#its sweet when you send anons and we can tell who it is though so you can do anything you want forever always

[simonstamenovic]

not on anon cause it'd be obvious who we are anyways —

i think you are one of the most amazing people we have ever met. you don't even know how beautiful of a heart and soul you have, or how genuine and kind you truly are. you are often the first thing on our mind when we wake up, and the last thing before we go to sleep. we are always thinking about you. we want you at your best and even your worst, even when you think you don't deserve it. we are so grateful and so lucky to know you. i can only hope you will let us stay by your side forever, just like we promised. we love you.

we love you so very much and think about you often i wish we could meld minds so we didnt have to worry about texting but also enjoy the process of being around you this means more than we can currently say but ill keep this in my heart

#bloodletting #no clue who i is simon w the usual jaskier background and then some cunt. but regardless it is all encompassing #its sweet when you send anons and we can tell who it is though so you can do anything you want forever always #save #ask.exe #orpheusian #lovely url we do have to check 3+x to make sure it is spelled right #'it is' jaskier ass #anyway we love you so deeply i should send you a screenshot soon even miasma youre on the mind heart soul #rambling ah trying to exist doing weird but love you again 🖤💗 #everyone log off we have to be alone with you rn but also publishing bc i like being gay in public #i need more words but its difficult just know the heart is expanding

[random0lover]

Hello !! Am I allowed to request for maybe all of 141 (If possible with your schedule !! I undestand if its not !!) or just Price and Ghost (separate) with a reader whos a military kid so theyre kinda just used to them going away for long periods of time with deployment. Bonus points if they werent aware of reader being a military kid till they break down and confess as to how abandoned and angry they feel when they leave :,)) Fluffy Hurt/Comfort thats SFW, please :)) Thank you ^^

TF141 x Gn!Reader That Was a Military Kid

Pairings: John Price x gn!reader & Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x gn!reader

Word Count: 3.7k

Warnings: Angst with Comfort, SFW, reader is mean, talk of parental death, crying, reader is called: sweetheart, love, dove. Hints at depression, John and Simon are both big softies for reader, established relationships. That should be it! Let me know if I missed any <3

Things to know: Some hc’s with mini fic parts. Should be Gn!reader as I tried to avoid talking about readers body or anything that could indicate anything other than gn!reader! Also POC friendly! If you notice anything that makes you feel otherwise please let me know! I never want anyone to feel excluded with/in my work ♡, Also a warning to anyone that decides to follow me- if you do not have your age in your bio or a pinned post I will block you… just a fair warning.

Notes: Thank you for requesting this anon! I loved the idea so much so I hope this does your request justice! I kinda went a little soft with the Price one because for some reason I can’t stand the thought of reader being mean to that sweet man (if you want though send me another request and I can write one that’s more angst filled 😊) although I did bring out the reader being angry in Simons. Another thing, I wrote this for Simon and not ghost but if you want I can write another one that has reader dealing with Ghost but be warned it will be angsty with lots of hurt from both parties! Sorry if the editing is bad I did try though lol and there will be more parts to this!

Tags: @homicidal-slvt (promised I’d tag you so here we are)

Price & Simon (You’re here!), Soap & Gaz, Alejandro, Rudy & König

(I will add the links as I post each part!)

John Price

-I feel like he may have wondered if you were a military kid since you didn’t seem to be phased by him having to leave so often

-There were other things that also made him wonder, like how you always made your bed in the mornings, how schedules were majorly important to you to the point that if you knew you were going to be late, you'd get majorly upset, and how you also seemed to understand military lingo up to a certain point. He never asked though since you didn’t talk about your childhood much so he just figured that if you wanted to tell him that you would -But he started to notice that lately, you started to seem off when you found out he would have to be deployed soon.

~~

John had been awake since the early hours of the morning. He couldn't seem to get much sleep in the few days before his next deployment. He had left the warmth of your shared bed before even the morning birds could be heard outside, hoping not to wake you with his restlessness, but little did he know that you hadn't slept at all.

By the time you stumbled out of bed with bags under your eyes and your mind feeling exhausted from the lack of sleep and your own brain tearing itself apart, it was well past 10 a.m., which wasn’t the most unusual for you, but on the day before John would be deploying it was a little odd since usually you were up trying to help him get his stuff together and would make a huge breakfast since you both weren’t sure how long it would be until he would get to enjoy a home-cooked meal again.

You had hoped to get to the kitchen and make yourself a cup of coffee before seeing John, but he was standing at the fridge, putting groceries away from multiple brown paper bags.

You made your way to the coffee pot that seemed to have a fresh pot being made and got a cup from the cabinet before he started to talk, “I noticed we were getting low on some things so I thought I’d save you a trip to—,” he pauses, causing you to turn to face him, “Sweetheart?”

You were pressing your hands into your eyes, trying to relieve the aching pressure that was remaining consistent behind them, when he made his way across the kitchen and gently cupped your cheeks, “Are you feeling alright, love?”

You didn’t mean to do it, but you flinched away from his hands, taking a few steps back so that there was some distance between you both. You could see the hurt in his eyes before they were overcome with confusion and you hated that he was looking at you as if you were a skittish kitten that would run at the smallest movement.

He reaches an arm out slowly, as if to not startle you.

“Love, what’s wrong?”

You shake your head, pulling your arms tight around you, and try to focus on keeping your breathing calm, like your parents taught you when you were little.

He takes a small step forward so that his fingers are almost grazing your arm but stops when sees you curling in on yourself, “Sweetheart, something is obviously wrong. You're crying, and your body is shaking.”

“Hey,” you finally look up into his eyes, “you don’t have to tell me what’s wrong, but at least let me help you.”

Your heart breaks from the pain you can see in his eyes. In all the time you've been together, you’ve never pulled away from him like this. Usually, you were the one open about your emotions and what you were feeling while having to coax John into telling you what was going on in his mind, “Please, darling.”

You let yourself fall into his open arms at that point, sobbing into his neck. He presses you against his chest, gently speaking into your ear, assuring you that everything is fine, that he is here for you, and that he will always be there.

You mumble into his neck, causing him to gently pull you back so that he can hear you: “What was that, sweetheart?”

You try to concentrate on the sensation of his calm heartbeat against your chest before finally saying, "My parents promised me the same thing."

He pulls away, puzzled, and you notice him looking at you in the corner of your eye, so you burrow your face into his chest and say, "They were both military. They died when I was 14," you finish, taking a deep breath. “They were deployed together when it happened… They said that it was an accident, that my mom got stuck on a timed land mine, and my dad wouldn’t leave her no matter what.”

"Oh, love." You feel his body tense before relaxing.

He gently grips the back of your neck and pulls you back so that you're looking into his eyes; the softness in them is almost enough to send you running as far as possible so that you never have to feel the type of pain that you did the day that you found out your parents died.

“Love, I'm not going anywhere,” you go to speak but he shushes you, “You are my world, the person I’m fighting for.”

He brings his hand under your chin so that he is gripping it gently and says, “You are the reason I’m still alive. The reason why I feel like life is still worth living and fighting for.”

He tips his head down so that his lips are grazing yours, “I’ll always come home, love.”

You push forward so that your lips are fully pressing against his, then he pulls back, “Why don’t we go take a bath, get you feeling better?”

~~~~

The next morning you wake frantically looking around, hoping that he didn’t leave without saying goodbye, when he walks in carrying a tray of food, “John? I thought you had to leave this morning.”

He smiles gently, his eyes lighting up, “Called Kate, they don’t actually need me for another week, and I figured my love needs me a little bit more than my job at the moment.” He sets the tray down on the bed, and you jump into his arms with a happy squeal, “I love you, John.”

"I love you too, sweetheart," he says as he gently kisses you.

~

Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley

-So we all know Simon is amazing at reading people, but I don’t think he would know that you were a military kid. He could see all the signs that you may have had a difficult childhood, but he personally knows what it’s like to have a childhood you don’t want to talk about, so he never has and never will question you about your past. -Pasts are a hard topic for Simon in the first place, so I could honestly see him being a bit grateful that you didn’t share the bad parts of your childhood, meaning that he also didn’t have to share his. It was almost a silent agreement between you both to not talk about the negative parts of things unless one of you came to the other wanting to talk about it.

~~~~

Back to him being great at reading people: He could tell that over the past few days, your body language had been changing, becoming more standoffish. Not being as open to cuddling and kisses, not even wanting him to walk up behind you and wrap his arms around you, which you usually loved.

He figured that maybe you were just having a few rough days, which was normal for anyone; hell, he knew he had them quite often, and you were always there for him no matter how bad they got, so he wanted to do the same for you.

Today had been the worst day of all, though. You were almost refusing to talk to him completely unless it was one-word answers, which he was able to roll with pretty easily. You would move rooms almost every time he would come in, not even saying anything, just picking up your things and going.

This made him decide on leaving you alone for the most part, other than when he would bring you a fresh cup of tea or was just checking in on you. So he decided on cleaning up the house a little bit, he was going to be deploying again in a week and he wanted to help however he could, knowing that it was a rough transition from having him around to it being an empty house again.

He had just finished cleaning the dishes when he looked at the time and decided on ordering out for dinner, which would hopefully raise your mood a bit and it would also be an easy enough mess to clean up. He found you in the living room watching a movie on Netflix with a blanket wrapped tightly around you and stood in the doorway for a moment just admiring you when you paused it.

When you snap at him, "What do you want, Simon?" Your eyes aren't even on him but on your phone, which is on your lap.

He feels his eye twitch but he keeps himself calm and makes sure that it shows in his tone that your attitude is leaving him unaffected, “I was just goin’ to ask what you wanted for takeout, love.”

You huff and try to pull yourself up from the couch while also trying to unwrap the blanket from around you, almost falling, but Simon rushes forward and straightens you up, but you quickly pull away.

You look at him with fury in your eyes, “Can't you just leave me the hell alone?” Your voice is rising slightly, and your face is flushed with rage. “It’s what you constantly do anyway!”

You can see Simon's eyes widen, but you don't care; the words are just spilling out of your mouth before you can stop them, "You're never actually here when I need you, but when you are, you can't take the fucking hint of when I just want you to leave me alone!"

"Sometimes Simon," you pause, feeling the tears flood into your vision, making the floor blurry, "I wonder why I even stay when you are just going to end up hurting me exactly like he did," you whisper, staring hard at the ground, your chest puffing in and out quickly, trying to pull in air after your large outburst.

The words come out in a whisper, the room becoming so silent that you can almost hear the gears in his head turning, wondering who the hell you were talking about.

You hear him take a step forward on the wood flooring, his voice incredibly soft, “Dove.”

You look up through the tears and see his hands reaching out for you, and for the first time in all the time you two have been together, Simon Riley almost looks scared—not scared of you but as if his world was coming apart.

When his hand gently touches your arm, it pulls you out of your stupor, making you pull away, frantically shaking your head, “Don’t touch me.”

The words come out shaky and broken, but they make him freeze nonetheless, and you can see in his eyes that he’s trying to pull himself together, trying to figure out what he's supposed to do in a situation like this.

He takes a small step back, his gaze fixed on yours, and he holds his hands out in front of him, as if to demonstrate that he is not a threat. "Okay, I won't touch you." He comes to a halt, seeing the fear in your eyes, the look of a frightened animal ready to flee at any moment. "It's okay, love, everything's fine-"

He doesn't even finish his sentence before you're flying down the hallway, grabbing your bag from the hooks by the front door and bolting out the door, slamming it loudly behind you, leaving him standing halfway down the hallway, his mouth slack-jawed, unsure of what the hell just happened.

~~~

After nearly ten minutes of fast walking, you finally slowed down and stopped in the nearest store to clean your face of tear marks and, hopefully, make yourself look presentable. You sent a quick text to Simon, letting him know that you were safe and that you didn't know when you'd be back. You left your phone on long enough to see him read the message and the text bubble pop up before you shut the phone completely off and tucked it into the bottom of your bag.

You spent the next two hours wandering aimlessly, wondering if you'd just ruined your relationship with the only man you'll ever love, when you came across the small Italian restaurant where Simon had taken you on your first date. You remember the way you tried to pay for your half of the dinner, but he quickly slipped his card to the waitress before you could even argue, saying something about how if you decided not to go on a second date with him, you deserved to at least get a free meal from it, and you teased him by asking him if there was a reason you shouldn't want to go on another date with him.

The memories make your stomach queasy, making you want to kick yourself in the back for being so stupid, but you walk in and order your and Simon's favorite dishes and try to keep the food as warm as possible on your walk back to your shared home. One side of you hopes you’ll find him there, not an empty house, and the other side wants to avoid this conversation for as long as possible.

You walk up the steps, and most of the house seems to be dark except for the living room, where a single light is on. You unlock the door and try as quietly as possible to slip your shoes off while also trying not to drop the food.

You make your way towards the living room to find Simon sitting on the couch, his elbows on his knees, and his face buried in his hands. You look over to the coffee table and see bags with your favorite restaurant's logo tied off, trying to keep the heat in the bags, making your heart ache with the fact that he still thought of you after you treated him like complete trash.

He was the first man ever to treat you with so much love. Even while he was deployed, he was making efforts to show you that he cared, like scheduling a delivery of your favorite flowers to show up on your day off with a little note, paying for over a month's worth of your order at your favorite coffee shop, and bringing back little trinkets from the places he was deployed too.

You knew him being deployed wasn’t his fault; it was part of his job. You knew he wasn't your dad and that it wasn't Simon’s fault that the man who was supposed to love you treated you as if you weren't even his child but rather just another one of his soldiers.

It wasn’t his fault that your dad wouldn't be home for months on end; it wasn’t his fault that the last time you ever saw your dad, you told him you hated him for never being home; it wasn't his fault that the day your dad was supposed to come home from a four-month deployment, instead of hearing him come home, there were four hard knocks on the door; it wasn't his fault that two soldiers were standing at the door; it wasn’t his fault that they were holding a folded-up flag with your dad’s military dog tags on them.

It. Wasn’t. His. Fault.

Yet you treated him as if it were. You didn't know which was worse, the fact that he didn't already know about what happened to your dad or the fact that you wished he did so that he could have a reason to hate you for lashing out.

You step into the room, setting the food you got by the food he ordered. “Simon?”

He doesn’t move for a second, then he looks up at you, and you feel your heart shatter for the umpteenth time tonight. “Oh, Simon,” you whisper, moving so that you’re standing in front of him and drop down onto your knees, “I am so fucking sorry. I don't even have the words to tell you how sorry I am. I shouldn’t have lashed out at you… I should’ve just talked to you instead of letting it build up.”

You move your hands up to gently cradle his face in both your hands and connect your eyes with his molten ones, which usually provided you with comfort. Now, though, all you can see is the look he gave you after you yelled at him, “I— I never should have let my feelings bottle up about me being upset about you having to be gone. I know it's not your fault. I knew what I was getting myself into when we made things official all those years ago. I knew what your job would bring before then; I made the choice to be with you. I'll never regret that.’’

You move your eyes across his face, trying to gauge his emotions, but you get nothing.

“Si, baby?” you whisper.

His eyes move away from you. “Who were you talking about when you said I'm just going to hurt you like he did?’’

You look away, your eyes settling on a loose string on his pants. “I was talking about my dad.” You take a deep breath before continuing, knowing that you have to tell him, “H– He was military like you.”

His hand reaches out to gently lift your chin, bringing your gaze to his. “He died,” you continue, “He died and the last time I ever saw him, I told him I hated him because he was always gone. He…I let him go that day without saying goodbye or telling him I loved him, and the next time I saw him, his body was in a casket."

"Love," he says with a gentle frown.

"No, Simon," you say, shaking your head. Just because I’m scared—no, fucking terrified—of that happening again with you doesn't give me the right to treat you that way. I am so sorry.”

He leans back in the couch and pulls you up into his lap; once you're comfortable, he brings his hands up so that one is cupping your cheek and the other trails down your arm to hold your hand. "Dove, I know what it's like to lose family. I know what it can do to you. I understand that pain more than you know. Pain like that is unlike anything else.”

Tears well up in your eyes, and you blink them away quickly before they fall. "You've lost family, too?"

He nods gently, and you can see deep emotions that seemed to have been buried for a long time beginning to surface. “My mum, my younger brother Tommy, and his wife Beth.” He closes his eyes, and when he opens them, they are filled with unshed tears. “My nephew Joseph.”

You can feel the back of your throat starting to burn from keeping your tears in, but you push your forehead against his anyway. “Simon.”

He looks into your eyes before whispering, “I wish I could tell you it would stop hurting eventually, but I can’t. I’m not going to lie to you and say I’ll always make it back home to you; that's not something I can guarantee, but one thing I can promise is that I will always try my damn hardest to make it back. I will always fight with everything in my soul to make it back to you.”

Tears are softly running down your face at this point, falling to land on Simon’s hoodie. “I love you so much, sweets. I never want to lose you.”

You let out a choked cry before you kissed him gingerly, and you could taste the saltiness of your tears mixed in with all the flavors that reminded you of Simon. Of home.

“I love you so much too, Si.”

He leans in to kiss you again with a light press of his lips to yours before he pulls away and looks at the forgotten food on the coffee table and lets out a light chuckle, “I see we both had the same idea.”

You let out a shaky laugh and nod your head before snuggling your head into the warm crook of his neck. He runs a large hand up and down your back, slowly stopping at the bottom to rub gentle circles into a spot that usually bothers you. "Well, why don’t we eat, and maybe in the morning we can talk a little bit more.”

Yawning into his neck, you pull back and ask, “Can we finish the movie I was watching earlier? It was just getting to the good part before I stopped it.”

He nods, and you excitedly get out of his lap to get your blanket and the TV remote before he pulls the coffee table closer to the couch so that he can start opening the containers. Once you start the movie, you look over to Simon to find him already watching you with a soft look, and all you can think is how thankful you are to have found a man who loves you through all your faults and you through his.

You were grateful for ever getting the chance to be loved by Simon Riley, a man who truly believed that he couldn’t love and that he wasn’t worth loving. You knew that it would probably take your whole lives to heal from the things you've both been through, but as long as you were together, that was all that mattered.

Hi my lovelies, I hope you enjoyed this hc for Price and Simon! Feedback is appreciated but not necessary. As always I hope you have a great day/night. <3

Requests are open so feel free to send in some! I cannot promise when or if I will write them, but I do prefer requests that are slightly more specific as I find them easier to write but it's not required. Thanks for reading my darlings! ♡

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[fatuismooches]

Hello smooches, its 🥝 anon. I'm sorry for not popping up on ur inbox for a very long time again (health issues, again.) i hope that you are doing well! I see so many Dotty's rambling when i scroll down a bit and honestly i can't wait to read all of it 🙏🛐 (and also hoping to see just a bit of Capitano content from u-)

So.. Remember when i said last time that i have a brainrot about Capitano's Childhood Crush with fragile!reader? In ur Capitano Childhood Crush fic, reader always sends a lot of letters to him but he never recieved them, right? (It was disheartening, just like what u said on the fic..) And, Well..

Imagine that all of the letters are about reader telling him about their conditions, their illness getting worse and worse, until the last one about reader wanting to see him again for last time..

When Capitano wanted to see them again, he sends some of his Fatui agents to search for reader whereabouts (since it would be too dangerous for reader's safety if he is the one who come to them, also he never see them among the crowds for a very long time whenever he and his troops came back, reader always come to see him..).

Now, imagine his reaction when his agents told him that reader is already dead a long time ago or when he finally found all of reader's letters 😔

I'm trying to make my ask not too long, æügh 😩😭 i'm sorry if its messy- 😭 anyways, sending virtual hugs for u smooches for still feeding us Harbinger content for more than a year now 🤗💞🛐 as always, bless u and ur big brain writings

-a rotten 🥝 anon

(Also recently, i saw an "early" story leak about the next region on twt that we will have Dottore boss fight in Natlan instead of Capitano. Idk if its true or not, but if its true.. then, i guess you guys Dottore lovers better prepare for him now 👀 i want to see some C6R5 Dotty mains here)

HI 🥝 ANON!! I MISSED YOU! And don't worry about popping in! I want you to take care of yourself first above all! I hope you enjoy the plentiful Dottore brainrots though :3 (and i promise to post some Capitano brainrots. Just for you.) BUT AHHH THIS BRAINROT... WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME SAD. (Yes, I remember when I put that in my fic! I can't believe it was so long ago though- you made me go back and reread it 😭)

Imagine if you live in a secluded part of Snezhnaya. It's quiet and pretty with only the servants in the house to keep you company. Capitano let you stay here instead of the mansion because staying in that big house without him would probably make you sadder. Though you are already sad without him, it's a bit better. But you spend a lot of time writing him letters. It was a habit of yours, telling him what you've done all this time even though he's not here. Some letters get sent, some don't. But you always put the happier stuff in the letters that get sent to him. He's out doing a lot of hard work, you don't want to bother him with your illness! Though anyone could see the lingering sadness in your letters. However, the battlefield is a tough place and the long distance doesn't help your case. Things are bound to get lost and go missing. So you're left waiting, and waiting, and waiting for your husband's replies that never come... Eventually, you stop sending them, instead keeping them in a box.

Although Capitano is busy with his mission, he wonders why you haven't reached out to him. Amidst the war and battle, he does look forward to your sweet letters, perhaps your handwriting may not be the best, but he loves to see how his darling is doing. He of course focuses on his duties, but he always thinks of you. So it wouldn't hurt to send an agent to report on you, since clearly communication isn't the best right now. When the soldier arrives and hears of your demise, he isn't sure how to break the news to his Harbinger. All he can do is hope that the letter makes it to him after the battle is over, so morale isn't too down. And it does. The Fatui win this battle, and the letter comes just in time. Ah, finally he can see how you're doing, Capitano thinks. But when he reads the first sentence, he's... well, I can't explain his emotions very well. Empty would be a good word. Why? Why didn't he know? Couldn't something have been done? You were find before he left, how did your condition worsen that quickly?

He won't know, because he won't ever hear your voice again.

AND YEAHHH i saw that leak too but. To be honest i don't really believe it, a bunch of story leaks have turned out to be trolls so tbh i don't really pay attention to them anymore, especially when they're so far into the future 😅 But my c6r1 Arlie savings are going strong right now! (400 wishes >:)

#smooches talks #🥝 anon #fragile reader <3 #capitano love notes <3 #ughhh i want dottore so bad :(( I LOVE HIM SM #I NEED HIM ON MY TEAMMM #but i hope you are doing well too anon! im sending even more hugs! 🫂 #and thank YOU for sticking around for so long! i greatly appreciate that 🥺❤️❤️

[anon1nn1t]

its ur birthday and george has a whole day planned 4 u... pronouns she/her, can it be rly fluffy and can it be smut

Omg anon I had the best time writing this, as you can tell. 😅 Yeah, I got very carried away … in all seriousness though, thanks for all the requests, guys !!

Feel free to send a request

George wasn’t good at expressing his emotions to you verbally, or to anyone for that matter, and you were fully aware of this. You never tried to force him to say "I love you back" or to shower you with compliments. But this didn’t mean he didn’t show his love for you in other ways, for example, through acts of service.

Today was your birthday, and George was beyond excited. It was the perfect opportunity for him to express his love for you through things other than words. He had started thinking of different ideas weeks before your actual birthday, so when your birthday actually came, he was more than prepared.

You woke up to a warm, calming smell. You yawned and rubbed your eyes; when you opened them, George was entering the room with a breakfast tray filled with different foods. "Look who’s finally awake. Good-morning birthday girl!" he said. He walked over to you and placed the tray on top of you, your mouth dramatically hanging open. "You did not," you said. " Oh, but I did," George said with a giggle. "George, this is so sweet, seriously, thank you. ", you said. "You’re welcome; now eat up!" he said.

He walked out, and you didn’t even know where to start. There were eggs, toast, sausage, pancakes, etc. And of course some orange juice on the side. You ate up all you could before deciding to throw on one of George’s t-shirts and some biker shorts. You opened the door to George, Sapnap, and Dream, all blowing party horns, your hands flying up to your ears. " Happy birthday Y/n! ," they all yelled simultaneously. "You guys are ridiculous," you laughed out. " Oh, but you haven’t even seen the rest!" Dream says before grabbing your hand to guide you downstairs. You go downstairs to a fully decorated house.

You couldn’t stop the tears that were forming in your eyes; your hands coming up to swat them away. "Why are you crying?" George asked sincerely. "I love you so much," you said with a laugh. He gave you a warm smile before saying, "I love you too." It was a rare moment between the two of you when he said, "I love you back," because you knew he didn’t really know how to say it to you.

A few hours later, you and George were cuddling on his bed when all of a sudden he got a text, and his face immediately lit up. "Watcha smiling at?" you asked curiously. "I want you to close your eyes and sit up," he said. You tilted your head a bit, eyebrows furrowed, but you did as told. "George?" you asked after a bit. "Open your eyes," he said. When you opened your eyes, you were in complete shock. " George, you are insane," you squealed out. He had bought you your dream dress. It was a puff-sleeve corset mini dress that you had been wanting since you laid your eyes on it, but you never actually planned on getting it. "Go try it on. We have somewhere to be," he said with a smirk.

When you two finally got in the car, you started to feel uneasy. "Georgeee, just tell me where we’re going," you said anxiously. "Just relax. It's nothing big," he assured. You nodded while biting your lip, trying to think of every possible place he could be taking you, when his right hand came to gently rest on your thigh. "Relax," he repeated. You calmed down, knowing you could trust him. However, it didn’t take you long to realize he was taking you to your favorite restaurant.

* About two and a half hours later *

You stumbled inside the house as soon as George unlocked the door and started to make your way to your bed. You were exhausted; you were surprised that he would’ve planned so much just for you. But once you reached the stairs, you stood completely still, jaw dropped, trying to fathom what you were seeing. There were two candles on every step, one on the left and one on the right. Additionally, each step had flower petals in the middle, creating a path.

George stood behind you, giggling at the way you were in complete and utter shock. You slowly walked up the steps, taking in the view, not realizing they were leading you straight to your room. You walked in to an even bigger surprise. The petals led straight to your bed, which was completely covered with gifts. Chocolates, balloons, stuffed animals—there was everything. You started crying for the second time tonight; you felt so loved. You turned around to run into your boyfriend’s arms, and without a thought, he wrapped his arms around you too. Usually he would be a little taken aback, not knowing what to do with his hands, but today he knew exactly what to do.

"Thank you. I love you so much. This is too much, really," you said with a sniffle. "It was no problem. After all, it’s your birthday," he said. "Speaking of which, we can’t have you crying on your birthday, now can we?" he asked while wiping away your tears. You shook your head no before furrowing your eyebrows in confusion. You looked up at him, your head slightly tilted, trying to think this through. "Wait, how did you set this up?" you asked. "I got Sapnap and Dream to do it while we were gone. They left a bit ago. It was still my idea though, and I wanted it to be a surprise," he explained. You leaned up to give him a kiss, which quickly turned heated.

His hands were all over you, heading down towards your thighs. He tapped them twice, a sign for you to jump up, so you did. You wrapped your legs around his waist and your arms around his neck, while he grabbed your ass for support. You never broke the kiss. He walked you over to the bed and sat you down so he could take all the gifts off. When he was done, he signaled for you to lay down, which you gladly did. He climbed on top of you, his mouth latching onto your neck and starting to leave wet, sloppy kisses. "Can I make you feel good, love? You gonna let me make you feel good?" he asked into your neck. You nodded rapidly, wanting him to do something. "Use your words, baby," he said. "Yes, George, please," you whined out. And at that, he started to take off the dress.

Once the dress was completely off, he had to stop for a second to just admire your body. You were so perfect, just for him. He smiled to himself before spreading your legs and giving your clit a gentle kiss. You whimpered at the feeling, his hands coming up to rub your sides. "Are you sure this is okay with you?" he asked for the final time. "I’m sure George; just please do something. I need you," you reassured. He moved his head between your thighs, licking your folds. You whined out in pleasure; his tongue now kitten-licking your clit. You cried out; his tongue was working wonders; you could already feel the knot forming in your stomach.

He pushed a finger into you, pumping in and out of your hole while he continued to lick your clit. You bucked your hips into his hand, and if it were any other day, George would’ve said, "Don’t do that" or "Be good," but for today, he let it slide. He added another finger, earning a particularly loud moan from you. He sped up his tongue, added a third finger, and curled them unexpectedly. It was all way too much, and you came on his tongue without warning.

He quickly cleaned you off with his tongue, rubbing your thighs gently before standing up. He let you catch your breath for a second before helping you stand up as well. You started to get down on your knees, but he swiftly took hold of your hand and lifted you back up. "What about you?" you asked, confused. "Don’t worry about me; today was about you," he said with a smile. You gave him a weak smile back, heading towards the closet. You threw on some jammies and did your nightly routine, with George by your side the entire time.

Once you were done, you headed towards the bed, lying down on your side. George climbed up next to you on his side, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you closer to him. "I hope you had a good birthday. I love you," he yawned out. "I had the best birthday ever, George. Thank you again for everything. I love you too," you said. He nodded while snuggling his head into the crook of your neck, a yawn now leaving you instead. "Goodnight," he said. "Goodnight," you said back.

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[my-castles-crumbling]

hi cas!

just looking for a bit of advice here.

okay so for some background, i came out to my friend almost a year ago (kind of sort of, i just told her i liked girls as a girl myself) we’re both in school btw. she was completely supportive of me and even defended me against anything remotely homophobic. she was really sweet and understanding and i felt super safe with her. she’s been one of my best friends since middle school and she’s always stuck with me.

recently though, things have been changing. she’s always been a little back and forth with me and our other friends, always choosing who to be nice to in our group that day, it was never all of us. but now, she’s been more cold to just me consistently, ignoring me in big groups, looking me up and down, getting ‘mad’ at me for every reason she can find. it’s just not great. but then out of the blue some days, she acts like im her best friend and she loves me and is so so kind to me. those are the days i feel safe with her again.

but that’s not what’s bothering me the most about her behavior recently. what is, is that she’s been using the f slur a lot, not often directed at people (though i assume its at me when she says “i hate *f slurs* when i do something she doesn’t like) i’ll oftentimes just brush it off and act like she was just making a joke that was actually funny with a little remark back to her. i don’t know if she’s actually homophobic, because she’s really close with some of my gay friends and doesn’t do this to them, also because of her support when i came out.

and i really don’t know what to do about it because i love her friendship when she wants to give it to me, but what she’s doing is starting to really hurt me. i’ve talked to my best friend (who is amazingly kind and has also experienced this friend’s fake side) about some of this but i just don’t think she’d understand how deeply this hurts me

anyway, didn’t mean to dump on you this much but i just hope you can help me find what to do next. thank you <33

(also if i end up sending another ask, which is pretty unlikely, you can just call me eternal sunshine anon <3)

Hi love!

So what your friend is doing is NOT okay. Using the f-slur in that way is absolutely homophobic and could be considered a crime depending on your location. Now, I'm not saying you should call the police or anything. There's obviously nuance with the word- some queer people have chosen to reclaim it, and there is a huge amount of ignorance with people outside of the community. However, your friend is deeply in the wrong.

I think the first thing I would push you to do, though, is talk to your friend. I know it can be intimidating to address conflict like this head-on, but it seems like you do care for this friend, so I think you should at least try to tell her that these and other actions make you upset and make you feel unsafe. Right now, there's the very small chance that she's unaware, so we don't know if she's hurting you on purpose. Her reaction will be a huge indicator of whether or not it's worth it to stay friends. An ignorant but well-meaning person might say, "oh my god, I had NO idea, I'll really work to do better!" and then actually do so. But if she doubles down or tells you you're being too sensitive, I would urge you to reconsider that friendship. A 'friend' who is willing to intentionally do something that hurts you isn't really a friend.

Remember too that even if someone doesn't understand WHY something is hurtful, a person who cares will still make an effort to feel comfortable. So even if she doesn't fully understand why you dislike some of her actions, as long as your requests are reasonable, she should still try to do better. (Asking her to not use a hateful slur is EXTREMELY reasonable.)

You have the right to set boundaries and ask for respect and if people don't like that, they aren't worth your energy or friendship.

I hope this helps! <3 <3 <3

#ask #asks #ask cas #eternal sunshine anon

[valriety]

I was wondering if maybe we could get the bachelor's (and bachelorettes' if you want) reactions to the reader coming out? GN pronouns are all good. Fluff would be preferred. :)

Thank you for taking the time to read this! I love your blog. :D

SDV: Bachelor Reactions To The Reader Coming Out HCs~!

Post Type: Fluff, SFW, Ambiguous Relationship. Characters: Sam, Elliot, Harvey, Alex, Shane, and Sebastian. GN Reader (You/Yours)

Anon I am so sorry for the wait!!! I hope this reaches you :D - they're a little short, but I made them extra fluffy just for u <3. Tried to make them ambiguous too, so lots of people can relate! I'll be posting the bachelorette version too eventually! I've actually already started hehe

'SDV: Bachelorette Reactions To The Reader Coming Out HCs~!' is in progress :)

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Sam:

Sam is literally so excited for you! He's extremely happy that you felt safe enough to tell him, and is immediately asking if he can pull you in for a hug *gives u a comforting squeeze*

If there's any changes in the way he should refer to you, you can count on this guy to be on it immediately. Doesn't mess up, and corrects anyone who does if you're cool with it too

If it's more about telling him about your sexuality, you can bet that he's all about that too. Will absolutely be your wingman, or lack thereof - if you prefer :)

Supports you if you want help coming out to anyone else as well! Very reassuring that everything will be alright, and he's totally happy to stand with you or hold your hand when you go ahead and do it too <3

The type to probably send u wholesome but chaotic lgbtq+ memes all the time lol

Elliot:

So proud of you. Truly. Elliot makes sure you've said everything you needed to say, before he lets you know just how happy he is to learn a little bit more about you <3. Elliot's love is unconditional, and he thinks you're lovely - no matter how you identify.

If your coming out is related to presentation: Elliot reiterates pronouns and referring terms with you immediately - he even makes an offer to trial names or pronouns with you if you're still unsure.

If it's about sexuality, he's super supportive, even recommending you literature with couples/individual characters that are just like you!

Asks if there's anything he can do to support you, and will do it, no matter what it is.

I reckon he's the type to gift cool shells he finds already, but now, he keeps an eye out for ones in your flag colours so he can make a little collection to give u :')

Harvey:

Another one that's super proud of you. Coming out is terrifying sometimes , so he completely understands if it was difficult telling him. Will give you a head pat if you'll let him!

If it's related to how you present, he makes sure to ask if you'd like his medical records at the clinic updated. Offers to discreetly inform Maru too, if that's something you'd like - though he wouldn't do anything without your permission :)

And if its related to your sexuality, he's very sweet there too!

Reassuring :'). If there's anything you need from him in terms of support - now or later - just know that he'll listen to you.

Harvey's a trinket collector, so he would absolutely pick up little things for you that remind him of you or your flags colours and gift them to you <3

Alex:

Honestly just thinks you're awesome - coming out takes a lot of courage - so he's happy he can be a good friend for you here. Gives you a high five!

Regardless of what you're coming out about - Alex is giving it the same supportive energy. Behind you all the way if you need help coming out to others, even if you just need someone to vent to - he's totally up for listening :)

If there's anything you're interested in concerning physique to look a certain way, Alex has a lot of experience with exercise and making workout plans - he can totally help you if you're interested!

Also there's no way in his friendship with Haley that he hasn't picked up on a few of her hobbies. This guy definitely offers to take you shopping - whether it be clothes, pride stuff, or even just a nice meal to celebrate! <3

Shane:

Shane doesn't normally like to cause a fuss, but there's no way he'd ever hide how happy he is for you when it comes to something like this.

If it's related to presentation, Shane is more than happy to start referring to you a certain way, or even help you start to try things out. Would actually be pretty keen to help you experiment with style if you were interested.

Makes sure to reassure you that this changes nothing with your friendship - you're a lovely friend, and he cares about you a lot honestly.

Understands that you might be a bit nervous after sharing something so big, so he offers to go on a walk with you, or to his chicken shed to just chill and talk :)

Sebastian:

Very supportive regardless of what you come out as. Probably would be so easy to come out to too - he's quiet, kind, and pretty receptive, so I could see him being able to ease your nerves very swiftly. Asks softly if you'd like a hug :)

If you come out about your presentation, Seb starts checking his language immediately - making sure to immediately practice any new names, terms, or pronouns you might have given him when he's alone in his room so that he never gets them wrong.

Offers to stand with you or help you come out to others - might even hold your hand if you ask! But goes above and beyond if you need help coming out to Sam or Abby - he knows them well after all, so he can be very reassuring.

If you happen to play Solarian Chronicles with him, Sebastian casually gifts you a set of themed dice (maybe in your flag colours, or even designed after your campaign character) <3

A/N: This was actually,, pretty cathartic. There's a few people in my life that I still need to come out to, so writing this was nice tbh :)

Lemme know if you enjoyed this! Again, I should be writing a bachelorette version soon - i want to write more regularly, so hopefully that'll be soon! ALSO, I tried to make these as inclusive as possible, but if you'd like to see something more specific - feel free to send a request! I'd be happy to write it for you!

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[sugoi-writes]

FUCK. I WROTE PART NINE AND HAD IT ALL READY TO GO AND THEN MY KID GOT HER HANDS ON MY PHONE AND CLOSED THE APP. THANK LUCIFER I HAD THE FIRST HALF SAVED AS A DRAFT BUT STILL. OTL sending this separate because I was paranoid she'd do it again and I would have to write the second part a third time 😭 also realizing I forgot to put my sig at the bottom of Pt.9

..... Annnnd of course, after pressing send I remember that I forgot to rewrite the part where reader chokes Alastor when they cum. just shoot me holy motherfucking shit

At some point I'mma just make these into a full blown PWP fic. It seems like they get longer with each installment 🤣 (I'm sorry btw, I always feel kinda bad whenever I leave long messages in anyone's inbox 😫

AYEEEE WELL YA KNOW WHAT THEY SAY - GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE!! 😘❤️‍🔥

It's a fitting pet name Hunny Pun! You're the queen of puns and you're so so SO sweet like a Honey Bun! is that icing or Alastor's jizz on you??? ... im so sorry i'll see myself out again 😭 CAN'T FIND AND KISS ME IF I FIND AND KISS YOU FIRST BABES~! ❤️❤️❤️

I can't hold on to my anonymity anymore guys so I'mma be making Pt.10 my reveal post~ it's killing me that I can't leave rabid fangirl messages on your works like you all do here for me! I really did wanna wait until I got the Smutmus Holy Trinity complete or at least in the revision stages but just- GAH! I NEED YALL TO KNOW HOW AMAZING I THINK YOU ARE. Beautiful beautiful minds, inside and out i can't even-!

Seriously though, I can't even begin to express how grateful and happy I am to have met any of you! And there are no words in the English dictionary (or any at all really) that I could use to describe what I feel about how accepting and supportive you've been! I could NEVER thank yall enough for helping me to find the joy in writing again. I love all three of you so much and I'm honored to call you friends!! 🥺🥰💋

- ☄️❤️ Smut Santa

False Alarm for the Next Part!! And honestly, thank God, the vibe is still not charged HAH--

Oh no!!! I'm so sorry that happened to you!! I had a similar experience when writing my part 2 to my Nun! Alastor fic. Fun fact: had to re-write it 5 times because I kept forgetting to save it. ;;_;; hhhh my baby fever is so bad I'm crying, but man, KIDS! What a little stinker 🥹❤️

Also, my ask box is usually super empty? Like, you could LICK the floor with how neat and empty it is? I LOVE messages? Even better if they long like Alastor's girthy fucking co--

We--We were- when we??? ALASTOR GETS--??? MY HANDS AROUND HIS???

*Danny.Exe has experienced an Error*

*Rebooting*

OKAY IM BACK--

☄️❤️Anon... babycakes. At this rate I'm gonna do more than fucking kiss you. I think we're past that now. And if you keep calling me 'Hunny Pun', or similar pet names, I'm just gonna jump your bones--

Hug you!!!! I meant hug you!!!

It's Alastor's jizz. It's canon-- NO DONT LEAVE I NEED TO KNOW HOW I GOT IT ON MY FAAAAAAACE

GUYS CODE TREAT, CODE TREAT, THE ANON VEIL IS DROPPING!!! ITS DROPPING DHDHDJDHDJ-- You will never gain a mutual as fast as you will then I SWEAR

☄️❤️!!! Smut Santaaaaa! 🥹😭❤️ Your mind is a beautiful, smutty, enchanting place!!! Knowing that you've been religiously cranking this out, while also having a kiddo... Seriously, how do you do it??? If anyone deserves the praise rn, 🎵it's you??? It's you, ITS ALWAYS YOU!!🎵 ❤️❤️❤️

Don't push yourself too hard! Please? ❤️ I will treasure these rare, scrumptious little treats for as long as I have brain cells left ❤️ I will call you friend until you tell me to quit or I lose my voice for good. And even then, my lips will keep moving and repeating the same thing until I'm blue in the face. ❤️❤️❤️ you are such a sweet, sweet, soul, and I can feel your vibes, and they are so wholesome! I can't wait to meet the person or sexual fiend behind it all! I feel like I speak for us all, and not just the main 3, but EVERYONE: everyone who has read your posts love you to bits. And they love your work to bits. Best believe when you publish your first work, we'll be there. En masse. And we will be EAGERLY returning the love you surprised us with.

Thank you for all that you do. On this post in particular, you deserve a foot rub, a forehead kiss, and a hug that lifts and spins you off your feet! 💗💗💗

Have a blissful, best of days you can have, dear! You deserve it! 💗

#gah now im all mushy #i need to watch Howl's Moving Castle again #I NEED IT #☄️❤️ i said i love you like a million times let me know if that makes you uncomfy please? hahah;;; #MWUAH #☄️❤️anon #sweet post #smutmus #danny rambles #danny speaks

[azirafuck]

Hello, I do not feel comfortable sending anon hate unfortunately but I do stand in sympathy with you and with your fingernails, and yeah Amazon had better renew good omens.

If I would send anon hate to anyone it would be Amazon. Not like the people who would actually end up reading it though, sadly. Like to Directors and above. Like with strong suggestions to use their massive impact on the world to maybe not be awful.

I totally agree with you about their bookshop, and I also love your blog! I am generally incapable of vocalizing online, but I appreciate your stream of thoughts. Good Omens is such fun to be obsessed with! (Usually)

As a distraction: what is your favorite historical shoe?

you're too sweet!! 🌸🌸 and yes, I love the idea of sending them letters, but I fear it won't do much. mailing poop to their offices might work, tho

i can't think of a favourite historical shoe unfortunately :C

but I'm gonna tell a little story about shoes

when I was around 6/7 years old, my dad came home one evening with a new pair of elegant shoes he had bought on his business trip. my mom was complimenting him on his taste (rare), and I was looking at those shiny black shoes like they were little treasures. and, I mean, I think they were pretty expensive, so they probably were.

I was in the mood for a little prank. so, the moment my parents left the room to go take dirty clothes out of my dad's baggage, I just... picked up the shoes and ran in the kitchen. I pulled a kitchen plinth hard enough to tear it out of its column, and hid the shoes under the kitchen cabinet. I pushed the kitchen plinth back into its original position.

I think my dad thought my mom had put away the shoes, and vice versa. no one questioned where they had gone. my plan was to just let the shoes stay there for a couple of days at best.

well, its safe to say I think I got distracted.

6ish years later me and my parents are talking about the renovations we were gonna do to the kitchen. they were talking about how we were gonna get rid of all the furniture and get new ones, and my mom said something like "I don't even want to think about the dust that has collected under these things"

and I had a flashback to that moment, 6 years prior, of me hiding my dad's shoes.

so I just walk to the cabinet and kneel in front of it. I forcefully pull the plinth towards me. "what are you doing?" parents ask. "don't look under there, there might be spiders!"

I pull out the pair of shoes all of us had completely forgot about. you can just imagine the confusion on my parents' faces. "where do these come from?" he asks. "you bought them 6 or 5 years ago, I just wanted to prank you but I forgot and you forgot too" i say.

they're deadass staring at me like

and then they're laughing, incredulous, and can't understand why or where or when but mostly WHY and in the end my dad says "oh well I did need a new pair of shoes"

they were in fact full of cobwebs tho

#sorry dear i got into the story hhhh #ask

[un-local]

7, 12, 26?

7. unpopular ship/s you like

Ah….. I have no sense whatsoever for popularity. Off the top of my head:

Fia/Rogier (Divorced) [Elden Ring]

Come on. The opposing motives, the falling out, the repression and release, the realization he’s being used. Not that he wasn’t trying to use her to some extent, probably.

Facade vs Facade. 10/10

Shinya Voss/ (informant) Spacefarer [Starfield]

HEAR ME OUT! Let me paint a picture here:

Shinya Voss: The Evil Space Pirate’s ultimate money man. A man who committed a gruesome act of loyalty, who submitted to having a bomb implanted in his chest to keep him in line. He’s integral to the faction’s success—therefore, he can never slip up. Never show doubt. Never give anyone the impression that he’s got second thoughts. It would be a death sentence if someone questioned his loyalty. 

So when you meet him, he has this demeanor of fierce, steely devotion. 

(How much of it is real? How much of it is a survival mechanism?)(How much of his initial agreement was coercion? Or was it true loyalty, secretly lost over the years?) (The game never tells us.)

And then there’s the player character: caught and arrested while stealing for what is ultimately supposed to be a just cause. But while in custody, the player is forced into the informant role. 

Mission: take these pirates down from the inside. 

A suicide mission, as far as everyone around you is concerned. And yet, the player quickly becomes the rising star of the faction. And then, its ultimate downfall. 

The HQ is surrounded by authorities, and it’s all gone to shit. You can talk to Shinya in this final mission. He starts all calm and cool, his villainous monologue ready to go, but then he drops the act. He begs you to get him out. Find the remote controls of the bomb in his chest, and disable it, before he’s used to send them all to hell. 

It’s somewhat implied that this is the first time he’s been honest in a long, long time. 

Both he and the player are made violent tools of greater, conflicting interests. I find that dynamic compelling. I like to imagine after getting the bomb disabled, as the rest of the base is being secured, the Spacefarer and he just. Slip through everyone’s fingers. They fuck off and drop off everyone’s radar entirely :)

BUT ANYWAY. 

What were we talking about again?

12. quotes you like?

Answered here! 

26. moment where you think the fandom did a character dirty

Nothing specific is coming to mind at the moment, so I’ll go broad. And….. Hah, you’re not going to like me for this, anon. No one’s gonna like me for this. Regardless: 

As your (un) local joyless fuck, for me, it’s gotta be anytime a character gets “smoll bean”-ified. You know, where:

“Character X…… he just. He cares so much????? He’s sweet???? He’s just a cinnamon roll actually???? Guys his nuance and unique situational experience has been flattened and generalized so I can relate to him and/or find him morally acceptable to like?????????🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰”

Like, sometimes…… a motherfucker just isn’t friend-shaped. You shouldn’t have to feel like you gotta reframe him as someone who is. Sometimes he’s jagged and angry and spiteful. Why sand those edges down? Sad!

Sorry. I know posts like that are probably from teenagers, so it really isn’t some great crime. I’m sure they fill everyone with warm, happy, wholesome emotions, or whatever. I don’t think there should be less of them, or that liking them makes you bad, etc etc etc, disclaimer disclaimer disclaimer. They’re just a part of the ecosystem. 

…They do drive me up the wall, though XD

Thanks for the ask anon! Sorry to keep you waiting! 💚

#Sorry everyone. I said what I said #I am not known for cultivating warm fuzzy feelings on this blog to be fair. If you want cozy you’re in the wrong place I’m afraid. #this is Wiremother territory lol #hare answers #hare posts #ask game

[septembersghost]

maybe a heavy question for a tuesday night but—how do you manage to be tender and soft and open-hearted without feeling bruised all the time? or, i guess, how do you cope with feeling bruised all the time, if that is how you feel? i feel lately like an exposed nerve, like i’m too vulnerable by half and everyone is pointing and laughing. i feel like i ought to have a thicker skin but i don’t necessarily want to lose the tenderness. i don’t know what to do, i guess.

oh darling anon. i'm sending so much love to you. there is never a wrong time for this kind of question. i don't know if there's a right answer.

so here's what i will tell you from my own experience, subjective though it may be - i have always been an overly sensitive soul, a little too soft and easily wounded, tender heart that's maybe too naively trusting and forgiving. i used to get told to "toughen up" by various people (excluding my mom), there were even (male) family members who'd tease me intentionally at gatherings to try and make me cry because they misguidedly thought that this would cause me to be stronger. and it just made me feel worse, because i felt like there was something too fragile and broken in me, that i'd never be good enough or resilient enough to matter. that somehow the softness was weakness or childishness. it's something i couldn't change. and even when it's a compliment, it can be sharp-edged - you're so sweet, but so quiet! the kindness being something you try for, but the quiet being fear.

many years ago, after i went through a specific traumatic experience, i turned on myself, drove those knives inward, but also briefly lashed out. it's the only time in my life that i reacted in an aggressive way from the wounds. there was a span of months where i was unrecognizably dark and cynical and bitter, numbed to the softer and brighter things i try to hold. (and i was angry, but i don't think anger automatically is a negative thing, it depends how you channel it.) i was also s****dal, and miring myself in such a dark headspace definitely didn't make that better. it was brutal, and when i started to surface on the other side, claw my way back through the thorns of it, i realized...hardening myself like that was worse. it made the whole world feel heavier, and meaner, and harder to find my bearings in, because it simply wasn't me. i fought bloody to get the true sense of myself back, and she is soft and silly and too sensitive and cries a lot, and it's okay. it's okay because it's true, and being true is the only way you don't sink under the worst waves. i strove not to ever lose that again.

(it's why i keep: be soft, and i want to still have a sharp pen and thin skin and an open heart, and you have to be wearing a suit of armor, but have a liquid heart and soul, close in my mind all the time. like little prayers, affirmations. we are allowed to be this way. to exist in our tenderness.)

i know it makes you feel bruised and delicate, and cut open to the ache of the world at times, and like a flayed nerve at times. i know those moments are exhausting and echo around in your head. the only thing i can say is that i also believe being open-hearted is a gift. you feel things deeply and it makes the world richer and more beautiful, it doesn't only give you the pain, it gives you the wonder and the joy too. it doesn't mean it's easy, on the contrary it often is not. to be tender is to be so human. having a great capacity for love is a mitzvah, a blessing. there is no one who is tender quite like you. no one has your heart. this universe needs all the kindness it can get. you are rare and essential. consider that softness like a living thing - if you put it in the dark, it will wither and fade away, but if you let it stay in the light, it will keep doing its very best to blossom and show all its colors. that's what you are, all shimmer and color. those who truly value you will see that and treasure it, but the most important thing is to keep it for you. it's not a weakness. it's a strength.

#anonymous #letterbox #ILY #bubble wrap around my heart #be soft #i've never been a natural; all i do is try try try

[unveiledshroud]

Hello I have a quick question and it’s not from a place of hate at all I’m new to kink and I saw you answer an anon about someone cutting themselves for you and you said it helps to find someone who self harms already. Does someone self harming do something for you? I’m assuming the person is self harming from a place of self hatred. If you do get off to the person cutting themselves out of self hatred do you feel guilt about it? I think i’m wording it harsher than I want but I can’t find any other way to word it I’m genuinely curious and mean no hate towards you at all I find you funny if I’m not to lie

I also have another question you seem to talk to a lot to people do they ever feel jealousy towards one another and do you get jealous when they talk to others?

-🕊

You're very sweet and i understand how you think you're being harsh but there's really no way to like talk about that without being harsh in a sense. But i didnt take any offense at all!! You did a great job at wording it and being clear you're not coming from a place of judgement. I am 1000% happy to answer any questions from anyone involving kink stuff or even personal stuff.

Okay so

Ive personally encouraged girls to stop s/h but at the end of the day theres nothing I can do bc a lot of times It becomes an addiction. So for me, i use it as a "if you have to do it, at least make it a pleasure source rather a way to release pain" if that makes sense?

The girl who cut my name into her, i dont think she actively S/H and if i remember correctly she doesnt. She just randomly asked what id do if she carved my name into her / or maybe i made a joke like prove youre obsessed by carving my name. I have a horrid memory lmfao.

I do feel bad though, when a girl cuts for me. But that bad feeling is kinda hot. Like that shame, knowing i just had a girl mutilate her body FOR ME. For my gratification. Its like the ultimate way of domination through long distance, if that makes sense? Lmfao

I personally wouldnt encourage it unless she felt sexually about it. If she's honestly manic, i refuse.

There was one time a girl said she really wanted to relapse just to cut for me and i begged her not to. I would never want someone to fall back into a bad habit just for a hot picture. She didnt do it, and we never looked back lol

On to the jealousy thing - i do talk to a lot of girls, 5 regularly, and 3 that are like id die for them. And then some girls i just chat with on occasion.

One of them gets VERY jealous but she hides it well. I always tell her she can express her emotions but she doesn't

One of them hasnt really made it clear, but she does know that she is #1 like at the end of the day id cut everything off for her

And the other one, shes a fuckin hoe just like me and probably doesnt even know i genuinely like her beyond like casually.

I do get jealous, very jealous, and it sucks, I've ruined relationships over it, but im learning to let it go. I know my value, they show me my value regularly, so theres nothing to really feel down about besides the idea of them just telling me what theyre telling other dudes lol.

Theres some fuckin creep who always sends "bestie" asks and it pisses me off every fucking time.

#cxa anon

[jungk0oksthighs]

Hi💜 so I’m a new writer that’s just starting out, I was wondering if you had any tips? Also I love your work sm💜💜

this is so sweet! thank u so much angel, writing is different for everybody but i'm happy to share some of my views and tricks etc! probably going to ramble a lot so i'll add a read more tab ~

every fic needs a beginning middle n an end, so i would plan these before you start writing it so you know where the story is heading and have a clear guideline of what you need to follow

make notes of random plot / sub-plot points you want to include and keep referring to the list when you're writing! this is really helpful for me

not every character needs a trauma or a problematic opinion, tension is great in fics i 100% agree but it needs to be relevant to the overall story telling and shouldn't be random (especially with angst, writing arguments is great but make sure the characters will think back to the arguments be it to learn from it or for more tension further down the line etc)

don't get disheartened if somebody doesn't like something you've written - it happens to all of us / take negative feedback with a pinch of salt! feedback is feedback and it can be a wonderful tool to improve ur skills but don't get hung up on people's opinions too much

write what YOU want to write. as long as ur passionate about the characters / storylines etc the right demographic will find u eventually

TAGS TAGS TAGS TAG EVERYTHING ITS HOW PPL FIND UR WORK!!!

there are networks u can join too!!

don't overwork yourself. write however much you can when YOU want to!!

have fun with it. get creative. make worlds that leave readers wanting more! if u have a vision in your head for what you want to write stick with it and don't let anybody sway you into telling a different story!

don't fixate on notes / lack of feedback. it can be disheartening but i assure you a persons number of notes / followers do not directly influence their talent. some of the best writers on here have less than 500 followers and get barely any notes (which is sad, i agree :( but try not to let numbers affect how you feel about your work) also block hate anons because fuck them and their venom, not worth your time at all!

don't compare yourself to others. everybody starts somewhere!!!

write things you're passionate about, things you have experience in or things you want to spread awareness about

if you're going to be a ff writer even though readers *know* who you're writing about don't skip over their physical descriptions as they're still an important part of ff!

when it comes to plot planning try and think of niche or never seen before plots! we all love a good friends to lovers trope but make yours stand out. everybody is writing something similar these days in terms of tropes and au's so add a sprinkle of ***flavour*** to yours that makes it stand out and more memorable to readers

but MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!! remember that your blog is yours and you can do and you can write whatever you want to! the world is yours so show it what you've got. for me writing ff is a coping mechanism and also high-key a form of escapism, if you get stressed writing then don't force it honey. you should enjoy writing and if there's ever a point where you don't then you need to take a break. this is ur blog. these are ur fics. don't let anybody tell u any differently.

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!! I HOPE IVE KINDA HELPED SORRY JUST WENT ON A BIG RAMBLE LOL. IF U WANT MORE SPECIFIC ADVICE PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK IM ALWAYS HAPPY TO HELP!!!!

sending u so much love and positive energy cause i remember how nervous i was when i first started out!!! you've got this, show us what you're made of!!

[post-office-by-the-bay]

Dearest Covey,

Turns out we didn’t get the infection under control (imagine I’m doing the Debby Ryan right here) + cause of my sickle cell I don’t do great with infections but I’m good now (knock on wood) we think it’s because I had a sickle crisis but it’s over now so I dunno 🤷‍♀️ oh well I guess it means I missed my last english review before exam season 😭

I missed my friends party that I think I told you about but my boyfriend said he couldn’t make it either and came and stayed with me cause my dad had work and my older sister was out 🫶🫶 + he brought round his mum’s cooking and GOOD LORD that woman can cook I love her so much (even if I really shouldn’t be eating it 😟 don’t tell my dad or my doctor)

Plus I would like to put my little sister forward as the cutest eight year old ever. When I was home she would legit come into my room like 10 minutes after her bedtime and be ‘sneaky’ so she could talk to me and make sure I was ok and I don’t think I’ve ever cried more. She’s so cute anyway this has been a rant I’m pretty sure you don’t want to hear 😭

Anyway, i thought my couple days away from before was long but Jesus I’ve been gone for like just over a week? maybe 2? Probably about a week. Got loads of your work to catch up on and I will make sure to send a letter complimenting it all because I am SURE it is gonna be amazing (like usual) even though I do not have a scooby where I left off.

I can also vote that Elise and I aren’t the same person but cause she’s using another name I didn’t realise it was her until I sent the letter about having an illness twin and I was like 😨 Rory?? But yeah I’m using a side account so even if you do guess who I am in the anon guessing thing I’ll probably just sign off with my name cause that main blog is OLD and it won’t let me delete it all and it’s cringey as fuck so…

How’s your life been? Hope it’s been as chill as can be and I hope your trip was good! Hope no one else sent in a request and if they did I’m disappointed I missed it 🙁🙁 this is such a long letter but I had so much to catch you up on 🫶 

ALSO IM LOVING THE NEW BLOG??? ITS SO CUTESY AND I HOLD IT SO CLOSE TO MY HEART EVEN THOUGH THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IM SEEING IT AND ITS NOT EVEN MINE 🤭 HAPPY ONE THOUSAND AS WELL!!! YOU DESERVE IT SO MUCH MY LOVE 🫶🫶

Finally, loads and loads and lots and lots of love to make up for when I was gone,

🎞️ <3

(This is such a long letter I am so so so sorry Covey you do not need to read this all 😭 I did try and cut it down I swear)

my stunning film roll anon,

AHHH FIRSTY YOURE SO SWEET OH MY GOODNESS LUV YA POOKS

secondly, im so so sorry about all your medical issues!! I have no way to relate or even begin to understand what your going through but that must suck like legit balls lmao-

also, your little sister seems so so sweet!! I also wanted a sibling to take care of, to talk to, ya know, but my older sister was too busy being older for that. but we chillin now

lifes been chill, ya know how it be. (ive never been more stressed in my whole 18 years of life. monday save me. monday pls kill yourself. monday be OVER already good lord) (i have my ap test and my last band concert ever...MONDAY DIE)

LUV YA MORE HON!! HOPE YOUR HEALTH GOT BETTER IN THE DECADE IT TOOK ME TO RESPOND TO THIS!!

all my love,

covey 𐙚⊹ ࣪ ˖

#hey this is your captain speaking ₊✩‧｡⋆𐙚 𓆝 #third mate film roll anon ࿐༉༉

[urapocolypticcrush]

heyyy its me again! (anon! maybe one day i will tell u who i am…..)

i feel so happy! a cool girl on tumblr wants to answer my questions??? omg actually FREAKING out rn!

here are some questions!!

are u a theatre kid? if so have u been in any productions/musicals/shows/plays? which ones?

u said u liked art classes in ur intro?? i LOVE art, art is my soul and my whole being, art has been in my life forever (im talking about art as in painting/drawing, but also art as in music/theatre…. do u know what i mean? like art is EVERYTHING). what type of art r u into? do u draw or paint or sculpt? or something other extra cool?? can u tell me more about your art?

thanks so much for ur answers, u are making my day!

HEY ANON!!!!!! (i love this its like a lil mystery…)

STOP IM FREAKING OUT. you’re so sweet for saying im cool AAAAH. thank you for these questions i cant wait to answer!!!

im not a theatre kid sadly but i do music in school and i did drama when i was younger!! i was in my schools musical (as a chorus member not a main part lol) a couple years ago which was grease!! i love theatre and i really wish i was a theatre kid tbh

i love that you love art!!! i totally get you - i love both art like plays, music, theatre AND art as in drawing/painting/sculpting too!!!! (i love that you’re so into art i can definitely relate teehee)

for me, im into all types of art!! i draw and paint, and ive sculpted before but im not the best lol!! i love painting though!! watercolour or acrylic would probs be my favourite form of painting but i hope to get into oil painting one day!!! i love drawing too but mainly just sketches - i find it SO DIFFICULT to draw in detail… i also love embroidery even though im not the most skilled ever!! i really like felt pieces as well and theyre really fun to make!!

YOU are making MY day anon!!! thank you for all the asks youre so sweet :3 feel free to send anymore (or none if you dont want to!!!) and ill be happy to answer!! also feel free to tell me more about yourself in the asks, i loved hearing about how much you like art!!!!! we have so many common interests teehee

thanks again anon <33

#i answer asks #anon ask #AAAAAAH #love love love these

[1d1195]

I LOVE THE BURN! And you could spoil the entire plot and I would still EAT IT UP!

It is a bit ‘sad’ to look at it that way especially experiencing such intense emotions that are often not the best. I would not wish it upon anyone even on my worst days. But for me I guess in irl I don’t ever really feel that people see me for me so even if its through here it feels nice to know i'm not weird lol 

OMG TWIN FLAME VIBES 😭 That’s so true 😭and it’s so sweet to think of it that way! It honestly feels like we were meant to meet again in this lifetime 💗

There will always be people who will critique everything that you do/post. No matter if it’s your best or worst. But I really do believe you have good judgment when it comes to these things. It’s so sad to see people just leave mean feedback to you and other writers on here. The majority of the time no one is doing any harm with their posts, so I have no idea why people have so much entitlement to those things. Like Dryer Sheets was SUCH A GOOD STORY! I suffered so much(in a GOOD way) with them because their characters and situations were so complex! But I loved it so much!! But watching it update in real time felt so frustrating as a reader only because OF OTHER READERS WHO WERE NOT GIVING IT A CHANCE! I think at that time I probably wrote my longest ask solely because I was defending Harry and the MC lol I'm so sad you are dreading your update for them :(  I personally would LOVE to see what you have for them in separate little updates just so you can have freedom of exploring their relationship/dynamic! Like there was so much more to be explored! BUT I do understand why you would want to cram everything because I could not imagine just seeing those types of anons coming your way. It hurts no matter how long you've been doing this. Either way, whatever you see best, I AM HERE FOR IT!

Also, YOU DON'T SOUND CONCEITED! You are so sweet and I'm glad that you are aware of it!  

Now the new Dolcezza extra BESTIE?! WTF THAT WAS SO GOOD! I AM SCREAMING THE SUSPENSE WAS TOO GOOD! I was so immersed it felt like I was watching a scene from a movie unfold! I loved how the beginning was set up with them trying to figure out and put everything together! When i tell you every time he called her "honey" I WANTED TO VOM! But my girl is so smart, of course she came up with the "date" idea! But reading Harry go to the other tables and telling them to not let her leave with him 😭 PAIN but it was the good kind! I really LOVE when you write suspense/action scenes! You do this type of drama so well, like I was scared for her even though I already know she will in the end be safe! This was so good bestie!

Sending you the best vibes! Hope you are treating yourself well! love you lots!-💜

YOU'RE DEF NOT WEIRD (or if you are, I am too and I'm pretty comfy about that so don't worry)

😭 I loved writing Love and Dryer Sheets. It was so different than every other story I've written and I agree, it was one of my most complex couples. I'm sad I don't love it that much anymore. It just felt like something I had to finish by the end. I have a couple cute things lined up for them (I don't think I could do anymore angst with them, they've both suffered enough hahaha). I'll definitely consider not cramming everything together 😊

I'm so glad you liked it! 💕 It's so nice of you to say that I do drama/suspense well because I think I struggle with it (thinking of how stressed I was writing Protection Part 8-10). However, I'm not the one reading it for the first time, I guess? That sounds dumb of me. But to me, it's just like words on my screen that I've written, it came from my brain. I don't see it as suspenseful if that makes sense because I processed it already I guess? 😂 BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I'm glad it came out well, I do really like this version as well (although I think it kind of rushed toward the end to get back in her apartment so it would line up with the remainder of the story but whatever, that's not why I wrote it! 🤭)

Hope you have a fun weekend planned, bestie!

xoxo

#💜

[seangelfish]

its like really hard to explain the whole british not british thing it genuinely depends on who you ask over here 😭😭

omg… maybe one day the anon will disappear and i can send the pictures 🙏🙏 one day….. BUT ALSO YEAH I GUESS FOR LIKE SAFETY REASONS AND STUFF IS WHY THE CANT

ive always thought about using buyee but ive just never actually tried it AHHHH SINCE YOU 🤨🫵 ARE A SEASONED PROFESSIONAL TELL ME… is it good ? cause i know the packages get sent to the warehouse and then sent out from there but im still just so hesitant on using it since i dont know a lot about it 😭😭 AHHH BUT I DID LOOK AT THE 2WINK AND KNIGHTS MERCH AND ITS SURPRISINGLY CHEAP… i knew 2wink would be cause theres not a lot of fans compared to other units but knights really surprised me since its so popular ???

its so cute that you took english lit for a levels oh my god 😭😭 i loved my english teacher we were doing like creative writing and she said i could write really good books for like teens AHHHH love her forever 🫶🫶🫶🫶

YEAH THE PARALIVE SONGS OUUHHHHH AUGHHH i heard them a long while ago and thats what got me into it in the first place but i just never really interacted with the fandom much AHHHH… but now,, NOW I MIGHT 🫵🫵🫵🤭🤭

HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!

-ainon ᡣ𐭩

That’s so weird. I have a feeling you’re like from Scotland or Wales now idk 😭

Yes!! I love using Buyee! There’s a lot of benefits, but that’s like with other proxies too. I’m just really used to this one. But yes, you’re right, it gets sent to the warehouse and they package all your items up and then send to you! Also, if you’re a new member, you get free shipping for 2,000 yen off!

Ikr when I saw Knights prices, I was kinda shocked 😭 but some Ritsu merch is so expensive compared to Leo merch. If you ever need help though, you can message me 😋

That’s so sweet!! I also have good experiences with my English teacher too 🥹 He graded my (personal) horror story and gave me full marks HAHA I miss GCSE English 😭

Ngl, I haven’t interacted too much with the fandom 😭 but that’s only bc I’m kinda a wuss. Enstarries are just so much easier to befriend LMAO but yes, you should properly get into it!! <3

Have a good evening, ainon!! 💖

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