#keeping their tags alive one day at a time

[fanaticsnail]

He's in love with you

Masterlist here

Word Count: 1,500+

Synopsis: Benn Beckman can no longer ignore the way he feels about you, and it's eating him alive.

Themes: Benn Beckman x reader, unrequited (requitted) love, idiots in love, teasing, kissing, sfw, fluff, comfort, confessions of love.

Notes: @tiredemomama said she was having a bad time recently, and her love for Becks was one of the things that's keeping her chin up. I thought it'd be nice to reassure you that your fictional hazubando loves you too - so I wrote a little something for you. I hope you don't mind, honey!

Tag List: @mfreedomstuff @daydreamer-in-training @gingernut1314 @i-am-vita @indydonuts @feral-artistry @since-im-already-here @sordidmusings @writingmysanity

Benn Beckman, the second in command to Red-Haired Shanks, is stoic and abrasive most of the time. He keeps his emotions hidden beneath his cool exterior to not give himself up to the pool of emotion swirling within the chasms of his chest. While his grimace never leaves his face, there truly is no hiding how he feels about you. 

This gunslinging vice-captain is in love with you. Desperately in love with you.

Always observing from afar, his gaze floats over the margins of the newspaper in his hands. Raking his eyes subtly enough to not draw attention to himself, he wordlessly dotes on you from his position on the deck with his eyes soft and filled with love and devotion. This first mate is absolutely smitten with you, and he hopes his affections are hidden enough to escape notice. 

It has not, however, escaped the attention of the Yonko captain you both serve under. Oh, absolutely not. 

Shanks clocked that development before he thought Beckman, himself, knew what was growing in his heart. His observation and affections for both you, and his competent first mate, had him positively itching to meddle in the growing affection between you. But he decided to ‘be good,’ and watch the sparks ignite the gunpowder to set ablaze the fireworks show. 

It started with little things: Beckman trailing your form when you sauntered into town, throwing himself between you and harms way when engaged in combat, offering to watch your drink for you when you went to bars and taverns. Then it developed into something a little deeper. 

Beckman often wrote you little notes, slipping them to you subtly beneath the dining room table in front of the crew when he thinks nobody is watching. The notes would be anything from: ‘do you need anything from town today?’ or ‘you seem down, do you want to talk about it?’ He would only ever do this to ensure you were comfortable, not drawing attention to you if you didn't want to be seen. 

Then it got a little more obvious to the crew that he was smitten with you. He would escort you into rooms with his hand on the small of your back, holding open doors for you if you were wandering in beside him, offering to carry your equipment for you because ‘it's just easier that way.’

After a while, the crew all witnessed the obvious favoritism Beckman was gifting you with. The only person who was yet to catch on to his affections was the one person who mattered. 

You had absolutely no clue. Although not overly oblivious to the new attention the chainsmoker was giving you, you honestly mistook his friendliness for exactly that. 

Friendliness. 

You were good friends, close friends. The closest two friends could ever be. Picking out potential couplings in towns for one another was an often happenstance. Pretty men and women were often the topic of conversation, and you had always demonstrated your keen eye with your choices for him. That was until the day he refused them all. There was nobody he would rather spend his time with than you, and he needed to let you know as such.

He couldn't play this little game with you any longer. The heartache that came from neglecting his emotions for too long had him a little more furious and pent up than usual. Every member of the crew, including you, had noticed his attitude switch. You decide to do something about it, changing the roles and becoming the one in your friendship to check in with him first. 

Seeking him out after a day out in a rural town, he was leaning over the barricade on the pier and staring out into sea. His gray orbs were narrowed and focussed, and his cigarette hung limply from his lips. You apprehensively press your hand on his shoulder, breaking him away from his thoughts and turning to face you. 

His features soften briefly before they return back to his usual grimace. You expect him to shrug off your hand from his shoulder, but his body seems to lean into the gentle touch and hold you there for as long as you give him. Without words, you furrow your brows curiously at him and give his shoulder a gentle squeeze. 

Sighing into the touch, he closes his eyes and sizzles out the lessening end of the cigarette on the wooden barricade beside him. After thumbing the filter end into the hard surface, he turns back to you: your hand still pressed firmly on his shoulder. As you go to withdraw your hand from his shoulder, he immediately grips your wrist and hovers your retreating hand above his face. 

Slowly and apprehensively, he draws your wrist to his lips and presses them tenderly to the palm of your hand. His eyes search yours for any apprehension or hesitation to his small advance, and upon finding none, he lowers his lips to your wrist and places them over your rapidly beating pulse point. 

Your wide eyes go half-lidded the moment he presses his lips to your wrist, looking up at him with nothing but love and adoration. He mirrors your expression, his eyes falling glazed as he bares his eyes intensely into your own. 

“Is this why you’ve been acting like an asshole, big guy?” you ask him with a knowing smile growing on your lips. He chuckles down at you while blinking slowly. Leaning his forehead down, he presses it against your own while circling your captured wrist around his neck. 

“‘M not actin’ like an asshole, Darlin’,” his smooth baritone gently informed you with a soft hint of mockery, “Just actin’ like a guy who knows what he wants, but doesn’t know what to do about it.” There were two reactions Beckman was expecting from you at this very moment. The first was you leaning in and pressing your lips against his. The other was for you to recoil and turn down his advances. 

He was not expecting you to taunt him with a gentle tease.

“Ooh,” you hum up at him, “Oh, you must really like me.” You scrunch your nose up and grin as you pull away from contact against his forehead, “You want to kiss me. You want to hold me. You want to claim me.” You giggled, lulling your head to the side and poking your tongue out at him. 

Beckman immediately puffed out his broad chest before stooping down and circling his arms around your waist. You squeaked in shock, eyes again growing wide as he lifted you into his arms. In reaction, you hooked your other arm around his neck and pressed your own chest into his. 

“Somethin’ wrong with all that, Darlin’?” he whispered huskily into your face, his lips hovering over yours while he tilted his face into yours, “You don’t want me to?” Your lips part in reaction, quivering gently as he continues to hover his face a whisper’s length away from you. 

“Kiss me,” you whisper into his lips, leaning your lips closer to his and waiting for him to close the distance. He pulled his face away with a mischievous grin, his eyes narrowed and looking down his nose at you.

“Ask me nicely,” he retorted cockily back at you. He was so close you could taste his withheld kiss. Wanting nothing more than all you mocked him with, you humbled yourself and did as he asked. 

“Kiss me please, Beckman,” you whispered, your eyes focussed entirely on his lips, “I want nothing more than you.” His grin dropped, his eyes darkened, and he immediately heeded your humble request.

A dance of lips and tongues pressed repressed and hidden emotion in a passionate embrace. His rumbled groan fled unbridled and breathily from his lips into yours, as your muffled whimper was claimed behind his mouth. It felt as if the waves of passion had swollen and spilled in a greedy and desperate kiss from your beloved first-mate. 

Turning your bodies, he sat you on the railing he was leaning against prior and slotted his hips between your thighs. Rotating your head and angling your chin, you could taste the lingering flavor of his last cigarette on his tongue as it brushed with yours. His stubble scratched at your cheeks as you felt him begin to smile against your lips. 

Raking his hands from your back over your thighs, he gripped the muscle and held you firmly in place before breaking his lips away from yours. Placing a few more soft and close-lipped kisses against your lips, he finally withdrew his face from yours. 

“Sorry ‘bout that,” he uttered breathily while shying his smile away from you, “‘S been a long time comin’. Didn’t wanna frighten you with the intensity too soon.” You collected his cheek with your hand and turned his eyes back to meet with yours. 

You offer him nothing more than your smile before leaning forward and pressing a soft kiss against his lips in response. 

Watching on from a distance, an exchange of Berry from Yassop, Roux and Limejuice appear in Shanks’ outstretched hand and toothy grin. Beckman had finally admitted his affections for you, and your beloved Captain could not be happier about it. Especially now that the largest wad of Berry from Hongo appeared in his hands.

“Drinks are on me, lads!” he called, turning around and laughing merrily as he reentered the tavern. Neither you nor Beckman heard the exchange, choosing to remain in each other's aura and enjoying the warmth growing in your chests with the sparks of new beginnings.

#one piece #x reader #benn beckman #moots mooting #beckman x reader #benn beckman x reader #one piece x reader #red-hair pirates #beckman #op beckman

[sword-day]

It's just us now.

DAREDEVIL 1x04 | In the Blood

#daredevil #daredeviledit #vladimir ranskahov #anatoly ranskahov #keeping their tags alive one day at a time #but if i may draw your attention to the agonizing way anatoly's moving here #and the even more painful look on his face #that is a man who was absolutely going to die if vladimir didn't get them out when he did #but even worse than the physical pain is the emotional pain of telling vladimir #anatoly can't even look him in the eye when he says it #hell he can't even actually say it outright either -- 'i'm going to die and you need to be ready' #everything about this scene is nightmare fuel but that just hurts #a sword day a red day #veles taxi

[redbootsindoriath]

Happy Hobbit Day! (I almost forgot and it's technically well into the 23rd where I am right now, but I haven't gone to bed yet since waking up on the 22nd, so we'll say it counts.)

I think if Boromir had survived he should be allowed special permissions to go into the Shire to see his friends in their native habitat after everything is over.

Transcription:

Shire border security guard: "Sir I don't think you can bring those out with you..."

#boromir #the man the myth the legends #one shiny #canon is great and all but what if #/end classification tags #just letting y'all know i'm alive also #i survived the move and stuff has been happening #i got a kitten to keep the calico company since she was getting lonely #i know i vanished for a while there but in fairness i've been gone for longer of periods of time before #anyway i didn't do much for hobbit day personally but i did go for a walk with my best friend and went shopping for food so #those are both hobbit-adjacent activities

[cleric4vampire]

There's something in this life left to live or, giving these two fools a soft moment because they deserve it. not gonna lie, I got a bit emotional when making this. I wrote something from Astarion's perspective to go along with it:

Once upon a time we pressed against an unyielding tree trunk, just like this. Once upon a time we hid ourselves in the obscuring night. Now, the moonlight paints your smile bright and boundless. We were not unwilling back then, though an ocean laid between us. I pressed my body atop yours and went somewhere else. How could I have known that you would follow me there? You were the one who was supposed to be under my thumb. I was the trickster moved by your silver song. You were the cradle that held me safe when all I wanted was to fall into the abyss. You were the gentle voice that beckoned, Open your eyes. See what could be if you loosened that white-knuckled grip you keep on your fear. Sometimes I find myself slipping into the old movements — a flutter of lashes, a dangerous smile — and then I remember. I remember that you were with me at my darkest and ugliest and most utterly heartbroken, and still you told me, It is an honor to witness you. It is a privilege to be by your side. And I let that ancient rhythm fall away. I was free to walk off that tired path, and now, everything is new. How will life surprise me when I allow myself to participate? I was struck with wonder to know that there are people in this world like you. Could you have ever guessed we would end up here, back when we were strangers on the hillside? I didn't have the strength to imagine it. Now, I find myself thinking: Where will we end up tomorrow? What wonders will we behold? There will be such love and such joy, and such hardship to balance it. But for the first time, I feel I am courageous enough to face it, because I am not alone anymore. I will be with you here, beneath this moonlight, beneath this canopy. And afterwards, I hope you will imagine with me all the life we have left to live.

#astarion x aune #my art #astarion x tav #tavstarion #bg3 fanart #oc: aune #astarion #bg3 tav #bg3 #the setting for those who care: this is post-game. these days aune mostly works as a ''solitary agent'' of eilistraee but she still needs #to check in with the church every once and a while. mission debriefings; rituals to run; that sort of thing. astarion tags along this time #of course aune just struts into the camp/settlement like hey yall long time no see. here's my vampire lover. everybody say hey astarion #as always they don't really know what to make of aune and her antics so they're just like “...okay...” #but astarion keeps to himself during the day on account of the sun. UNTIL night descends of course. which works out fine because #eilistraeeans really come alive during the night anyway. unfortunately for them aune and astarion are insufferable #constantly pawing at each other & being cloyingly sweet with one another. #flirting. teasing. talking and laughing loudly. eating each other's faces. just the worst. that's what's happening here 😌 #also aune is not a spawn but she purposefully doesn't heal the bite marks despite being a cleric — PURELY to antagonize any priestesses #who might not approve. ''cmon and say something to my face :)'' #also aune stays wearing tied up sheets of cloth lol listen. in her defense eilistraeeans are in varying states of undress at all times sooo

[arcaneyouth]

rapidly approaching my 21st birthday is hard and weird but not for any normal reasons thats for sure

#not a vent post im just rambling in the tags #theres 4 main factors at play here. #firstly theres Society n all that telling me 21 is a Special Biethday!!! you'll be old enough to legally do adult things!!! #secondly theres the fact that i love being alive and celebrating it this shit rules like fuck yes i get to keep living hell yes #thirdly theres the fact that i kinda dont actually care. like its chill. ive reached the point where a birthday is a cute lil tradition #i dont gotta go wild with it and dont feel the need to treat it differently than any other day #but also the 4th thing which is 21 is yet another age my doctors told me id never get to see so like this is A Big One #so this is actually hard as hell because fundamentally i dont care that much n dont have strong emotions BUT FUCK DUDE WHAT IF BIG CELEBRAT #constantly sitting here going hehe yayy its my birthday soon cant wait to hang out with my friends and then go back to normal life #while also going I NEED BIG PLANS I NEED HUGE PLANS I NEED A CELEBRATION OFF THE WALLS OH FUCK OH GOD #it doesnt stop being funny. i dont even know what kind of big thing id do anyways #mom said i couldnt go to moterey bay aquarium too much money and that was my only idea #ive been thinking about this for weeks and have come up with 0 other plans #'we gotta do a huge party' ok then come up with one then dumbass #oh noooo guess ill have a nice time at home just like any other day oh nooooo #guess my 21st birthday will be unspecial. darn. anyways

[mahvaladara]

"You are my happyness..."

I don't deserve them. I caused them so much pain. I was so selfish and in my obsession caused them so much suffering. I was disillusioned, and I selfishly hurt them, because I was a coward, because I was a monster.

I don't deserve them.

And yet, they forgave me, they love me, they care for me.

"I know the true you, I have seen the true you. You're not the monster you see, or the selfish coward you loath. You're not the lonely and scared boy in the dark, or the hopeless and sad teenager in the rain nor the broken and suffering man covered in blood."

"You're a beautiful soul, broken into pieces and still holding together trying to ammend it's mistakes, take responsibility for them. I see, the bright and curious spirit trying to learn and grow with the world around them. And I see the kind and caring lover, who will always value everything above himself."

"I see my love. You are my happiness."

I don't deserve them. I am so much trouble. Frail sickly and so much trouble.

But I am selfish... So very selfish that I want to believe that.

I want to be their happiness, and I will do everything to make ammends, to make them happy, even sacrifice myself for it.

You are my life. All of it.

#spoilers in the tags #vulnarable tol with strong smol is my life #arlo #fannar #arlo has a hard time coping with his feelings of guilt and there isn't one day he doesn't feel crushing guilt for all the pain he caused #but he loves fannar deeply #so much he'd rather sacrifice himself to make fannar happy #even live when he doesn't want to to make fannar happy #even try to be better to make fannar happy #he doesn't care about himself #just fannar #it's a work in progress #arlo is very psychologically damaged that's why he says he's so much trouble #he knows his mental state isn't the best and that keeping him functional is a lot of work #so sometimes his will to make fannar happy conflicts with his belief that he's a burden who's just weighing fannar down #and that he doesn't deserve him #it's complicated #it's #i will live to make you happy #but alive i am such a burden that i should unalive myself

[autism-swagger]

I'm having Stephanie Brown thoughts :(

#imagine getting kidnapped #you've been tortured for days #and yeah you've never had the best relationship with Batman but surely he'll come right? #he'll save you this time #right? #(he doesn't come. no one does. nobody saves you so you have to save yourself.)) #(just like last time.) #(and you die. You die with no one at your side but the man who has treated you like the dirt on his shoe) #(and there's no memorial in the cave for you. nothing to keep your memory alive in the eyes of these heroes.) #(so yeah you're not really dead. but sometimes you feel like you bled out in the warehouse hanging from your wrists.) #(and no one ever even alludes to it again.) #('did they talk about me? I bet they didn't. everyone forgets.') #Steph tag #og fandom post tag

[risingsunresistance]

i know i dont speak for everyone here but i think you guys should maybe stop tagging older posts/art with "tw death" and other similar things. for me those are good memories and it's hard being CONSTANTLY bombarded with reminders of his passing when i'd rather be smiling at all the old content

if you genuinely cant stand to see ANY content with him in it, even when it isnt mentioning his passing at all, at that point you should just have his name blacklisted

#i'm half tempted to make all my old art non-rebloggable bc of this #i have a semi-popular dsmp post that keeps getting passed around #but everyone is tagging it about his death #stop!! he was alive when i made that!! i did not make that in his memory i made it for his life!!! #nothing about that post has to do with him being dead. but NOW it does bc you MADE it about his death #and im just one guy running this blog. it's hard having ppl talk about his death to me 50 times a day man #im just trying to stay positive and you're making it really difficult #chat

[hyaciiintho]

🌸｡*ﾟ+. THIS IS A TEST POST !! This is not an actual inbox call, I just wanted to test and see how the graphic would look posted to tumblr ;; ;; Might use this when doing inbox calls and then a copy/paste text body.

With that being said-- how do people feel about a "permanent" inbox call post? Just for my own reassurance so I don't feel like I'm bothering people but don't wanna like... constantly make a new inbox call post. Basically just a list of people commenting below a post, one that maybe specifies whether people prefer random IC interactions or want asks leaning more to IC questions/ooc headcanons stuff?

I know it's silly because if we're mutuals, we shouldn't be afraid to reach out to each other, BUT !! I also know some people do not like random asks, so... it would just be for the sake of... "You have permission to send random things whenever you feel like it" but of course it's not like I'm expecting you to answer things immediately after I send them either.

But yeah, just a thought! If it seems too silly I'll just keep making individual posts each time ♡ c':

#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ #Starting to think I'm gonna just be living off inbox calls I swear gdfshjk starting replies has just been so hard for me. But I mean. #C'est la vie. Es lo que es. One day I'll finally get myself to start and then steamroll through them like a boulder rolling downhill :'D #And y'all will get pelted with activity so hard it'll be OVER for y'all. But until then. I'm just gonna keep trying other things to like #keep interactions and activity flowing in other ways even if I'm stagnant in replies ;; ;; #I'LL DO THOSE MEME STUFF AND THREAD REPLIES SOON I PROMISE I JUST-- I'm going Through It™️ and trying to GET Through It™️ first gfdhjk #Life is just curb-stomping me in the face constantly and it's like “Gurl can I catch a break please????” But she says ✨No✨ each time fdsjkd #If anything those art memes will be done soon for sure. I'll just do them on my PC instead of my ipad dgfhsjk so they'll be... #... considerably better c': and maybe that'll make up for the long wait on... literally everything dfhskj #It's also been super hot and without AC I don't wanna turn on my PC or other electronics and like... :'D y'know #boil myself alive with all the heat pumping out of my tower and my screens radiating heat sdjhkdg #I RAMBLED IN TAGS AGAIN LEMME STFU AND GO BACK TO STARING AT MY LAPTOP SCREEN VACANTLY BYE HAVE A GOOD DAY Y'ALL

[spiderwebd]

my amazing mutual who reblogs everything at 4 am my time so i wake up to 99+ notifications :3

Hehehehehe yw <3 /silly

#That one time I got 99+ ACTIVITY notifications/lh #<- also not a bad thing keep em coming/silly #Also I LIED I'm answering asks BEFORE showering because I'm feeling EVIL!!! /silly #dawnleaf37 #Hello Tumblr mutual dawnleaf37 thank you for still being alive and my mutual I missed you muah/silly+p #Dude my teacher gave us 50 question assignments and another gave us 40 like what/lh #I spent most of the day trying to finish that skkfkglkd #Then reblogged right after #the grind never stops guys #this is what you guys followed em for right/j #Man I feel bad for my non phighting mutuals at this point I'm like half hoping they blocked the phighting! tag at this point KSNGJFMSLDKF #IT'S FUNNY I SWEAR GUYS I'M DOING IY BECAUSE IT'S FUNNY I'M SUPER NORMAL/j+silly #Like one of my friends once said (I'm sorry I don't remember who SOBS) #Illumina sends his best phighters to the phighting tag... /silly #Polkka posts #asks #okok shower time #UPDATE: WE FOUND THE F(R)IEND #IT WAS SUNNY #HI SUNNY

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :) #09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again? #probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring! #but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah) #11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it! #maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead... #1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

[trenchcrows]

I am a very repetitive person :((

#cawcaw motherfucker #watched the live model buses recording and nearly cried why am I like this #dont really remember it but I used to fall asleep to a 1d live show recording #and thinking about how cool it would be to see one of those live #and now I'm basically doing the same thing with lovejoy because I am a fool #no but seriously I desperately want to go to a live show of something one day #was gonna go see paramore or james marriot later this year but I had other stuff going on during the paramore one and never bought tickets #in time for the james marriot one #music songs #song: model buses (live from lollapalooza) by lovejoy #artist: paramore #artist: james marriot #artist: lovejoy #artist: 1 direction #<- gonna be honest never thought I'd tag that. #one day. ONE DAY. I will see lovejoy live. I will see a whole lotta artists I like live. this is whats keeping me alive rn guys. #I'm still sad over laika :(

[thetriggeredhappy]

time to refill the old queue! see you all in six to eight business days

#shut up me #genuinely though every time i restock my queue i get a bit brainweird about it #it’s a system of mine that i like to make At Least one comment in the tags because it’s easy and makes people happier generally speaking #but i’m starting to realize how much sway my approval has in the tf2 small fandom ecosystem and it’s officially Stressing Me Out #so i want to just say here on paper: i scrolled through the main tag for like an hour whilst at work. #if i don’t reblog your thing it means i probably didn’t see it! im trying to just cover what ground i can and keep my queue full #it used to be that i would scroll the tag down to the previous day like. basically every morning? but now im too busy + tag’s too alive #makes me sad that im potentially missing things but c’est la vie #christ this is a long tag rant. my apologies

[tvrningout-a]

you ever find a song that you can so perfectly imagine your character's happy ending to??? bc i found kaiya's and i'm not okaY

#it's called remember not to forget by audiomachine and i'm AAAHHHHH #like imagine kaiya either after having become human again or not -- bc she's capable of being happy either way #it all comes down to her accepting and forgiving herself and finally taking the time to grieve her father and the life she lost #so imagine she works through all of that and she even works through losing sei despite being so close to him #that's her older brother figure okay ;;;; and she loses him in that final fight or after bc i haven't decided but it's what he wants #he wants to be with his family after living for so so long #and kaiya finds a bit of comfort in that #and so she's alive!! she's happy!! she's living as her loved ones wished her to!! and one day she sees this lil boy #and he looks an awful lot like sei :' ))))) and when his mom calls him he goes running back to a lady with a lil baby girl in her arms #AND LISTEN YOU HAVE TO HAVE READ ABOUT SEI TO KNOW THIS BUT HE HAD A LIL SISTER #SO BASICALLY KAIYA THINKS SHE SEES A REINCARNATED SEI GETTING A SECOND CHANCE TO BE A BIG BROTHER AND KEEP HIS LIL SISTER SAFE ;;;;;;;;;;;; #is that a lil cliché YEAH AND THAT'S HOW I LIKE IT BC IT MAKES MY HEART FEEL GOOD #anyway i'm here to write a lil bit after screaming my head off going through some mines in resident evil B) #get ready to ramble | ooc #if y'all actually take the time to read my long frikkin tags you really are the best and i appreciate you <3

[wonderfulxhappiness]

i get told "you choose what to do" and then get yelled at for choosing what to do

#vent in tags #and apparently the drive is /two and a half hours/ not one :) i'm going to fucking kill myself if my dad makes me drive that distance #i can barely handle driving 30min to see my mom! i'm not doing TWO AND A HALF FUCKING HOURS at 6 IN THE GODDAMN MORNING after waking up at #5am! i hate this fucking house #and i'm gonna struggle the entire day bc those assholes walk super fast and i struggle to keep up in the best of times #i'll get worked like a fucking dog and then yelled at for not being able to keep up #god what if i just drop out and run away to rural canada? #whatever. we made it work. i can't do anything right i guess :) #'oh you watched a webinar on the residence halls so it's fine' fuck off i want to know /what/ they look like PROPERLY #i hate being told to choose bc no matter what i choose it's fucking wrong. just tell me what to do ffs. #sigh. i hate being alive.

[crowsandmurder]

Repost of Jax’ Tags

because they’re being stupid

Jax ✖ (Aesthetics)

Jax ✖ You can’t sit in this chair without being a savage (Musings)

Jax  ✖ (Character Development)

Jax  ✖ (Crack)

Jax  ✖ (Headcanons)

Jax  ✖ (Photos)

V: Rebellion is the only thing that keeps you alive [Teen Jax]

V: The Prince Prospects [Jax as a Prospect],

V: All I ever wanted was a Harley and a Kutte [Pre-Show SAMCRO Jax]

V: Some days you’re the beamer, some days you’re the goddamned deer [Season 1]

V: I’m not the one out there murdering women! [Season 2]

V: It’s going to get a lot worse before it gets better [Season 3]

V: I know you killed my father [Season 4]

V: You can’t sit in this chair without being a savage [Season 5]

V: My self-hate is so deep, so palpable [Season 6]

V: I’m sorry that the family I was given has created so much chaos in the family I’ve chosen [Season 7]

V: The crow no longer speaks to me [Surviving AU]

V: Soar on my Wings [Canon Divergent AU]

V: He sees all my sins, He reads my soul [Time-jumps]

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