#ie I think more people should

[decepti-geek]

for all that I love Ghosts, I've been getting a very different kind of joy out of watching uploads of a very, very similar show on youtube - The Ghosts of Motley Hall.

Like, a setup where the ghosts actually mostly like each other from the off, so that a huge chunk of the dialogue just goes towards establishing more and more of their meandering, idiosyncratic shared history (especially because the budget was clearly about £1.50 so they have to establish most things through dialogue)... that has its own kind of charm.

#bbc ghosts #the ghosts of motley hall #I'm genuinely not sure how much overlap to expect in terms of ghosts people who have seen this #because I... couldn't find? any mention of the six idiots referencing it they only seem to talk about Rentaghost #so when I first looked into it I was expecting there to be a steady trickle in the Ghosts to finding out about Motley Hall pipeline #but not only does there not appear to be #the show is apparently just WAY more obscure than I anticipated in general? #at least in terms of its presence in any online articles/social media #anyway all this to say I think anyone who's comfortable with suspending disbelief in the name of fun would benefit from knowing about Motle #ie I think more people should #also in terms of ghosts stuff Motley Hall also has a Fanny in it! #The dialogue is just whimsical little joy after joy #'I ALWAYS do the stairs on Thursdays!' #'I don't think they are wirelesses. they have glass fronts.' 'they've got knobs on.' 'well so's a chest of drawers!' #Also one of the things I have found writing about is that Fanny was apparently a fan favourite character back in the day #and I cannot pinpoint a single concrete reason why but I GET IT he's just so entertaining to watch #GOD I just love the dialogue so much 'you think it'll go on forever?' 'nah it'll run out of horses' referring to horse racing on TV #I love Bodkin and his perpetual willingness to position himself as the arbiter of common sense based on very little actual knowledge #'what's he? a soldier?' 'nah that's a policeman' 'what do they do?' 'well they sit in the kitchen and eat jam tarts' #there's so much information contained in that response I love it

[junotter]

All the jokes about Ken and horses are good but I just wanna say it's such a good parallel to how actual young men get swept into misogyny and the patriarchy.

Like they're told to believe it means men get to be cool and manly and have this power but with that comes extremely rigid commands of what they can be as a man and a cycle of self hatred for never matching those gender roles perfectly. Patriarchy tells men that if they just do exactly what is expected of them, then they get all the "cool stuff" that comes with. That doesn't work though when there's only a small group that actually gets that power, but men will keep trying to fit into those roles in hopes that they can.

In the end there are no horses or the myth men are told, it's just endless cycles of self hatred and ingroup fighting.

#barbie #barbie movie #barbie spoilers #ig #ive got a lot more on how barbie looks at feminism and the patriarchy cause god they did it #not to say there isnt faults such as very little conversation about intersectionality #but i can also understand the impossible task of talking about EVERYTHING in one movie #not everyone will be happy and thats fine #anyway i think something barbie did really well is fight this battle of both wanting so deeply to love (romantically or not) men but also #not dismissing the fact its mens job to solve their problems themselves #that even if women need to be the front runners of breaking the patriarchy men cannot rely on them to solve their own problems completely #also just god im so glad this wasnt a girl boss slay movie #women deserve respect and love and life regardless of accomplishment #we should not have to be ceos and presidents and world problem solvers to gain equality #i can also understand if nonbinary people feel left out/disconnected from the movie #but as always gender abolition and acknowledging the gender binary (ie the one societially impossed) go hand and hand 👍 #just incase cause idfk terfs dni the barbie movie is not for you #barbie literally states constantly that her gender has nothing to do with (non existent) genitals so f off

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

You're so right, Goredolf IS the most fuckable man in Chaldea. Everyone else runs the gamut of "can get it" to "should absolutely not get it" but Goredolf CAN GET IT.

Any poll about ideal partners, sexually or otherwise, that don’t end with goredolf in the top 4 are inherent bull bc off the top of my head we know this guys is

-capable of introspection and growth (rare in a game that likes to flanderize)

-cooks and cooks very well

-cares about the people around him especially those he’s close to

-both dad AND mom coded

-can literally reverse food spoilage

-had implied relations with two separate beasts and lived

- really good at driving

-has a host of varied skills: outdoorsy, well read, well traveled, polyglot, decent social abilites

-has actual sense of when things are dangerous and does try to keep others safe

-gof punch

-charlotte appeared to be trapped underwater in one scene this event and immediately when everyone else was like ‘uh oh’ he started working on trying to break the rock apart. Like the actual servants in the room did less than he did I’m just saying I would rather have him babysit my kids than literally any servant

#like even at the start he showed sorrow over the loss of his soldiers on a personal level (ie as people not his bodyguards) #and he was so easily influenced by koyan bc she told him a backstory where she was a victim as he felt empathy for her #(and yeah he was also in love) #like idk I just think he’s FUCKING COOL #and his anxiety is perfectly reasonable and normal for someone without superpowers #HE IS COOL AND UNDERRATED #like yeah most people agree he’s had a good characrer arc but. he should be appreciated more #and acknowledged as the best chocie of partner in chaldea bc he is #my asks

[wonder-worker]

"[Elizabeth Woodville's] piety as queen seems to have been broadly conventional for a fifteenth-century royal, encompassing pilgrimages, membership of various fraternities, a particular devotion to her name saint, notable generosity to the Carthusians, and the foundation of a chantry at Westminster after her son was born there. ['On other occasions she supported planned religious foundations in London, […] made generous gifts to Eton College, and petitioned the pope to extend the circumstances in which indulgences could be acquired by observing the feast of the Visitation']. One possible indicator of a more personal, and more sophisticated, thread in her piety is a book of Hours of the Guardian Angel which Sutton and Visser-Fuchs have argued was commissioned for her, very possibly at her request."

-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: The Knight's Widow", "Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, Dynasty"

#historicwomendaily #elizabeth woodville #my post #friendly reminder that there's nothing indicating that Elizabeth was exceptionally pious or that her piety was 'beyond purely conventional' #(something first claimed by Anne Crawford who simultaneously claimed that Elizabeth was 'grasping and totally lacking in scruple' so...) #EW's piety as queen may have stood out compared to former 15th century predecessors and definitely stood out compared to her husband #but her actions in themselves were not especially novel or 'beyond normal' and by themselves don't indicate unusual piety on her part #As Laynesmith's more recent research observes they seem to have been 'broadly conventional' #A conclusion arrived at Derek Neal as well who also points out that in general queens and elite noblewomen simply had wider means #of 'visible material expression of [their] personal devotion' - and also emphasizes how we should look at their wider circumstances #to understand their actions (eg: the death of Elizabeth's son George in 1479 as a motivating factor) #It's nice that we know a bit about Elizabeth's more personal piety - for eg she seems to have developed an attachment to Westminster Abbey #It's possible her (outward) piety increased across her queenship - she undertook most of her religious projects in later years #But again - none of them indicate the *level* of her piety (ie: they don't indicate that she was beyond conventionally pious) #By 1475 it seems that contemporaries identified Cecily Neville as the most personally devout from the Yorkist family #(though Elizabeth and even Cecily's sons were far greater patrons) #I think people also assume this because of her retirement to Westminster post 1485 #which doesn't work because 1) we don't actually know when she retired? as Laynesmith says there is no actual evidence for the traditional #date of 12 February 1487 #2) she had very secular reasons for retiring (grief over the death of her children? her lack of dower lands or estates which most other #widows had? her options were very limited; choosing to reside in the abbey is not particularly surprising. it's a massive and unneeded jump #to claim that it was motivated solely by piety (especially because it wasn't a complete 'retirement' in the way people assume it was) #I think historians have a habit of using her piety as a GOTCHA!' point against her vilification - which is a flawed and stupid argument #Elizabeth could be the most pious individual in the world and still be the pantomime villain Ricardians/Yorkists claim she was #They're not mutually exclusive; this line of thinking is useless #I think this also stems from the fact that we simply know very little about Elizabeth as an individual (ie: her hobbies/interests) #certainly far less than we do for other prominent women Margaret of Anjou; Elizabeth of York;; Cecily Neville or Margaret Beaufort #and I think rather than emphasizing that gap of knowledge her historians merely try to fill it up with 'she was pious!' #which is ... an incredibly lackluster take. I think it's better to just acknowledge that we don't know much about this historical figure #ie: I do wish that her piety and patronage was emphasized more yes. but it shouldn't flip too far to the other side either.

[holygroundgone]

just absolutely fucking obsessed with the 0.5 evil marriage bad end deep in love deep in suffering of it all, everything that could've possibly went wrong went wrong and they're in it together

#truescholar.txt #the way that from the beginning of the book mo ran absolutely portrays it as him one sidedly tormenting chu wanning out of hate #but slowly it unfolds the realization of the sheer degree of intimacy and 'you would not be fucking doing that if you just hated his ass' #it's strongly been my conviction that once chu fei realized what was going on and 2.0 chu wanning inherited his souls and memory #thus meaningfully continuing his existence on (and i want to think it's a more complete continuation unlike soma level memory self shit) #that his perception of their years together in taxian jun's palace would completely change #and that he would almost treasure the time they had together even if during it was the most painful and agonizing time of his life #toxic trauma bond moments but they were in it together #and mo ran would've never done this to him in this way (ie the illusion of not loving him deeply in body heart and soul) #2ha is definitely not a moral tale nor an 'example of what you should or can do in a relationship' #but instead the story of how two deeply mentally ill and traumatized people fought their hardest to find their way home together #over two lifetimes #over many lives lost and regained #it truly only works because it's them and because they have the exact same kind of madness for each other

[thehellionheart]

I personally believe more bg3 fans should have tavs that don't fit in the guidelines of character creation. Genasi tavs, tritons, aaracokra - you name it. Cambion and Aasimar are 100% cool and I love em, but I think people should explore the reaches a little more. Get a little more weird.

#hellion post #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 tav #tav #i say this as a man with two ocs whos species arent even options as mods #ie harpy and changeling #b4 you say anything abt there being a changeling mod i know. i just dont like the face models #anyways i loooove fun ocs i think more people should get weird #where are the goblins! the gnolls! the firebolg! cmon guys!! #also werewolf tavs. cmoooon #i am a guy who usually plays homebrew so tbh i just like expanding my reaches #not playing the standard is Fun

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is not feeling comfortable with assigning queer labels to dead people because a) there's only so much you can know about someone without knowing them personally b) it's entirely their business how they categorize relationships and c) more often than not it stems from amatonormative reasons "they couldn't just be friends!! because they did THIS!!!"

I'm not the only one uncomfortable with this, right?

.

#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod axel #my vibe is that we can describe only what we can observe #ie: shakespeare wrote a love sonnet to a man but also did so to women #and we believe based on this and other details that he likely experienced attraction to both men and women #i also think it's okay to say 'based on what we know this individual *may have* identified as bisexual in modern days' #or 'this individual was identified as female in the early part of their life but at some point publicly presented as male. he requested #to be known as such to his dying days. as such we refer to him with the pronouns he last appeared to prefer. while we cannot be certain #as to how this individual would identify himself in modern days - we strongly suspect he would consider himself transmasc' #things like that y'know? #but also if you consistently and exclusively apply this to particular experiences (cough cough terfs and ppl who were probs trans) #that's a great way to observe that you should listen more to that community and their experiences and how they may relate to that person #(careful in particular with people claiming historical individuals as butch when they explicitly did not identify themselves as women) #(because terfs have a... well. rather intense push for that usually.)

[floralovebot]

helia is obv meant to be androgynous and bishounen but I get why people would think he was designed to be a woman initially because his name is a woman's name actually. helia is a girls name. also, compared to avalon or other long haired characters, he's also somewhat more different.

I don't think it's too far fetched. some language groups like greek fans could have other pov. in latin american spanish his name was changed to helio for this very reason.

i know his name is feminine. that still means nothing tbh

sky is a popular girl's name in the west. does that mean he's automatically a girl? like no of course not. no one is arguing that sky is a woman just because of his name. griffin is a masculine latin name. don't see anyone questioning her. if his name is the Only proof people have that helia was meant to be a girl, that's weak when other characters also have feminine/masculine names that don't align with their canon gender.

also, you need to ask yourself, what is different about helia? like actually answer that question. what exactly makes helia different from characters like palladium, valtor, or avalon. it's not his body - helia has the same muscular body the other specialists have and he's one of the few male characters we see shirtless on screen. it can't be pacifism - he's not a pacifist and pacifism is not a feminine trait. it can't be art or poetry - neither of those things are feminine traits/hobbies. it can't be his fashion - he's just wearing a shirt and jeans. if anything his wardrobe would be considered more masculine compared to the crop tops the other specialists are wearing (even for the time). it can't be his personality - nabu is also wiser and gentler, timmy is also a simp, brandon is also caring.

so what exactly makes helia different from other long haired male characters?

nothing. that's your answer.

the only thing that makes helia So different is that other long haired male characters are often coded as white Or specifically have darker skin, so fans don't feel the need to question their masculinity (which is a Whole other discussion). helia is not coded as white. even fans who don't consciously realize it are still picking up on that coding. these white fans then feel comfortable questioning his masculinity because they've done that to men of color for decades. it's not just asian men either. white people love to question the masculinity of all men of color, regardless of race or skin color. that's how they demean them. how they separate them from white men. they uphold certain racial and gender stereotypes and then demean any man who "doesn't fit that". which in their eyes, is all men of color.

it's like this: man of color doesn't adhere to western/white/european cultural standards > white people realize, don't like, insult them, and try to make them feel like they need to adhere > white men prioritize the patriarchy and feel the need to glorify it > in order to insult men of color, they specifically call out and question their masculinity > white people around the world think this is genuinely innocent because it focuses on gender instead of race > white racists get away with it

listen, i know at first this seems like a really harmless and maybe even amusing topic. "oh helia is so pretty people think he's a girl ahahah". and for some fans it is genuinely harmless. they just think he's too pretty to be a man. and then they realize, laugh it off, and don't question it again.

unfortunately, that's not the case for a lot of other fans. it's not innocent. it's not harmless. it's white people picking up on racial coding and questioning his identity because of it. you guys don't do this to other characters. you don't do it to sky, who also has a "feminine" name. you don't do it to palladium, who is slimmer and has a gentler, nicer personality. you don't do it to saladin. or nabu. or ogron. or gantlos. or anagan. or tritannus. or nereus. or king neptune. or king teredor.

all of those names are male characters with long hair.

i know it's nice to assume that this is innocent and genuine. but unfortunately, that's not the case. this is an example of something that isn't innocent for a majority of adult, white fans. even if they're not doing it On Purpose. subconscious bias is called that for a reason.

#and i do want to clarify that i dont see an issue with kids doing this #like its specifically Adult fans i have an issue with #because they should know better by now #also like has it ever occurred to anyone that helia having a feminine name was them adding to the shojo androgynous vibe #like. #givelian from the comics.. gregory.. holly dark.. king nobody.. #literally a dude's name is HOLLY dark and no one is questioning him alkdlga #please im begging you guys give it up #nothing about helia implies that he was meant to be a girl #the name excuse has always been flimsy #also when people say this argument makes no sense because helia is white because his name is greek #like do you guys think musa is an asian name #stop.. just stop.... for two decades fans have discussed this and no one has gotten closer to proving that he was meant to be a girl #and im sorry but when other characters have the exact same attributes that helia has that people Insist must mean he was #it just makes it more obvious when you never talk about them too #like griffin is a masculine name! why not question her femininity? #sky is a popular girl's name! why not question his masculinity? #you never do this to other (white) characters so why do the same qualities mean anything for helia? #also anon to be clear when i say you im using that in a general way i dont mean You specifically #answered #also i know this is long and i want to clarify that im not mad at you or anything #i dont know if any of this sounds mad but #im just soooo tired of this rumor its so dumb aljdghaljg #and when people make an innocent mistake its Fine #but after this long most people doing it are not making an innocent mistake #its on purpose #after this many years.. after so many other long haired male characters.. its not innocent unfortunately #certain (ie white) fans tend to target characters of color like aisha musa nabu etc and helia isnt an exception #even with his racial coding being somewhat ambiguous (at least more than others) people can still tell he's not white #and they treat him accordingly

[minomadamu]

Egg jokes can be obnoxious in the same way strangers on social media making “friendly” sarcastic and mean jokes are. It’s just grating to have a complete stranger take a stray comment and act like they know you because of it. It’s ok to find that annoying and tell anyone who is making these presuppositions that you do not appreciate it and they should stop.

However I do think we have to watch ourselves, especially in the current political climate, as a lot of this discussion is thinly veiled active policing of the way trans women are allowed to talk about their experiences or god forbid- relate their experiences to someone else’s who they believe to be similar (as it turns out a lone “straight cis man” in group of entirely trans women might not be a straight or cis man! And some of these new trans women would like to share those experiences so other maybe trans women don’t have to spend years alone and in confusion or denial). Like we have to ask ourselves why is being a trans woman so shameful that we should never allow anyone to help open that door for one?

#sorry I am no wordsmith or anything but this bugs me :/ #being trans is beautiful and in a world that forces you to be cis we should think critically about how we talk about the people who #ask us to explore being not cis #and to reiterate- strangers on the internet can be intrusive and not know your personal self and make assumptions #and you can tell them that and if they continue u can block. easy peasy #I think maybe referring to all this as egg ‘jokes’ is what’s bothering ppl. like ‘egg discussion’ is more to the point #and I think ppl would be less hostile to a talk abt their gender identity if it wasn’t framed thru jokes (ie insincere) #ok now I’m done also sorry if I’ve overstepped or anything I’m tme and always open to learning

[girlscience]

trying to get to better as a person is so nauseating. was lonely yesterday so i messaged friends to try and plan hang outs. forced myself to ask about reference letters today even though i turned bright red and felt like crying. messaged friends tonight to ask if they could help keep me accountable so i don't feel like i'm doing everything alone. barf. i hate this. i want to hide in a hole

#THIS IS GOOD FOR ME IT WILL HELP BUT IT REQUIRES CHANGE #and i am realizing maybe i am significantly worse with change than i thought i was #ie my parents and sister and a few other people think i should apply to more schools #specifically more schools outside my comfort zone #and it would be so cool!!!! but it requires me to change the idea of 4 schools to like 6 or 8 #and change from a few hours from home to like a days drive away or FARTHER #and this is already going to change my whole life's routine #and i'll be away from all my friends and family already #and i am just remembering how awful that was the first go around in undergrad #and maybe i am super scared of that happening again #and also i need to reach out about GA positions and that means i have to talk to professors #which is scary and also a change from undergrad cause i avoided talking to them as much as possible #and i am just AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #so. hopefully some of this will help but also. i am crying inside. a lot. #i also need to change my fanfic habits because i honestly think it is like... the most time sucking thing in my life #and part of me wishes i never started reading fic because it gets in the way of me doing literally everything else i need to do #but stopping or even just cutting down on it is killer #but on the bright side i have been on youtube a lot less recently and leave it deleted off my phone for longer periods of time #which is good!!! it means i'm not on my phone as much #but yeah. stuff and things and trying to do stuff that's good for me is the worst

[animemusicbrackets]

for the bracket, are songs using Synthesizer V vocals allowed? i know you said that utau was alright, but i just wanted to make sure before i put my submission in

yes synthesizer v is fine to submit

#i do have some.. Opinions on newer software that is able to use AI. including synth v and vocaloid 6 #but since they still have specific voicebank characters im assuming they get the samples the same way all the previous software does #ie legally and ethically. so that parts not really an issue for me #i just personally think that lots of the charm that comes from vocaloid music is that theyre very obviously robots #like gosh everyone loves these robots its so cute. its like how scientists consider the mars rovers like their babies. TO ME #thats just personal tho! i get why people are excited about software that can sound more realistic #just for me i cant divorce a realistic sounding vocal synth from the implications of all the more harmful ways that could be used #which idk maybe thats dumb bc by that logic i should feel the same way about a lot of other tech #but theres something about ai thats just so... im so tired of hearing about it lmfao #anyway this is kind of a tangent to the question #also nothing against you anon! just putting down some stuff ive been thinking about recently #asks #vocaloid tournament

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

i think some of takeuchis art is really good and some of it is bad. is that an acceptable stance or is having a non-dichotomous opinion considered passé/wishy washy

#some of it is stiff and some of it is really charming #the simple stuff is really iconic but when he tries more complex designs it easily falls into looking goofy #he does make some really good expressions. it isn’t just olga and kagetora casotria had like 100 of them #like idk I feel like just saying ‘he’s a good artist’ or ‘he’s a bad artist’ is too simplistic #he has strengths and weaknesses and I think some of the issue is as a founding member of tm his weakness become in jokes that are encouraged #(Ie saberfaces) #rather than ignored or worked on #bc tbh a lot of anime art styles give everyone very similar faces but drawing attention to it does make people actually notice it far more #than if they had said nothing (like w artists like wada or nakahara) #most digital artists do reuse assets! but he has both a lot of visibility and a lot of influence in his company so people pick apart #his art for that stuff way more which isn’t really fair but at the same time #isn’t helped by the ongoing stuff w saberfaces etc #and he does need to have someone overseeing some of his designs to make sure they look good. like w Jeanne’s idol dress or 3rd summer outfit #i don’t think he’s a bad artist or designer I just think he could use more editing/less free reign on some cases if that makes sense #and idk. i do really like some of his art. castoria’s fa is really pretty #and sure he may have assistants but I’m fairly certain a lot of the prominent artists do…? #I’ll be honest and say I find his older art more lively #his newer art is much more polished but feels squarer #idk. idk I’m tired I guess #DOES THIS MAKE SENSE??? should I even post it #my post

[wonder-worker]

"...Walsingham, the monastic author of the St. Albans Chronicle, was by far [Alice Perrers'] harshest contemporary critic, who in his venom has (somewhat ironically) left us with the longest and most detailed account of her background and personality, her influence as Edward’s mistress, and her subsequent trial. He describes Alice as a shameless lowborn meretrix (a word variously translated as mistress, whore, or harlot), who “brought almost universal dishonour upon the king’s reputation […] and defiled virtually the whole kingdom of England with her disgraceful insolence.” Although Walsingham was not always accurate and, specifically in this case, clearly heavily biased against Alice, he nevertheless provides a truly contemporary account, and his importance as a source should not be underestimated. Likewise, the anonymous monk of St. Mary’s York recorded that in the Good Parliament the Commons (represented by their speaker, Sir Peter de la Mare) stated that it “would be of great gain to the kingdom to remove the said dame [Alice] from the presence of the king both as a matter of conscious and of the ill prosecution of the war.” During the same assembly, the bishop of Rochester, Thomas Brinton, preached from St. Paul’s Cross that “it is not fitting nor safe for all the keys of the kingdom to hang from the belt of one wife.” Although the word wife (uxoris) is used, it is widely accepted that this is a reference to Alice.”

-Laura Tompkins, '"Edward III's Gold-Digging Mistress": Alice Perrers, Gender, and Financial Power at the English Royal Court, 1360-1377", "Women and Economic Power in Premodern Courts" (edited by Cathleen Sarti). Italics by me.

#alice perrers #historicwomendaily #my post #edward iii #@ anon who asked me how much faith should we put in Walsingham's account of Alice #Walsingham is undoubtedly vicious and prejudiced (and thus not always accurate - perhaps deliberately so) where Alice is concerned #But he is also a direct contemporary eyewitness and is thus invaluable as a source. His importance can never be emphasized enough. #More importantly however - the image of Alice as a transgressive woman with improper influence who 'hijacked' the kingdom #is not merely painted by Walsingham or limited to his account #It's how these other sources - the monk at St. Mary's and the Bishop of Rochester - depicted her as well #('it is not fitting nor safe for all the keys of the kingdom to hang from the belt of one wife' is pretty telling in more ways than one) #as did contemporary literature of the time like Chaucer's 'Wife of Bath' and William Langland's Lady Meed in 'Piers Plowman' #the whole point of the Good Parliament & the Parliament after Edward III's death was to simultaneously restrict her influence & punish her #So...I'd say Walsingham's image of Alice (unfortunately) tracks with how she was widely perceived at the time #Of course that doesn't mean that this image shouldn't be reassessed and recontextualized #Misogyny and classism very demonstrably played a huge role in how Alice was regarded by contemporaries #Ormrod has also pointed out that no matter the extent of Alice's influence she would ultimately always be limited by the practical #reality of being a woman and a commoner #'Her sex and status simply did not allow her the regular and acknowledged access to power enjoyed by politically ambitious male favourites' #It is not impossible that she was 'a symbol rather than a cause' of the crisis in Edward III's late reign #And of course it's true that WERE people who defended her publicly and privately even after Edward's death as Walsingham himself admits #She can't have been as universally detested as most people think #(we should also consider Walsingham's deriding comment about her 'seductiveness' ie: she was probably very witty and charismatic) #But ofc none of this change the fact that Walsingham's image of Alice's 'impropriety' transgressiveness was a widespread one #Nor does it change the fact that this image was fundamentally rooted in the very real and impressive power she had #Alice WAS proactive and acquisitive and wildly influential (Edward III listened to her over several of his own children ffs) #She DID have more power and visibility than any other royal mistress in medieval England #She DOES seem to have acted in ways that would have been perceived as 'inverting queenship' #*That's okay*. Alice's actions & image should absolutely be recontextualized and given more sympathy than they are #but I have absolutely no intention of diminishing or downplaying them either. That's why I love her so much.

[me-a-mess-morelikelythanyouthink]

sometimes I’m scared that other people only think my outfits eat when they emphasize my waistline and make me look skinny and not when it’s an outfit that I put a lot of care into because it’s another form of expression for me

#silv's back on her bs #like I know I probably sound like ‘boohoo it must be so hard for other people to think you’re skinny’ but I just mean that like. #I’m really proud of the outfits I put together #I like my style and I like how I’ve spent the last couple years exploring with it and letting it be another extension of myself #and I’ve created a (very small) rep around having cool outfits #but the other day someone complimented my outfit and don’t get me wrong I felt nice that day #but it was literally just low rise sweatpants and a cropped tee (ie heavens forbid I had skin showing and my stomach was out) #like was it cute? sure but it definitely wasn’t an Outfit #and I got a lot more compliments because on it then I do on a normal basis #and idk. I wasn’t the biggest fan of that #and I’m scared that I’m also starting to use it as a crutch when I’m putting clothes on before I leave #like the other day I was putting an outfit together and instead of reaching for something that I think is really cool and being creative #I was genuinely met with a wave of like ‘okay but how attractive am I gonna be if I wear this’ or ‘would other ppl think I look good’ #which is FUCKED #because I LOVE clothes!!!! I LOVE dressing up!!!! and I KNOW that I don’t need to look good for others that beauty and style doesn’t #have to be conventional that there’s so many cool things that lie outside that framework. And I used to be outside of that framework too #but UGH I hate that everyone else’s opinions on MY body are starting to get to me #anyways i feel like this should have a cw but idk what to add #ask to tag #ig(?)

[shirogane-oushirou]

this shouldnt really be relevant to anyone following this blog up until now lmao, but that post i rb-ed on main made me remember that, now that i have a dedicated space for mature posts, this blog is no longer mdni. my main is still 18+ just because it's my catch-all blog for all types of posts, as is my art blog bc i'll occasionally post haha funnie adult humor + i want to retain the option to post some suggestive art if i ever feel like it, but at least here things can be more chill ✌🏻

#📌 [ my posts. ] #i doubt that'll be a problem for anyone. but while i'm finishing up redoing my pinned posts and adding new character tags and whatnot #i figured i should make it clear juuuust in case. #i've always been so conflicted bc i really do think people under 18 should have ties to reliable adults specifically FOR their safety #ie they can have people to turn to if they need a good role model or if they want proof they can grow into a queer adult #or -- most importantly -- if any other adults are being creepy towards them they'll know someone who can DO something abt it #...but i also never felt safe being that kind of person if my blogs housed 18+ posts. ;;; #i'm not here to be any young person's BEST friend or anything but like. treating them like toxic gremlins is also absolutely not the vibe #bc they absolutely aren't. esp when lot of kids in selfshipping are more put together than some select-but-very-visible adults. cough. #💭 [ my thoughts. ]

[supermarketcrush]

girls when they finish watching dead poets society

#im unwell im so unwell #ok spoilers for anyone who hasnt seen this movie look away. im please at myself for predicting how neil would die #bc i only knew one of the boys would kill himself but from like the first 5 minutes i gathered it had to be neil then i think #during the play i thought he should shoot himself with a gun lo and behold #um well i feel shivery i have literal goosebumps. i want to text my best friend to never kill herself i want to cry #but also yall lied to me this movie isnt that gay. well it is gay but not because of neil and todd #its gay because its a movie about a group of people who are passionate for and live for the arts and poetry and literature and thats what #makes the movie gay. NOT ethan hawke and robert sean leonard's identical faces #i also thought it would be more sinister ie mr keating would be more like julian morrow from the secret history but no. so there is that #overall yeah this was totally worth procrastinating my editorial work #+ one last thing . when neil said i was good i was really good my hands flew to my face like oh he did that #he foreshadowed the foreshadowing and am i a huge sucker for this kind of thing #ok. ramble over goodbye im gonna go cry now #🫀