#im scared honestly

[ofstarsandmoonlightt]

heLP someone said jeremy is the gansey of aftg and now i can’t unsee it aasdffghjjkkll

#were all dying for his backstory #nora pls #im scared honestly #jeremy knox #jean moreau #the sunshine court #aftg #gansey #richard gansey #nora sakavic #the foxhole court

[murdererofthumbs]

I think we can all agree, after this episode, that Roman is going down into incredibly dark spiral, which will only get worse, because he is not processing his grief, like, at all. I think Lukas’s words had to be ringing through Roman’s head this whole episode, when he said that if Logan was here now, he would be embarrassed (disappointed, always fucking disappointed) in what Kendall and Roman are doing with his legacy. It shows in the way that Roman aggressively tries to exert the control over his situation and his self-image, by firing people who he should be keeping close. All because he thinks that this is how his dad would behave, that this is what he would have wanted (and because everyone is seeing him as a failure, as ‘not good enough’ replacement for Logan, as a joke that he always was and always will be). There is a clear disconnect between his actions and his emotions, and everything in-between is just a dull afterimage of repressed guilt, and grief, and loss that he cannot possibly overcome. He is trying to regain power, even though he doesn’t want it, even though it was drilled into him that he can only be happy when all his control is taken away from him.

Roman does have lucid moments throughout this episode, where he realises that he pushed too far and made a mistake, but he doesn’t have the support that he needs to reel him back from the downward spiral of self-destructive power trips. Kendall is too wrapped up in his own manic sense of grandiosity, whereas Shiv attempts to keep herself from being pushed away from the business, by manipulating the situation to retain the sense of control. And Roman is left by himself in this sense of loss, where the only person who made him validated was gone forever; where he will never be able to get the same feeling of approval that only Logan was able to grant him. His sun is gone, and he is left stranded in the darkness, freezing in his own shame and self-hatred and sense of inadequacy. Roman Roy always gets it wrong.

The crucial problem is that Roman is never going to be able to comfortably emulate Logan. He is too guided by his emotions, too attached to the concepts of love and family, that the vulnerability that is an integral part of who he is, usually ends up being his downfall. His hurt feelings are always going to take the front seat, and guide his actions straight into self-destruction. In this episode, both of his attempts to imitate his dad ended with frenzied firing, and committing really two cardinal mistakes, one of them definitely bigger than the other. But most importantly, each time he did it, you could see a certain twitchiness about Roman (which was always there, like a background noise that could be easily missed if it wasn’t ringing so loudly), how his body inadvertently knows that this behaviour doesn’t fit, that it’s not really who he is, that he cannot possibly be a killer, when he spent so much of his life balancing on the edge of the knife. How his upbringing caused him to mistake abuse for love, to the point when he seeks that sense of degradation and shame as the only ways to reach fulfilment. To make him whole. Without Logan, Roman is just a landfill of shattered pieces, a puppet with his strings cut off, breaking at the seems. From episode to episode that grief for all he has lost, and for all he will never be able to get, keeps pouring out, and I don’t know how long it will be until there is nothing left to give.

#im scared for my boy #I don’t think he is going to survive this #i think there is nothing left for him now that Logan is gone #and maybe the only thing that is keeping him from fully falling off the edge is his relationship with siblings #but we know that is also about to implode #and what then? #im scared honestly #episode 8 is looking to be a trauma central #succession #roman roy #succession hbo #kendall roy #shiv roy #kieran culkin #succession spoilers #logan roy #marta rumbles poetically

[jonmartintrash]

Just a reminder that ep 30 will more than likely make or break the aro arthur headcanon

#im scared honestly #bella lore is upon us #malevolent #aro arthur rights! #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #queer platonic jarthur #jarthur

[nicetomeetmew]

I just watched the new Garfield trailer.

The Crisp-ratification of voice acting is terrifying.

#garfield #garfield 2024 #chris pratt #im scared honestly #also i know it's not animated but if i see crisp rat's name on the cast list for the loz film... #nintendo and i will have words

[salted-clover]

doodles

#stanley parable fanart #the stanley parable narrator #new to this #im scared honestly #tbh I'll never click these tags i am somewhat scared of them #but i know all arts in these tags are really cool #i just know it

[sea-of-machines]

so, finland is about to become mordor due to the elections we had, but I'm trying to keep my head up and thinking about Arjen Lucassen really helps because he's such a sweet sunshine. Also, I joined the leftist youth group today (well, sent the application today, it said that they'll contact me within a week).

Anyway, how has your week started?

#idk how the next four years will be for us #im scared honestly #text #random

[priest-exists-kinda]

finally telling my mom about my chronic pain (over text because I'm a pussy) because it was so bad today that i was crying and i really hope she doesn't get mad at me

#do you guys think she will? #im scared honestly #i dont know what to do if she just thinks im lying

[regalityandcoffee]

...today is a very bad day.

#regality rambles #today is my brother's funeral. i need to get dressed in like 4 hours but i dont really want to sleep #im scared honestly

[primolovebot]

y’all ever just listen to someone talk, and literally feel your brain cells dying in the process?

#i forgot flat earthers were real people #but its even worse when they claim god told us the earth was flat #im scared honestly

[diamondnokouzai]

if magneto knew what the internet was then he would post to r/aita as often as possible and all his posts would be the top posts of the year. thats the kind of drama hes going through. he also gets permabanned from r/mutants for advocating violence

#.din #.txt #marvel #x men #GD I FORGOT HOW OFTEN XAVIER USED HIS GO GO GADGET PTSD ON MAGNETO IN THIS SERIES. JESUS CHRIST. #im scared of getting gwenpool'd into the marvel universe cause thatd be the first thing id think of if i met professor x #and like what if he hadnt used his go go gadget ptsd telepathy yet in that universe? #would i be responsible for teaching him how to give magneto war flashbacks? #would he be offended that i thought about it? might be worse if he wasnt honestly. #that would be my first five questions but my hand would be covering my mouth so hed be reading my mind. #< as in the go go gadget war flashbacks would be my first five questions i mean

[sketchalicious]

tumblr duck scale

remember that take with yellow guy? yeah this is my rendition

#honestly i couldve probably made duck anime on the left #ill probably redo it god knows idfk #dont hug me im scared #dhmis duck #dhmis art #dhmis

[dhmis-autism]

DHMIS doodle pages that I managed to cut and paste together and color! I personally like them a lot haha.

2nd doodle page is sorta inspired by @mariaisshiki ‘s piggyback trio drawings.

 B/c it reminded me of the time I tried to carry my baby cousin on my back and I am SO short that even though I got her body off the ground,both her feet were still firmly on the floor. That memory was so horrific I had to project it onto the smallest one.

#dhmis #dhmis duck #dhmis yellow guy #dhmis red guy #dont hug me im scared #i really think he'd try it lol. he would be indignant at the idea that he couldnt #like HEY. I AM NOT WEAK AND IM ALSO A GREAT FATHER FIGURE I COULD CARRY HIS YELLOW ASS FOR MILES ILL SHOW YOU ALL RIGHT NOW #then it would just be. the saddest thing anyone has ever seen. #which is what it was exactly when it happened irl to me amen #top ones just a doodle page that i liked a lot honestly looool #there was a comic in there too but um. i made a lengthy sequel to it it got away from me real fast man. you guys will see soon lol #me art #my dhmis postings

[holmsister]

Don't think this counts as a spoiler as it's one of those background details/extra material stuff that the anime usually doesn't cover so I'm gonna make a post about it for the anime people

Due to elven beauty standards being VERY skewed towards the feminine, Otta

Is as butch as elves can tolerate before they start getting scared.

#im saying this also because i heard (havent seen the ep yet) that the dub might have given her a very fem voice #and like. shes not supposed to read like that. shes masc af for an elf #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi anime #im saying this because its funny but also because honestly this should help you recalibrate #like. in earnest. the beauty ideals of the different races are very useful to understanding why certain characters are Like That #for starters: now that you know that Kabru was raised by elves you also know that for an elf hes like fucking rugged. like thats a manly ma #and it also explains why Marci's shapeshifter of Laios was all her being So Scared of his manliness #while Senshi's was a baby (the dwarven beauty standard is the exact opposite) #the canaries #otta

[arcanegifs]

Favorite Arcane Scenes: 10/? ↳ "You understand you've broken several laws? You're a Councilor's daughter. Your actions reflect on the entire body."

#arcane #arcaneedit #caitlyn kiramman #caitlyn #caitlyn arcane #arcane caitlyn #silco #arcane league of legends #league of legends arcane #netflixedit #animationedit #media: arcane #type: gif #s1 ep8 #s1 ep7 #all my fav arcane scenes are just caitlyn lets be real...... lmao i love her #anyways i will not accept caitlyn slander here it was really these last few eps that she became my favorite character #the fact that she said this to her mom who is also a councilor.... amazing #im just really scared what happens in s2 honestly #i just hope shes still a sweetie lmao but i feel like she'll be more trigger happy ngl #i should really work on a better preset for darker arcane scenes #i was gonna do it in b&w but eh whatever

[lilblueorchid]

Verdant Wind 

In our Golden Wildfire...

I’m back form the deads and to no one’s surprise I’m still in love with Mr Claude Von Riegan. I know there has been a lot of ruckus about the game (I'm active on twitter so,,, boy,,,) but I personally liked Golden Wildfire a lot! Such an interesting take on Claude’s character and the struggles he’s constantly faced with. I also love how it contrasts nicely with Verdant Wind down to the ending.  Unlike Dimitri or Edelgard, Claude’s role is not locked, with the addition of 3hopes, he has taken pretty much every side of the war and I really find this cool for his character. King, I have your back no matter what, even if you gave me white hair for half of your route. 

#Claude Von Riegan #Claude Fire Emblem #FE3H #FEW3H #Fire Emblem Warriors 3 hopes #Golden Wildfire #3Hopes #GW #Fire EMblem #Btw im sorry but the majority of the outrage over his route is extremely exagerated #I was scared because of the reaction to the leaks and on edge on the whole route and by the end i just was like #People were screaming for THAT #? #Like #WHAT? #Nah honestly I really liked it #Spoilers but #Going from What makes a king in Chap 8 ending by Killing Shahid #to #The end of the Alliance in chap 9 #was such a BITCH WHAT moment from me #and one of my fav moment in any game i've played tbh #I did NOT expect that!

[cloudyydraws]

mini redraw of the 3rd anni kanade card.. im obsessed

#kanade yoisaki #yoisaki kanade #project sekai #project sekai colorful stage #prsk #prsk fa #pjsk #project sekai fanart #i love u yoisaki kanade <333 my world my light #cloudy draws #art #fanart #my art #im procrastinating on arch work by drawing and honestly a decent use of stress relief #no clue what my prof wants from me rn but we will figure that out this week #2nd project is due in 2 weeks and i need to use a sawblade for wood #<- scared bc i passed out during the shop orientation LOL #but theres my update dont do arch school guys unless you love torturing yourself actively