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ywpd-translations · 2 years

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Ride 689: The senpai one year older

Pag 1

3: More, Onoda-kun!!

We have to become stronger

4: We have to raise our pace a little

If we keep going like this

4: We won't catch up to the first years!!

Yes!!

5: Aaaaaaaa

After this...

Pag 2

1: We'll only have our own strength

Pag 3

2: I can see them!!

3: Onoda-san and the others!!

Onii-chan!!

They're getting closer, even though there was a distance of three minutes

4: The bridge that's our finish line is right before our eyes - let's get away, Danchiku

Yeah, Issa

5: Let's switch, Onoda-kun!!

You did a good job...

Pag 4

1: Now, leave it

To us!!

2: Don't say the same thing as me, Hotshot

That's my line!! Naruko!!

3: P.... lease.....

Waaa- Onoda.... he fell behind

4: Let's catch the first years!!

That's.... bad, what's with that acceleration!!

Pag 5

2: Ahhh, dammit, even though I though we could manage it today

3: Kakaka, not yet!

Keep practicing, Kabu!!

Ugh...!! It was just an accident today!! It just happened that I had no strength left!!

4: By the way, why did I have to run with the first years, Imaizumi!?

I'm a second year!!

5: Ah... Kawada

6: That's

7: I guess that's because your strength and experience in the club are the same level of the first years?

Ugh.... don't put it so bluntly, you bastard!!

8: You can always get to the second years's side if you work hard and your status goes up

Ugh.... ugh.... dammit, alright I got it

9: Really though.... Hotshot, you're so strict with Kawada

Hahaha serves you right, Kawada!

Really?

I told you to speak politely to me, Kaburagi!!

Pag 6

1: Let's go eat lunch on the rooftop

Alright

2: Onoda-kun

3: Ah, Kanzaki-san

4: You're helping the teachers?

Yes... that's right, they asked me to take this to the reference room

5: My class, too. Let's go together

Okay

Pag 7

1: Ah, who during today's morning practice?

The second years' side caught up!

2: You sure are great

I fell behind at the end, though

3: It's getting warmer in the mornings, isn't it? Even the warm isn't cold to the touch anymore

4: It's already April after all

It's spring

5: Yeah

6: The school too

7: has become quiet

Pag 8

1: The third years are graduating

Pag 10

3: They're having the graduation ceremony, and the closing ceremony for the current students is in two weeks

Its' a bit lonely

Pag 11

1: Yeah...

3: Koga-san, and Aoyagi-san, and.... Teshima-san

Pag 12

1: They.... graduated

...yeah

3: The time spent with the “senpai a year older than you” is long

4: so, compared to the third year senpai when we were in their first year

Pag 13

1: It's different.... it feels lonely.....

….yeah

Pag 14

3: Teshima-san, Aoyagi-san, Koga-san – the third years really worked hard

Pag 15

1: Catch up, first years

It's a game of tag

Ah, the second years still haven't given up

Use these

I'm the only one who isn't decided

Teshima!!

2: Get through!!

I'm glad

3: Many things happened, but we always ran watching your backs from up close

Pag 16

1: Onoda

2: Onodaa!!

3: Onoda

4: Yes!!

5: Thank you so much!!

Pag 17

1: Now....

2: Onoda, you clean the whiteboard please

Since it's to write things like informations and practice menus

I'll leave it to you

3: Erase.... this....?

Imaizumi-kun?

4: No no no, no way no way no way

5: But

As the captain

I have to harden my heart....

6: No way...!!

No, since this is my job... I have to hold on tight

But... really.... this....

7: Oh, you're early, Onoda-kun!!

Waaaa-!!

8: What are you doing with the whiteboard?

Hahaha, it's nothing

Pag 18

1: When I met Kaburagi at the school shop earlier

He was super excited

Haha, is- is that so?

2: There were really more than five of the special left!!

It's a miracle!! I really might be in luck because it's spring!!

You say so, but you still only bought four of them

3: Maybe he'll buy a lottery ticket and really win

Yeah, Kaburagi-kun really likes that yakisoba bread

4: But he could able to buy the bread just because there aren't third years anymore

Pag 19

1: This morning too, he said something like “it just happened that I had no strenght left, and so I lost”

That's

3: The third years graduated and he's not here anymore, so he he hasn't that power

That guy used to gling to Aoyagi

5: Kaburagi-kun....

He doesn't realize it himself

6: Really... he's such an idiot....

7: But I miss them too

Perm-senpai!! Silent-senpai!!

8: …. saying that, and there's no one to make fun of

Pag 20

1: They took care of us, we fought, and we even ran together at the Inter High

They gave us so much

2: Naruko-kun

3: I feel like Teshima-san will suddenly appear in the clubroom saying something like “I'm between exams”

7: But that's not gonna happen!!

'cause he graduated!!

8: And I want to thank them, and return the favour

9: But I can't do that.... now

But don't worry, I told you already, Onoda-kun

Pag 21

1: The favours with received from our senpai

we'll return them to our kouhai!!

4: It's almost spring break...

and after that we'll already be

Pag 22

1: Third years!!

3: “Third year”....!!

Pag 23

2: Yes!!

That's right!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 689 #i hope you have tissues with you when you read this chapter :)#im. SUFFERING.#IVE BEEN CRYING OVER THIS SINCE YESTERDAY I CANT I WASNT EXPECTING THIS WEEK'S CHAPTER TO KILL ME #WTF WATANABE #where do i even start ;A;#first:everyone is crying over the third years graduating AND SO AM I GIVE THEM BACK TO MEI NEED THEM #THEY HAVE GRUADUATED THIS CHAPTER AND I ALREADY MISS THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING #GIVE ME MY JUNTA BACK WATANABE I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM ;a;#Naruko's speech at then end hit me SO HARD #out of everyone i wasNOT expecting NARUKO OF ALL PEOPLE TO BE SO EMOTIONAL #i mean i knew everyone would be emotional but for NARUKO to make such a speech???? I WANT TO THANK THEM AND REPAY THEM #I KEEP EXPECTING TESHIMA-SAN TO JUST COME INTO THE CLUBROOM #BUT THAT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN BC THEYVE GRADUATED!!!#WELL GUESS IM CRYING ALRIGHT #also also ALSO #what he says about kabuuuuuuu #please i cant i love kabu and his relationship with aoyagi SO MUCH and knowing that kabu is suffering bc aoyagi graduated #BUT HE DOESNT EVEN REALIZE IT #its killing me really i cant i cant i cant #the fond way naruko talks about him too ;A; bc he KNOWS HE KNOWS WHAT KABU IS GOING THROUGH #BC HE LITERALLY WENT THROUGH IT TOO LAST YEAR WHEN TADOKORO GRADUATED #pleaaaaaseeeee the fact that its canon canon that kabu used to cling to aoyagi ;A;#yes i ship them SUE ME

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i-bring-crack · 1 year

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I did not asked to receive emotional damage from s

Solo Leveling Ragnarok thank you very much.

Spoilers in the tags.

#Like how could they do thsi to me #ALL the other shadows were freaking normal in solo leveling #Igris Beru Tank Kaisel— yeah like literally they were wither beast of bad people like Iron #but no Suho this boy #i tell you if this brat knew KNEW who he was bringing back to like I-jabskan #first shadow soldiers that he gets are the goblins which #im freaking sad to know that shadow soldiers can expirience pain yet still cant go against the orders of their master #how do i keep on living with this information!??!?!?! Its not like they even explore it or something #they just give it to me and im supposed to be okay for this!??!?! MENTALLY?!?!?#and then there is the first shadow soldier he saves which is like Lee Minsung– Quay– number one wanted villain #i liked his arc but damn did this guy fuk up and then ad a shaodw he decided to reedem himself and now im just like... bro that got me #i was not expecting a bee to have emotions today #not when you stebbed your best friend literally and also you almost got turned into a worker by Queen Bee #like now i really like you as a shadow but damn. i didnt expect sympathy from you.#and then there is Kang tae shik as the new shaodw and im just like absolutely bawling he DID NOT need to die that freaking quickly #i liked the guy. pre rewind and now as a villain bounty hunter this guy was just a freaking gold star among the poor characters in SL #and poorer villains in SL. he was cool. he was fun to read about. -slams table- How the F u c k am i supposed to function after this man #just suddenly dropped us with the most tragic backstory. like bitch i even forgive your ass bc your ass was fine in killing your dad.#legit didnt kill anyone else u til woo jin chul told him so. and now im just thinking pre the rewinf timeline the only reason kang tae shi #wasnt stopped by jin chul was probably bc jin chul let him kill those criminals #woo jin chul became so much brutal in this series i swear #like i love him so much for it but damn #still sexy smexy somehow #but damn

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istherewifiinhell · 2 years

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ep 8 [jazz hands] im crying. i dont even know how to articulate that amount of feeling that they crammed into 30 minutes.

id been meaning to post about the sort of approaches to life, both that real people experience and as their view points as characters in the narrative. like takahashi's reserve to sakuko's impulse and even kazu gets in the mix with like. i don't know what to call it. willful enthusiasm. no. but anyway.

this final ep is sheer, raw influence that they've had on each other lives. like sakuko doesn't get to that point without the more internal thoughtful processes, takahashi doesn't get there without taking a risk and they wouldn't have talked about it at all probably if it weren't for kazu, who wouldn't be any good at lending his perspective if he hadn't first listened and learnt what their lifestyle was actually like

and this is all used in affect to, again with this show. just fucking destroy me, bowl me flat on my back with a conceptualization of happiness first self actualize living that actually is relatable to me, and meaningful. like of course i was sad to think they wont live together but they will still be family. thats of course possible. but like no. look at it. hes still a guy who runs a little aro vegetable blog. sakuko calls him for cooking advice. they send pictures of stuff they do in there day. and that fucking kills me cause i do in fact know exactly how that is. that's included in their version of family, in their Best, lives. a media that says. the things you do, and like, and imagine for yourself. that indeed can be a persons best way of living. it is for these people

#some shit #koisenu futari #dont have time to do a good proof read of this and also i keep crying so i cant do it anyway #is isnt even that other post i wanted to make im just over come #let it also be known that the way takahashi got emotional nearly killed me #the processing and like. is this allowed and walking away and falling into crouch #yeah dude. YEAH DUDE. and then how much he smiles in epilogue. kill me

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loutrem · 1 year

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#its dumb of me but a few days ago i went with his deadname on google to see if i could see more stuff about his dead #since his friends who were alqo supposed to be my friends did a 'ceremony' together without telling me #even tho i rly wanted to go to be able to grief and to cry it out properly #so since i havent been able to grieve well i did that. search for his deadname. i just wanted to know #and i found out that a page for him was made on the tdor website. there were a ton of details on what was happening #before and after his death #many things i didnt know about. because i was a shit friend and never kept contact. and also because he was secretivz #i feel awful since then. who was i to him. why couldnt i help him. why am i even sorry for myself. he was the one suffering #i keep crying and i cant sleep at night without reading comics until i feel too tired to open my eyes #because otherwise im thinking too much about him. its just too awful. too unjust #i have. weird cravings for alcohol. ive never even drinked much before. im scared of starting to get addicted #but sometimes i wanna get somethibg anything and just drink until i pass out since people say its good to forget #i wish he were still alive. i wish i could hug him and help him. i wish id visited him in the hospital after his 1st mental breakdown #he had sent me a text to tell me he was there but i had work and i was tired and honestly too lazy to go. and now i regret it so bad #its all so unfair. death is so unfair. grief is so unfair. i was afraid i had no heart before because people who died around me didnt #phase me much. i didnt cry. but now that ive experienced the deaths of 2 actually very close people counting one i couldnt grieve forproper #i just wish i had no emotions. that i wouldnt cry when i think of them. but especially him.#and i cant stop thinking about how awful ill be when my parents die. ill be a wreck.#im just crying in my bed and its 4am. everythibg sucks. im so sorry to everyone whos ever met me. im awful #negative /#death m /#suicide m /

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4giorno · 1 year

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yeah no wtf. valk rlly came to save music AGAIN

#somehow they do it everytime they cant keep getting away with thisssssss #are there tears in my eyes or is it just bc i didnt sleep last night HDJFHDHFJF HELP I LOVE THEM SM #oh my god did you hear some of shus notes there???#also im so emotional abt how much this mv and costumis is MIKAS STYLE #like the neon colors the shine the plushies the visuals that i cant think how else to describe as except electronic #and ESP THE CLOTHES like the neon colors on true black but still having the formal look #and the ruffle and the gears AND the patterns having both ornate and geometrical styles #like its sounds like a mess but it all looks so good together like i feel like this is their perfect harmony #and i obv cant read the story for another 2 years but just looking at this i feel like. in the story theyre #gonna be in such a good place in their relationship. like just looking at the outfits this is what comes to mind #and if thats so i really love that its been getting so slowly but steadily better it feels so natural and right #like.... 2 years!!!! seems so long but it feels so strong because of that #omg yeah maybe im completely wrong but this is just what these outfits look like to me #im excited to find out what the story is. aaghhh i cant believe i now need to save dia for 3 full uncap event cards 😭#oh and also they look so fucking pretty hdjfjdjdjf 💖 also the song is so good but who tf was ever in doubt #okay i love them go stream whatever the song is its in japanese so idk bye <3 #WAIT EDIT i forgot to say another point why i think this is such a big positive leap in their relationship #is bc yknow we always say oh they never hold hands in their mvs or anything similar #and even being separated by glass in acanthe and shu is reaching for mika so emotionally #but now in this mv they reached out their hands to eachother so that there was barely a millimeter of air #maybe their fingertips even touched idk i have to rewatch to see #but i think its SO significant that after all their reaching their hands are now so close to being able to finally touch

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anotheruntitledsong · 2 months

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i did like the hidden palace but (SPOILER if anyone hasn't read it?) i'm genuinely so annoyed at how Arbeely is handled like... I wish i could be sad but i'm just fucking irritated. I was overly invested in him and that's def why but i just feel like they did him dirty

#the golem and the jinni #i was scrolling goodreads and the take i kept seeing was 'oh I wish Arbeely could've had his family too bad the jinni FUCKED IT UP'#but idk that's just not how i read him. like thats not where i feel the problem is #his whole shtick is being content as the jinni's foil and like! things can change! but the way it's done leaves him totally unresolved #which in turn means the jinni's shit is also never getting resolved because there is like no way to #when Arbeely describes his future family in the first book it's all 'someday... vaguely...' and AGAIN! what you want can change!#and honestly it's really interesting and sad that he makes this sacrifice for the jinni #but it's a layer of complexity that like clashes with how little he is there for and how little the author's invested in him #and like the way the no marriage literally did not ruin his life at all... sure it sucked but the man is still like idk rich #what has continuously fucked with him throughout both books is that he wants (or at least spends half his page time thinking about)#emotional connection to the jinni in a human way #which is something the jinni cant\wont give him even though he's basically Arbeely's only close friend #(besides ig maryam who was rlly funny hinting at her dislike for the jinni like someone trying to get their friend to dump their toxic bf)#anyway the vibe in the first book is that he only thinks about wanting a wife when the jinni is being a dickhead #BECAUSE the jinni eases arbeelys loneliness by just being there because at the end of the day that's what humans need #but then it's made really weird in the second book by Arbeely getting 'trapped' by the jinni (and yet they just grow further apart)#which means that the only thing arbeely actually spent half his life discontent with and then literally died without is not a wife #it's emotional intimacy with the jinni. which is insane to me #arbeely is obviously already tragic but this seems TOO tragic entirely because the book doesn't give af about addressing it #if it was like a plot thing then all of the above would be fine and gutwrenching because it ties back into the jinnis self isolation #BUT IT'S NOT. like i get arbeely isn't that important to the plot but he was important to the jinni and the jinni was important to him #alsoo necessarily disclaimer i'm not trying to say he's in love with the jinni or anything like that #although a queer arbeely (divorced from the above idea) would also been interesting cuz I dont think the jinni has a grasp on homophobia #so idk theyd be keeping each others secrets (arbeely x the biscuit man? JOKE)#BUTTTT! I don't believe he needs romantic energy! him and the jinni having awful vibes up until arbeely's literal death is what bothers me #The jinni is a bad communicator ik but come on... not once? not even before the diagnosis? The jinni also thinks about how distant they are #could they not talk a little? for me? there are ways to do it within the bounds of their characters FOR SURE #im sure this is the point but i do dislike it either way. anyway sorry arbeely u remind me of my uncle #the hidden palace

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exileyun · 1 year

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#tags venting btw #ive been feeling kinda down lately like i feel myself become physically mentally and emotionally weaker by the second #yesterday i almost went into a meltdown IN PUBLIC #i dont recall having a meltdown in public like ever. shutdowns yes and many. but meltdowns? mostly in private spaces #since its mostly emotional overload that causes meltdowns on me. it was a nasty experience #and yoongis ongoing tour is making me so exhausted ‼️ please why cant this tour be over like rn #i dont axtually want the tour and yoongis spotlight to be over i just cant bear this . this pain in my chest #im usually so outgoing and annoying about my love for yoongi and its okay because i try to be #but lately even though i love him more than anything #the only thing i feel when i listen to his music deeply is shame. like i dont even deserve to listen to it #im trying okay! im fucking trying! so hard!!!!#and its not working nothing is working i feel so miserable and alone and weak!#and i know i'll keep trying and tomorrow i’ll look at myself and go. it’s not really that bad is it. and i’ll keep living my life as it is.#with a smile as i always do. i love happiness and positivity and smiling and i certainly don’t want to let these bad things affect #me that that much and in general yk .. but i still feel like i need help. like i need peace. i haven’t gotten a minute of peace ever since #the god damn agust d tour started and its because its making me so sad not being able to go it’s making me lose track of my life in general #so now it is not only a ‘oh shoot! i wasnt able to go to agust d concert!’ thing anymore. its my entire life falling apart around me #every detail everything.. and me not being able to get the comfort i seek because the source i usually and mostly get it from is my #special interest. re: bts. re: yoongi. re: agust d tour. and then its a neverending circle #if anyone ever actually does read this i dont think theyll understand much and thats okay #this doesnt make much sense. not even to me in all honesty. i just needed to get this off my chest #this is mostly why i havent been that active these past few days. ive been nose deep into bangtan & sope fics on ao3 because #its the only source i can guarantee ill get serotonin and 'excitedness' (?) from #im trying.. okay.. i swear im trying … and maybe itll be a bit hard for the next month but ill try to help myself and not become ever weaker #than i already feel.#personal

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transgaysex · 2 years

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okay okay okay okay okay okay im fine

#wind howls #i cried a little bit today but that was because of a nightmare but now that im winding down and setting myself back into school mentality.#its been a really fucking strange past couple of days !!!!!!!!#i need to scream ! im really frustrated and i havent taken the proper time to digest any of it because i ! havent felt like im allowed to !#but most of all i need to cry ! i need to cry i need to have a big ugly cry ! and i cant fucking manage to have a big ugly cry !#i dont want anymore reasons to cry i just want to be able to . but i cant because these hormones i take and i want to take make it hard to #i want. i want to scream i want to cry i want to be held i want to tear something to shreds i need to rip something apart with my teeth #but what i need to do is sleep but im afraid of sleeping because i dont want to have that nightmare again ! it destroyed me in such a way #in a way that i never want to experience again in my entire life ! i never want to feel this type of loss and cruelty ever again !!!!!#it was so. i dont even know how to describe it. not once during my nightmare did i experience physical pain.#and i would give anything to have felt it instead of how disturbing and devastating the emotional pain was. i though i would die of sadness #ill keep blaming the story i had to read for french class and hope it makes me feel better. theres a reason i dont engage in horror.#horror even in a purely fantasy and realism setting hurts me so deeply. even if the nightmare had nothing in common with the story.#eventually i should forget about it. please god i hope i forget about it. i need to sleep well

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ariseur · 1 month

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I’m the sephiroth hc anon, yea I was referring to the sfw and nsfw, sorry for not specifying :0

sephiroth (n)sfw hc’s 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪

sephiroth (ffvii) x reader

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guys the motivation is coming back to me TRUST ME i’m slowly but surely working on it.. 🙏🙏

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post nibelheim sephiroth being jealous, possessive, a little toxic and manipulative, mentions of sephiroths touch repulsion and touch starvation, nsfw will have a warning before it, intended lowercase, lmk if i missed anything!! 💕

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❥ soooo!!!1!1!1

❥ let me start off with pre-nibelheim headcanons because i miss a more domestic and ‘normal’ sephiroth rather than.. crazy seph lol

❥ so now let’s get into the actual thing!!

❥ i do not think that sephiroth is familiar with love whether it’s pre or post nibelheim, and if you read up on my angsty / comfort sephiroth fics you’ll see how i love the portrayal of where he’s so beloved by his fanclub and the public due to being a, “war hero” despite not feeling any close love like how you’d love him. the closest he’d get to developing emotional attachments would be his relationship with genesis and angeal (and maybe zack).

❥ it’ll take a while for sephiroth to fully trust and put his faith in you, but he’s actually very mature about romance. he doesn’t get very jealous and he’s very confident in your relationship and bond, if you read up on my jealousy hc’s i explain more there!!

❥ and when he really trusts you.. he’ll even let you perform his hair care routine on him when he’s too tired to do it himself. as you’ve seen, his hair is absolutely gorgeous and while he spends like an hour in the shower on just his hair— he spends more time when he’s out the shower as well with all the after product 😭.

❥ he enjoys having you brush his hair in the mornings and if you have long hair, he’ll return the favor. nothing’s better than sephiroth’s gentle hand cradling your head as he softly brushed through your strands, trying his hardest not to snag too hard on any tangles. if you’re comfortable with it, he’ll even hop in the shower with you and wash your hair for you. he’s not ashamed of nudity, he finds it a very normal and humanizing experience— knowing you can still be so vulnerable and not have it be sexual. he loves when you wash his hair for him too tho, it’s just super long so it’ll take a while lol.

❥ i cant see him as a morning person. i saw a post that he said, “sephiroths not a morning person, he’s a ‘im up because I have to be but if anyone talks to me, there will be murder’ person.” and i totally agree with that. you’ll wake him up, mentioning how he reminded you to wake up him bright and early tomorrow yet there you’d be, shaking his shoulder gently and he mutters a plea of five minutes more before pulling you closer.

❥ i definitely think that you guys would have to keep your love life private considering his job unless you’re like.. around angeal or maybe genesis. possibly zack, but you guys would have to make him promise that he wouldn’t tell anyone because he’d literally be so shocked. otherwise he’d go run to kunsel and brag about his knowledge or be so jaw dropped that he runs to angeal and is even more shocked when he already knows??? like, was he the only one who didn’t know about this whole thing??

❥ it’ll take a while for sephiroth to get comfortable with physical touch. although he secretly yearns for it, he’s also touch repulsed sometimes. it’s not that he’s appalled by you or your touch, it’s just that he’s gone so long without it that it’s foreign to him. once he gets used to it, he’ll eventually search for it and come looking for you in need of just some head massages or even just to rest his chin on your shoulder and view whatever you’re doing. he kinda does what cats do when they nuzzle the sides of their heads into your chest and like rub their noses into you.

❥ i’d like to think sephiroth’s very meticulous, so if you ever invite him in doing an activity such as baking or art or something, he WILL have to do it right or else he’ll get frustrated.

❥ as aforementioned, seph isn’t well versed in healthy love or adoration so if you even do a small task for him such as doing a chore he planned to do or cooking him pasta when he comes home— it will make him feel all gooey inside even if he won’t show it. he’s always calm and collected but, “even the coolest of people try their damndest to be alright,” as i mentioned in one of my headcanons for cloud lolol. he’s appreciative of even the small gestures, always making sure to thank you for your efforts as he knows they’re filled with love.

❥ for post nibelheim, though.. he’s lowkey manipulative. if you knew him before he found out about the jenova project, i’m assuming you’re only with him in hopes that he has some humanity within him that you can restore— well, that or you just like crazy men lol. he will definitely use that against you as a way of making you stay, always promising he’ll change after completing his plans with you by his side.

❥ if you met him post nibelheim though, he’ll be utterly fascinated with you as you’re basically his new toy. and he’ll follow you, regardless of when you met him. he’ll never let you leave his side after he’s gone crazy as he’s constantly reassuring you that his mothers legacy will be fulfilled, and that he can only do that when you’re beside him with support. it almost feels like it’s a shell of sephiroth. he never does any of the things he used to do before he was aware of who he really was, he’ll barely even let you touch him. he’s constantly on guard whenever you two are out, always keeping a hand around your waist or shoulder so that you don’t run off.

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❥ id like to think of pre-nibelheim sephiroth as a soft dom. always being gentle, even when you’re sucking him off so nicely that he can’t help but grip your hair— he always makes sure not to pull it too hard and instead bites on his hand until there’s marks. he’ll always cater to you too, treating you like a pillow prince(ss) and is literally at your beck and call. he will not tolerate brattiness though and will definitely punish you if needed!! he’s just so kind, it’s only fair that he reciprocates the same words you give him :(((

❥ i don’t think sephiroths that experienced, but i don’t think he’s a virgin either. he doesn’t have the time to pursue intimate relationships, but he’s definitely experimented with one or two of his fangirls or something. he sort of regrets it now, considering it wasn’t all that intimate.

❥ like i said, it’ll take a while for sephiroth to even get used to physical contact let alone initiate it, but once you guys do finally have sex, he is literally the sweetest. he’s probably a little rusty lol but he’s a very quick learner!! guide him and teach him how to make you feel good, it makes his chest swell with pride once he gets you making those cute little sounds :(((

❥ let me tell you this man is huge though. he’s around nine to ten inches in length and he’s a big girthier than average. he has like two prominent veins, one on the underside of his shaft and one on the left side. when he cums, it’s a pretty pearly translucent color and right before he blows it beads at the tip as he tries to hold it in.

❥ sephiroth would like to think that there’s a possibility that you two could have kids, although his duties and reputation (and future events..) kind of prevent that. so i think there’s a breeding kink in there somewhere, but if you’re not okay with it then he’s totally fine!! it might sting a little if you don’t want kids, but in the end its your body, your choice— and he will respect that!!

❥ if you’re a virgin, he’d like to make your experience worth while and makes it very clear to you that he’s beyond honored to have been your first. he’ll even place you on the softest satin pillows while he gently thrusts into you, interlacing fingers and slowly pinning them against your head while he watches for your expressions. if you get shy or look away, he’ll always let go of one of your hands to redirect your chin back to him with a soft, “look at me, darling.”

❥ he relishes in the soft sounds of your giggles, watching as you look over the display he set up for you with roses and a meticulously made bed for you, a trick he had learned from genesis once when sephiroth had been too worried of not being able to satiate your need for intimacy. seph would lift you gently, giving you a small kiss and carefully maneuvering his way to the sheets before ceremoniously laying you down beneath him. he savors these lax moments during sex, not just the serious ones.

❥ post nibelheim is a little iffy, he’s definitely more possessive and aggressive when he’s having sex. he’s also very condescending with his words, i can sense a dumbification kink somewhere..

❥ as i’ve said before, post nibelheim seph won’t let you out of his sight most of the time. so he’s so possessive that if he sees you talking to someone else in public, once you find your way back to him, you’ll have wished you never greeted them. he’ll mercilessly press your face against the mattress or table or whatever you guys are on, and talks about how silly it was for you to talk to someone so casually when you clearly knew he was watching.

❥ i don’t think he’d let you top him that much, maybe once in a blue moon would he let you act like you have control over him— but the moment you get too cocky, he’ll remind you of who really has the most control once he grips your hip dips and flips you over, catlike, vindictive mako eyes glinting in the shadows of his body.

❥ again, i’m sorry but it’s the truth, also a little manipulative. post nibelheim sephiroth would accuse you of talking to other men or wanting them to satisfy you instead. he’d grit his teeth and roll his hips even harder— claiming he’d just have to show you how much he’s ruined you for other people. they are but boys but he, he is a man. and he’ll make sure you know that by the time the day ends and the sun seeps through curtains.

❥ pre sephiroth makes love, post sephiroth fucks. there’s a huge difference.

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TROLLS BAND TOGETHER SPOILERS

SO I WATCHED TROLLS BAND TOGETHER!!! MANY FEELINGSS! INCOHERENT!!!

I have SO much to say and think about this movie (positive) buuut I need a few days, or maybe weeks, to process... but I made some notes while watching just to chronicle the emotional journey I was experiencing, and wanted to share! There are SPOILERS here, please PLEASE do not read if you don't want to see spoilers!!

Ready? Ok:

"Let's play some rummy! But I won't let you win, because I play for the money" i think im in love

BRIDGET WEDDING JUMPSUIT FUCK YEAH 😭😭

"I can't remember all my suitors, Grissie" yes you go girl. you're powerful and amazing and people love you, don't ever forget it

apparently poppy casually refers to branch as her boyfriend and that's normal now. i'm (choke) gonna need (sob) gonna need a minute here guys

love that floyd signs his letters "the sensitive one" like yeah babe pretty sure your brother knows who you are no need to specify

sweet dreams IS featured in this movie!! omg im so happy you have no idea. i saw somewhere that velvet and veneer performed that song and it's my favorite ever and i was SO freaking excited to see it featured in one of my favorite franchises but i couldn't find it when the soundtrack came out so i thought it was fake but its not im so happy

peppy how many more dark secrets are you hiding?? he was so straightforward in the first movie but now it looks like he's just gonna keep pulling bigger and weirder hidden drama out of his sleeve as the franchise progresses. not necessarily a complaint just something i noticed

floyd is branch's favorite brother CONFIRMED

floyd! the sass!! ok he's DEFINITELY related to branch and also i think i love him

FLOYD SWEETHEART BABYGIRL DONT BE SAD I CANT HANDLE THAT

“Branch? One word. KEEPER”

Wait but how can floyd be my favorite brozone member when bruce is also so wonderful

I can also totally see the family resemblance between branch and bruce when they simp over their girls

I KNEW peppy was gonna be talking to mr dinkles i knew it i knew it

Also just so happy to see them acknowledge the events of the original movie. Don’t think bridget and gristle were even in TWT?? And the trolls’ history with the bergens in HUGE, and something that they shouldn’t have just written out of the story like that

They’re going to FLUSH floyd?????

Yes clay grandma got eaten try to keep up

Floyd and branch hugging THROUGH the glass is everything i ever wanted and also killing me slowly and painfully

I mean i guess its diamond not glass but you get the idea

“Its fine. we’re not gonna press charges”

Anna is unfrozen with the power of sisterly love but short, male, and blue

Do i like veneer now? What’s happening?

Wow. branch has come a long way since the first troll movie, and i didn’t know how to feel abut that because i was so nostalgic, but seeing him happy and confident like this makes me feel so at peace. yess i know he’s a fictional children’s character what of it

#trolls branch #trolls poppy #dreamworks trolls #trolls dreamworks #trolls band together #trolls 3 #trolls john dory #trolls floyd #trolls clay #trolls bridget #trolls king gristle #bergens #trolls veneer #trolls brozone #spoilers #trolls 3 spoilers #trolls band together spoilers #trolls spoilers

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"The Cole Effect" | Cole Walter

pairing: Cole Walter x female!reader

show: My life with the Walter Boys

warnings: smut, but just a little (I had to after seeing him in that last scene)

word count: 4k

summary: Cole asks the reader out on a date and after he convinced her, they spend a fun (if you know you know) evening together.

a/n: please pretend that his restored car has backseats...thanks (also I'm sorry for the way this ff ended. I wanted to write smut all the way, but it just didnt feel right anymore after the first half. So please enjoy the rest of it and bear with me...)

"So, when do I pick you up?"

He leans against my locker, looking over my shoulder and reading my notes. "Cole, how many times do I have to tell you? I dont have the time and patience, I'm sorry-" sighing I look at him, studying his smug grin.

"You have the chance to get to know me better. In my opinion, that sounds like the perfect way to spend the afternoon." He smiles at me, his eyes scanning my face.

The fact is, I didnt want to fall in love with him and I knew, if I would let him take me out, it wouldnt turn out for the best. Well, mostly for me. He would probably date the next woman, that would catch his eye. And I would be on his list, sitting at home on the weekends and waiting for him to call. No, that wasnt how I planned to spend my time.

I mean, he obviously is very handsome, blonde hair, dreamy eyes, pink lips that somehow always look kissable. And to be honest, sometimes when I get lost in a daydream, forgetting about the math class, he appears in my head. Always smiling as bright as the sun. I dont know what it is, but something about him is so attractive, I dont even know how to discribe it.

Of course, I'm not the only one who feels that sort of attraction. His magical appearance, how he talks, walks, smiles, flirts.

It´s called "the Cole effect". For most of the time, I didnt really get it. But as soon as his eyes landed on me, as soon as he talked to me, trust me, I got it. He is charming, enchanting, funny and he has a way with words that makes it addictive to hear his voice.

It´s crazy, but it is reality.

When I look at him now, I feel another pair of eyes watching me. Erin. The girl, who is in a on-off realtionship with him. Cole has many women, who want him, not just because he is popular. But because he is what every girl dreams of. Thats the problem, he is a dream till he gets bored and then you find yourself in your own nightmare.

"Its just- I cant. Also, there is a really pretty and wonderful girl, standing right next to you, thats been waiting for you to notice her." I never unterstood how Cole could want someone else, when Erin existed.

"Well, Im currently talking to her, so I know when to pick her up." His eyes stay clued to me. Confused, I draw my eyebrows together. "But Erin is this way-" I turn my head to look at her, but at the same second I feel a finger tenderly turning my head back. I freeze, butterflies awake in my stomach and I have to keep myself from looking too flustered by his gesture. Of course, my body has its mind of his own, so I feel my cheeks turn red.

At that, he grins. "I know you feel it, beautiful. One date, thats all Im asking for. I promise, you will have a good time." Im too caught up in my emotions to think reasonable. So I quietly nod and feel myself holding my breath, when he leans down to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. His finger again, linger slightly on my cheek.

"See you then, 9 o'clock. I'll be on time, you have my word." Winking, he turns around and walks down the aisle.

Finally I get to breath again.

☀️☀️☀️☀️

Why the fuck did I agree to this? Standing infront of my mirror, I look at my summer dress, warm yellow colour with beautiful, little sunflowers on it. It was the dress, I got a lot of compliments for. But then again, what was my intention with wearing this dress? Im not sure.

While I pick out a golden necklace in the shape of a sun and put on a few bracelets, I leave my hair down and the way it always is. I don't want him to think that I'm trying too hard.

He knows the truth anyway.

A few minutes later, I hear the doorbell ring and with one last, deep breath I open the door. If I'm honest, I would have liked to close it straight away. Because there's no way to avoid staring at him the whole time when he looks like that. Wearing blue jeans, slightly oversize, a white tank top and his red jersey. He looks hot, in a way I want to spend the rest of the day, riding something other than his car. God, help me survive this.

To my suprise, he is quiet the gentleman. He compliments my dress, he holds the door open to his car, he lets me pick the music and as I sit in the passanger seat, listining to Taylor Swift, I smile to myself. Unfortunetely I´m not very subtle about it, because he asks me right away about my good mood.

"I dont know, Im just having a good time, I guess." I look at him, while he is focusing on the road. I see one of his hand rising, so he dramatically holds onto his chest.

"I'm hurt. Did you think, I was that boring?" Laughing, I shake my head. "No, its not that. To best honest, I didnt expect myself to enjoy today." I turn my head and look at my lap, fiddling with my fingers. "Why not?" I see his head looking in my direction, a curious tone in his voice.

"I´ve had a hard time this last year, everything with school and you are- I mean, I dont know what intention do you have with me? Im not a one night stand type of person, I want something real. You know, like in the love songs, the real feelings, a real relationship. With a person, who wants me the same way, I feel about them. I think, thats the reason Im not sure, if this-" I gesture between us "is a good idea."

He´s quite for a moment and I feel more embarassed, the more seconds pass.

"Im sorry. I didnt mean that we´re going to be, you know like a thing. I respect your decision to spend your time with other girls, I didnt mean it is something bad. Its just-" He finishes my sentence. "-not for you. I know." His eyes are on the road, but I see his hands nervously tapping the wheel.

"Sorry, if I just crashed the vibe. I didnt intend to do it." I look at my hands. "No, its okay. Dont be sorry. I like your honesty. You know, you state your point. Thats good."

We look at each other and I try to search in his eyes for a sign, that he´s pissed. But he just lightly smiles at me, reaching out and holding my hands. While one of his hands is still on the wheel, of course. I feel myself blushing.

"Look, lets not pretend that I´m the best choice for a relationship or boyfriend material. Because I´m not and you knew that, even before you agreed to spend the afternoon with me. So, I´m just curious. Why did you change your mind?"

His thumb is massaging the back of my hand and I try not to settle with this warm feeling in my chest. "Because you dont give up that easily and it's hard not to give in to you." I see a smile tuck at his lips. "You think so?" I role my eyes.

"You know the affect you have on people, Cole. It wouldnt suprise me, if you run for president and won. People like you." He laughs at my comparison, turning the wheel and driving into the driveway to a nice restaurant. When he parks the car and turns of the light, he turns in my direction and looks at me.

"Do you like me?"

The question suprises me. "What?" I laugh quietly. "You said, people like me. So, do you like me too?" His eyes search mine.

"Well, if I would hate you, I think i wouldnt have agreed to go to dinner with you." He leans forward.

"Well you could just be here for the food?" I grin at him. "You got me, Im just hungry, sorry. Can we go in and be silent the entire time?" His hands are still holding mine, but now one of them is caressing my arm, leaving me with goosebumbs.

We sit in silent, but when he opens his mouth to break the comfortable atmosphere, Im shocked by his honest words.

"Well, I like you. You´re funny, endearing, honest and smart. You are nice to everyone, even if you have do deal with a guy like me, who gets on your nerves, so you agree to go on a date with him. It´s something about you, that is special and I would like to get to know you better. If you do, I promise you´ll get more food."

I smile at his last sentence, even though I dont know what to say. "God, you´re making me speechless." He leans even closer. "I can do many other things, that can make you speechless." At that I look at his lips. I see him grin and when I look up again, he is even closer than before.

"There are two choices now. One, we go into his lovely restaurant and talk about god knows what or two, we test whether the seats can be tilted backwards." At his voice I feel myself getting flustered. God knows, I would love to test what the car is capable of. But we´re out in a driveway, infront of a restaurant and people could see us. And even though I´m not really against the idea, its to early.

"Or three, we eat first and maybe later, you show me why I need to hate you less." He rises his eyebrows. "So you really are just here for the food." I laugh. "I guess, I am."

The time we spend in the restaurant was wonderful. I didnt expect us to connect this way, its like he just gets me. We ate a huge meal, in the end we almost forget to pay and I feel myself being so entchanted to him.

Even though the waitress tried to flirt with him (which by the way is rude, because what about girls support girls?), he kept his attention on me, also reaching out infront of her and taking my hand. I really couldnt tell myself to stop imagining, what it would be like, if we were a couple.

I mean, its ridiculous, because he made it very clear, that he didnt want to be in a relationship. But still, a girl could dream, right? Right.

After we did pay (much to the relief of the waitress), we went outside and walked a few minutes along a path, our hands entangled by the time we got back to the car. I didnt want to admit it, but he managed to make me fall in love with him in one day.

And even though I was scared, he made me feel alive. I couldnt concentrate on anything over than him, his sweet compliments, his eyes that kept looking at my lips, his arm that went around my shoulder to keep me warm.

He was so caring, it made me loose my mind. I didnt want the night to end. So when we were back in his car on the way home and he asked me, if I wanted to see his new car, I agreed.

We talked on the way back about our interests. He told me about his passion for football, even though he didnt get to play anymore and about his fascination for restoring cars. I told him about my love for books and that I would rather spend the day waching a new Netflix series, than doing sports. We talked about our goals for the future and that we both want to get out of this town, finally seeing something new.

By the time we arrived at the ranch and he parked the car outside the door, it felt like I knew his past selve, his present and future self. I never had a date like this before, something so honest and great.

But I mean, I also never knew a person like Cole before, so maybe that is the reason.

☀️☀️☀️☀️

When we arrived, it was dark outside, but because it´s summer, neither one of us felt cold. "Is it okay for me to be here? I mean, are your parents cool with you, bringing a girl home?" I look to the house, checking if some of his family members are still awake, but no lights are seen. "As long as they dont know about it, they´re cool." He grins at me and I shake my head.

"Come on, I want to show you what I´ve been working on for the last months." He leads me, one of his hands on my back to the garage, opening the door and letting me in. Its dark inside, but I hear him shifting around to find the switch to turn on the light. When I hear a click and the light flickers on, I look around and at the tools, all the stuff standing around and finally at the car.

He´s standing next to it, a proud smile on his face. "So, what do you think?" Im walking towards him, inspecting his work. "I mean, I dont have a clue about cars, but it looks really good and like it was restored by a proffesional." My fingers run over the open hood.

When he carefully closes it a few seconds later, I look up and see him watching me. "What?" I say, starring back. He takes a step towards me, searching in my gaze, trying to make out if I want this the same way, he wants to feel me. But as I stand still, waching him get closer, centimeter by centimeter, until our faces almost touch, I feel myself breathing heavily.

His hands sneak around my waist, pulling me gently closer to him. He turns around, so he leans onto the car, directing me, so I stand between his legs. I feel myself getting hot, I hear his breath and watch his eyes trailing down to my lips and finally to my eyes. I do the same. And before I know it, he leans in and catches my lips in a captivating way. I feel myself melt.

One of my arms sneak around his shoulders, so I get closer to him. I feel butterflies fly around in my stomach, smiling in the kiss and when he breaks apart, he looks at me.

"Hate me less now?" He wispers.

"Not really, try again."

So he does. Our lips meet, our breath gets taken and I feel my knees weaken, when one of his hands capture my face. He holds me still and I feel every touch, my skin burns.

The temparature rises and when one of his hands travel down, first to my neck, then to my collarbone and lastly to my shoulders, his fingers hold the straps of my dress. Again, he breaks apart, so I open my eyes and immedialy want to kiss him again. Although my hands wander over his shoulder, Im not sure what to do now.

"Are you nervous?" His hands caress my sides, his question leaves me uncertain. I nod, not in the right state to use my words. At that, he gently smiles. "Then I will help you relax. You can do that for me right?"

His words make me clench my thights and I feel myself getting wet. When I nod again, he leans forward and wispers in my ear. "Good girl." That and that his lips nip at my ear and leave a wet trail at my neck, makes me whimper slightly. I feel him smirk, so he earns a light smack on his arm. He laughs quietly and when I open my eyes, his ones are shining with a hidding mischief.

"You enjoy this too much." I say it as a joke, but he takes it seriously. "I do, actually. I dreamt about you making these sounds a lot more often, than I would like to admit."

At that, I gasps. "You what?" I try to concentrate on his words, but his wandering hands dont help with that. He kisses me, but now he turns us around and presses me against the car. Helping me sit on it, so he can get between my legs.

"I said" he beginns to speak and his lips find a certain spot, that makes me moan. "I want to hear all the little sounds, that escape you." My hands wander to his hair, holding it and messing with it. His hands again find the straps of my dress and when I kiss him more passionate, he slowly beginns to pull it down. First the right side until he lets go of it, so he can pull the other one down. All that, while still kissing me.

I feel myself getting lost in him, his lips are like a drug and I feel myself getting addicted. When I feel the air hitting my skin, I break apart. He looks at me, checking if I’m still okay with what we´re doing. "What do you want to do?" he holds the straps of my dress, gesturing that he wants to get me out of it. I breath, trying to know, what I want.

I come to the simple conclusion, that I do want him. Even if its just for now. So I kiss him and try to strip him out his jacket. To do that, he lets go of my dress and it falls to the floor, leaving me in my underwear. His eyes scan my body as his hands caress my skin, his finger going from my shoulders to my breasts.

Breathing heavily I look at him. "Your turn." His hands leave my body and with a teasing smile he takes off his jacket, leaving me starring at his muscles.

One of his fingers turn my head to look at him. "You like what you see?" His grin says it all. My hands find their way to touch his arms, going further down until i tuck at his shirt.

"I would like you more without it." His eyes turn dark. Swiftly he strips off his tanktop, leaving us both starring at each other. Before I can do something else, his arms direct me to him.

"You´re having second thoughts about this, sunshine?" He´s touching my necklace.

"Have you?" I look at him, seeing him smile.

"Never." His hands go to my legs, so he can lift me up and my legs hold on to his hip. I lean towards him, kissing his neck and stopping by his ear.

"What do you want to do to me?" At that, he stands up, still holding me, while opening the door of his restored car and lays me gently on the back seats. He´s hovering over me, a look in his eyes that makes me shiver. When he leans down and presses a kiss on my chest, near my neck, I try to focus on my breathing.

"I want to do so many things to you." His hands tangle in my hair, lightly tugging on it while he leans down, his lips ghost over my own.

"I want to-" his voice goes quiet, I feel his hands touching my legs, breaking them apart, so he can sit between them. "-take of your panties first. Alright?" I nod, looking up to him. Slowly his fingers find my underwear, so he can slide them down and I get out of it.

When he holds them in his hands, he puts it in his pocket, because he still wears his jeans. He starts to kiss me, leaving my mind with a relaxed feeling, going further down, kissing my chest and my stomach, eventually leaving a kiss above the one spot, thats been dying to be touched.

"I already have you this wet, how sweet of you." When his hand comes down and touches me, sliding one finger gently over my folds, I try to hold myself together.

"You dont need to be quiet. Nobody can hear you." But when I keep holding in my moans, he takes it as a personal challenge. As he leaves kisses all over my body, his finger carefully begin to speed up and I feel my walls clenching.

"God, you´re so tight. How long havent you been touched?" His mouth his hot on my skin and when he adds a second finger, I moan loudly. My eyes squeeze shut at the feeling that consumes me, I cant concentrate on a word he says.

"Already too turned on to answer me, huh? Thats a shame, because Im curious to know the answer of my question." He stops the movements of his fingers, leaving me with a needy feeling. And when I try to move, he stills my hips.

"As much as I like to see you sqirm, I want you to answer me. Can you do that for me?" I try to remember his question. "I-I havent." He rises his eyebrows in confusion. "You what?" His fingers leave my body. When I open my eyes, I realise what he has been asking me.

"I-I havent been touched like that before." His mouth opens in disbelief. "You never had a boyfriend or someone you´ve been intimitated with?" I look at the ceiling of his car. "I mean, not really. I´ve dated someone once, but we didnt reach a level, where we got to this point. So, I never did something like this." I can see the conflict in his eyes. "You´re sure, you want me to be your first?" Its sweet, that he cares.

"I- I guess so, Im sure it wont be a bad experience with you." He quietly laughs. "I hope so, but I cant get my head around the fact, that this is your first time. I mean, youre beautiful and fun to be around." He´s silent for a moment. "You know, we dont have to go all the way, right? I wont be mad, if we stop here."

I think for a moment and while my hands trace his muscles, I try to sort out my thoughts. Now that his fingers are no longer distracting me, I try to understand my feelings.

"We should maybe take it slow? I do want to get to know you better, before-" I dont have to finish the sentence, he just nods and when he smiles at me, I feel myself relax.

"That´s okay, don´t worry. I can drive you home, if that is what you want?" My eyes are searching for a sign, that he is mad. But he just gently brushes my hair aside and kisses the side of my mouth.

„I like you. That means, so we are clear here, that I want you to want me. And if thats the case, which I hope so, then we dont need to rush anything. If the time is right, who knows what will happen. Even if that means, I need to beg you to go out with me again.“

I raise my eyebrows, laughing at his words.

„You would do that?“ He shrugs, smiling at me.

„For you, I would.“

#my life with the walter boys #cole walter #x reader #love #smut #fanfic

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