everyone half the time

now I don't mind so much that she's cunt, I just find it annoying that both the show and the fans are doing some next level gaslighting to convince me she isn't one.

now I'm going to quickly complain about other non glee characters

lola pacini (degrassi): 80% of the time she just reads like a manic pixie dream girl bc she mostly just supports other but doesn't have much depth with her own character, has literally one singular enjoyable storyline

Simon lewis (the mortal instruments): I read these books a while ago and I hadn't thought about them much since but I was recently reminded that this incel, pick me, 'nice guys finish last 🤓" bitch is my enemy

s2 & 3 cat valentine (victorious): she's basically like brittany pierce, which is an insult, s1 cat my beloved tho x

rose Tyler (doctor who): loved her season one but the way she progressed in season two made her really grating to me, and I wasn't a fan of her with 10,, rose with 9>>>>

Paige Micalchuck (degrassi): I loved her in the first three seasons but after that it was an aggressive decline of character

#glee #glee opinions #anti sebastian smythe #anti Quinn fabray #anti brittany pierce #anti mike chang #anti sam evans

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seokjinsonlyone · 1 year

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Oohh I don't know if my comments have been sending 💔 Tumblr has been so rude lately about not allowing me to send asks or write comments sometimes, but YES what you said about Hobi!! A few months back when he posted that picture of him in nothing but a robe in his hotel room I saw a comment on Twitter or Insta idk that was like "He fucks, and we have to accept that.😭" and I was like 'accept'? Bitch I support the Hoseok slut campaign full throttle.

He is so mmm, I think how much of a flirt he is, is often overlooked but when you observe his body language and his space presence, especially now?? There's this air of confidence that you know comes from a man who's got it going ON!!

Would meet your eyes from across the room, would make you get all shy would just a glance, would basically fuck you on the dance floor with how scandalous your moves are together, and would send you home in the morning limping, sore, hair a hot mess, with nothing but a cute kiss like he wasn't a demon the night before.

And he is soooo foul for that because I just know he gives you the boyfriend experience afterward. Would wake you up in the morning with slow sllooowwwww kisses all over your body, would let you pick out anything from room service and feed it to you in bed.

Even when you're trying to sneak out early in the morning because you're trying to be respectful of the fact that he's an idol and not down for anyone clingy, he'd feel you leaving and look at you half-lidded, chest bare, voice deep, as you try to find the panties that he no doubt hid from you somewhere to...enjoy later...and hits you with the "leaving so soon baby? I'm hurt."

and when he can see in your face that you got butterflies in your stomach from that one phrase, he continues to push it omg, in this sweet, borderline mocking tone. "C'mon, I couldn't have been that bad right?" and makes soft mouth noises like you're some type of animal that needs to be coaxed back into bed with him, and honestly, with the way ya'll went at it last night you wouldn't be surprised if you were. And then he sits up a bit and the sheet drifts a little further down his waist and he spreads his legs a little, just enough to draw attention to the area and you look down and see he's already hard and dripping pre, enough to leave the sheet damp.

The next time he speaks it comes out breathless and rough and he stares directly into your eyes as it he says it..."because daddy can make it up to you if he was. Nice and slow if that's how you like it. I don't mind setting aside a day for you baby. I'll figure you out, don't you worry. Just come back to bed and let me show you how good I can be for you, yeah? I'll let you tell me what to do...let you use me until you're dripping on both of us, okay?"

Yeah...you dont leave the bed until at least mid-day. And when you wake up to those wet, hot, lips of his all over you as he holds up the breakfast menu for the five-star hotel...you start to see why there are so many NDAs in this industry because this man is too much.

Is a slut so he sends you back with one of his shirts and boxers on. Does not let you leave in anything else and promises to dry clean your dress for you. Lets you take one of his personal drivers back to where you need to be. Kisses you long and hard on the mouth as you have to leave, then sweet on the temple, and says "special treatment for my special girl." Gives you his number with the note that he might not always respond, but if you need anything, physical or otherwise, he better be the first person you call. Walks you down the car and doesn't go back inside until he sees you drive away safely because he's sick like that. -🌻

SHE CAME TO THE PARTY WITH A SWITCH ON THE GLOCK 😭😭😭😭😭 DEAD IM DEAD THERES CASUALTIES

like U SO RIGHT about this bc hobi seems to value efficiency nd if u was already there for the night you might as well make the most of the day too 🤷‍♀️

but fr fr the nail on the coffin for me truly was you saying he wouldn’t go back inside until you drove away safely LIKE THE ABSOLUTE SLUTTIEST THING A MAN CAN DO IS CARE ABOUT YOUR WELL-BEING AND HOBI SO WOULD GIRL U GOT ME PROJECTILE VOMITTING GOODBYE

🧎‍♀️🚶‍♀️🏃‍♀️

#i been listening to yg nd 21 savage all day today sorry if i’m more thuggish nd ratchet than usual 💀💀💀#open discussion

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phoenixborn · 2 years

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9, 10, 11, 12, and 14?

Spicy mun asks

9: What has been the biggest mistake you’ve made since you started RPing?

Maybe that on an another site before coming to Tumblr I wrote smut when I was a minor. Before the witch hunt begins along with callout posts: I learned 75% of my English through reading fanfictions then roleplaying. NOBODY during that time told me it was forbidden and I was like it's fiction, it's not even me who is having sex in the story so I didn't see any problems with this. I'm Hungarian. Here the age of consent is 14. Before Tumblr, I had no idea that people can get into legal trouble because of this and when I learned about it at first I thought it's a joke. Those who I written with also knew my age, I never made it a secret. Now I've grown up and realized long before this is indeed a mistake & I made all of my blogs +18 even to interact with due to my muses nature, backstories, topics.

And of course I have not and will not write smut with a minor.

I would like to add that I don't feel assaulted or exploited because of my inexperience and probably most of my past roleplay partners were minors too. The irl sexual harassment was much worse & impactful than writing stories with sex in them.

10: What’s something you really hate seeing on your dash that seems to be popular with almost everyone else?

I don't think there's a thing like this? If someone's writing doesn't entertain/excite/inspire me I simply don't follow. So my dash is perfect💖

11: What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to RPing?

Tumblr's inconsistency with notifications hands down. I get notifications of being tagged in something literal months ago. Or that my ask got answered. So far I haven't noticed a delay with reblogs.

Oh and people who shit on female OCs because, idk think before even reading the info that they are self inserts and only want to fuck the canon characters. That's not why I slowly built up a historical noble house woven so deep into Hungarian history, not why I spent more research for my pirate blog than I did for my literal matura exams combined, not why I watched hours of singing explaining by vocal coaches, not why I studied Scott Adkins' borderline impossible movements which are not CGI.

12: What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to the fandom you RP in?

As @winters-club has touched on the subject, those who are 'You MUST portray this character's CANON sexuality otherwise it's ERASURE and you're a terrible/homophobic person.'

Especially if those people actively harass writers instead of minding their own fucking business.

The most common victims of this are those who write Vaggie (also how come that I haven't seen many complaints that Alastor fucks when he's supposed to be asexual? This is NOT an attack on any Alastor muns, you write him however you want, I just noticed this.), Winter is not the only person I know who had a struggle with it. Curate your own dash if you don't want to see it, don't follow people who dare to defy canon, block tags and don't harass them. And as a bisexual who only felt romantic desire towards women irl, I find myself not giving a flying fuck. It's called creativity and so what if the writers want to explore other possible romantic plotlines? Let me tell you a secret: there's no erasure the slightest. Why? Because the sexuality of the character in question is CANON. A few independent writers on a site will not change that.

14: Without naming anyone specific, have you ever avoided someone simply because they RP with one of your RP partners? If so, why?

I didn't and don't avoid anyone just because they write with my rp partners. I actually don't even understand this question, everyone is free to interact, be friends with as much people as they want, it's not a choosing game and two people go to a separate corner to play.

#🔥 ooc🔥 | out of flames #As the saying goes now the tea is scalding hot #Also I don't want to even hear about a callout post about me for not suspecting that such laws exist #while my classmates were fucking like rabbits since they were 12. This UwU minor 100% pure mentality is bullshit. BUT AS I'VE SAID BEFORE:#now I see why is this iffy and will never do it myself.

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ikeafleshlight · 5 days

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my mate had her first breakup less than a week ago. it didn't teach me shit. currently trying my VERY best to make sure she doesn't get too attached to another guy. he's my age. my mate's a year younger than you.

it was weird. it'a the first time i've ever seen it so close. i've never really had a friend like her before. physically there and just as weird as i am. two borderlines causing our nation to need financial compensation.

i jokingly threatened i'd text you if she started dating him. she sounded hurt. like you're the worst that has ever happened to me. and that's funny 'cause she's seen me have a psychosis and also be in the ward. maybe i looked very cool doing it. i did have dyed hair and dead eyes. still do. maybe being unmedicated made me hotter.. thoughts..

i don't stalk your socials. haven't in a long ass while. well the tumblr doesn't count. it's tumblr. hey- i even blocked your Spotify! that's something. i'm not going to cross the boundaries. i'll stop looking at the homer ass pfp in wonder. also.. v good music taste.

sometimes i wish we could just talk. no strings attached. no one but us would know. and i'd finally be able to hear your perspective on things again. i know it's bad but i wish we could just talk things out. clear things out. hit it and quit it. no strings attached.

i don't know if you're still with him but i hope he's doing better and is treating you good. i choose to just assume that. it feels better to imagine you loved and cared for. by the way, Project Zomboid? so good. i died very quickly and maybe cried a bit. in a manly way. so manly. with a little shriek at the end.

it's hard to like other people. i don't compare them to you. but i do compare the way i'm feeling. i don't know.. there was this one girl. Linda. she was sweet, helpful and had an admirable perspective.

she was deported.

yeah that was a little weird. maybe a sign i should let the whole crush/love thing go. it's just not as interesting without the way you made me snort.

i had a dream a few months back that you moved here. and i took you home and we just talked. it sucked a bit to wake up. i know it's bad that i still feel this way. but i don't want to feel bad about that. there are other things to regret. i don't regret ever loving you. and god how good it felt to love you. with every cell of my fucking being.

i think i'm scared you'll forget me. but i also really hope you will. be fully moved on. have that wall down and not even remember my name. the thought is painful but it also makes me smile.

so pissed and petty i'll never get to show you my apartment or who i am now. but hey.. in another life, eh? no, not really. i'm glad i had you in this one. and yeah, sometimes i itch with how much i miss you, but that's fine. just biology and psychology rawdogging. idk. science words.

i'll never be able to be your guy friend. that makes me want to eat drywall. really rip into that shit with me teef.

do you ever think of me? probably not. i think of you mostly when drama happens. did you hear about the Watcher thing? so insanely hilarious and also sad.

i know you won't see this. random people probably will. i guess i should be talking to them instead.

hey, there's still girl. i don't know her anymore but i used to. the way she talks about the world.. her perspective on things - it makes you care for the world so much more. and her humor? it hurts how much you laugh. she's the entire field of vegitation around that large fucking tree on a sunny day. running to that tree is what it's like to come back to her. video it and call it pure cinema. don't be an ass to her if you ever meet her. and you will know when it's her. she'll take your attention away fron whatever you'll be doing, and you'll instinctively want to get her attention. that's how i met her. and that's been every day since.

yeah take your meds if you're mentally ill. don't be an asshole. go to therapy. don't hold childhood grudges. and don't tell your friends how you feel! they'll make you do dumb things for your mental health. grr grrr woff why the FUCK was i talking about things when i was episoding i shouldvr been smocking crack fucking fucc

anyways

yeah. well this sucks.

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dopaminergicaddictions · 4 months

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So I might give up at this point. With a little math: today 1/7 is 90 days since the capsules....

Appearantly 2/20 is 90 days from the vape.... fuck that shit.

I'm not listening to my own brain call me my deadname for another 44 days.

I'm not doing this shit anymore. Every night before I fall asleep i hear laughing in my ear ON THE PILLS. I know I'm falling asleep when I hear loud internalized auditory hallucinations. Once I hear a few i fall asleep. My hallucinations are externalized cause i moved them out of my head in November cause they drove me crazy in October cause all of it was internalized.

I did not vape that much from October 10th to November 22nd. I took tincture for two days. Late November before the 22nd. Like 8 mgs and 20 or 26 another day. Two days in a row one was like 8 and the other somewhere between 20-26.

Everyone thinks I'm delusional. They think you're my delusion. And the worse part is that the longer this hallucination lasts the more delusional i feel.

The horrible therapist asked me what if February comes and goes and you're delusional. When we briefly brushed over it and I said well at that point I'll know I was delusional and ill never be delusional again.

Do I think I'm delusional truly in my heart? Do I think everything is coincidental and you're not reading my tumblr and I'm crazy? No. I know you love me even if I don't hear from you in February.

But if I don't and I still have the voice the verdict is in- I'm a schizophrenic person and I need to kill myself. If you show up and I still have the hallucination then idk what to think cause I'm not delusional. But my whole life is a hallucination.

I think you're showing up. I don't think it's coincidental but once I saw that 1/7 was 90 days I held my suicide object and I almost did it. Cause if I'm schizophrenic I'm killing myself.

If it's bipolar I'm killing myself.

If it's depression with psychotic features I'm killing myself.

If it's borderline I'm killing myself.

If it's ptsd I'm killing myself.

If it's schizoaffective/schizotypal I'm killing myself.

If it's genetic psychosis cause of my mother's mystery Russian father who we know nothing about his medical history I'm killing myself cause then there is no end date.

Idk if I'm going to make it to day 90 of the vape which is 2/20. I want to but if the hallucination doesnt stop and you don't show up, I'm fucking schizophrenic.

Like I said I think you will but even if you do if this hallucination doesn't stop then it's permanent.

I won't take medication. I can't get anymore addicted to these benzos. I can't keep listening to my brain laugh at me and call me my deadname. But i can't lose my personality. I'm still the same dorky, silly guy I've always been but I'm a lot more suicidal.

I'm really trying to hold on but I very well may end it soon.. I want to be here for February. 15th or 16th cause I think that's the day I will hear from you. But I may still be the crazy guy with a voice following me around.

I can't live like that forever.

Idk what to do. I just wish a plane would hit my house and kill me while everyone and every animals in my house was on the other side of it unhurt.

If February 20th comes and it's not gone and I'm delusional I can't lie I'm buying a fucking pistol permit and I'm blowing my brains out.

I will not live as some crazy schizophrenic.

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f0xd13-blog · 6 months

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Listen and I say this and then i go online and mariah carey was sued for singing all i want for christmas... WHO TF OWNS A CHRISTMAS SONG? this is insane!

I don't like to call it white patriarchy tho coz why do you think it's only men and white people? You have them snakes also.. just look at kamala each time biden needs to speak something delicate there she goes with her color. Lol

Edit: can't post anymore.... idk why my dudes think that i'm always concentrated on this. Can't you text people and do other stuff at the same time? I do the same... but I writte on tumblr

They legit think i'm like in front of a computer like in the old days just typing on tumblr... ahaha

2 edit: why would I like you and pretend i'm friends with someone when I don like what they represent? What's the point of fake peace pacts? No nobody be making peace with that it only goes back to the same bullshit where they are on and top we go back to live our miserable lives and i know that's what most people want coz they love to ignore them people in need is such a hassle to think about that "hate war and people getting killed and I gotta see it on the news... just starve to death in silence ok? " ....no way my dude. I ain't your friend and you are definitely my rival! I don't like phony shit and you can't even make people care when it's forced for example i didn't believed two shits on that mjf storyline actually kind of disrespectiful since jews are using queers and gays to go againts us but whatever I'm not the boss here what I can do is just put you in your place when I have the chance. Better be real and show you I ain't your friend and that I don like you... i'm not here to include jews while you have no respect for our name lol at the same time why not humanize our rivarly.. why ignore it? Why try to make it seem like the dude isa good person when you have his country and his religion going wacko and killing people? Is that what happened to the other dude that wasn't even a legit muslim? NO HIS CAREER WAS DESTROYED AFTER THAT. No i don't have to pretend that is ok because it ain't.. it's called privilge something that jews always had and play the victims and i'm about to break their bubbles.

Soooo when a muslim kills every muslim gets fired when a jewish kills they form a pact with a gay and a gay character? Ok...

Oh and don forget that he went on national tv to say "i'm a jewish" for no fucking reason and nobody was able to go on tv and speak on our behalf when you're winning money our of our thing... clap clap clap.

....plus and my origins are pakistani in punjab i dob even know shit about bollywood. India is big and we aren't all the same imagine their descents from the west 🤣😭 i like all my indian primos anyways but to put it into perspective it is the same as trying to make a brazilian represented by a mexican and yess we can be that different LMAO

I gotta keep it clean also... i don understand people's over obsession with their countries and nationalities and then be like "race doesn't maattaaah" bitch is the opposite! Nationality doesn't matter, i can change language, territory, friends and go to another country and be that nationality and this is also part of the problem why immigrants are treated like shit and then we have people over obsessed with nationality ok that also happens with race but that actually makes sense to focus on.. you cannot change your race, you either accept it or be unhappy and usually you just accept it but my point is, your race is your color, your facial characteristics what people see it, the way you move your body the way you jump, your dna, your voice... it's what you are! Unchangeable so that is what should be important not nationality and the audacity of being super freaky with your nationality sometimes turns into borderline nationalism and patriotism and doesn't make sense at all coz you have (or should, looking at you ukraine lol) every sort of race living at your country and you don even relate with most of them coz we are that differenf. So how does it make sense to say i'm half japanese half whatever? Dude that's a nationality wha does that even mean? "I'm 20 per cen danish and 5 per cent french and 4 per cent italian" dude you are indo european or and immigrant with another race now stfu if you are mixed than it's that mix asian and black = blackasian. Dan it ain't that hard.

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la-mortt · 8 years

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wasted youth idk

sometimes i think about how sad and boring my entire youth since 2011 was. when i finally started to separate myself from the stupid people i once called friends. like when i got older meaning like 14 and i realized more and more how stupid all of the real life friends around me where. i'm literally talking about pure stupidity being dumb, intolerant, homophobe, borderline fascist and just disgusting.

what i always loved the most is how fucking dumb it was that it is was not possible to accept the fact that i'm not equally stupid and not interested in these friendships anymore. no one could just leave me the fuck alone and simply fuck off.

i like ended all of my rl friendships for a reason but shifting more and more to internet friendships which was much better for myself started the most fucked up bullying against me.

you were the stupid people all i wanted was separation. going to school, don't talk to any of you, go home, graduate one day and never ever talk to or even see any of you again.

in my entire life.

my real life "situation" was so fucked up my entire life was nothing but tumblr, skype, facebook so on. i just wanted to live my life but ok.

i was 15 and the only thing i wanted to do was die.

my first blog was about nothing but depression, suicide etc. i reblogged everything from blades to pills or people just killing themselves. all in black and white. gifs of people cutting themselves.

yeah it was so fucked up. i was so fucked up.

my best friend was just 100km away from me and i only met her twice. it was killing me. just 100 fucking km.

the funny thing is that almost off my time here on tumblr is deleted from my brain its just gone. barely anything is left - only good things that happened but we are talking about a few events i can count with one hand.

I N L I K E 3 Y E A R S

being here was the worst and best time of my life.

i received so many messages from anonymous people and followers and i felt more valued by them than i ever did before in all of my rl friendships. no joke.

tbh all of us would have needed a therapist instead of reblogging gifs about cutting, pills and suicide but what tumblr showed me at the time was that i'm not alone with my problems.

i wish that i had spend more time with people in person and not just online because the only thing that haunts me still is the fact that i never did the stuff you normally do from like 15 to 20 years old.

it feels like a totally wasted youth.

something more personal:

i don't miss anyone from that time except my best friend and i will never forgive myself for just disappearing from your life. i wish we would have met more often.

i never had a connection to any other friend like i had to you.

wherever you are i wish you the best for your entire life.

i lost the only photo we've ever had together. fml.

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tkfluff-fanatic · 9 months

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IL ABT THE MEOTEOR SHOWER I SAW U RALK ABR IR DID Y HAVW FUN!!!!!!i don’t remember what else u said in that. tumblr. what is tumblr… idk how this works. :33 WHY IS IR BOLD NOW. 🦴🦴

I HAD SO MUCH FUN BRO my dad called me a Jew for trying to sell him to my friend and I was like 😦😦😦😦😦 I was horrified and then he went on a rant about how capitalism is ruining this generation and I was like. Ok Aco! He's fucking crazy. I wonder how did that man and my conservative ass mother produce a borderline anarcho socialist

Also it's a post. On Tumblr you don't post tumblrs you post posts, bone anon

#ask #🦴 anon #⭐ ;; zaharije #tw antisemitism

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beneathascorpionsky · 11 months

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OC Questions:

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

28. Your most dangerous OC?

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

33. Your shyest OC?

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

Have fun :D (also this tab has been sitting open for a hot minute and I forgot to send it, crow brain at minimum power)

5. oh that's. really tough one. Probably a tie between Shyshie and Kwet with maybe Lily and Serpens tied for second place. Shyshie just has such an energy, but Kwet is so personal. For a long time Lily was a top favorite and I feel like she represents a very richly creative time of my life. and Serpens just feels like. He deserves to be well known for some reason.

19. Nickaia. I don't talk about her a lot but she was a very early oc, who was just a borderline Lego Ninjago self insert, who turned into an actual oc in an original story and she really represented a lot of my fears about growing up and puberty especially, i came up with this whole story about some illness she caught that turned her skin gray and prevented her from developing (physically at least) into an adult. Then for a long time I forgot about her, then a few years ago remembered she existed and kinda overhauled her into an alien cause I no longer had a story for her to fit into as a human. She and I have changed a lot and no longer really resemble each other any more, but she's still very dear to me.

28. Most dangerous oc

.... a lot of my ocs probably wouldn't be all that safe to hang out around. But at the same time I feel like a lot of them wouldn't be too awful unprovoked. On terms of just like sheer power, the Wyvern who is an antagonist, but not strictly a villain, in my fantasy story. She's an immortal dragon who enjoys meddling in the lives of mortal as relief from the intense boredom of living for thousands of years

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like lets see. I did shyshie for the last one, so lets do Kwet for this one. I feel like he'd had a photography blog that Aveth talked him into running so he would have a hobby aside from obsessively working on his scientific projects. The blog would be pretty bland and utilitarian and the pictures probably wouldn't be very interesting. He'd have 1 follower and it's just Aveth.

33. Your shyest OC?

uh well. Originally it was supposed to be Shyshie but she refused and turned into a feral child who is loud and causes all the problems. I'm not sure now. maybe Blue? he is a shy lil bby lizard who just wants to sit on his dad's shoulder and eat soup.

41.

uh well i mean maybe a few times I've gotten gift art from friends if that's what you mean. but most of the character art i have is either drawn by me, I ordered it, or got it from an art trade/artfight. And Im struggling to remember the last time I got gift art aside from a physical drawing a friend gave me years ago that I have but don't have pictures of right now. Actually now I'm not sure if i've ever gotten art just cause someone felt like it lol. So im gonna have to pass aha

43. oh yes! Lots! I love gold and silver duo characters s o much. I know like, red and blue is the most popular but I'm a s ucker for gold and silver/sun and moon esque characters. Also I love quiet stern emotionally reserved male characters who are like the analytical thoughtful type and usually trying to keep the rest of the character group from rushing into anything. Bonus points if they rarely emote aside from the small warm smile they spare for their friends during a time when the friend needs reassurance most.

also like. idk I call them 'unbreakable child' characters. Shyshie is the most easy one to point out but its just a kid character that is waAAAAY more op than they should be and no matter what they go through or what the villain throws at them they recover and keep going. (I think this is part of why I like Gregory from Security Breach so much lol, he totally fits the bill)

ty for the questions crow :D

#ask #ask game #ask game answer #writer's life

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